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Before I get started, I'd like to say that I've been reading a lot about being spiritual, meditating & being positive. And I've been practicing these things effectively for the most part but I think I hit my limit today. Therefore I'm reserving my God given right to exercise my free will to just be a bitch just for this small allotted time.... That being said, I'm tired of trying to log onto here & running into the "Facebook glitch". I hope this gets resolved soon DREAMVIEWS. Now onto my own shit...... I'm really so sick of being sick. I can't breathe so my sleeping is all over the place. My nose & head officially hate me. Then today I had to get up & deal w/ the A/C guys yet a fucking gain! They left but will be back soon. Now they think it's the line that wasn't replaced when both of the new units were put in. Apparently it runs under my house. And to top it off, Meesha Cat was bugging me and it scared me awake & I batted at her out of reflex so she peed on me & my bed! Yep, my day sucks really really really bad! I just want to go lay down & cry but I can't because I have to supervise my A/C drama. Oh, I think I forgot to mention that the new pipe including labor will cost me an additional almost $500! We are officially tapped to the max w/ our credit that we were forced to take out for the initial A/C unit itself. Say hello to that 4 yr payment plan the size of a car payment & add I don't even know how much more each month. Checking in w/ a few of you on here and then I hope my night ends w/ cool air, real sleep & any dream of any kind! Piece out Bitches!

Still Sick

Burning up w/ a fever. Didn't get very much quality sleep. I had some non-lucids but my head is pounding & my husband & I are both playing sitting time on the toilet roulette, lol. Our noses are both running & stopped up during crazy intervals. My a/c decided to act up again today which was very inconvenient. I didn't write anything down because my head is so foggy which is sad due to the dreams I had were actually worth writing down. So this is all I can do today is to write this. I had to postpone a trip to see my mother-n-law today due to all of this. I'll check other ppls stuff tomorrow. Today I need to get back to bed. Shopping day is tomorrow so I need to rest up.

This is from the book "Adventures of the Soul" Journeys Through the Physical & Spiritual Dimensions, by James Van Praagh:

(These meditations are best used by recording yourself reading the following meditations into a recorder, such as the one that already exists on your iPhone. You insert your own personal information & then you play it back for yourself. Remember to leave yourself some pauses where they apply so you can reflect on each section. Feel free to change things up to reflect your own beliefs & goals etc.)

Your Souls Sanctuary

Imagine yourself sitting in an ornate gold chair that has a red velvet cushion. You are alone in a room complete & utter beauty, & soft sunlight is shining in the windows. A fire is burning in the fireplace, & it warms the room. The walls are made of stone that seems to shimmer, & when you look up, you can barely see the ceiling. There are several large oil paintings in the room, & you recognize them as significant locations from your life.

Walk around the room & take a long look at each painting. How does each location make you feel? Try & remember a cheerful time at each place. Lining the walls of this room are shelves, & they all contain framed photographs of you. Look closely at each photograph & acknowledge what age you are & who is in the photo with your. Each photograph makes you happy.

The shelves also contain mementos of your life that you have cherished. Pick each one up & remember how important it was in your life. A flood of memories comes to you as you hold each each object. One shelf holds several leather-bound books. Take a look at each title slowly. The titles are the different lessons that your soul has chosen to learn. Reflect on how you are performing each lesson.

Choose one of the books & carry it with you back to your golden chair. Open the book &, one page at a time, look at the photos inside. How old are you in the photo & who are you with? Are the photos telling you a story? What are you learning from the story? There is no judgment in this; you are merely looking & assessing.

When you feel that you understand what the book is telling you, gently close it & hold it to your chest. Look around the room & take it all in. Feel the love that the room is giving to you. The room loves to have you here. There is no hurry; you may stay in this room as long as you'd like. This your home.

When you feel that it is time to go, take a few deep breaths. In your mind's eye, envision your meditation space back in the human world & see yourself sitting in that space. Take the love you feel in the sanctuary & fill your meditation space with it. Slowly become aware of your consciousness in the meditation space. Take a few deep breaths & slowly open your eyes.

