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    1. game projector laptop desktop

      by , Yesterday at 10:53 PM
      I was a little despondent earlier when I woke, just didn't have a LD. But I decided to jot down dreams a bit anyways. I was getting very short LD moments every 2 days lately and I was so frustrated. I wanted many long fun lucid dreams where I have more awareness! But after I thought about what happend in todays dream maybe it helped me analyze stuff and stuff wasn't so bad.

      So I had 2 dreams I think, because I felt uninspired, I only recalled 1 dream in detail.

      dream. It was in a classroom setting, I was playing a video game on a laptop. The game was projected onto the big white canvas thing that you roll out, just can't remember what that's called atm XD. I maybe felt a little anxious from my computer actions being watched by others. So I decided to switch to a desktop for some reason. An old desktop, All in one type. This is probably bled over from a week ago, when I went to help my dad tune up his PC a little. So anyways, I tried loading up the game on the desktop but it had trouble installing a video driver... M290 if I recall. So I looked up the video card driver but just couldn't find it or get it to work. The dream then ends.

      I was also playing a game last night, so at first glance I thought it was just bled over from that event. But upon closer look maybe the dream was really trying to tell me something.

      So the classroom would represent learning I think. Meanwhile the game was the fun thing I was learning in the class (lucid dreaming). The projector could represent that I'm recording the progress online where other's could see, or it could mean something else. Anyways the laptop was newer than the desktop, since it's smaller too, it could mean a new paradigm or the new methods I've been trying that's actually working and progressing well in regards to LD. While the Old desktop could be the old paradigm, beliefs, and old way of doing things that's not working - something like that.And trying to install the driver is like saying, I have the ability to do this like everyone else, but lacking the proper coding stuff to get it working finally. Interestingly the m290, when I googled it showed a 3d printer, so like the desktop's missing the piece to materialize it. It just needs that tiny instruction manual so it can print out tangible physical results.

      Thought about it a bit more and the projector could also represent the ability to astral project or something. Saw some posts regarding raduga's technique. And hukhif's new dream journals popping up. Duno just rambling random stuff but oh well. Since with the graphic driver thing, I knew what I needed, but didn't have it, it could mean a technique that I know, but didn't practice. Maybe a message to try Raduga tech again, or learn Gravity RC.

      I've been getting interested in the gravity RC lately, never did it since I knew it's a hard tech. And I don't want to get into it half-hearted, if I'm gonna do it I'm gonna master it. Because my daytime mindfulness practice is starting to becoming second nature, I could probably maintain it with minimal effort, and do the Gravity RC. Maybe I'll make a post to ask some questions about the Gravity RC.

      For the Raduga tech, since I've been reminded of it randomly on this forum, I thought maybe I could incorporate just a small part of it to my practice. I think the problem with the technique is that you try get into AP/Dream state as you wake up, so you have no time to do dream journalling, and your recall might suffer in the long run. So my thought is that as I wake up, I'd replay the previous dream in my head 2-3 times to ingrain it into my memory, meanwhile trying rolling and other stuff a few times. If it works great, if not then well, it trains prospective memory and that helps with lucid dreaming right?

      Those were my thoughts.

      I did meditation as always, but had the chance to do it outside, since it finally stopped snowing and there's only traces of snow left. Anyways once I reached the zone, I did the MILD mantras, the new ones I thought of yesterday. I really reallly like these new mantras managed to get me excited today too- they get me real excited and I think that was what was missing in the previous mantras that I tried. Emotion, STRONG emotion or feelings might be the missing key to MILD. It's kind of like creating a anti-trauma or a reverse positive trauma kind of; much like how you'd get a bad trauma that could anchor beliefs into your head, you'd also need a strong emotion to create the opposite. Maybe there's a proper word for this positive trauma - positrauma haha

      hmm.. the tuning desktop thing happend a week ago, so perhaps it also indicates current incubation period of 1 week. Who knows?

      Summary:
      Gravity RC/ Raduga on awakening - maybe experiment stuff
      Need strong feelings for most effective MILD and incubation
      KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK
      Be patient... It's working


      READY TO LOOCID DREAM!
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      non-lucid , side notes
    2. Dream - Lighting The Pillars

      by , 03-23-2019 at 12:47 PM
      Date of Dream: FRI 1 MAR - 2019



      Dream No. 551 - Lighting The Pillars


      I donít remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I thought I was in a familiar suburb but then it was also very distorted. I was in this court which had a strip of shops and small businesses placed all the way along it. Apparently, this small business was owned by American voice actor Edward (Ed) Bosco. His role in the dream though, as this business owner, was to tutor high school students.

      I entered into what was the facade of a scruffy small business building but the inside was just a house and it was also very neat and tidy. I didnít end up seeing Ed in any of the scenes but one person that I did walk past was what seemed to be my deceased grandfather. There wasnít much interaction with him though. In-fact, I have forgotten what happened in the majority of the indoor scenes.

