New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight

Note: Another night with a lot of goals and not a whole lot of progress. My goals included training with Vegeta, bringing MoSh, Asuka, and Mzzkc to this training session with Vegeta, telepathically calling Pablo to come, viewing a dream MoSh had with don Juan, a DDO dream with Tigress, TotY… the list just goes on and on and on and on… Tonight I was successful at slipping into a WILD, which was helpful, and my first dream is that WILD…

I was in my own inner world, at the location right outside of Vegeta's house. Vegeta was right near me, looking at me strangely. He said he had expected there would be people with me tonight, which is what I had said before I went to bed. Vegeta reminded me that MoSh and Asuka were no doubt waiting to be picked up, as was Mzzkc, and Pablo had just wanted me to contact him telepathically to see if the connection worked and maybe if he could get in here. The easiest thing to do would be to send a telepathic signal, or it seemed like the easiest thing to do, so I focused on sending a signal to Pablo, a telepathic signal, "Hey, Pablo! This is Raven, you're dreaming! Remember this dream!" I repeated the signal a few times, focusing on it as best as I could until I heard Serena's voice say I looked constipated and she had a tea for that… so my last message to Pablo consisted of, "Hey, Pablo! This is Raven, you're… constipated? WTF?" It turned out Serena had just been making fun of the look of concentration I'd had on my face. So next I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through it to bring him and Asuka back.

I stepped out of the portal into the usual spot where I enter MoSh's inner world, the place right in front of his house. I went over to the house and looked at the door, I was about to knock on it when it opened and a worried looking MoSh came out. He said something was wrong with Asuka, she was still not acting like herself. I said to Mosh, that after what she went through it might take a while and more healings before she was completely ok… MoSh didn't answer, he just pointed into the house towards the stairs and said Asuka was shut in the bedroom and wouldn't come out. I went upstairs. There was one door closed at the end of the hall, which was where I went. MoSh was right behind me, he knocked on the door and said Asuka's name, saying she needed to come out. I hadn't expected her to, but Asuka came right out. She looked rather tired, but otherwise ok. MoSh wanted to know what she had been doing in there, why hadn't she answered him before, he had been worried about her… She didn't really say much. Ok… go back to my inner world, heal Asuka, and then training with Vegeta… no… before training with Vegeta was the going to get Mzzkc… I had to make sure I didn't forget anything. I opened the portal and the three of us went through it… I wondered about the kids, but I didn't get a chance to say anything. I figured Data was with them.

All three of us stepped out of the portal in the meadow that surrounds Vegeta and Serena's house. Asuka sat down in the grass and started picking wild flowers that were growing around her… then she shredded them into a pile of purple and green mess… then she ate some of it, made a face that told me the stuff was all kinds of disgusting, and spat it out before trying again to eat the stuff with the same results. She picked up some more of the plants and looked to be about to try eating them yet again, but she was distracted by a fluffy red fox jumping around in the grass. She stopped playing with the flowers to watch the fox playing around, then the fox came over to her and climbed into her lap where she started petting it. The fox responded by curling up in a ball on Asuka's lap and purring. Hmmm… cat purrs have a very theraputic effect, do fox purrs also have that effect? Seems like it would.

While Asuka was stroking the softly purring fox, MoSh and I were doing healing spells. Basara showed up very soon and joined in, merging his song into mine and the one MoSh was playing, all three songs somehow came together in a perfect melody. Golden energy filled the meadow, golden energy mixed with some blue and white energy, all centered on Asuka, who still had a purring fox in her lap. The energies swirled around Asuka, all flowing into her. Asuka was smiling, she seemed a lot more relaxed now.

The healing spell ended, and I walked over to Basara. I had been wondering if there was a possibility that I wouldn't be able to heal someone's heart because I have dark energy that I'm using. Basara actually laughed at that idea. He said he had learned enough about dark energy to know that wasn't even vaguely impossible unless I wanted it to happen or the dark energy was unstable and I got consumed by it. He told me I worry too much, so relax or the stress would be what might interfere with my healing. Hmmm… was I just being paranoid again? Most likely.

I remembered my goal of meeting up with another user from Dreamviews, BlakeE45. I had agreed to meet him near the koi pond in the biodome, so that was where I headed now. I also was supposed to retrieve Mzzkc… I would check for BlakeE45 and then go look for Mzzkc… My portal exited right next to the koi pond. I sat down on the bench for a while after I saw that there wasn't anyone there. My mind drifted away as I watched the fish. At this point the dream fades out, though I'm not sure if it ended or if I just don't remember any more.

Note: It turned out that some really nasty things happened to Asuka during the time she was with L, she was in serious need of healing. That was my first priority, to go help MoSh with healing Asuka. I figured I would definitely take Basara with me… I had my first goal in mind when I fell asleep, but I was not successful in entering a WILD. I'm not even sure how I became lucid in this dream… it just kind of happened gradually, so gradually that I'm not exactly sure when I became fully lucid…

I was in the front yard of my house, and I noticed it was cloudy. I wanted to go for a walk, and the clouds made it much nicer to walk than when it is fully sunny. I left the house and went to the gate, realized I had forgotten the remote to the gate, so I climbed over it instead of going back into the house to get the remote. I walked down the dirt road and up to the main street where I turned left. I followed the road for a while until I reached the new housing development that has been going in recently. I'd never seen the houses up close, so I turned into the housing area and figured I would take a look around. It was nothing remarkable, all the houses were basically cookie cutter homes that all looked the same. Or mostly the same, there were about three different models repeated over and over and over… Then I went up a hill and found a house that looked different. The first thing that came to mind was MoSh's house in his inner world. But how could I be seeing that here? It looked so much like MoSh's place that I went to the door and knocked. Much to my amazement, MoSh answered.

"Oh, good… you're here," MoSh said as he hurried me into the house and closed the door behind me, "Asuka really needs help… I'm not sure what else to do for her except for try to heal her. The things I'd like to do to that bastard…"

I told MoSh he could do whatever he wanted to L, or I could do it and he could read about it in detail, or we could both do it together and he could read about it in detail… or he could probably get Walms to have some fun with L then read about it when Walms posted his DJ… or… MoSh interrupted me at this point, saying we should focus on Asuka for now, L could be made to pay later. I remembered that Basara would be able to help with healing Asuka so I focused on opening a portal to find Basara, the portal opened and Basara came through as if he had been expecting me. Somewhere in here must be where I became fully lucid, but it was the end of a gradual process so I'm not completely sure when it happened.

Basara and I followed MoSh into the bedroom where Asuka was hiding. And she really was hiding. She was in a corner of the room trying to disappear into the wall, she had her knees pulled up to her chest and her face was hidden as if she thought no one would see her if she couldn't see them. MoSh went over to Asuka and touched her on the shoulder, I noticed a very concerned look on Basara's face. Asuka responded right away to MoSh, she reached for him and immediately put her arms around him as if she was drowning in the ocean and he was her life preserver. Basara didn't need to be told what had to be done, he summoned a guitar and began playing a song that I recognized from the Macross 7 soundtrack, the song entitled Love Will Save Your Heart. I focused on the healing song along with Basara, thought it looked like MoSh was having problems getting to his guitar with Asuka clinging to him as she was… As the song was playing golden energy filled the room, giving everything in the room a golden shine that came just from the energy. When the song ended, there was no pause in the music as Basara moved seamlessly on to My Soul For You from the same soundtrack. Asuka had let go of MoSh by now and was sitting on the bed staring off into space, which meant MoSh could also add to the healing energy in the room. As this song ended, all three of us were contributing to one more song that I recognized from the Macross 7 soundtrack but I don't remember the title of it… the title was probably in Japanese.

There was still healing energy filling the room, although some of it looked now to be blues and whites instead of the usual golden energy, this energy seemed very relaxing, however, and it brought a warm sensation of comfort and safety, of love and caring… I continued focusing on the song Basara was using at the time, he had changed songs again. Asuka was still sitting on the bed, though she seemed to be paying attention to the three of us now as if we were giving her a private concert, which I suppose we were. The blue and white energy was centering in on Asuka and flowing around her in a manner that made it look like she was glowing… she looked more like an angel than anything, though she didn't actually have the wings… The music and the energy were so relaxing I thought I might fall asleep in the middle of the healing process… Basara played through one more song, I also don't remember the name of this one, and then the music stopped. There was still a bright glow about Asuka as the light energy was still surrounding her and flowing through her. I looked closer at her and saw she actually had a small smile on her face. Basara looked at Asuka and smiled himself, he said it looked good. He said he didn't know if that one time would be enough for her to get past what had happened, but he had to say one thing for her, she seems stronger than she looks. Now that the music had stopped Asuka lied down on the bed and fell asleep, though her sleep looked peaceful and relaxed. I told Basara that if she needed more healing, then she would have it. Basara agreed with that before opening a portal and going through it.

MoSh kissed Asuka ash she slept and then left the room, clearly meaning for me to follow him. I followed him into the next room where he had some pictures lying face down on a desk. He picked one of them up and looked at it only briefly before turning it face down on top of the others so that none of them were visible. He said that he needed to make sure Kanmuri knew how important it was to keep L away from Asuka. I opened a portal to get to L's inner world and the two of us went through.

MoSh and I exited the portal in the area of L's inner world where we usually seem to arrive. I wondered if it would be possible to enter at a different location if I needed to for some reason, this was the only place I could remember arriving. For this time, however, that location was just fine. I spotted Kanmuri not too far away from us, she was looking over at the guest house with a strange look on her face as if the building held some kind of unfathomable mystery. She saw us arrive there and said L was in the guest house again, she said she didn't know what he was doing in there, but she didn't think he had anyone in there with him, she was sure he hadn't gone after Asuka again… MoSh said Asuka was safe at home, but there was something he wanted to show Kanmuri. She asked what that was, looking at the pictures in MoSh's hands, which he gave to her.

Kanmuri stared at the first picture as if unable to comprehend exactly what she was seeing, then she looked at the next one and the third one before dropping the pictures on the ground. She had a look of total shock on her face, seemed unable to find any words appropriate for the situation. She said she never thought that would happen… she admitted she hadn't known L for long, but that was just so… so… and again words seemed to fail her. MoSh said that the things that had happened in those pictures showed clearly why Kanmuri has to make absolutely certain L doesn't get anywhere near Asuka again. Kanmuri stared at MoSh in stunned disbelief, again she didn't seem to know what to say, but that didn't last long…

"You don't actually expect me to stay here with that… that monster, do you?" she asked incredulously, "I've stayed here until now, and I was going to try to make sure he didn't go off and kidnap Asuka again, but that was before I knew he was a total psychopath! I'm out of here!"

"Then who is going to keep L away from Asuka if you don't stay?" MoSh asked.

Kanmuri was silent for a bit again, then she got mad, "So you expect me to stay here no matter what might happen?" she yelled right in MoSh's face, "So it's completely ok with you if I get tortured and gang raped and maybe even killed as long as your precious Asuka is safe? Well, guess what? I'm not going to stay around here as an outlet for that bastard's twisted fantasies! That was the only deal breaker, I don't care if he's a jerk, I don't care that he apparently hasn't even got the capacity to care about anyone, but I will not stay here and be abused!"

