Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Stayed up too late watching Rhett and Link (3am).
I am officially gonna die.

Rant: I picked up a small bit of granola to try the other day and quite liked it. I had one bowl and was looking forward to having a bowl today when I got home from work. But... I can't find it? I get a lot of bagged stuff from the grocery store that I transfer to jars when I get home, but I know I didn't put the granola in a jar since there was only maybe 1-2 bowls worth left. So I'm guessing I accidentally grabbed the bag of granola along with all the empty bags. That, or I decided to put the granola in an incredibly stupid place, which at the time I probably figured was the perfect spot for it. Either way, I can't find it.

Rave: I like pumpkin beer now? I know I've tried it in the past on multiple occasions, and I know I was never found of it. I'm pretty sure I'm tried this very pumpkin beer as well. But this year, I like it. I also like beans now, whereas before I wouldn't touch them. Yay for changing taste buds, or something.


Edit: I almost forgot my other rant: Hitting your hand with a hammer doesn't feel good. I'll try to remember that next time.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Stayed up too late watching Rhett and Link (3am).
I am officially gonna die.

Yeah I know how you feel, those guys are amazing!

Feeling pretty terrible, the fact that anju left DV and hasn't even been on skype since leaving is hurting me somewhat

Just got back from a student workshop and I wasn't as retarded around people as I thought I'd be.

I might even go so far as to say that I seemed competent.

Fuck yeah.

Pumpkin BEER? :hurl: It doesn't help that I can't stand beer, period. I can't imagine it from pumpkins!
My tastes have changed too. I like chicken liver and despised it as a kid.

Grats, Gavin!

Owl. I feel some of your pain. I've been worried about her. Wish she hadn't left DV

No real rants or raves. I bought some more tea to try: green tea with lemongrass and spearmint. Right now though, I'm drinking my first soda of the day.

My thighs are still sore from weeding on Thursday. What the heck I wasn't even at it for very long! But it's a pleasant soreness now.

I'm unhappy about that Xei is not here any more, or for now, whatever the circumstances - I like him - very intelligent man, and a pleasure to have met. frown.gif

Originally Posted by oneiroer

Bah can't sleep. Too much on my mind. Been working on making music on my computer for a long while now. It's almost 5 in the morning here and I just want to dream but can't get to sleep. Maybe I need more coffee... I feel like a zombie...

Ah - but making music is worth a bit of zombification - as long as it isn't every night and you don't miss out on too much lucid inspiration! All good!

Moved in to my new place almost a month now. Love the place...gotta rave about it, however I still have heavy stuff on my patio and need to organize the garage better to fit those heavy things in the garage in the first place. The biggest problem is that I need help moving some of this stuff and eventhough I have asked for help from the strong guys in the household, it never seems to get even a start on being moved where I need it all moved too.

SHIP! Earthquake!damn I hate those.

Originally Posted by kadie

SHIP! Earthquake!damn I hate those.

oh damn! /me hates them too

stay safe

was just a little rattle, but enough to make me jump and heart start pounding. I guess Im just on edge because of the one in Napa.

I should be at the hospital right now, but I don't want to leave the house.

semi-lulz

Well, I joined the army yesterday, god I can't wait to actually start working there since this whole recruitment thing Is really stressing me out which hurts my LDing!!

Job might be opening on 2nd shift... same building I'm in, same 'job' but different department. I'm already cross-trained for the department and would like to go back to 2nd, but now I'm not sure. There are pros and cons for me with both 2nd and 3rd shift. The main con for 3rd shift is just that my sleep schedule sucks.

But the main con for going back to 2nd shift is the people. All the supervisors for the departments I'd cover are new since I was last there. I know most of them from previous jobs, and I'll just say I wouldn't have chosen any of them for the positions they're in. Granted I wouldn't work for them, just with them. So it's not a huge deal I guess. But then there's the guy that took my old 2nd shift position--he's an annoying know-it-all that I try to avoid at all costs. He's easy to avoid now, since we're not on the same shift. I'd be on the complete opposite side of the building, but I know he'd still come over to bother me.

Really, those are silly complaints. I guess I want to go back to a 2nd shift schedule, but I don't really want to leave my current work environment because I've finally started to really settle in and get comfortable with the people and the job itself. I actually really like 3rd shift when I'm at work; it's really just the sleep (or lack of) that bothers me. I need to make a pros/cons list, I think. I've got a week or so to decide, I think...

