New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight

I am in my own living room working on my laptop computer as I doing so often when I notice that the stickers on my laptop that normally spell out, "ARE YOU DREAMING?" now says, "WHO SHOT MR. BURNS?". Um... that isn't right. I am not immediately able to identify what is wrong, but it catches my attention as I am looking at the screen. I look over at the stickers, looking more closely now, now it says, "WHO SHOT MR. WALMS?" Wait a minute... someone shot Walms? When? Who? For somewhere in there I get the idea I should Google that... I type in the question into the Google search box and hit search. It comes up with one result only, and that is a link to a Dreamviews journal entry by Walms, which seems odd to me since he deleted all his dream journal entries from Dreamviews. I click on it and it pulls up a dream entitled, "Worrying and worrying." I click on the entry to take a look, I am taken by surprise when an entire holographic image of the dream forms around me... awesome... my dream viewing software! I must be dreaming! I become fully lucid.

I looked around the new setting, and I realized I was back in MoSh's inner world. I saw MoSh, two Asukas, and Walms all there, they were talking about training, then MoSh and Walms walked off and left the two Asukas alone. MoSh and Walms are talking about training when a strange entity appeared and merged with one of the Asukas... the one it merged with was the Asuka twinner, the Asuka who lives here sees that and looks quite alarmed. I recognize the entity that invaded, it is the same entity that had attacked me before! What is it doing here? Did the twinner of Asuka allow the thing in? Did it force its way in? Maybe it lied its way in… It doesn't really matter how the thing gets into the Asuka twinner, it is in there now. I know what it wants, to eliminate dark energy completely. The Asuka twinner glows briefly with a bright light, but then she returns to her normal appearance. Asuka is staring at the Asuka twinner, she looks quite worried… She asks the other one if she is ok, the twinner responds in the ethereal voice of the light entity. She tells Asuka not to worry about her friend, she means the other Asuka no harm. Asuka asks the entity what it wants here, the entity says there is someone there that needs healing, and it is very urgent, it may already be too late. Asuka asks who needs healing, the entity points at Walms. Asuka acts surprised that the entity would say that, she says he seems fine to her… the entity asks if Asuka can't see that Walms is being consumed by dark energy… Asuka says he always has dark energy, but he isn't being consumed by it, it's just there.

While that is going on, I see that Walms has been showing MoSh a couple of things, but now he is coming back over to the two Asukas. Asuka is still talking to the entity, who is seeming very adamant that Walms needs healing even though Asuka has said there really is no need for that. Asuka says the entity can leave in peace, because if Walms really does need healing, we have healers right here who can take care of things. The entity says it will take care of the healing right now, one wave of light energy should wash all that dark energy right out of him (Walms). Asuka tells the entity she thinks that might end up hurting Walms rather than helping him, and the entity simply responds that it won't matter since Walms is a dreamer, the worst thing that could happen is he'll wake up. Asuka looks like she is about to say something else, Walms sees the Asuka twinner, under control of the entity, gathering up a lot of energy and asks the two Asukas what they are doing in a somewhat alarmed manner, just as the entity releases a huge wave of light energy that looks like a tidal wave. I find myself reflexively trying to throw out a barrier of dark energy to block the attack from reaching Walms, but of course that is an epic fail since I am merely viewing a hologram of the dream rather than actually participating in the dream. The wave of light energy washes over Walms, there is a blast of dark energy as it seems Walms was attempting to counter the attack… then when the wave is past Walms is gone. The entity nonchalantly states that Walms must have been too far gone to be saved and then it splits out from the Asuka twinner and is gone.

Now the Asuka twinner looks very drained of her energy, Asuka responds by fusing with her twinner so the two of them can share energy. MoSh soon comes over and sees that there is only one Asuka there now, he asks where the other Asuka went. The merged Asuka says they are both there. MoSh looks around a bit more and then asks where Walms went. The merged Asuka said he had gone, he must not have been feeling well. MoSh seemed to find that statement to be a bit strange, he says Walms had seemed fine to him…

Note: I am trying to journal this, but it doesn't seem to be fitting with the dream I had on the same night as this dream happened… I know what I remember from viewing the dream, but something really seems wrong with the situation… I'm not sure if it is accurate or not…

More from the night of December 3, 2009

Note: Got this information through viewing a dream, in holographic form, from a dream that actually took place on August 11, 2010.

MoSh was on top of a hill with another man, there was a house under construction there and it appeared that MoSh was helping with that. It seemed like an odd time to be building a house, considering it was night time and there wasn't much in the way of light there. The man MoSh was with, who MoSh later identified as his father, got in a white pickup and drove off after explaining that he needed more materials for the house. That left MoSh standing there on the hill in the dark by himself. Apparently MoSh didn't feel like waiting for his father any longer, as he walked down the road in the opposite direction from where his father had gone. MoSh was walking towards a city, the many colored lights sparkled in the night. MoSh later identified this place as Edmonton. MoSh finally came to a bridge, there were a lot of people on the bridge engaged in various activities. Activities that didn't look like they belonged on a bridge… There was a sleeping bag beside the road, there were at least two people crammed into it and they were moaning and moving about a lot, it was enough that I was glad I didn't have to see any more of that. MoSh paid no attention to the sleeping bag, he walked right past a group of people playing Guitar Hero or something similar on a game system hooked up to a television, right there on the bridge. There were quite a few people gathered around and watching. MoSh headed a bit farther across the bridge, then he stopped and gazed out over the water.

I was beginning to wonder if MoSh was going to do anything else when he finally moved. He summoned a guitar and a guitar case, left the case open on the ground, then leaned against the railing and began playing. I still didn't see why we were viewing this dream, since MoSh playing guitar isn't anything unusual, but at least now I had music to enjoy while I waited for something to happen. While MoSh was playing, a few more people started to gather around and some tossed money into the open guitar case, giving MoSh tips to continue playing. A decent sized crowd had gathered when MoSh paused, summoned a PS2 and a flat screen television, popped a Guitar Hero disc in, and started it up. Now he was playing his guitar with the other instruments accompanying him via Guitar Hero.

