New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight

08/11/11 Thursday

Harry Potter
I wake up in bed and realize it is time to go to school. I don't really want to get up… But I drag myself out of bed. This is the next day of final exams. I have an Algebra final and a History final. I am sure I'm going to flunk the History final, all those stupid dates I can never remember. Oh, well, better get to it and get it over with. I go out to breakfast, which is waffles! Yum! I eat waffles with my dad and a friend who has been visiting. My father is James Hetfield, my friend is Harry Potter. I finish getting ready to go to class and head out, walking to school with Harry. I have the feeling we are being followed, being watched. By something or someone unfriendly. I look around, but everything looks normal, it looks like a normal morning in a normal neighborhood. I still can't shake the feeling. Still, nothing happens, and we get to school ok. Dudley looks absolutely miserable, he isn't even paying much attention to Harry and me, he is harassing some geeky looking kid for test answers, I think he is afraid of flunking. The day passes slowly even though it is a shorter than normal day, final exams have a tendency to seem that way. But I finally find myself walking home with Harry Potter. I still have the feeling we are being watched… and this time I would have sworn I saw someone hiding in the shadows on the way home…

Visiting MoSh
I am in a house I recognize, though I know it is not my own. I do not live there, it is a house belonging to a friend of mine, who I have come to visit. My mind is a bit foggy… I came to visit MoSh! MoSh and Asuka! I am already in the house and I see Asuka in the other room, so I go in there and say hi. She says hi, then she says MoSh isn't here yet. She says MoSh doesn't really need to worry, she is doing fine, but that's ok to go ahead and have some healing. She says she thinks MoSh should be in on it, though, he's been stressed. I say ok, then we wait for a bit for MoSh to show up. MoSh finally shows up, at which point we go out into the garden area behind MoSh's house and have a mutual healing. Basara shows up just as we are about to begin and joins the group.

08/12/11 Friday

Final Final Exam
I am on my way to school on the last day of class, the last day of final exams, then no more… then we get a summer break! Yay! I am walking to school with Harry Potter. This time I am absolutely certain that we are being watched and followed, and I am getting sick of it. This has been happening all week, who the hell is out there? What do they want? I look around very closely, trying to see who might be there. Harry notices me acting strange, and he is watching me closely. He finally asks what I am doing. I tell him I saw someone back there, I want to know who it is. I see movement in the shadows, and I head over there to see if I can find out what is going on. There is a bit more movement, but when I get there I don't find anyone. Apparently they saw me coming and don't want to be seen, that just makes them even more suspicious. I am getting a bad feeling about the place, though, as if there is an aura of dark energy remaining. I start thinking I need to get back to Harry, he shouldn't be out there alone, what if they're after him? I go back out to Harry, he is waiting impatiently, he says we'll be late if we don't hurry. I continue to the school with Harry, and the feeling that we're being followed has passed. The dream continues, but the only thing that happens for the rest of it is I go to school and take a bunch of dumb tests before meeting Harry and going home. I am actually a bit surprised, but I don't notice the feeling of being followed on the way home. Maybe they decided to quit since they'd been spotted… well, if that's all it took to make them back off, maybe they weren't really any kind of a threat after all. Somehow I am not completely convinced.

Wet and Wild
I am with Alicia and we are at a water park of some kind, though it isn't one I have ever been to before. I look around at the array of slides everywhere, and lots of people having fun. We climb to the top of a tall tower that several of the slides come off of. I ride one first where it is a really steep drop, I ride it on a large inflatable tube. There is a period of near free-fall and then it feels like I am gliding over the surface of the water like a hovercraft. That's how fast I was going. I get off, then follow Alicia back up. We get on a narrow yellow slide. This one is unusual in that there are numerous points along the slide where it is possible to change slides, to hop from one to another, or veer off on a side slide. I jump off of one and end up on a platform with water falling all around it. The platform is rotating, and I wait for it to get to the right spot to get on the next slide. Alicia is waiting for me at the bottom, she is having so much fun. I am, too. She says she wants to try one of the other series of slides. There is the yellow one we went on, then a larger green one, and an even larger blue one, I want to go try the blue one next. But for some reason they are announcing on the loud speaker that we all have to go home…