Bah! My period came 2 days early and with a vengeance. I woke up with severe gas cramps. I can't recall the last time I've had proper gas cramps (I usually feel it where my ribs meet but off to the side and I'll even have shooting pain along my shoulder).
What's funny is that I went to sleep wondering how it's possible that the backs of my thighs are still sore. Do I not exercise those muscles at all by walking? When I woke with the pain, I was amused because there was no more soreness in my thighs. Just a few hours of sleep and *poof*. Bodies are amazing things lol

Something else I've been wondering about again: I'm a fidget. If I'm sitting down and my legs are down, I constantly bounce my legs. When I go to bed, I jiggle my feet. If I'm having a long-winded conversation at God (prayer suggests reverence, but mine is like a one-sided conversation about my day and stuff), I'll jolt "awake" because "Ah, a zombie", or "ooh, what a pretty flower." Yet as far as I can tell, my foot never stopped jiggling.

1- are those images "dreams"? How can I just fall straight into a dream?
2- how can I keep moving?
My ex-hubby was a bit of a jerk. He always wanted a back massage and a sexual favor before sleeping. If I didn't, he'd pout and make me feel like crap, so I would no matter how tired I was. I did the same thing back then. I'd fall asleep (?) and start dreaming, but I'd never stop what I was doing. I just shrugged and told myself I switched to "auto-pilot".

My rant in all of this is: Is my medication going to start failing me? Am I going to start having these episodes when I'm wide awake and alert? It's just Celexa. But it's enough to keep the adrenaline surges and sleep sickness (?) away. I've been having no surges, so is this just something else? Is my sleep apnea getting worse and this is part of that? Or is it just the honey and tea I've starting drinking in abundance?

Right now it's just a curiosity, not a concern. I'll have to pay closer attention to my fatigue levels.

Sefalik, I wouldn't change shifts. But I hate confrontations and annoying people lol. I'd sacrifice a bit of sleep for the peace and familiarity of the shift I do like.

Gavin... hospital? Get there now if you need to go!!!

Grats on your new place, Kadie. Ship? Misspelling or did I not get something lol. Watch out for those quakes!

Thanks Zhaylin. Yeah, I put SHIP instead of a poopier word to keep things a little cleaner. lol Hope you get to feeling better and get those meds and sleep stuff straightened out.

I dont have a rant as of yet today, but that could change in an instant!

This seems like an appropriate place to say this.

HALLELUJAH! I'M DONE UPDATING THE COLOR CODE ON MY 300-0DD DJ ENTRIES! THIS CALLS FOR A CELEBRATION!

Please don't freak out when you read this, but I can't put it on Facebook because it's to rough for my son to see. I fucking hate being a mom. I can't work at my job without worrying about him when he forgets to call when he gets home after school. And he doesn't hear his phone when I call him 10 goddamn times and he doesn't think to look at his fucking phone? I just want him to hurry up and be 25 years old, 6'2", 225 pounds with a deep scary voice. I keep thinking about all the horrible things that may be happening to him when I can't find him for an hour. How the last thing he would do after being raped and before being decapitated would be crying for his mom who can't save him. I hate hate hate HATE being a mom. Those thoughts feel like a white hot boiling poison in my stomach, brain and heart. I would truly jump off a building if anything like that ever happened to him.

Ophelia I have thoughts like that every single time I close my eyes to go to sleep. My daughter, Zee, has been missing for some 2 months now. She's 17 and has a history with drugs, so I just imagine her being abused or killed or trafficed.
It does NOT get any easier as they get older- unless you are a very good parent and confident that you've done a perfect job teaching and preparing them. When you know they're mature and intelligent, you feel LESS stressed, but the anxiety is always there to one degree or another. Especially when you can't reach them.
How old is he? You could play some role reversal and come home later than usual and not pick up when he calls. When he asks where you were and why you didn't answer, ask him the same. If he seems distressed, all the better. Tell him to imagine feeling 100 times worse and explain that's how you feel.
Now if he's under 15, I wouldn't go that extreme route, but I'd try to find some way to get through to him if nagging and reasoning fail and it's a chronic problem.

Tonight, I'm buying 2 pizzas and a box of ramen. Miley and Ray are getting the pizza. Destinee and her guests can have Ramen. I've been nagging her for 3 days to pick up the trash and trashcan she knocked over. It has yet to be done. When she complains, I'm going to tell her "Sorry, I forgot. You really have to stay on top of me sometimes." (Her latest excuse for not picking it up).

Kadie, I figured it was something like that

Grats, JadeGreen! Sounds like quite the accomplishment!

