Turquoise Dreams

Had some weird and gross dreams.

But one was awesome.

I'm walking by a seashore, on some kind of a wooden path. A part of a path that's on the water gets lose and floats away few feet. Somebody jumps in and starts to pull the planks out. I look at the water. It's at night, so I only see the small portion illuminated by some strong lamp from the shore. Water is calm, clear, with some foam in some parts. I think about sharks for a second, then jump in. I dive to the bottom which is only maybe 5-6 feet away. I swim by the bottom, looking for submerged pieces of the walkway. There are some other things, but I pick up 2 planks and take them to the shore. The dive feels awesome.

Thank you!

Last night bed 9:30pm - 3:30am

Remembered 3 dreams from last night

DR 1:
This one was a bit abstract. But I was above some water with deep sandy sides, like a quarry filled with water. I was bout to get into my spaceship, but first I had to do something. I threw some small shining ball made of energy down, it was suppose to do something spectacular. Someone with me said it's doing it, but I didn't really see it.

DR2:
Somebody, maybe aliens are releasing these tiny tiny bugs. They are suppose to come ot of the vents soon.

DR3:
I'm in a store and the sales person brought some shirts for me to try. I tell my mom, that they are all male and looks like she just grabbed the first ones she saw on the rack. I went and picked some that looked better.

Last night bed 8:50pm.
1:50am - 2x300 alpha GPC and back to sleep
3am - WBTB
3:25am - 2x4 galantamine tablets by relentless improvement
3:50 - sofa
5:03 - woke myself up to record my lucids after maybe 30 min long one

I didn't turn to the side before the lucids. And my cat didn't lay on me as usually. But half of the lucid she was in my arms and we were flying together.

As soon as I got lucid I started working on my TOTMs. I remembered them all, except the "burn a house" because I didn't want to do that one and "buffet" because I already did it.

Advanced TOTM - Spin around and teleport yourself to a random location. - fail - I don't remember where I ended up.
I'm laying on a bed on top of a hillside at night. There is a high dropoff on my left with ocean glittering from moonshine. My cat is laying on me as he is usually when I WILD.

I remembered first TOTM and started to spin. My cat in my outstreched arms, kinda like 2 ice skaters, haha. I was giggling so hard. At first I was just spinning in one spot and I lost my vision. Then I felt familiar sensation in my head and I was lifted up and carried up to the right. I'm pretty sure I landed somewhere but I don't remember.

I think I ended up flying over this huge river that looked like it's in Africa. Lot's of water flowing over some huge boulders making white froth. Lot's of people in and around the water, having fun. There is a huge animal and whoa, it's a Brontosaurus. People are bathing their huge elephant just few feet from there. Looks like they are all coexisting in peace and harmony, like a future advanced or alternate society.

We fly some more and I wish the river to turn to ocean and it gets wider until we are over an ocean at night.

I'm walking down a street at night and remember the Advanced TOTM - Lift a car with super strength and carry it somewhere. - fail. I forgot to carry it somewhere.
Streets are empty, but a huge red fire truck just turns a corner out of my view. I want to go after, thinking "really, you had to pick this huge car?" it when a huge green garbage truck turns to my street and is heading towards me. I'm thinking I'm gonna get so run over if this doesn't work.

I read Ophelia's DJ during the WBTB and she teleported people. So I outstrech my arm and will the truck to float up. I'm not even surprised when it does. It wobbles a bit about 5-10 feet above ground. I want to do more, so I turn it upside down then let it drop. It's all crumbled and I see some movement in the cabin. I walk up to it and say "oh yeah, and the driver si fine, he is ok".

Now I'm looking for a Moon and I find it and start flying towards it. Everytime I want to fly faster or higher, I actually slow down. So I give up on that.

I'm in some city between building. I remember the BONUS TASK! - Go into a room and close the door. Tell yourself that while you were in the room, time stopped for you, but continued to advance outside of the room and it's now 100 years into the future. Describe what the future is like! - success

I look into a window of couple of houses but they look scary. I find one that's ok and I tell myself "this is my house". I walk in and remember I need to go in a room, so I walk through an empty room to another room and close the door.

I was preparing for this as I was falling asleep. I planned on finding a lever on a wall which I would pull and a counter would show numbers go up to the future.