08/13/11 Saturday

The Man In Black
I wake up in bed with a feeling of incredible freedom… I roll over and think I don't have to go anywhere or do anything today. If I really wanted to, I could stay in bed all day. Of course I don't want to spend the entire day in bed… this is the first day of summer vacation, there's no time to waste. I get out of bed and get dressed, I want to go outside and do some stuff out there before it becomes unbelievably hot. I find Harry Potter in the other room, though he doesn't look too happy. I ask him what is wrong, and he says he would prefer to spend the summer here but… I ask what the problem is, nothing here to stop him. I am wondering why he seems to be looking for problems with his staying with me instead of going back to the Dursleys. I say if he really wants to go back, I'm not going to stop him… The two of us go outside for a short walk, just enjoying the weather… which is very nice. We have walked a short way when someone steps out of the shadows… It is a man dressed in black, all black, black jeans, black shirt, black hoodie. His face is in shadows and hard to make out. He has a gun pointed at Harry and me. Harry asks what he wants, says we don't have much money. He says he had wanted to find Harry alone, but he doesn't really care, it's just one extra bullet. He fires his gun at Harry, I use telekinesis to stop the bullet in mid air. I do that without even thinking about it, after all there wasn't time to think. The bullet is now hovering about an inch in front of Harry's face. Harry is staring intently at the bullet, clearly unable to believe what just happened. The killer fires three more quick shots, all three bullets are hovering in front of Harry now. I fire the bullets back at him with telekinesis. One bullet hits him in the left shoulder, one in the right, and the others in the torso… he does not go down. I tell Harry we need to get out of there, we head back towards the house. I look back and see the cloaked figure finally fall to the ground. I wonder if he is dead. Well, there's nothing to tie Harry and me to him. We get back to the house, and I tell my father what happened. He says it looks like it is starting. I ask what is starting. He says the reason I am here, of course. Harry is wanting to know what is going on. Hetfield says he will tell us everything, just give him a bit of time to sort through things… we'll talk later.

Build Your Own Droid
I am in MoSh's inner world house with MoSh, he is looking around as if he has lost something. I ask what he is looking for, he says he is looking for Asuka. I ask him why he is looking for Asuka in a cabinet, as he has just opened one of the kitchen cabinets and is looking inside carefully. He pauses and closes the cabinet without answering. I have a vague memory of talking to MoSh on Skype about doing a mutual healing. I mention that to MoSh, and he says he wants to do that still, but he wants Asuka to be there, too. He says he wants to be sure she is ok. I say ok, then I will help him look for Asuka. MoSh is now looking in a closet for Asuka, though I am not sure why she would be in there unless they had been playing a game of hide and seek. After searching a bit more we finally find Asuka out in the back garden, just sitting amongst the flowers.

Now that we have found Asuka, all three of us go through a portal to the healing glen on the moon. As if he psychically knew what we were up to, Basara is already there and waiting, or maybe he had been there for some other reason and our timing just happened to match up. Now there are four of us, we use healing spells and fill the glen with glowing golden energy that is very relaxing. Basara says he is glad to see me, and he hopes I will be able to remember this dream. I say I also hope to remember. We all go back to MoSh's inner world, it seems there is something there he wants to check on, though I don't remember just what that is. There are numerous electronic parts lying around one of the rooms in his house, and the next thing I know we are putting those parts together in various ways trying to design a robot of some kind. Not an android like MoSh's version of Data who lives in his inner world, but more of a Star Wars type droid. The four of us are deciding on what the droid should look like, what abilities it should have, what its personality should be, etc.

Basara doesn't seem too interested in constructing a droid, so he kicks back in a chair and starts playing guitar. Asuka and I are trying to decide on a face for the droid while MoSh looks over a list of abilities that could be given to the droid.

Note: The rest of this night was extremely fragmented, I'm afraid this was the best I could get from it.

Golden Healing
I was in the healing area of the biodome, or it could have been the healing glen, but if it was the healing glen I didn't see the Crystal Golem anywhere around. I was feeling a bit drained after my recent expenditure of dark energy, so I was a bit disoriented, but I was mostly lucid. I recognized the people there with me, I saw Basara closest to me, I also saw MoSh was there, but I couldn't think why they would be there… I had won against the Templars with no difficulty, had something happened that I needed healing? Well, even though I couldn't think clearly enough to remember why I needed healing, we all did healing spells… I was lucid enough to focus on my own healing spell… and the area filled up with a very relaxing golden energy, which caused me to fall asleep in the dream.

