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15/2/2020
Went to bed at 4:30AM.
got out of bed at 12:45.
I drank last night so I'm surprised I had dreams. I woke up with no recall but then when adjusting my shoulders int eh kitchen I remembered doing pullups with magnus and everything came back from there.
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Dream 1:
I went to the gym with my friends Evan and Matthew. We put our stuff in a locker without locking it. We worked out for a bit and then I remember training pullups with Magnus Mitdbo. There was suddenly some climbing routes at the gym and I hopped on one to try to get to a super high pullup bar but it was too high it scared me. He climbed the wall on the other side and from the top dropped down onto 2 big protruding volumes and I thought he couldve really hurt himself. Matthew told us to go to the locker room cuz he went and couldnt find our stuff. We went and looked through a bunch of lockers then realized someone just emptied the locker and dropped our shit on the ground. We took our shit and left. I wanted to go climbing so I went to the climbing gym but ended up rollerskating instead because I didnt have enough time. I was doing really tight circles by doing crossovers for a while, I saw naftalia and heaven on the court. Some people were taking wedding photos on the court too. It started getting wet on the court so I stopped.When I got off, I got involved in some crazy kidnapping operation. I had a gun and was about to kidnap this little girl when a military man come off the court. I pointed my gun at him, he was scared then didnt shoot and he went on to shoot the other bad guy. I dropped my gun and started leaving. the military man was still looking for bad guys and there was this dude coming at me. He saw the military man and he really was innocent so he decided to run but then he knew how that would look so he ran back towards me. At this point he was a zombie. He got shot and then I got put into a video game-like selection screen where I can choose the color of the zombies eyes. I chose green and then I was placed in a dark building with that 1 zombie and I took his head off.

Not been able to keep recall very well or make notes in the morning for the last few days because of pain issues.

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Dream Fragment:

I was at some sort of zen gathering, for a dream-imagined relative. She was going to have this ceremony that was supposed to strengthen the bond between her and this baby brother of hers or something.

I remember the area was on a green and grassy rolling hill. It had a fair bit of an angle on it. There were some small trees, not much bigger than a person and there were some sort of carpets or rugs laid out in a few places.

It was night time? But it was bright, I think from a full moon. I remember looking at the sky and seeing it in the night and then lower to the right I saw a tower. It looked like a Japanese hill castle tower.

There were some people up there on its walls, some kind of avians, like from Starbound.

Next thing I remember, I’m up there and planning a sneak attack with some other people against the avians to take some treasure they had up there.

Transition? Maybe a different dream but it felt to be in sequence and similar context.

I remember L and his childhood friend J. We were walking around a lower area, possibly next to that hill from before. It was night. We came up to some metal grated stone structure. Beyond the metal bars I could see a wooden treasure chest and a tunnel that led into that area.

I looked to the left and saw another similar stone structure, also with metal bars but not all along it’s opening. There were two minotaurs in there and I attacked them but I don’t remember how I dealt with them exactly.

The rest of the details are missing but I vaguely remember being in a 3 seat van with J and L at some point.

Dream Fragment:

I was using my tablet. I was painting, trying to replicate an effect I saw in waking life of a painting that was just in the background of a tv show.

I was trying to paint waves in the water in the same detailed way as that painting. It wasn’t going very well though and even in the dream I realised I was going about it the wrong way.

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No notes for now, might edit later.

Some fragments. Recall seemed better for the second and third dreams on waking up.

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Dream Fragment:

I was in the kitchen. It was a bit dark but not night time. Like very early morning just after sun rise, and with the blinds rolled down. I remember standing by the fridge, naked I think? I remember seeing my feet and legs. For some reason, I could hear in my head what I thought at the time to be a theme song for the TV show called Roswell, a show I never watched myself, but I know of it. I don't actually remember what that music sounded like but it seemed familiar in the dream, in a way that makes me think that it had nothing to do with that show, but I'll have to try and find it after writing this DJ.

Wedged between the fridge and the counter it is adjacent to, I remember noticing one of the wooden grave markers H's dad was working on yesterday when we went there. The cross was upside down and it looked like we had just shoved it in there in a hurry to make some room in the kitchen. The fridge is a fridge on top and freezer on the bottom and I remember seeing the logo somewhat distinctly in the dream.

No idea how this dream went on or ended.

Dream Fragment:

I was entering some sort of supermarket, it felt like it was underground. There were quite a few people here, seemed like a popular place. Looked a bit like the cheap supermarket I go to but for whatever reason my old friend from university, R, was walking along with me. We both had a trolley.

