Thread: Bemistaken's Workbook

Way to go, Bemistaken! You really are on fire!

Date: 1/22/2015
Method: WILD and DEILD
Total Sleep Time: ???
Attempted TOTM: Fail

For the last two days, I have been living on pure adrenalin. I have had to travel out of state and have been on a total of four planes and drove 6 hours in just two days. Today, I was sleeping on and off...only getting up for something to drink or eat and back to bed. During my last nap today, I laid down and immediately as soon as my head hit the pillow I started feeling vibes. I thought I should take advantage of this, but I was just too exhausted and I didn't think anything would happen because I could hear my son talking in the next room. I was getting ready to get up and tell him to "shut the hell up because I'm still trying to sleep" but then I started 'tingling.' I was tingling so much that I thought this has to be a sign. I focused my attention on my third-eye just to see what would happen.After a couple of tries, I was out! I couldn't believe it because this was truly the first WILD where I can actually say there was no nodding in and out of consciousness while saying mantra, no gaps, no nothing...just one minute I talking to myself in the physical and the next minute I'm lucid. I don't know if this make sense, but this is the first time I actually 'seen' or 'felt' the WILD transition .

Once I was out, I couldn't see. I have been in the 'void' since the last three lucids and I refused to be in it again! I forgot about asking for clarity, but instead asked to see my Creator...nothing happened but a whole lot of flashes. I was in this moment of nothingness and found myself back in my body. I can say I am an expert at DEILDing my way back out (not bragging) after a good WILD, so that is exactly what I did. I came back out in the 'void' and something told me to open my eyes (if I have eyes) so that is what I did and I was able to see. I was in my bedroom, but my bedroom furniture was rearranged. My TV was on the opposite side of the room and I had this weird looking antique dresser in the corner. The funny thing is when I was looking at my television, I saw a big picture of me...like I was on the news or something .

I knew I was going to run out of Lucy so I saw some matches on that weird antique dresser I don't have in real life. I thought about the fireworks TOTM and I tried to turn the matches into fireworks (this should have at least created fire being that they were matches, but of course nothing happened). As I was thinking how horrible I am at creating something or summoning, I started being sucked backwards by some kind of force or suction but I couldn't see what or who it was. This has only happened once before, so I was not surprised by it. However, your mind does start to play tricks on you and I just wanted to know why am I always going backwards ??? I started to resist and ended back in my body.

Of course, the third time is always a charm for me so I DEILD back out but Lucy was weak as hell. I tried my best to concentrate to make anything appear but my focus was shot. I somehow was in both the physical and spiritual at the same time (I think) because I felt my body but I could see out of my bedroom window and I saw slides (like the kind at a water park). By now, Lucy was tired of playing around with me as if she was saying, "You're not ready or you need more practice" and she was gone

Notes to self:
1. Relax!
2. Practice focusing and stabilization techniques
3. Meditate...without rushing. Take meditation serious!
4. No anger or frustration...always, always, be thankful!

As always Lucy...humbled and grateful. One Love.

Wow, that's a great deal of travelling, bemistaken!

Luckily, some sleep schedule disruptions can be a secret blessing, especially for experienced lders like yourself. Well done!

I knew I was going to run out of Lucy so I saw some matches on that weird antique dresser I don't have in real life. I thought about the fireworks TOTM and I tried to turn the matches into fireworks (this should have at least created fire being that they were matches, but of course nothing happened). As I was thinking how horrible I am at creating something or summoning, I started being sucked backwards by some kind of force or suction but I couldn't see what or who it was. This has only happened once before, so I was not surprised by it. However, your mind does start to play tricks on you and I just wanted to know why am I always going backwards ??? I started to resist and ended back in my body.

Your summoning skills are fine, bemistaken! Do you think those matches just happened to be there by chance? Nope, you did it!

About the being sucked back thing, I've read something similar happened to Xanous a couple of times, so this might be some sort of a dream exit mechanism that sometimes we become aware of. He also gets a lot of vibes like you by the way. Also, I recall one case in which I spontaneously began swirling up and backwards in a circle till the dream faded and I found myself in bed. Very interesting stuff to say in the least. Let's keep an eye on this, maybe there is more to learn.

Your summoning skills are fine, bemistaken! Do you think those matches just happened to be there by chance? Nope, you did it!

I didn't know that??? Wow, that makes me look at summoning in a whole different light now! You have just given me the 'boost' I needed to believe in my summoning skills!