I really enjoyed this. I hope you will too. Please leave comments about your experiences with this exercise. I'd recommend reading the book too, which is real enlightening.

D1: Apparently I had just graduated. Was still at the graduation but the graduation was over. I was looking for my friends. Some of them were friends I had when I was a kid. I spent quite a long time looking around the campus & in the school. This was a long dream.

D2: Last day of school for some little kids. The kids didn't want to leave. I was talking to a bunch of them playing w/ their toys such as dolls. I am walking through the cubbies & little desks. We were cleaning up, too. There was a last day of school party going on all over the school so the school was in a disarray but in a fun way. Kids were just running everywhere, lol.

That last dream reminded me of being in Junior High. I only had 13 kids in my grade. The biggest class of all of the grades even through high school, lol. We had some fun times on the last day of school back then.



D3: Ended up in a house still looking for children some how but I was in a dilapidated home.

I think it was a house I knew as a kid. My sister had a classmate that lived in this house across from the school. I was just talking about it the other day.



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D1: I was in prison. I was the Top Dog. I had to figure expenses & inventory for the women. It was a lot like how I do my grocery list. I had to keep starting over because the numbers don't want to add up. Hello dream world, you can't add here! But things were happening so fast. I got interrupted & was told I had to finish in "the yard". Liz from Australia's Wentworth was with me now. She was the one who came & got me & told me we had to go to the yard to finish. I realized I hadn't brought my cigs with me but somehow Mike had bought them for me. Not sure why I was in prison. I start to realize I'm in a dream due to the numbers not adding up but the dream changed on me. I was in the yard but no fence in front of me & it looks the street I used to live on w/ my first husband but the apartment, which was actually 3 apt's in 1 house wasn't there or else it didn't register as there. It looks different now that it was remodeled. Then I woke up.

Wentworth is a lot like "The Orange is the New Black" but in Australia. It's on Netflix. It gives Orange a run for it's money. I think Wentworth is better now! After this dream I couldn't get back to sleep because my house was cold! How ironic is that? They didn't fix my air completely but because we had the window unit going & the temps outside dropped I actually got cold & couldn't sleep. So I got up & ate & stuff. Watched a movie & took a nap. Hence the next dreams.


D2: I was in a school but trying to pass as a kid. (Reoccurring dreamscape) Where I run into my 2 kids which I apparently have only in the dream. I ran into them at separate times. I have super powers! I'll be damned a non-lucid dream w/ super powers! Thanks Nebulus! I can run fast & jump high. It was a rush. Who needs lucidity when I'm doing all this shit. I just went with it! I can also make myself look real young. That came in handy. Too bad I couldn't get that super power in real life. I also had other powers I could tell. That's when things became more lucid & I started to have a little fun in the dream just for myself. I was popular too which was kind of cool. Basically half my dream was lucid. But I got awakened but not sure why. Probably just to pee because I felt like that was it. Usually something else wakes me up or my wbtb alarm. Usually Meesha Cat, but she was all calm today cuz I played w/ her earlier.[

D3: It started out as a chain of sorts because I only got up to pee. But now I ran into this boy but I was watching his life unfold. I was just an observer. He had super powers as I did before. He was dealing w/ bullies which was comical because of how he was handling them. He kept teleporting & me w/ him. His grandfather called him on the phone & I could see his grandfather too somehow. His grandfather told him he needed to trust the things he was telling him but I couldn't here everything. He said he would explain later & the old man had a wry smirk on his face w/ a wink, lol. During all of this the kid was displaying different super powers. Then I woke up.

After the big Spellbee challenge I haven't tried to do any totm. I'll do September though. I just needed some time off.

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I was on an Easter Field Trip. Never heard of that before but okay. We were taking kids using vans to a destination that wasn't ever revealed in the dream. First we stop at a gas station to for a bathroom break & then load the kids back up again. Then we went into an old grocery store. Looked like an old Safeway we had here a long time ago. The adults there I was now interacting w/ that had brought the other kids were ppl I hadn't seen in yrs. The kids were all going to find eggs & things to color them w/ etc. But I noticed that the cartons were odd. They had higher prices on some & I was trying to teach the kids the value of a dollar so to speak as we went along. They had didn't have the traditional dozen eggs, 18 count or 2 1/2 dozen flats we have here. They were like 4 count or random other amounts. Some were already colored too which would defeat the purpose of coloring later. It was a learning experience.