I was very confused by the layout, first there were mostly energy drinks and then soft drinks. I think I commented on them being crap but I also felt hungry more than anything else. We continued on and eventually we got to a very odd bit, where I had to watch what other people were doing to understand. There was like a sort of circular checkpoint thing that we had to go into in queues. I grabbed some big and fresh looking pears I spotted to my right, and apparently some bananas too. I knew immediately the pears would be sweet, as I prefer them, and not at all wooden. There were some fake metal barriers to enforce queues.

I got to the centre of this checkpoint thing. There was a woman on a swivel chair? She was wearing a cap but had curled hair tucked into it or something. She was in the middle of this four-section rounded island with shop scanner things on each of the four sections. I remember giving her the fruits or placing them down on the metal/glass surface.

She scanned the fruit somehow and I continued off away from the checkpoint thing.

Dream Fragment:

Some kind of mix of GTA and other games like Deus Ex. I remember being on a completely unknown city and having a map divided into levels, like there used to be in Zelda's dungeons. 1F,2F, etc.

There were some ghoul like enemies at some point and a UDamage pickup, which when I tried getting, some quick imp or rat thing got it and scurried off.

I remember being on some sort of snow bike and using a turbo mode that activated an orange energy saw and killing some of these ghouls. This was an enclosed area, with many narrow paths and with an underground feel to it. At the end of it I found a portal marked by an inverse encircled pentagram, which was a path to hell. I decided to not go through yet but would come back to it when I felt stronger.

Then I was outside and it was night time. Everything was brightly lit. I remember fighting some guys at a bridge over a wide channel of water that looked like it had very strong currents, as it was quite foamy and uneven.

Much earlier in the dream there was an area of sort of open field but I don't really remember any details. Too tired to write much more.

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Notes:
- I'm not entirely sure what prompted the appearance of both the cross and the pentagram (both inverted) in two separate dreams, but yesterday H's dad was making about twelve of these cross-shaped grave markers. I remember asking if they were consecrated or blessed in any way once they were done. I was told that there's no point, since they are just temporary markers. This might account for the marker's appearance in my dream, as I had some interest in them since he was basically working on them all day and we were there for most of it.

- The third dream was a mix of many, many games, far too many to actually describe in reasonable detail. But the part with the UDamage and the inverted pentagram was most definitely based mostly on: DOOM, Daikatana and Unreal (Tournament). All of these have some themes in common, but the game engines are also all quite similar in some aspects. Hell and unholy motifs such as ghouls are closely related to DOOM of course and they also feature in UT. Some time ago I was working on a cathedral level for UT, but abandoned the project due to its complexity for my current skill level. The level featured an underground hellish portal that would take players to the top of the level.

- The Christian-type symbols probably also made their appearances because last night I spent a fair bit of time speaking to H about how I have often felt, and often still feel, because of my constant pain issues. There is a somewhat subconscious link between pain and some version of hell, for me.

- In the second dream, I seem to remember R was wearing his typical leather jacket. I don't remember seeing his face much in the dream.

- In that same dream, many of the dream characters seemed to be some type or another of friends or acquaintances I used to have. My mom appeared in that dream at some point, near the end, along with some dreamed up ogre-like uncle of some kind.

Dreams that I made note of early today but that I'm only writing on the DJ here at night.

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Dream Fragment:

Much longer than just this bit and a lot of detail is missing. Was with my family at some building, more specifically, with my parents and maybe siblings. We were there because of me, I was waiting to be given permission to use this facility's reactor-powered super-computer.

One of mom's sisters (M) was there . H was there but was a blend between himself and my oldest sibling. I remember we were waiting in some sort of lobby. It was sunny, there was a lot of glass. It was a fairly modern-style building from what I can remember. Eventually, a woman came through into the room and requested my presence. I followed her and walked through some halls and then through a large indoors space, like an aircraft hangar or an industrial warehouse. When we were in one of these larger spaces, the woman, who I remember was formally dressed (i.e. had some sort of secretarial position), said that they were going to give me the OK to use their computer.

Apparently I wanted to use this computer to "hack" some other reactor-powered super-computer of the same sort. In the dream I already knew I had permission from the owners of that second computer to do this. My reaction to when she gave me the OK was something of surprise and I felt happy. I told her I'd be right back and jogged back to the lobby quickly to grab a few things. Mostly some papers, A4 prints of the schematics for the other reactor? Looked like amplifier schematics like the ones I often see H use.

