non-lucid

Okay guys, last night I had quiet a clear dream which was really detailed.

1. Premiere

I'm with some friends standing in a cinema and it seems the whole school is there too, we're watching a new film that just came out and I'm curious which film it is. I look back and see a large sign: "THE EXPENDABLES III", what follows is a conversation with my friends. (little back story, IRL about a year ago when I was returning home from a week in England with school we saw the film 'The expendables II' and I joked with a friend about how silly and predictable the story was.)

Me: "Really? Man remember last time we watched one of those movies? It sucked!"

Friend: "Yeah, it was so bad... I can't believe we're watching this again."

Me: "You know, I bet the story is going to be almost identical to the first two."

After that we got inside and we took a seat, the room was enormous I'd say it was a football field wide and deep. I sat next to my friends somewhere on the left side high and I noticed my mother sitting some rows behind me. I acted like I hadn't seen her and tried to do things that might impress her, like having a talk with some of the teachers or something. Suddenly a teacher stood up and gave some of us a heart, it looked like a piece of grilled chicken and had it in my mouth before I even knew what it was. When he said we had to dissect it I took it out of my mouth but half of it was already bitten away and I felt ashamed I wouldn't be able to impress my mother.

2. The clean up

I'm somewhere in an office building and know that I've done some bad things and the police is behind me. I think I was involved in a shooting with the police before where an officer was killed but my friend had shot him, he was gone and the police thought I had killed him. I run around and get in a small office without windows and a single computer against the wall. I don't know exactly what I did but I think I was trying to clear my name of any convictions and evidence before the police would arrive.

I think I will set my alarm one hour earlier tomorrow as I now can sleep quiet quickly and I think I need a bit more time for techniques like SSILD/WILD/DILD and falling back asleep again in the morning. Alarm will be set at 06:00.

Good night everyone!

I woke up with some dreams but none of them were really interesting or important and so I don't remember too much of them.

1. Long dream

I don't know any details but I know I have a lot of conversations in this dream and it plays around a complete city. It felt like it was a whole day of dreaming.

Anyway, I'm just happy with the fact I'm not having so much insomnia problems anymore.

Hi everyone! Last night, 4 dreams and I slept out in the morning after I felt too sleepy for SSILD, it just didn't work. Anyway, the weekend is over and that means I will be able to focus on a good sleeping shedule again.

1. So quiet

I'm alone in a house which looks very white, the walls are white, the floor is mostly white and the sun weakly shines through some windows that have thin white curtains. I move around the house very silent and don't want anyone seeing me there, I'm not a burglar but I know I'm not allowed to be here. After some time I enter a small courtyard next to the house, the sky is grey and looks like it could start raining soon.

2. A good meal

I'm in some restaurant or maybe even my own house, somewhere in Antwerp on a place where I don't live. I'm eating a good meal of mashed potatoes, sausage and savoy cabbage, it tastes really nice but me and my family think of going to a real restaurant soon and my father opens the door which leads to the city center of Antwerp. I look out and it's a rainy late evening.

3. Middle of nowhere

I wake up in a small modern house that pretty much has one room, it's early morning and I think I'm just getting ready for school. I only see my father around, don't know what has happened in the past but I see this as perfectly normal. I exit the house and I'm somewhere on the countryside on a very long dirt road. There aren't any trees, just plaines and maybe 1 KM away I see a highway with cars driving on it. The weather is slightly grey but there's a small hole in the clouds which allows the sun to shine on and around the little house I came out.

4. The attack

I'm in a random house and know that a group of people have entered the house too somewhere and they're looking for me. I feel as if they want to kill me, there are some other people who I see as my friends but they get caught quiet fast and are escorted to a certain room where they're all being held hostage. I go upstairs and suddenly I'm in my own house's second floor. I know that a friend and an enemy are up here so I keep low profile and hide in the portal of my room which is right open to the landing of the stairs... GOOD HIDING SPOT! Anyway after several seconds I want to go further in my room and look for a better hiding spot but suddenly I feel just as tired as you are when your alarm goes of early in the morning and you have to get up for work. I could barely keep my eyes open, keep my balance and my vision was heavily impared cause my eyes were too tired to be controlled by myself. I'm stressed cause I'm pretty much paralysed inplace and someone could see me any moment, then I see a friend being escorted down stairs by a kid who looks really evil. They don't see me and I regain some energy again, enough to move around. I look down the stairway and there 3 burglars are standing, 2 are talking to each other and one looks straight at me with an angry expression, I make an expression back which pretty much says "Yeah you little fuck, I'll come for you later and you won't like it.". I'm very angry and I want to charge at him but I know I wouldn't win the fight with the two other burglars next to him. It's very quiet and that's because we are all wearing headphones, now this does make it so that you hear the slightest bump and thus they know where everyone is. I walk back to my parents bedroom and look at the window, I need to get out of here! I think about the one burglar that saw me, he hasn't alarmed the other yet, otherwise they would already be here. I have an aluminium spoon in my hand and plan on using it for my escape. I open my parent's bedroom window but there are two obstacles that I must first get past. First the mosquito window or what you call it and then the safety shutter. I start screwing the screws out of the mosquito window using the aluminium spoon, then after I manage to get 3 of the 4 screws out I decide to already open the safety shutter which makes a lot of noise but I want to get out of there as fast as I can. I get really stressed and start with the last screw but the dream ends.

