Keitorin's Dream Log

* June 11: Couldn't post this yesterday because I was gone all day!

This morning was great! I woke up a lot (even though I kind told myself not to, because I knew I needed to get up early). It was frustrating a few times because I'm always a bit hot and generally uncomfortable when I woke up - but I always got back to sleep, so.

Before sleep I meditated with my CD and I love how it puts me right to sleep. XP Also, each time I woke up after, I used my autosuggestion mantra to stop my mind from running rampant. It seemed to help. ♥

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.06.2010

Personifications (Non-lucid)

Personifications (anthropomorphic) of countries are real but unseen. Against the advice of others, I 'chose' some as, like, patrons or something.

In the end I was checking out America, boisterous as in Axis Powers Hetalia.

- Something about them being nameless.

- "I avoided them before, but now I'm choosing a lot/many." - me aloud

Dream evolves: It was more than that. They actually became a part of you, like in your mind. Some had names I think, and it wasn't countries anymore.

Note: Inspired by Axis Powers Hetalia.

The Art of Wart Removal (Non-lucid)

We are looking for something. We step in a room (which I believe is the room from my old house, but with nothing in it) and my mom's South Western blanket (black, orange, some red) is spread to cover the whole floor. A woman sits at the back on top of it.

We sit down on the floor at the other end. One man on my right and two people on my left I believe.

She starts talking about warts and how to remove them. She says that one reason you can get them is because of something to do with your period. I don't recall what else she said. However, I do recall some Japanese words, but they were in my head I think... And I tried to look up one (in katakana I believe) in my JWPce (Japanese word processor) but it wasn't in there.

The whole reason I think she was talking about warts is because beforehand, mom gave me a tiny tube of wart remover (blue lid, white tube, had some other small text on it). There were no instructions on it. I couldn't remember how to use it (so I went to look for mom to help maybe?).

Note: This is so weird, seriously. Warts? I haven't had one in years! Haven't even thought of the word itself. Ah subconscious...

Net Flooring (Non-lucid)

I was walking on the floor in one of my really old bedrooms (Renee Lane). It had some kind of clearish net over it. I toed one of the holes, it was wider than the rest like someone had stretched it. I didn't see anything in the room.

Apparently I had once had this really cool bed made of rope and net and such, but while it was nifty, it was dysfunctional for sleeping on so it was taken down.

APH Fancomic (Non-lucid)

I was watching an Axis Powers Hetalia fancomic sequence go by (in my head, yet not). It seemed to be humorous. There was England, Japan (UKJp?) and other characters.

Only thing is, I think I was awake. I opened my eyes. So I might have been in a scene. I get those fairly often, but this was just so BAM right there and I didn't realize I was awake. Hm! It was really cool though.

Taking Advantage of a Kidnapping (Non-lucid)

A bad guy told 'me' to call my parents and read out a code. He was surprisingly young (,not much taller than me) and had blond, short, curly-ish hair.

Only the code was messed up - it was like part of it had been erased, or written over. I showed it to him. He wasn't happy.

I can't tell if it was 'my' mother or father, so I'm going with father. So when I talked to my father, he sounded so dull, like he wasn't feeling anything. I didn't notice until this conversation:

Me: "He's stronger than me. I may not make it. I just want you to know that I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you."
Father: "Okay."
Me: Says something... "I have to go." maybe?

When he just said 'okay' so dully, I briefly worried if he cared what was happening.

This is kind of a gap, but I think I either beat up the guy or he just disappeared and I assumed that I beat him up. Some guys came and took him away.

I was in this area (of the house?) and I had these little square gray-ish pellets. I threw them into these little houses and they exploded. I remember throwing one in and shielding my face. It was cool.

But then I thought of something, and felt around in one of the houses as if there was supposed to be something in them. But it was empty. Just cool to the touch black flooring.

I threw a pellet into this little oil lamp and it set on fire. Cool, again.

Gap?

But then I realized that...there's food in the kitchen! I rushed over. I wondered where the trash bags were, thinking they might be under the sink which is where we keep them in RL. But then I spotted one on the counter. The area was just like my grandma's in RL.

I grabbed the bag and started putting stuff in it. There were a lot of chips (I remember cheese puffs in a freezer bag, barbecue flavor, and one other type of barbecue flavor or something I'd never seen before) in plastic bags.

In one of the bags was a green bottle of some alcoholic beverage with some other little things. I decided to take it with me. I wondered how mom would feel about me drinking it.

Then I knew I needed to put the fire out because it would take too long for me to get everything packed and out of the house.