"You were supposed to keep L from hurting Asuka!" MoSh said, apparently getting upset himself, "You said you would do this, so you can't go and leave now!"

Kanmuri was so pissed off she was momentarily unable to speak, it also looked like she might cry, from rage? Sadness? It was more rage that she was expressing. "You are… you are…" Kanmuri finally found her voice, though she didn't seem to know what words to use, "You are such an ASSHOLE! If those things had happened to me, it wouldn't matter to you at all, would it? Well it's not happening!" She did something and then dropped a nasty expletive. She was muttering something about not even being able to open a fucking portal to get out of this hell hole. I asked where she was looking to go, I figured it wouldn't do any good to try to keep her here against her will. She said she wanted to go somewhere that she wouldn't be gang raped by a bunch of mindless drones and the king of all assholes… um… my inner world qualified for that… so I opened a portal to my inner world. MoSh told Kanmuri she couldn't just leave, she flipped him the bird and said watch her, she was already gone. She went through the portal to my inner world, and about the same time I woke.

Note: Tonight I fell asleep with some very ambitious goals including checking to see if L will leave Asuka alone if she goes out, dream view a dream MoSh had quite a while ago where he was speaking with don Juan, sharing a DDO dream with Tigress, finding and doing another healing spell on Xildron, tasks of the year… the list of my goals just seems to go on and on… I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and successfully slipped into a WILD…

I found myself in a very familiar setting standing in the front yard of MoSh's house in his inner world. I went right up to the door without any hesitation, I wanted to get going on my goals. I knocked on the door and MoSh answered it. He was smiling when he saw me and he opened the door to let me in. When I looked around the room I saw Asuka sitting in the living room watching something on television. I walked over to Asuka and looked to see what she was watching, there was nothing actually on the television and I wondered why Asuka was staring at a blank screen. As if on cue, Asuka got up and came over to me, she said she was ready to go out and see that L had gotten the picture that he needs to leave her alone. I asked her where she wanted to go this time, it really should be somewhere she would be likely to go on her own. She said she knew of a mountain spring that was very relaxing. She said it was a place where she hoped to take MoSh someday so they could relax there and have some time to themselves. She said she was waiting until he started remembering her more consistently, though. After fusing with Asuka by using the fusion amulet she opened a portal and we went through it as one person.

The other side of the portal was a beautiful place. There was a crystal clear pool of water with colorful flowers growing on the surface of the water, numerous lily pads dotted the surface of the water as well. Colorful butterflies were flitting around near the shores of the pool, and there were even some butterflies out on the lily pads farther out in the pool.

It really was a very peaceful scene. I could see why Asuka would want to spend some time alone there with MoSh. I just let Asuka go where she wanted to go since she knew this place and liked it, and she waded into the water a bit. The water was very pleasant, and there were small fish tickling my feet. We spent quite a bit of time there wandering around the place, exploring all the hidden areas to find what wonders might be found there. We spent so much time there that I was beginning to wonder if the dream was going to end without L showing up… that would be a good sign that he had learned something from the last time he had kidnapped Asuka. After spending a bit longer there, Asuka said she was ready to go home… but first she wanted to go into the water in her own body, because the water here is so wonderfully refreshing and she couldn't feel it as well when fused with someone else. So we separated right there. Asuka swam out into the water still in her kimono which floated out beside her in an ethereal way. She sank beneath the surface of the water.

I had turned away from Asuka for only a short time to take a closer look at some of the beautiful flowers, to go over to them and smell them. The flowers were beautifully fragrant, and their fragrance was also very relaxing. I was smelling the flower when I heard some sounds from behind me. I turned around just in time to see there was a pair of tendrils were reaching through a portal and wrapped around Asuka, pulling her towards the portal. Wtf? I chased after her as she disappeared through the portal, jumping out over the pool of water and reaching to grab hold of Asuka's leg as she was disappearing through the portal. Then the portal was gone. I was yelling at an empty sky to give Asuka back right now, you yellow bellied bastard. My first thought was that L had come after Asuka again, well he would pay for that… I focused on opening a portal to follow Asuka to wherever she had been taken, then I flew through the portal ready to kick the ass of whoever I found on the other side.

I emerged from the portal in a world that looked like it was entirely made up of crystal formations. There was a sun shining brightly in the sky and rainbows were reflecting off of many of the crystal formations that made up the landscape. It was really a very beautiful place that I wouldn't have minded visiting if I hadn't been following after Asuka… Things being as they were, however, I didn't take time to notice the beauty of the place. I looked around for any sign of Asuka having had been through there recently. The fact was that I didn't see any sign of human life anywhere let alone Asuka… some very shiny butterflies were flitting around the crystal formations just as the ones near the mountain spring had been flitting around the flowers there. I called out to Asuka a couple of times, scanned for any trace of her, and I found nothing. I was in the wrong place! I wasn't sure how I had managed to get to the wrong place, but I tried the portal again.

I exited this portal to find myself about five feet in the air over a pool of rancid water. I wasn't ready to be in the air, so I fell right into the disgusting water which reminded me of sewer water. It was disgusting! It smelled bad, it was covered with a thick layer of slime, although the area around it didn't look contaminated or anything. It was just a typical stagnant pool of water. I paid about as much attention to the foul water as I had to the beautiful crystals, I flew back out of the pool and scanned the area for Asuka, for any trace of Asuka. Once again I could not find any sign that Asuka was there or that she had ever been there, at least not recently. Whoever had taken Asuka, I was on a wild goose chase, somehow they were making it so my portals weren't getting me to her! I was getting pissed at ending in the wrong places. I landed on dry land, felt like I was going to wake up when I didn't want to, so I dilated time. Something was keeping me from tracking down Asuka, and the first person on my list of suspects was still L, so instead of focusing my portal to follow Asuka I focused it on going to L's inner world. There was a bit of resistance when I tried opening the portal but it was nothing I couldn't easily overcome.

This time when I exited the portal I was in L's inner world, near his pool where I usually appear. I scanned the area for Asuka again, and I knew right away I had found the place she had been taken. I approached the house to see if they were in there, Asuka's energy frequency was still around the place from her last visit so it was a bit harder to tell which signals were more recent. When I headed for the house, however, Kanmuri came from around the corner of the house and pointed towards a building I hadn't noticed before. She said if I was looking for Asuka, L had taken her in there and insisted on being left alone, and when she had just peeked in out of curiosity L had gotten so pissed off at her… she said she didn't know what was going on in there. That was clearly where I had to go next, though.

I followed a path to the building which appeared to be a guest house, and though the path was very pleasant and beautiful with trees and flowers around it, now it seemed like a path descending into a nightmare. I didn't want anyone to see my approach so I used the song Of Wolf and Man by Metallica to change my form into a small blue bird since there were many similar birds around the area. I flew over to the guest house and landed on a window sill. I looked in through the window and I saw both Asuka and L, and I immediately wanted to kill L slowly and painfully. Asuka was sitting on a couch with no restraints or anything to keep her from leaving, but she was staring off into space with a blank expression on her face. She was also quite bruised and she was crying.

L was sitting beside her with his arm around her, had he been the one who had beaten her? He had wanted to take Asuka with him so he could beat her? Or had he done that out of anger over the torturing she (I) had given him last night? An unforeseen backlash of that tactic, making L want to get revenge for the pain she (I) had put him through.

I no longer cared about being unnoticed, instead I changed back to my normal form, my Assassin form, and kicked the front door of the guest house open, it slammed open with a loud crash that made L jump about three feet in surprise. Asuka didn't respond. I used telekinesis to slam L against the wall hard enough to put cracks in it, I asked him what the fuck he had done to Asuka, why was she like that, what had happened. He sniffed the air and said someone sure stank… I said it was him who stank even though I was pretty sure he was referring to the stink of the rancid water that was still on me. I demanded again to know what he had done to Asuka. He said he had just been playing games with her, those games that she seemed to like so well, it seemed she didn't like them anymore. He was laughing the whole time he said that, so I pounded the laughter out of him by slamming him around the room some more using telekinesis and I ended up slamming him right through one of the interior walls into the bathroom where I made sure his face landed in the toilet, actually he hit the toilet hard enough to crack the bowl… the icing on the cake was when raw sewage backed up from the pipe below and washed over L…

I looked over at Asuka, who had still not responded to anything that had happened. She seemed to have not noticed L getting thrown around the room, she hadn't noticed me yelling at him, she hadn't noticed him going through the wall or getting covered with sewage… I went over to Asuka, who didn't respond to my presence, but when I went to help her stand up she was very compliant to that. I focused on healing her injuries, I would do more healing on her once I had her somewhere safe. If she would snap out of this strange trance for anyone, that person would be MoSh. I opened a portal to get to MoSh's inner world and led Asuka through it.

I carefully helped Asuka out of the portal into the front yard of MoSh's house. I led her up to the front door with ease, she was offering no resistance, but she was also not reacting to the change in location. What the fuck had that asshole done to her to make her this unresponsive? We reached the front door and I opened it to find MoSh was right inside, he had been about to open the door. He asked what had happened, what was wrong with Asuka, who had done that to her, what had they done to her… I said I didn't know what had been done to her, but it was L who had done it. I told MoSh that L had shown up and kidnapped Asuka to take her… MoSh interrupted, asking how could I just let L have Asuka? I continued to tell MoSh that she had been taken, I had tracked her down to L's inner world and when I got to her she had been like this, worse in fact, it looked like L had been beating her. MoSh said something about a picture being real, and it had happened because I had let L take Asuka… what picture? He took Asuka into his arms and said something about so many men… so many men? I had only seen L… I told MoSh that Asuka needed healing, and he said any fool could see that. I said I would help him heal her, but he just glared over at me, he said Asuka didn't need any more of my help, I had clearly 'helped' her more than enough. He said they didn't need that kind of help. He slammed the door before I could say anything else.

I paused, I wanted to go inside and try to explain things to MoSh, but he was right… I was supposed to have been protecting Asuka, not just letting L walk off with her to do whatever he wanted to her… if I'd just been more careful she wouldn't have gotten taken, L wouldn't have done whatever it was he did to her… Maybe I should send Basara back over to do some healing on Asuka, who clearly needed it. How was she doing now that she was with MoSh? I walked around to the side of the house and peeked in through a window to see if I could find the two of them. First I saw Asuka's clothes tossed carelessly aside in the room. Then I saw Asuka was sitting naked in a corner of the room and I could see MoSh trying to get her to come out. Asuka wasn't responding to him, she had her knees pulled up to her chest, making herself as small as possible, and she was crying. That was because of what L had done to her, whatever he had done it must have been pretty awful to leave her in such a state. Seeing her like that made me want to hurt L, and hurt him bad, really bad.

So now it was time for L to pay, and the price was high. I opened a portal back to L's inner world and went through it looking to draw some blood. Kanmuri was standing near my portal when I got there, I asked her where L was, where was that foul piece of shit hiding, because I had some business to discuss with him… Kanmuri asked what was going on, she asked what had been wrong with Asuka when I had brought her out from the guest house? She had figured L was in there trying to coax Asuka into bed with him and probably epic failing at that, he wouldn't have hurt her, would he? I scanned the area for L and found him in the main house, I headed straight for him with Kanmuri following after me. She wouldn't shut up. L didn't hurt Asuka, did he? She said she knows he can be an ass sometimes, but she couldn't see him actually doing anything to hurt Asuka… he's too crazy about her… I told Kanmuri, focusing a bit too much of my anger on her, that I didn't know what L had done to Asuka, but he had definitely hurt her, and he'd hurt her bad. Kanmuri stopped and had a shocked look on her face as she watched me go into the house.

