Turquoise Dreams

Thursday 9/5/13

Last night bed 1:30am - 8:30am

I believe this dream was influenced by episode of jeff lewis interior therapy I watched on sunday, about a gay couple that was together for 5 years and one girl really wanted to get married? And by my IRC convo with OB last night.

DR 8:30am

There are two girls and they are good friends. One of them asks me to marry her. I like her, but I kinda love her friend. So I figure, I could do that and be closer to the one I love, while still kinda loving the one who proposed to me as well.

All kinds of emotions go through me. I wonder if my parents will be still alive when I tell them, or should I tell them now, knowing that they will be happy to hear that I got married. I'm not worried about them not accepting my gay marriage. I know it's my life, and although I never in million years thought this would happen to me, and I'm surprised that it did, I'm ok with it.

Now I hear, that next step is for me to get a "equipment removal" surgery. I'm thinking, well, I'm not really using it anyway, It just hangs there, I don't really see a good reason to remove it. But I go to see a nurse and she writes doctor's schedule on a blackboard. Next few days he is teaching, and in his office, and then he is on duty in the hospital. I'm surprised she told me maybe only one week's worth of schedule, because it seems too fast to me to decide and have the surgery.

Next all 3 of us are in the bathroom. One is doing her nails, another one is asking me to hand her something, and I'm like "whoa, this girly stuff is so not me". It's so new to me. I can't say I'm enjoying it, but I'm excited to see where it takes me. And perhaps I'm willing to make some changes to accomodate my new life.

In the recent past, I have had maybe 5 dreams about getting married. They were all "wth, how did I agree to this bs"? This was the first one, when I was ok, or even happy about it. But still, enough of these marriage dreams. I get the point. Now give me some weapon, ammo, and let me lead insurgents, or be chased by police.