I just kissed a girl for the first time in my life!
Obviously, I kissed the co-worker I have a crush on, the same one I made out with in last nights lucid. I had been recently having thoughts of kissing her so I figured this is something I should do, just to get it over with and get the thoughts out of my head. I would be thinking about it for weeks otherwise.
So, here's how it went down. During our shift together I upped my energy level a bit and helped her out a lot, my way of getting her to like me more. Also, during the shift as we were playfully interacting with my female manager (who I used to have a crush on) they both referred to my crush and I as buddies (placing us firmly in the friend zone, right where I want. I have a crush on her but I don't want a romantic relationship with her. It wouldn't work out, we're too different). However, as I playfully lamented how to my female manager how I only had two shifts with her while my crush had 6, my crush said to me, "Don't worry, Shawn. I still love you". With all this in mind, a kiss seemed fairly low risk. I could live with the worst that could happen.
At the end of our shift where my crush initials my checkout to verify I did my side work I sometimes give her a good bye hug. Tonight, though, for the first time ever, she gave me the hug. Confident as ever, I added a kiss on her head while we were hugging. It was a hairy kiss, but I felt kissing her on the head would be practical and safe as she's a foot shorter than me. She got excited and immediately went in to the kitchen to tell everybody while I stayed out front. I could hear my manager say "Don't get jealous", probably to the male co-worker who my crush is dating. I ventured in the back by the office to wait for my manager so we could do our final checkout. The male co-worker was staring at me, giving me a stank eye, which made me feel a bit uncomfortable. Afterwards, however, we bit each other a nice night as usual while doing the fist knocking thing we do. Also, there was nothing unusual about how my crush and I bit each other a nice night. So, I think all is still normal and I made it through perfectly unscathed. Whew.
It was fun! I'm so glad I got the first one out of the way! A little courage and risk assessment is all it took.
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