non-lucid

Hi everyone, I've decided to take up Sageous' WILD-class and actually follow the shedule he proposed, however instead of 1 week for each session I'll do 5 days instead.

1. Too late

I'm in my livingroom looking outside and notice it's the yearly marathon outside, I see people standing ready with water to aid the participants and walk outside. I look around for a while but everything seems deserted, the people are gone. The ground seems wet from cups that have fallen out of people's hands filled with water. I stop at the end of the street where I see a large container filled with bottles of water, different brands and sizes. I take one out and examine it, it has a green label and I don't like it cause I know it's not the brand I always drink for water. (Which is 'Spa' and has a blue label) Suddenly I'm in marathon gear and I feel ready to join the event but as I look at the finish line I realise the marathon is over and I'm too late. (I don't know why marathons seem to appear in my dreams that often, I've never done one IRL.) I walk back and then I'm with my family and we enter a new house we bought, from the outside it looked nice but actually it was only the second floor, an appartement. I open the door and the interior is nice classic, English cottage style. However my enthousiasm is rapidly ended by the fact the whole appartement is one room and there are no doors! It feels more like an hotel now.

2. VERY UNFRIENDLY PEOPLE...

I'm with my family walking up some stairs next to a large building, we enter the second floor which is an indoor swimming pool. (Indoor swimming pools seem to return too.) I walk to the back to go up a ladder which leads to a waterslide but there I look up and a woman is screaming and shouting from the top of the ladder down at me, then she violently shuts the hatch at the top. I walk back to pool only to find out the supervisor is shouting at my mother because she's walking on the water. (JEZUS?!) At last we decide to leave this stupid place and head for the car. Before we get there I see a white cat run across the street and tell this to the rest. My sister runs after it to see if it's okay but before she can pull it from under a parked car a fat man with a beard pushes her over. I run after him and tackle him back but then he explains how he did it to protect my sister.(?)

3. Private computers rock!

I'm in a room that has a lot of computers in it, there are multiple computers on a table facing away from each other. It's a public room where people can use computers, I don't know what I was searching but I got up and walked around for a bit. Then when I wanted to get back in my seat I hear a girl asking one of the staff to help her getting on a site because it didn't accept her username anymore. Her username had the name 'Taylor Swift' in it with some symbols after it.

4. Hostage

I'm in the kitchen of my own house, however it feels like I'm a soldier being held hostage in a terrorist camp. I know that they will kill me so I think of a plan to get out. A priest walks in with some bags, he tells me it will help me stay alive. I sarcasticly respond "Oh, so you want me to pick torture over execution or what?", for some reason I thought he had devices with him to torture me. I grab a bicycle pump out of a bag and walk to the livingroom, I stop at one of the windows and try to blow it out using the pump but nothing happens yet I still think it will get me out of here somehow.

Setting my alarm to wake me up after 6 hours really seems to help me with DR, as it wakes me up right in an REM-cycle. I won't write it in any of the dreams but upon wakening up the second time I think I hallucinated the sound of a glass object falling and breaking. After writing in my tag-book the second time I walked around the whole house looking for the shards but I didn't find anything.

1. The sky is the limit

I'm flying an old WW1-era plane high up in the sky, the weather is nice and very blue. I'm chasing another plane, I difficulties controlling the plane and I keep missing it with my shots. After some time the other plane starts shooting me, I do a lot of dodging and the next time I shoot back I think I hit him, however it didn't critically damage him. Suddenly I stall and start crashing down, I'm not panicking cause it feels like I'm in some game, moments later I jump out the air plane and land on a tiny sky Island with some cows on, then I jump to another sky Island which is litterally a few square meters large and has holes in it but there's also some sheep standing on it. Then I'm suddenly in my own bedroom, it is night but I can still see quiet well. I'm preparing bombs for my airplane and have one in my hand, they are no larger than a pen. I am worried however that if one of them explodes I would lose my hand so I'm very cautious with them. I put some sort of activation device into the back of one and accidently the top (which has the explosif stuff in it) falls of, I can catch it and put it back on.

2. Highspeed waterslide

I'm on a very fast waterslide with many other people, we sit in little boats that each fit 2 people. I look back and see a man with food in his hand, the speed and acceleration of the slide makes the food fly back into the face of the man who wears sunglasses. Note that this is all indoor, after some time we land in the pool, barely. We nearly overshot the pool and landed on the floor, I see other people flying out of the slide and one of hits the floor with his leg but falls in the water with the rest of his body. In the pool I talk to some woman that seems to be a brony, immidiatily I exit the pool and walk away.