In the dream I knew that some favour I pulled was responsible for the people who owned this place to allow me to do this, though there seemed to be no animosity with anyone and there was a calm and polite atmosphere.

I remember there was a lot of dialogue in this dream but I remember very little of it in detail, usually one of the first things to get forgotten. I went back to the woman after grabbing the papers. I remember being shown into a room where I then used some sort of computer terminal and then gained physical access to the other computer's library. But it was literally and physically manifested in front of me, above the terminal.

I looked through the books. I remember chatting to this lady since she was there to supervise me, mostly small talk. I couldn't remember which of these files (the books) that H was interested in, so for whatever reason I asked for someone to go and fetch my oldest sibling (L). L arrived and immediately recognised the book. L took it and I wondered how we'd return it, since I realised in that moment this was a one-time thing but we were still obliged to return the file.

Then I said to L: "make sure you get everything you want, because we will never have access to this again." I remember thinking or feeling that the other books on that shelf were filled with irreplaceable knowledge.

The dream went on for a bit but I don't remember much. Some visions of the reactors? I told the lady about how I got permission to do all of this.

Dream Fragment:

A different dream. In space, much shorter dream. Strategy game like Homeworld but could manage planets and space stations too. Mix of Freelancer too? Don't remember the visuals anymore. Woke up after this dream.

Dream Fragment:

Fell back asleep and recalled this single fragment. Was helping T build some sort of organ console. The console didn't look right. It was askew? But it was on purpose apparently. The manuals were angled at 90 degrees and sloped on a 30 degree arc. I remember this took place in T's room. There was a light on and the room was dark otherwise, somewhat as expected really.

Mom was there, talking to T I think.

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Some notes:
- I did remember more conversational detail when I woke up and wrote down the first dream on my phone but the memory has since long left as I finish writing this DJ entry.
- The thing with the shelf and the books being the other computer's file system was very unusual. It was like an allegory, but somewhat unnecessary.
- For whatever reason, these few dreams I had all had H, T and L mixed in some sense as if they were all the same character. Although I can draw some similarities between them, like the bookshelf thing, I'm not sure why it was almost made obvious in the dream. Normally my less conscious thoughts don't manifest themselves in dreams in such an obvious way, probably since I already recognise all these elements consciously anyway.
- The secretary figure is starting to become a recurring dream character in a sense. Feels like a sort of formal projection, as a character, of what I would consider my anima to be. Last year there were some similar appearances. Usually black hair, tidy, possibly glasses and a smooth but not perfect face. A slight bit of attitude or something in body posture, but in a relaxed way. Takes herself seriously.

- A note on the above; I have taken the Jungian archetypes into a sort of personally meaningful way as I do with symbols in general, so that they have specific meanings to myself, which are often a bit more distant from their original meanings. This accounts for why the appearance of these archetypes varies, sometimes dramatically. But the key identifier for them is usually that they are key characters in the dream and that they are not related to people I know, and seem to be more disjointed from the other characters in a dream, usually.

- T's room was more or less as I remember last seeing it. The sense of any unpleasant smell didn't seem to be there, but I remember feeling uncomfortable being in the room.

Just a dream fragment. Recall was a bit poor this past night and the night before, maybe because I've been a bit restless.

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Dream Fragment:

I'm at an alternate version of the big square in my old home town. An older version of it, I think? I got in a car with one of my aunts (B). It was dark. We drove somewhere underground, where it was also particularly dark but there were a few lights here and there at foot level or something. There was a green hue to everything.

The underground area was like a tunnel at first, a bit like some of the subway tunnels in the town. But then it became narrower and more like a sewer of some kind.

Then I remember being on foot on my own. There were narrow concrete straits over darkness below. There was green-ish looking water coming out of cylindrical openings in some of the concrete walls.

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Notes:

- Although I didn't realise it on waking up or during the dream, it made sense that the underground area resembled the subway tunnels, because under that square in waking life is where the station is.
- I remember having some conversation with my aunt, but can't even remember what about.

Not a good week for Jamie apparently.

Jamie 1

Just a flash of being outside my house. Jamie pulls up in a car, gets out and says, "Sorry I'm late, I got lost downtown." Remembering her sense of direction when she would drive around, sounds about right

New Cat

Dreamed I had a new cat (Haven't had one in years.) it was on my bed and it would randomly scratch me. I spent some time trying to figure out what caused it too scratch... But i could figure nothing out. It was either really nice, or would just scratch.