The present day MoSh, on my right, said in his deep dream state using his powers come so easily. He wants a guitar, he summons a guitar. Wants a PS2, he summons it… he said he wished that worked in his normal dream state… I said it just takes time and practice. He said he needs to be lucid much more often before that's going to happen…

MoSh's audience didn't seem pleased that he was playing with the PS2 now, and several walked away muttering comments about the crap from the PS2 drowning out the good stuff… As the crowd thinned out I noticed Asuka was one of the people listening, she looked very happy, she was standing there smiling brightly at MoSh. MoSh continued playing, I'm not even sure if he noticed Asuka… He was just finishing a song when another woman came over and ejected Guitar Hero from MoSh's PS2. MoSh stopped playing and told her to give it back. She asked if it wasn't the public use one. MoSh said no, that was his. The public use one was down the bridge from him. The woman apologized and handed MoSh's disc back to him before heading down the bridge to the other PS2.

Asuka now walked over to MoSh and put her arms around him. He pulled away for a bit but then seemed to realize who it was and the two of them embraced… someone summoned a sleeping bag… they crawled into it for what I assumed was a session of which falls under the category of TMI in my opinion… but at least they were doing the deed in the privacy of the sleeping bag… I was looking out over the river at the city when they apparently finished what they were doing and got out of the sleeping bag… Asuka was saying she wanted to go meet more people, and see the biodome, she said Shawna wanted to get out and do that stuff, too, it wasn't fair to keep her locked away in MoSh's inner world all the time… MoSh said she is staying there for her own protection… Asuka said it would be safe. She opened a portal, MoSh and Asuka went through it.

The scene changed to MoSh's inner world, MoSh and Asuka went into the house quickly as I did a double take, forgetting for a moment that his house was considerably different back then than it is now. The scene followed MoSh, however, and soon we were in a bedroom of the house. Shawna was there and Asuka went right over to her and said they were going out for a while, Shawna seemed happy about that. She opened another portal, not paying any attention to MoSh as he tried to say something, then the three of them went through the portal…

On the other side I saw MoSh, Asuka, and Shawna in the biodome looking around. They both seemed to be enjoying the location. A woman flew over in front of MoSh and was talking to him, Asuka glanced over at that with a strange look on her face. The woman, who I identified as Pixie who lives in Silver's dream house, handed MoSh a bottle with some pills in it. MoSh was going to be wasted? Pixie said something about hijacking Santa's sleigh, then she dove into the koi pond with a big splash that completely soaked MoSh… and then MoSh was gone… and the scene changed.

MoSh was back on the bridge, surrounded by guitars. Someone ran past and grabbed a guitar case and ran off. MoSh wasn't happy about that and he chased after the man who had stolen it. MoSh lost the thief, but met up with another friend and they started looking for the guitar. No luck, although there were many strange things at the pawn shops they were checking… things such as dark energy crystals, various dark magical items, and just a slew of other unpleasant things… MoSh and his friend didn't notice those things. Having failed to find the guitar, MoSh's friend had to leave, so MoSh started wandering around again and ended up back at the job site where all of this started… his father was back, the white pickup was crashed into a tree… um… nice driving…

MoSh was telling his father that his guitar had been stolen. For some reason this got his father really pissed off! He was yelling at MoSh, calling him useless, making a total ass of himself, made me want to go punch him in the face… I was mutter to myself, "If this wasn't a hologram I'd rip you a new one, you fucking son of a bitch…" Instead, I followed MoSh away from his father a short distance, where it looked like his father's words had really affected him badly. MoSh dropped to his knees, his head in his hands, and was screaming incoherently. I couldn't help myself, I got down beside MoSh and tried to hug him… and of course my arms went right through the hologram… D'Oh! MoSh did seem to look at me momentarily, but I wasn't sure. His dad soon came over, still yelling shit… saying something about MoSh's friend Steve and them both being losers, falling silent only when a portal opened and Asuka came through looking seriously pissed.

"How dare you!" Asuka said loudly to MoSh's father, "You should be ashamed of yourself! That's your son, you fucking asshole! I'm going to have to teach you a lesson!"

I was staring at that, I didn't remember ever seeing Asuka like that, yelling and cursing like that… it was rather refreshing to see that instead of her getting kidnapped and needing rescuing… She didn't stop with words, either. She went over to MoSh's father and swept his feet from under him, knocking the surprised man to the ground. When he tried to get up, Asuka kicked him in the face, she kicked him in the gut, in the crotch, kicked him and kicked him… levitated rocks and threw those at him… she was beating on him endlessly, with everything she could levitate… then she finally turned away, she was holding her head and repeating over and over, "Not again… not again… not again…" MoSh was watching her, he looked over and saw his dad was on the ground, not moving, mutilated to the point where he was surely dead… MoSh didn't seem to know what to say, but Asuka spoke first. "Get away from me," she said, "It's not safe. I'm not safe to be around. Please get away, I don't know if I can stop it… so please get away… PLEASE! At this point MoSh disappeared, and then the dream was over… and I woke.

I felt the dream slipping, so I focused on using Allura's version of time dilation, and the dream stabilized. I looked over at Data and asked him what dream we would be viewing today…

I was back in MoSh's inner world, in his living room, sitting on the couch beside MoSh with Data in front of us. Data said he had another dream queued up to be viewed. The holographic view system activated and the scenes around us changed to the scenes of MoSh's dreams from the night of December 3, 2009.

Present day MoSh and I were in an office of some kind, a really nice one, and MoSh was sitting at a desk with some old looking papers on it, they looked like old parchment. I looked closer at the parchment and it had an outline of a person with different energy centers highlighted, it was a drawing of an astral body along with an energy body.