Alright, last night I had 3 dreams and I think I'm starting to learn how to fall asleep again in a decent time span. (Didn't knew you could forget that stuff but it happened.) The solution is very simple: DON'T. MOVE. Really it was that simple, instead of moving around cause I felt an itch or something I tried ignoring most of it and just stayed still. 5 minutes later I get that sleepy feeling I've mist for 3 weeks now, thank god.

Anyway, I've been thinking about my performance last days and I come to the conclusion that I'm losing interest in (lucid) dreaming, don't know why but for now I blame it on me discovering the series 'Breaking Bad'. So I think I'm going to try and aim for one good LD and hope it comes soon enough to give me a new spark of motivation.

1. What is this place?

I'm walking around in some old abandoned factory and it's night, I get in some weird small kitchen area and there I meet Johnny Depp who looks like he walked straight out of the film 'Charlie and the chocolate factory'. Anyway, he says some weird random things and I look in a large mirror, later I look around the terrain behind the factory and I see a lot of empty graves. However I don't feel this is scary or anything.

2. Laser watch

I have a new watch, it looks very high quality and contains a lot of gold. I quickly found out the watch has a non-lethal laser on it's side and I play with it for a bit. Then I put the watch somewhere and tell my family about the laser, they don't believe me and the more I try convincing them the more angry they get. Eventually I grab the watch and show them... they remain silent.

3. Weird Disney

I'm in my backyard and everything is underwater, the water is 1 meter higher than the top of the garden and I'm trying to reach air. (IRL my backyard is mostly closed of and it has thin wires running all over the top of it to grow a roof of leaves, don't know the exact name in English.) But the wires are preventing me from swimming up, I look at the tables and chairs outside and some people sit there, they don't even care. Although I'm under water I don't feel any problems regarding air, I just want to be free. After some trying I push myself through the wires and I'm out, I reach the top and look over the roof of my garage which is completly under water. I swim to some weird Island with walls around it looks like part of a Disney park with an African theme to it. I walk around and enter a building, there I take a seat for a show and the rest of my family is there. The show is about mainly chickens and a fox, my mother is dressed like a chicken but doesn't participate in the show, she just looks really enthousiastic. All the animals have weird indian names like 'Rocufulluto' or something. Anyway suddenly I realise it's midnight and I say we're going to miss the Christmas show in the middle of the park. I keep watching the weird animal show and I wake up not much later.

I hope I will get lucid soon, I need my fix...

Last night I had some difficulties falling asleep again and DR wasn't the best but I must say the dream that I had felt and still feels quiet important to me.

1. Stand and fight

I'm somewhere in California or just somewhere in America with large forests and warm temperatures, it's sunset and I'm enjoying a walk through the forest. I cross some small crooks using small bridges made of 4 logs. I feel like this is summer camp or something and I'm pretty young. (I never went to camps when I was younger IRL.) Suddenly the dream teleports me, I'm back myself and I'm in the same forest but a different location. As I look down the very long dirt road infront of me with at the end a road and buildings (Mabye 250 meters far?) I hear a growl behind my back. I turn around and see a large dark bear standing there, he stares at me with a hungry expression. For 3 seconds I'm frozen and thinking about the best thing to do, my rational minds tells me to remain steady and stare back cause that's what you're told to do when you see a bear, yeah? But my instinct is more powerfull and forces me to run the other way as fast as I can. After 5 seconds of running I realise I made the wrong decision and now the bear thinks I'm a prey, I hear his growling getting closer and closer and his footsteps smashing the ground beneath him. 20 meters further I feel my legs are extremely tired and I know I can't run from this thing, he will tear me in pieces!
But then the most important part of the dream happens, atleast what I think makes it so special. I turn around and see the bear storming at me and he's about 5 meters away from me, I quickly grab a pocket knife (IRL I've never had one.) and try pulling the knife out of the device. I think to myself "If I can't run away from you, then I will not give up without a fight." By the time I ready the knife the bear is just 1 meter infront of me and tries to attack. I dodge it and stab him in his upper neck, the knife barely pierces the thick fur and leathery skin but I see some blood. The bear keeps attacking and after several more stabbings the dream teleports again and I look down on the corpse of the bear, which is completly covered in blood.