About the being sucked back thing, I've read something similar has happened to Xanous a couple of times, so this might be some sort of a dream exit mechanism that sometimes we become aware of. He also gets a lot of vibes like you by the way. Also, I recall one case in which I spontaneously began swirling up and backwards in a circle till the dream faded and I found myself in bed. Very intersting stuff to say in the least. Let's keep an eye on this, maybe there is more to learn.

Thanks NyxCC! I think the next time it happens, I going to let it take me to whereever it is trying to take me. The first time it happened I felt like I was being pulled backwards by a tornado...I was going up, up and away and I couldn't turn around to see what was going on. It HAS TO MEAN SOMETHING! Thanks for your wonderful advise!

Date: 1/25/2015
Method: MILD, Mantra
Total Sleep time: 8 hours

All I remember is something about a butterfly...yeah, that's it.

Date: 1/26/2015
Method: MILD, Mantra
Total Sleep time: 8 hours
WBTB Time: 15-20 minutes

I remember three fragments:

1. I was writing a letter to GOD and asking him when I will see him and/or what will it take to see him
2. I was riding in the car with with Beyonce and Solange (this should have been a dream sign for me...never ever will happen in my lifetime)
3. False awakening: I was writing in my dream journal about riding in the car with Beyonce and Solange...sigh
4.I was making coffee in my walk in closet and someone was trying to turn on the stereo (also in my closet) and we couldn't figure out how to turn it on.

I LUCID DREAM TONIGHT!!!

LOL to the FA of writing in dream journal, been there done that, sigh indeed.

Date: 1/27/2015
Method: WBTB MILD (fail)
Total Sleep Time: 7ish

Full dream remembered
I woke up to hearing some animal make a weird noise by my bedroom window. I looked at the window and found that it was a pit bull coming through the window screen. I ran to my husband screaming saying a pit bull is trying to come through our window and he went over to investigate. I ran out the bedroom and told him to come out of there before it gets through the window! I wanted to lock the pit bull in the bedroom so he couldn't hurt my kids. As my husband came running out of the bedroom, he stopped short and turned around and started laughing. I asked him what the hell is he laughing at and he stated those were not pit bulls but piglets. I looked behind him scared as hell only to see piglets...yes, piglets.

WBTB failed: 2 points
Full dream: 1 point

Total: 3 points

Date: 1/28/2015
Method: WBTB MILD (fail)
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 hours

Full dream remembered:
Went to church and needed to step back out of church to go to my car to get something. I saw huge peaches falling down from trees and wanted to go eat one. I picked one up off of the ground and decided to get more. I saw this lady looking out of her window from her home at me picking up peaches. I asked her if it was ok for me to get the peaches. She stated that I can only get the ones that fell on the ground. I told her that was what I was doing in the first place. After I got around 2 or 3 handfuls, she said she would go get me a bag to put them in. Her yard worker came to clean away the rotten peaches and he then stopped her and asked if she would mind filming a short video of him speaking. She hesitated, but said yes. The scene changed and all I remember is seeing the video the woman took. In the video, the yard person ended up killing the woman so I could pick all the peaches I wanted...creepy.

WBTB fail: 2 points
Full dream remembered: 1 point

Total: 3 points

Thank you to Frying Man's "2015 Year of the Breath".
Date: 1/28/2015
Sleep time: None, this all happened during meditation (MANTRA: "I am my breath")
WILD + DEILD (RC)!

Was going to take a nap, but instead decided to meditate instead using my breath as my anchor. I focused on my breath going through every pore of my body. I have been reading Frying Man's "2015 Year of the Breath" and I wanted to practice starting off small by focusing on my own breath. Also, had WILDing on my mind all day long, so intent was there. During my breath meditation, maybe 15 minutes in my mantra I began to feel vibes and concentrated on third eye and vibes became stronger and I was out in my bedroom. As soon as I ask for light, I heard my husband shouting in the next room at the TV (games was on) and it scared the sh#t out of me and I was back in my body. No problem, DEILD my way back out and did a quick RC of levitation...success. I was in the void and I tried to 'feel' my way around, but it began to collapse. I was back in my body and could hear every damn thing going on in the house so I just gave up. I was happy I got this far! I will try again tomorrow...GO STONES!

WILD: 10 points
DEILD: 5 points
RC (levitation successful) 1 points
TOTAL POINTS: 16

TOTAL POINTS FOR COMPETITION: 28 1/2 points.

