Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I'm only describing my own experience with friendships. Shared interest and confirmation bias are not the same thing at all. Also, proximity is important to a friendship, not just in making a friend. It's very common for people to stop being friends after one moves away. The same applies when one person's life changes in some significant way- ie marriage, college, career, religion etc. Or even something like drinking or getting high - if one does it but the other doesn't it can throw up a barrier. Some friendships can survive these, some can't. It's very common when people pass form adolescence to adulthood that they become very different people and find it hard to remain friends. Personally I matured faster than a lot of my friends and got tired of them continuing to be childish assholes well into adulthood. I also quit getting high and most of my friends didn't. There's one of these guys I still talk to sometimes, but I wouldn't call it a friendship so much as dependency. he keeps coming around and acting like we're friends even though we don't really like each other at all anymore - I tolerate him until he becomes too asinine and then I make him leave.

A stray cat showed up on our porch just a bit ago... He was meowing at our cat through the door, but when we turned on the porch lights, he ran away. I bet he will be back, though.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Ok, forget that.

How old are you? By any chance were these school friends and you're out of school now? I know some school friends remain friends all their lives (usually if they live close to each other I think) but often friendships are contingent on convenience. In fact I once realized that a lot of my friends have last names that start with a letter the same as or very close to mine and I thought that was really weird - until I realized it was because we sat near each other in class.

Life changes often end friendships. Maybe they changed - maybe you did - maybe you both did. I recently connected with an old friend online after many years of no contact, and for a while we were sending emails every few days or so, but pretty soon it became apparent all we really had to talk about was the past, and that got pretty old pretty quick. If you don't currently have any shared interests it will be hard to maintain a friendship.

I meant from high school. Thanks for your comments. I realize people change....but it seems some people change unreasonably fast. It's frustrating. I was complaining about people that I know personally, not online. Although one person online could fit the rant well. Shared interests are a problem, I realize, but in my case....these people and I enjoyed similar things....it's just like, I was dumped off a cliff and as though I don't exist. It's a terrible feeling, for one example, when someone gives you so much attention and says you are a great person....to just, not caring anymore because something else fancies their eye or interest. You start to feel like the lowest piece of shit and I've had it happen too many times. I give up. Trying is just a waste of energy now. I'll let it just appear I guess.

Originally Posted by noslord

It's a terrible feeling, for one example, when someone gives you so much attention and says you are a great person....to just, not caring anymore because something else fancies their eye or interest. You start to feel like the lowest piece of shit and I've had it happen too many times. I give up. Trying is just a waste of energy now. I'll let it just appear I guess.

Heh.... tell me about it....
That exact thing fucked me up for quite a long time a couple of years ago.

stupid humans

Originally Posted by Dianeva

stupid humans

Relatively

Deery At least you know. As I've stated before, I still have dreams about my favorite cat and I no longer recall just how many years ago he ran away. And last night, I dreamed about some other pets who have disappeared over the years. Part of the reason is not truly knowing what became of them. I like that you've found some peace

everyone else.

I went to sleep yesterday at 3PM. I was just going to take a short nap before hanging up laundry. I slept until 8PM, spoke with my youngest daughter, fell back to sleep. I woke next at around 3AM. I stayed awake for maybe an hour then crashed again. Woke for the last time at 7:30
I sweat a ton in my sleep and I'm in dire need of a shower, but I'm more hungry than (?) vain isn't quite the right word I'm about to go to Walmart and get some goods, I'll eat, drink and then shower.

And yes, I CAN shower. The pipes froze but did not burst

I had a short lucid dream last night, but (as always) awareness tried to wake me completely so I let go of lucidity.

I took my youngest son to the Farm yesterday. Before that, we stopped at Goodwill so I could buy a couple pairs of pants for him. He REFUSED to try them on. He brought up my issues and I lashed out and told him he needs to see the shrink- not me, because he has some serious issues going on I apologized but used a "but" which diminished it "I'm sorry for being such a bitch BUT you could have at least TRIED to try them on."
THen he went on to say he CANNOT do some things like looking like an idiot or speaking to strangers etc. That lead to a good conversation. I become more and more certain that boy has Aspbergers (sp!!!)

As we spoke I started to cry, but didn't let him see. My baby is leaving and I'm never going to see him again. Seriously. He's going into independent living- most likely in the big city 3 hours away. I cannot afford to drive there. And as much as I love the boy, he's not quite right in the head. He's 17 years old but still dreams of being an international bounty hunter, of building a super computer, of doing all these outstanding things, but he can't even spell properly.... basically, his education sucks. He's slightly learning disabled.
We talked some more and he said he wants to learn all the different languages in order to find the FIRST language. I explained that's impossible. He said parents are supposed to be supportive I told him learning languages is something he could do, but it's simply impossible to learn the very first one. There's that BUT word again.

To make matters worse, he has the mindset of "I'm just going to start walking." Really? To where? No car, no education, no job experience. I told him to be careful while hitchhiking because men can be raped too.
He doesn't even remember his address.

Oh well, time to go to the store....

It pisses me off how people pathetically imitate originality as if they actually experienced or understood the source of it, and how unjustifiably spiteful they can be. I'm feeling a bit misanthropic right now lol.

Originally Posted by Wayfaerer

It pisses me off how people pathetically imitate originality as if they actually experienced or understood the source of it, and how unjustifiably spiteful they can be. I'm feeling a bit misanthropic right now lol.