      When I went into the backyard, there was this girl around my age but I have forgotten her appearance. There was something going on outside and Ed was mentioned to be in relation to the issue. There was a large array of small chopped wooden logs sitting vertically on a flat wooden board, acting as a bench. The girl was mentioning something about how Ed was being nasty to some of the other students. Ed then came in some distorted form and said how the logs couldnít be lit. The girl was defending me and saying that I could light them, she encouraged me and signalled for me to do it. I used my fire element and as the flames from my mouth hit each log, the top lit up like a candle. Thatís all I can remember about this dream.



      Dream No. 551

      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No



      There is a new character in this dream; Edward Bosco who is an American voice actor. As this journal entry is done past date; there can be trends seen in newer dreams; Edward seems to be a persistent character. There will be writing conventions in future dreams to keep his identity safe because if you are an industry professional searching for a new job, sometimes, recruiters want to search you up on the internet and who knows how far they'll go with the information they're looking to obtain about their future potential employee. There's gotta be some way to say that Edward made an appearance but not in a way that he can be traced and have his reputation ruined just because an employer came across this and read that, for instance, he took my banana off me and ate it when I wasn't looking (If Dreamy WB was there, she would pounce him at first instance even before he could put the banana in his mouth).

      Back to the important stuff; at the start of each scene where he comes in, he will be introduced with "Edward (Ed) B". Then for any subsequent time he is mentioned, he will solely be referred to as "Ed" (which is what he is commonly called anyway). If there is any change to this convention, it will be addressed at the bottom of the dream that the change has taken place in.

      Note to External Employers: Please refrain from using "KarlaB18 - Dream No. 551" and any other dream-journal entry by this account user as a reference for hiring any industry professional. This is not a reliable source and is not a true indication of one's waking life code of conduct and moral compass.
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    3. Dreams are just getting worse.

      by , 03-23-2019 at 03:01 AM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      These few weeks have been pretty boring in the dream department.


      Building.

      Vague dream of walking in some large building with Jamie. She suddenly vanishes before my eyes as if she woke up from the dream.


      The Dork Tower


      I become Semi lucid while on a western style landscape. The entire dream is of a blue hue. I'm semi lucid. Don't know it's a dream but I know That I'm in a story. I fly up to a few people walking along a path. With them is a tall Gunslinger. He doesn't quite look like roland but I seem to think he is anyway. I get excited and say, "Are we looking for the Dark tower?" the man doesn't answer but suddenly looks frightened, as if the Idea of the Dark Tower and seeking it, is insane. The others look at me in terror. The dream speeds up and suddenly we are in a living room. but also entering a cave that will transport us to the dark tower. As I enter the cave with the others I am also in the living room with Asuka and others and we are try to fit behind an entertainment center. Maybe this was one of the movies that Me and Asuka jump into?

      Talkers

      I am in a scenario like in the latest season of ,"Z Nation." I am in a settling with some people. Half of them are Zombies. But these Zombies are self aware and can talk. Everyone calls them: Talkers. I am extremely paranoid of the talkers. They seem nice and well meaning but it feels like they will try to kill me and make me one of them. I am wandering alone in a house when I run into... Robyn? The girl who hosts karaoke in lethbridge. She tells me she saw my movie about her? Her voice sounds like Jamie. Robyn looks nothing like Jamie so I am extremely confused. I go, "yeah I know you're subscribed to my channel." Which I know robyn is. That's all I remember.

      A week or so goes by. Can't recall Jamie at all. It concerns me a little. I guess I am too use to them by now.

      Chase.

      Me, Asuka and Data, chase Jamie all over different dreamscapes. She never looks like herself. She also seems a bit crazy like in the previous entry. In one dream She is a giant black guy and we chase her all over a nightclub. In another she's a mad scientist and we chase her all over some big underground lab. This may explain why she was so hard to recall.


      Jesus again


      In this dream it is night time. I am alone in a park. I am really young in this dream like a child. Jesus comes over a hill with a little girl holding his hand. the girl is Jamie and she is also a child in this dream. It's like Jesus is her father and He is bringing Her to me. I say to him like an excited kid on Christmas or something, "Is this the girl you chose for me?" Reminds me of when Jamie would hang out and sometimes and at times it's like we would regress to children. Her voice would even sound like a child's and that's when you knew that things were going really well.

      Building again.

      Another dream of just exploring some building with jamie. We don't really talk but just seem more interested in exploring the place. We eventually split up.
    4. First

      by , 03-19-2019 at 04:08 PM
      First dj entry hopefully I'm doing it right.

      I had 2 non Ld last night. One about staying over at some guys house, other one was about a survival in some kind of safe house, there was some killing and we had to determine who was the culprit for kidnapping everyone.