3. What have I done!?

I'm walking around in a supermarket and I know the rest of my family is somewhere looking for stuff to eat. Next to me is my cat following me around, I play with him using a small stick that has feathers on it, I'm having a lot of fun when I notice my cat runs away, I chase after him and find him with cuts over his face, 2 on his nose and a very deep one in his cheek. Then I realize that it was my fault, I accidently poked him with the stick! I saw blood coming out of the wounds and when my sister picked him up I saw a small puddle of blood where his head was. I felt so guilty that I started hyperventilating and after 10 seconds I got paralysed and felt to the ground in complete shock. (IRL I'm not that scared of seeing blood, although now I understand what people feel when they freak out when seeing blood.) My sister tried to calm me down telling me it wasn't that bad and he would make it but I didn't have any control anymore and was unable to move. After that she picks me up and carries me to another part of the supermarket where I manage to calm myself down. Then I walk a bit around and stop at the books, I saw a gossip-magazine that talked about 'Lau', a well known person who played a reality show here in Belgium.

4. A worrying task

I'm in a city sitting at a bar with some friends and looking outside, I see some students passing by on bikes. It's a schooltrip to 'Overijsel' I think, we exit the bar and walk around for a bit. Then we return to the bus and take a seat. After a long journey people started getting bored and the atmosphere in the bus got quiet tense, some of my friends started beating each other neck with a belt for fun, I tried avoiding this because I noticed it was pissing the supervisors of. Then one of the teacher exploded and walked back to punish everyone who was using those belts. A friend who sat next to me actually started eating the belt to get rid of the evidence. Then the teacher said "Okay, because everyone is so full of energy I'll give everyone a task. Take XTC and write down what your experiences are, atleast one paper full.", I thought how this was actually really dangerous, why would she give us the task to take drugs!? We stopped, I got out of the buss and entered a building. There I saw some students who sat in another buss that had already arrived there. They were standing near a pool table and I walked up to them, they asked me why it took so long for us to get there but I ignored them and they walked away. I saw that the balls on the pool table were rapidly moving around without any external cause for it which amazed me. Then I picked up a cue that was on the table and looked for the white ball to start playing. A friend joined me and wanted to get the first shot but then he said that I could take it cause he wanted to prepare his cue first. BEEP BEEP! There my alarm went of at 08:00.

After tagging these dreams down I fell back asleep...

5. The holy war

I sat in the back of a car and it was just a family trip like usuall, I looked at my IPad and watched some movie-clip or something involving cars crashing and flying through the air in an chase while music playing was 'Don't let go' from the film 'Gravity'. We stopped at some buildings next to the road and got out, there I met some weird girl who had some psychic powers or something. I got back to the car and we drove away to the city. We took a short cut through the park but were stopped by a large group of people who had some party there. I saw a student driving by on a scooter and we slowly drove down the same road he took, slow to make sure we wouldn't run anyone over. Then when we want to drive up a hill/bridge I get out of the car and suddenly there's a massive religious war between Catholic priests and Protestant priests! For some reason I'm on the catholic side and we fight up the hill using guns. We manage to drive the protestants back but near the top we're pinned down and under heavy fire. Then one the of the priests shout "LOOK THERE, THE CARDINALS ARE HERE!", I look back and see Cardinals in their uniform walking up the hill carrying heavy machine guns to help our advance. We manage to take over the hill and have a clear line of fire down on the protestants. I look of the edge into the distance and see muzzle flashes coming from the city, bullets fly over my head and we all lay down on the ground to avoid being shot. I fire down hill to a group of protestants and look back seeing one of the priest got badly wounded.

He shouts: "Don't shoot slenderman!"

I respond: "Why!?"

He: "Cause he'll rape you!"

Me, while looking back at the other priests and pointing to the protestants down the hill: "WE GOTTA MAKE THEM SHOOT SLENDY!"

Suddenly I see slenderman's tentacles emerging from side of the hill crawling over the railing.

I wake up...

NOTE: I'm not religious nor do I hate any religions, I don't know why I had such a weird dream!