So I put my hand on a wall looking for a lever. It's not there. I say "I turn back and there will be a lever". I turn and nothing. I look again and there is a metal ring hanging on a chain that's coming out of a hole in a wall above my head. I say "ok this will do". I pull on a chain, it turns some flywheel and I hear it turn fast then slow down and stop. Before it stops, I pull the chain again and I do this 5 times, because 5 times 20 years is 100, right?

I walk out the door and now that room has some people in it, sitting on chairs. I say "oh, hi" and I rush to the main door to see outside. It looks even older than before and the houses are all different. Now there is a roof over the whole street. I'm thinking maybe this is a museum and I take another door to get out to the "real world". But it leads me to same place. I get frustrated and start to think that this is how the future will look like and I'm not liking it.

After this I woke myself up to write it down. As soon as I sit up, I'm like uhm, which tasks did I do? Did I just dream doing them, haha. Fuuuu. Then I recalled the last one, then the previoius one and then the first one.

Went to sleep after this since this was all just aboout 30 min long. Had a very long non-lucid with Ophelia. She was mad at me and asking me for some money for a trip we took together. I was like OK, but I thought were were pretty even. Her BF was there too during the whole dream. They wanted me to leave so I did. Then they stopped me at the door and somehow we ended up in a futuristic, or just very modern city in Asia. I even new the name. Going up and down the escalators and sitting in rooms in highrise buildings. OP told me she wants me to have a sex change, haha. I was like from what to what, haha. It didn't make much sense. I remembered her gender-bender dreams and I just couldn't figure out what is she now and what am I and how would that all work, lol.

Bed 9:45 - 3:40am

Took a 2hr nap or so in the afternoon.

3 cool dreams.

DR 1:
I'am in a big house. Large floor plan, lots of windows, carpets. Nobody lives there now, we are hiding there. I'm looking into the next room that sits lower than where I am, at huge amount of boxes with supplies and I wish there was some beer. I look closer, and of course, lots of boxes with beer. Someobody calls me over to taste some of it. It's expensive and rare, so we sip it from whiskey glasses.

Now I am outside, in a new neighborhood. I tell the cabbie to turn by the Walmart. As I look at the distant hills, someone yelles out "they are coming". The alien worms are invading. I see a cloud that resembles the poison gas cloud in Hunger Games. I don't see any worms but I'm not gonna wait and find out. They are coming to kill us.

I start walking by a tunnel, trying to remember how to get back. I need to find a guy in a hospital. After long thinking, I figure out his name is Dr.Green. He is suppose to be a partner of character named Vic from a video game GTA. I'm looking closely at people passing by. I see them in great details, their faces, clothes. But since I don't know this guy, I am asking them "are you Dr. Green?". When danger comes closer, I follow few people that enter their living spaces after punching in the code in a keypad. I walk in and apologise for the intrusion. They tell me not to worry and just stay safe there.

DR 2:

I'm somewhere outside near some major road. There is a turn to the left and road turns into wooden lanes, almost like at the bowling alley. The lanes are separated by walls. Signs above the lanes say which place it leads from and where it's going. They are bicycle lanes. One sign says "from china to rest of the world". I'm joiking with someone when I say, "haha, I wanna see someone in China to go visit their gramma in Korea on a bike".

I get on one of the lanes and ride a bike.

DR 3:

I'm in an artificial lake with concrete sides. It's rather small, maybe a size of 2 rooms. Someone else is there with me. I look in the water and we are standing on a small boat that sunk. I realize we are in the lake at Universal Studios. I look up at the huge board which is right above me to confirm location. Someone from the shore tells the guy he is not swimming right, he should be more in the water. I look in the water and see the dark shadow of the boat and how dirty the water is with debris. The actor next to me puts his face in the water. I push off and start swiming to the side. A fin swims by me and that confirms I'm at the studios. It's an animatronic shark from Jaws, programmed to swim in circles on the edge of the pool.

Last night bed around 9pm coz early shift. I switched to sofa for better recall at 11 pm.

DR:
I'm on a shore of an ocean. Can't see the water well, because it's at night. Standing on some walkway few feet above the sand, looking down. Me and others from my group of safety guards/lifeguards are looking for some coins/tokens and other things that someone left in many places on the beach. They have some significance. I open my hand and show others what we are looking for. I see some coins on the sand but when I zoom my vision in, it's just an american quarter. I find this a productive task.

