Turquoise Dreams

4.4.14 Friday

Last night, bed 10:30 - 7:10

Miserable last 2 days IWL. It showed in my dreams on those days. Proly worst dreams ever.

1. My dad is trying to rape me. He gives me a big wet kiss and he holds it forever. I finally break free. My mom is asking what's the matter. I'm so mad, I can't even talk. I finaly whisper it to her.

2. I'm back at home. My mom has a stroke. I wanna call 911, but I know their emergency numbers a fucked up over there and i never know which one to call. Mom hands me a piece of paper with a phone number. She wants me to call an old coleague, who still works at the hospital. I call and get through and I'm telling this man to send an ambulance, mom had a stroke.

3. I'm visiting at home. I came for only a few days, which I only now realized. My best friend is visiting. We spend whole days together. But there is a drama at home. No clue what about. But it made me forget that I have to go back. I'm looking at the plane ticket and I think the flight was today. Turns out it's tomorrow, but I'm not sure, because can't find out what the date is. I feel like shit because I don't want to leave my friend again.


Last night:

DR
I'm on a bus flying very high up in the air. We watch some birds flying around. One looks like like a large black crow. The other one is very similar. Bit larger, skinier, and feathers in wings have wider gaps. I think it's maybe a Thunderbird.

Somehow I have him on a leash, or he gets snagged on some rope and I end up with the other end in my hand. I pulling him gently closer to the open doors of the bus, so we all can get a better look. I don't feel right about doing it.

As he gets closer to the door, he pulls stronger. He gets close the white curtain that's in the door. I want to let him go and I hope he will not get tangled in the curtain. As I let go, the curtain wraps around and the bird is falling. I can hear his screach all the way down. I hope he will not hit the ground.

Little while later, I see something in white wedding dress, that looks like the curtain. It's the bird getting merried. They wave to us and we wave back.

DR
I'm in a camp. Lots of kids. I'm one of the adult councelors. We are deciding what to do for the evening. I suggest hod dogs, beer and a movie. The like the idea.