You know, after trying to keep up with a dream journal, being used to certain dream signs, but still not being able to get as lucid as I want to, but still motivating myself to push on, there are just moments where I still screw up.
I just feel that even when I try to sleep for a certain amount of hours, have a somewhat decent sleep schedule, nothing is working out for me. I know there are people who spent years trying to master lucid dreaming only to get a few, but that doesn't mean I'm going to think that's the the prerequisite before I start having lucid dreams, sometimes I wonder if it's just the fact that people go on and off from lucid dreaming that makes it span over the years.
Things like experiencing unconditional love, releasing emotional attachment from waking life, finding your higher self, all of these to make yourself feel whole and loved, nourished, free....yes, they are just some of the factors that motivate me to still record my dreams.
But then pops the question, why would one want to seek these ambitions? A regular person would say that one should use lucid dreaming as much as possible before they die....but either way, if you do believe in the concept of Solipsism, without trying to abuse it to presume you're the only one experiencing real things, I just can't help but wonder if that really is the case.
Seeing people experience OBEs/AP/ whatever you want to call it, and still believe that once they're dead, they're dead, doesn't the idea that there is more to this life become apparent?
I mean....surely after trying to master lucid dreaming, and taking it up a level with OBE/AP has to convince one that there can still be life in actual death, but not the death that we define, something else....a type of awareness.
Excluding Ego death, which is a completely different phenomenon from actual death, if I'm right, doesn't it seem worthless to try and lucid dream, see glimpses in them that reveal that there's more possibilities out there? Or is this all just a simulation of our minds?
This pathetic planet, where every human being has to fulfill their ultimate goal of passing their genes for the future, surely one cannot think that seeing the potentials with lucid dreaming and beyond are only contained in a consciousness that apparently is deemed as mortal. Even through immortality, transcending immortality specifically, surely lucid dreaming isn't only useful for defying the laws and physics of this universe. Surely there is more to come, without trying to stuff religion into a person's throat. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs, but these preconceptions of life that temporarily suppress the urge to just kill ourselves is what really irritates me.
If we exist to essentially reproduce, pass on genes, and then die, what is the purpose in that when manipulating the rudiments of what establishes a human life is inevitable? What if the concept that babies coming from mother's wombs won't be the most logical and civilized manner for human life?
How will humanity deal with that then? Will these so-called civilized practices that have been engrained into the human mind change? What if we all just become body bags instead of actual living, breathing, organisms? To think that lucid dreaming is merely constrained by what you experienced in life, and your mind merely associating those experiences to make it seem like you're experiencing a new phenomenon.
But how...if one is really devoted to dreaming, they will eventually have to take into consideration of things like energy signatures, frequency, the possibility that we're essentially energy, but just creating ourselves as single entities for the luxury of some modicum of solace that we each have our own minds and universes. I honestly find it even more irritating to have to deal with this body of mine when I know that through dreaming, it's a completely different story.
And it's not the feeling of the infinite raw energy circulating in one's dream body, or even astral body if you're open to things beyond dreaming that bothers me, it's the fact that we wake up, as if it's our own pathetic way to remain humble from the extreme pleasures dreaming can provide to us. Is this really just our way to control our ID? To just live in this world where ideals, schemata, and confirmation bias with insecurities and jumping to conclusions about one person being this because they acted this way.
What if this world was condensed to a population of 100,000 people, would that make things better? Would that make humans cherish their lives as something important, rather than reaching the goal of making clones, making humans replaceable with another.........why have the luxury and the innate ability to dream and become aware of it with practice, when you believe that after all that effort, after all the enlightenment you've achieved, only to just be a water drop into the infinite pool of life.
Why go through all of these struggles, just for the sake of passing on your genes, when obviously the world doesn't require you to do so. A liability that jeopardizes the sanity of man as people continue to be born more than others are dying.
And to settle for petty and trivial qualms in this life....it's just hilarious to see that when one becomes cognizant of the potential of dreaming, to see that it isn't all just collective consciousness trying to convince you that this is some paranormal experience, it amazes me that people who are basically gurus on this kind of stuff still have doubt on things like shared dreaming and such.
Shared dreaming....the more I think about it, the more prone I am to believe that we're more than just entities with infinite raw energy that is locked in a finite container when we wake up. The similarities one can pick up when they've reached a decently strong bond with another shared dreaming partner, the things you find about a person, the things that they allow you to see in their mind....surely this isn't just the work of our minds going through its little storage from the supercomputer and cleverly anticipating what the other person is beyond mortal eyes.
Come on....one goes through all of this, only to doubt it even more as waking life becomes a thorn on their side, a necessary evil.......to be aware the the majority of people on this planet may never acknowledge lucid dreaming and beyond until a few hundreds, or even thousands of years have passed.
And what if there is some path for us who will all share the same fate of dying, how would that make us feel when the future may possibly be able to lucid dream quicker than we can now....how will that make one feel that they can condense the experiences that we worked hard for to obtain....
That's the thing that pisses me off the most with lucid dreaming......those who basically have the genetics, the associations linking towards a more efficient and "natural" way to enter the dreaming state and beyond.
It's like giving the person all the competence they need without working hard for it.
Things like aptitude/talent may never be an acceptable concept when things could possibly be implanted in advance. What is talent anymore? Being lucky with the gene pool can't be one of rudimentary examples forever....but no, what's the point in even collaborating with other sides of myself to try and find a logical belief system when it's going to be challenged again?
Sometimes seeing new things, new experiences, and adding on to what's already synthesized and engrained in our minds doesn't seem worth it anymore.
Even if you do reach the state where you can have OBEs/AP/Vivid WILDs to always sleep at night knowing you can have unconditional love, feeling free, releasing emotional attachments in waking life, what does that say about our capabilities beyond this life?
Should we allow some phenomenons to encroach our minds that could potentially distract us from our ultimate goal here of passing on our genes and memories to the future
The worse part of this is that sometimes, I just don't fucking care anymore.
Dreaming....lucid dreaming, having fun in your dreams......HAH....merely a child's story of sustaining the naivete that had to be stained from the realities of this universe....
Sometimes it makes me sick seeking out goals with dreaming, when it all must end eventually.....or does it?
It's always the if, the infinite possibilities, to believe there are infinite possibilities that pisses me off. And releasing yourself from this life isn't an option, because apparently, because of the fragile but only reliable belief of infinite possibilities, we may experience the same thing again if we don't live it out as much as we can....
Tell me, doesn't that prove that there's still doubt in our minds, whether or not we engage in religion?
Pffft.............all child's play sometimes.
/rant.
Good night
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