Change of scenery
I'm walking on a sidewalk with a chainlink fence on my left side that has branches of a bush growing on it. I spot a huge tank on the grassy lawn behind the fence. I quickly duck, but it's too late. They saw me and a skinny, long cannon on this rust-red, 2 story high tank which is long and wide as 4 normal tanks, starts turning towards me. It looks like a tank from star wars.

I stay hunched over and I ran alongside this fence. I stop in the middle, where I see another military vehicle, that is like made of some see-through plastic. Somebody catches up with me and in effort to see over the fence, he kinda pulls it down a bit. I fall down on my back because the enemy saw me and eagle like tallons couple of feet long are grabbing at my legs. Someone either lobbs a granade at it or something similar, but I'm able to pull away.

Last night bed at 10pm. I adjusted my waking time for supplements accordingly.

2:30am 2x300 Alpha GPC

Here I remembered a DREAM:
I'm moving a huge low wooden table and I think I somehow move it too fast because it kinda levitates and I don't stop it on time. It bumps into a wall. Or at least that's how I explain to myself the loud bump. Someone walks in from another room wondering what the heck I'm doing.

We look out the window. The darkness of the night is illuminated by bright explosions over the silhuetts of distant tall trees. I have a feeling doomsday war just broke out and those are missiles exploding. (watched a tv show about doomsday with intent to have an intense dream about it and promptly I did have a dream that night, and looks like last night as well)

After Alpha GPC I went back to sleep.

3:30am - got up for a WBTB.
4:05am - 2x4mg pure galantamine and going straight on a sofa. I was so sleepy. Btw, I took a bite of bread because I was getting hungry and didn't want that to bother me while WILDing.

Woke up at 6:07 from continuous dreaming.

I fell asleep rather quickly and wa lucid from the getgo.

About 20 min into a lucid, I noticed a brief change in the setting and I thought to myself "whoa, that's about 20 min of some very aware and detailed lucid".

I believe I kept lucid for the whole 2 hrs, from falling asleep till 6am. It was getting less aware towards the end, but I was still making decisions.

Since my style of LDing had changed and I don't have chains of lucids with brief breaks between dreams, I'm having hard time remembering details. Before, during these breaks between dreams when I was just laying there in gray emptiness, I had time to retell to myself any previous lucids and even count them before realizing I'm still there and dreaming, all I have to do is stand up and be in a dream again.

Now it's just one long contunuous dream with changes of scenery. Last 2 times I had only 2 major sceneries. First part of lucid was outdoors and second was indoors. I don't know why or how, but it seems like a theme now.

In last night's lucid, again, half of the dream I was outside. Flying over places. One of them was a scary fast water in a deep channel. Was so turbulent as if it was rushing out of a dam. Someone I was flying with asked me if I want to go in a water and I said no. So we just flew by the wall, turning away from there, looking for a landing spot. All spots were stone steps carved into a stone, making a narrow staircase going upwards into darkness. Each starcase was creepier than the other.

Next I'm flying over a futuristic city. It's very modern, I'm flying slowly taking my time, making a conscious decision to take in as many details as I can so I remember at least some of it, knowing that I will have hard time remembering. I'm looking at each item trying to memorize it.

NOTES:
(I think this is from me practicing awareness last night and also last week before that lucid. I have noticed already last week that part of my lucid was a bit different. It was more aware and detailed. Same thing happened last night.

Also, last week after my lucid, I felt this strange surge of passion for lucid dreams. I do love them, but this was like I newly discovered them again. New possibilities have opened. Not sure what it is, but I still feel it. )

I walk up the stairs coming from underground. Like from a metro. I notice the air smells different. It smells real and the world is real and the houses and weather are real. I think to myself briefly without having time to ponder on what it means. I cant figure out the difference between the 2 worlds. Until I walked out, I felt that where I was till then WAS real.

Something like when you walk out to sunny afternoon from a dark theater after you saw a movie. You are still in the "movie world" being immersed in the story, you forgot about the world outside and stepping outside it's a bit of a shock.

Ok, so second part of the dream was me walking through endless corridors, rooms, halls, such as in a huge department store. Only different. Some of the corridors are curved, rooms are smaller and bigger with all kinds of items. All very busy. All full of other people.

