Had a little trouble sleeping so I played a game and I wanted do some stuff to ingrain LD into my head. The first light in the body was probably from the mantra and the visualizations I used during my practice. I visualized and objectified "lucidity" as kind of a light. Imagined receiving it kind of. I believe in ya, my subconscious, higher self or whatever. Make me LUCID! In the second dream I had some awareness but it waned by the subsequent dreams. It was a pretty unfamiliar place so probably not trauma related. Maybe I'm suppose to learn something, or am learning something. Is the message to open my heart? I judged her... without even knowing her. There was a trace of a memory that replayed in me before I rejected her gift. I need to let go of the memory, so I can let in the good stuff. In the fourth dream, the big bra probably represents trying to put something over my real self. Am I trying to cover up who I really am with kind of a bra armor sort of. Covering up the "white" dress. Kind of like the "white" mansion last night... Probably represents the inner goodness in me or everyone else. With a pure white childlike kind of innocence. Maybe it means like u gotta have fun like a little kid to really be the best version of yourself or learn new stuff like lucid dreaming. Instead of trying to fill some clothes (persona) that you're not. Since it was just the bra maybe it's telling me I'm close to letting go of last bit of resistance regarding self improvement or lucid dreaming or something. Having ppl sabotage me is probably traces of trauma. Memories of people trying to sabotage me because I was better at other in certain things. In school , at work (probably it's that job where you had to look nice maybe it's where this all came from lol)... Sad memories. I probably need to fully accept the full pain that I repressed? And it replaying... it's like a second chance to remind me to let go of it. Putting on some silly armor to hide the true self. So me becoming a monster is probably from shutting off my emotions and becoming monster-like emotionally. Probably another imagery representing repressed true self. Liquid is flexible, so a kind of emotionally shut-off monster that could fluidly fit into any environment... In the end though it's not really anyones fault. Had trouble at home back then, just was shut myself off... was it from moving every year or so during childhood? That made me see relationships as temporary so I'd try to protect myself by not getting attached to anyone... Or maybe it was just my abusive father... But even then that may come from work or his father and his forefather... In the end however, this energy needs to be quelled... by me. Sins of my forefathers, I cleanse thee. I could just... see the evil in people at that time. Past is past though and let bygones be bygones. And it takes 2 to tango (or conflict) and these days most people have broken homes so it's not like my experience is anything special. Sometimes you gotta... take it all in and let it all out I guess. Especially if I'm trying to get better at Lucid Dreaming, recognizing these inner things probably will help. Like when I've labelled thoughts during meditation and they'd quiet down, my labelling of these dream events may calm down negative stuff. Didn't mean to rant so long but hehe thanks for letting me address it. Even though I didn't think I had these repressed stuff if it helps me LD, I'll take it. I guess the message from these dreams to me is 1. your mantra is working 2. open your heart so you can get its full effects. (Stop judging too much?/trust) 3. these things are also holding you back (This past event's causing your judgement/making you having trouble trusting) THanks DJ, thanks dreamviews, thanks... everything. I feel like I'm getting closer to myself. Thanks my dreams for helping me get LUCID regarding these inner issues... This is lucidity. I love Lucid dreaming
Just remembered that dream1 had the US kids fighting vs overlording government but deciding to not end them and bunch of whole other stuff. The bunker was abandoned army one, long like a hotdog. Top was curved like a sun during sunset, a half circle. More precisely like a can cut in half longitudinally and placed on ground. There were special helicopters we created that could bend its flying trajectory suddenly. Alot more happened but not recalling perfectly yet since it was the first dream of the night. Probably developing and building stuff that takes months but skimmed over and losing awareness towards the end of it. The dream2 police and the guv, are related entities and i felt regret not taking care of them in d2. So the 3 dreams were really interconnected in the end(d3 took place in the mansion in the beginning) . That's a good sign probably since I read experienced lders have persistence in their Ld? The mansion was a pure white color. Reminds me of just pure innocence. Shaped kinda like the castle in Disney logo but sides cut off so it's taller than wide, but without the casteliness. The redo happens pretty often, I'll remember it as a dream sign. Be aware if dejavu. DJing with DETERMINATION
Sounds like most of the videos I watch on youtube lol.
It's a battle we all deal with from time to time
It's an interesting thing. I have had this experience before with much the same situation you described but it was super emotional then as well lol. I have entertained the idea that it was the persons spirit visiting me but, I suspect it's more plausible that it's just my confused dreaming mind trying to deal with the shock of seeing someone who has so recently passed away. I'm not religious in any way these days or give much credit to the afterlife myself.
I've had these sorts of chain FA's before. It can get really tricky to determine the difference between waking life and a dream and its really easy to let one of them be the "final" FA where you lose your lucidity and think you've finally risen back to reality.
I've encountered deceased relatives in lucid dreams before; my grandmother has shown up several times in lucid dreams over the years when she passed away right around the time that I started lucid dreaming. My grandmother seemed to be aware that she was dead and either acknowledge that she wasn't really real and just an aspect of my subconscious or attempt to convince me that she was visiting me from the afterlife; something that I don't personally believe in. I don't think I've ever had such an emotional experience with someone who had passed though.
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I mean, this was like an idea years ago, and I just didn't want to go back to deviantart each time I wanted to check back on Selcarim
Nice idea for the perfect dream...but wouldn't this be better posted in a different more relevant section of the forum?
"I asked him how he came to exist in the real world and he said that he was actually just the voice actor of the character; but that wasn't what I was expecting to hear. I was more curious as to how a 2D animated character became superimposed on a realistic 3D world. He turned sideways and was paper thin and I thought it was funny. He then said something about "that damn rabbit"...". Who Framed Roger Rabbit.
Well, I'd point out the obvious Skyrim meme, but it's worn enough as it is.
Perhaps...