Woohoo! Today it was the verdict and I was along the best for the year, most of my scores were higher than the average and I'm able to procede to the next year without any problems, my last year.
This morning my alarm went of at 07:00 and although it hurted a little bit getting up and grabbing my Tag-book I'm happy to announce that my DR is climbing back up.

1. Justice

I'm walking around in houses and through basements of old houses in the Middle Ages, while also talking to peasants who have to work way too hard for their liege. I feel as if I have to do something for them, fighting for human rights. It all feels a bit like a game (Crusader Kings 2) and somehow faith is an important factor. I also tagged down that I had made a letter to the king and I remember seeing flashes of Filip (Current king of Belgium). I help the peasants with their hard work and somehow guns and fighting were involved according to my tag-book but I can't really remember anything of that.

2. Left behind

I'm in a weird deserted shopping mall and I see one of my fellow students, I go up an escalator and suddenly I'm standing on a nice road somewhere in the country side of what I think is France, although it still feels very familiar like it's near where I live. I walk past a house and see another fellow student walking out in sport-gear and ask him what's he's up to. He talks about an important marathon everyone's participating in, I don't know anything of this marathon and walk away. I see hints of this marathon and read somewhere that it was 310 KM long, goes through France and ends in some place called 'Helmet'/'Hemlet'.

3. Infiltration

I'm with a team of armed men standing infront of an old building ready to breach in. One of them calls me and offers me a rifle, he asks "You know how to operate this?", I respond "Yes, that's an M1 Garand." and I quickly practice reloading the rifle and aim it at the door. The door opens and we storm inside, suddenly it all feels very much like a game, I have difficulties aiming the rifle as it seems to have a life of it's own. My vision switches to a strategic overview of the whole situation and I'm able to see the whole team including myself from 10 meters high. First we fight some sort of digital glitch, a pixilly being that acts like some sort of wall preventing us from advancing any further. After shooting it for a bit it suddenly starts to violently jerk around and then it splits up into multiple small fragments of itself, we continue. Behind the door in the next room is a giant Sumo-man or giant Baby you could almost call it that tries to hulk-smash us, we can dodge it's attacks for some time but then it corners me and I get crushed. I react in the same way like I would do in a Co-op game with friends and sit back, I keep watching the rest of the team fighting in an observer-mode where I can fly around watching the battle from all angles.


4. Be silent

I'm walk in a rebel-camp and see a lot of young people sitting on the ground eating I think or just talking to each other, in the distance I see Vaas who seems to be the leader. He walks over to the group I'm sitting at and people seem to be intimidated by his presence, he calls everyone to meditate and not make any sound. When I mean not making any sound I mean not even the sound of your own breathing... After some time I and someone else start to get problems controlling our breath and we start breathing louder and louder, I notice Vaas seems to become more and more aware of this and then he stands up and tells us again not to make any sound.

Now that any distractions are gone it's time to fully use my 2 months of freedom to master Lucidity and hopefully become so good at it that I will be able to continue it when school starts again. See you next time!

Hi everyone, this morning around 7 around woke up spontaniously and had quiet good DR, I could remember atleast 3 dreams. However I felt too sleepy and confident to write them down at that moment, so I fell back asleep for 3 hours and by the time I woke up I could only remember one dream very fuzzy. In the coming nights and mornings I will try and get in the habbit of writing in my DR, doing an RC and questioning reality upon awakening. I will set my clock to wake me up after 6 hours of sleep as this is the time I have best DR, largest REM-cycles which means that it's the optimal time to do induction techniques like WILD/SSILD/... which should raise my chances of lucidity a lot.

1. The boring swimming-pool

I'm in a modern building that has an indoor swimming-pool, there's several people in it relaxing and I see my sister too. I get in the water which splashes a little bit but that was unavoidable, however my sister is quiet annoyed and asks me to keep it quiet. I respond telling her that I couldn't do anything about it and I pay close attention not to disrupt her again.

After waking up this morning I remembered 3 small dreams, throughout the day sitting at my computer mostly I got more and more bored. I felt like I was trapped in a little box, that was a moment when I saw the potential of lucid dreaming again, and so I'm back completly hooked on it.