Jamie 2

I'm in bed with a Jamie look alike. And Jamie comes home (we live together in this dream.) She looks really upset. She's having nightmares about me meeting a look alike? I've already known a few but so far none can steal her thunder. If she's so worried She should hurry up and seal the deal.

EWW

I was in bed with an asian transgender. Um okay. What other lows does my dream self resort to when I ruin things with Jamie?

youtube

Hanging out with the young dude From the paranormal files. We were exploring an abandoned hospital. Cool.

What else can I put here in case Jamie really reads these. Well when I applied for my passport earlier in the month. At the service desk my print job had 629 in it.. (A number I've frequently seen in regards to Jamie and Jesus...) I think, "now that has nothing to do with Jamie right?" On my way i see 2 cars with Jamie's initials in their licence number in random order. I wasn't looking for it, it just jumped out on me. Getting a passport BTW to travel to the US to make more haunted videos for youtube. I doubt much success but I have enough saved for at least 2 trips. This is going to be an exciting year regardless.

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8/2/2020
Went to bed at 3AMish.
Woke up at 10:30 with some recall. Wrote down "locker room + bouldering with randoms", "Couldnt pee with straight head"
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Dream1:
This dream begins in a locker room where I am with some friends and friends of friends. We get changed to go climbing and I go pee before heading in to the gym. I noticed my head is tilted as I look in the mirror above the toilet and I try to stand as straight up as possible to fix it. I can't pee while doing this. I slouch again, start peeing and stand up straight. The stream weakens but I finish it off. Then I'm boldering with friends. Lots of routes in a place I've never been before. I do something V2=< as my first route and then decide to warm up. I see a V0 which looks super easy. I look around a bit more and then come back to it but only the bottom two holds are there, people are changing the routes. (Dream sign!!!! Changing bouldering routes. My brain can never remember routes correctly so it comes up with the excuse of route changers). I go looking for other routes and find some that are just on the ground and spread out like the rocks in front of Royal Vale Elementary. I hop on the beginning but suddenly the rest of the route changes color and I need to actually make a huge leap to get to the next part which is in a different direction. I dont believe I can do it so I give up.

Dream 2:
In this dream I remember trudging through deep snow with a friend. We were travelling somewhere and we were trying to get to a hole or tunnel in the ground. Right before we get to the hole, we find big boxes of giant tea containers. They are all empty. After I notice there are some people behind us.

Some dream fragments. There was a third one but I have such a faint and vague memory of it, not even sure where I'd start. I practically lost the other ones while getting up but made sure to keep my eyes closed as much as possible until I could write here, which helped.

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Dream Fragment:

I remember being at some sort of concrete structure. I'm not sure if I was "me" but a couple of other people were here too, I think one of them was that Torres guy from NCIS. This place was dark and there was a massive abyss right in front of us. Across this abyss was another flat area made of concrete and there were some soldiers there. They were holding us here or something and they shouted that we should stay put.

The soldiers got on a platform and it started moving down very fast. They disappeared from sight. Somewhere down there was some light, but it must have been a literal mile or more away. Then some more soldiers appeared but this time they didn't wait for the platform and just jumped down where the platform shaft area was. I was intrigued but at some point in the dream I simply "knew" that at the bottom was a special fluid that would break any fall, no matter from how high.

Torres like the idea of just jumping across and into that specific area. I felt it was too risky. It was a long way down and there was no way to aim ourselves properly and the gap between the two concrete areas was quite wide. But he got on some sort of pole hanging from our side and got closer to the other side, hanging just over the middle. Then some soldiers came back up on the platform and noticed. They started shouting at him and warning him to stop. He ignored them and now he grabbed onto some rope that was hanging from the ceiling. That's as much as I remember clearly for this fragment.

I do remember there were no light sources. We were very deep underground most certainly, but somehow we had a light radius of our own, like in RPGs where the characters just give off light...

Dream Fragment:

I don't remember how I got there but I arrived at a small lab/office place. This dream was somewhat vivid, more than the other one. There were two researchers, wearing labcoats, and one of them greeted me. He seemed a bit uninterested at first but then he saw my boots. They were covered in some sort of pale golden sand. I realised I hadn't noticed this myself until that moment and he became very interested. He went over to a counter and showed me some tins with rounded caps.