I found L in the living room kicked back on the couch as if nothing was wrong in the world, and that just pissed me off more. He looked up at me and smiled, he said it was so nice to see me again. He said if I wanted him all to myself, he could have said so instead of coming in and stealing Asuka. That was it, I was much too pissed off for words. All I could feel inside was unstable dark energy, but I didn't make any effort to control it, I just let it do what it wanted. The shadows in one corner of the room came to life as a swarm of scarab beetles each the size of a golf ball.

I used telekinesis to hold L still long enough for the bugs to get on him. The scarabs didn't stay still long enough for L to get them off, they immediately burrowed their way into L's skin, tunneling through his flesh as he was screaming in pain. I could see the moving bumps of the scarabs underneath L's skin, and he was apparently desparate to get rid of them as he tore through his own skin to get to one of the scarabs and pull it out. He threw the bug on the floor and stomped on it. So he had gotten rid of one of about ten bugs that were now tunneling through his flesh… several of which were in places he could not hope to reach. He was yelling at me or someone else to get those things out of him, get them OUT! While L was writhing on the floor in pain I was kicking him as hard as I could, anything to make him pay for what he had done… I'm not sure how long he was writhing and trying to reach the scarabs under his skin, how long I was kicking him before he was finally still, there was blood coming out of his mouth… and finally I woke, not really wanting to remember the events of this dream…

Note: It seems L has been causing problems again, still trying to get to Asuka even though he has a girlfriend of his own, and now he is using Kanmuri to do it! We came to the conclusion that we were going to try to make L afraid of Asuka, so that he would want to avoid her at all costs. My goal for tonight was to go ahead to do this. I fell asleep, failed to slip into my WILD. I actually don't remember the beginning of this dream or exactly how I became lucid, but here is the dream from the point where I start remembering it…


The earliest thing I remember in this dream is being in MoSh's inner world. I was in the living room with MoSh and Asuka. MoSh was playing a video game on the flat screen television while Asuka was watching him. Asuka got up and came over to me. She said she was ready to do whatever we had to do to make sure L would finally stop bothering her and MoSh. I told her I had a plan I thought might work. She said she knew, and she was ready to do the fusion. I said there was one more part to it… while fused, we should go out of MoSh's inner world and do something Asuka would enjoy doing… thus making her an easy target. So when L took her back to his inner world, that was when his nightmare would begin. MoSh seemed to have barely noticed I was there, I wasn't fully convinced MoSh had noticed me at all. I touched him on the shoulder and he finally looked up. I told him Asuka and I were off to give L a nice nightmare. I said L might need a few nightmares to get the point across, but it would start now. MoSh saved his video game and changed the channel. He said he would watch it from there. I asked Asuka what she would like to go out and do, she said she likes gardens and flowers, so that's what I focused on when I opened a portal. Asuka and I fused using the fusion amulet and went through the portal.

There was a beautiful garden on the other side of the portal, just as I had wanted to find. I could feel that Asuka liked it very much. I just let her control our fused body as she wandered through the garden, looking at the various flowers, smelling some of them, admiring others from afar, she picked one and put it in our hair. The garden was full of winding paths, there was a stream flowing through it with a pretty bridge over it, and Asuka's goal seemed to be to explore every bit of the garden. There was no questioning that the garden was pretty, but I was beginning to think L wasn't going to take the bait this time. Had he not noticed that Asuka was wandering around in a garden by herself? Had he caught on to the trick? Was he not as interested in Asuka as we had thought? Whatever the reason, it was beginning to look like he wasn't going to show up at all. I was just about to suggest to Asuka that we go home, I was getting a bit bored, when a portal opened in front of us. Without even giving much of a look around to make sure Asuka was alone, L's arm reached through the portal to grab our left arm and pull us through into his inner world.

I recognized L's inner world right away, we were near the pool that is outside of his house. I saw that Kanmuri was already back there, she was lying out on a lounge near the pool sunning herself when we arrived. She got up and looked over at L and me, rolling her eyes in an exacerbated manner. She asked L if he was never going to get it through his head that Asuka has no interest in him, he should stop going after some woman who didn't want him and give his attention all to her. She said she has an open mind about L having another woman around, but he should quit already with this woman who clearly doesn't like him. L said he had rescued me once more, that MoSh had carelessly let me out on my own, and now he would make sure I was protected. He said he knew I wanted to stay with him and he would make sure that this time it happened, MoSh and Raven weren't going to take me away from him this time.

I looked around at the pool and the house. I told L he might just be the man for me, assuming he has bigger balls than MoSh who seems to get mad at me every time I start to have some fun. L said of course, he has much bigger balls than MoSh, how could there be any doubt about that? He said his purpose would be to ensure I had fun every moment I was there with him. I smiled at him and said maybe I could be happy here after all, he said it had taken me long enough to acknowledge that he was really the one I want… he apparently thought I wasn't dressed properly, however, because he motioned and my clothes changed to a tiny sundress that left absolutely nothing to the imagination. I didn't really care. L looked at me in the sundress, practically drooling, and then said whatever would make me happy and want to stay was what I would get.

I told L what I really wanted to do was play some of the games I never get to play with MoSh without him getting mad. He asked what game I wanted to play. I said hide and seek… with a twist. I gave him a sexy look along with that suggestion which clearly got his attention. I said I would hide first. He said sure… then I said for him to count to 50, then come find me… He turned his back and started counting rather fast, I was actually surprised he could count that high. I went into the house and looked around in the first room I was in which appeared to be a kitchen. I moved through the kitchen into the living room where there was a lot of fancy furniture. I noticed one corner where there was a particularly dark shadow, I changed form into a shadow and merged with that shadow becoming completely invisible. Shortly later L came into the room. He said he knew I was in there. So… let the show begin.

L seemed pretty sure I was in the room, I wondered if he was cheating somehow. I focused on changing the dreamscape now, causing the shadows to grow and take over the room. Where it had been pretty bright and cheerful, now it was rather dark and dreary. L seemed to think that was strange, but he continued looking for me. I morphed my shadow form into my normal form, but I was dressed in tight leather instead of the sundress. L did a brief double take, but then said he had found me, so what was his reward? I said I wanted to hear him scream, he said he was sure I could make him scream. I said I knew I could, giving off an evil grin at the same time. Some of the other shadows formed dark tentacles and bound him to the floor, arms and legs spread, he apparently still thought he was in for some wild sex…

I had long fingernails which were actually thin blades dripping with acid. As I was standing over him some of the acid dripped onto him and burned through his clothes, burning into his skin. Those blade fingernails could be fired… so I fired one into his right shoulder where it smoked a bit as the acid ate away at his flesh, he let out a brief cry of pain and asked me what the fuck I thought I was doing… I said I was playing my game with him, I wanted to hear him scream. I fired more of the spears into him, into his arms, into his legs, anywhere I could fire one without hitting a vital organ and allowing him to die too quickly. I'd said I wanted to hear him scream, and he was screaming now. I took a couple of minutes to stand over him and laugh at his pain, he was screaming that it hurt so much, begging me to stop, crying like a baby, and a foul odor wafted over from him… he'd shit his pants! I acted disappointed, saying even MoSh had been able to play games better than this… how disappointing, because I was just getting started.

As I was deciding where to fire the next blade, Kanmuri came into the room and looked around. She asked what was going on in there, she had heard screaming… she looked and saw L pinned to the floor by shadows and with the blades sticking out of him, acid burning the areas around the blades. Now L was begging Kanmuri to help him, telling her that Asuka (I) had gone completely insane. Kanmuri looked upset, thought I think she was feigning it, and asked me what I was doing to her man, let him go right now. I made the dark tendrils retract, the room was bright and cheery once again. L still couldn't move, the blades had him pinned to the floor. I was definitely willing to help. I said it seemed neither L nor Kanmuri wanted to have any fun after all. I pulled the first blade out of L, doing this brought another scream of agonizing pain.

The blade was barbed so that it would go in smoothly but the barbs would extend when pulling it out, ripping the flesh on its way out. Kanmuri told me to stop doing that, I was hurting him. I said she wanted him to be free to get up, right? I continued pulling the blades out one by one, not doing it especially fast, twisting them a bit as I pulled them out, basically doing whatever I could to increase the pain they were causing… and of course the acid kept burning even after I had removed the blades. L was begging incoherently now, I couldn't tell what he was saying. The instant I got the last blade out Kanmuri was over to me telling me to stay away from him, how could I be so sick as to do those horrible things? I told her he had agreed to play my game… now he wanted to back out. How rude. Kanmuri told me to get out of L's inner world, she told me I wasn't welcome there. She began healing L's wounds, clearly soothing his pain with healing energy. I figured she wanted to be the good guy since she wanted L to focus his affection on her. I didn't interfere with that and I opened a portal back to MoSh's inner world when Kanmuri told me again that I was not welcome there.

Note: I have been having a lot of nights lately where I can't recall much in the way of my dreams, sometimes not remembering any at all. This is getting rather frustrating. I focused on one goal as I fell asleep tonight, I have been intending to go to MoSh's inner world and make sure Asuka is ok, MoSh has suggested she might need healing. I focused on this goal and managed to slip into a WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world. This was a familiar sight to me, and the appearance of his house continued to remain unchanging. I stood in the yard for a short time before approaching the front door and knocking. The door opened shortly later and I saw Asuka standing there with a bright smile on her face. My first impression was that there was nothing wrong with her, she seemed to feel fine. I did an energy scan and her energy looked fine as well. She invited me into the house where I found MoSh kicked back in the living room watching a big flat screen television. I looked closer and saw it wasn't a television show on there, rather it was a video game. I didn't recognize the game, so I asked MoSh what he was playing. He said he was playing the new Starcraft game. He did a couple more things, dropped a curse word, and then said he had been distracted by me and now he was dead. I muttered an apology, though I wasn't sure how I had managed to distract him enough that he would lose a strategy game like Starcraft.

MoSh didn't actually seem upset about the game, he asked what I had come over for. I said he had indicated that maybe Asuka had needed healing; I asked if she was still in need of healing. He said some extra healing energy could never do any harm, so I might as well go ahead and do it. For some reason I thought it was a good idea to take us all to the healing glen to do the healing, so I opened a portal and took MoSh and Asuka with me through.

On the other side we were in a healing glen, but it was the one in the biodome rather than the one where the Crystal Golem lives. There were a few other people there to include Nomad, Basara, and Pablo, and we all did a group healing. The glen was filled with some very relaxing golden energy. The energy was so relaxing that it felt like I might just wake up right there, but I didn't want to. I was in a lucid dream finally, and I wanted it to last longer than this. I focused on stabilizing the dream and managed to do it, then I opened a portal back to MoSh's inner world. When we exited the portal we were back in the living room, the game of Starcraft was still displayed on the flat screen television as it had been before we had left. MoSh looked at the screen and said he wasn't dead after all and then went back to playing the game. Asuka came out of the kitchen and had a plate full of warm cookies. She said we'd gotten back just in time to have cookies. I helped myself to some cookies, and they were delicious.