      I meditated prior to sleep like I usually do and faced a problem that happened before. I'm just too aware and have trouble falling asleep. This happens most if mediate too long although last night's session was pretty short. But anyways what happens is I do feel my body sleeping, it's going numb, almost like sp, but I don't get into sp. I hear some sounds. Third eye area vibrating alot. This lasts for hours and I kind of get a half rest in it like nrem. I think if I just had a rem during it I would be lucid but instead I'm bored in this state limbo. I tried to force a dream by visualizing this time and managed to get some hypnogogic imagery during it and could manipulate it to a certain extent but it just didn't become clear and immersive enough to be called a dream. It's like an almost a dream but missing a few spices. I sas trying to just fall asleep and lose awareness until I could wbtb but had a trouble with that too.
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      non-lucid , side notes
    5. dream recall kind of slipping.

      by , 03-12-2019 at 09:34 PM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      I just realized I haven't had any lucids for a LOOONG time!

      Jamie dreams

      She's off an on again as usual. No surprise here so I'm use to it.

      Started off I had another dream where we are just laying down main;y asleep. Very Comfortable dream.

      Later dreams something happens to her. Jamie starts talking to me as a disembodied voice in my dreams. In these dreams I run through random buildings looking for a way out. The voice says she hates me and that she never was "real." She's not really Jamie but a spirit who wants my love and dedication anyway.

      I go and check on Jamie in a dream. In it we are playing fortnite and we are hiding under a pyramid build. She keeps smiling at me. I am happy.

      In later dreams I keep finding Jamie in a fortnite setting. But now she's angry and mean like the voice. I have a few dreams with low detail like this. I keep finding her and she keeps killing me causing me to respawn. Every time she kills me she says something mean. Then she's a sweaty soccer skin (The worst kind of player in fortnite.) She builds up so high and kills me again.

      After a few days of this. I pray about it earnestly...

      Jesus helps

      I fall asleep and am shown a few HH like images. The first is me and Jamie in fortnite again. We are having a build battle. Our ramps are about to cross when Jesus places himself on top as a giant. He heals us. Another image shows me and Jamie on a hill. The top of the hill is the intended destination: where we come together. Jesus is a giant again. he has a hand around each of us on opposite sides. Jesus is crying in frustration because he is clearly trying to bring us to the top of the hill. But since he can't interfere with free will, he can't complete his work with us. My energy was blue and bright in his hand and Jamies was fiery red. One thing to note is that we were very close to the top of the hill.

      Jamie is healed again

      I'm on some date with Jamie. We are at a restaraunt like Denny's. She is smiling and seems happy. Can't remember any conversation but we were talking. Denny's is a magical place!

      later had some HH of Jamie's face.

      Other dreams:

      Cheating again.

      during the period where Jamie seemed possessed by something I had a dream where I was in bed with someone who looked like Jamie. There was another naked guy laying beside me... gross.

      Dad

      I was walking with my dad in some abandoned building or something. My old friend from work lets us into a secret area up some steps. through the door at the top we almost fall. the inside of the buuilding is being torn down by construction people so there is no landing to walk into. I float down somehow without getting hurt.

      Bjork returns!

      In this dream I find out Bjork recently read all of my old dreams of her. Oops. I am extremely embarrased. Bjork doesn't take it too well at first. This dream seems days long. But she builds herself a studio in the basement of some mall or something. She holes herself up in there to deal with it. She records music, builds strange art structures, and makes really interesting clothing for herself. She sometimes lets me into the studio to show me. she tells me she isn't mad but is trying to figure it out or something. She has mood swings, sometimes happy I am around and sometimes shooing me out. The end of the dream is more clear. My brother is a huge Bjork fan so I bring him there. We come to an office where a reception lady tells me that the exhibit is closed. I say I will wait for Bjork to come out. As if on cue, bjork leaves with some man. she walks past me and doesn't even look at me. Her vibes are kind of fuming though. me and my brother leave and some black girls in the mall part try to take him home. He leaves and I can't leave the mall becaus I can't find my shoes.

      in a later dream she seems more cool with everything and we just sit and talk warmly.
    6. Commentary on my written out "perfect dream" idea

      by
      9sk
      , 02-28-2019 at 10:20 PM
      This is not a dream. A long time ago, I wrote a short story of sorts trying to imagine how I'd beat the dream. The story with no commentary except at the end is here, and the TLDR is basically the following elements I analyzed from previous amazing dreams combined together to create a story that sounds like my ideal dream:

      • Companionship Focus.
      • Fantasy element.
      • Conflict.
      • Light/dark balance.
      • Novelty element.
      • Vague location.
      • "Softened ending"
      • Use of music
      • Use of conversation


      The story is as follows:

      It is complete darkness. [This is inspired from True Synthesia, where I gave myself the ability to see music as colors, which was greatly helped by the pure black background)

      There is a timer and a robotic voice .... The display says 300 SECONDS in all red. Then the robotic voice counts down as the clock displays 299. [The sci-fi nature always appealed to me, and SERENDIPITY showed this off perfectly. The "number in red" actually occurred later in [I]Bittersweet Lovestory[I] where a number in red appeared]

      I am instantly aware ....In a good old underwater bazaar, I'm walking down the streets, with medieval Scottish music playing. There is even a piano there... [Underwater was from OZ&SHIOM, and I thought the music theme might help along with my love for the piano]