I Have a Kid Now?
In this one I was in the area of my inner world where the little girl I brought back has been staying, it is the little girl that everyone had accused of being a demon, but in fact she just was a hybrid energy user, meaning she has access to both dark and light energies, but she doesn't know how to control the dark energy… to keep it stable. That was resulting in anyone who threatened the girl or upset her in any way meeting with some rather gruesome ends, but the main reason for that was the girl didn't know control. So I was in the area with her, she was in a nice house and met me at the door. The first thing she did was to start complaining about how it is not right for me to have left her alone for so long, and these mindless drones don't count as companionship… apparently she had easily identified the DC's for what they are. So she was trying to use various things to manipulate me, to get me to do what she wanted me to do, but that wasn't going to work since I already know what is going on with her. What I needed to do was try to show her some stable dark energy, but I was feeling too drained of dark energy to do that right now, so instead I spent the time trying to get to know more about her and she spent the time trying to find ways to manipulate me, both of us met up with epic fail.

Flying Lessons
I was in my house with my mother, and we went out onto the back porch to enjoy the weather, which was very pleasant this time of year in the desert. There was a wind blowing, and it seemed to be getting stronger, but that didn't bother me at all. Somehow I was spontaneously lucid in this one, so I already knew I could fly, though the idea seemed to upset my mother quite a bit. I told her it was a dream, she could fly too if she would just try, but she seemed hesitant to try it. I finally took her hand and pulled her up into the air as if she was weightless, which she is definitely not, but now we were both flying over the desert, over cactus, over homes… it was a really good view from up there. My mother seemed to want to go in a specific direction, but it turned out she was just trying to get to the local gym, apparently she wanted me to get exercise. I told her there was no need for that in a dream, but we went inside the gym anyway. There were many exercise stations, but the machines were missing from most of them, so there wasn't really much exercise to be done there. That didn't bother me at all, I just wanted to fly some more.

Note: My recall has been bad lately, so my goal for this night was primarily get some of my recall back. I remember dreams better when I had a goal in mind, so my goals for tonight were to heal Asuka, MoSh said she needed healing after being in trouble recently, and also I had planned on playing a game with two other dreamers who will remain nameless because I want to see if they remember the dream. So I fell asleep using my light / sound machine, I had these goals in mind, but I only kept part of my lucidity as I slipped into a WILD… Unfortunately, I still had no recall, I had to channel this dream through my guide, Q

I was in a beautiful place. I looked around and realized I was in a beautiful forest clearing where there was a pond there, and I could see many colorful fish swimming around in the pond. Something in the back of my mind said I was dreaming right now, but I didn't really pay much attention to that voice since I was busy looking around at all the beauty of my environment. I went over to the edge of the pond and stood there watching the water and the fish for a short time, the fish were very colorful and beautiful. They looked like koi, though there were fish colored like no koi I have ever seen before. In addition to the usual oranges, reds, golds, yellows, and whites, there were also numerous blues, purples, greens, and blacks. The variety of colors in the fish was amazing, I was staring at the fish and not paying much attention to my surroundings when I realized there was someone behind me. I turned to look and I was so surprised at what I saw that I took an involuntary step backwards… and fell right into the pond, causing the colorful fish to scatter in every direction. Soaking wet, I looked up at the figure who had startled me.

I was now looking at a demon, there was really no other description that would do for this guy… he was a demon. He was very large, had bat wings folded behind him, horns on his head that curved to a point that looked quite sharp, dark colored skin with a bluish tint, a hole in his chest that looked like a gateway to Hell itself, and a big, goofy grin on his face revealed razor sharp teeth… I was doing a double take at seeing a big goofy grin on such a creature, it didn't seem to fit at all, but it was clearly there. Wait a minute… I knew that goofy grin! This was no demon standing there grinning at me, it was Nomad. I climbed out of the fish pond, dripping wet, I felt something cold and slimy in my shirt… I pulled out a fish that had been flopping around in there and threw it into the pond, and I shot Nomad what I hoped was an exacerbated look. He chuckled a bit and then said he had scared me. I said the more accurate word is startled, but that did succeed in getting me wet. Nomad blew a wall of flames around me, the fire felt warm instead of hot, and it effectively dried me off.

I said my first goal for the night was to heal Asuka, as MoSh had indicated she was in need of healing. So I figured the first thing to do would be to go get Asuka. Nomad said he would help with the healing, and while I went to get Asuka, he would bring back a couple more healers. I said that would be great as I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through it. On the other side I found MoSh and Asuka were outside, near the street. MoSh was looking upset, Asuka was hanging off the arm of a big muscle bound guy that looked like he had the IQ of a rock, or maybe that assessment was insulting to the rock. Scanning everyone there, I could see the man was a DC, and not a real person… so that confirmed my assessment of a low IQ.

