Thread: 365 days w/o Jerking Off: A self control challenge

DAY 16(01/16/12): SUCCESS

DAY 17(01/17/12): SUCCESS

[Voice Recorder]
Hey, this is another report from weakamon. 17 days have passed and i'm still surviving. I've experienced a lot of tough challenges along the way. Some days are better than the other, but everything's clear: I'm far from success. Sometimes, I ask myself with stuff like "when will I stop" or "is this shit even worth it" or other stuff like that. But in the end, i always tell myself: "it won't be that much long, a few more months, and it's over".

I'm on to you Weakamon! It's clear there's only one way you could still be resisting the impulse..

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

I'm on to you Weakamon! It's clear there's only one way you could still be resisting the impulse..

Haha, thanks for the support, and no, a ain't wearin' any chastity belt

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DAY 18(01/18/12): SUCCESS


UPDATE

So uhm, i'm gonna be off camping for 3 days starting tomorrow, Jan 20(well, you see here, the time i posted this update, it's currently 8:15pm Jan 19, 2011. So ehrm, I post updates the day after the indicated day or y'know, i post my update on jan 2 wether i'm successful on jan 1, you get the idea ). So i doubt there'll be any net connection there. I expect to return to the comfort of my room by maybe, i dunno, Monday i think. So be seeing you guys later. It's time to take this challenge into the woods.

I'm starting my own challenge. So far I've lasted a day.

Have you noticed an increase in strength or confidence?

20 full days completed and it's not getting better - it's getting kind of worse. I'm getting a bit complacent and find myself fantasizing more and more. That flatlining hasn't happened. I guess you have to abstain from any sexual stimulation for that to happen. How the hell should I shut down my mind? Still, I'm happy that I've at least managed to stay off porn and jerking off for the whole time. I've locked down my decision to keep on this experiment for the 60 days. Then on the 61th day... No prizes for guessing what I'm going to do. Feels a long time to wait though.

Then again, who knows? Perhaps it has gotten easier by then and I don't feel any urges any more. If I really feel much better I might keep going beyond that. But if the improvements are only subtle like they have been so far in my mental state, I have no trouble returning back to jerking it every now and then. My problem that triggered this was extreme desensitization to any sexual stimulus. I needed some hard stuff to get off. Now I'd figure that isn't a problem anymore. But like I said, let's start serious evaluation only after 60 days.

Still I keep having the same problems - mornings are tough. I'm alone in my bed and usually wake up with a hard-on (still no nightly ejaculations - by this point I'm starting to doubt if they are even real). I should just get up right away and start doing something. Downtime is still my worst enemy, because that's when I usually am drawn to lighter versions of porn, like sexual internet discussions etc. I really am not helping myself doing that.

I have also no eaten any junk food or sugar past 20 days. That has been easy compared to not jerking off.

For the next few days I'll really try to keep my head off of sexual thoughts. Let's hope that makes this easier.

I find it helps not to count each day. I'd randomly check, out of pure curiosity, and see I was 2 months in, or 70 days; whatever. Then I think to myself, "Hmm that didn't seem so long or hard." (no pun intended xp)

I forgot this forum has a strict no nipple policy. Hopefully that post got deleted in time >.>
Here's a SFW

Originally Posted by Omnis Dei

look into her eyes THIS time

Could've sworn the interviewer was gonna squeeze her boob a few times there lol

Originally Posted by weakamon

UPDATE[/CENTER]
So uhm, i'm gonna be off camping for 3 days starting tomorrow, Jan 20(well, you see here, the time i posted this update, it's currently 8:15pm Jan 19, 2011. So ehrm, I post updates the day after the indicated day or y'know, i post my update on jan 2 wether i'm successful on jan 1, you get the idea )

....no. I literally have no idea what you just said lol
Edit: oh wait you mean jan 19 2012 and jan 1,2 2013 ok lol

Originally Posted by Omnis Dei

I forgot this forum has a strict no nipple policy. Hopefully that post got deleted in time >.>
Here's a SFW

She's beautiful!

Originally Posted by Omnis Dei

I really shouldn't read this thread x)

Originally Posted by weakamon

DAY 16(01/16/12): SUCCESS

I liked simply because I love Linkin Park.

Good job btw, I suppose. lol.

Originally Posted by Jakro

I really shouldn't read this thread x)

Same. I wasted like 30 minutes reading it all.

What you are doing is cool and interesting. I would recommend practicing meditation daily. You have energies that build up inside and it can hurt bad to suppress it but with meditation you can bring all that into balance. Just sit down and and don't fidget! and just focus on everything inside you and your breathing. Even if you are thinking alot its ok. Just let it all flow out. Also meditating to music can help too.

Originally Posted by saltyseedog

Just let it all flow out.

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Originally Posted by Omnis Dei

I forgot this forum has a strict no nipple policy. Hopefully that post got deleted in time >.>
Here's a SFW

Magnificent! Now that's something I can gaze upon without having the urge

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I'm back from my 3 day camping trip, and i must say, it was quite fun. Nature was around me, I can feel the breeze of the wind, the flow of the river and the touch of the tree. I had a glimpse of the cosmos, something I can't find here at my place. And finally, I had a chance to let my mind be free of this darn desire within me. But of course, there was a couple of downsides, like, i dunno, the type of foods i'm eating. Maybe 70% of the meals i ate, were vienna sausages and quaker oat cookies.



Anyway,

DAY 19-22(01/19-22/12): SUCCESS

Do you notice any difference in dream vividness? Someone once told me not mastrubating makes dreams more vivid? I didn't bother trying tho

Originally Posted by DarkComrade

Do you notice any difference in dream vividness? Someone once told me not mastrubating makes dreams more vivid? I didn't bother trying tho

Nah, i can't see any difference in terms of dream vividness. But, i did noticed that my dream recall have been quite low for the past few days.... maybe it's just because i'm experiencing a dry spell.

Originally Posted by Omnis Dei

Ok, serious question...how is she alive with such an obvious malnutrition problem?

Malnutrition? wut?

The only thing she's lacking is my cock in her ass.

Skinny is NOT malnourished:

+1

One can be extremely fat and malnourished too!

There is some weird light going on on her right arm, or some bad photoshopping, though.

Originally Posted by cmind

Ok, serious question...how is she alive with such an obvious malnutrition problem?

She doesn't look malnourished. She is skinny, but not OMGICANSNAPTHATINHALF skinny!