      270 on the timer I saw; I still had a lot of time, so I decide to play a nice melody that synchronizes and echoes the medieval music well, even though it is more of the science-fiction remix Skrillex style. After I play.... I am looking for something as a birthday present for my friend Jamie. [Jamie was actually the girl I liked from the time that I had written this]

      I wonder what to buy, but nothing seems good. People are selling scraps of metal, paint, and hot dogs among with other foods...With great tension, I search more carefully. Then, I see a man also selling fireworks. Finally, something decent, I think, then go to him and try to haggle for him. Time was running low, so I quickly managed to get a low price. 215. Close call... [Fulfills the "conflict" aspect with little risk of pain]

      I teleport to a different place where I will execute my mission. Wearing a casual-business style outfit, my heels click against the fancy marble floor as I walk forward to an elevator. It is mysterious and a bit dark but I am only filled with the emotion of curiosity along with interest. [The "business but mysterious" fits the mood that Mastermind bought me from OZ&SHIOM] A mysterious narrator whispers incoherently, before finally stating: "I will show you... Selcarim." I walk into the elevator and enter a palace of wonders. The art is amazing, along with ultra-realistic scuptures. The air is fresh and the mood is breezy along with being quite relaxing. 196 seconds left. I walk onto a gateway where I see Jamie there, sitting on what looked like a fancy boat polished with yellow and orange flames painted on the metal, and she invited me to join her.

      I sit beside her. The narrative once again whispers something incoherent before stating once again: "I loved taking those rides on the Retsoac." The song "Burn" begins to play in the background. And with a whoosh, the boat rushed forward. 170, 169,168. Food rained from the sky and we took the hot dogs, hamburgers, and mexican tacos, eating them up, the hot salty taste sizzling in my mouth. The flames became real, but both of us only felt a reassuring unharming heat, warm and friendly, almost as if it was sentient. 140 seconds left. The time was reaching short. ["Adventure of Tasting Meat" showed that food tasted great in dreams]

      ... The narrator continues his explanation..." Lights appeared below, great lanterns floating up to us,the grand sky opening. 110, 109, 108... As the song still playing in the back transitions to its chorus-- "And we gonna let it burn, burn, burn..." -- Blue diamonds dazzle all around us in the sky, flashing from left to right, feeling as if they are passing through us, with blazing fireworks all around the blue diamonds. The diamonds seem to be a sentient being... [the "Lantern festival" was one of my goals, and the blue diamonds was inspired by a dream involving "Merkaba" from dream journal]

      .... "Yes, he is--I am--the Rotarran." A blip indicates I was speaking in code all along. Rotarran rewinds to Narrator. Flashing back to the boat, Feileb was belief, and cigam was magic. Even before that, Retsoac was coaster. Flashing even before that, within the market, I had actually bought from every single person there and used all the products. Despite their looks of simplicity, I had managed to make the result very fancy... [This mystery is a bit stupid if you think about it, but I found the idea of reversing things kinda cool]

      "You don't always have infinite time," 40 seconds, "You have to manage your resources carefully....it's not about what you have. It's about how you use them. Selcarim does not exist without persistence or hard work,"....Even little moments that are not considered Selcarim must be treasured." ..."... Because, in reality, Selcarim is..." And as I kiss Jamie with a meteor shower flying over us-- 10 seconds....the title in fancy font appears. [I tried thinking and writing out a valuable lesson, compared to other dreams about friendships, this is actually quite deep]

      SELCARIM -- The timer quickly counts down the final seconds, as the landscape shifts around us, flowers growing, anticipating reaching a higher level.
      (countdown...)

      Then it is reversed, with the result being...
      ....
      MIRACLES
      [The mystery is finally solved and it's like a movie's credit scene]
      0:00 SECONDS. Perfect timing.

      The kiss lingers on my lips as I wake up. [This goes back to a lot of romantic dreams where it ends with a great kiss]

      So to recap, I basically believed that a combination of a countdown, medieval scene with music, transitioning to a cool business-like scene, preparing a surprise for my crush, and eating food on a rollercoaster with her all leading up to a surprise ending, would be able to beat my favorite dream. I do still believe that this story is strong enough to beat my current favorite (which is actually still the same), but the countdown and the twist are indeed very hard to pull off, and the business scene seems a bit unnecessary, even if adding further mystery to the story.
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    7. Significance of colors in my dreams

      by
      9sk
      , 02-28-2019 at 05:45 AM
      This is not a dream entry. For all my dream entries, visit http://dreamjournal.net/journal/drea...ame=9spaceking.