I heard Asuka talking to MoSh, and she was being a bitch. I heard her saying that maybe Mr. Muscle, she referred to him as Kyle, could protect her, because MoSh was continuing to have an epic fail at that one… She told MoSh she'd had enough of hanging around with a loser like him… she looked over and saw me for the first time… then she added that if MoSh wanted a gf, he should get together with me, and referred to me as another loser. She said she didn't know who was the bigger loser, MoSh or me. I told her it's not the sign of a winner to hang around with a guy that created his muscles with an air pump. She looked perplexed, so I elaborated by saying Kyle's muscles were fake, they were inflatable, put on just to impress girls. Kyle began flexing his muscles when I mentioned them, trying to show off how big they were. I went over to him and poked a needle in his right bicep muscle… and it popped! Since it was a DC, my intent had been able to influence it and make it so his muscles really were inflatable. I popped a few more of Kyle's fake muscles, he shrunk down to a scrawny little nerd with a whiny voice and really thick glasses that were held together with packing tape, he ran away from Asuka, calling to his mommy, saying the mean lady had hurt his feelings… of course he was a DC and not a real person, so I wasn't concerned with his feelings.

Asuka stood and watched Kyle disappear from sight, then she looked back at me, then at MoSh, she said if I like the dud so much I could have him. She told MoSh he had better accept that, because even though I am a complete loser, MoSh would never do any better. I told Asuka she needed healing, I opened a portal back to the biodome, MoSh and I pulled Asuka through the portal. On the other side we met up with Nomad, some angel, Basara, and a fox. The fox was already in the air, having jumped for my arms, and I reflexively caught him. I was now holding a cute fox! I hugged the soft fur and stroked the fox as all of us went over to the healing glen part of the biodome. When we got there, everyone went to healing spells, the glen filled with golden energy. The cute fox jumped from my arms and jumped into Asuka's arms where he started purring, the purr itself seemed to be generating golden energy, the rest of us were also doing healing spells. The golden energy was flowing through all of us, and it was very relaxing. We continued doing our healing spells until I got so relaxed that I finally woke.

Note: Another night with a lot of goals and not a whole lot of progress. My goals included training with Vegeta, bringing MoSh, Asuka, and Mzzkc to this training session with Vegeta, telepathically calling Pablo to come, viewing a dream MoSh had with don Juan, a DDO dream with Tigress, TotY… the list just goes on and on and on and on… Tonight I was successful at slipping into a WILD, which was helpful, and my first dream is that WILD…

I was in my own inner world, at the location right outside of Vegeta's house. Vegeta was right near me, looking at me strangely. He said he had expected there would be people with me tonight, which is what I had said before I went to bed. Vegeta reminded me that MoSh and Asuka were no doubt waiting to be picked up, as was Mzzkc, and Pablo had just wanted me to contact him telepathically to see if the connection worked and maybe if he could get in here. The easiest thing to do would be to send a telepathic signal, or it seemed like the easiest thing to do, so I focused on sending a signal to Pablo, a telepathic signal, "Hey, Pablo! This is Raven, you're dreaming! Remember this dream!" I repeated the signal a few times, focusing on it as best as I could until I heard Serena's voice say I looked constipated and she had a tea for that… so my last message to Pablo consisted of, "Hey, Pablo! This is Raven, you're… constipated? WTF?" It turned out Serena had just been making fun of the look of concentration I'd had on my face. So next I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through it to bring him and Asuka back.

I stepped out of the portal into the usual spot where I enter MoSh's inner world, the place right in front of his house. I went over to the house and looked at the door, I was about to knock on it when it opened and a worried looking MoSh came out. He said something was wrong with Asuka, she was still not acting like herself. I said to Mosh, that after what she went through it might take a while and more healings before she was completely ok… MoSh didn't answer, he just pointed into the house towards the stairs and said Asuka was shut in the bedroom and wouldn't come out. I went upstairs. There was one door closed at the end of the hall, which was where I went. MoSh was right behind me, he knocked on the door and said Asuka's name, saying she needed to come out. I hadn't expected her to, but Asuka came right out. She looked rather tired, but otherwise ok. MoSh wanted to know what she had been doing in there, why hadn't she answered him before, he had been worried about her… She didn't really say much. Ok… go back to my inner world, heal Asuka, and then training with Vegeta… no… before training with Vegeta was the going to get Mzzkc… I had to make sure I didn't forget anything. I opened the portal and the three of us went through it… I wondered about the kids, but I didn't get a chance to say anything. I figured Data was with them.

