non-lucid

Vague memory of dream fragments. I remember sitting with my father. He wanted to wear my socks. I thought it was weird cus my socks are dirty but he did take them on.

*fuzzy*

We have arrived at our grandmother's house with the car. There's some kind of party, we go inside and my granddad is sitting in his chair. The furniture was moved tho, the whole building looked different. it wasn't the real house. I kissed my granddad in the cheek and as i did that i realized... My grandfather is dead. This can't be, it's a dream. I try to pinch my nose not really sure if i could breathe. I COULD BREATHE!. Holy cow this is a dream. My heart starts pounding. I say to myself relax, don't get too excited just do what you have to do.
I want to go outside and i mentioned this. My neace wanted to go with me so i took her with me. We walked down the street and i thought i'd try to fly. I take a sprint and i lift off. I can barely fly, i floated a little but fell to the ground. My neace and passer-by's didn't seem at all suprised that i was able to fly. (barely)
We are riding a bike. My memory is vague but we arrived in my own town. There where loads of people going around their normal business. It was a busy street near the mall. I remember looking around and thinking. This is so real. This looks exactly like it does when awake. I wasn't even sure if i was really dreaming , nothing was really different than when i'm awake.
I remember i wanted to go to the moon. So i decided to try and draw a portal on the floor. I moved my nails and tried to make a circle. I was a little bit embaressed doing this in a public area because goddammit this was so real. All those peope that pass by must think i'm a lunatic. Well... no portal ever appeared. There was a drain in the middle of the circle. The one u find in cities. I thought maybe i can push it like a button and a portal will appear. Nothing. In retrospect maybe i should have opened it and went inside . how dumb.
I thought about my body lying in bed. I was suprised to be still dreaming. But i woke up.

Jumped out of my freaking bed to write this shit down. Loads to learn. But this was exactly what i needed. It was actually my birthday yesterday so i suppose this was the best birthday gift i could ever have. Saw my granddad AND i went lucid. WINNING!

Dream #1

I am at a bar in what i thought was a hotel. I am sitting on a bar stool with my mother next to me. My sister was sitting behind the counter and a woman was standing with us who i perceived to be the hotel manager.

We talked for a while which i don't remember and then there was something stuck on my sister's arm which i also don't remember what it was. I let my fingers move across the object and it let go of her arm. I made a sexual joke about that i have magic fingers if u know what i ean . Then i thought, shit they aren't gonna think this is funny. I looked at my sister's face and she was starting to smile widely. My mother burst out laughing and all four of us started laughing out loud. I woke up.

Dream #2

I am in a backyard of some sorts with my neighbour who i never talk to. This backyard was covered and there where a few gates and fences . I was with my little dog and my neighbour had 2 large dogs in his part of the fence. Then he brought another dog with him. This dog was HUGE, like 4 meters tall and basically very big. I had to be careful not to let my dog near those dogs. Somehow my dog was able to open the gate tho so i blocked him from going in there. It was all very strange.

At some point there was a party going on and there where loads of people. I had a deep conversation with my neighbour wich i recalled when i woke up but i forgot to write it down (goddammit) i actually remembered the entire dream but i didn't write it down. Now i have forgotten it.
At some point my sister was there standing behind us. And she burst out laughing again. I wake up.

Dream #3

I'm in my living room with my little nefue. In the dream i thought i was talking to my friend but when i woke up i realized this was my nefue i was talking to.
We where watching tv or something and something came up about stoning a woman to steal her money or something. My nefue said, i do this sort of stuff.
I told him that's very selfish, it's completely unfair. It's just pure greed. You don't even need the money.

We talked about this for a while and he mentioned he was a crackjunkie and he needed the money . I told him that's no excuse, it's still greed to steal the money just so u can keep loading up. Once you start hurting people at one point it will be fatal. You will be fed with guilt for the rest of ur life. He broke down and he cried. We hugged and i closed my eyes.
In my closed eyes visuals i could see a hand made entirely of light reaching out to me.
I woke up again.

Dream #4

don't remember goddammit.

Long ass dream here with my best friend whose currently in jilla. (i think it's a signal dream)

I was at home with my friend O and we where just about to go outside. The sun was shining, i wanted to go right but my friend saw 2 guys on the left side and he wanted to go there.
I was reluctant but i agreed.

