Wow. That was quite a post Shadowofwind; fascinating too! Of course I have a couple of short responses:
Originally Posted by shadowofwind
I'll try to illustrate with another anecdote and an analogy....I had a lucid dream once where I was playing go, and was outsmarted by my opponent. I didn't just dream the thought or feeling of being outsmarted, I was aware of the sequence of moves, and after the last one it was clear that my opponent's board awareness had been better than mine. I had other dreams on that theme also, illustrations of the independence and versatility of the intelligence that creates my dreams. And the meaning isn't just implied by the image in the dream, I feel the intent also. With very few exceptions, I never have a dream more than once. A point is illustrated one time, from a particular standpoint or within a particular scope, and that's it. I remember the experience, so there's no reason to have it again. But I can ask internally about what is behind the image, and I get information that way. Although my limitations and preconceptions do skew my interpretations, the image doesn't hang off in space by itself, with the meaning being entirely a matter of speculation.
At the risk of opening another can of worms, could it be that your game of Go was with someone else altogether -- a shared dream with another Go fan? That said, I too have felt that "intelligence," and have found myself wondering at the meaning behind it, which I suppose is a nod to intent. But does that intent come from independent thought, or just from the machinery of my unconscious responding to conscious desires or issues? I don't know; but I do hope to find out. Also, I too have dreams only once, with one or two exceptions (ie, childhood home, being late for a train to work). I never considered that they are always different because the "message" keeps changing, but I suppose that would make sense. It's also a rationale for the unconscious being more than a file cabinet that is not easy to walk away from...
In my job, I'm the only person that I'm aware of, in a group of about 15 people, that doesn't have a PhD. Fortunately, for the most part, when I attempt to communicate an idea, people hear what I'm saying. They don't twist their interpretations to fit their preconceptions about what I'm smart enough to be trying to say. But I have worked with academics in the past that have done that, and found it frustrating, as if they've conspired to turn me into a special needs mime. My sense of what my subconscious does or does not do has been taught by my subconscious, through a long series of lesson-like experiences. Its not as if I had one weird coincidence, forced that to fit some preconceived pattern that I read in a book by Carlos Castaneda, then kept doing that ever since.
I knew this, but chose to omit it for the sake of argument; that was wrong of me. I was not in any way dismissing (or admitting that I had ignored) things you had said in the past -- I was merely responding to the words in your post, and nothing more. That was wrong, and I apologize
In the ring example, its not like I just jumped and a loosely fit ring flew off. My arm spasmed and whipped in a bizarre manner, somehow getting a snugly fit ring over a large knuckle. There isn't even anything supernatural about this, since we're not addressing how my subconscious knew what it knew. Maybe I picked up on some subtle clues that I overlooked consciously. And yet you're suggesting its a coincidence. Why? Do you want it to be for some reason? Otherwise, objectively the 'coincidence' interpretation seems to be pretty implausible. Is it common for your arm to act like it has a mind of its own? Its as if someone slapped me across the face, and you say "maybe she wasn't really mad at you, her hand just slipped". Or your own hand slaps you on the face, and you say the same thing. What could be motivating such an interpretation? You don't like it when people derive exotic conclusions from limited data, or based on faulty reasoning. Yet you know I haven't derived my perspective from this one anecdote, I've shared a lot of other examples with you also. And you know that I think for myself, and maybe you've noticed that I'm critical to a fault. It almost seems that you're not speaking to what I'm saying, but to someone or something else.
Yes, if my arm suddenly spasmed and my ring flew off, I would always apply Occam's Razor to the event, and assume first that the most obvious thing happened : my arm spasmed and my ring fell off, all by itself. The first explanation in my mind would be medical, not psychological. That's just me. I suppose later I might attach meaning to it as you did, but I'm not sure. If someone slapped me in the face, I would blame them first, since another mind with intent was attached to the hand; if I slapped myself in the face, I would be curious indeed (if it happened twice, maybe then I would wonder).
Are you afraid of your own subconscious, that it might start acting in an embarrassing or erratic manner, and you'll look like a fool or go insane? Or maybe we'll rend the coherent rationality of our cosmos, and open up a portal to spirit possession and chaos (or worse, religion)? Or are you just concerned about people getting too wrapped up in weird phenomena, and missing the more important part of the picture? I'm on board with that to a very significant extent. But it needn't compel us to discard objectivity about what we experience, even when, or especially when, it doesn't seem to conform to how we would like the world to be.
No, no, and yes. A question, though: is it objectivity to attach meaning to an event? Wouldn't the most objective explanation of any event be that "it just happened?" I think that the act of defining an event in specific terms and allowing only one possible cause is a very subjective thing to do.
But if the point that you were trying to make wasn't that the ring experience was 'random', but more that it was an event that was in harmony with what was going on, without an aim or motive behind it such as a person might have when talking, then I could agree with that.
That was pretty much my point. Sorry I made it so badly.
My subconscious does produce events that have definite points to them. However, my motive is not entirely independent from it, so if I were to change my way of thinking about this, those patterns would change to some degree also. We see this same sort of issue with communication between people. Usually when i say something, I'm not trying to push someone towards some particular choice or decision, I'm trying to provide information or perspective that I believe is relevant to the issue at hand, so that they can make a better choice. If I persist, its usually not because I object to the choice they're intending to make, its because it appears to me that the information has been misunderstood. (Though in recent years I'm a lot more indifferent about that also.) Some other people try to interpret everything in terms of the pursuit of a goal or a policy, "what is he trying to get me to do". So if I point out something that weighs against a particular action, they'll assume I'm advocating an alternative action. But often I'm actually favoring the first action, I'm just trying to get all possible downsides on the table so that we can be confident its the right one. So if they're trying to interpret everything in terms of what I'm trying to get them to do, a lot of confusion will result. I can see these kinds of misunderstandings with muses also, and maybe that's a big part of what you were getting at.
Interesting analogy, and it does indeed tie into what I am trying to say. And yes, I would admit that there is a function in the "chaos" of the unconscious that produces this sort of communication. Except that I still wonder whether that communication isn't initiated by conscious activity, and the exchange itself is another aspect of that reflection off the surface of the unconscious. Here, though, your "Razor" seems much more accurate than mine, so I'm at a bit of a loss...
To answer the rest of your question, no, I wasn't suddenly seized with fear that my relationship might be ending. But the event did help draw the truth to the surface a lot sooner than would have happened otherwise, which enabled me to adjust a lot easier and at a lot more favorable time. In my previous relationship before that, I did not understand what was going on when my flame's affections began going elsewhere, and the deception and resulting confusion made it quite a bit more difficult for me to deal with. Also, the ring experience was a relatively early illustration that my subconscious knows stuff that I'm not consciously aware of. Not that there's anything revolutionary about this, but it was a step in my self awareness.
Good point, and one that is grounded in established psychology. I must admit that I thought of this when I read your first post, but I shamelessly opted not to mention it. Guess I would have saved us some time if I had, huh?
So in the end I think we really are on the same page with most of this, and the differences just make it all that much more interesting. Thank you for sharing, and putting up with my nonsense!
p.s. I'll get to the rest of your post later because it is significant on its own, and I didn't want to see it lost among all these words...
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