All three of us stepped out of the portal in the meadow that surrounds Vegeta and Serena's house. Asuka sat down in the grass and started picking wild flowers that were growing around her… then she shredded them into a pile of purple and green mess… then she ate some of it, made a face that told me the stuff was all kinds of disgusting, and spat it out before trying again to eat the stuff with the same results. She picked up some more of the plants and looked to be about to try eating them yet again, but she was distracted by a fluffy red fox jumping around in the grass. She stopped playing with the flowers to watch the fox playing around, then the fox came over to her and climbed into her lap where she started petting it. The fox responded by curling up in a ball on Asuka's lap and purring. Hmmm… cat purrs have a very theraputic effect, do fox purrs also have that effect? Seems like it would.

While Asuka was stroking the softly purring fox, MoSh and I were doing healing spells. Basara showed up very soon and joined in, merging his song into mine and the one MoSh was playing, all three songs somehow came together in a perfect melody. Golden energy filled the meadow, golden energy mixed with some blue and white energy, all centered on Asuka, who still had a purring fox in her lap. The energies swirled around Asuka, all flowing into her. Asuka was smiling, she seemed a lot more relaxed now.

The healing spell ended, and I walked over to Basara. I had been wondering if there was a possibility that I wouldn't be able to heal someone's heart because I have dark energy that I'm using. Basara actually laughed at that idea. He said he had learned enough about dark energy to know that wasn't even vaguely impossible unless I wanted it to happen or the dark energy was unstable and I got consumed by it. He told me I worry too much, so relax or the stress would be what might interfere with my healing. Hmmm… was I just being paranoid again? Most likely.

I remembered my goal of meeting up with another user from Dreamviews, BlakeE45. I had agreed to meet him near the koi pond in the biodome, so that was where I headed now. I also was supposed to retrieve Mzzkc… I would check for BlakeE45 and then go look for Mzzkc… My portal exited right next to the koi pond. I sat down on the bench for a while after I saw that there wasn't anyone there. My mind drifted away as I watched the fish. At this point the dream fades out, though I'm not sure if it ended or if I just don't remember any more.

Note: It turned out that some really nasty things happened to Asuka during the time she was with L, she was in serious need of healing. That was my first priority, to go help MoSh with healing Asuka. I figured I would definitely take Basara with me… I had my first goal in mind when I fell asleep, but I was not successful in entering a WILD. I'm not even sure how I became lucid in this dream… it just kind of happened gradually, so gradually that I'm not exactly sure when I became fully lucid…

I was in the front yard of my house, and I noticed it was cloudy. I wanted to go for a walk, and the clouds made it much nicer to walk than when it is fully sunny. I left the house and went to the gate, realized I had forgotten the remote to the gate, so I climbed over it instead of going back into the house to get the remote. I walked down the dirt road and up to the main street where I turned left. I followed the road for a while until I reached the new housing development that has been going in recently. I'd never seen the houses up close, so I turned into the housing area and figured I would take a look around. It was nothing remarkable, all the houses were basically cookie cutter homes that all looked the same. Or mostly the same, there were about three different models repeated over and over and over… Then I went up a hill and found a house that looked different. The first thing that came to mind was MoSh's house in his inner world. But how could I be seeing that here? It looked so much like MoSh's place that I went to the door and knocked. Much to my amazement, MoSh answered.

"Oh, good… you're here," MoSh said as he hurried me into the house and closed the door behind me, "Asuka really needs help… I'm not sure what else to do for her except for try to heal her. The things I'd like to do to that bastard…"

I told MoSh he could do whatever he wanted to L, or I could do it and he could read about it in detail, or we could both do it together and he could read about it in detail… or he could probably get Walms to have some fun with L then read about it when Walms posted his DJ… or… MoSh interrupted me at this point, saying we should focus on Asuka for now, L could be made to pay later. I remembered that Basara would be able to help with healing Asuka so I focused on opening a portal to find Basara, the portal opened and Basara came through as if he had been expecting me. Somewhere in here must be where I became fully lucid, but it was the end of a gradual process so I'm not completely sure when it happened.