Chocolate chip cookies, double chocolate cookies, triple chocolate cookies… they were all delicious. MoSh ate some cookies, too, I saw him eating a particularly large cookie and he seemed to be enjoying it. I ate more cookies and then felt like I was making a pig of myself so I stopped.

I asked MoSh if he wanted to do something now. He continued playing Starcraft for a few more minutes before he said he wanted to keep playing Starcraft, he was having fun with that. I said ok, and then I grabbed him and jumped into the television with him… if he wanted to play Starcraft, let's actually go into the game and play it! It felt like MoSh and I were going through a wormhole. We were going to exit the other side of the wormhole into a Starcraft world.

I don't remember anything past this point. I have the idea that the dream continued, but the rest of my memory of it is a complete blank. So this is the end of my record of this dream.

Note: My goals for the night included going on a Voyager dream with MoSh and Asuka, trying to find Robo on the planet he painted. I also have the continuing goals of having a shared DDO dream with Tigress and completing some tasks of the year, and locating Xildron, who is currently a human but he is supposed to be a dragon… Since tonight was a night off of training with Vegeta, I was able to get straight to my other goals starting with my WILD…

Since my first goal was to pick up MoSh and Asuka, that was my first stop… in MoSh's inner world. The first thing I noticed when I stepped out of my portal was that MoSh's house had not changed. For the first time since his house got destroyed I had perceived it as the same for two visits in a row. We did discover that Asuka had been manipulating the house, changing it to various forms in an attempt to get MoSh to be lucid, but that apparently proved to be an epic fail. Asuka said now the house would remain constant. I was heading for the front door when both MoSh and Asuka appeared on the deck over the front door; they both jumped straight down, no need for stairs there, and MoSh said he was ready to get going. I opened a portal to the tower on the moon.

The three of us stepped through the portal and into the landing bay in the moon tower. I suggested to MoSh that we would get a friendlier greeting when we met Voyager if we used his Delta Flier as opposed to my Fire Valkyrie or just teleporting there, but there was one stop I wanted to make on the way. MoSh asked where. I said I just wanted to complete a task of the year by doing a small jaunt through time to see the asteroid that wiped out the dinosaurs. Since all we were supposed to do is watch the event, it would be an easy one to complete. MoSh seemed a little hesitant, saying his lucids are sometimes rather short as it is and he wanted to be sure he was still with us when we reached Voyager. I said not to worry about that, just tell me if he was about to wake up and I could dilate time, or he could go for it again. Either way, the dream would be extended. He hesitated a bit longer and finally said it was ok. The three of us got into MoSh's Delta Flier, launched from the tower, and flew through a portal I opened to get us to the proper point in time.

The sight of the Earth from space was, as usual, a magnificent sight. The continents were nothing like I am used to seeing them today, though. All of the continents were merged into one huge continent, known as Pangea. I could just imagine the dinosaurs roaming on the huge continent down there through the thick forests and savannas and… that was when I noticed the asteroid approaching. It was really quite close to the planet, moving through space at a quick pace.

The asteroid plunged through the atmosphere of the Earth and created a huge explosion on the surface that seemed to make a hole in the atmosphere itself, sending a wall of dust and debris up in all directions from the point of impact. My first thought would have been to destroy the asteroid before it hit the planet, but the spectacle of the impact was really something, too. We lingered only a short time longer before I opened a portal and we flew through it into the Delta Quadrant, into the area of space where we would find Voyager.

MoSh was piloting the ship while Asuka and I were seated behind him; his scanner showed the location of Voyager. Flying in the direction of Voyager, it wasn't long before we had contact from the starship. On the view screen I could see Captain Janeway clearly, along with some other people that looked familiar but I don't remember their names because it's been too long since I have watched Voyager regularly. I did recognize 7 of 9 beside Janeway… MoSh seemed to recognize them all. After a short talk he had permission to land, and flew the Delta Flier right into the landing bay of Voyager.

From the landing bay the three of us were shown the way to meet up with Janeway and some others. I remembered my goal of getting to the planet Robo described, so now the goal would be to get Voyager to that planet, which would mean convincing Janeway to go there. There was something Q had told me… something that would definitely get Janeway to agree to the side trip to Robo's planet. I checked my pentegan computer and found Q had programmed in the location of a wormhole that led from the location of Robo's planet to a spot a good deal closer to Earth. Q had emphasized that it was not a good idea to send Voyager directly home, there were still encounters on the way that they would need to make, but going that far would be a big step along the journey without bypassing any important events. As I had expected, when I first mentioned needing to go to that planet, Janeway said they didn't have enough resources to make that detour, but when I showed her a display of the wormhole, she and the others were quick to agree that making the detour and then using the wormhole would cut significant time off of their journey. Janeway ordered the ship be redirected to the planet Robo had described.

The journey to the planet Robo described was a short one when we traveled via interdimensional portal, which we passed off to Janeway as just another wormhole that would get us to where I needed to be a bit sooner. We emerged from the worm hole right near a planet with a surface that was extremely volcanically active. We got into orbit around the planet; Janeway contacted me and let me know we had arrived at the planet I had requested. I had been hanging out with MoSh and Asuka as they toured throughout the ship, but at that point I said things would go much more quickly if we could scan the planet for life before I went down to look. There was a man with us at the time; he looked at me as if I was completely insane. Tuvoc was also there in the area searching the planet surface for possible life forms would be illogical due to the fact the atmosphere was comprised of 5.7% water vapor, 58.1% carbon dioxide, 28.8% sulfur dioxide, 3.6% hydrogen, and 3.8% carbon monoxide with trace amounts of other compounds with no measurable oxygen at all… no known form of life can exist on such a world. Um… ok… he could have just said that the atmosphere was toxic without giving me a chemical breakdown… 7 of 9 announced that the Borg had assimilated a race of beings who could survive on such a planet… great… and irrelevant. I told them if they were to just search for signs of life I was sure they would be surprised.

Sure enough, a scan of the planet revealed a single life form on one side of the planet, species appeared to be human, and he was definitely on the surface of the planet. Everyone was saying how impossible that was, there was no possible way a human could survive under such conditions… I told the others that it seemed we had found the person I was looking for, so I was heading down to the planet surface. I told MoSh if he and Asuka wanted to stay on Voyager, that was fine. MoSh said they would wait on Voyager, then he said good luck on finding Robo. A man in the crew asked MoSh if he was really going to just let his friend beam down to a toxic planet. MoSh said sure, why not? Someone else said they could not beam me down to the planet, because that was the same as committing suicide. I agreed that he didn't have to beam me down, I could go down by myself. With that, I teleported myself out of the ship and down to the place where Voyager's sensors had detected life.

Volcanoes erupted around me in a spectacular display of exploding magma and billows of smoke rising into the air. The light on the planet surface was dim and had a red tint to it due to the thick reddish clouds that filled the sky. Of course I wasn't having any difficulty breathing, but I did have to admit that the atmosphere of the planet stank. It smelled like sulfur and smoke… not a pleasant odor at all. I ignored the smell of the air as I scanned the area for life energy. I followed the energy signature when I found it, following the signal down into a crevice and around to a flat area of the planet where I found there was someone standing there. I asked the person if he was Robo… he turned around and looked at me strangely. I asked him if he was lucid, did he realize that this was a dream? He paused a bit more, then smiled and called me Raven. He said to look around, the planet really did exist, it was real. He painted it and now it was real. He said he had created a world. As I got closer to him I noticed he had shortish dark hair, blue colored clothing, a cybernetic arm and one of his legs also appeared to be cybernetic. He said he could only imagine what else he could create… I asked him if he was going to remember this dream so we could confirm it as shared. He said sure, how could he forget this… poof. He disappeared. Oh, well. All I could do was teleport back to Voyager and hope that was really Robo and that he really remembered.

With that, I teleported back up to Voyager, appearing right in the middle of the bridge much to the surprise of everyone there. Janeway looked surprised that I had survived that visit, but didn't question that, she asked if I had found what I was looking for. I said I didn't know for sure, but there was nothing more to be done here. One of the crew members said the life form that had existed on the planet was now gone. Several people looked at me accusingly as if they thought I had gone down there just to kill the only living thing on the planet. I said not to worry, I hadn't killed anyone, the other person had just woken… um… teleported elsewhere. But there was no other ship, someone protested. No problem, he didn't need a ship. So now for my end of the deal, to get Voyager a good distance farther along in their journey home. When I telepathically contacted him, Q opened that wormhole. Voyager flew through the wormhole and almost instantly came out the other side where there was no planet in sight. A few scans confirmed that they were, indeed, much closer to their final destination than they had been just moments before. I was going to ask where MoSh and Asuka had gone off to when everything faded and I woke.

Note: Tonight I was successful in my WILD for the second night in a row! I send a big out to Mzzkc from the Dreamviews lucid dreaming site! One more in a row, and I think I can officially call my dry spell over! So my goals today started out with stopping into MoSh's inner world and seeing how Asuka is doing, MoSh has said she was still sick. The level of light energy may be too high and could be negatively affecting Asuka. So the goal there was to restore balance… I meditated with my light / sound machine and slipped into a WILD…

I was inside MoSh's inner world. It was very bright and sunny there. It seemed a bit too bright… I went over to the house and knocked, MoSh let me in. I went inside and looked around. It was almost as bright inside as it had been outside. I wondered where Asuka was. I asked MoSh how she was doing. MoSh said she was not feeling well, so she was in bed… resting. He said she didn't seem to be able to sleep, but she was resting. I followed MoSh to find Asuka in a bedroom on the second floor.

Asuka was lying in bed, looking a bit ill. She was quite pale, and she also looked like she wanted to get up. She said she had to get up and do something. MoSh asked how she was feeling. She seemed to get angry suddenly and said she was fine, it was positive energy and thus you can never have too much of it, so MoSh should stop giving her a hard time about it. She picked up a light energy shard off of the table beside her bed. She said there was no way anyone who used dark energy was going to get anywhere near her now, or anywhere near MoSh's inner world for that matter. She looked over and saw me. She told me to get out of there before that shit I've been trying to use gets out and contaminates MoSh's inner world. She said if I am going to play with shit, I should do it somewhere that is not in MoSh's inner world. I wanted to get her to be rational… but that wasn't looking likely…

Ok… the entire place was over-saturated with light energy. I wondered what to do about that… most of my spells are focused on eliminating excess dark energy, not to eliminate excess light energy… since that's not an issue I have come across as far as I remember… Well, the first thing seemed to be to remove some of the sources of light energy. And there were lots of those. I went around MoSh's house and gathered up a lot of the sources of light energy. I was thinking I had taken a lot of them out previously, and now there were so many more… I wondered if Asuka was still collecting them or if she'd had a stash hidden away somewhere in MoSh's inner world… I wasn't sure. I collected most of the sources of light energy and telepathically contacted Q to take them back to where they were needed. Not only did Asuka gathering so many light energy sources cause there to be too much light energy in MoSh's inner world, it could be setting the locations she took the energy sources from out of balance. Q appeared, and he took the sources of light energy and disappeared.