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I studied the picture on the parchment for some time, for some reason I thought it was important. There's a link to a larger picture of it, but I'm not sure if I got it right or not, I just did the best I could. MoSh then took another paper and wrote some more things down, but I didn't get the idea I needed to remember those, so I focused on remembering the diagram on the paper. I wondered what the chances of me remembering that were… I was still focused on that as the images of the dream changed, and I didn't even realize the dream had changed until MoSh nudged me because I wasn't paying attention.

MoSh got up out of a sleeping bag at night, and stretched before walking down the hill. He met Asuka down there, but he didn't seem to recognize her, which seemed to get her a bit annoyed about that, but soon MoSh seemed to realize who she was and they talked for a bit, I got closer and I could hear that Asuka was trying to make MoSh become lucid, but he wasn't doing it… She was trying again when the dream shifted once more.

Now it was a park, it was still night, although it wasn't completely dark… maybe early morning or late afternoon, and I got to see just what I always wanted… MoSh taking a dump… which I didn't stare at, unlike a rude DC who came along and walked right in as if this wasn't as rude as it appeared… I said out loud, "Data? What the fuck did you leave that in there for?! I didn't really need or want to see that…" The dream shifted.

MoSh was with a woman, it was Asuka, and she was slightly behind him, I remembered she'd had that bad habit for a while of not being where MoSh could easily see her… They went into a building that looked like an office, there weren't any other people there, it was completely silent there. MoSh was exploring the place, Asuka staying just a little bit behind him, when he entered a larger room that looked like it was meant for large presentations. Not big enough to call it an auditorium, but bigger than a normal office, with seats lined up and a stage at the front. The only light was coming from candles lining the sides of the room, which actually gave it a rather creepy atomosphere. MoSh went up to the stage and started playing a guitar that he had summoned, he was playing very good. Asuka took a seat in the front row and listened attentively, I also listened, he was playing classical music, which I am not very knowledgeable about, so I couldn't say what song or composer. But he had more audience than just Asuka… weird specters floated in as he was playing and filled more of the seats. Neither MoSh nor Asuka seemed to notice them, and I didn't sense hostility. Another shift in the dream…

Now there was a short bit of MoSh with Asuka in a small playground, there was someone on the teeter totter moving it in odd directions, MoSh joined that person, the teeter totter moved erratically, and both of them nearly fell off and face planted… Asuka looked like she couldn't decide if she was worried about them getting hurt or wanting to laugh at the ridiculous looks on their faces… "Hey, Data!" the present day MoSh said to me, "We don't need to see every little fragment, just get us to the parts I asked you to see!" The dream shifted…

Now I was looking at MoSh back on the hill where he had been a couple segments ago, where the sleeping bag had been, and Asuka was with him. She asked MoSh about an unconscious dream walker, said she would really like to meet her if that was at all possible. MoSh said he wasn't sure where H was at this time, then he walked over to two other men and asked them if they had seen H. The younger of the men said H was getting ready for the party, of course. It was H's birthday, he added that MoSh had better have brought a present this time… and a real one, not some piece of shit. MoSh asked the man where the party was taking place, and the man looked at MoSh like he was nuts. He said MoSh already knew that, MoSh said if he knew he wouldn't be asking. The man hesitated, giving MoSh a strangely blank look that I have only seen on a DC, then he repeated that H was getting ready for a party. MoSh called him useless and walked a short distance. Asuka looked at the two men for a bit, then she looked at MoSh for a bit, said if he could focus on H, she thought she could open a portal to get there. MoSh agreed to that, and after just a short pause, Asuka opened a portal and then followed MoSh through it.

On the other side of the portal we were in a big room that looked more like a warehouse than a place to have a party, but there was a woman there working on changing that, she was hanging decorations on the walls, covering the plain concrete floor with what looked like colorful beach towels… lots of them… Asuka went over to the woman and introduced herself, it turned out the woman was H, and H said she was very busy with the party preparations. Asuka said H shouldn't have to do all the work for her own birthday… Asuka started helping H out, she brightened up the place by creating colorful flowers and making them grow over some of the uglier parts of the room. Before long it did look like a really festive place. H said she still needed the cake, she asked MoSh about the cake, MoSh didn't have a cake… H told MoSh he was supposed to bring the cake, Asuka said no, she was supposed to bring the cake, and it was right here… she summoned up a cake, a very fancy cake, it looked really delicious, though it looked more like a wedding cake than a birthday cake… and H didn't miss this fact. She told Asuka that she was having a birthday, not getting married, but then she took the cake and started eating it like a pig… then the dream shifted.

Next there was a car on the road, and the past MoSh seemed very interested in that. There were four people in the car, a man and a woman in the front as well as a man and a woman in the back, the men were both on the driver's side and the women were on the passenger's side. There was nothing remarkable to be seen about the group, it was dark and they were driving a bit fast, the driver wasn't paying enough attention… was there going to be a wreck? Sure enough, there was a wreck… the car slammed full speed into the back of a stopped semi truck, crumpling the front of the car completely and triggering the airbags in the car… there were 4 airbags, two in front and then two in the back of the front seats for the rear seat passengers. The man on the driver's side was lucky there was an airbag, he was not buckled in. He flew forward into his airbag, then he acted like he couldn't breathe. The woman next to him was behaving a bit strangely… I saw she had what I think was a pencil and she was stabbing the man in his right side over and over and over and over… ok… that one was a bit disturbing… The driver from the semi came back to see what had happened, he saw the woman stabbing the man beside her. He asked what she was doing, she said unfortunately the man beside her had been killed in the accident. She fished around on the floor a bit and came back up with a screwdriver, she continued stabbing the man with the screwdriver even though the truck driver was watching… um…

Another shift in the dream? Nope. It ended this time. MoSh and I were back in his living room. MoSh was not pleased with Data, he said he'd asked for the important dreams, not every single fragment he'd ever had! MoSh was especially annoyed about the one where he'd been on the toilet, although I had made sure to turn away without seeing anything… in fact, I would have sworn his pants hadn't been down, he had just been sitting there on a toilet doing absolutely nothing… but MoSh was still yelling at Data about including non-important dreams in the set. Data stated MoSh hadn't defined what an 'important' dream was, and since hidden dream signs could be in any of the dreams, he had included them all. MoSh was quite exasperated, I'm not sure if that's what woke him, but he disappeared. I woke shortly after MoSh disappeared.