Basara and I followed MoSh into the bedroom where Asuka was hiding. And she really was hiding. She was in a corner of the room trying to disappear into the wall, she had her knees pulled up to her chest and her face was hidden as if she thought no one would see her if she couldn't see them. MoSh went over to Asuka and touched her on the shoulder, I noticed a very concerned look on Basara's face. Asuka responded right away to MoSh, she reached for him and immediately put her arms around him as if she was drowning in the ocean and he was her life preserver. Basara didn't need to be told what had to be done, he summoned a guitar and began playing a song that I recognized from the Macross 7 soundtrack, the song entitled Love Will Save Your Heart. I focused on the healing song along with Basara, thought it looked like MoSh was having problems getting to his guitar with Asuka clinging to him as she was… As the song was playing golden energy filled the room, giving everything in the room a golden shine that came just from the energy. When the song ended, there was no pause in the music as Basara moved seamlessly on to My Soul For You from the same soundtrack. Asuka had let go of MoSh by now and was sitting on the bed staring off into space, which meant MoSh could also add to the healing energy in the room. As this song ended, all three of us were contributing to one more song that I recognized from the Macross 7 soundtrack but I don't remember the title of it… the title was probably in Japanese.

There was still healing energy filling the room, although some of it looked now to be blues and whites instead of the usual golden energy, this energy seemed very relaxing, however, and it brought a warm sensation of comfort and safety, of love and caring… I continued focusing on the song Basara was using at the time, he had changed songs again. Asuka was still sitting on the bed, though she seemed to be paying attention to the three of us now as if we were giving her a private concert, which I suppose we were. The blue and white energy was centering in on Asuka and flowing around her in a manner that made it look like she was glowing… she looked more like an angel than anything, though she didn't actually have the wings… The music and the energy were so relaxing I thought I might fall asleep in the middle of the healing process… Basara played through one more song, I also don't remember the name of this one, and then the music stopped. There was still a bright glow about Asuka as the light energy was still surrounding her and flowing through her. I looked closer at her and saw she actually had a small smile on her face. Basara looked at Asuka and smiled himself, he said it looked good. He said he didn't know if that one time would be enough for her to get past what had happened, but he had to say one thing for her, she seems stronger than she looks. Now that the music had stopped Asuka lied down on the bed and fell asleep, though her sleep looked peaceful and relaxed. I told Basara that if she needed more healing, then she would have it. Basara agreed with that before opening a portal and going through it.

MoSh kissed Asuka ash she slept and then left the room, clearly meaning for me to follow him. I followed him into the next room where he had some pictures lying face down on a desk. He picked one of them up and looked at it only briefly before turning it face down on top of the others so that none of them were visible. He said that he needed to make sure Kanmuri knew how important it was to keep L away from Asuka. I opened a portal to get to L's inner world and the two of us went through.

MoSh and I exited the portal in the area of L's inner world where we usually seem to arrive. I wondered if it would be possible to enter at a different location if I needed to for some reason, this was the only place I could remember arriving. For this time, however, that location was just fine. I spotted Kanmuri not too far away from us, she was looking over at the guest house with a strange look on her face as if the building held some kind of unfathomable mystery. She saw us arrive there and said L was in the guest house again, she said she didn't know what he was doing in there, but she didn't think he had anyone in there with him, she was sure he hadn't gone after Asuka again… MoSh said Asuka was safe at home, but there was something he wanted to show Kanmuri. She asked what that was, looking at the pictures in MoSh's hands, which he gave to her.

Kanmuri stared at the first picture as if unable to comprehend exactly what she was seeing, then she looked at the next one and the third one before dropping the pictures on the ground. She had a look of total shock on her face, seemed unable to find any words appropriate for the situation. She said she never thought that would happen… she admitted she hadn't known L for long, but that was just so… so… and again words seemed to fail her. MoSh said that the things that had happened in those pictures showed clearly why Kanmuri has to make absolutely certain L doesn't get anywhere near Asuka again. Kanmuri stared at MoSh in stunned disbelief, again she didn't seem to know what to say, but that didn't last long…

"You don't actually expect me to stay here with that… that monster, do you?" she asked incredulously, "I've stayed here until now, and I was going to try to make sure he didn't go off and kidnap Asuka again, but that was before I knew he was a total psychopath! I'm out of here!"

"Then who is going to keep L away from Asuka if you don't stay?" MoSh asked.