Now I looked around and there was still an excessive amount of light energy in there. It would take quite a while for all of that to disperse… I thought one of the quickest ways to lower the level of light energy would be to neutralize some of it… and that could be done with a bit of dark energy? Letting the two mix in a controlled manner, the two should neutralize each other… I didn't want to let a bunch of dark energy out into MoSh's inner world, though… I ran a small test. I created a small ball of dark energy in my hand and held it out. It disappeared as quickly as an ice cube melting in the July sun in southern Arizona… it just melted away. So the neutralizing could work… and as long as I was careful about it… so I created some more of the energy balls and let them melt away in the brightness of the excessive light energy… slowly it started to have an effect, making the overly brightness of the area fade back towards normal. I kept doing that until the lighting in the area both outside and inside the house was just slightly brighter than I am used to seeing it. A little extra light energy wouldn't hurt anything.

I went back to where Asuka was. She seemed to be glowing with light energy. I did a scan of her energy. Her energy aura was practically blinding… It looked like an energy level more appropriate for Q, who is a being made entirely of light energy. This was not natural for Asuka. Asuka had calmed down and was sitting on the couch in the living room now. I asked how she was feeling. She said not too great… she said she kind of felt like she was on fire. I said it might help if she was to expend some of her light energy… use it on something. Anything. She said she couldn't. She said she couldn't focus it, none of it wanted to cooperate. There had to be some way to get rid of it… The same way as I had neutralized the excess light energy in the surrounding environment? Maybe… but I didn't want to hurt Asuka by accident… But how else? I told Asuka I was going to try to help her. She said ok. I took hold of her hand and let a small amount of dark energy go into her… She immediately got upset at that, trying to pull away and throwing out a few choice words at me… MoSh was looking at me, seeming unsure of what to do… Asuka was still fighting me, struggling to get away, yelling at MoSh to help her, I had clearly gone mad… I kept a close watch on her energy, constantly scanning… the dark energy wasn't getting very far… it was being neutralized almost instantly as it went in… Asuka slowly began to resist less, she seemed tired. I kept scanning and adding tiny amounts of dark energy until her aura was about the brightness it was supposed to be, perhaps a bit brighter.

In spite of having plenty of energy, Asuka looked really tired. I figured it was basically a crash after having been wired on light energy. I scanned her very closely and saw no sign of dark energy inside her… she was clean. MoSh asked if Asuka was ok… he asked what I had done to her… I said I had just neutralized the excess light energy in her, and she would probably rest for a while since there had been a sudden decrease in her energy level. I told him she would need a bit of time to re-adjust to having her normal energy level, sort of like when a person feels neutral, gets high, then comes back down to neutral, after coming back down to neutral that can feel kind of crappy until they get re-adjusted. I said to say Asuka had been high was an understatement… she had been so high she would have been floating in some other galaxy… but she looked like she would be ok now.

MoSh helped Asuka back upstairs to the bedroom and into bed. He came back down shortly. He seemed a bit annoyed. He said Asuka had told him I had been infecting her with dark energy. He asked if I might have been doing that by accident while trying to stabilize her energy, because he had been under the impression I was in control of that. I hesitated, then just told the truth about how I had neutralized the excess light energy in her… He did not seem too thrilled about that… he asked if there was any chance she would be infected with the stuff… I said no, she had been so high on light energy that any dark energy had been immediately neutralized. I said I had scanned her when I was done, and there had not been any trace of dark energy left in her, only light, and her light energy was just slightly above what it normally was because I didn't want to take a chance on leaving it too low. MoSh stood there looking at me for a couple more minutes. He didn't seem to know what to think of that method of healing… Apparently he finally decided to accept it, because he changed the subject.

MoSh now said that we could go view a section of a Carlos Castaneda book where Carlos was talking to don Juan… we had agreed to that as a goal on the night before… but I felt the dream was going to end soon. I told MoSh that. MoSh said it was a good chance to use time dilation. I wondered what type to use… I wondered what would happen if both of us used it… what if we dilated time in different ways… like he set it to 4 dream hours for each hour IWL and I did it for 2 dream hours.. that seemed like it could cause a problem… but what if one of use used it and the other didn't… would it work for both of us? Or would he be going at 4 dream hours for each hour IWL while I was still on a one to one relation… I was confusing myself… MoSh was already using time dilation… He had his hand on the ground and was focusing on that at the same time as he was counting, he was apparently using Walms' method. I would just have to see what happened…

Note: I am sure the dream continued after here, but it continued with a high degree of disorientation on my part, maybe partly due to the difference in time dilation… so I'm sure the dream continued, but all of my memories from that point on were too vague to post.

Note: I have been having absolutely no luck with my WILD's lately. Mzzkc gave me a few pointers on how to improve my chances for a WILD… and I used that advice last night. I was successful in having a WILD! My goals included contacting L to see if there is a way to get him to back off and leave Asuka alone (), figure out how to dilate time (), have a shared DDO dream with Tigress (), open that locked book ()… I got so much done today! I am very pleased with that. I used my light / sound machine and for the first time in a long time I successfully slipped into a WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world, and I was lucid. I looked around. I was in the living room of MoSh's new house. MoSh and Asuka were sitting there on the couch. There were glowing white crystals, gems, jewelry, and other such objects positioned all over the room. The room had a bright white glow due to the energy being emitted from the various gems and crystals. Asuka was staying right next to MoSh. MoSh said Asuka still seemed to be not well. I looked at all the light energy around us. I wondered how Asuka could not be feeling well… I thought maybe she could be getting too much light energy, it seems like too much of anything can end up being a bad thing… my goal here should be to balance Asuka's energy out. I focused a healing spell on Asuka, focusing on bringing balance to her energy. Not necessarily on adding still more light energy, but restoring balance. The energy that flowed through Asuka was still golden energy, and that energy felt very relaxing and stabilizing. After the song was done, I gathered up some of the light energy sources and placed it in an interdimensional pocket so Q could put them where they belonged. I left a couple of white shards there with Asuka and MoSh.

Ok… time for the next goal. I told MoSh I would open the portal to get to L's inner world. MoSh followed me through. On the other side we were standing near the pool and house that I have come to recognize as L's inner world. There were bimbos in the pool again… apparently L had not spared any time in getting his bimbo DCs back after Walms had torn them to pieces. L looked over at us when we entered. He didn't look pleased. He came over to us and asked what we were there for this time. MoSh said he was there to tell L to leave Asuka alone. L got right in MoSh's face. He said MoSh should make him. He then immediately said that there was nothing MoSh could do to stop him. He said Asuka was his, the only thing left to happen was to claim her. He laughed. MoSh told me that I should try to find him a girlfriend. I wondered if such a woman even existed. I focused on opening a portal… focused on finding a woman who would actually be willing to put up with L. Now that portal was not quick to form. I focused for a bit longer, got somewhat of a headache, but then a portal opened. MoSh and I went through…

On the other side MoSh and I were in what looked like a luxury resort. There were both men and women all around, talking, drinking various drinks, eating, etc. I wondered if there was a woman there who would want to meet L. I focused on finding the person who had led me there. I got a feeling of where to go. I followed that feeling and found a woman who looked similar to Asuka, although they clearly are not the same person. She was wearing a really pretty kimono and was sitting at a table with a man… um… wouldn't it be better if the woman were single? I was still watching when the woman stood up, threw her drink all over the man, said she should have known he had an ulterior motive for wanting to meet with her… after all, the only time he ever wanted to meet with her was if he wanted something… and then stormed away from him in our direction. She stopped when she saw we were looking at her. She asked what we were looking at. Not knowing what else to say, I asked if she was ok after that incident. She said yes, she was, that was just her freeloading brother trying to get money off of her again. She started to walk away, and I stopped her.

I said there was something I wanted to ask her. She looked and asked what it was. I found I couldn't make myself say any more. MoSh said there was a guy looking to meet a woman like her… she asked if this man was a mooch like her brother. MoSh hesitated and then said no. MoSh said not all men are mooches, and I think he was going to say something else, but the woman interrupted and said yes, she knows that, it's only the ones that come around her, she was sure most men were fine. She said she was looking to meet someone, so sure she would meet with our friend. She stood there while I was still hesitant. It felt like I was setting this woman up to be executed or something… it didn't feel right to me at all. The woman got a bit impatient and asked where this friend was. She said she would make no guarantees that she would like this man, but she would actually have to meet him first. I stood there a bit longer until MoSh finally elbowed me in the arm. MoSh said to open a portal. I focused on opening a portal back to L's inner world, and it opened. The woman looked at the portal with an excited look on her face.

"You mean this friend of yours is extradimensional?" she asked, "I have always wanted to see other worlds!" She went through the portal before either MoSh or I could get to it. We followed her right away, and the portal closed behind us.

We were back at L's pool, next to the house. The woman looked around, surveying the pool and the assortment of bimbos swimming in it. She commented that the pool was contaminated… someone should clean it out. She waved her hand and all of the DC bimbos vanished. She said those weren't even real… they were just illusions. She asked where the man was that she had come to meet. L was staring at his pool where the DC's had just disappeared. He seemed a bit perplexed. MoSh called his name, causing L to turn towards us and he saw there were now three of us. He came over and looked at the woman, then commented that she wasn't his Asuka. The woman said no, her name wasn't Asuka, her name was Kanmuri. L didn't seem to be paying any more attention to Kanmuri. He looked back at MoSh and me. He said MoSh could bring all the women he wanted, that would never change the fact Asuka wants to be with him. I told him Asuka does NOT want to be with him, but that doesn't mean there aren't women who do. L looked at me, eyeing me very closely. He asked if I was by chance referring to me wanting to be with him… I thought I might be sick when he said that.

Kanmuri apparently was getting a bit bored of being ignored. She said while we all worked things out, she was going to take a look around. She went over to the pool and put one hand in the water, then she splashed some water on her face. She went over to the patio where there was a table full of refreshments. She tasted a couple of things she found there and seemed pleased with what she had found. She picked up what looked like a margarita and started sipping it. She also seemed pleased with that. She went into the house, apparently inviting herself to take a look around, and L either didn't care or he didn't even notice. He was still looking at me. He said if I really wanted him to leave Asuka alone, I would volunteer to spend some time with him. Um… yuck… gross… I have absolutely no interest in L… L got closer to MoSh and said something… I didn't hear all of it, but it had something to do with me having sex with him and leaving Asuka alone… He moved away from MoSh and said to MoSh that if his friend (me) would be a bit more cooperative… he got closer to me and tried to cop a feel! He placed one hand on my breast! My reaction was rather instant… I grabbed his wrist and flipped him over onto the ground, pinning him there with my foot on his neck. He seemed quite surprised at the speed of my response.

"Hey, L!" Kanmuri said as she came out of the house. She was now wearing a shiny necklace and matching earrings that looked like they were worth a fortune. "L, I found these in your house, and thought I'd try them on. What do you think? I like them. You've got a great place here. A woman could… um… did you bring me here to meet someone and now you're going to turn around and kill him?"