      I've noticed color being significant sometimes so I wanted to mark down what they meant to me in my dreams:

      1. Synthesia (I gave myself ability to see music as color in a few dreams)
      • Wake Me Up (Avicii) creates a vast multitude of colors
      • Hey, Soul Sister creates soft pink and blue colors
      • Nuvole Bianche is slight tint of blue with hint of pink
      • The Magic Inside is violet
      • Burn (Ellie Ghoulding) is orange into red
      • Crystallize is light blue
      • Replay is autumn orange into green trees
      • Breaking Free is silver
      • Bad Apple is dark violet
      • Any Other Way is blood red


      2. Abilities
      • True Talent/Invincibility is marked as gold
      • Table-turn usually causes the scene to become white(r)
      • Efficiency power (imagining myself doing something in a montage within 20 seconds) causes the scene to grow dark with focus
      • Konami Code (a fence of invincibility) causes rainbows to flow around it



      3. To mark special events
      • A beautiful garden was green (with flowers all over)
      • A crush I had wore a beautiful red dress (in a dream) but I still chose my friend over her
      • I purposefully had a black-and-white detective adventure but color was used to mark important clues
      • The sky is only blue in peaceful/calm dreams
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    8. What happened?

      by , 02-27-2019 at 03:39 AM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      I forgot a lot of non lucids. I'll try to remember some as I write these down.

      Jamie Dreams

      Early in the month.

      3rd person view dream of Jamie sitting by herself in a real comfy looking chair. She appears to be arguing with herself. But then I hear she is talking to voices. The closer I listen the more the voices sound like me. Some are negative and some are positive. She seems annoyed in upset. I try to get through, "This is MY voice." I say something like that. But all the voices argue I am a liar and they are the real voice. While I find her kind of adorable arguing with all of these voices, I know personally how annoying this can be *please lock me up.*

      In one dream I am in a bedroom with Jamie. I lie down like we are like a couple going to bed. She looks at me and says, "No." In another dream I find some ugly woman with glasses and decide to try to sleep with her. I hear Jamie's voice in my head say, "Robert no!." Is that what you you wanted, can't have you AND no one else? kidding.

      In one dream I am with my dad and we are walking around a city. We go up some steps to a c train platform where my dead grandma from 2010 is. She says to me, "I hope you know what you are doing with this girl." Implying that she doesn't like Jamie. At the top of the step I kind of victory jump. It's like my grandma is a part of those annoying spirits who are telling me to ,"Move on." from Jamie, are finally giving up.

      After about a week or so of Jamie not showing up in dreams I then remember one of her where I am trying to light a smoke. My lighter isn't working. Jamie comes up with her own lighter but can't get hers to work as either.Hehe she's trying to steal chelsea's thunder of dream cigarette lighting capabilities. Well: YOU FAILED!!! Really appreciate the effort tho :-)

      Some dream where Jamie isn't talking to me and driving away in her car. I'm standing with a woman, maybe her mother, She says, "She really likes you, you know." Really? Why isn't she saying anything?

      Another dream where me and Jamie are driving in her car. It's like the old dreams from last year. Can't remember the context of the conversation but she says, "Suicide is never an option." WOW. She's come a long way since the , "Let's commit suicide together," Dreams of mid last year. Good job. Was I being suicidal in the dream? I know I'm not, but I may have been being overdramatic in the dream.

      A dream where Jamie is merged with my body or something. Might have been because I was watching a really dumb show on netflix called, "Z Nation." a Walking Dead like zombie tv series that doesn't take itself seriously at all. Unlike the Walking Dead which Is why I can't stand it. Anyway in the episode some Hippy dude takes weird drugs so he can spirit walk inside someone and take control of their body. Maybe I saw Jamie in the dream and asked her to try it out. She kept trying to make me aroused in my own body, maybe to experience the sensation for herself. I get to the point where I almost burst and then ask her to stop. she does.

      Got back from seeing Alita: Battle Angel (Loved it by the way.) But after seeing it with my brother I had dreams about it. But it was Jamie. She was trying to put herself in a cyborg body like from the movie. The nurse lady from the movie was there and was saying that the body was having trouble merging with the body because she had no core... Very Strange. I know Jamie had once tried to convince me that she has BPD. and I've read that such people are said to lack a certain emotional center or core. not sure if that's what the nurse meant though. Interesting.


      Last dream. Was just me and Jamie lying in bed going to sleep. We may have been groping each other not sure... But, seems she is getting over whatever it was that was bothering her.

      Comments: This periods' dreams Jamie seems less happy than the end of december and january. Not sure what the cause of this is. She is resuming some of her affection though which I appreciate. That says it isn't me that's a problem. but she is having problems on her own that she is dealing with.



      Other Dreams


      Bunch of non lucids where a short blonde girl sometimes with long hair and sometimes with short hair keeps hitting on me. In one dream she makes out with me. these came after me and my brother went to a short concert in calgary where I kept seeing cute blond girls. Some were staring at me and smiling but they were all with guys, so I didn't think anything of it.

      Kissing

      Dreamed I was exploring some large building with some dark skinned girl. We wound up in a bedroom and started kissing on a bed. She tasted kind of sour, (IRL I have a slight cold so was just probably tasting my phlegm,) I suddenly Had this feeling like I was cheating on someone possibly Jamie. I stopped for a second but the girl looked at me with such wanting eyes that I resumed and tried to ignore the feeling. As if to stop it a bunch of guys manifested in the room on beds. They had donut boxes with treats in them and they started arguing with me. The girl left the room.