Kanmuri was silent for a bit again, then she got mad, "So you expect me to stay here no matter what might happen?" she yelled right in MoSh's face, "So it's completely ok with you if I get tortured and gang raped and maybe even killed as long as your precious Asuka is safe? Well, guess what? I'm not going to stay around here as an outlet for that bastard's twisted fantasies! That was the only deal breaker, I don't care if he's a jerk, I don't care that he apparently hasn't even got the capacity to care about anyone, but I will not stay here and be abused!"

"You were supposed to keep L from hurting Asuka!" MoSh said, apparently getting upset himself, "You said you would do this, so you can't go and leave now!"

Kanmuri was so pissed off she was momentarily unable to speak, it also looked like she might cry, from rage? Sadness? It was more rage that she was expressing. "You are… you are…" Kanmuri finally found her voice, though she didn't seem to know what words to use, "You are such an ASSHOLE! If those things had happened to me, it wouldn't matter to you at all, would it? Well it's not happening!" She did something and then dropped a nasty expletive. She was muttering something about not even being able to open a fucking portal to get out of this hell hole. I asked where she was looking to go, I figured it wouldn't do any good to try to keep her here against her will. She said she wanted to go somewhere that she wouldn't be gang raped by a bunch of mindless drones and the king of all assholes… um… my inner world qualified for that… so I opened a portal to my inner world. MoSh told Kanmuri she couldn't just leave, she flipped him the bird and said watch her, she was already gone. She went through the portal to my inner world, and about the same time I woke.

Note: I fell asleep with very little in the way of goals tonight… MoSh had said he was going to come over to do a healing on me, although I told him I felt ok. But then a little extra positive energy never hurts anything, so I figured if he wanted to do it, we could share some positive energy, most likely with Basara involved since he usually shows up whenever someone mentions the idea of healing. Unfortunately I was not successful in entering my WILD this night.

I was in a clearing in a forest. I could see there were buildings around, it looked like a small town was hidden amongst the trees. I wondered where I was. I didn't even consider the idea I might be dreaming. I noticed that there were quite a few people around, and then I noticed they were Templars. What the fuck was I doing in a Templar base? I figured I didn't want to be there, so I went to leave. That was when I noticed there was a big guy on either side of me holding onto me tightly. Their grip was like iron, and I could not make them budge to get free. I was a prisoner of the Templars… that couldn't be good.

I heard another Templar say they were ready. One of the big guys holding me forced me to the ground so that I was lying on my stomach with my face in the dirt. I felt someone lie a long wooden pole on my back, and I was quickly bound tightly to that pole. When the large Templars moved away from me I couldn't move at all except to turn my head and look around a bit. They turned me over onto my back and ripped my clothes off… I called them a bunch of fucking perverts. I was now naked and tied to a metal pole… I could hear people around me laughing and jeering.

The Templars then stood the pole up and I realized I was bound approximately in the middle. I saw they had a fire ring in the middle of the clearing, a rather large one. It was long and fairly narrow, there was a rotisserie stand on each end of the fire circle, and a pan sitting on top of the wood that looked like it was there to catch the juices of roasting meat. It looked a lot like the picture here, except the pan was on permanent metal legs and the fire pit and pan looked long enough to accommodate a very large piece of meat… or a person…

It was about then that I realized what they might be planning to do. Since I believed that was my waking life, this resulted in a feeling of ice cold fear at the pit of my stomach… I fought against my bonds, desperate to get away now, to avoid what it seemed they had planned. The bonds were too tight… I couldn't budge them even a millimeter. And my worst fear was confirmed when they carried the pole I was on over to the fire pit and placed it where the spit of the rotisserie would go with me hanging on it, looking down into the black pan. There was a quantity of grease in the pan, which was hardened right now. I was noticing every little detail… a fly stuck in the grease and trying to get free, but it was no more able to move than I was. Templars preparing to light the fire. This couldn't really be happening. I think I might have done a reality check if I could have even moved in order to do one… I found I kept repeating the word 'no' over and over, and I was ashamed of the fear I heard in my voice.

Then I said there must be some agreement we could reach that would allow me to get out of this. A couple of them laughed. But one of them said there was. He said if I could present one of my friends to take my place, they would gladly roast up my friend instead of me and I would be free to go. One of my friends? He said yes. Any of them would do. Either Nomad or MoSh would be their first choices… but if I presented them one of the others I have shared dreams with it would be sufficient, too. Markus, Tigress, or even Loaf… someone laughed that they could have toast… just choose one and teleport them here and I would be free to go while my friend was executed in my place. I told them they had to be kidding… there was no way I would betray a friend like that… I knew perfectly well I could never live with betraying a friend in that way, so in spite of my fear I told them to go fuck themselves. The Templar said it was my choice, and told the other one to go ahead and light the fire under the pan.