"No," I said, "I am not interested in killing him. He put his hands where they don't belong." I removed my foot and let L up. L gave me a dirty look. Kanmuri was interested in getting L's attention back on her. She went over to him and was clearly flirting. She asked again what he thought of the jewelry she was wearing. She said she had found it in the house, which she would say again that L has a very nice place. L said that it was as simple as that. If MoSh wanted him to leave Asuka alone then MoSh would have to convince me to make love to him, wild passionate love. I thought I might actually throw up. Kanmuri said if L was looking for a lover, she… L interrupted and said he would have Asuka, and bringing random women around wouldn't work. He stormed into the house and slammed the door behind him.

I looked at Kanmuri, not sure what to say. I said I would open a portal to send her home. She immediately refused. She said no way, she was going to stick around here for a while. The fact that L was hung up on a woman he couldn't have didn't deter her. She said it was just a matter of time before he realized that the woman right here in front of him is worth a dozen women he could never hope to have. She winked at us. Her clothes transformed into a bikini, and she went to the pool and dived in. She was underwater for a bit before she surfaced, then swam to the other side. She seemed to be enjoying herself. Well, there was nothing more to be done there… so I figured to open a portal to get MoSh and myself back to my inner world… where he said he would take a look at the locked book from the Akashic records to see if he could help me get it open… (Continued in next entry…)

I was in bed. I rolled over and looked at the clock. It was way too early to get up. It was only 2:30 am. The fact that this time is actually before the time I went to bed didn't occur to me at the time. I had to use the bathroom. I got out of bed and almost tripped over the edge of my waterbed… almost fell flat on my face… ow… I hit my shin on the frame of my waterbed and It really hurt. I figured that would leave a nice bruise for the morning… I reached down to feel if it was cut or not. There was something weird there… a really nasty scratch? I turned on the light when I got to the bathroom and looked at my shin. I went into the bathroom and turned on the light. There was a scratch there… much more than that. I could see the bone! But it wasn't bleeding… I gently touched the wound… and it hurt a lot. There was no way I had hit my shin that hard! I would need several bandages for that… and a lot of time for the flesh to grow back… but something was off. I finally decided to do a RC. I found out I was dreaming!

I looked back at the wound in my shin and healed it just by focusing on it. The injury went away. I stopped to think about my goals. I needed to go heal MoSh and Asuka. That was my first plan. So I opened a portal to go find MoSh. I went through the portal and into MoSh's inner world. I looked around, and the first thing I noticed was that the house wasn't the same as I am used to seeing it. I remembered that MoSh had wanted it rebuilt differently after it had been blown up in an attack. (Unfortunately, I can't seem to keep a steady image of the place in my mind long enough to look up a pic! >.<) I went over to the front door. I knocked on it, and it opened. I went inside and I saw Data not far inside. He looked over at me. He indicated a door I didn't recognize and said MoSh and Asuka were both in there.

In the next room I found MoSh and Asuka together. They were sitting on a very nice couch right next to each other. It looked really comfortable. I went over to them. MoSh said Asuka needed healing. MoSh said Asuka hadn't been herself since she had gotten back after the last time she was taken. I looked at Asuka, focusing on seeing her energy. When I sensed her energy it did look like there was some dark energy in there, and it didn't belong there. It was keeping Asuka's energy from becoming completely stable. I looked over at MoSh to see if he had any of the same. There was something weird in him… a strange form of energy. It didn't look the same as Asuka's dark energy, but it also was not a good thing to have there. I would do healing spells on both of them to clear that out. I used Silver and Cold to draw all of the dark energy in Asuka into me, and stabilized it right away. I looked at MoSh… I wasn't sure if it was a good idea to just absorb that energy since it looked kind of strange. I thought it might have more of a tendency to go unstable, and I don't need any more of that. So I focused on the song Touch My Heart from the Devil Hunter Yohko soundtrack. The song played through, golden energy formed and flowed through both MoSh and Asuka. The strange energy inside MoSh got cleansed out. The entire room was filled with golden energy when MoSh pulled a guitar out of nowhere and started playing.

After the songs were over, there was still residual golden energy hanging in the room. It made for a very relaxing atmosphere. MoSh and Asuka hugged for a bit. MoSh turned over to me. He said he was willing to help me with one of my goals… I wondered if he was lucid. I asked him if he realized this was a dream. He looked around, at Asuka, and then back at me. He looked at his hand and then back at me again. I wondered if he was doing a RC. I said a couple of the goals I have include opening the strange book from the Akashic Records (which was what MoSh had volunteered to help with) and he had suggested we dilate time to make sure the dream would last long enough to get more than one thing done. I said I didn't feel like waking up yet, so I would just open the portal back to my inner world. If he was about to wake up, though, we could try time dilation first. He said he was ok. I opened a portal back to my inner world. Both MoSh and I went through.

On the other side we were in my bedroom in my inner world. MoSh was looking around strangely. I asked if he was ok. He said yeah. I asked if he would remember the dream. He said no. I pulled a Gibbs on him and asked again if he was going to remember the dream. He said no. I wasn't sure if he was not really lucid or if he was just being stubborn… I took the book off of my dresser. It was locked tight as always. MoSh took the book and looked at it for a bit, turning it over in his hands and looking at the lock. He looked at some of the markings on the book. I wondered if he was understanding any of it. I remembered that Tigress had also said she would help. Maybe I should go get her… so both she and MoSh could look at it together with me, all at the same time. I was thinking about opening a portal when I felt like I was waking up. I asked MoSh about the time dilation. He said to count while focusing on one part of the dream and everything else… um… ok… I focused on the book that MoSh was holding. I wasn't sure how to focus on that and everything at once, though. I was counting. 1… 2… 3… 4… lost focus on the book when trying to focus on the room… then the room was spinning, and then I woke. D'Oh!

Note: My first goal tonight was to go find Asuka… again. Of course I was sure I knew exactly where Asuka was, but the task of getting her out was still the same. I knew she had been taken by L again… it seems like that guy just won't quit… I am continuing to attempt my nightly WILD and I am continuing to fail at my nightly WILD. Tonight was no different. I fell asleep, no WILD.

I was walking along River road towards ITT Tech. I was late for class. I'd had to ditch my car back down River. I didn't have my backpack, but I wasn't thinking about that. I was annoyed that my car had broken down. I was annoyed that I was late for class. I was hot because I was out walking in the sun. Basically I was all around cranky. I continued walking towards the school, muttering expletives to myself about the situation I found myself in. I finally got to the school… or to where the school should've been. It wasn't there. Instead there was a pile of rubble. I wondered what had happened. I asked a man I saw. He said the school had been bombed. No survivors. What??? I looked at the pile of smoking rubble. No… had Tigress been in there? If she'd gotten there on time she would have been in there… I wanted to go check the parking lot for her car… but there were people keeping everyone out. They said something about rabid skunks in there… rabid skunks??? The man I was talking to said yeah, rabid skunks, those rabid skunks had been in there all day trying to steal the Macintosh computers. That just sounded too weird… I did a RC and became lucid.

I stood there looking at the pile of rubble for a bit, thinking about my goals. To go get Asuka back from L… again. Ok… first I had said I would pick up Pablo and take him along. So I was going to try to get to Pablo. I opened a portal while focusing on getting to Pablo's inner world. I went through the portal when it opened… I was now in a forest. I looked around. I didn't see anyone there. I wondered where I might find Pablo. After a bit of searching in the forest I found Pablo. He was in his half human and half fox form. He looked like Fox McCloud. I grabbed Pablo his left arm and pulled him through a portal I directed to MoSh's inner world. MoSh was visible as soon as I exited the portal. There was another pile of rubble, this one was the remains of MoSh's house… There was also an area around MoSh's house that was charred. The blast radius had extended outside the house and trashed some of the area around it. I grabbed MoSh and said it was time to go get his wife back. I took MoSh and Pablo through another portal that led to the biodome on the moon. That's where I figured I would find Nomad. I had figured correctly. Nomad was there looking at the koi pond. I told Nomad I was ready to go. I opened another portal to get to L's inner world and herded everyone through it.

On the other side we were all standing near the house and pool I have seen in L's inner world a couple different times now. There was a whole new set of DC bimbos there since Walms had torn apart L's first set of DC bimbos… L was lounging out beside the pool. He had Asuka right beside him, she was also lounging out. Both of them had some kind of tropical drinks. L wasn't paying any attention to us now. We got a bit closer. MoSh said he wanted his wife back. L said Asuka had chosen him. Asuka was lying beside L, and she told MoSh to go away. But she sounded like she was in a trance, kind of zoned out. I told L that Asuka would have to say that herself when she wasn't being controlled by him. He said there was no control on Asuka. I said that if that is true, he shouldn't mind if I use a song spell to free her. L gave me a dirty look. I ignored that completely. I went over to Asuka and used Breaking the Silence by Queensrÿche. L came over, apparently intending to interfere. Nomad and MoSh cut him off before he got to me. Nomad said to leave the women alone, and they guys could hang out a bit. The song spell caused the dazed look to leave Asuka's face.

Asuka looked at me and then over at the pool and then over at L. She stood up and looked annoyed. I looked back over at L, MoSh, and Nomad. Pablo was near Asuka and me. L was focused more on Pablo. He reached out and grabbed Pablo's tail, which apparently annoyed Pablo. Pablo did a wheel kick and kicked L in the face. He then seemed surprised at his own move. MoSh was pointing at L with his pinky. He seemed to be focusing on something. I looked over at L, who was now throwing threats out at Pablo. He said he was going to skin Pablo alive and have himself a brand new fox fur coat. MoSh was still focusing. I saw something behind L, at first it was faint, but then it solidified. It was some kind of reptilian alien. L didn't see his company right away, he was too busy threatening and cursing at Pablo. Now he was talking about breaking every bone in Pablo's body.

"I'm going to break every fucking bone in your body," L threatened, " and see how well you can kick once…" he looked to his left, which was where the reptilian alien was… "… kick once you… who the FUCK are you?!" The reptilian alien silvery threads that went into L's head. The alien manipulated those threads and L turned around and attacked Nomad. I focused on the song Liberate to allow L to break the mind control the alien had on him. Nomad cut through the threads that went from the reptilian to L. Once those were broken, L looked really disoriented. He looked around at everyone around him, invited Pablo back to his room for some recreational activities, emphasized that invitation with some very conspicuous winking, then he disappeared. Apparently he had woken up. Consequently the dream world we were in ceased to exist, we were somewhere else.

I looked around the new place. I didn't recognize it, we were on a barren planet. Craters marked the surface of the moon and the sky was black. There were multiple reptilian entities there. Most of them seemed to not be interfering. I wondered what they were doing there if they weren't going to interfere. Then a fight broke out, and so much for them not interfering. The fight was complete chaos. I didn't really get much of a look at what everyone else was doing. They didn't seem to want to die. Blasting them with energy didn't seem to do it. Finally the fight caused the group of reptilians to be gathered in one place. I opened a vortex portal using the song Black Hole Sun, then everyone shoved the reptilian aliens through the portal and closed it behind them. I turned around and saw we had missed one. The one who had been controlling L. That one was glaring at us. He said we may have defeated his puppets, but we would not defeat him.