The fire was actually in the wall, and blazing around one area...and it went down in a strip down a nice cupboard. It was really cool looking, very similar to real fire except for the way it spread. Too slow and contained.

I grabbed a pot (with dried candle tart in the bottom?), filled it with some water and splashed it on the wall. It didn't quite put it out, so I did it again.

Gap.

RL Mom (and dad?) came. She asked why I was taking food, because we had some at home - but she always says that even when we're super low. I said, "But not junkfood." She couldn't say anything to that. XD

She started going through the stuff and helping me. I felt a bit jealous that she was getting to see things - I didn't want to miss out on all the good stuff. I was pretty excited!

Mom said that she hoped she wouldn't be the one having to carry all the stuff out. I said of course not, that I would be.

I found some cereal - lucky charms and a bag of some other kind. I said that it was what I had been planning to get the next time we went to the store. (It wasn't really, I was just excited and they looked good.)

Gap-ish...

I saw that there was stuff on top of the refrigerator. Candles, picture frames, a few other doodads and later, flowers in pots. Everything is so nice looking and I got excited again. I started taking off the things that I wanted.

I got excited...again! when I found a Lucid Dreaming candle. It even had instructions on how to use it on the side. It was white and blue.

When I went to show mom, she pointed out that I had brought the 'Good Fortune' candle instead. There was another one on the fridge as well that had a beautiful mythical woman on it. It was a lovely rose madder color, and written on it was a line about how once burned, the effects would last for a while.

Then I saw the flowers. At first there was just some boring green ones, but I did see this little cactus plant that I liked. I was worried about taking it though, because it could spill if I put it in a bag, or I'd have to hold it in the car.

I got up on...my full laundry basket from RL? and started pulling all the pots of plants to the front. That's when I saw the colored plants. I called mom in to see them. There was a really pretty red one. I'd say it was a rose, but it was too big/wide.

~Gap~ I discovered the movies!

There was Spider-man 1, 2, 3 and...4. Mom asked me if it was okay if she took the last two. I didn't care.

I saw Supernatural and practically jumped on them. There were a few on VHS, the rest were seasons. I was excited to have nabbed them before my sister, who was suddenly there looking through the movies too.

She discovered Merlin and I was even more excited. She handed me a stack of them - they were the slim cases that are usually in a box, like with Joss Whedon's Firefly.

- At some point I worried about taking stuff, because I thought maybe there were people that came by to take care of it all. I wasn't worried about the morality of it, just that I'd be hindering their job or something.

Note: My sister loves movies, so I'm not surprised she appeared at that time. And about the food thing - it totally makes sense for my family. Luckily we got our food stamps today and went to the store.

I think...this is the longest dream I have had yet. o_o

Lost One (Non-lucid)

I got lost. It was like I was young again. I got on grandma's back porch and peered in the window. She was in the kitchen. I couldn't get myself to knock.

I thought about sleeping on the swing. It was a bit cool out but it felt good. Before getting off the porch, I took out my red permanent marker and wrote a 'thank you' type message on a board.

As I went down the steps, there was a German Sheppard Dog, normal in the dream. I patted it.

Gap~

I made it back home somehow, and mom said that it was good because it was cold out. I told her about where I went and about my message.

Note: Grandma got a new dog, but it's not a GSD. I just want one and was talking about it recently. This is a deja vu dream - as I wrote it down I felt like I had totally had this dream before. While I know if I've had 'at grandma's house' dreams, I was never young or saw a dog...but then again, I think I was lost once... Hmm.

Cappuccino (Non-lucid)

Mom came in saying she'd get me some coffee/cappuccino. Seems we were going somewhere, or she wanted me to go somewhere with her.

I thought about bringing up my Starbucks' card, but she mentioned somewhere specific so I decided not to say anything.

Note: One of those dreams that's so real life that it's surprising when you realize it was just a dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

09.06.2010

Sans Recorder (Note)

At about 9:30 this morning I think I tried to record myself. I don't even know if I was really awake. A few days ago I was recording my days in my iPod in an effort to improve my memory.

The only part I remember is the end. "It's...*looks over at clock* 9:30?!. I'm going back to sleep." And I proceeded to collapse back into bed. XD;

I really want to know what I said before that...

Recordings 2 (Non-lucid)

Group recordings of something.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

08.06.2010

H2 dream (Non-lucid)

Spoiler for NSFW:

Masturbation in the shower. I was taking one because me and mom were going to go somewhere.

ゲーム (Non-lucid)

MMORPG-like game.

Therapist With Lost Memories (Non-lucid)

I'm not sure if I have the events in order, but.