1. Experiment gone wrong

I dreamed of an evil experiment conducted by the japanese government on children ranging from 10 to 16 years old. In this experiment they wanted to test what extreme fear and panic for a prolonged period of time would cause. The experiment went like this: Inside a large abandoned warehouse completly sealed of to prevent any ambient light from getting in was a chair, placed in the middle of this giant room. The size of the warehouse is huge, 2 football-fields probably and pitch-black. Several meters above the chair is a single lamp that's very dim and only lights up a small area around the chair, it flickers and sometimes shuts of for a full minute, plunging the chair into complete darkness. In the chair the child will be restrained and given an infusion to provide nutrition and water for a week probably. A bucket under the chair would act as a toilet, there's a hole in the chair. This experiment needs 4 children to 'participate', each of them will be placed in their own warehouse. 2 of the children will be told that in one of the corners of the warehouse someone or something is lurking and will very slowly crawl towards them, to torture and eventually kill them. The other 2 children weren't told anything. Note that there isn't anything in the 4 warehouses, all the children are completly alone and there's no other being with them in the room.
I didn't get all the information of this experiment by reading or hearing it, I just know because several days ago I read some creepypastas on the internet. Next I see blurry flashes of a monster that looks like something out of the film 'The thing' standing behind the children. One of the childrens head is pierced by a tentacle and the monster is using the child's body as some sort of puppet. I feel extremely stressed, like I'm one of the observers who don't know what's happening.

2. Am I greedy?

My dad is really angry and shouting at me cause I ask for too many games to buy. (IRL I bought 3 on Steam cause they had high discounts and my father didn't really care.)

3. A rocket?

I'm looking/flying around a large rocket standing alone in a grass field near the sea, it's dusk yet I can clearly see it.

I went to bed as usuall though had some minor difficulties falling asleep, combined with my alarm-clock being wrongly set and thus waking me up to early this meant that my DR tonight wasn't amazing, but it was decent nonetheless.

1. The Far Cry experience

I arrive at school and meet up with one of my co-students, he seems very stressed and I ask him what's wrong. He tells me he way too late for an oral-exam of Geography, suddenly I'm stressed too and I join him as we walk towards the classroom where it will take place. We take the back entrance to the school and go up 3 floors (which is one too high from IRL), we walk down the hallway and see more students, I look around as this is a part that I've never seen before (it doesn't exist IRL so no wonder it's all new...). At the end of the hallway it takes a turn to the right which joins this section with the old school. (which does have 3 floors IRL) However I go left and enter a large classroom, there my Geography teacher awaits us and we take a seat infront. Next to me stands Vaas (a character/the main villain from the game 'Far Cry 3'), he presents his newest film to us and so the projector starts the film on the canvas. Suddenly I'm inside the film and held hostage by Vaas, I'm stuck in some ruins with a chain around my leg. I see some rebels walking around and start silently breaking the chain around my leg with a hammer of some sort. As the chain starts to get weaker Vaas suddenly walks towards me and notices the nearly broken chain.
This is what he tells me:

"You know, have I ever told... the definition of insanity?

I see all these fucking people doing the same shit over and over, expecting that their actions will have a different outcome from the previous time they did it, YET IT DOESN'T FUCKING CHANGE!

You see, you're trying to break this chain... HEY LOCO I'M TALKING TO YOU YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!!

You see this fucking chain?!

The more you try breaking it, the stronger it'll get!"

He smashes the chain with another hammer which repairs it and makes it glow dark red.
He walks back behind some ruined wall and takes a shit on a toilet there, some rebels run away closing their nose. As he walks back I can suddenly stand up and the chain appears to be extremely flexible and elastic, allowing me to almost move around freely. I walk with him around the shore and suddenly a ship nearly runs us over, Vaas starts laughing and I jump of the ship using the ruins to get higher ground first.
Suddenly I'm back in the classroom and the film ends, Vaas asks me wether I liked the film or not. I said "Yes but I think your previous one was better...", "That was called 'The Far Cry experience' I think".

2.Under age

I'm in a game-shop buying the game 'Far Cry 3' and there's a assistent of the store helping us, it's Vaas and he's friendly but I know that he could explode any moment. He gave us the wrong articles, a Wii, then a sound-system. My parents kept asking him to do his job good and help us but I quickly told them to stop and just let him do his thing. When we got to the counter the cashier told me I had to give my ID cause you had to be 18 years old minimum for this game. I hesitated and told him if it was really needed, he got quiet annoyed and I threw my ID on the counter with a deep sigh.