I go with the theme of me finally seeing DCs that had been absent in most of my prior lucids. And I actully talk to them. I ask a group of DCs who will be the president. I hear myself pronounce their full names clearly and I'm pleasantly surprised and proud of myself. I ask them if it's gonna be Trump or Hillary Clinton. They don't really answer, except one guy who says "25". Haha. I move on and later I ask another group, but they don't know either.

TOTM
While still in the outdoors part of a dream, I remember the TOTM - dig a hole and see what's there. Although now I think the TOTM is "stick your head in the ground and see what's there".

Anyway, I start to dig a hole in the dirt when I get some not so good vibes and I decide I don't want to go what's on the other side of it. So I stop.

Oh yeah, last part was not very lucid. I spent it on... you guessed it... sex. Any which way I could. At least 20 min of it. Not complaining.

After the lucid, I went back to sleep still feeling the GM and choline in my head, hoping for another LD. But didn't get any more. Got up at 9:12, not remembering any dreams from that part.

Reading an article about differences between OBEs and LDs, I just remembered that I was getting some gentle vibrations just before I fell asleep.

I guess last few times I was doing classic middle of the night WBTB. I didn't do this since I tried it when I first started with LDing.

I was asleep at 4 am when I heard the watch chime, I was just getting lucid, and then heard it again at 5 still lucid. Got up at 5:45 after some non lucid.

Last night
9:40 pm - bed
1:27 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
went straight back to sleep to get up later
3am - got up for a WBTB
3:34 am - 2x4mg pure galantamine
and going straight on a sofa with back raised to half sitting position, on my back.

Was rather sleepy so when I heard my wach chime at 4am, I was already asleep. I decided to turn to my right side. I think I turned to my left next, before I got lucid.

1.
I was in a mall and we were apparently Canadian. Our canadian ID was getting us in trouble, so we went to a forgerer to get us some new IDs.
He had a creek behind his place and I wanted to jump in a swim.

2.
I am outside and I want to fly. I float up and grab one of the branches of a tree that was growing somewhere much higher than I was. It looked like a jungle vine hanging from the skies. I held on to it and I felt it will help me fly. Then I thought I can just make huuge swings on it since it was so long and I did. That was awesome feeling. Going fast and feeling wind on my face.

3.
I dropped to the ground and wished hard for it to be an ocean. It changed into water and I sank down. The water stayed brownish murky but I made out outlines of some huge sharks and whales swimming by.

4.
I'm in a mall and I walk into a small side room. I drop to the floor and I want to swim in the ocean again. I look down and the floor is painted with an ocean scene. Beautiful blue water with sea creatures of all colors. I just flopped there for a while when I realized it's not gonna happen.

5.
I'm standing on a shore of a wide concrete cannal with a rather steep slope leading to the water. I look closer and there are fish swimming in oval shape in this completely clear water. I watch in fascination small fish, big fish, blue fish, red fish, haha, mantas and all kinds and shapes and sized of fish slowly swimming by.

6.
I'm showing somebody how to phase through objects. I pick a trashcan on the street and walk through it like a ghost.

7. Last dream, already non-lucid.
I think this is still at the forgerers place. Somebody wants to put fish into my aquarium and I say hell no, I barely waited the fish out to die, I don't want any more fish. They say "but they are alive" and sure enough, 2 tough fish are swimming around. The more I look, the more creatures I find living in there. I think I start changing the water.

This should be a dream sign for me. Reading Ophelia's DJ last night during WBTB, when she said aquarium is her dream sign, I realized I have lots of aquarium and fish in a water dreams. And then I have both of them, haha.

Last night bed at 8 pm. Alarm set to 1am, but I woke up at 12:47 so I took 2x300 Alpha GPC then. Went back to bed to sleep another hour before staying up for WBTB, but couldn't fall asleep for good 10 min. So when second alarm rang at 2am, I kept sleeping. Woke up at 2:50 and I almost blew the whole thing. Stayed up for 30 min before felt I was already awake enough. I read Opehlia's DJ for motivationD. Took 2xGM at 3:20am and went straight to sleep.

8pm - bed
12:47am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
2:50 - 3:20am - WBTB
3:20am - 2x4 pure galantamine
3:20am - sofa

About 40 min long.