The caps were all a shade of gold or tan. He asked me to see which one I thought was closest. I selected four of the tins first just as a guess. Then I held them and made their coloured cap be over my right boot in my vision. The first wasn't it, too orange. The second and third one seemed similar, the fourth one was too dark but the right hue. I compared between the second and third against the sand and decided the third one was the closest. He seemed happy with this and I felt somewhat happy to help. I made a comment saying "well at least I can definitely tell that my skill at recognising shades correctly has improved". I genuinely felt this was true in that moment and realise now that it was indeed a very accurate test of my skill in this.

The other researcher was just doing something on his own over on another counter but I don't remember what. Oddly enough, despite looking at my feet, can't be certain what the floor was like. Some sort of plastic tiles? Maybe wood. But square shapes. The counters were an off white on the top and a light stained wood on the cabinets. There were a couple of windows to the outside and I made note of the fact that it was daytime outside, but the room was quite brightly lit anyway with some fluorescent lamps that actually gave off a warm colour for once.

This whole dream bit felt like it was in sequence of the previous one or another one between them.

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Side notes:

- It could possibly be the first time while dreaming where I had to use a skill that I'd use for painting in waking life. For me this is a particularly good sign because for a long time I've wanted that context to come over into dreams in some form.
- The researchers wearing labcoats were clearly dreamsigns that I missed. The labcoat is a dreamsign I successfully managed to insert into my dreams as a dreamsign a while back, I think last year or the year before.
- The dust on my boots reminded me very much of gold powder in the dream. In the dream I had a much clearer notion of where I had been previously, which was relevant for that context.
- Despite looking at my boots and remembering them very clearly as the black leather army-type boots I have in waking life, I only vaguely remember my trousers and can't really say which ones they were. It seems odd that my boots are the only detail I remember clearly from looking down, despite the fact that in the dream everything was the same level of vividness.
- I do remember I was wearing some sort of dark hoodie in that dream. I remember it because I remember the sensation of having the sleeves pulled up, something I often do if I'm indoors.
- Don't have much at all to make note of from the first dream since many details are vague now, but the fall-breaking fluid definitely made me think of stuff from Portal and from Satisfactory.

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7/2/2020
Went to bed at 2AMish.
Woke up at 8:30 with almost no recall. I wrote down 'food' which was way too vague I realize now.
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Dream 1:
The only thing I can remember is an image of a food container at work with a little bit of sausage at the bottom(This may just be a memory from last night when I was working). Also an image of someone else preparing food and a feeling of disappointment accompanying it.

Had a few dreams but only remembering a couple of fragments.

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Dream Fragment:

I was playing Dune 2000, doing some sort of special single-player mission. I was struggling a bit with the micromanagement because in this scenario the game started me out with three separate bases each on their own rock islands fairly far from each other, on the south-east side of the map. The map had very large expanses of sand (I could remember seeing a preview in a menu) but also had a lot of cliffs and ruins and old walls.

I remember some of the game's music playing a bit, but even though I remember the interface looking like Harkonnen, my units didn't all seem to match my faction. The enemy was managing to send some engineer units to capture some of my buildings and this was annoying me and something else had also gone wrong so I think I restarted the level. I went back to a menu where I could tweak something and I was tweaking some starting radar thing that allowed me to see further into the fog of war initially.

This second time became weirder, kind of fast too. My vision was more inside the actual game now and despite this being a top-down view game, I was able to somehow control the view and see everything in 3D. I was telling some units to patrol so engineers would stop taking my buildings but this was being wonky. I don't think the game even has a patrol function. Again I was struggling with the three separate bases issue. There were many units on the map and I could see stuff going on in the minimap this time. The game was spawning waves of Zerglings and other stuff from Starcraft I and they were ambushing some unit groups I'd sent out to try and make small attacks on the enemy.

Then some of my spice deposits were running out and more wasn't appearing fast enough. I was afraid the harvesters would be getting destroyed by the worms soon. Then all of a sudden, a bit north-northeast from my middle base some giant walker thing with fleshy tendrils and orange sort of growths on it was approaching and I think I let out a swear. I sent units to attack it because it looked like it had loads of health, and eventually they were managing to take it down. But now the game was spawning so many enemies at the same time, I couldn't keep up at all and was going to be defeated soon.

Dream Fragment:

Was in a parliament. It was dark and a bit desaturated. But the house was full. I was right in front of some middle bit where some person speaks. And this man was there in a suit with no tie or bow, he was speaking about Europe and the future, but I can't remember what he was saying exactly. He seemed happy about not so good circumstances that he would mention. This made me feel uncomfortable somehow, on a less conscious level. It also somehow made me realise a bit where I was standing in the room, but I don't think anyone cared.