Last night I fell asleep fast and smooth, however next morning I was in for an unpleasant subconscious suprise...

1. The failure

I'm very stressed as I'm working on my math-exam, I don't understand most questions and understand my own answers even less. I feel regret that I haven't learned more and I'm stunned by the complexity of the exam itself. When I get home I somehow see a meter in the bottom-right of my vision, it jumps between 40/100 and 60/100 and eventually evens out at 50/100, I feel relieved. That was a representation of my score for the exam, I barely made it. But then it got very blurry and suddenly fell back to 20/100 and I knew I had failed. Visions of my teacher telling me the bad news that I have to do the whole year again, the shame the stress, I start walking around my house talking to myself "You're not going to fail, it can't be!"... "How could you let this happen!", I feel like I'm about to lose my balance when I whisper to myself "Wake up". Suddenly I wake up and look at my clock, it's 08:02 and I calm myself, it was just a dream, the exam went quiet good IRL. After 10 minutes I fall back asleep.

2. Deep blue riches

I'm in a tomb, deep underground doing some sort of excavation for old relics, in the middle of the tomb there's a deep pool and my sister tells me I should look at the bottom. I jump in a swim to the bottom, I don't have problems holding my breath, I could stay under for hours it seemed like. I start digging the sand at the bottom and after half a meter I see a small object glowing, I pull it out of the sand and it's a large ruby. I swim to the surface and anounce it to my sister who's very enthousiastic. I go back down and keep digging, suddenly I pull two MASSIVE blue saphires out of the mud and I'm nearly yelling from joy underwater. I quickly swim back up and tell her that each of these are worth like 10 billion!

3. I lost them...

I'm driving in an old-timer around some mountainous bay, it looks like the Golden Gate bridge is in the distance crossing the bay but I take some small dirt road near some dangerous Cliffs. I feel like I lost the large gems from previous dreams and so missed a chance of becoming rich, I'm dissapointed and thinking about what to do now. I drive really fast and suddenly go over a ramp, the car flies high up in the air and goes over the bay, eventually landing at the side of a cliff, I jump out and land in the water. As I swim to the shore a woman that looks like a secretary looks at me like I'm crazy but I ignore her. I look back to the water and I'm intimidated by the large amount of agressive fish I see swimming around, I feel like there are new riches at the bottom of the bay but I'm scared the fish would eat me. After some time I notice the fish are actually eating other fish and so gather my courage to jump in. I look around and at some point see what looks like an old pirate ship almost completly burried in, I can see the deck of the ship with an acces to the hold of the ship but it's covered with a wooden grate, it looks very old though so I try pulling it out. First it doesn't work but the second time I manage to break a piece of. I see something shiny and pick it up, with high hopes I swim to the surface but then I see it's an old rusty nail and I tell it to the woman standing at the shore.

Tomorrow I have to deliver my books to the school again and next Thursday it's the verdict about my exams.

As this is my first night in which I can focus on dreams again it was to be expected not to be the best DR but 3 dreams ain't a bad start.

1. The sabotage

Me and a friend are on a schooltrip in some amusement-park and we're first in line for an attraction. The attraction is the 'Fata Morgana' which is in the 'Efteling' in the Netherlands. We get in a boat and somehow break the ride, we can exit but the rest of the school is stuck in the boats. We laugh at the impressive prank we just pulled of and have fun in the park on our own.

2. Post-apocalyptic sandwich

I'm walking through a deserted town, it's completly abandoned, the sky is gray and it looks like the aftermath of a nuclear war or zombie-apocalyps. I enter a plaza and one shop is open, it's a sandwich-hub and I walk inside. Behind the counter is a girl ready to serve me a sandwhich. "I'd like one of those light baked with mozarella and pesto please." I told her and she gave me one with a smile. I walk outside and sit on a half broken wall enjoying my meal. I enter a house on the other side and feel an evil presence, I slightly nervous but know that I can defend myself. It's my sister who comes to help me and I'm happy with her joining me. Suddenly we're in the garage in our house but then somehow gravity turns sideway and we stand on the walls. The door to the main hallway of the house is open and with this gravity creates a deep hole. I told my sister not to jump in cause the wall on the other side would break on impact , I lowered her with a rope slowly onto the stairs which were now turned by the twisted gravity and slowly climb inside after her.