      Yelling


      I kept accusing some girl in my inner world, (Mine and Asuka's daughter i think.) of stealing my DVDs or something. I was filled with rage. Asuka said it wasn't the girl but she has no idea where the DVDs went. I checked the boxes again and they had a volume missing.

      *clap* BONUS DREAM *clap*

      This one I had a couple months ago. A dream with Jamie I forgot to write down. In this dream we are in The Dark Tower universe in Hambry. Me and Jamie are walking around the town and she is making fun of the accent of the townspeople. She's saying, "So it is," and ,"So it was." Then she laughs to herself.

      Updated 02-27-2019 at 03:43 AM by 6012

      Tags: asuka, dad, grandma, jamie
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      non-lucid , dream fragment , side notes
    9. 18th February 2019

      by , 02-18-2019 at 05:54 PM
      I went to sleep at 1:30 and woke up at around 4 am.

      On my first dream i was on vacations in Uruguay. I was in a house with my family. Both my parents were there. They were playing loud music, and each one's music claimed a half of the house. It was interestesting not to hear them get mixed together. My father was taking a shower and i went to his bedroom where the desk is and i grabbed his almost finished marijuana joint. I decided i was going to make a new one and include the remainings of that one. My dad comes out of shower, and i could note he was high. He told me he was high and that he was enjoying it, but i also noted he was still like tense. Anyway he had plans on what to do while high, which surprised me because it was his first time smoking, so i went on with my things.
      On my way out of the bedroom i was walking like the living hall of my mother's aunt Teresa F. There i encountered my older sister who was also about to smoke and trip on stuff like the wind (it was a bit windy outside but in a nice way, like refreshing). Then i go outside with my sister, and some neighborhood kids want to play with her with a football but we were going to take a walk (besides i don't think she'd have played anyway). It starts raining, we are still outside but we don't walk far, we just go to the backyard which is actually quite big now. When we went outside our house turned to be a Estancia (it's a countryside). My dad goes outside and he starts talking to the kids, but he was alone in the sense that my sister and me weren't there to hear what he had said. Then i go inside the house to finish this joint i never got to make. And when i come into the kitchen i received news that my dad has been arrested. I assumed that he was talking with the children about weed and perhaps police saw him high and maybe they thought he was trying to sell weed to the kids. I laughed at it and quickly thought of a defense so he'd get released from prision (it was 5 years of jail if found guilty). The defense i thought was that he didnt have weed in him (cause i took it) so even though he was high he wasn't selling anything. And personal consumption is not criminalized, well at least not after you have consumed it. But that's in Argentina and we were in Uruguay!

      I came back from my vacations in Uruguay on saturday (2 days ago) and a few times my sister and i smoked weed. But i got weed so much in my mind because: 1. we were trying to get some before i came back from Uruguay, which we didn't. 2. I watched a Netflix series about Murder Mountain. 3. When i came here i thought of giving my father weed in some brownies, so he'd try it before i left to Cordoba to study.

      I woke up, went to bathroom, then went back to bed and i slept until 9:00 am.

      I dreamt i was sitting in a restaurant in Bs As. The restaurant was small and poor, seemed to be a family business. My table was outside. I was with my phone and some guy comes right next to my table and threatens the owner (who had a white apron) with a gun to give him the money. I thought of getting up and leaving, but i didn't know where to go so i didn't. The owner gives him the money, and then the robber comes towards me. He points the gun at me and i knew the logic thing would be to give him my cellphone so instantly i slide it though the table, i seemed to do it calmly (that's how i think it looked) but i was outraged (and i sensed that my intention was more of like throwing it rather than passing it). I saw he still stood there, so he wanted everything and apparently there were no cops around (i was in the most dangerous neighborhood, so that didn't surprise me). I took out my wallet from my pocket, and i didn't give it to him. Instead i opened it and gave him a bunch of paper money and he left (didn't give him all i had, just all i could grab in a quick manner). I remained there for a bit longer watching my surroundings. There were people fighting, there were more robbing... it wasn't a good place to stay.
      I got up and decided to leave. I went through people's porches, but that was ok. Then i find myself somewhere in Cůrdoba and my girlfriend finds me [I don't have a gf]. I told her i was robbed, that i didn't have my cellphone. We were having an event right there and now, it was my uncle's engagement or something. We went inside and she starts talking to me what we had to do, but we were close and kissing, and i knew what we'd do after the event . I got 9 messages (i think in my gf's cellphone) from the robber that he hacked 9 of my accounts, and i saw a discord screenshot. I asked my girlfriend if she could take care of my accounts while i went home to dress but she said no because she had to be in the event to let them know i was still getting ready. She started to hurry me more but i was worried of my accounts... and the first entrant was about to begin the event and that's when i decided to quit, i wasn't dressed and i was still there and it would take at least like an hour to get home, dress and come back. But then i see my uncle's wife in the entry room sad and angry because she was also cancelling. She was cancelling because i was. Then my uncle comes smiling and he says "we're not cancelling. We can start whenever we like, we have all day. So go home, get dressed and come back. We'll wait for you." Since he told me in such a good mood i was going to do it, and forget about the accounts until later in the day. Btw while he was speaking i noticed he had white teeth, they were very bright. Then i woke up.