I was getting ready for more of a fight, but someone else attacked the reptilian first. There was a fight that moved rather quickly, and the reptilian was getting the shit kicked out of him. But he wasn't dying. He told the person attacking him that he could not be killed. I saw that the person attacking him was Walms. Walms beat on him some more, cut him open with his claws… the wounds healed right away… the reptilian creature laughed more. Walms attacked the thing again, but this time it looked like he was trying to take a bite out of the thing… the reptilian shoved Walms away from him, asking him what the fuck he thought he was doing? Walms said he was going to eat the reptilian, of course, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. The alien looked at him weird and said Walms was completely fucking nuts. Walms didn't really pay much attention to that, he attacked the thing again. He actually took a bite out of it… yuck! The thing was cursing loudly and said there were many others that would come. Walms asked if the others were as tasty as that one, then literally ripped its head off and ate some of what came out. Yuck!

I didn't want to look at Walms over there being disgusting… so I turned to Asuka. She was looking over at Walms, she looked rather green. MoSh came over to her and put his arms around her. He asked if she was ok. She was still staring at Walms, then she turned to the side and vomited. I didn't want to imagine the sight that had made her vomit. I asked how she was feeling. She said sick to her stomach… I said for that, stop watching Walms… but other than that… she looked at me now, and said she felt weak. I used a healing spell to give her golden healing energy. That flowed through her and she looked some better. MoSh said he was going to get her home. They disappeared shortly before things around me faded and I woke.

Note: I fell asleep tonight with a couple of goals. My first goal was that I was going to meet MoSh's guide and talk to him for a bit. I also have the continuing goal of sharing a DDO dream with Tigress. While I did have a DDO dream, I didn't manage to share it with Tigress… I am also wanting to open the locked book I found in the Akashic Records (still haven't even tried) and complete a task of the month and… and… the list goes on and on. Time to get on with the dreams for this night…

I was in a place I didn't recognize. It was a nice place. Green grass, trees… I could see houses not far off, so I wasn't sure if I was in someone's yard or not. If it was a yard, it was a very nice one. I started walking around in the yard. There was a pond there with some ducks in it. I wished I had some bread to feed them. There was a little girl watching the pond. She turned to me and smiled. She called me Raven and said if I was looking for MoSh, he was in the house. She headed for the house. I wasn't sure if she wanted me to follow her or not, but she quickly disappeared. I was unable to follow her, so I continued looking at the pond. It was very relaxing.

"Raven?" came a voice from behind me. I turned to see who it was. It was MoSh! Right here with me! MoSh! I went over to see him. I told him I couldn't believe I was actually getting a chance to meet him IWL! I said I had met him many times in dreams, but never IWL! But here he was… and this wasn't a dream… or… um… I wasn't fully convinced that it wasn't a dream. I did a RC and found out I was dreaming.

"Shit!" I said, "This is a dream!" I stopped and thought about that statement… it being a dream isn't a bad thing, that means I am now lucid in a dream. The only bad part was that I wasn't really meeting MoSh IWL. I told MoSh that it was a dream and asked if he knew it was a dream. I told him to do a RC, get lucid, and remember me! MoSh looked at his hand for a moment… then he said he wanted to talk to Victor. I asked who Victory was. He said it was his guide. I remembered the goal of finding MoSh's guide and talking to him. MoSh called him a couple of times. I wondered if Victor was able to hear MoSh just yelling. I scanned the area for energy signatures… ducks… fish… Asuka… Shawna… someone I didn't recognize! The energy of the person I didn't recognize didn't seem hostile… and it was heading towards MoSh and me, so I just had to wait for a bit. I waited for a bit while MoSh was still calling, and soon a man appeared in front of us.

The man had dark hair that was down to about the bottom of his ears, he had a short beard, he had on a pair of glasses at the time and peered at MoSh over the top of those glasses. He told MoSh he didn't have to call so loud, just do it telepathically. He looked over at me. He asked what MoSh needed. MoSh introduced me to the man, who was Victor, MoSh's current guide. MoSh said he wanted to talk to Victor, but he probably wouldn't remember it… Victor just looked at MoSh strangely. MoSh asked Victor what the plan was. Victor asked what plan. MoSh said what did Victor have planned for him. Victor laughed a bit and said he hadn't come here with a plan all laid out and intentions to force MoSh to go one particular way. He said his only goal was to help MoSh as he travels along his path of discovery… but where that path would lead would be entirely MoSh's choosing.

MoSh asked why he didn't seem to be able to get lucid lately. Victor said MoSh shouldn't stress so much about becoming lucid. He said that stress alone is enough to hinder MoSh from becoming lucid. MoSh didn't seem to appreciate that answer. He said that was easy for Victor to say not to stress about it, but not so easy to do. Victor said it is worth a try, meditation and relaxation, because stress is a hindrance to lucidity. Victor said if there is something important to be done, MoSh is perfectly capable of doing it in his deep dreaming state, just relax and let the dreams flow to him, and he would begin to recognize the distinct feeling of the dream plane.

Victor said if MoSh wanted to be lucid more often, he needs to be more aware of everything around him, but in dreaming and in waking. Subtle clues will always give the dream state away… differences in locations if MoSh was traveling to a parallel world… a different feeling when MoSh wasn't in his physical body but just in his dream body. He said becoming more aware of everything around MoSh would work like a constant reality check, so he would immediately notice any inconsistency that might signal that it is a dream. MoSh shook his head and said reality checks don't work for him. Victor asked if that meant MoSh was refusing to do any RCs. MoSh repeated that RCs don't work for him. Victor said this isn't so much of a RC method as a method of recognizing the distinct feel of the dream plane. He said MoSh should take a short time IWL to just take in everything his senses can receive, see how everything feels… then, once in the habit of taking a moment to just feel what his senses can tell him, MoSh would do that in a dream, and the feeling would be distinctly different. He said MoSh is already doing that sometimes, the times where he finds himself spontaneously lucid without ever having questioned reality. He said that is where MoSh's subconscious recognizes the different feel of the dream. He said it should help for MoSh to use that technique consciously.

MoSh looked over at me. He didn't seem too pleased. He said he'd been hoping to get something useful out of his guide… I commented that he should be lucid right now… he said nope, he wasn't. That statement made no sense… how could he realize he was speaking to his guide in a dream and not consider himself lucid? I told him he was dreaming, so become lucid now. Do a RC. He looked at his hand for a bit, then pointed at Victor with his pinky. Victor's appearance changed into a spectral cloud of energy. Blues and whites flashed around inside Victor. MoSh stopped pointing and Victor went back to his normal form. Victor was looking at MoSh strangely. I said now all MoSh needed to do was remember this dream, and maybe take a moment to see how the dream feels. He looked at me and said he wouldn't remember the dream. I asked why not. He said he wouldn't, then he disappeared. D'Oh! Where had he gone? Woken up? I looked at Victor for a bit before I woke.

Note: I went to bed tonight with an unexpected goal. MoSh had come on the computer and said there were some disturbing things going on with him, he'd had a nightmare, so my goal was to go check out MoSh's inner world and make sure things were ok in there. This was the goal I had in mind when I fell asleep. Once again no WILD, but I did have the following dreams…

I was at work. It was the hospital where I used to work. I was sitting at my desk. I had been sleeping. Crap… I looked around and saw Susie also asleep. Well, at least I hadn't been seen sleeping. I got up and paced a bit in the office to try to wake myself up. I woke Susie up. She looked up at me and asked what I was doing. I said I was sleepy so I was walking to wake myself up. She said to grab a pillow and sleep then, it was nap time. Nap time? Since when did my job have nap time? She must have seen that I was confused. She asked how else am I supposed to check the inside of the servers except through a lucid dream? She said I should get to sleep and into a lucid so I could go check out the MExchange1 server while she finished checking on the Harp0 server. She lied her head down to go back to sleep. Checking servers in lucid dreams? Better get in the habit of doing RCs. To begin that I did a RC right there. I could breathe through my nose even when I pinched it… I was dreaming right now! Screw this job! I'm outta here!

I walked out of the office and down the hall to the door that led to the fire exit. Concrete stairs led both up and down from there, but instead I climbed up on the concrete railing. I did another RC just to be sure, then I jumped into the air and flew. Yay flying! Yay lucid dream! Ok… focus. I flew away from the hospital and thought about my goals. I wanted to do a DDO dream… I wanted to open a locked book I have in my inner world… I wanted to complete the task of… MoSh! That name pushed into my head with force. MoSh! I had said I was going to go check out what had happened with MoSh! I bumped paying a visit to MoSh to the top of my list of goals. I focused on opening a portal… at first it didn't want to work, but then I focused harder and it opened. I flew through the portal…

I landed in the yard outside of MoSh's house. The weather was bright and sunny. I went over to the house. I could hear voices inside, a man and a woman were talking really mushy mush to each other. I looked inside through the window and saw MoSh and Asuka kissing pretty heavy. I didn't want to interrupt their make-out session. I turned to leave, but I remembered I was going to check on Asuka. I looked into the window again. I would check on both of their energies to see if there was any sign of contamination. I looked, focused, and I saw none. It wasn't just that I saw no contamination, I saw no energy at all! They weren't real! Wtf? I quickly made up a corny rhyme spell… "Dispel the vision that I see, from illusion set me free." The illusory MoSh and Asuka vanished… and the entire scene shifted…

Now I was in the basement of MoSh's house. MoSh and Asuka were chained to two separate stone tables. There were people there torturing them. I recognized the torturers, too. Nomad was peeling MoSh's skin off and Angel was sticking rusty nails in Asuka. Wtf?! No way could that really be Nomad and Angel… Whoever it was I was going to stop them. I went in to stop them and noticed again… no one there had any energy. I repeated the spell I'd made to dispel illusions… "Dispel the vision that I see, from illusion set me free!"

The scene shifted again, but not much this time. It had just shifted so that Nomad and Angel were being tortured by MoSh and Asuka instead of the other way around. "Dispel this vision that I see, from illusion… glurk…" My spell was interrupted when I nearly puked. MoSh had just torn one of Nomad's eyes out and fed it to Asuka, popping it into her mouth like a piece of candy… Yuck! I went through my dispel illusion spell faster so I wouldn't get distracted again… "Dispel this vision that I see, from illusion set me free!"

The scene changed again. Asuka tied up naked between two trees in a forest, MoSh videotaping as a line of disgusting looking men forced themselves on her. Asuka was screaming and crying… no… repeat dispel illusion spell… MoSh and Asuka swapped places, the ugly men were doing MoSh from the rear while Asuka filmed it and laughed, "How do you like it, you sick fuck?" Um… no… repeat dispel illusion spell. The scene shifted. Asuka and MoSh having pretty violent and raunchy sex… well, I don't know how they like to do it… The people had no energy, not real. Repeat dispel illusion. MoSh stabbing Asuka many times and then coming towards me with the bloody knife… no… dispel illusion… MoSh and Asuka skinning live animals, couldn't tell what kind… no… dispel illusion. This was getting ridiculous! Asuka giving oral pleasure to MoSh then suddenly ripping his… um… you-know-what off with her teeth… no… dispel illusion, dispel illusion, dispel illusion! Damn it! Why wasn't it working?! I focused carefully, not paying any attention to the screaming around me as who did I-don't-want-to-know-what to who… and focused on the spell, "Dispel this vision that I see, from illusion set me free. All this horror cannot be, make it gone, so mote it be!"