Now the reason why I think this dream is so important is cause I just defeated a true nightmare, for the first time in my life. I don't have to worry about it returning or something cause I ended it right then and there. It also shows a bit of who I am as a person I think, I like to ignore and walk away from problems that aren't extremely important but when they do get big I usually solve them really well.

Last night once again I had to lay awake, staring at the ceiling for 2 hours before I pretty much passed out from boredom. This problem started with the beginning of the vacation and I decided to take a step back and evaluate myself and my sleeping-shedule, there must be a reason, I'm not a natural insomniac.

After some thinking I found out that it actually makes sense, even time I'm awake in bed fits perfectly. You see an average human's day is 16 hours of being awake followed by 8 hours of sleep. I on the other hand wake up around 10-11 in the morning while it's vacation which means if we at 16 hours of being awake like normal I should naturally need sleep around 2-3 in the night, which is when I fall asleep now. It is time to break this chain and drasticly change my sleeping-shedule, from now on I'll get up in the morning around 8-9 and my WBTB-alarm will be set around 5-6 in the morning. I expect this will solve my insomnia problem but also help me with Lucid dreaming as the earlier my WBTB-alarm is set, the darker it'll be outside and the less awake I'll be.

Anyway, enough talking you're here for the dreams and you'll get them!

1. Contract killers

I'm with my dad in an army jeep that has an open roof, I'm driving however there isn't a steering wheel but I turn the car by twisting large buttons. We drive on a road with trees on both sides and it's sunny, after several minutes of some talking I pass a lorry and speed up a bit. Then I notice a small projectile for a split second infront of the car that hits the motor, I didn't worry too much but then another projectile barely passed my head, I knew it were bullets! I shout to my dad "GET DOWN!", after quickly scanning the houses 150 meters down the road I spotted a sniper with a white rifle in a small window on the third floor. After seeing another muzzle flash I duck down, the bullets hits the windshield and cracks the glass. I look back thinking he must reload now but see that there are actually 3 snipers in the same window who shoot constantly. I quickly turn the car 180° and put the pedal on the metal. Some bullets fly past us or hit the car but then I realise I'm drifting to the left, the lorry quickly aproaches and I can't prevent a collision but then I notice how the wheels of the lorry are extremely high. So high that I'm able to drive under the lorry, we do have to duck because it is still very narrow. Then I manage to drive the car back on the right side of the road using the large button and we drive further.

2. The 'Wut?' game

I'm playing a game, I look down on an 8-bit looking castle and see a pixilated king sitting in his throne, then I designate the wooden floor to be replaced with stone which pleases the king. Suddenly a message pops up asking if I want to accept 'Absolute crown authority' and I accept. Suddenly I'm in First-Person mode and in the castle's dungeons, I'm fighting a large man who's really good at wrestling. After a heavy fight someone else holds the other guy and I break his foot using a piece of wood... Oh yeah and I'm James Bond.

3. Independence!

I'm walking around in a town and people are doing their normal stuff, I get up on a train where I find some of my friends. We talk about the year and I ask if some people had to do previous year over, he said "Yeah, Michel and Dimi didn't make it.", I respond "Oh yeah, Michel ... Krastofska?", I try saying their family names which are Russian IRL but I forgot them. I ask someone else what they're doing on the train and he responds saying that they're going on a vacation, I wish them the best and get of the train. After walking through the towncenter I feel really independant, like I don't need someone to lead me or tell me which path to follow. I'm not stressed and decide to take a train home, after some time I'm walking in my home town and my mother welcomes me.

4. The spiral staircase

This dream is directly connected to previous dream but I think it is another chapter you could say. After meeting my mother I take the street on the right while my house is in the street on the left, I enter a random building and stand in a room that doesn't have a lot in it, there isn't even a stair to the upper floor. I see a spiral staircase leading down in the middle of the room. I look down and guess it's maybe 20 meters deep, I go down and at the bottom is a small room with pixilly bookcases against the walls, a table with a lite candle and a bed on a 45° angle which also looks very pixilly. I get in the bed and I'm able to look up the spiral staircase, then I think about how creepy it would be if a demon or something would look over the edge down on me...