      When i went to Uruguay it was my first time travelling out of my province alone. So i was worried i was going to get robbed at Bs As, specially because the bus station is one of the places where most crime happen.
      The first time, when i went, it was early morning. I had to walk from the Bus station to the port which was like 10 blocks away. It was pretty chill.
      But on my way back it was night, right after sunset. And again i had to walk from the port to the bus station. This time i was more worried and i think this influenced this last dream i had. But when i went even though it was disgusting to see such misery and precariousness, i didn't have any trouble. There were a lot of people too which were coming and going from the bus station and i saw police on a block which seemed to be the most dangerous.
      Categories
      non-lucid , side notes
    10. Letter Input Control

      by , 02-18-2019 at 03:14 AM
      So this was a dream where I had Control of Letters As input For Hyper potential
    11. Chunks...

      by , 02-09-2019 at 08:50 AM
      I was searching for some medical equipment in a doctor's pc, idk what.

      The dream was fragmented, had bad, short sleep last night but vividness was better. I am convinced it's because of "nofap" as I head from too many sources that sexual energy is a must for awareness.
    12. What's eating Jamie?

      by , 02-08-2019 at 04:17 AM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      Harry Potter?

      Haven't had a HP dream for a while. This one I'm on the back of a dragon following Harry who is also on a dragon that is Voldermort. Harry Jumps off the dragon mid air and throws something on the dragon's back. It looks like food. Harry floats down to the ground by himself. The dragon rolls whatever Harry through down it's back and flips it's tail up causing the object to float a bit and then the dragon eats it. The dragon then loses it's form and turns into voldermort on the ground. I'm following close behind them on a field. I see someone near the field pull up grass and it turns out all the grass is a fake plastic mesh sheet and he begins pulling it up. I keep watching Harry go up to Voldermort and they finally face eachother. They are about to duel when I wake up.

      Jamie is quiet

      Just a dream of sitting with Jamie on some steps. she is quiet and not talking but I have my arm around her.

      Not this again.

      Okay, before I started logging dreams again I did have a couple where I was working at Wal Mart again and Jamie was there, but was dissociating around me. These were extremely uncomfortable dreams. In this dream I am workign there and see her and say, "Hi," to her. She looks startled and uncomfortable, then makes an exit quickly. One of my mcdonald's co workers is there Chris. I start talking to him for a bit and the dream fades.

      Steps again

      I see Jamie on the steps again. She is totally quiet and not looking at me. I ask her a few questions or something and she doesn't respond. Just seems to ignore me. I ask her if she wants me to leave her alone for a while. She looks concerned about that and then pulls me close into a really tight hug. It feels nice. I guess that's a ,"no."

      Had a lucid somewhere but forgot it.

      No.


      Had a dream I was in the fortnite game in fatal fields With roland from the Dark tower. Heis frantically searching for a gun. Dara emmerges from the house and hands him a gun. She says she made it herself. The gun looks like it's made of pipes made from under taps. Roland draws it so quickly that I can't almost see and shoots a bush. The bush explodes as if it were in game. I think it's cool. I ask Dara if I can have a similar gun. We walk into the house and she shows me how to make one. What's she doing back in my dreams...
    13. more Dreams

      by , 01-23-2019 at 01:22 AM (MoSh's DJ: The Best Dream Journal in The Universe.)
      Here is a Jamie dream I forgot to add to last entry.

      Voyager


      Me and Jamie are wandering around Voyager from the TV show. We are in a turbo lift but only a small window opens. Janeway is on the other side. She is nice and talks to us but tells us to go around. the turbo lift goes down and we wind up in some construction area. We find staircases and go up them and wind up in the mess hall, where there is an alien race of Jocks or something. Me and Jamie just find a seat and wait and that's all I remember.


      More recent.

      Laundry room.


      Asuka makes me do laundry and for a joke, she is playing a song by nirvana about being in a laundry room. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zknlwXuGJUg I was kind of annoyed because I hadn't heard the song in a decade. Jamie comes up behind me and I didn't notice she was there. she says, "What song is this?" she was asking in the same tone of when I played guitar for her and she kept asking ,"Who's this by? Are you making that up?"

      Voices

      I am with Jamie but she seems angry. There is a semi-invisible demonic creature on her shoulder whispering in her ear. He lustfully whispers to her. "negative thoughts, negative thoughts, negative thoughts..." She doesn't seem aware of it at all. "I hate you!" she says looking at me.

      Annoying guide.


      Some tall guy with glasses comes into my inner world. He says,"You need to let her go." implying Jamie? Fuck no.

      Church

      With Jamie feeling better we both go to a church to seek Jesus out for some help. He is not there. But we sit down anyway on a pugh. It turns into a bed with blankets and we both fall asleep on it.

      Chelsea


      I'm on facebook and C has a post I like or something and when I comment on it. Jamie comes out of the computer and says, "I don't want you talking to this girl." I try to explain she's only a friend and she's already with someone. I think jamie calmed down. I'm not sure.