Note: When I fell asleep this night I was feeling rather crappy, even though I haven't been depressed much recently, I found myself feeling quite depressed last night. I had two main goals, to meet up with MoSh and view a past dream of his and to try to find Blake in a dream. With these things in mind I fell asleep and slipped into a WILD…

I was in the front yard of MoSh's inner world home, which is where I am completely used to being. I still didn't feel very good, I felt like I was all alone even though I logically knew that wasn't true. But logic doesn't often do a lot of good when emotions are involved… I was feeling hesitant to even go into MoSh's place, my feelings of isolation threatening to make me put up a wall to keep everyone away. I knew that would be a bad idea, so I forced myself to go right up to MoSh's front door and knock. The door was answered right away, MoSh was there and he looked happy to see me, which alleviated any remaining feelings that I might not be welcome there. I went inside quickly, MoSh closed the door behind me. MoSh was saying something to me, but I wasn't really hearing what he was saying because even though I felt assured that I was welcome here, I still felt depressed.

"MoSh…" I said, interrupting him, he stopped talking and looked over at me, seeming to notice for the first time that I was upset. He asked what was wrong, I simply replied that I wasn't feeling very well right now, in fact I was feeling quite depressed, and I needed a hug. A small part of me in the back of my mind told me I was a fool to say that, it said MoSh wasn't interested in whether or not I needed a hug, but that part of my mind had no choice but to shut up when MoSh put his arms around me and gave me the hug I had been needing. I hugged MoSh back, and just that made me feel considerably better… MoSh asked what was wrong, he asked if I knew what was causing my depression since he thought I had been doing a lot better lately. I told him I had been doing a lot better, but there will still be occasions where I feel depressed, and it had chosen an unfortunate night to happen. I explained that I had been feeling somewhat depressed yesterday evening, and then it turned out there was no one to talk to… Nomad was too busy with homework to spare even a few minutes, Tigress had chosen to watch movies all day, and there was no one else online... so I had ended up feeling lonely, on top of being depressed…

MoSh gave me another hug, and I was feeling a lot better now… MoSh asked if I felt well enough to go view his past dreams, I said sure I did. I thanked MoSh for listening and for being a good friend, and I was ready to go whenever he was ready. MoSh said he was glad he could help. We went into his living room and sat down on the couch, Data was right there, too. He said he had the first dream pulled up and ready to display. He announced that the dream about to be viewed was dreamt by MoSh on the night of December 2nd, 2009. Apparently I didn't need my laptop to generate a holographic view of past dreams, as the hologram formed around MoSh and me right as Data finished announcing the date of the dream.

I looked around our new surroundings in time to see a portal open, MoSh and Asuka came through it, and then the portal closed behind them. It was night time outside now, and the two of them walked into a cathedral of some kind. The hologram followed MoSh and Asuka into the cathedral, where they walked down a familiar looking hallway and into a music room, where there was some piano music coming from that room, there was a man sitting at the piano playing wonderfully, then he hit a sour note, hit the keyboard, and let out a stream of what I figured must be expletives in a foreign language. He fiddled around with the music in front of him for a bit, then returned to playing beautifully. MoSh took Asuka over to the man, introduced them to each other, introducing the man to Asuka as Johann Sebastian Bach.

Bach got up from the piano and greeted Asuka in a polite manner, he greeted MoSh as he would greet an old friend coming to visit, asking him about some sheet music he had apparently given MoSh on a previous visit. Bach played the piano a bit more, hit another sour note, cursed a bit more, then looked back over at MoSh. He said he was having problems with the end of one of his pieces, no matter what he tried it didn't sound quite right. MoSh looked at the sheet music and played a few notes on his guitar, hit a sour note in the same place Bach had been hitting his sour notes… Bach said that was the same problem he had been having. MoSh played with it a bit longer, and four sour notes later it came out sounding wonderful. Bach was thrilled. He said that was it! The song was complete.

Asuka had wandered off a bit, she was looking at the various architecture of the cathedral and seeming to like what she saw even though a lot of it was quite old and dusty… When she heard MoSh and Bach sounding happy she returned to them and asked if they had figured out the problem. They said they had, and MoSh said he wanted to play for Asuka, he wanted to jam with Bach. Bach agreed to that, and they started playing a song I didn't recognize, although there are very few songs by Bach that I would recognize… But recognize it or not, I could not deny the fact it sounded totally awesome. It occurred to me that it would be awesome if I could reproduce this on my electronic keyboard, and then since I know I am not very skilled, maybe MoSh could listen to the song and play it on his electric guitar, which would certainly sound much better than anything I can do. Since I had that idea, I focused on listening to the music, on hearing each and every note they were playing, and while I found the music immensely enjoyable, I had doubts in my ability to even vaguely reproduce it IWL.

