Alyzarin

Well, my recall was practically destroyed last night since I smoked too much weed too close to when I went to bed. :T I did wake up and fall asleep early in the morning though, so I managed to get something from that. Other than that, all I really have is this note I wrote down, I don't remember the dream connected to it.

Fragment - Checking DV in the morning, later afraid to ask someone out.

#1 - Deliriant Relapse

This dream had a very surreal feel to it. I remember that my cousin G was in it, and somehow he and I came to the conclusion that we were having a shared dream (though I wasn't even lucid, kind of disappointing ) and then we started getting ready to go to McDonald's. Then my cousin K, G's little sister, shows up and gives me some really cryptic warning which I don't remember but it tipped me off even more to the surreal feeling. Unfortunately I STILL didn't realize I was dreaming () but I noticed how everything was shifting and inconsistent and incredibly trippy - much more so even than regular dreams - and I started to fear that I was on a deliriant trip. I got really pissed at and disappointed in myself because I thought I had successfully kicked deliriants for good and it started making me really depressed. Fortunately, I woke up not long after that and realized I was just dreaming.

:\ I talked about being in a dream AND explicitly noticed how dreamy and non-reality-like everything was, and I still didn't realize I was in a dreaming. Damn you, subconscious! I mean, I know I've had like three lucids in the past couple days so I don't have a ton of room to complain, but still... I want more. D:

*sigh*