I think there was some daylight coming in from the other end of the room, probably why everything looked so grey and dim.

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No notes for now.

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6/2/2020
Went to bed at 12AMish.
Woke up at 10:30 with recall
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Dream 1:
I was driving, possibly to a haircut appointment. The driving controls were really wonky, not responding how I would expect them to. At one point I couldnt hit the brake, it was just accelerating a bit. There was a car in front of me stopped at an intersection so I turned right around the car and down the right side of the intersection. The steering was really bad, I definitely bumped into something like the wall of a building. I stopped the car to get my feet in the right place and to check everything out. At that point I realized there was no brake pedal, only the gas on the right and a parking brake all the way on the left. I then noticed I was also in the passenger seat(There were 2 pedals on the passenger side, with no steering wheels so I dont know how I was controlling it.). I was thankful my mom wasnt there to see the mistakes I had made. I climbed into the drivers seat and then I forget the rest. (Extra tag I forget: FH[FA?] Haircut)

Dream 2:
I was somewhere with a kid and his mother. It was the childs birthday and he was lighting the candles on his cake because his mom was distracted with something like a Wii game. She was talking to him a little but it was clear that most of her attention was on the game and not him. He lit the candles and was waiting for his mom to be with him for him to blow them out. It took some time, some candles went out and he had to relight them. Eventually she finished her thing and gave him more of her attention.

Recorded the majority of these dreams early on in a vague form on my phone on waking up. Had to go somewhere in the car; while I was waiting in the car for an hour, typed everything out in more detail, which I'm now putting on the DJ here.

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First Dream (Some detail missing):

Fairly long dream. Can’t remember the start now but I would recurringly go for a swim with H but also alone. When I started, I felt weak and slow. I can’t remember the water's temperature.

We were on some sort of cruise ship but it was mostly empty, and I don’t think it was ever moving. I started to become strong at swimming, when I was back on the decks I can remember feeling like I my chest was sort of almost puffing out from all the swimming workout.

At some point I was walking down some wooden decking stairs and I could see my parents lounging on some patio type chairs on a higher level. I could hear dad make some sort of mock bird call. I remember then seeing some birds. Seagulls? Dad laughed. H asked from some place below, “is that your dad?” I said yes and then remember continuing down the stairs and losing sight of them.

It was daytime for most of this dream but I made note of the fact that it was sort of cloudy and grey. I remember a horizon of water. It may have been windy but I don’t remember the sound of it.

I remember a few times I’d take my boots off, but at no point do I remember what I was wearing.

When I went swimming, after a short while I’d usually arrive at this sea floor base of some kind. This place did have a lot of people. I remember lockers, the inside of this place almost felt like some swimming pool changing rooms but with a more modern and futuristic feel to it, a bit more like the base from Ocean Girl or the sea city from Bioshock.

Before this dream or through the middle of it, I was stuck in some sort of void like limbo with H for a time. It was like being in an out of control perpetual fall, and there was a strange light and distant but dark cosmic background. This void was filled with ancient structures and artefacts from unknown civilisations, a lot of the stuff looking like it was from some sort of classic period.

I remember interacting with some walls and pillars from a distance, with some kind of telekinetic ability, and cutting them up into smaller chunks. As I did their lighting would change, usually to some dramatic purples and yellows.

At some nearer the “end” of the cruise ship segments I went into this too, to have a wee, but there were no toilets. In the dream my mind was telling me that there were some type of urinals but there was nothing on walls or anything like toilets. Instead there were some tables. I walked past a clear plastic box filled with what looked like cheap and brightly coloured electronic components.

At the tables were some big circuit boards with several components already soldered on, including some transformers. For whatever reason I had to have a wee on these boards, but I remember someone telling me I could only wee on the electrolytic capacitors... I remember doing it, but on a big black electrolytic cap, and then some guy appeared, who apparently owned all this stuff and told me off just for weeing on the big one. He was annoyed but not angry or shouting.

Then I remember going out of that room after a short dialogue. I went some stone stairs, in a wide spiral. It reminded me of castles and churches. There were a few murderhole windows where daylight shun from. This was a different place, it was puzzle like. As I reached some kind of landing I immediately realised that the structure was like in some games like Legend of Zelda and some modern puzzles where the paths loop back into themselves, but I could get around the issue of looping paths by taking them whilst walking backwards.