3. A romantic dream?

I enter a large room which is the attic of a log cabin but it's really open and in no way scary like most attics. There's a large window on both ends and it looks like this is the bedroom. I look outside and see it's night, however there's beautifull blue ambient light coming from a huge star. I look to the star through a telescope and see that it is actually a large Ice-planet orbitting infront of the star which makes the light blue as it passes through the transparrent planet. I see large chunks of ice orbitting the planet itself and it seems to have a very turbulent atmosphere. Then there a girl infront of me next to the bed (She seems to be returning in some of my dreams for some reason.) and I feel some sort of love to her. It's like we haven't seen each other in years and now it's finally the right moment at the right place. She suddenly kisses me and I think "Well, if it's my first time I might as well do it good.", so I don't back off and kiss back. We lay down on the bed but then I notice my parents standing next to the bed which was... well... embarrassing in some way I felt dissapointed that it had to end that way. Oh well.

We're almost done with the exams and ready to focus my attention back on lucidity. Lately DR has been... well, CRAP! But I know that I just need to get through this, with or without dreaming.
I had one Dream fragment though.

1. It's quiet crowded in here.

I was in a building with lots of people, some of them talked to me but I don't remember what they told me.

Last night I didn't remember any complete dreams, main cause is getting up at 06:00 in the morning to study for math a bit. (The exam went okay but I'll have to wait and see for the results...)
I did hav one dream-fragment.

1. Ireland

Just before waking up I hear Irish Folklore music, quiet loud actually.


Anyway, we're slowly approaching the end of 2 nail-biting weeks and the most stressful day has yet to come, the results!

Semper Fidelis

Tonight I had some of the longest dreams I've ever experienced, seriously.
I my tag-book in which I write tags of dreams every morning normally 1 dream takes up about 1/5 of a page, the first dream I tagged was 1 page long and the second dream took half a page. That was like 15 minutes of non-stop writing and remembering!

1. Frustration and fear

I was in some sport-gym on a schooltrip and we were doing exercises but my friend kept hitting me on the head with an aluminium bat which hurt a lot and royally pissed me of but I managed to stay calm and not tear his face apart. Another girl was also being attacked by someone with a bat and we talked about how annoying it was, yet we couldn't do anything back for some reason. After several hours I left the room and went outside, there the class was waiting to leave and return to school. The bus trip wasn't included in the dream so I was immidiatly somewhere on a street with the class. Another friend with a bike walked next to me as we returned home, we talked about the trip and about the upcoming math-exam. (IRL it is tomorrow)When we wanted to cross over a street I walked first and the light just turned red for pedestrians but I quickly walked to the other side. I looked back and saw my friend was still waiting with a police-looking man next to him shouting at me in French I think. I knew I was in trouble for crossing the street while it was red so I accelerated my pace and zig-zagged between trees in the hope of losing this police-man. I looked back and saw him running at me, shouting and very angry which made me panick a bit. He got to me and was talking to me in French really angry, he dragged me into an abandoned factory and we stopped in a deserted stairwell. Another guy comes and he's with the police-man, both ask me questions in French with an angry tone. I understand the questions but have difficulties answering them.(IRL I don't have much problems understanding French but talking myself is still difficult, Belgium is half Dutch(flemish)/ half French(Wallonia) and I live in Flanders so I talk Dutch.) They were very racist against Dutch/Flemish people and I actually feared they would kill me cause one of them was already pointing a gun at me. They asked me questions about my family until I lied and said that my grandfather lives in Wallonia after which the two man calmed down and were less racist. I went up the stairwell and ended up on the top-floor of my school. I looked in a classroom and a class was ready to begin their Biology exam, the first question was naming things on a picture of I think a human-nerve or a bacteria. I exited the classroom and went down the hallway where I saw some of my class standing, I asked what they were doing and they responded saying that it's French oral-exam. I thought the two racist guys who interrogated me was the French oral-exam but it wasn't. I looked at my watch which said it was 10.10 and someone said I had to go at 08.50. I was too late.