Took me about 10 min to fall asleep, after my cat jumped off of me. The head sensation, which normally is feeling of buzzing and cold spot in the top back of my head, was this time different. I had a sensation in the perimeter of the whole head. Imagine my head being an egg, so the sensation was in the eggshell. It was interesting and strong.

Part 1:

About 20 min long.

I did a lot of walking I think mostly outdoors. There was some kind of a plot which I don't remember.

One of my goals was to slow down and look around. So I stopped and look backwards. It was awesome, because this is first time when I did it. The picture was clear and everything was very detailed. I looked up and wanted to see stars. I could see how the dream was trying to work on my wish. The skies were changing, black was moving and some small light were starting to come up, untill the skies were full of stars. Then I wanted the moon and one stronger light was trying to break through but I didn't wait for that to finish.

At some point I was walking through some rock and I heard something. I thought it sounded like ocean waves hitting the shore. I got excited and as I walked down the other side of the rocks, sure enough, there was beautiful shoreline. Like in norther california in Big Sur area. Dark blue waters and rocky shore. The waves hitting the rocks and the sound they made was so spot on. It was so beautiful that after a long time I again felt such an incredible joy. I felt my face grinning ear to ear and I was so happy. I saw some people in the water so I waded in.

At some point in this lucid I thought that maybe I will wake up, but then I thought no, it's too early, I will not wake up.

I don't remember if I turned to my right side at the begining, or when I woke up in the middle. But I remember waking up and opening one eye to look. My room looked normal but I counted my fingers with other hand to make sure it's not an FA. And lol, I counted 6! I'm like how the heck did I do that and counted again. 5 this time. I went back to sleep because I already didn't remember much from the lucid and I still felt the head sensations so I was hoping to get another lucid. And I did.

Part 2:

About 20 min long.

This was happening mostly indoors. I think this is exactly how it was in my previous lucid - outside first, then indoors.

It's some kind of a huge building, like a mall, but not that moder. Lots of people. But I didn't get to see any individuals or talk to them, I think.

I was standing on some large stairs gooing up, when I thought I should fly. But it was so realistic, I couldn't fly. Then I thought that I should be able to fly anyway, because it's a dream and others do it.

I started to float up a bit. I though "higher" and I went higher. I started to fly forward and the dream reacted to me saying "faster" a few times, until I was going decent speed. It was awesome.

The interiors from this and previous dream remind me of the architecture of Naboo from Star Wars.

Thank you! I would like more dreams like this. Flying, looking around, talking to DCs. Slowing down and being a part of a dream.

Last night bed close to 10 pm.

I overate and had 2 detailed disgusting dreams. Not even gonna write them down. One more long and detailed dream that involved poop which was not even close to being gross as the first 2.

As I'm writing these down, I'm realizing how bizarre and detailed they were. I'm starting to think that I not only overate last night, but there was maybe something wrong with the food. I had some mushrooms bought in the store, normal white and criminy. But daum.

DR1:

I'm looking out my parents living room window. The street and our backyard garden are under water. There are waves on it like on the ocean right on the beach. Water comes and goes with waves. Its clean and actually pretty. But it got there by something flooding and that was a concern. My dad says that there is nowhere for that water to go, it's there to stay. Unless he opens some opening to a canal.

The yard is full of cats and one golden retriever. They took refuge there on some higher ground from other yards. I went later to the neighbors asking them if they are missing some pets to try and return them. There are 2 tiny animals and one a flower. They were singing very softly and were so incrdible cute, I hugged them and got all mushy. Someone else said "you know they are just toys" and then I felt the mechanical parts inside of them moving.

I'm explaining to the neighbors what colors the cats are to see if they belong to them.

DR2:

I'm looking through supply boxes at work and I'm finding lots of knives that the person before me left. Some are used, some look brand new and I'm wondering how come I didn't see them sooner. I wouldn't have to by my own. (Today I received some knives I ordered for work)

DR3:

The water theme continues. The sewers are overfilled and sometimes the stuff gets on the street. I'm standing on the street next to a sqare cut into the street, that's about 2x2 feet. I see at least 2 more of those cutouts. Right underneath the asphalt cover of the street, there are the sewer channels. They are full and water reaches to the top and sometimes splashes, overflows to the street. Another person sits on the street next to me and I sit down right over the opening. It's ackward with my mid-body hanging over the water.

