Something has changed
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, 03-18-2015 at 03:52 AM (947 Views)
Something has changed
All grief and anger at BobV's passing is gone.
I woke remembering three dreams. I don't remember the order in which I dreamed them but:
1) - I'm eating the rich red seeds out of half a ripe pomegranate with a silver spoon. As I enjoy I think to my self, "I didn't know I could just scoop out pomegranate seeds with a spoon as easy as this". When I woke-up I knew that it is not that easy in waking life.
2) - BobV is sitting close, in a chair talking to me and I thing a few others are sitting around chatting and listening too.
3) - at one point I'm alone, standing in a kitchen and I get "randy". I'm alone, so I squat dowm and begin gently thrusting my pelvis. I feel unashamed. No one sees me. I feel delightfully sexy and turned-on.
Like I said, now I'm awake, there is no grief or anger at BobV's passing. Infact it feels to me that he is solidly back in the waking world.
I look around at the things that remind me of him and instead of pain and anger there is warmth and connectedness. Because he is back in the waking world.
Pomegranate (???)
or is it that I am in the underworld with him (???)
Persephone and Hades (hahaha) Me and BobV
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Persephone: A Story from Greece: https://youtu.be/ZrmQYsMnl14
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