*dream skip, dont remember*

We are in a car with these 2 fellas and it turns out that they are two seasoned gangsters. They talked O into doing murders for them and we did. We went to some places and i think O killed some people.

*Dream skip*

Later we are walking down the street and they requested something hideous, O had to shoot a kid at a kid's party. We didn't want that. We ran.. We ran but realized if we just ran down the street they would catch up on us. I saw an alley somewhere and i said O get in here.
As soon as i was in the alley i realized one of them was going to come from one side and one from the back, they had us cornered.
There was a backgate of someone's house and it was not locked. I signallled for O to get inside, we did. We where standing in someone's back garden. I tried opening their backdoor and it was also open.

There where people in there and i was afraid to go in because they had a right for privacy.. (how dumb) We stayed outside and the gangsters saw us . They took us with them and we arrived in a park. There was one kid playing there near the river with a ball, a few minutes from now O was gonna shoot this kid. It was so sad.

O walked first and he started playing ball with the kid. Me and the gangsters got out of the car and we walked over there. There where suddenly loads of kids and was a busy kid party. I was standing near a wall thinking that O is gonna grab his gun any second now and kill this kid.

One of the gangsters came up and talked to me. He mentioned that they do kill people but they only do it at night. So O didn't have to kill this kid, he's only convinced he HAS to kill the kid. That's his problem he says.

Then a girl i knew stood next to me, Ashley. I said "Hey Ashley". She said "Hey Emiel"
Huh? Emiel, that's not my name. I looked over to my left and saw 2 babyfaced kids sitting there and i realized she was talking to them and one of them was Emiel.

**fuzzy memory, wake up**

My dream recall has been different lately. Usually i remember something when i wake up and that's gonna be my entire recall. Lately i've been waking up without recall only to get flashbacks of the dream back to me at random.

I dreamed about tidying my room i even brought up the vacuum cleaner wich i never do unless i'm expecting someone to come over. (i was cleaning my dream home because i was expecting company!!!!)

I remember a passionate scene where i was saying goodbye to someone. In the freedom of a dream there's like no boundaries. It was very nice to be able to really express love without the bad feelings of guilt and other things that hold us back. That someone i saw yesterday and i kinda knew it's probably the last time i'm ever going to see her in person. We never really got closure or anything so for the sake of being happy about the situation i'm going to assume this was a shared dream and she won't have any negative feelings left-over towards me. It's a perfect ending.

I just noticed i wrote down another dream sometime ago. Possibly lucid, i don't remember.

Just organizing some of my notes.

"DVD/ game"
"I was on a mission to get information"
"Doesn't look like my own dream"
"Tentacles man/female"
"Charlie sheen was in it... :S" don't even like the ego-tripping mothefucka
"kwas lan is led zo/~ze" <=== i don't know what the hell i wrote down, gotta figure this out.
"Someone or something might have tried to prove a point to me"

Yesterday i watched a documentary on the History (such a bullshit channel) channel about giants in folklore. 2day i dreamed about giants. I have a cold also and i kept waking up at night. Used these opportunities to try and WILD everytime i woke up. No luck. Good dreams tho, been weeks since i had these vivid dreams.

I dreamed i was at my family for a birthday or something. I was standing and watching a documentary being played on TV about some kind of bird deep inside a cave. I was pretty captivated by this docu for some reason.


It kinda looked like this but more ninja-birthlike less wizardlike

I am standing outside my elementary school. I'm taking sprints to get some speed then i jump up and fly for some moments. I do this for a while then when i got to the end of the street i saw that bird from the documentary and it was carrying a beautiful Rainbow disk/ring. I thought he was gonna give it to me but then the bird threw the rainbow into the air . Over the building across the road, the bird followed it. Then i took a sprint again and prepared for lift-off. Only this time i can not fly anymore. I keep trying and trying. I lose grip on the dream and wake up. (totally non-lucid, thought it was real life)

Last night i had a long vivid dream wich involved meeting some old friends at the local coffee shop.
Later i went to a garage for somebodies car or something. There was a girl there and she was very mad at that guy i met in the coffee shop about her car or something and she was gonna go there and make a fuss about it or something.

So while i was there i suddenly stepped into a car and began riding in the street . I kept driving in circles and i drove on the sidewalks to, i made super amazing movements where i either shrunk the car or drove on 2 wheels so i culd stay on the sidewalk and manouver the spaces normally reserved for 2 people to walk trough.