I didn't really notice anything at first. Then the pan was heated and it was getting a bit uncomfortable as the heat was rising off of the pan and into my face. The heat continued to increase, an intense and dry heat that made it feel almost like I was on fire. How long could this last? Wouldn't I get heat stroke and pass out from that heat before long? They let the fire die down a bit and the heat faded to a lower but continuous agony. For some reason it seemed to be imperative that I make no sound to let them know the pain I was in, so I kept my mouth tightly closed so I would not let an involuntary cry or moan or pain escape. I saw as the grease below me melted and the fly was consumed by the heating grease, killed. Another thought I was having was that the heat would burn through the ropes that bound me to the spit… then I could get free… but they were thick and sturdy ropes that didn't seem to be suffering from the exposure at all. A Templar came over and looked at me, then he poked something on my leg with a long fork, causing a sharp and excruciating pain… somehow I knew he had just popped a heat blister… that area of my leg was now in much more pain than the rest of me, and other parts of my body felt like they were beginning to blister, I could actually see a few blisters starting to form on my breasts… When would I finally get heat stroke and pass out?!

Another short while… and several more popped blisters later… a Templar came back over. I was expecting another popped blister… but instead he had a cup, which he used to scoop some of the now sizzling grease out of the pan. He proceeded to pour the sizzling grease all over my back… where it burned unbelievably hot. The Templar poured a couple more cups of blazing hot grease on my back, laughing when I was unable to contain a cry of pain… these assholes were basting me! And even after he walked away, the grease on my back was continuing to cause an unbelievably intense agony… it seemed I would surely pass out, but somehow I didn't… even though I wished I would, prayed that I would pass out or die from heat stroke… Instead I just hung there in agony, all hope seemed lost…

"Raven!" I heard a familiar voice and forced my head to turn, although that caused heat dried skin to crack and bleed, bringing with that another wave of pain… I someone standing off to my left a ways, and a portal opened behind him. My sight was fuzzy… I wasn't sure who it was… He continued talking. "It's time for… what the FUCK?!" Apparently he had taken a look around for the first time since arriving and noticed things were not as they should be. I wanted to call out to the man for help, but my throat was too dry and cracked to speak… and all that came out was a small squeak… As I have stated, my mind was really foggy from the heat and the pain, but I heard some cursing, a demand to release me, and then a fight. I saw movement to my right and the man who had just arrived shoved one of the Templar's faces into the hot grease in the pan below me. When the Templar's face came out it was covered with blisters and the Templar was screaming in pain. I heard more fighting, some Templars screaming about something… a loud hissing sound like an angry cat or snake… and then silence.

The man from the portal returned. He took the spit I was tied to away from the flame and started untying me. Every time he touched me it was excruciating, but I did my best not to let him know that because I knew he was just trying to help. Once I was free I found I couldn't even stand on my own… my legs were about like spaghetti… The man supported me, holding on to me as gently as he could… I heard him say he would get me healed up as good as new. He could heal IWL? Wow… I wondered if there was any possible way I could get him to teach me to do that… but even if he couldn't, he had already done so much by getting me free of the Templars. He lied me down in a soft area of grass. Even as soft as it was, each blade of grass was like a steel blade cutting in to me… I once again did not let him know how much it hurt. He was trying so hard to be careful.

The man sat down near me. I could hear him playing a guitar. I could feel healing energy come from that guitar. Soothing healing energy… it felt like a soothing healing salve had been applied to my entire body, and it felt wonderful. I tried to open my eyes and see who it was that had saved me… but I was so tired. Completely worn out. But he was playing a guitar to create a healing effect. I only know two people who do that. Basara and MoSh. And I couldn't see Basara shoving a Templar's face into burning grease under any circumstances, unless he had seen what they were doing and completely snapped, so I was assuming it was MoSh… I tried to ask the man if he was MoSh… "You… MoSh?" He didn't really answer that, he just told me to rest… when I fell asleep here I would wake up and be safe in bed. Safe in bed? Was this really just a nightmare? I let myself relax and slip into sleep. I could find out for sure later if it was MoSh who had come to find me. I fell asleep and woke up.