2. REALLY 'Heavy rain'

I was playing the game 'Heavy rain' as the character Ethan Mars and I was climbing up the abandoned factory from previous dream. It was very rainy and once I got on the roof it collapsed and Ethan fell 10 meters down on the ground. At this point he wore a mask that completly covered his face. One of the racist guys from previous dreams came to him and smashed him with a bat which knocked him out. I saw blood and thought he had died but then the guy with the bat took the mask of from him and I saw that it wasn't Ethan but the other guy, he took his mask of and in the end HE WAS ETHAN. So Ethan just killed one of the racist guys with a bat, now what happens next is quiet weird. Ethan takes an electrical drill, opens up the skull from the dead guy and starts scraping away the brain of the dead guy, after most of the brain was gone I saw the eyes falling back in the hollow skull.

3. The wrong game

I'm playing Shogun 2 total war and I'm having fun but then my mother asks me why I didn't bought the expansion pack FOTS which adds guns and modern cannons.
I felt kinda dissapointed in myself cause I didn't bought it and now I didn't appreciate the already great base-game itself.

4. The failed marathon

I was with school jogging along a path on the green english countryside, I didn't have any problems with my condition but my left thigh hurted a lot. It hurted so much that it caused me to be last, I just couldn't run. The road looked endless and I felt ashamed to be last. After some time we got to an open area were roads crossed over each other in a parkour-way. A small group of guys challenged each other on who would be the fastest, I joined in. As we started I felt a lot of pain and was last ones again but after some time I ignored the pain and ran as fast as I could jumping of the sharp hill that were in the parkour, in the end I won.

5. Casino Royal

I'm playing a very pixelated game set in the 18th century, my guy had a gray wig on his head like the style was back then. I entered a casino that looked VERY GREEN. I got to the poker table but didn't have any chips yet, so I went to another table to order some. A small sentence at the bottom of the screen said 'Loot?'.

After about 4 days of bad DR and blurry fragments (except the wizard dream and the super-agent one... Quality in exchange for Quantity... [10/06/14] - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views) I had some decent memories. And there's immidiatly some weird shit going on in them (especially the last one), PREPARE!

1. Chaos

I'm getting in the back of my car as my family is ready to leave the parking-garage. I notice my IPad and headphones are still in the trunk and my sister asks if I can take her's to. I climb out of the window as the car is already driving through the garage, I crawl over the roof and open the trunk. I stand in it keeping my balance and look for the headphones, after some searching I find them and throw them to my sister. (At this point the car suddenly had no roof) I jumped back into the passenger seat at the back. Now I'm not sure wether the next part was linked with this dream or an entirely different dream but I'll just put it here. As we're driving down the highway I notice that there's a cat in the central part of the highway. We stop and I think about how dangerous all of this actually is, cars are driving everywhere and my mother is suddenly on a bicycle riding towards the cat. I run after her and I see the cat run across the highway under a car, I close my eyes thinking it will hit one of the tires but luckely none of the tires run over the cat. After that the cat meets up with some kittens at the side of the highway and they dissapear into the scrubbery.

2. The wrong party

I'm sitting at my computer and notice noise coming from outside, I look out the window and see there's a party going on in the backyard with many people in suits and dresses. For some reason the level of the garden is at the same height as the bedroom and one woman sees me. I go downstairs and see that the door to the backyard is closed, like we didn't organised this party nor were we invited, yet it took place in our backyard... Suddenly I talk to my dad about how much the suroundings have changed. My view shifts to a satelite-view above the house and I see there's a thin stroke of beach behind the house, next to a lake. (IRL this isn't true, we live in a town near a city.) There's a date in the corner of the satelite-photo and every time the picture changes the date goes more and more towards the present day. I can see the beach slowly being build over with new houses and I say "I wish we could go back in time and have the beach again.".

3. The WTF-film

I see a young boy (10-12 years old) sitting on the street with some light summer clothing on. Then I see a group of naked guys walking to him, they pick him up and the boy shouts for help but nothing happens and they carry the boy away. Then I see the boy again crying (Now I know some thing bad happened to the kid but I don't think he got raped.) laying on the street, I know that he will talk to a grown man in some time and this man will take revenge on the group of naked guys but I don't see this happening, I just know. I remember a flash of the group of naked guys attacked by the man with a crowbar but none of them die. Then I'm the boy and we're years later, I'm in a group with a woman, a man and one of the guys from the naked-group, still with a scar from the crowbar he got smacked with. However this guy said he didn't do anything to the boy back then, he just happened to be with the group and actually tried to protect the kid. We walk through some hallways and it's dark but not too dark, so I could still see enough to navigate. We enter a room and there's a giant cobra, maybe 10 meters long and 0.5 meters thick. He attacks the man who took revenge years ago and kills him. Then he attacks the woman, the rest of the team including me run back through the door and close it behind us. We stop and one of the team members says "Shouldn't we check if she's okay?", I walk back to the door and open it just enough to stick my head out. I see the woman getting eating by the cobra, starting at her head, it crushes the skull with his jaws and I see her face losing structure. Somehow I manage to not scream, I calmly close the door and slowly look back at the team with a shocked expression. One of them says "And, how is it?" I shout "RUUUUUUUUUUN!!!!!!!!!".

