OK. I misread the nature of your interest, trying to guess why you keep returning to a subject you're not very interested in. I don't think your understanding of how I see you is accurate, even though you made your best guess about what my words mean. But that's probably not worth trying to clarify.

Its an inherently personal experience, I don't think you can do it without being open to a personal interaction. Its much easier to recognize with strangers because there's more potential to be shared that hasn't already been expressed through some other means. But it is personal, so if you're not comfortable with that with me, that's no fault of yours, and nothing to be done about it.