After that song was done, Asuka had clearly enjoyed the music, she was clapping and threw a couple of flowers towards MoSh and Bach, then she looked like she got an idea. She went over to Bach, motioned to the piano, and asked if he minded if she tried something. He told her to go ahead. She played a few notes that sounded ethereal, and a flower bloomed to the right of the piano's front right leg… right out of the floor! Bach stared at that in amazement, MoSh didn't seem to find it that odd, but as Asuka kept playing, more of the flowers grew. Bach wanted to know how she did that, she spoke with Bach for a time about the energy of music and getting specific energy frequencies with the right combination of notes, which Bach clearly understood if only by instinct because his compositions had a powerful energy to them… So after a bit more of that, Bach and MoSh played another song, and more flowers sprouted from the floor, making the dingy room seem a lot brighter. Bach thought that was really something, and set to writing more of this music down to paper. MoSh looked at one of the pieces Bach had lying on a table, Bach said he could borrow it if it interested him, one musician to another… MoSh thanked him and picked up the papers, then disappeared. Bach looked surprised, but then realized MoSh must have woken up, he commented that dreamers can come and go so quickly. Asuka said she hoped he remembered…

I heard Data's voice say he had the next dream prepared, but I was feeling like I might lose the dream. I told Data to let me do a time dilation before we went to the next dream, so the hologram shut down and left MoSh and me in his living room in front of Data. I was focusing on Allura's method of time dilation, I barely noticed when there was a knock… or more like a scratching… at the door and Asuka opened it. I was focusing on compressing more time into less space when I was startled out of my focus by a fox! It was a cute fox! The fox jumped into my arms and seemed to want to be petted, which I did, but I still had to dilate time. I tried to start my time dilation over, but I didn't get it done in time and everything around me faded and I woke.

Note: My first goal for the night, the one I used my WILD for, was to go meet MoSh and then we were going to go back and view a dream he had a while back where he was speaking to don Juan. In this dream don Juan had told MoSh he had a message for me, but I would have to find him first, and the instructions for finding him were in that dream if I could get them. Other goals are the same as other nights. I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and slipped into an unusually vivid WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world. I surveyed my surroundings and saw everything looked like it always does, nothing seemed out of place. Sometimes it is difficult to keep the beginnings of these dreams separate since the dreams where I go to get MoSh before doing anything else are starting to merge together in my mind. I found MoSh, and we went through a portal back to my inner world.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal into the living room of my house, the first thing I saw was a cat running when we appeared suddenly. The cat, Amber, peeked around a corner as if to see if it was safe to come out, and seeing it was MoSh and me, she came back out right away. I booted up the laptop that was sitting on the couch and logged into the dream journal program right away. I searched through the list of MoSh's dreams and found the correct one, which was labeled "Don Juan At My Picnic Table," and clicked on that one. Everything was working smoothly as the hologram started up and we were transported to a virtual recreation of MoSh's dream.

I looked around the area, nothing was remarkable, what I was looking at was a park of some kind with a picnic table there, MoSh was sitting on one side of the picnic table with what appeared to be an Indian shaman sitting across from him. The present day MoSh and I got closer so we could hear what was being said. I actually sat on the left side of the MoSh at the picnic table, and the present day MoSh was beside me, and there was a dark specter floating over the shaman… wtf? There was no dark specter… the day was bright and sunny, a great day for a picnic, and there was no sign of anything creepy… except for the dark fog seeping out of the… gopher hole?! That wasn't dark fog… it was a cute little gopher baring it's razor sharp fangs as it tore the head off of a small lizard and swallowed the thing whole… um… ok… my mind was running away from me a bit here… I focused my attention on the shaman, who I knew right away was don Juan, and listened to him and MoSh talking to each other.

Don Juan was talking to MoSh about getting a message to me regarding how to find him, when don Juan said that he took a glance to MoSh's left, directly at me, as if he was looking at me. But that couldn't be, this was a hologram, it wasn't even like we'd traveled through time to view it in person. Don Juan's gaze strayed to the present day MoSh and then returned to the MoSh he was speaking with. MoSh said something about me not having the power to reach don Juan, but don Juan said it has nothing to do with power, what I was lacking was the belief in myself, I have too much doubt about myself to find him, which I thought was odd since I was now sitting across from him… I snickered, which somehow seemed to get his attention again… don Juan looked at me for a bit longer this time, I had the distinct feeling I was actually being watched, so I silenced myself, I wasn't here to interfere, after all… but I wasn't here at all! I put my attention back on don Juan right as a large black form with huge razor teeth reared up behind don Juan and was preparing to bite his head off, or that's what it appeared to be… I instinctive stood up and yelled at don Juan to look out, and right at that time don Juan leaned over to pick something up from the ground… the creature's teeth clamped down on nothing and the thing dissipated into the air like smoke.

After that, the other MoSh was still not paying any attention to me, the present MoSh was looking at me strangely, and don Juan also seemed to be watching me… was this not just a hologram? Were we actually there? I didn't have any answers to those questions for certain, but it definitely looked like don Juan was responding to my actions… so now I just straight out asked don Juan if he could see me, was he actually looking at me like it appeared he was looking at me. He didn't say anything, but he focused his gaze right into my eyes briefly before looking back at the past version of MoSh. So he was seeing me! I had no doubt in my mind of that now, somehow he was seeing me, which would indicate this was not just a hologram.

So the dream went on this way, the past MoSh and don Juan spoke a bit more, don Juan said something about telling me things then I could write them down… at the same time as I was seeing don Juan and MoSh talking in a park I was seeing someplace much more disturbing, a dark and dreary place with strange mutant creatures crawling through the shadows, often coming out and feeding on one another… I couldn't hide a look of 'yuck' when a smaller creature jumped on a larger one, tore into the stomach of the larger one, ate the soft tissue within, then ran off leaving the larger creature still alive, but inevitably dying an unpleasant death, and making the most horrible noises as it died… this caused me to not hear all of what don Juan and MoSh were saying to each other, but don Juan seemed to find my reactions interesting, as he looked over in my direction several times. Smaller ant like mutants, mouse sized ants, came out and began eating the creature before it had finished its slow demise, creating the loudest and most horrible cries of pain yet…

Once the pathetic creature was dead I was able to return my attention to MoSh and don Juan, the latter of the two was looking back at me… I saw movement off to my left and looked over just in time to see MoSh disappear from the picnic bench, that must be where he woke up, and now there was something else there… sort of a version of MoSh, but it had razor sharp fangs and teeth, talons on his hands, and the eyes of a goat… meaning his pupils were horizontal and square shaped, looked really kind of creepy. That version of MoSh hissed at me like a snake and then made to bite me with his sharp fangs, I held him back from biting me, and then he disappeared just as the normal MoSh had done. I looked over at the present day MoSh, and he was looking over at don Juan… hadn't he seen what had just happened? Hadn't he seen the really creepy version of himself? I was getting the idea he hadn't, which seemed really strange that he could have missed it…