I stood there with my eyes closed a bit longer. No screaming… no sounds of raunchy sex… no crying… no sounds of animals in pain… I carefully opened my eyes. I was outside of MoSh's house. There was a strange fog hanging over the area. Q telepathically told me it's called a fog of illusion. The fog lent a creepy aspect to everything. I used the song Full Moonlight to gather up the strange fog from all over, in the house, all around… into a small orb that I threw into a void.

Ok, now where were MoSh and Asuka? I had to find them. I felt for their energy and found it. They were both in the house. I went in through the front door, following Asuka's energy because she was closer. I found her in the kitchen, in the pantry, cowering in the back corner trying to make herself invisible. She saw movement, shrank back, but then came to me crying tears of relief. She said she was so glad to see me… MoSh had been infected with dark energy, he was trying to kill her, and she hadn't been able to do anything for him. She said she had tried to get out of the house to get help, but he was always waiting there with his huge knife, saying which parts of her he wanted to cut off first… "Please help him," Asuka said, "It's not his fault… it's dark energy, I'm sure…"

I checked Asuka for energy corruption. I found none, but I did a Touch My Heart healing spell on her anyway. Golden energy flowed into her. I then followed MoSh's energy. It was downstairs in the basement. I found him there. He seemed to be sneaking along the back wall, trying to blend with the shadows, getting closer to the stairs. He saw me there and apparently thought I was Asuka. "Come on, Asuka," he said, "Try to fight it! You need healing! Just fight it for a bit… I really don't want to hurt you!"

"I'm not Asuka," I said. He heard my voice and recognized it. He came running over to me and put his arms around me. He said he was really glad to see me, Asuka needed healing… and she needed it bad. He motioned to the far side of the room. Shawna came out. MoSh said Asuka had tried to kill both of them, and neither Shawna nor him had been able to heal her. But she needed help badly… I would help, wouldn't I? I said I already had seen Asuka and I had used a healing spell on her. I used Touch My Heart on MoSh and Shawna, though they didn't look infected, either.

When MoSh and Asuka were in the same room, I told them what illusions I'd had to break through in order to get to the reality of MoSh's inner world. The psycho version of MoSh trying to kill Asuka and the psycho version of Asuka trying to kill MoSh and Shawna weren't real, they had just been illusions. Very convincing, very hard to penetrate. I told them there had been a strange fog all over the place, the fog of illusion. They seemed to understand and accept that, now everyone was pissed. Who the fuck had put that there? How had they gotten in? I wondered if it was something L had done when he was inside before, or if he had used another dirty trick to come back and do it… because if he had come back after the incident last night, he was apparently looking for a permanent playmate in Walms. The idea that L secretly finds being beaten to a pulp to be a turn-on crossed my mind briefly, but I got rid of that because it would make me sick very quickly…

Asuka, Shawna, and MoSh were all hugging now. MoSh pulled me into the hug. We all hugged there for a couple minutes, everyone was relieved that things seemed normal now. MoSh was thanking me for helping. I said I would be there to help any time, I was glad he and Asuka and Shawna were all ok. The dream slipped, and I woke up, disappearing right out of the group hug.

Note: Still no luck with my WILD attempts. I am not sure why that is happening so rarely now when it used to be so common. I had one primary goal for this night, and that was to track down Asuka and bring her home. Q found a fake Asuka in MoSh's inner world, so the only conclusion, or most likely conclusion, is she was kidnapped. Other than that there is my usual list of goals…

I was lying on the living room couch. My mother woke me up. She said I had slept through half the movie. She suggested I go to bed if I was that tired. I told her I didn't feel tired. She said if I wasn't tired, I wouldn't have slept through so much of the movie. I thought a minute and realized I couldn't even remember what movie we had been watching… ok… she must be right. I must be tired, even if I didn't feel it… or maybe the nap had been all I needed. I got up from the couch and went into my bedroom. Something didn't look right there… there was a desk with a desktop computer on the far side of the room. I thought there shouldn't have even been room for that desk… I did a reality check… and found I was dreaming!

Now fully lucid, I focused on remembering my goals. Asuka! Yes, I had to help MoSh get Asuka back. I used my bedroom door as a portal for a change of pace, and I opened it and walked through into MoSh's inner world. I turned around just in time to see the doorway behind me fold up on itself until it became too tiny to see… and it was gone.

I looked around for MoSh. I saw I was standing in the living room of his house. MoSh looked over at me. He said he had been wondering if I wasn't going to make it. I said I had, and now we had better get going. No time to lose in getting Asuka back. I was pretty sure I already knew where she was, but I figured I would let my tracking guide my portal anyhow… just on the off chance we were wrong about who had taken her. I focused on opening a portal and on finding Asuka. A portal opened, MoSh and I went through it…

On the other side of the portal we were in a strange place. It looked rather nice. There was a swimming pool there, and it was a beautiful pool. There were several women with perfect bodies lying out on lounges sunbathing and a few more in the pool. I briefly felt ashamed of my large belly and second chin before I reminded myself that it is a dream, and in dreams I have neither of those. There was a man standing on the patio surveying the scene, practically drooling over the women in the pool. He looked like a faker biker, dressed in leather, but somehow it looked like he was trying so hard to look cool that he really just wound up with an epic fail. I knew who that was, it was L. I also saw there was one woman sitting on a chair on the patio, she didn't look happy to be there. That was Asuka. I went over to Asuka. I hadn't even reached her before L spotted me and seemed pleased. He said there is always room for one more bathing beauty in his place… I saw in my reflection that I suddenly had on a string bikini that left little to the imagination. I was about to curse at L, but I got distracted admiring how nice my dream body looks compared to my waking body. L told me to help myself to a drink at the bar or dive into the pool, the water was always the perfect temperature. Wait a minute… I wasn't there for a pool party…

"Asuka," I said, "I have come to take you home."

"She is very happy here," L said, "Now go ahead and enjoy yourself. Don't worry about the others."

"I think Asuka can answer for herself," I said to L, I was a bit annoyed, "Asuka? Let's go home. MoSh is worried about you."

Asuka looked up at me with a rather blank look on her face. She stared at me for a few minutes before she finally answered. She said she didn't want to go back. She said she wouldn't force herself on MoSh any longer. I asked what she was talking about. She said she knew everything now. She MoSh doesn't want her back. She said he had willingly turned her over to L, not once, but twice. He had willingly given up to L in a contest where she was the prize, and then when he had the choice between her and the alternate Asuka, he had chosen the other one. She said he had been hoping she wouldn't survive the battle to get her flame back. He had been counting on her dying so he could have the better version of her. She said she understood why. She said he had tried to, but he had never been able to forgive her for lying to him. Right now this was the only place she belonged.

I noticed that the whole time Asuka was talking she basically showed no emotion. It was as if she was rehearsing a script. I had no doubt in mind that L had put those exact lines into her head. L said the fact MoSh had sent me to get Asuka and hadn't come to get her himself. Wait a minute… MoSh had been with me to come get Asuka… where was he? Had he woken up? This wasn't a good time to wake up… I looked around and headed back in the direction I had come from. I reached the place where I had entered through the portal. I looked around. I saw MoSh. He had wandered off in the other direction. Wtf? I went over to him and asked what he was doing. He looked over at me. He looked a bit puzzled. I asked if he was even lucid. He looked at me. He looked at his hands. He pointed at me with his pinky… and then announced I was real.

"No shit, Sherlock," I said, "Now let's go get Asuka." MoSh was wanting to know if Asuka was ok. I said she was fine apart from the lies L had been filling her head with… which he hadn't been there do dispute just now… MoSh followed me over to the pool, seeming much more alert and lucid. Asuka was still sitting in the same chair. L was watching me bring MoSh back. He didn't seem overly concerned about that. I wondered if he had a plan up his sleeve. I figured it didn't matter. Whatever his plan was, it wouldn't work. MoSh saw Asuka and went over to her and said he was there to take her home. She started repeating the rehearsed lines she had given me. MoSh interrupted her before she was done. He said none of that was true. After MoSh's protest, Asuka just continued with her lines. I told MoSh I was sure she was under the influence of mind control. I would have to break the control.

"Breaking the silence of the night, can't you hear me screaming?" I focused on the song Breaking the Silence by Queensrÿche, "I look for your face in the neon light, you never answer… I could make all the wrong seem right if you were by my side, I'd gather all the tears you cried and hide them deep underground!" The song played through. L's certainty that we wouldn't be able to do anything to get through to Asuka seemed to be wavering. The song had its effect on Asuka. Her eyes cleared, and she looked over at MoSh. She looked on the verge of tears. She looked at me and then at MoSh. She said everyone kept saying MoSh hated her now.

"That…" Asuka stammered, "That's not true, is it?"

"Come on, Asuka," MoSh said, "You know I love you!"

Asuka got up, looked a bit dizzy, and walked towards MoSh in an unsteady manner. She looked kind of drunk.

"Why don't you two just go home?" L said, "Asuka wants to be here with me. Although Raven, if you want to have a swim you are certainly welcome to stay…"

"I'd sooner swim in a sewer than in a pool with you," I said, "And if Asuka wants to stay with you, why does she look like she's about to puke?"

I used Master of Puppets on L. If he is so fond of mind control, let's do a little on him. "Master of puppets is pulling your strings, twisting your mind and smashing your dreams, blinded by me you can't see a thing, just call my name, I'll hear you scream! Master! Master!" I ordered L to release Asuka. He did. She came over to MoSh. L snapped out of the mind control, I hadn't meant for it to last very long. He got mad at MoSh and me for forcing him to do things against his will. He said no one forces him to do anything! He is his own man and…

"And there is an alien pulling your strings," MoSh said. He created a hologram of the alien in this picture. "It's a Reptilian, or a Draconian… and I saw one of them draining your energy.

L looked at the picture briefly, having been completely interrupted from his yelling at MoSh and me. He looked at the hologram, then at MoSh, at the hologram, at MoSh…

"Are you on drugs?" he asked MoSh, then he looked at me, "He's on drugs, isn't he?"

I didn't really have a chance to answer. MoSh was answering. "I saw it," MoSh said, "It was draining your energy. It is controlling your every move. Maybe that's why you're such an ass."

"You're making excuses for me being an ass?" L asked, sounding thoroughly confused, "Now there's a new one. Now why don't you just leave these two lovely ladies here with me, and go on your pathetic way?"

"I'm not staying with you," Asuka said, "Go back to your stupid DC bimbos," she looked at me, "They are all DCs, you know. Just illusions. He couldn't get the attentions of a real woman if he paid her…"

"And if I have to look at your face for one more second," I told L, "I think I'll vomit. So we'll all be going. Have fun with your DCs… which is like using blow-up dolls, right? So have fun with your blow-up dolls." I opened a portal to get us all back to MoSh's inner world. The three of us went through. On the other side of the portal, we were all in the yard in front of MoSh's house. I closed the portal before L could consider following us. MoSh had his arms around Asuka, who seemed happy to be there. I was going to ask if Asuka was ok. I didn't have a chance to say anything.