Choi's Journey of the Conscious Mind

Attempt 14:

This time I did listened to the guided meditations mp3:s but I did not listenened to what they said, instead I focused on the awareness of my location as I told you about yesterday. And I also focused on my heartbeat that I could feel in different parts of my body. The beats was even out of synchronization so it felt a little weird. When I was unable to feel the beat in any of the body parts: hands, feet, heart area and head I knew that, that part was getting more and more relaxed.

When the mp3 stopped I was still aware and suddenly I started to get memory impressions. I saw images clearly infront of me for 3 seconds and then they just dissapeared.

Normally I wouldn't write down my dreams, but this night they were so vivid and special.

00:00 I wake up and have memory of experiencing a dream, can't remember it now though. - fell back to sleep
[COLOR="blue"]I am walking not sure to where. But I see a celebrity it's Jim Carrey. I get shocked and I asked him if I could take a photo of him and I. Then suddenly I see Matt Damon and I ask him to join as well. But when I look at the Iphone screen it starts to behave weird. I ask the two celebrities to wait. And they seem to get more and more uncomfortable. And it ends with me taking a picture of them without me.. Then they walk into a store and I see another celebrity. It's Mila Kunis! So now I am walking in a store with Jim Carrey, Matt Damon and Mila Kunis, I feel a little embarrassed because I had very ugly clothes on me. Mila Kunis asked me if I wanted to go to Lady Gaga land that opens in Copenhagen the next year. "The whaaaat?!" I asked surprised. Then I said no and I started to talk about problems in my life, that I don't even have for real with Mila and she acts like my psychiatrist...[/COLOR]
01:33 Wake up from the dream and go right back to sleep.
[COLOR="blue"]I am at a camp and see some young kid hiding in an old house. I start to hear screams saying "Experiarmus!" I see Tom Riddle and suddenly I am him o.O and I think and experience all he is doing.
He walks into the house where the kid was hiding and I say "Crucio!" and the wall dissapears and I see the kid. Without heistations I say cruciate and see the kid die in pain. :shock: Then I see a woman and say "Avada Kedavra!" but she doesn't even notice and I try to do the same at the children that are playing on the floor, but they were also uneffected.
I ask her why nothing happens and she say "We're not humans and you can not kill us".
I take her dog that is alive and put it on the street and with spells I try to make it get hit by a car. But it manages to escape. I am watching all this happening with my own body and I see Voldemort on the top of the roof laughing.

For some reason I grab a plastic bag formed as a barrel and the air makes it lift up in the air. I get higher and higher up in the sky and I start to worry that I would go up to space and die. But I managed to control the direction of the flying and I wanted to fly home. I thought I were in Spain or something like that so I stopped and thought where I was going to fly.
I was now over the sea and I was getting lower and lower and I worried that there were sharks in the water. Instead I saw dolphins jumping under me and I could feel one of the fin touching my feet.
Suddenly I see an island and girls in green bikinis waiting there. I wondered what they were doing out here in the middle of nowhere. [/COLOR]
04:11 I get up and go the bathroom, write some keywords from these dreams and then I actually make a WILD attempt.
I get to the memory impression stage again and then I fell asleep unconsciously and dreamt again.
[COLOR="blue"]I was running a marathon with my friends. My friend had a bike and I pushed on it for some reason and we were encouraging each other to keep running. I was running with my friend Ludvig and we worried that a guy named Christopher was going to catch up with us. Suddenly Ludvig was Christopher instead and we started to talk and I can even remember the whole conversation. But it's not interesting for you to hear at all, but it was about him and his girlfriend. [/COLOR]

This night I was aware of every awakening, and I was even aware of real stuff inside my dreams. But I never got lucid...
Super vivid dreams very aware of them, but still not critical enough dafuq?

I am trying to understand what I did wrong, but it's no need to analyse it. New attempt tonight!