I worked as some type of therapist. I went into work and saw my sister sleeping on a cot with a girl of about 4-6 years-old in her arms. Really cute - I think she had short, slightly wavy blonde hair.

I went into (assuming) my office. There were things on the floor. Christmas-y things, sheet music, comic poster(s).

I had lost my memories (?) and was looking through some papers, some crinkled. There were some envelopes?

I took the papers and sat beside the cot. Apparently I was loud ruffling through them, because I looked over and saw that my sister and the girl had moved over to the cot behind it (they were in the same position as before).

Shark Attack Game (Non-lucid)

I (?) was inside of a game and going through his maze of dity walls and water. There were many sharks in the water that kept attacking me. I ran around trying to grab as many potions as items as I could as I ran towards my goal. I don't think I was running through the water as much as running on it...

Someone told me beforehand something about sharks.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.07.2010

SpSi (Non-lucid)

Spamano (from Axis Powers Hetalia) stuff that I unfortunately can't remember

Fighters (Non-lucid)

Like an anime or game...there was a team of fighters. Two were siblings (not sure about genders). One was 'light' and the other 'dark', each dressed in outfits kinda like Celty's from Durarara!! [full pic]. White and black in color of course. There were about six of them in this room...and I get the feeling there was other people, but.

At one point the two leaned on the front of a vehicle. Someone else (me?) was observing them off to the side, thinking that it was sad that it was hard for them to be together - 'dark' couldn't stay out in the light for too long because his powers/being came from the dark. But 'he' still went out to hang with 'light'. I'm pretty sure the vehicle was out in the dessert, too. o_o

Horror 2 (Non-lucid)

Horror. A woman was hanging from something I believe. Her hair was all clumpy and bloody. She cut her hair off until only a little was left on her head. She pretended to be dead as a guy came in/back. He caught her.

Note: Second horror dream... I think it's reflecting my stressful thoughts in real life. :/

I've pretty much no excuse for not doing anything beyond the basics in dreaming for the last few months. I still write down my dreams when I wake up, and I rarely have days where I remember nothing. Every night I still use autosuggestion as well.

But, I don't: write out the dream fully - I use keywords or fragments, I don't type them up in my computer/online DJ, I don't strive to remember more than I do, I don't go to bed earlier (my schedule is atrocious), I haven't even thought about lucid dreams lately. My last one was...July 6th 2009... Wow.

I'm the obsessive type person - when I get into something, it's all that holds my attention the vast majority of the time. It doesn't help when my friend gets into the same thing and so we're both obsessive together! Lately I've managed to pry myself away and get into a few other things again.

I got Meditation for Dummies from the library to see if I could pick up anything new, and...I have to say, besides picking apart my life (ow), it reminds me a lot of lucid dreaming in the area of awareness. It talks a lot about that at times.

Quote:

"You can increase your powers of awareness by developing concentration.

Then, when you've stabilized your concentration, you can, through the practice of receptive awareness, expand your awareness - like ambient light - to illuminate the full range of your experience.

Next, you can concentrate even further in order to [/B]cultivate[/B] positive emotions and mind-states. Or you can use awareness to investigate your inner experience and contemplate the nature of existence itself."

And it goes on to talk about each type of awareness. I'd love to quote more, buuut I shall refrain.

I'm also reading Our Dreaming Mind, which is pretty good so far! Apparently the last chapter is on Lucid Dreaming.

Lastly, I noticed that all my images are messed up in this DJ now... Besides that, I like the new layout.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.06.2010

Coin Stack (Non-lucid)

Me and R are robbers. I think it's in Walmart that we make the clerk give us these coins. They're not quite gold, more like silver. She says she only has 75 and I say that's fine. Each coin amounts to $1.

I think we were in a house at one point?

Keywords: Contingency plans, rent

Recording (Non-lucid)

I was looking through a video camera type thing at a recording of a guy. I pulled the device away to see a guy messing around beside me. I'm pretty sure this took place outside.

Horror (Non-lucid)

Horror movie type murder - suspense, woman character, it was dark

Hide and Seek (Non-lucid)

I woke up a LOT and had flashes of dreams when I did sleep, so I woke up after the previous dream, went back to sleep and fell into the same one, only it turned into hide and seek and not so much horror.

Keyword: A button

Igirisu! (Note)

RL: Riley woke me up (or I was already awake) and was meowing. I sat up and called out 'England' instead of 'Riley'. She proceeded to respond to the wrong name by jumping up on the bed.

Notes: 'England' comes from Axis Powers Hetalia as the anthropomorphic country and personification Arthur Kirkland. So I may have been dreaming of that, but not the actual United Kingdom in RL. =P