Last night was the first night in I think a week that I was able to fall asleep quickly, I got atleast a good 7 hours of sleep and it also seems like I'm not that tired throughout the day. Vividness is slowly returning as I had 1 dream tonight and I'm hoping on getting more. I'm also glad that I'll be able to sleep a bit longer tomorrow.

1. A herring-thief!

I was in the storage room of a supermarket and it seemed like in the store itself a party was about to start cause the first herring of the season would be presented. Infront of me was the herring on a plate, I took a bite and felt like I was a thief and had ruined the whole party that was about to commence. It was then when a woman of the store walked into the storage room with a crowbar and violently smacked me on the head. As the crowbar made contact with my skull I didn't see it through my own eyes but suddenly I looked through a camera that floated infront of me filming my face. I could see a lot of blood coming out of the deep cut the blow carved into my forehead. I fell to the ground in agony and partially paralysed, she ran away and I laid there looking through my own eyes again at the herring on the ground. I could barely move and was very disoriënted but knew I had to run away before the police came. I stumbled across the room and pushed a door open, suddenly I'm in my backyard which is surounded with high fences. (IRL too) I thought about quickly climbing over them and felt a strong sensation of stress, fortunatly my alarm went of at this point waking me up.

I might try a WBTB tonight with a MILD or SSILD technique.

After I was back home from the exam (French) and had sat on the computer for about an hour writing previous entry I had under estimated how tired I actually was... I was exhausted. I decided to lay in my sister's bed as it's better quality than mine and I decided to do a WILD. For the first time I decided to throw some breathing exercises into the WILD-mix and did that for 10 minutes. I was really relaxed after just 15 minutes, then I just let my mind wander around and sometimes fall back thinking "Don't fall asleep...". After 30 minutes I felt my body getting slow and heavy and my head started to tillt to the right, I didn't care and let it just happen but then something weird happened. Suddenly I feel like I get inflated like a balloon, my inner-ears swell like when you drive around in the mountains and for the very first time did I hear auditory hallucinations because previous attempts at WILD failed or I did them using Binaural beats. I heard a bee or wasp flying over my head which was mildly worrying but again I just let it happen. It happened two times but I never knew how to transition, my only succesfull WILD attempts were pretty much DILDs that happened after WILDs. Anyway at some point I fell asleep and I had many FAs and a bunch of dreams. Also my sense of time was completly distorted, I was worried when I woke up I had slept all day and tomorrow I have another exam, but in the end it was just 2 hours.

I think in the future I will only use afternoon naps for WILD and keep night for SSILD or other techniques.

Last night I was able to have a good sleep and my WBTB-alarm woke me up at 05:30, however the loud alarm shocked me and I moved to much. For some reason 2 nights in a row already do I decide to perform WILD instead of SSILD, I don't know why. I've had very rare succes with WILD so why am I so drawn to it? Is it the mysterious sensation I miss from the one time it worked? Anyway I've also been noticing my DR getting weaker and weaker combined with me getting more and more tired everyday I wake up, so I decided to temporarily stop my WBTB-alarm and sleep normal. Until my DR gets better I wont interupt my sleepcycle anymore.

1. School profile

I was waiting in a hallway for an exam to start when I noticed touchscreens hanging of the wall, the others seemed interested in them too. I walked up to it and pressed a screen, it displayed a picture of me with my name under it and which class I'm in. However the picture of me had some flaws, my chin was too large and I had a beard. (IRL I always shave myself.) My friend laughed at the photo and I said "Well, it's not that bad is it?", then another person pushed me away so he could operate the touchscreen.

Chances of lucidity are low, need to get my DR back up and then I will do a WBTB with SSILD and NOT WILD!