Come on Lucy, give me more!

Date: 1/29/2015
Method: WBTB MILD (fail)
Total Sleep Time: 4 hours, not enough!

Full dream remembered Most Stupid Way Ever I Missed Becoming Lucid!

I was dreaming someone was trying to teach me how to fly when lucid. The dream was so real, I could feel the wind blowing in my face and this person would hold my hand and take me higher and higher in the sky. How can something you desire be so plainly in your face that you just don't get it? How could I not become lucid during this??? I even remember saying the word 'LUCID' and still didn't get lucid! How can that be???

For some reason, the dream started with me continuously falling back to the ground every time I took flight, so this person (don't know who she was) was flying like a bird in the sky and came down and took me by the hand and said she was going to show me how to fly...it was absolutely beautiful .

I WILL BE LUCID TONIGHT!

Dream remembered: 1 point
WBTB Fail: 2 points
Total 3 points

Total Points for Competition: 31 ½ points

Congrats on the wild + deild, bemistaken!

So was your meditation/nap in the middle of the day or just before bedtime? I suppose you did it lying on the bed, right? Sounds like a really cool experience. You're becoming a yogi!

Awesome flying dream too! Next time you'll be super lucid and able to practice some more.

Originally Posted by bemistaken

I was dreaming someone was trying to teach me how to fly when lucid. The dream was so real, I could feel the wind blowing in my face and this person would hold my hand and take me higher and higher in the sky. How can something you desire be so plainly in your face that you just don't get it? How could I not become lucid during this??? I even remember saying the word 'LUCID' and still didn't get lucid! How can that be???

For some reason, the dream started with me continuously falling back to the ground every time I took flight, so this person (don't know who she was) was flying like a bird in the sky and came down and took me by the hand and said she was going to show me how to fly...it was absolutely beautiful .
Total Points for Competition: 31 ½ points

Wow, bemistaken, talk about a close call! Lucid or no, that sounds like a fantastic dream.

That's great practice for your next flying LD. There are competition points for flying, aren't there? Your subconscious is training you! How cool is that?

Keep up the great work!

So was your meditation/nap in the middle of the day or just before bedtime? I suppose you did it lying on the bed, right? Sounds like a really cool experience. You're becoming a yogi!

Hi NyxCC,
My nap was during the end of the day. Normally I try to meditate right after work to decompress...around 6 or 7 pm. It really calms me down and I love it! Thanks!

Date: 2/15/2015
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total sleep time: 6- 6 ½ hours
Recall: Pretty good!

Short but vivid dream:
I was in our local grocery store buying groceries (broccoli to be exact) and I did not have my debit card. I really needed this broccoli for some reason and I needed to call home for someone to bring me my debit card but I didn't have a phone either. I recall packing up the broccoli and putting it in my car like I was going to steal it...because I really needed the broccoli .

Date: 2/16/2015
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total sleep time: not enough! 5 hours.
Recall: sucks.

Welp Lucy, I did not get much sleep last night and I had to wake up literally running because I almost over slept so I don't remember a damn thing about a really good dream I had. My goal is to not move my body when I wake up and try to see if I'm having a false awakening or if I can catch myself leaving and/or entering a dream. But when I woke up late this morning you can bet I bolted out the bed sprinting like the bed was on fire.

No worries though, (in my Barry White voice) I been thinking about you all day and what I'm going to do to you tonight! Oh baby, you are in for a treat...I'm going to do anything and everything to you so get ready baby...here I come !

Note: I all of a sudden remember having a dream about Pattie Labelle.

Date: 2/18/2015
Method: MILD & WBTB (along with ADA & RC/RRC)
Total sleep time: 6 ish hours...have not been sleeping at all!

I know you are right around the corner and I am ready for you Lucy! It's only a matter of time and I will be patiently waiting .

Date: 2/18/2015
Method: MILD & WBTB (along with ADA & RC/RRC)
Total sleep time: only 4hours, work schedule is chaotic at this time.

Dream
I colleague of mines sick in RL, she was in my dream from last night and she had just returned back to work. In RL she wears her hair short and platinum blonde but in the dream, her short hair was a jet black. She also is an older woman and in my dream she was very young...almost like a young teen-age girl.

Fragment
Something about my MAC Cosmetic powder puff being ripped to shreds.

