Turquoise Dreams

Tuesday 4/10/12 5/HTP 10:37pm Bed 11:30
WBTB 2:47 - 3:35 GM 4mg + Choline 3:14am
WILD
I'm in a classroom with my friends. It feels like end of school year, because we don't have classes, instead we are reading geography magazines. I borrow one from a classmate and lend my magazine to someone else. I remember pushing my head down over my desk and having headrush into lucid dream. The image is something unpleasant and I don't really want to enter this dream, but I know I can change it once I enter, so I say 'I am there'. I immediately touch corner of the white wall to stabilize. I shout, clap my hands, but I guess, it didn't help a lot, because the whole 7 min dream was low awareness.
I'm walking on a sidewalk with bunch of DCs. Some girl tells her hommies to grab me. They take me to their 'club house'. Rest is explicit. Quite vivid, not much awareness though. This dream makes me wonder, if some dreams are not just in my head but controlled by someone else who created that reality.

Saturday 3/31/12 5-HTP at 10:15pm, bed at 11:50pm didn't practice awareness
DR 3:47
WBTB 3:47 - 4:21 didn't fall asleep till 5:20 (cat going potty)
Woke up at 7:15 from DILD + 5 DEILDs Each about 5min long
For WBTB WILD I visualize being at beer pub with mom, dad, and two others. I recall the tables, people, green leaves on a tree, glasses with beer.
Then I fall asleep and have a DILD.
DILD
At home on RD10. I'm hugging and kissing my parents. My dad's cheek has a 5o'clock shadow. We are in a hallway, light are on. Then I'm on front balcony looking out (or maybe through my brothers room window). It's at night and everything is shining under moonlight, as if it was covered by ice. (EDIT: I thught for long time what it reminds me of, and I figured it out today - it has colors, beauty and misticism of Hyu's avatar pic.) I trick my mind into making everything more focused by saying 'Look how is everything so detailed', although it wasn't. In that moment it gets very vivid and focused in shades of black, grey and blue, shiny with ice surface. beautiful.
I'm on my balcony. It's daytime. So crisp and focused, I think it's WL. I do a bunch of RCs. First time I do 'nose plug' RC, although I have never practiced it. I can breathe. But I'm not 100% sure. Doesn't stop me from jumping off the balcony to fly.
Not sure if this is the same LD or a separate one. - I'm on balcony to a street. I know that in my previous LD was daytime and I wonder, why is it night. I say it and in little while the sun is coming up. I'm trying to go to the moon from the backyard. I find it on the skies and take aim. I think I wake up.
DEILD 1
I'm on a sidewalk of a major city. I see tall modern buildings on the left. Bunch of DCs. I ask two of them, one man and then one woman 'Excuse me mam, sir, what is this town, err, city?' I'm so nervous talking, I fumble with words. One of them says Philadelphia.
A bus pulls up to the sidewalk. I'm so scared as it's turning towards us, because its huge, like 3 buses on top of each other. Menacing, white metal, heavy looking. I walk on a sidewalk among lots of DCs. From the left is an exit from a bus depot? Big machines are coming out of there from behind big black rubber flaps, so you don't see something is coming until you are close to it. I'm scared to walk by, so I don't get run over.
Note sure if this is the same LD or another one. >> I'm in a building. Me and another person or two plus our guide are hovering on top of some very tall furniture - couple of stories high. He is shoving us this so we can decide, what kind of a tour we want. I see a window, open it, pull away the screen and fly out. I feel so free. Not sure if it was here, but at one point I jumped off a tall building although I was not sure, that I can fly. Just inches from sidewalk my fall changed to a glide above ground.
***I wake up, (was I sleeping on my back and right shoulder) and remember not to move. I wait to enter another LD.
DEILD 2
I'm on a river bank. Decide to swim across. Water is yellowish. Someone else is in the water. I get out on other side. There is a area fenced off by chain link fence. Some bikers are watching two of them fight, as if in a rink. I decide to try my powers and take the place of one guy to fight the bigger one. The ground is slippery from spilled beer. I think they are pouring beer at each other. I ask where is my beer. One of them brings two big, classical beer glasses filled with what looks like lager. But he takes a drink from them so I say to forget it. I don't know how to fight this guy. >> I'm in a building/shack next to this fight field. I ask a cute biker if he wants to have sx. He says sure and we start to undress. We are almost there, but I wake up.
DEILD 3
I'm back with the biker. He doesn't want to go on, because he doesn't want to wake up again. I walk over to a group of 2-3 bikers, one is a cop in blue uniform and tell them I just broke up with my boyfriend, if they want to continue where he left off. Things start to happen, but I wake up again.
DEILD 4
I'm flying inside the museum. Lots of rooms and people. I realized a few moments past by and suddenly everything is focused. I realize, this is what people mean about dream getting focused after a minute or two. Looking for a window to get out, but can't find any. I realize, I can get out by getting lucid by looking at something moving towards me. I find a boy sitting on a floor playing with a train. I sit down and we pass the train between us, while I stare at it when it's coming towards me.
DEILD 5
I'm hovering over a street with other DCs. I ask out loud to see my grandma. One DC separates from others and flies to me. She is smiling, but her face is changing from a mummy to a girl of maybe 20 years of age. I ask her if it's really her and she assures me yes. But I'm pretty sure it's not.