I remember a crawl space path where the same would happen and there were statues and displays scattered about like some museum. There was a warm artificial mood light and everything had a sort of modern feel to it in the areas with displays.

Second Dream (Fragment):

A different dream. I was born out of a big egg, looked mostly like a birds egg but was covered in a polka dot pattern on the outside. A sort of magenta colour to the dots.

There was some old man in this dream and I remember telling him we all had stomachs made from tin and gold. When I told him there was also sulfuric acid in there, he was incredulous.

Third Dream? (Fragment) NSFW:

A still image, as if on a computer, no doubt from a transition phase into wakefulness,

Spoiler for NSFW:

of a giant phallus in space “absorbing” planets along its skin.

One of the stranger things I might draw from time to time. But unusual for this type of thing to appear whilst still sort of in the dreaming context.

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Notes:

⁃ Almost immediately after waking up I realised I probably had the swimming and diving dream because I spent so much of last night reading stuff on Dreamviews. It made me feel like the water was representative of dreaming in itself.
⁃ When I was reading stuff last night I had some thoughts about symbology, mostly because of the topics but I think also because of something I’d said/posted. I feel this is probably why the dream ended up being so metaphorical.
⁃ I ended up taking the whole swimming and diving experience, which in the dream made me stronger, as a sign that I may be making some progress again with dreaming. There was just a sort of clear association in my head when I woke up that all of this was a metaphor for how I was doing lately.
⁃ The void filled with artefacts etc. also felt relevant in that context because it seemed like a collection of lost and unknown culture.
⁃ This void was very similar to the Chthonic voids found in Grim Dawn, probably because I was also playing that a bit last night.

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4/2/2020
Went to bed at 1AMish.
Woke up at 6AM, nothing
Woke up at 7:30AM, nothing
woke up at 9AM, with recall, wrote down 1 tag. Chilled for a bit in bed and remembered 2 more dreams, and wrote down tags
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Dream1:
I was in an exam room, taking a test which seemed really confusing to me. The incompetence I was feeling was really riling me up. I was really stuck in my head just thinking "Fuck what if I fail this, what if I cant finish it on time, I usually finish them so quick! Am I going to have to add another semester? I really dont want to do that" while I flipped the pages looking for something I could answer. As I was flipping, it was all information and no questions! At one point my sister finished, walked past me on the way out and gave me an answer. A teacher came by and she said something out loud to make it seem like we werent cheating. Shortly after the kid next to me slipped me a paper that contained a bunch of questions about the test, and I rejected it and slid it back forcefully. After a bit more scrambling through the pages they told us to stop, and that 2 hours had passed. We were going to take a break and have 1 hr left after the break. The kid on my right was teasing me about how poorly I was doing, and how I had basically not filled anything out. He kept doing that for a while. A teacher came up to me half caringly concerned and half scolding me, so I confessed to him. I told him I was so stuck in my head that I wasnt event thinking about what was on the paper. I knew if I could jsut concentrate my efforts on the paper I could do it. So during the break I sat down, closed my eyes and kind visualized myself completing the test. I experienced these 'meditative' sensations that gave me confidence in my ability to pass the test within the final hour and at that point the dream ended.

Dream 2:
I was at home with my cousin and some other family. My cousin shaun was telling us how he felt about being lonely and isolated from the family. We tried to talk to him about why things were this way, he lives further away than he used to, we're all distracted these days by technology(Something he acknowledged that he did himself too). He is shorter than me in real life but in this dream he turned into a man who only slightly resembles him and was like a foot taller than me.

Dream 3:
I was skiing with my brother and someone else. It was a ton of fun zooming downhill, jumping off of and over bumps, and zooming between a ton of kids who didnt even have skis on. They were roaming the ski trails just having fun and running around. Very dangerous. At one point, one kid threw a snowball at me while I was zooming by very fast. I stopped and went back up the hill towards the kids. I caught up to them and told them I just wanted to talk to them. We all ended up in a cabin with some of their parents. We all sat down outside the cabin and had a friendly conversation about why it was VERY dangerous for them to throw a snowball at me as I was speeding by, if they hit my goggles they could have permanently blinded me! I told them to think before they act, but in a friendly yet stern way, as in I wanted the best for them, not in a harsh ruling way. They all seemed to understand and some mountain staff came with some lemon tart pastries, they were great After that my brother and I did our final run. We turned into an 'easy path' when we got off the chairlift which also had a warning sign on it because the conditions were very poor. the other person we were skiing with wasnt down so they went on another path. We went down, took sharp turns, had to do slides along fallen trees and did some gnarly stuff. Near the end we were supposed to go through a dark tunnel. My brother went first and then this really small kid went through sideways on their snowboard. They were going soooooo slow and I was too impatient, when they were 1/3rd through I went in slowly behind them and gave them some speed by pushing from behind. We made it through the tunnel together.