Not really sure why I had an Easter dream this time of year. Maybe because I was doing a lot of cleaning this weekend & found bunny fur behind a couch where Meesha Cat had been bringing her catches in & chasing them to that spot a couple of months ago. I had a rough night of pain due to doing so much physical labor in one day. I was doing extra decluttering of space in my house for meditation reasons & lucid dream reasons. They say clutter can block you &/or attract bad energies. It also creates low frequencies by hindering you to achieve higher frequencies for meditation & such.


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There was caos in the streets. Women running everywhere. Mike & Meesha & I had to leave an apartment we were apparently living in. This strange dream continued in a second dream that I chained after my wbtb but lucidity still escaped me.

Meesha cat woke me up over & over. It seemed like every hour she was waking me up & it was really confusing my dreamscapes.


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I was trying to free some innocent people who were being held against their will by the government unjustly. We weren't in a building, we were outside & sneaking around to try & get them out. Some of the people who were w/ me thought it was too risky. It seems they were being outside in the country somewhere near where we were working. Still not sure what was the work we were doing. We were just there & it was in the camp where the prisoners were being held. I never actually got them out.

Meesha Cat strikes again. It's hard to hold on to dreams when she wakes me up cuz she likes to meow & waller my head & face, lol. I didn't do any wbtb's because I didn't have sleep yesterday I took my meds & got some rest. I was really exhausted.

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I couldn't fall asleep at all last night. My grandson started kindergarten today & had to daughters kids & her boyfriends kids off to school & film it cuz she had to go to work & missed it. I get excited or anxious & can't sleep when I know I'm going somewhere or someone like family is coming to me. I just can't sleep. Tonight might bring good dreams though because I will get quality sleep! I'm still hopeful.

Non-lucid: I was in a college w/ Melissa McCarthy. We were in an around the world culinary contest. In which one guy tried to cheat & we were very disappointed w/ him. I woke up before it was over due to my wbtb alarm.

I tried to go back to sleep but my phone was blowing up. The A/C guys were back to try & fix the new leak in our new A/C. It's evening now & it's acting stupid again already! I'm really getting tired of dealing w/ this shit. It's brand fucking new! Sigh.


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1 pt for 2 non-lucids
2 pts for wbtb
= 3 pts

I know we get 1 point for every 3 comments but I still don't understand how the points for our comments work. Or to be more exact who tallies that. So I'd hope someone would explain this. I was told that they would be tallied at the end of the contest so I'm guessing that means after 8pm tonight.

D1: Non-lucid One was about Meesha peeing in Josh's room on the floor because she was mad that he went back to school.
WBTB
D2: Non-lucid I was involved in a threesome with DC's that I didn't know.

I did 5 wbtb's but I had a really high pain level going one which made my dreams so abstract that recall was impossible. I tried to stay awake & do recalls but it was just a mess. I guess I shouldn't have made the road trip yesterday with Mike to take our son back to college. I knew I had hurt it Thursday for the millionth time but I know he hates to make the long drive alone. So no swimming today either. The dream w/ Meesha Cat peeing seemed so real that I actually went & checked if it had really happened. I'm not logging the other wbtb because I can't put the dreams w/ them so in my opinion they shouldn't count in a contest.


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2 pts- wbtb
10 pts- first dild
1 pt- reality check
2 pts- chain
5 pts- subsequent wild
2 pts- interaction w/ dc
5 pts- eat something (drank water)
5 pts- practice waking life hobby (fishing)
5 pts- ask for advice
= 32 points

Three Step Goals:
1.Advanced Flying
2.Element Manipulation
3.Mass Telekinesis

New Dream goal: Go to the Moon
Old Dream goal: Go back to Venice



D1: Had a non-lucid but I couldn't remember it so I didn't count it.