When the water reciedes, some kids from that family go down to the main channel and they are peeking into some smaller sewer channels. We can hear the water coming again and it can get there any second. Kid's mom tells them to get away fromt here, but they are having too much fun. So I start telling them with more urgency and I'm wondering why is mom not doing that. Those are her kids.

Finally we get out of there and are sitting at the table with someone. There is one scary looking guy and I say something like an aplogy for him not understanding what I'm saying, because I said it in Hungarian. He said why? He is dunaszerdai magyar. He askes where I'm from and I tell him the name of my town. He says "oh, Panama". And I'm like no?! Then we shake hands and introduce ourselves.

EDIT:
I was just talking to Mismagius about this attraction in Salem. And when I typed "witch trials" I recalled this dream:

I'm about to sit on a sofa or lay to bed, when I reach out and turn the head of a doll that's sitting on the backrest away from me. At that moment it slowly starts to turn back to me and it's face it's morphing between doll, some human face and a witch face. It's telling me something while having a manacing grin and I'm just so scared.

Bed 8:30pm - 3:36am

DR 1 at 1am
I'm walking up a hill in Sweden. It's very green, lots of grass, trees and flowers. I'm taking tons of pictures with my new phone. I look back and there is a huge rock arch through which yu can see the ocean way below us. It's so beautiful.

DR 2 at 1am
Some kind of rocky tunnels, or old stone ruins, high up. I'm running from there. Come to the edge, they almost got me, but I jump off hoping I will fly. And I do.

DR 3 at 1am
We are flying above a coastline in Thailand. They are taking us to a resort. It's all undeveloped area. No other hotels or towns. I look along the shore and I tell them that another beach is nice and there is town, so thy should take us there. We want to see places besides the resort, like stores, towns, other people.

Flying over the ocean coast for a long time. Taking lots of pictures with my phone.

At the resort, I take a lots of pictures of their pictures on the wall. There are some unsent letters from previous guests. I'm reading the envelopes if I find any clues what happend to them, because I'm starting to thing something happened. The resort is not what it seems.

Last night bed 8:30pm - 7am (day off)

DR 1:
Some kind of a indoor canal. I'm standing on the banks made of gray stone and mortar. Walls are vertical. Looking in the water at the fish. They are smaller and some bigger. Cant see them very clear because water is kinda wavey. I point at one saying it's big, but someone says it's just an illusion, it's not so big.

Pull off a cover from a low barge, Ophelia standing next to me. We see a green, slim snake get into some crevice between boxes on the ship. I say how good we saw it, instead of finding it later as a surprise.

DR 2:
I'm on top of the very tall hill. It's all sandy and sand stones. I'm climbing even higher on a large rock formation on the top. I'm trying to find holes to put my feet in and grab on. Then I realize what I'm doing and question it, realizing it will be hard climbing down the other side, because of steep and unstable.

A large boulder gets lose and it's rolling down the hill. I look down at the town street with people walking by and I yell at them to watch out.

Now I'm on the street, in front of the store near the church in the square of my hometown. I feel wind picking up. A younger guy in white shirt that's blowing in the wind, yells something that ends with ... bitch. As in "that's how it's done, bitch".

He askes me if I feel the portal wind getting stronger. I feel it and it's blowing me away. I grab and stand into a near doorway while feeling a very strong, almost magnetic force pushing me away. We both wonder out loud who is coming through the portal on the top of the hill.

Off today, so I did a morning nap.

6:34 - 2x300 mg Alpha GPC
7:36 - 2x4mg pure Galantamine
nap, slept till 10:30

My cat wanted to lay on me but he won't unless I have a blanket on me. It was too hot for that but I put a sheet on my legs. He is my good luck WILDing charm, plus I love when he purrs when he sleeps on me. He left to eat then came back, just when I was about to turn to my left side, like last 4 times, 3 times out of I got a WILD. But soon he left again and I turned and got lucid.

I had my new cheapo eyemask on like last few times. Oh, I did something new this time and last time. I just read in I think Yuschaks book, that he imagines bending his legs in knees on exhale and straightens them on inhale. Kind of an RC which lets him know when he is dreaming.