Fragment
I dreamt that I was entering my classroom getting ready to lecture my students. I had my it into the class room right on the nose. In RL I am very strict on my students coming into my class late so they are heavily penalized for being late. In the dream as I was coming in the door and the students were all seated in their seats and one of them looked at the clock behind her on the wall and said, "Your late." I told her I was not late and that I was right on time. Class starts at 2:05pm and it was 2:05pm. In real life I tell my students if they are on time then that means they are late.

The strange thing about this fragment I had last night is that it actually happened today! Freaked the hell out of me. I went into my classroom at 2:05pm because I was trying to print something before class had started and I was having trouble with the printer. Upon entering the class (just like in the dream) a female student said, "Your late." I told her, "I am not late, I am right on time because class starts at 2:05pm and it is 2:05pm." I stopped dead in my tracks and thought to myself, "Is this a dream?" Of course I did a quick 'mental' reality check of levitation as I got ready to call the class roster....Damn! It wasn't a dream, but how cool is this!

^^ Whoa! This really is trippy!

Date: 2/19/2015
Method: MILD & WBTB (along with ADA & RC/RRC)
Total sleep time: Did not go to bed until 5:00am, woke up at 7:30am, then went back to bed after getting something to eat at 8:45am. Slept until 1:00pm (ish)

Had two really vivid dreams...

Dream
Getting ready to go to a party or dance and was looking at my hair in the mirror. For a quick second, I did stare at the mirror because my hair was in a very different hairstyle than I usually wear it, but I did not question it so I didn't get lucid. I noticed something was growing out of my ear and I pulled on it and it came out looking like a capsule (the shape of a suppository). Once I yanked it out (Warning: this is going to be gross so now is your chance to leave) I started to taste this gross fluid from my ear drain in my mouth and down my throat . I spit the gross thick fluid out of my mouth and into the sink. It was this yellow green sticky looking stuff just plastered on the sink...gross. I finish playing with my hair and headed to the dance/party like nothing happened.

Fagment
My husband was asking me what happened to some exercise weights I had and I told him they were in my gym bag. He was angry and told me not to move them out of our home gym.

Lucy, I am wondering how important the quality of meditation is to me when it comes to LDing. I have only put in a half effort in meditation and to be honest I just found out about meditation and its importance last year. However when I do meditate, I found in the past that I have more frequent LD's. Usually I will try to meditate for around 30 minutes at least 3 times a week. What I found is that this is just not enough for me. Even when I do meditate the quality of the meditation is not good at all. What I mean by this is that before I start my meditation session I can go all around the house and make an announcement telling everyone that I am going to meditate AND please do not disturb me AND please cut down on the noise AND please do this for me for just 30 minutes. My family will still go on talking at the same loud volume, I can hear the phone ring, I can hear someone getting something to eat because the microwave keeps going off, I can hear someone laughing hysterically, I can hear someone yelling at the game on TV, and so on...

So I questioned myself, "If I put in an effort to meditate at least 30 minutes a day without anyone being home or meditate when we are all asleep in the middle of the night (during my WBTB), what difference would that make in me having LD's and what would the quality of the LD's be?"

I have paid so much attention to ADA, RC, and RRC's that I have given meditation the short end of the stick. I really want to do an experiment and focus on the quality of my meditation sessions and see if this will have a positive effect on my LD's (on top of my ADA, RC, RRC's). So here is my game plan:

Experiment will start this weekend (February 21, 2015) and continue until March 31, 2015

1. Continue with ADA, RC, and RRC's
2. Continue documentation of dreams in dream journal
2. Meditation session at least for 30 minutes focusing on breath 5 out of 7 days a week.
3. Mediation session must be when there is no chance of being interrupted (i.e., no one home, or during the middle of the night when everyone is asleep like during a 3:00am or 4:00am WBTB)
4. Must get enough sleep! Must go to bed at a decent time and obtain at least 6 total hours of sleep time. If doing a WBTB, then sleep at least 4 hours before attempting a WBTB, meditate, then go back to bed.
5. Try to determine when I actually do start to dream and document this time (i.e., if I meditate after my WBTB around 4:00am, then I go back to bed, I should be waking up around the time a dream finishes...so I want to document this time for future reference).
6. Continue with regular healthy diet, exercise, and doctor prescribed medications (never have taken supplements).