      Thumbnail confusion.


      Jamie makes me look at her profile picture on facebook. She changes the picture to her and some guy giving me the middle finger. Maybe my brother because one of my first entries with Jamie I am in a parking lot giving her and my brother the middle finger as they walk by and aignore me. I've noticed that a lot of recent Jamie dreams seem to reflect my early ones. Like in one entry I am missing jamie by a balcony and thinking about having a smoke with her. And recently she's explaining things to me while we are both on a balcony smoking.
      Interesting.

      In another dream she is looking at my youtube channel and I have thumbnails with a purple background. Recently while awake I checked our old facebook messages and she indeed changed her picture with a purple background. Very Strange...

      Jamie explains.


      I'm in some high rise apartment building at night. It reminds me of Tilted Towers from fortnite. I am chasing some people or something when I notice Jamie on an outside landing. She's wearing a mcdonald's manager uniform and for a second I think it's Emily from mcdonald's. but when she starts talking I recognise Jamie. She keeps explaining that she wants to start having real conversations or contact someday, but she needs to sort out some things in her life first. but she does have the desire. I ask, "Do you remember dreams about me when awake?" "Yes, I remember kisses" I'm thinking back to something short I left out last month. where I was nodding off on a bus and fell asleep for a split second and for a short second jamie kissed me. I ask if there's anything I can do (ahould I message her again)" She says no, In fact no one should feel pressured to make contact or send messages. I agree to that.


      Short lucid


      I become lucid in a room. Some east indian girl is there and I spend most of the lucid trying to convince her it's a dream. She keeps saying, "No,No, that's not real don't talk about that."

      More demons

      I'm with Jamie at my house and she starts yelling at me. "Don't touch me." Asuka runs and looks at her. "She has another creature on her." Asuka says and pulls the creature off jamie that I couldn't even see until she grabs it. Then Asuka throws it outside. Asuka does something to heal Jamie for a bit. Jamie grabs my hand and says, "Do you want to hold hands?" and smiles. Me and Asuka just laugh at her, in a good way.

      Boring


      I'm wandering a large store like Canadian Tire or something. But the place has all been re arranged. I wander to an outside area where a bunch of farm animals are. I chase ducks and rodents around a grassy area.

      Shut up


      That annoying guide shows up again this time when Jamie is around. He keeps saying we have different paths to go on. I tell him hell no, This is the one I'm on right now and I'm not moving from it. He asks if it's such a good path why aren't we together? and points to Jamie. I say I don't know. Maybe it's because we both have severe emotional problems and don't want to harm one another. Maybe she doesn't have room for me in her life yet. He said maybe it has something to do with past life karma, Karma to work out with soul mates. I notice Jamie's eyes then and she looks really sad, i think there may have been a fight earlier, not sure. I said I don't believe in Past Lives. I believe in Jesus so there's only this life and the heaven he has planned. The guide looks flustered at that and says. Where was Jesus when you sought him last? he wasn't even there? I say sometimes Jesus is silent, it's even in the bible. And, where spirits and guides like you have previously told me to give up Jesus came into my dreams and blessed me and her. He's the only one who seems to respect our free will unlike you guides And he helped us when she was possessed in a dream, he put obvious work into us unlike you guys. And go ahead, send me your BS soul mates. I've met some before and weren't even single, or even in my country. How many more deal breakers are you guys going to send me? Jesus Even turned his head away from me when you guys threw Dara at me, so guess what? I gave up on that. And Chelsea? She's not even single and you guys kept throwing me into her dreams when jamie was in trouble. And you know what I find it funny that while you're here telling me to let go Jamie is getting attacked by demons in dreams. you know what I think you're all demons... I was ranting like that the whole dream I think.
    14. I tried to reach out , LD

      by , 12-21-2018 at 10:03 PM (Break the code, break the node)
      At morning I was really cozy in bed ,so I thought I'll just attempt a wild and try to find that sweet point of balance between consciousness and relaxation...
      And somehow I found that goldilocks zone of WILD.
      I observed that when I fall asleep it feels like if my eyeballs get under a gentle pressure ,and it feels like I'm focusing into the far horizon of space... and thats when things start to form, and then suddenly I found myself in an empty room.
      The dream was lackey still butI didnt care, I called out for N ...repeated her name a few times , thought of her, and then the dream dissolved and I floated up into this kinda fog, void...and started to see a picture...of a room, a messy one, and a door infront opening to another room...and then something else I don't remember... And then I found myself again in an empty house, I went out and found myself in a suburban neighborhood situationed on the lower part of a hill, mountain.
      It looked nice , but it was made of the same kind of buildings that are in my neighborhood so I realized that I'm still in my dream... and then I woke up
    15. The past haunts me

      by , 12-15-2018 at 10:06 PM (Break the code, break the node)
      I dreamt of her after a long time
      I don't know why
      it brought up new thoughts
      I want to forget
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      dream fragment , side notes
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