Don Juan was looking directly at me now, no longer trying for the illusion that he couldn't see me, it was obvious to anyone looking that he was looking right at me… both of him were looking right at me… There appeared to be two of him, one lying barely beneath the surface of the other, creating a somewhat blurred image of him… I wondered if there was another don Juan within the inner don Juan… I looked closer and could see there indeed was, and another… and another… and another… and then I stopped looking deeper because it was starting to give me a headache… like looking into infinity. I felt like the dream was going to slip away from me, but that was the last thing I wanted to do… I looked away from the many dimensional don Juan and looked at my own hands, trying to stabilize my dream, and I did a double take… I had talons?! Or at least one version of my hands had talons… another had long red fingernails, another looked normal but had blue skin… ok, enough of seeing all of this, to stabilize the dream… I closed my eyes and used the time dilation method Allura showed me, and as I dilated time the dream stabilized.

With the dream stabilized, I looked back up at don Juan, I asked what the message was that he had for me. He said nothing for a short time, and then, "The fact that you are here proves you already understand the message." I was sitting there looking at him with what was no doubt a blank look, the different versions of don Juan were responding differently, one was snickering, one had no expression, one was frowning, one was outright laughing his ass off, one was shaking his head, one was nodding, one was… ok… that was too many don Juans again… I was getting disoriented. He asked exactly what I thought I was seeing, I figured he meant the fact I was seeing many versions of the same thing, so that's what I answered, that it was different versions of the same things from multiple planes of existence. He said I was only seeing a few of the many ways that things are, but let's see if I was really seeing anything at all…

Before I could put meaning to that, however, the scene around me changed. I surveyed my new surroundings and saw I was standing in a forest clearing (barren desert landscape) where there was one person there beside myself. That person looked like an Indian shaman (weird crazy old man) with long white hair hanging down to about the middle of his back (sticking out in every possible direction) and an old wizened face (with wild colored paint all over it)… I was seeing two versions of this person at the same time…

Version One:
I was in a barren desert landscape with very little sign of life anywhere, and the crazy looking shaman was staring at me with an insane look in his eyes. I focused on him for a bit, not sure what I was supposed to do about this situation, he attacked me with a wind spell, he formed a tornado and basically sent it at me. I jumped out of the way and flew over to the other side of the crazy shaman, looking at him to see what the best course of action was… and his spark was something I couldn't miss, so I would heal him. The song I thought I needed to use was Touch My Heart, so I focused on that while evading another wind attack, this one had wind blasts compressed so tightly that they were like spears, the song played through and golden energy flowed through the shaman, I had directed the spell to match the shaman's own energy. The song finished playing, the shaman looked normal now, he nodded at me and was gone.

Version Two:
I was in the forest clearing, there was an Indian shaman looking at me with a calm expression on his face, he also had an evil glint in his eyes. I wondered if he was up to something, I thought there was something strange about his aura, it seemed ice cold. I heard him chuckle, and then there was an explosion of activity as animals charged from every direction attacking me, they seemed to be under the shaman's control. They were innocent animals, I didn't want to hurt them, so I took to the sky to avoid an assortment of birds dive bombed me from the sky, to free the animals I would have to deal with the shaman quickly. I searched him, I figured I would find the spark, but I saw nothing… could that be? I looked a little deeper, still nothing, I looked as much as I could… I was attacked more, and I had still seen no sign of a spark in this man. Since I could see nothing to heal in there I just went for straight defending myself… He was attacking me with a staff that had a blade on each end as the animals continued attacking me from behind, I saw no choice but to counter attack with my Witchblade sword, and I ended up killing him. Once he was dead, the animals dispersed, then I saw a ghost rise from the body and both were gone.

Ok… now things looked normal again, what had that been all about? I was going to say something to don Juan, who was there in front of me again, but I didn't get a chance to before everything changed again. I was inside a room now, that looked like the interior of an old type building that might have been used by native Americans… There was yet another shaman standing in front of me, he had long braided gray hair (long black hair pulled back into a pony tail) (I couldn't see his hair because of a hood over his head)… I was seeing three versions of things now…

Version One:
I was looking at the shaman with long gray hair that was in braids on both sides of his face. He attacked me with fire, forming a fireball in each hand and throwing it at me. I countered the fire with a blast of ice, to extinguish the flames so the place wouldn't burn to the ground with us in it… though this man was attacking me, he had a spark… so I would heal him. A ring of fire formed around the man, expanding to burn all in its path including me… I focused on the song Touch My heart, which felt right for this situation, and the healing energy flowed through the man. He nodded, then disappeared.

Version Two:
The shaman had long black hair that was pulled back into a pony tail, his eyes were creepily red and looked a bit crazed… He was attacking me with ice, throwing icicles at me like spears, I shattered them with my Witchblade sword while checking this guy for a spark, which I saw burning inside him, so I focused on the healing spell that felt right, and that one was the song Frozen by Madonna. The song played and golden energy flowed through the shaman, having the intended effect. This shaman also nodded his head and then disappeared.

Version Three
I was facing a shaman with blood red robes on, his face was mostly concealed within the red hood, but I could see his eyes, and they were burning like they had fire in them… it sounded like he was growling from inside the hood. I'm not sure if it was real or imagined, but I thought I saw fangs inside the hood, the light glinted off his fangs… He was attacking me with dark energy, it looked like his base energy was dark energy, he was throwing balls of dark energy at me. I deflected the energy balls back at him and he absorbed them back into himself. Now I could clearly hear he was laughing at me… I was about to start fighting him, but no… he also had a spark… I needed another healing spell… I focused on the one that seemed right for the situation, and that one was Until It Sleeps by Metallica. The song played through, and the healing took its effect as in the previous two situations. My Until It Sleeps spell was using dark energy, which was clearly the shaman's base energy, and the spell had automatically matched that energy. The stable dark energy flowed through the shaman, bring about the healing effect. Once healed, the shaman removed his hood, nodded his head, then disappeared.