Currently I may average 2-3 LD's a month but I have been known to hit a dry spell after coming off of a really good month, so this can vary. Also, the quality of my LD's are pretty weak (unstable, dark or total blackness, extremely short and fragment). I want to have good quality LD's (clarity, strength, vividness, length, etc.). My goal is really not in the number of LD's I may have but in the INCREASE IN QUALITY OF THE LD that I do have. With this experiment, it doesn't matter to me how I get the LD's (WILD, DEILD's, DILD, etc), my desire is to just maintain high quality LD's, no matter what the method is. In my meditation sessions, I will document the start time and end time, any problems I may have had, and any body symptoms I may have while meditating. I will pay special attention to all dreams whether lucid or non lucid and document all findings here in my workbook.

My lucid dreaming goals have always been to summon, time travel, telekinesis, astral project, teleport (again), and so on. This WILL NOT HAPPEN with unstable, shaky, fragmented lucid dreams.


I have never really done an experiment on myself but I am looking to improve in my lucidity instead of just hoping "I will lucid dream tonight!" Feel free to follow my progress (yes, I say progress because it can only get better from here) and please feel free to offer me any helpful advise! Time for me to get serious "I know I can...I know I can...I know I can"

I can't wait to hear how your experiment goes! The more lucid dreaming that I do, the more convinced I am that the relationship between them is very strong and intertwined. I think there's lots of overlap between the relevant skills so I'm looking forward to hearing how you do!

Any chance that you can move higher than 6 hours of sleep for the night! I have a very hard time getting lots of lucid dreams if I don't get up above 7. (And I benefit from even more!) But I'm just asking, because I miss this mark all the time unfortunately! Life sometimes makes these decisions for me.

And your 2:05 pm dream / waking life interconnect was crazy!

Love your plan, bemistaken!

One helpful tip I can give for those occasions when finding a quiet place/time to meditate is difficult is to block some of the noise with very relaxing background music/sounds. There are tracks you can listen to prior to purchasing to help decide which one would be the least distracting and at the same time you can use them to block other noises.

Apart from that, meditating when everybody is asleep sounds very tempting, so I am looking forward to seeing how that goes. I remember that even short pre bed dream yoga combined relaxation and focus exercises have coincided with lucidity in the morning, so there must be some benefits from all these exercises.

Wish you lots of awareness and inspiration!

Any chance that you can move higher than 6 hours of sleep for the night! I have a very hard time getting lots of lucid dreams if I don't get up above 7. (And I benefit from even more!) But I'm just asking, because I miss this mark all the time unfortunately! Life sometimes makes these decisions for me.

Hi CL! I'm going to try to get more than 6 hours of sleep...I can not remember the last time I slept that long on purpose (i.e., not sick or have exhaustion from traveling). I know adequate sleep is so vital when it comes to LDing...I am just going to have to practice setting a bedtime and sticking with it!

MEDITATION EXPERIMENT SESSION #1

DATE: 2/21/2015
MEDITATION START TIME: 4:15am
MEDITATION END TIME: 4:45am
MEDITATION TECHNIQUE: Breath Focus

SYMPTOMS WHILE MEDITATING:
Being that this was my first day of my experiment, I was really restless. Went to bed late (1:00am...I know! Its my first day and I will get better!) as usual because I had a lot going on. I got up around 4am (ish) and went to the bathroom, got a drink a water, etc. Then I laid back down and tried to get comfortable and it took at least 5-6 mins for me to stop moving because everything seemed to bother me. I kept thinking, "Why on Earth is my face so itchy? Why does my arm hurt and why is this pillow hurting my neck"...sigh .

RESULTS:
I did remember a very vivid dream regarding me helping a friend move. No matter how much stuff we tried to pack there would be twice as much stuff remaining. This should have been a dream sign for me. I woke up after this dream a little after 11:00am.

WHAT DID I LEARN/SELF EVALUATION/WHAT COULD BE DONE DIFFERENT: I believe I was just being extra sensitive to what I was doing. I have meditated before on several occasions but I guess before this experiment there was really 'no pressure' if you know what I mean. After awhile, I just had to chalk this meditation session up as a lost. I told myself the next time I meditate just do what I usually do...nothing. I am the only one putting pressure on myself and this does not go hand and hand with LDing. The purpose of meditation is for me to relax...and that means relax my mind, body, and spirit. There should absolutely be NO PRESSURE for anything to happen in meditation because if it is, there is no need to meditate!

Until the next time.