D2: Lucid- Mike & I were fishing at the lake near where I grew up. I spent a lot of time there with my family growing up & new it was a dream but I hung out & fished for a while. As I became aware & lucid I saw the lane that was my grandpa's long driveway. I had set the alarm for my wbtb so I woke up briefly to turn it off & chained into the next dream easily.

D3: Lucid- I was still with Mike at the lake fishing but the lane was gone because I knew it didn't
belong there I guess. The scenery was really pretty. (Reality check.) All majestic looking with the dam
stoicly errect making it look like some sort of postcard picture. I started looking
for people to interact with. We came across what looked like a concession stand & we
got water. We then sat up on these bar stools while we drank our water, where we met a
man & his wife who worked there. They were talking politics. It was a pretty funny conversation.
They told me that there was a new law that all women had to be on birth control for
population control. I was looking at Mike & laughing. I then proceeded to explain the
insanity of this idea because I had a hysterectomy & don't have a uterus to even carry
a baby. These people weren't getting it, lol. I finally tried to compare it to being
a man. I said it's like the likelyhood of a man having a baby. It's just impossible.
They said that wouldn't be a good enough excuse & I laughed & asked them what they
suggested I do.


Then Mike's alarm went off & we had to rush out the door. Today was back to school road
trip day... I'm actually surprised by this. I usually don't sleep well the night before any kind of trip but I was so exhausted. I almost didn't care enough to even try for pts, but I set my alarm anyway. I guess it was a good thing I did.

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1/2 pt for a non-lucid


Three Step Goals:
1.Advanced Flying
2.Element Manipulation
3.Mass Telekinesis

New Dream goal: Go to the Moon
Old Dream goal: Go back to Venice


Only 1 non-lucid dream due to not getting much sleep at all. I was in an old school. It seemed like there were only women there. We were hiding. It was like the city was under martial law. I was in a bathroom & I noticed a woman bring in a box of supplies. They were different kinds of bottles which all looked new & untouched. Not like they were smuggled in or something like everything else was. They seemed out of place in this situation. When the woman was out of sight I grabbed a big bottle of shampoo. It was a trap. Someone had told this woman to bring this box in. As I reached for the bottle & picked it up there was a commotion outside & men stormed our building. Some how it triggered a sensor of sorts that gave away our position in the building. They were dragging us outside. Then Meesha woke me up.

I'm not surprised that there were all women inside & there were men storming the building. My problem child daughter had just told me yesterday that she was a couple of blocks from me staying in our local safe house/rehab. She claims her new boyfriend, the one she is currently pregnant by pushed her in her stomach in a rage of some kind. Her words, not mine. But she's a handful so I don't know what to believe. But that explains the dream.

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1/2 pt non-lucid

Three Step Goals:
1.Advanced Flying
2.Element Manipulation
3.Mass Telekinesis

New Dream goal: Go to the Moon
Old Dream goal: Go back to Venice

Non-lucid: I was with my twin daughters (I really have twins, they are grown & have their own kids). My one daughter Ashley was in a fountain playing with some kids. Her best friend is named Kendruh & she was jumping back in & out of the dream & I demanded that she tell me what the year was each time. It was some sort of time travel thing. It was really strange. Ashley gave birth to June bugs, yep that was really weird. Something was wrong with one of them. ( She's pregnant in real life so maybe that's where that came in). My other daughter was in & out of the dream but wasn't really saying much.

I had a really bad day. Had to get up early to watch my grand kids at 6:15 & then had to go get my oldest son to come watch them at my house so I could take my other son to the ER. He seems to have carpal tunnel. But his symptoms were basically from fatigue. Gaming & not sleeping or eating. It was a big mess. Then I get a cryptic phone call from someone. They said they were my son in law, who's in prison but it wasn't him. He's in the hole right now & so is the idiot who helped put him in prison. The said idiot gave out my number apparently & someone was trying to get to him through me. You just can't make this shit up. On top of that I moved wrong today & I think I fucked up my titanium bracket in my spine because I'm in a crazy amount of pain. I wish this day would fucking end already!

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