I did the same and also lifting my arm up and down. And I saw my arm move at some point later on, but I was too far gone to realize it deeper than just a passing thought.

I was in some kind of a building and ofc I jumped out the first window I saw. I started falling towards a large body of water. I thought oh no, not water, but it was too late. I hit the surface and I willed myself to go deeper. Water was a bit murky but I got to the bottom soon. It was featurless, other than sand and some sand rocks. I thought "what about sharks" and I spotted a few large fish. But I wasn't scared.

On the beach now. Sand has large grain and small pebbles. I remember what I read in Yuschaks book just yesterday. When he doesn't have good vision, he concentrates on looking at something in detail. But he can't stop moving, so he is jumping in place while he is looking at details of something till his vision is back. So I picked up a handfull of beach sand and was staring at it intently. Then I remembered I should keep moving so I started clapping my hands and jumping in place while looking at the sand.

Somehow I got out and entered a large barge parked on the shore. I went through a corridor with many doors, thinking how I don't really like doors or indoors. But I thought maybe I'll find somehing interesting. I started opeing the doors, looking for some DCs. I forgot all about the TOTMs and all I could think of a DC to get laid.

All the rooms are completely empty, not a single DC. Finally there is someone sitting on a bed but it turns into a chick just as I approach. I'm think "oh really, shucks" but at this point I don't really care. We get into it.

Now I'm on a different bed with many older man around. I was just sold to this old Greek for half a milion. I wanna ask "half a milion of what? drachma"? but I hold my tongue.

3.27.16

This is a small part of a loner dream.

We are walking on a dirt road. There is a ditch to the left which is filled with fast flowing flood water. The tiny baby goat or lamb jumps in it and I watch it in disbelief how it's being carried down the stream.

I look around but nobody is taking action. I don't really wanna do it but I just have to. I jump in the water and start paddling fast expecting to be getting close to the lamb. But I realize right away with a surprise, that this 5 feet wide ditch is filled with grass that grows in bunches like this.


The water is kinda cold and yellow murky from the mud it's carrying.
There is very little space between those bunches and I'm practically standing on top of them with very little room to swim.

I can't swim here at all, but thank god I see how the lamb had enough of it and it pulls itself out on the shore.
I get out too and I cuddle him in my arms as we keep walking.

Not really sure about feeling from this dream. Maybe being inadequate.

3.22.16

Last night bed 11ish-8am.

DR1
My mom is driving an open top car, on a winding road. Ocean on the left, hill on the right. I look over the ocean and the sunrise is just spectacular. The skies are so beautiful, and the ocean is so calm and almost white, only a touch of lightest blue. I tell my mom to look but she is not looking, so I tell her to stop and she slows down and pulls to the hill side of the road so she can look. ( I think I got this because I watched kardashians and they were driving in snow)

DR2
I'm working for someone who knows and works with celebrities. It's New Year's Eve and we are prepping for a party. I get a phone call but people that just came are so loud, I tell the person to hold on, I need to walk to the back rooms of the house where I know it's quiet.

So this person tells me that I defaulted on paying for some Amazon purchase. I tell her I didn't and I find some receipts saying that I paid it off on January or February 23rd.

She tells me if I want an Amazon card, I need to get my blood tested. So I go the another room where someone I know is talking to me about it and asking me which arm I want to have blood drawn. I say neighter. This whole time I'm holding a tiny cute puppy in my arms.

Somehow they talk me into it and I lay on the exam table, puppy still in my arms. I gave her my left arm and she puts a needle in it. I look up and Pierce Brosnan with his partner walks in. He looks sharp in black tux and white shoal. It's 15 min to midnight. I wonder what are people thinking about seing me there.

3.12.16

Day shifts this week. Last night bed 9pm - 3 am. 4:30am shift.

I am with another adult and 2 kids. Walking on some kind of a berm and seashore I think in Sweden. We suppose to get to the other side of the bay, across the water. There is a narrow path I see, surrounded by water. It's a low tide and we can walk across on the rock all covered in green moss and still wet.

At some point we walked up on a hill that was along some other path and I saw the bay in the distance, with a smallish town huddled on it's shore. Windows all lit up, otherwise only dark silhuettes of the houses were visible, because it was at night.