Last night i had an even weirder dream and once again thought it was all normal or atleast never had a clue about ever waking up in my bed before.

It was a fairly epic and long dream im guessing but i remember practicing to fly.
To my suprise i was actually doing pretty good and i flew around buildings and forests or something. However clumsy.

Then later i noticed a cute girl i know from school. She was riding on a bike and she was carrying a huge trailer behind her normally reserved for cars. It was loaded with baggage and covered with a green blanket.
We may or may not have talked a little bit but when she drove off i wanted to catch up with her again and i tried flying again. Only this time it didn't go so good and i kept falling and jumping. I tried visualizing wings for myself.
It was interesting i tried to visualize beautifull wings i thought it was pretty important. I didn't see myself or any wings i just imagined wings and i imagined trying to fly with them. I took off a little but and floated a little bit but this failed to.

Here ends my memory.

Before i fell asleep i tried WILDing as usual and focus on third eye meditation.
The problem is that after my body gets numb i get so hot, really i sweat like a pig. All the blankets start to feel annoying on my skin, my nose starts to itch my patience starts to lose it.
It feels awkward enough for me to just give up and roll in my bed till i fall asleep normally.

heres what i remember

My mom forced called the supermarket and forced me to get a job there, i went over to the supermarket and met my boss. 2 chiefs atually, but one of them was a lazy bum the other one was a pretty cool guy.
He showed me around the supermarket but forgot to tell me what to do so i left him and went around exploring the place by myself. There where loads of employees but i don't recall any interaction.
I didn't really feel like working there so i wanted to just leave but then i thought what the hell might aswell work for 2 hours and get some money out of it.
I never did tho i just chilled,i think.

My second dream was way more interesting

I was in a school-like environment but much different from my actual school since this one had nice greenfields around it, countless of entrances and exits.

Anyway i remember seeing a girl i used to go out with. We never really got together officially due to some issues but it was a fun ride nontheless. Oh and she's hot ! i mean smoking beautiful makes me growl like a hound.
So we where in a class together i think or outside.. or both at the same time and then she said she lost some weight. Just look at my tummy. And she moved her shirt up a bit.
It was all flat and shiny beautiful and she said go ahead to touch it.
So i did feel her up a little bit, then she bended over for some reason and while i was touching her stomach at first i suddenly found myself grabbing her gorgeous ass like a maniac. She was perfectly okay with it but i stopped when i realized what i was doing cus i respect her soul at least as much as i respect her body.
EDIT: I just remembered she actually stripped down naked ! She's so smokin'

Me and her and some others where lying in the grass, i was leaning over her face and i remembered she used to take a lot of naps and sleep a lot when i knew her. So i asked her what she dreams of. Then she said : I lost my dog..
wtf?

In probably still the same dream i met some guy and we got a long real well. At the end of the day/evening whatever it is, when he was about to go home i asked him where does he live cus i wanted to give him a ride home. He looked at me like i was crazy and he ran off into the forest.

I remember going inside the school and seeing the girl i was telling u about and a friend of her who currently goes to the same school i do and i thought they where talking about me when i heared her say, sometimes he can be really cool and funny but other times hes just plain annoying. So i gave her the middle finger and said fuck u ! She said, nonono we're not talking about you we're talking about Turuk. Some marrocain kid i haven't seen in like 5 years.

Oh yea i remember greeting some marrocain gangster boys right there and for some reason we hugged lol.

I have really awfull dream recall. This is one of the longest dreams i recalled in weeks even tho i forgot 80 % of it.
It's mostly fragments really..

I had a long vivid dream wich i don't recall. I wrote down in my notebook it was about a girl i kind of like and me and a boy where fighting over her. I only recall a tiger coming out of nowhere and startling me awake.
I took a piss went back to bed and attempted to WILD, no luck .

Like most of my dreams im in a school-like enviroment. I remember seeing stacked beds around me, me lying in one of them. so it might have been a school camp instead.

The next thing i recall is that its mid day and sunny again. I talked with a muslim girl i know from my real school .

Next up there are about 20 half naked girls lying on the floor and me and some guys (unclear who they where) where playing a game with them. We walk trough the girls and if you like a girl you put a piece of chocolate in their mouth and break it. If you don't like a girl you put a piece of chocolate in their butthole and break it. WTF?! whose idea was this

I remember dutch top model Doutzen Kroes was chilling in my bed aswell.