***In one of the LDs I was able to only whisper. Rest of them I was shouting***
***In one of the LDs I signed my full name without any problem and then was able to read it***
***In most of them, I kept saying to myself loud 'I'm dreaming' to keep myself aware***
***First time 'nose plug' RC. Feels great to breathe through pinched nose.***

Each transition - when woke up from LD - was the most awesome part of the whole thing. I realized, I can get a headrush by looking at something moving towards me and then tilting my head forward or back. (This head tilt is recurring thing from couple weeks ago, when I realized in regular dream, that I can get lucid this way.)
So I looked at the street hoping for a car to come by - and it did, looking at a toy train when playing with a boy, looking at starfield in hyperspace on TV. When this field was going sideways, I made it change direction so it flies at me. Also was able to recall smell from previous LD to help induce another one.

Wednesday, 12/28/11

Bedtime 11:55pm. Had some champagne.

DR between 7 - 8am

1. I'm on a street C, next to my house on RD in NZ. It's a beautiful, sunny day. I look up and on a blue skies I see a grid of rectangles, like a table in Word, maybe 5x4, made out of nice, white, puffy clouds/airplane contrails. In one corner are angel wings also made out of clouds. I'm running in excitement and yell at the neighbour E in his apartment "Look up and see, look up and see".

2. I wake up in an apartment. There are 2 more people here. It's morning and we are getting some food ready for breakfast.
I look in a fridge. There is a bowl of corn and green peas, but I can't see it clearly, they seem to be moving, or maybe my eyes are twitching. They project a yellow glow.

I can see everything clearly, colors, details, it's bright, I just cant read. There is a box of cigars. It says CUBANS. I try to see the country of origin, but cant find it on the box.

One person leans towards me and looks at my eye to find out, why I can't read. Then I realize, I see through my eyelids.

Now I'm in kitchen on RD10. To test if I can really see through my eyelids, or if I just "see" the room from my memory, my dad is doing something. First he throws a big pink blanket towards the tv, then a smaller brown blanket, then he is pulling on a brown sweater with stripes and then he pretends to throw a baseball. I identify everything correctly. I see color of wall paint, light are on, sharp details, but I know, my eyes are closed.

I'm back in the apartment with the fridge and I tell to these guys - I thought I'm awake, but maybe I'm asleep, or maybe I was asleep before and now I'm awake - I couldn't make any sense of it.

3. I'm in a living room in RD10. I lay on a sofa, my cat is next to me. I try to see the color of her aura, but I decide to see color of aura of my friend (I don't know who she is). She is sitting on the floor, leaning against our green bookcase, holding a baby? I can't see the color directly, but I see the inside of the bookcase illuminated by light blue light. I ask her with laughter, if she want's to know the color of her aura.

I wake up and feel the headrush, that for me means transition through field of stars to Lucid Dream.

All dreams were super focused, sharp, colorfull, bright. I was talking to people, which I rarely do. I have a feeling I did have an LD or was very close to it, but can't confirm. Very good feeling from the whole thing.

Monday, 12/26/2011
Something about mall and competition.

(Lately I'm noticing, tons of my dreams are about competition. I don't understand why)

Tuesday, 12/27/2011
took a nap around 5pm.

IWL - I spent a day reading Karen's posts about OBEs
DR- I'm sleeping on sofa and I get the vibrations, I will my body to lift up and it does. Feet first, then rest. I stand up gently next to the sofa.

IWL - after waking up, I feel the familiar feeling of headrush (fast flight through field of stars like at warp speed, headfirst) in back of my head. Something must have happend, it possibly wasn't just a dream.

Newertheless, cool feeling from the whole thing.