Just some short dream fragments. Woke up but didn't get out of bed for a while and got distracted so didn't retain many thoughts.

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Dream Fragment:

Something in space. Felt a bit like Freelancer but I think I could command ships that weren't my own? I remember an asteroid field and an asteroid space station. The system looked like it had a light source coming from underneath but was mostly black space with stars with some blue-ish nebulas on the lower hemisphere. The system felt "sunny". Omega/Sigma/Tau type system. Earlier I had a clearer idea of which it reminded me most of.

Dream Fragment:

There's a bridge that I'm trying to place somewhere. I sort of have some kind of visual interface to move it around and rotate it but I struggle for a while to get it to a position I'm satisfied with. One of my siblings (T) is in the dream somehow but I think only in some form of chat. I remember having a conversation about the bridge and how it wasn't quite working out. I remember I then had to add some extra support pillars.

The bridge location was some kind of crude game-like valley. It looked like the type of terrain/landscape I might roughly make before having worked on any detail for it. The area seemed to be covered in shadow, like there were other objects above.

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No notes.

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3/2/2020
Went to bed at 12AM.
Woke up at 6AM, wrote 1 tag
Woke up at 7:30AM, nothing written down
woke up at 9AM, with recall, fell back asleep. Had more dreams and wrote down tags when I got up at 9:30
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Dream 1:
In this dream I was in a group with a couple other people and we were being chased by this group of a few people, who I'm pretty sure were asian. We were being chased around a city like Las Vegas and we went underground into something that looked like a grocery store with no one else in it. They were too far behind us to see us but they somehow always took the same turns as us, even though there were multiple forks in the path. I wasn't scared, it was more like a rush of adrenaline like when you're a kid playing tag on the playground and the person who's IT is right behind you and inching closer. When we went into the empty grocery store we decided to hide to try to lose them. But they stopped and were looking around slowly, but not urgently. It was as if it was all a game and they knew we were there, they were just building anticipation. They did find us and a giddy laughter came out of me when they did.

Dream 2:
This was located at the bouldering gym. The walls changed so much and the layout of the whole building expanded and changed. At first it was a traverse challenge, with mostly only holds at the top of the wall all around. While attempting this challenge, some annoying ass kid grabbed onto my leg and wouldnt let go! This pissed me off so much! He was putting both of us in danger and not letting me climb this route that I was so excited to try! I grabbed this kid and brought him around looking for a staff member. I found one and told her what he was doing, to revoke his day pass or some shit because he was still smiling and had no remorse. It seemed like he was going to do it again as soon as I let him go! The staff member ended up being pretty useless, the conversation ended with something along the lines of, "I'm pretty new here, try and find someone who has more experience". This made me mad that she was too incompetent to handle this kid who was breaking the rules at the place she worked! Later on in the dream I kept an eye out for him but didnt see him again. After that situation, my friend Matteo arrived at the gym. We greeted and hung out for a bit because they were changing the walls again at this point. I guess it was a special event day. Now there were basketball hoops at the tops of the walls, which I couldnt figure out how they were going to incorporate into the routes. I wandered around a bit, saw this insanely jacked asian man using some training implement to hold himself off the ground with one hand. He was cartoonishly jacked. I went to go hang out outside with Matteo, Bruce and one of their friends. We talked for a bit and then their other friend left to go play in the water and imitated some kid who just got lost or abducted or something. They scolded him for making fun of such a serious event. Shortly after I spotted climbing routes(Finally normal ones) on the outside of the gym building. I went to go check them out and there were some all over the side road, on the bouldering gym and the neighboring building. I attempted to start a hard looking route but couldnt get good enough footholds. I walked around to the back where there was now a gym style training zone with some climbing training apparatus'. Finally, I think I missed something. Near when the basketball hoops were up, they changed the walls 1 more time. There were roman looking obstacles that I believe you had to bounce a basketball off of to get it in the net. this isn't climbing but it felt okay for some reason.