My rave is that I picked up an e-cig at the mall today. I has a pass-through cord so I can vape and charge at the same time My rant in that is that I also bought spearmint juice and :hurl: I dumped the juice from it and filled it with my old standby but it still tastes of the spearmint. I'm also ranting because I bought the bigger battery and I can't exchange tanks with the ones I already have.
A rave is that I go that way every Wednesday, so I'll just pick up more tanks next week. I'll be getting my good flavors in the mail in a couple of days *WOOT!*

Another rave is that it looks like my oldest son, Ray, has a job I have to have him at Walmart tomorrow at 10AM

Another rant is that my fatigue level is through the roof today. I slept terribly last night, so that's likely the reason. Despite falling right to sleep and dreams, I tossed and turned, started my period, had cramps and bad dreams (of pooping on the floor of all things )
Hubby's sending me to the store later and I'm picking up the pizza and ramen then. I just want to go to bed though.

Lol he's almost 11, but I have to say I'm digging your role-reversal idea

I hope your daughter is ok. I'd catch 100,000 strokes if I couldn't find my son. Maybe she's just out there, discovering herself the hard way, then will be back home to you.

I feel like everything in my life is falling apart at once.

Spoiler for examples:

All I ever do is work, at a job I hate.
Yet I never have any money. I'm barely making it every single week.
And now my job is cutting my hours.

My truck could fall apart at any moment, and Ive had a headlight out since February.
I haven't had a phone in months.
Collections wants to take me to court for debt from 10 years ago.
Debt I never would have acquired had my parents not forced me to go to school.

They want money I don't have, and if they attempt to garnish my wages I'll most likely get fired. So that will make it tons easier to pay off the debt, right?

My Dad still has cancer, and is doing better thank goodness, but I rarely get to see or talk to him.
When I do see him I get so sad sometimes because all he ever does is sorry about my sister and me, when he should be focusing on getting well himself.

I recently had a birthday, but had to work and didn't get to see either of my folks, or even celebrate.

I don't even get to speak with the person I love anymore.
Never seeing him was hard enough, but not getting to talk with him ever is even worse.

And now the doctors are concerned and want to to have all these tests done that I can't pay for.

It's like,
My world has gotten so small and stressful to deal with that I honestly don't even want to get out of bed anymore.

I feel stuck.
In my tiny apartment, alone, in this shithole town.
Doing absolutely nothing but taking up space and wasting my life.

This is the part where I should be picking myself up by the bootstraps but instead I really just feel like throwing in the towel.

I get so angry and depressed sometimes that I feel physically ill.
The only relief comes in the brief moments when I am able to forget about reality.
But of course that never lasts long.

Come to think of it, I should have posted this in the Do You Need A Hug thread.
But I get hugs so infrequently anymore, I hardly remember what they even feel like.

Somehow through typing this though, I stopped crying.
So hey, that's a start.

I smoke, but decided to smoke the vaporzone pro electronic cig instead for a while. Maybe I'll actually quit.

Okay, random rant time. Yeah, so, there was this one instance that happened years ago on DVs. Still kinda in the back of mind.....

You see, there was this member who was a jerk to me. Post after post after post after post. Named called me, insulted me, post after post after post. Eventually, I got pissed off and blew up on him, posting on how he made ME feel.

He reads my post and claimed I called him sexist. But I didn't say that. That was his interpretation. His feelings were butthurt. Other members were also butthurt, because they someone imagined that me being upset like that was calling them all out as sexists. In fact, several of you were practically ganging up on me. Saying that I was hatefully anti-male.

Apparently, being brutally honest of how he was making ME feel is the same as calling him sexist. He's butthurt. I get punished. Even though I didn't call anyone sexist. Even though those were my legitimate feelings.

I get punished for hurting his feelings. No one cared that he hurt mine. No one cared that he was harassing me post after post. Even though at the time I had pointed out to forum mods of his name calling towards me - but the mod I spoke to at the time didn't see it as harassment. The mod practically suggested that his cruel words me were the truth.

Yeah I remember that time DVs.

I'm sorry for blowing up like that. But I am not sorry for whatever insinuation you got from reading my post.

That was a double standard that you pulled on me dreamviews. Wait, can I say that? I probably hurt someone's feelings again by being honest about how I feel.



But whatever, I think he's banned. (just wished you taken my case with him more seriously, thanks)




Have a good night.

Originally Posted by juroara

...Even though at the time I had pointed out to forum mods of his name calling towards me - but the mod I spoke to at the time didn't see it as harassment. The mod practically suggested that his cruel words me were the truth.

I would surely hope you would give us a second chance if anything like that happened now. You know, new staff and all : P

Rant: hrm, day started pretty fucked up

Rave: turned out to be not that bad, but escaped only by c*** hair