I was now back in the park with the present day MoSh and the don Juan from his dream. MoSh was looking at me strangely, I wondered if I had been gone very long, I wondered if it had even been noticeable that I had been gone… I looked over at don Juan, I was going to say something, but I didn't get a chance before five spirits appeared, the five from the shamans I had encountered, they were all standing in a circle around don Juan. One by one, the shaman spirits merged into each other until there was just one left, and he was no longer a spirit, he looked very solid. And don Juan seemed to know this man, it looked like they were friends. I wondered who this new man was, I wondered how he (they?) had known don Juan. The other man turned around and disappeared into thin air as he walked away, and then don Juan turned back to me. I was wondering what the message had been, I asked him… he said that if I was to examine the events of this dream more closely that the message hidden within would become clear to me. He said now it was time for me to wake up, I had been doing a lot of dreaming in just a single hour of sleep… just an hour? I wondered if that was possible, and then I woke and found I truly had only been sleeping for an hour…

Note: I fell asleep with my usual list of goals in mind to start off with going to meet MoSh so we could view the dream he had a while back with don Juan where don Juan left a message for me. In addition to that and the usual list I have been including recently, Walms had said something about maybe dropping by my inner world then we would go find Xildron. But he had said he would come to me, so that wasn't so much a goal of mine as it was just an intention to be here when Walms showed up. My final goal was to meet with Blake in a dream. I fell asleep with my light / sound device on, and I was successful in slipping into a WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world, which was where I had intended to go when I had initiated my WILD. I walked over to MoSh's house and knocked on the front door, Asuka opened the door and smiled. She definitely looked 100% better than she had looked after her ordeal she had gone through after getting kidnapped. She had a smile on her face now, and stood back from the doorway to let me in. I spotted MoSh right away in the living room doing something with a small device that I couldn't see. I got close to see what it was, but I never got a chance to look at it properly before MoSh threw it against the wall and it broke open to reveal circuit boards covered with chocolate. Um… chocolate chips? MoSh said the piece of junk wasn't working. I suggested maybe the device wasn't working because this was a dream, and often times technological devices don't work properly in dreams. He said nah, those work fine in his dreams. I rolled my eyes at that and told him we were going to go view his conversation with don Juan, we could use my laptop back home. He didn't seem to notice that as odd, and he came with me through the portal to my inner world as if it was the most natural thing ever.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal into my living room, where I saw it was full of all the cats I have ever lost, which was actually just three kitties… There was a medium length haired silver tabby named Che-Si curled up in my usual seat on the couch which is named, a short haired silver tabby named Bandit on the back of the couch, and a cute little tortoiseshell cat named Amber was curled up on the chair where my mother usually sits. I picked up and hugged Che-si, thinking about how wonderful it would be to get to hold her in my arms again… but I was holding her in my arms again! Sure, this was a dream, but I was holding her in my arms. I stroked the kitty in my arms, hugged her close to me, kissed her soft silky fur, listened to the sound of her purring in my arms… so cute… so sweet… and I missed her… I was getting completely occupied with my kitty until MoSh said something to me, reminding me that he was there, this was a dream, and we actually had a goal to accomplish. I set the kitty down and then sat down on the couch, picking my computer up off the seat to my right and turning it on. MoSh sat on the seat beside me.

As I started up the computer and selected the dream journal program that only my dream laptop has, MoSh was looking intently at the screen to see what I was looking at. I opened the dream journal program and there was a list of dreams, but they were mine, so I selected MoSh's dream journal. MoSh was telling me a date to find the dream we were looking to view on, but I couldn't really understand what date he was saying, which was quite frustrating since I could understand everything else he was saying. I finally found a dream entitled "Don Juan At My Picnic Table" and I selected that one. The computer gave me a loading icon, then formed the hologram all around MoSh and me, making it look like we really were going into the dream.

As I surveyed the area I immediately knew something about this was not right, in fact there were a lot of things about this that weren't right. There was no sign of MoSh (other than the one who came with me), don Juan, or even a picnic table anywhere in the vicinity. In fact we were in what looked like a space ship of some kind, one wall of the long hall we were in was looking out into deep space, it was quite a cool sight, but definitely not what MoSh and I had been looking for. I looked outside, and the stars looked really strange through the window… I wasn't sure what I was looking at, but there was a star fairly close to us that was providing light to the hallway. At the end of the hallway was a blue panel that was similar to the ones on the floor and wall, somehow I understood that to be a door. I saw that MoSh was also very disoriented and confused, he looked at me and said he didn't think don Juan had ever been to a place like this. I suggested we take a look around, MoSh wanted to exit the hologram and find the one with don Juan in it, but he finally agreed to check this place out.

The passage we were in turned out to be a very long curved passage that seemed to be going around the outside edge of a huge space station, it was hard to see, but the passage was curving slightly to the left as we were walking. In some of the hallway segments there were more doors that led to the left, farther into the station, but we had yet to check them out. Finally we opened one of those doors and headed farther into the center of the space station. There were artificial lights in the interior of the station, I had been wondering if there were any lights in this place except for what the stars provided… and an old man met us at the door. If it hadn't been the fact the man was wearing space suite type clothing and looked to be a white man I might have thought he was a shaman, he had that aged and wise look about him. He said something about there being spies in the station, and they were going to steal the knowledge for themselves, then he collapsed, dead, I saw an arrow sticking out of his back… an arrow?! That was the last thing I expected to see in a space station…

