Thread: Bemistaken's Workbook

Date: 1/22/2015
Method: WILD and DEILD
Total Sleep Time: ???
Attempted TOTM: Fail

For the last two days, I have been living on pure adrenalin. I have had to travel out of state and have been on a total of four planes and drove 6 hours in just two days. Today, I was sleeping on and off...only getting up for something to drink or eat and back to bed. During my last nap today, I laid down and immediately as soon as my head hit the pillow I started feeling vibes. I thought I should take advantage of this, but I was just too exhausted and I didn't think anything would happen because I could hear my son talking in the next room. I was getting ready to get up and tell him to "shut the hell up because I'm still trying to sleep" but then I started 'tingling.' I was tingling so much that I thought this has to be a sign. I focused my attention on my third-eye just to see what would happen.After a couple of tries, I was out! I couldn't believe it because this was truly the first WILD where I can actually say there was no nodding in and out of consciousness while saying mantra, no gaps, no nothing...just one minute I talking to myself in the physical and the next minute I'm lucid. I don't know if this make sense, but this is the first time I actually 'seen' or 'felt' the WILD transition .

Once I was out, I couldn't see. I have been in the 'void' since the last three lucids and I refused to be in it again! I forgot about asking for clarity, but instead asked to see my Creator...nothing happened but a whole lot of flashes. I was in this moment of nothingness and found myself back in my body. I can say I am an expert at DEILDing my way back out (not bragging) after a good WILD, so that is exactly what I did. I came back out in the 'void' and something told me to open my eyes (if I have eyes) so that is what I did and I was able to see. I was in my bedroom, but my bedroom furniture was rearranged. My TV was on the opposite side of the room and I had this weird looking antique dresser in the corner. The funny thing is when I was looking at my television, I saw a big picture of me...like I was on the news or something .

I knew I was going to run out of Lucy so I saw some matches on that weird antique dresser I don't have in real life. I thought about the fireworks TOTM and I tried to turn the matches into fireworks (this should have at least created fire being that they were matches, but of course nothing happened). As I was thinking how horrible I am at creating something or summoning, I started being sucked backwards by some kind of force or suction but I couldn't see what or who it was. This has only happened once before, so I was not surprised by it. However, your mind does start to play tricks on you and I just wanted to know why am I always going backwards ??? I started to resist and ended back in my body.

Of course, the third time is always a charm for me so I DEILD back out but Lucy was weak as hell. I tried my best to concentrate to make anything appear but my focus was shot. I somehow was in both the physical and spiritual at the same time (I think) because I felt my body but I could see out of my bedroom window and I saw slides (like the kind at a water park). By now, Lucy was tired of playing around with me as if she was saying, "You're not ready or you need more practice" and she was gone

Notes to self:
1. Relax!
2. Practice focusing and stabilization techniques
3. Meditate...without rushing. Take meditation serious!
4. No anger or frustration...always, always, be thankful!

As always Lucy...humbled and grateful. One Love.