Sometimes people are just the worst. (Although other times they are amazing, astounding, wonderful, amazstounderful!)

So I had this shelf in the corner of my room, and there were all sorts of pretty glass things on it. One was a swan filled with blue liquidy stuff. I went up to my room yesterday to find the shelf on the floor. Nothing broke except that swan, so everything in the corner of my room is covered in blue stuff. Thing is, that shelf was attatched to the brackets on the wall in a way that it couldn't have just fallen. You have to lift that thing up to get it off. So...

And there's a sqirrell or something inside my bedroom wall. It makes scritchy-scratchy noises all night.

I can't find my spiral necklace anywhere oh well, time for bed.

Redisreddish and Wayfaerer.
Red, maybe the squirrels thumping knocked the shelf?

I'm grumbling because I bought my BK usuals at around 7 last night. As always, I ate the sandwich and set the salad aside for later. I just now opened the bag and I found Ranch instead of Caesar (they were out of Honey Mustard) and NO croutons. GRRRRRR. I should have checked the bag.
Oh well, I've been using less and less dressing because of Reflux, so the Ranch shouldn't be too bad.

I also can't sleep. Those 16 or some-odd hours of sleep I got whenever the heck it was must be taking their toll. And later today I'm supposed to go out to lunch with my hubby and his daughter, PLUS crawl under the modular and work on getting heat to the pipes before the weather turns cold again.

Blah........

Realized I have been single for 6 years.

I've been single all 18 years of my life. Amen broski

Drank a lot tonight, fun event with l4d people. My parents saw me bringing wine in and made me sit down and have a 'talk' with them for like half an hour. fml

I've decided that I need to learn to play the violin, as no other instrument sounds as beautiful to me. It's an idea that's been lingering in my mind for months which for the first time today I've been considering seriously. I just don't know how I'm going to get an instructor because I feel too old to start learning an instrument. I'll have to though.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

I've been single all 18 years of my life. Amen broski

Heh.... basically 22 years for me, except for like a week or two lol

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I've decided that I need to learn to play the violin, as no other instrument sounds as beautiful to me. It's an idea that's been lingering in my mind for months which for the first time today I've been considering seriously. I just don't know how I'm going to get an instructor because I feel too old to start learning an instrument. I'll have to though.

Just get a crappy one from a discount place and learn some things from youtube first. That's what I'd do anyway. And I've considered learning it too. But will have to do that maybe in a few years I suppose. And remember it's most likely gonna sound like a cat getting raped by a horse for the first few weeks or months.

Originally Posted by tommo

Heh.... basically 22 years for me, except for like a week or two lol

I think that counts... I'm going to say yes or else I'll have been single for the whole of 19 years ... :/

Originally Posted by Auron

Realized I have been single for 6 years.

Reading this post made me realize the same thing, only 5 years in my case.

However, we rarely saw each other because she lived at the other side of the country.
Also she was cheating on me, so that doesn't count as a relationship.

Crap, now I just realized I've basically been single for 19 years.

I haven't even had anything close to a relationship. Or, you know, human contact. Ever.

Rant/Complaint:

I just woke up like a few minutes ago and my mouse ends up being on the floor rather than on the bed on my 30 day practice with the FIELD induction technique by IamCoder. I thought that freeing my hand from being taped to the mouse to record when I was going to drift off would be better, but it's only making things worse in me getting the hang of this anchor for a WILD.

But nooooooooooo, I just have to keep FUCKIOGN THINGS up by doing too much in such a short time. I need to remain consistent in my practice with this method, The first two days were okay, the third I day I just threw the mouse in rage.

Then I woke up 2:00 something AM, I remembered a few dreams, but I couldn't go back to fucking sleep to start the anchor. So I decide to go to the IRC chat (one word: Ro0flmfao0)

Finally slept around 4-5 am, I managed to hold on to the mouse for a good 60 minutes (at least I'm getting better at being patient), but after that, the data isn't picked up for the other 30 minutes because I was holding the mouse because I accidentally clicked the right mouse button outside the Lucid Scribe program after I let go of it before (which played the FIELD trigger to notify you did so). I should've made the screen bigger to prevent that

And now that I'm awake, I don't remember ANYTHING during the 3 hour nap I just took

I hate it when I fuck up on trials, I hate making stupid mistakes like that, I hate being too sporadic with trying new things when I should stick to ONE fucking run to get results. I feel like I'm a failure volunteering for this technique. But there's no use bitching now, I have to keep going until I can get lucid out of this technique (I mean that is my major reason being in this forum god damn it link you fucking dipshit)

My bad.

It's not you Coder, it's my incompetence to get things right. You are not to blame lol. I was interested in your technique, I apologize if the above seemed like it was directed to you.

You made it easy to set up the technique, I'm just the one not being a good tester. I'll get better, but I'm still annoyed at the smallest errors I did to fuck it up

But no Coder, it's not your bad, everything is cool. You aren't the one making me mad, it's myself.

Don't worry about it; perhaps it was the new anthem. Have a listen to these anthems, I hope they make you and the others in this thread feel a little better...

Must... resist.. urge... to snap in IRC.

Anyway, man, it's only like 7:45pm, but my biggest rant is that .net frameworks broke, AGAIN, on my new computer. I'm seriously started to get pissed off here with this computer.