Choi's Journey of the Conscious Mind

I just made my BODY fell asleep consciously without pre-sleep. This is not a WILD, this is a strong intention MILD.
Is it so weird really? To fall asleep consciously just means that I am aware of my body shutting down.

I will not tell you what to do step by step, because there is only one step really, laying still with closed eyes and wait.
But I will tell you what I felt.

I went to bed laying on my back and I just started to relax. After a while salive started to build up in my mouth, but I just swallowed it, I am trying to fall asleep not get sleep paralysis, so it didn't matter. So I did not had to care about the mind awake body asleep concept, I just wanted my body to get completely relaxed while I was aware.

I thought to myself "I am aware of my dreams and I remember my dreams".

I did the 61 point relaxation technique, but it doesn't really matter what kind of focus you have as long as you are laying still and are aware. I have pracctised to be able to lay still for a long time with the help of tons of guided relaxation meditation mp3:s. And to be aware is not that hard when you are.

I looked at my alarmclock before starting all this and it was 22.10

I felt my body vibrating slightly, ok not vibrating but it feels like its getting petrified. Hard to explain, but lay down still for a few minutes and you will get what I mean.

After some time I started to feel my nose itch like crazy and I just pretended that this was my body testing if I was asleep.
It was hard to ignore this, but if I just let it itch for 10 seconds, it faded away gradually.

When the itch vanished I nod off for a short second for a couple of times and I knew that I was close to fall asleep.
Then my whole body got warmer and my mind felt calm and tranquil.

I now knew that my body was asleep and I tried to let the mind fall asleep by setting my intention to fall asleep as you do when you normally go to sleep. Go to bed now and try to fall asleep, that feeling is what I tried to create at this point.

I let myself fall asleep unconsciously now.
I then started to dream, but I was not lucid, but I was very aware of it happening.

[COLOR="blue"]I got out of bed and started my computer. I heard my mom saying something in the other room. I walked out of my room and I saw my dad laying on the carpet in a weird bodyposition and I saw my mom.
I thought this was weird so I decided to make a reality check. Sadly the reality check didn't worked so I am going to start using another during the day, to make sure that I get lucid next time. I looked at my hand and it looked crooked and did not looked normal. But I just thought "Hmm this might be a dream, let's do another reality check".
I checked my pulse and I could feel it, nothing odd here...

The dreamscene changed and I followed Mr. Bean in third person view.Then the setting started to change rapidly, I was writing a letter then I was flying over a town, and then I was Emil from Astrid Lindgren's books.

I had a flower that I took care of and the dream was just about me as Emil talknig with the flower. Then I went up to a house and from the window I saw a women stealing the flower. I shouted on Alfred and we run out looking for this women. When we found her, I noticed that she was qute good looking and Alfred started to flirt with her instead.
Weird dreams, but then I woke up. [/COLOR]

I did a reality check, I was awake. Now I looked at the time and it was 00.26. I got excited of this attempt, because I had done a MILD, waited to lapses of consciousness and been aware of the dream as soon as it started.
I was not aware in the sense that I knew I was dreaming, but I was aware enough to experience the dream and I if the reality checked had worked I would have become lucid.

This means that if I had got lucid, it would have been in the first sleep cycle.

I will try this the next night as well and until then I have to figure out a better reality check.

I will try to give you a small step by step guide of how I did:

1. Lay still in your bed with closed eyes.
2. Tell yourself your mantra.
3. Feel your bodyparts gradually get relaxed. (swallow your saliva if you have to, you are not aiming for SP!)
4. If you are aware enough you will get lapses of consciousness (You are then on the right track!)
5. I heard a beeping noise in my ears.
6. I fell asleep and was more aware of my dream.
7. Have a reality check ready that works...

The key is the mindset:

Don't care what happens, just stay still and remember that you don't aim for sleep paralysis so don't look for that, instead try to feel the different sensations that your body will give you.

The advantage of this, is that I have control of the attempt and that I don't need a WBTB, instead I can do the attempt at my regular bedtime!

When I woke up from this dream I turned the lights on an wrote down all this, which resulted in that I couldn't fall back to sleep...

But eventually I did, and I had these dreams:

[COLOR="blue"]I were in one of Lady Gagas musicvideos and it was about her having extremely long hair which was almost like a long rope. And me and some other people were pulling in the hair for some reason.

Then I dreamt that I could fly and the dream consisted of my trying to control that flying.

In the next dream I was playing soccer and I was talking to my friends Maja and David, I remembered the conversation upon awakening, but I seem to have forgot it now...

I also remember that I had a dream about Harry Potter, but I can't remember what happend in that dream.

Before I woke up I remember that I had a dream about me being a member of a gang and we robbed a bank, but I got caught.[/COLOR]

Tonight I am going to use indirect techniques upon awakening to see if I am non-physical (dreaming) or not.