Okay. SO, I'm new here and I'm not really sure how this site works, but I just thought I'd try and get an answer I've been looking for for a while.
Even though I'm only 14, I've had sleep paralysis a lot. I know sleep paralysis is pretty common, but I have it probably more often than usual. During school when I'm stressed, I had it several times every night. It's summer now so I'm not as stressed, but recently I have been more stressed than usual. I knew I'd have sleep paralysis, but what I've been experiencing is not what normally happens :/.
I typed everything out on a note pad thingy on my laptop the morning after my second strange experience, so i thought I'd just put it in here so I don't have to type it again. Everything in parenthesis is what I've just added. Please excuse my bad language/grammar/spelling/sense of humor and sarcasm. And this will pretty much be a long LONG ramble of mine, so I'm warning you, you might get bored this is what i wrote:



OKAI. so, basically I'm just gonna explain my sleep paralysis/possible OBE experience so i can have it all down and wont forget any details. I'm kind of afraid the details will get fuzzy if i wait any longer (as would happen to a normal dream). sooo ya this is what happened:
I was extremely sleep deprived (i only had maybe 5 hours of sleep the night before which i know isn't that bad, but it still isn't healthy.) and i wanted to get to sleep as soon as possible. Its the summer so of course my body isn't adjusted to going to sleep earlier than maybe 2 am (hehe i know that's not a good thing). I have had maaaaany experiences with sleep paralysis and maybe even OBE or lucid dreaming, I'm not sure. So since I've had experience, i knew that sleeping on my back could make my chance of having sleep paralysis greater, which was definitely NOT what i wanted (i HATE having sleep paralysis because i cant help but feel terrified while having it and it makes it difficult to be calm enough to fall back asleep after waking from it.). I laid on my side, even though this is very uncomfortable to me. However, somehow i must have rolled on my back while i was dozing off. I was so deep in thought that i hadn't really noticed i did that. I felt my body relax and begin to numb at my feet and hands and work its way up. This is when i begin to panic because I'm aware that its happening, and quite frankly I'm not sure if its really normal. but i cant do anything really because i can't feel or move my body. I'm not sure when the heaviness on my chest really starts but I'm aware that i feel it and its difficult to breathe (really i feel a heaviness on my whole body but it feels heaviest on my chest). During all this i feel as if something is in the room, but i cant see it. (for some odd reason, i can see my room even tho im 90% sure my eyes are CLOSED). the fear of this thing i cant see elevates as more of my body numbs. I want to move or shout so bad but i can't. I'm not sure if the thing is getting closer but I'm definitely getting more and more scared as time passes by. all of a sudden my body jolts awake and shakes uncontrollably. I catch my breathe and try to calm down. (What i just explained is what normally happens during my SP. this is NOT the weird experience i talked about earlier)
Okay so obviously I've had this before so I'm not confused, yet I'm still scared as always. Eventually i calm down enough to fall into sleep paralysis AGAIN, but this time its a little different. I feel calmer as my body numbs and i don't feel a presence in the room. I felt as if i was going to start dreaming normally. But i realize that I'm having sleep paralysis as soon as i feel the heaviness. But this time i do not panic because i don't feel a presence in the room. I feel aware of my surroundings and i actually feel like I'm awake. i slowly sit up, get off my bed, and hover to my door (yes i do mean hover, it didn't feel like i was actually walking) and for a second i feel like maybe i am asleep and I'm sleep walking, but i quickly realize i wouldn't be aware of my surroundings if i were sleep walking. so i basically just hover out of my room (i left my door open) and make my way down the hall way and into the living room. as i do this i realize my surroundings are kinda blurred and a bit distorted. the lighting was a weird too. aaanyways, i was in my living room and i looked down at my couch to see my mum sleeping there. (she sleeps in the living room because my dad snores, which I'm sure you are TOTALLY interested in.) i try to wake her up by calling her name and shaking her (i cant remember if i could actually shake her, i just remember attempting to), but she never woke up. I remember staring at her for a while (yes i realize that's kind of creepy) and trying to find out if I'm actually awake. then the next thing i know I'm back in my body and just laying there thinking "what the hell was that??"
So I'm thinking this could have been an OBE or an extremely lucid dream. I don't know. all i know is it was relieving to have an experience that didn't completely terrify me. I actually recently had another abnormal experience where i pretty much got out of my bed and stared at my wall and thought for a little bit, "how the hell do i get back in my body??" and that's when i started freaking out because i didn't have a clue how to get back in my body (i don't know bout you, but to me, that's freaking scary!) but freaking out just made it end the same way most of my sleep paralysis ends, with me waking up shaking and in complete fear.
I kinda want it to happen again just so i can turn around and look at my body. Ive heard OBE stories were they can see their bodies, and I'm thinking maybe if i cant see my body i can rule out the OBE possibility and assume its a lucid dream. but at the same time i don't want it to happen because i face the chance of having to go through a scary sleep paralysis or maybe even not getting back in my body, which i'm completely and entirely scared of happening.
I know i should be able to control my fear when i have SP since i have it often and isn't unknown to me, but i just cant help it. Ive read websites that talk about how sleep paralysis can be caused by a demon trying to detach your soul from your body. I am definitely a skeptic to this idea because it sounds ridiculous to me, but part of me IS terrified that they COULD be right. Especially since i sense a presence in my room most of the time
But ya. that's basically all i have to say about my "experience". It was pretty much a long ramble. I feel like i just wrote a novel and i should be taking a minute to thank all my supporters haha... so anyways i feel better because i got it all down and i know i wont forget the small details I've been trying to trap inside my brain. i feel like i should be saying "THE END" but it really isn't the end because i can guarantee you it'll happen again so I'm just gonna say BYE and ill write more if i have another experience. as if any one really wants to read this...haha...

Yep. A long and almost meaningless ramble, but it explains the information that you need to answer my question. Does this sound like and out of body experience or a very lucid dream to you? i have a bad habit of talking to much so this must have been HORRIBLE to read, but if you made it this far, thanks for reading and please, if you can, answer my question.
~Maddy