MoSh and I continued exploring the place, not really sure where we were going or how to get there. MoSh said he wanted to go back so we could try again to view the dream with don Juan, this clearly wasn't the right place. I was getting a little tired of the halls that all looked the same, so I was going to agree with MoSh, then I saw one more thing I wanted to investigate. Every so often in the strange walls there was a glowing spot, and these glowing spots seemed evenly spaced down the hall, and they weren't nearly bright enough to be providing light, which came from what appeared to be fluorescent tubes on the ceiling. I told MoSh just a minute and I went over and touched one of the lights, I jumped back a bit as a portion of the wall slid open, revealing itself to be a concealed door. The inside of the room was really weird with a glowing blue cylindrical shaped something in the middle of an otherwise empty room. Somehow I knew this was one of thousands of databases on this ship, I don't know how I knew, I just did, and each of these pillars stored some unfathomable amount of data…

MoSh looked at the pillar but he didn't seem very interested in it, he clearly still wanted to get going to find don Juan. I told him ok, let's get back to the computer so I could try again to access the correct dream. I told MoSh that I had been in his dream journal when I found this, so that must mean it was one of MoSh's dreams that he had forgotten, or that is what it seemed would have to be the case. MoSh said he would remember if he had ever been in a place like this before. I said we all forget amazing things, reminding him that I had been in an epic battle with Walms' kid Xildron and I'd proceeded to forget the entire thing until I went back and dream viewed it. Either way, MoSh was unable to give any more insight as to where we were or the purpose of this place. So I focused on sending a command to the computer to end the hologram playback, but nothing happened. I realized I don't think I have ever ended the hologram until the dream was completely over and the hologram ended because there was nothing more to display. I wondered how much longer this dream was, MoSh looked a bit impatient to get back, but there wasn't a lot I could do about that right now. I told MoSh I wasn't sure how to end the hologram, he didn't seem to think that was even possible, and the fact we weren't stuck there was proven when I woke.

I was in bed. I was thinking about my dreaming goals. I wanted to find out where I had left the dark energy entity I had pulled out of S, it had escaped me and taken over MoSh, I took it out of MoSh and someone took it from me when I was being unable to control it again. My being in bed and thinking about dreams is getting to be a common occurrence. I rolled over and wondered if I might be dreaming. I sat up in bed and pinched my nose, doing a nose pinch RC. I could breathe just fine. I was definitely dreaming. I got out of bed, fully lucid.

I wondered how I could find out about what had happened. Well, I have gone to dream view some of MoSh's dreams, so I could do the same thing here. I could go to view my own dream. I left the room and went into the next room. I thought I could travel through time or I could use the idea of watching the dream on a computer. My laptop. I went to it, it was sitting on my couch, and I opened it up. The computer came to life. There was software already running. It looked like a usual browser, but there was a menu up on the screen. A very interesting looking web site. There were titles on the screen, that looked like the titles of dreams I have had. One of them was labeled "06/05/10 Demons Within." I clicked on that one. Instead of opening up a text window, however, it opened up a video screen. I clicked on the play button and suddenly I was in the middle of a 3D holographic representation of the dream. It looked like I was there, but this time viewing it from 3rd person instead of my usual first person position.

I was in the dream and I watched it as it progressed. I watched MoSh and myself go into S's inner world where we did healing spells on her. I watched myself drawing dark energy out of S, and this time I saw when the actual entity came out of S and went into me. I saw myself visibly having problems controlling the dark energy and entity I had just absorbed, and then I saw the thing pull out of me. I saw the thing go over to MoSh, and I saw myself turn towards MoSh and then realize I had not contained the dark energy, instead it had escaped. Ok… that was the first part… MoSh disappeared, then the dream changed. The hologram flickered off and then back on. Large words on the screen. It said that "06/05/10 MoSh's Demon" was the next dream to play back.

The hologram surrounded me again. I was now in the abandoned city where I found MoSh. MoSh was there, and he was beating up a Templar. He broke that Templar's neck. He went down a side alley. Another Templar approached MoSh. He tried to say something, but MoSh didn't give him a chance to. MoSh immediately started beating the shit out of the Templar. He grabbed a pipe and continued beating the Templar. I saw myself show up. MoSh ran the pipe through the Templar's back and was glaring at the me in the dream. MoSh looked like he was resisting something, he told the other me to get away, then I saw myself tell MoSh I was sorry I had let that thing into him and I would help him. I saw myself draw the dark energy out of MoSh. I again saw as the other me drew the dark entity into myself. I was once again having problems controlling that, but I immediately opened a portal and left.

I saw myself appear in a forest. I didn't know any more about where I was. The forest itself was non-descript. There was a man there with me. I looked at him closely. It was definitely not Walms. The man came over near me and waited a bit, watching me struggle with the entity inside me. I recognized him. It was L. He changed form into Walms, and then started talking to me. He was telling me to let go of the entity, to let it go and he would take care of it. He was saying I had just tried to absorb too much too fast, but it was safe to let it go now. I saw myself let go of the entity… it came out of me. Now L was not paying much attention to me. He was talking to the spectral entity. He asked what the fuck had just happened. I saw myself disappear, but the holo-movie continued.

L was mad at the entity. He said he had given her a simple task of getting into MoSh, hitching a ride back to MoSh's inner world, and bring Asuka back to him where she belongs. The entity was not pleased, either. She was getting mad at L , saying no one had said anything about a stupid bitch trying to actually absorb her… and after having too much energy drained, MoSh had resisted taking her back to her inner world… so it was L's fault. If he wanted to fuck around with dark energy, she would give him something to fuck around with. The entity attacked L, was apparently that pissed, blasted right through L before exiting the other side of him and disappearing through a black portal. L looked pretty drained by that encounter… and he disappeared, apparently waking up. So now the dream was over, and the holo-recording ended.

I was in front of my laptop again. I looked at the screen where it was back to the menu. Apparently I had given the entity back to L, but she wasn't in the mood to cooperate with L any longer. At least L hadn't gotten her back to try his dirty plan again… I was looking at the computer to see what other dreams I could examine when everything faded and I woke.