Ok so, first off hi to everyone, I'm a new forum member, although lucid dreaming isn't new to me. I LD'd a couple of years ago then stopped for some reasons, but now I'm back to it again!
So to start off first, I wanted to practice WILD, because at the same time I'm preparing for it, I am improving my overall awareness and maybe setting up for DILD's if nothing.
First attempt at WBTB was a failure, since I didn't even plan properly and couldn't even get myself out of bed. Good dream recall though.
Next attempt was better planned. I planned to sleep for 5 hours then get up. But the first time I woke up was about 3 AM, probably because my older sister had entered the room then to sleep. I woke up again in 4 AM, and decided this would do, because I couldn't know when would be the time I wake up again. I got up, drank a glass of water, ate some sweets, and went to the bathroom, a total of about 20 minutes. Got back in bed, laid down on my right side, my right hand placed by my face. Started repeating my mantra "relax", I had a problem with that in my earlier attempts years ago. It went on mostly calm, some unpleasant feelings mostly around the palm of my right hand, but I just ignored it. At one moment, I couldn't focus on my mantra anymore. I lost my awareness and went into a short low-vivid NLD. It ends soon, and I start repeating my mantra again, but the body slowly realises I'm awake, I start feeling tense and I've got a big urge to move. I imagine (or hear?) some voice shouting and arguing with someone, so I just give in and open my eyes. I look at the clock, the whole thing lasted about half an hour. I rolled around to the other side and had a normal sleep because I figured I was too tense right then.
I woke up an hour later at 6 AM, needed to go to another city by car. Figured I could use this as a second WBTB. Avoided napping in the car because I certainly couldn't lucid dream there. Got to bed, again taking my previous position, only that I placed my right hand below the pillow because it felt uncomfortable last time. Did the mantra again, but went on to a simmilar problem. I lose my awareness in some moments to some banal internal dialogue that would probably lead to a NLD. I think I stopped before I started dreaming. I looked at the clock, 15 minutes passed. After this I started rolling around, pretty frustrated. Repeating my mantra but sporadically losing awareness. I was lying on my stomach when a wave of (I think it was) frustration hit, and I suddenly fell through my bed. It seemed that two people "pushed" me into my bed. I was aware during the entire thing, and knew it was a dream starting. I was hovering in what seemed to be empty space. I tried to open my dream eyes, but felt my real eyes opening at the same time, so I just decided to do nothing. Sure enough the dream started developing and I somehow opened my dream eyes. There was my room but it was missing furniture, the computer, and some things were different. I remember looking through the window and it was almost night. I looked at my hands and they were kind of blurry, so I remembered to spin around to increase the dream's stability. After that I looked it was nighttime. The rest is a regular lucid dream that I will probably post on the dream journal section. The LD slowly dissapeared and I had probably awakened to a FA, because I remember some other dreams and I don't remember checking the time, which I always do. After waking up and doing a RC, I tried one more time, but didn't make it past feeling numbness, probably because I couldn't squeze in anymore REM sleep.
So, to sum it up: I had a successful WILD, I remember the whole process. There are several problems I encountered. I lose awareness relatively fast, can't repeat my mantra the whole time and I let go to internal dialogue leading to a NLD. And second problem is, I might be starting a dream but I can't "progress" towards developing to it, like I'm lying there not making a move from internal dialogue and voices, and not knowing if it even started. When I had that WILD I probably made it because the frustration kept me aware, while at the same time pushing the dream ( a little violently) forward, in this case by having a feeling that I fell through my bed, that's how I knew 100% that I was dreaming.
Any thoughts and opinions? And sorry for the long post I tend to be very descriptive.
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