Wow, another terrible night, they are terribly circumstantial.
Things went wrong with going to bed, fell asleep at 4am, woke up to someone screaming at me because my alarm woke them and not me, lol whoops..
I didn't bother doing a WBTB then because I needed an alarm and if another one went off I would be dead! So that's a new problem, I wish I could wake up silently without an alarm, I bought a ZBand silent alarm, a vibrating watch - but it's not strong enough for me, such a shame.
I've gotten some help from MasterMind too involving doing some meditation instead of sleep, looking to trying this one!
I have a lot to try, which is great, will keep on trying and trying.
 Originally Posted by Sageous
Why have you decided that you strictly want to WILD? Have you considered DILD? If not, you might look into it, because DILD may fit much better into your schedule and sleeping style.
Not my favourite question because everyone asks it lol, but that's fine - I understand you're trying to help, so to put it short.
Everything I want to do with LDing is for my waking life, it's tests, experiments, it's very set things..
I am a game programmer and designer and as such I want all my dreams to start from scratch as I would if programming something, I would love to wake up in bed and start from a blank canvas, work on my projects, learn, practice time dialation - I have an endless list of things I want to achieve in my LDs, and as fun as being in a random DILD would be it's just not how I want it. One thing I hate with DILDs is RCing, I'm strongly against this because I believe 100% that 'anything' is possible, absolutely anything, no buts, and starting out with the notion that a dream is a certain way and has limits such as 'you can't this' and how reading text is ever-changing and garbled is a terrible idea in my head, and will plant a soul-destroying seed that will only grow into believing some things are impossible, in my LDs I can read perfectly and I have normal hands, clocks are fine too, there is no 'can't'.. Also I would like to know I can WILD on command, and it be more reliable, and I want maximum awareness or there's no point for what I want to do, I'm sure there's a lot of other reasons, ones I've heavily researched - I've read a lot about LDing and I know all the differences to my knowledge, and WILD is the way for me, not to mention I feel I have a blessing in disguise that I could really use to my advantage!
I hope that makes sense, thanks for your help everyone
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