This morning when I woke up I think I remembered 3-4 dreams but I decided to take it easy today and not worry to much about it. However the second time I woke up I had the best dream I've ever had...

1. D-DAY

I'm in an amphibious landing craft a KM of the coast of Normandy, I wear a WW2-era uniform and see more soldiers in the boat waiting for the gate to fall open. Not a single word is said and then suddenly the gate falls open and the first soldiers storm outside and jump in the water. Some of them get shot right away and I can see parts of their brain flying back in EXTREME detail. It's my turn and I dive straight into the water as fast as I can and plan to stay under until I reach the shore to stay clear of gunfire. As I jump in I rapidly sink down as my equipment is really heavy, I see multiple corpses on the bottom and some floating above me. I quickly take my army knife and try cutting my backpack loose, fortunatly it comes off quiet fast and I make my way to the beach. Upon crawling out of the water I'm deafened by the sound of explosions and MG-fire, I take cover behind an anti-tank cross thing and look for the other soldiers. I focus on the defenses and fire my automatic gun at a pillbox, I see how allied soldiers are trying to climb in the bunkers but they get smashed with spades on their head and fall down. Next to me is a soldier who's sitting out in the open, I pull him in cover and ask him if he's crazy. The beach is really large and doesn't have that many barriers on it, the cover I'm behind is actually the only obstacle and I suddenly notice there are like 5 soldiers only on the beach including me. I'm confused, then everyone stops firing their guns and I'm like "What, a seize fire?". I look around and see Steven Spielberg walking towards me, clapping his hands and shouting "Excellent work men, we got it all on tape and it already looks amazing!. All the fear and stress goes away and he asks "And, how was it?", I respond with relief "Wow, I mean like when I got out of the water, I was terrified.". The other figurants laughed a bit but it was a friendly laughter, not laughing at me.

One of my goals in an LD was to experience D-day, looks like that task is done now but I do want to try it out again when I'm really lucid.

Hello everyone, I think I found a good technique for making yourself tired fast and having a good sleep.
It sounds almost too simple to work but you basicly have to gently close your right nostril and slowly breath through the left.
It's scientifically proven!

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/8063359

Anyway, it gave me a good night of sleep which is rare if you've been reading my other entries...

1. A gift?

I'm in the hall of my house and I want to go upstairs but then my grandfather opens the door and calls my name. I respond back and he says he put a present for me on the stairs, I go down and carry the present upstairs to my room. Suddenly a naked goblin jumps out of the package which freaks me out, my mother comes in and I explain that I don't have an explanation... Then I'm suddenly driving on a road with lots of trees next to it, I think I was driving to school.

2. A weird test

I'm at school and doing some sport in gym, I'm wearing blue shoes but when the class is over I look for brown shoes that I can't find. I exit the room and it leads to another room with windows letting in the light of a sunset, I take a seat at a table with infront of me another student. I know that he has a test for me and I listen, he grabs 2 crispy breaded pieces of chicken and hands them to me. He asks me to taste both and look for any difference, he tells me to focus on the taste, the smell, the texture and more... I taste them and describe each piece as best as I can, they taste like normal chicken though. Then I notice that it's getting late and I leave.

3. Sky spark* (DILD)

I'm on a plaza not far from my home and I see some of my friends waiting infront of the fry shop when one of them tells me to look at the sky. I look and think "Well it looks quiet normal... maybe a bit pink though.", several seconds later I notice how weird that actually was and I get the lucid spark. At first I really don't know what to do so I sit on the ground stabilizing and I look at my hands for an RC. The fingers on my right hand are very short and tiny except my middle finger which grows and shrinks rapidly, I tried pushing someone 20 meters up ahead using perspective and my large middle finger but it didn't work. Then I had a sexual desire suddenly and wanted to go to school shirtless for some reason, when I pulled my shirt over my head I woke up.

I think the reason why people sometimes suddenly have the urge to do sexual activities in dreams isn't cause they really think about it but it's I think the most simple parts of your brain that are the most active. In this case the most primitive and early parts for survival which include sleep, food and sex. This is just a guess and I haven't done any research. It's very annoying as I planned on doing some of the TOTM and actually don't have a sexual need but I lost my rational thought uncontrollably.

Last night sleep was again a very difficult task to archieve, I guess it's simply too warm too have a decent night of rest. One good thing though is that dreams are slowly getting more vivid again.

1. The last test

It's the end of the school year and the students of the last year are required to do a last test, individually. I have a bike next to me that I'm holding and I'm talking with a friend who has already done the test, he talks about how stupid and useless it is. He told me he had to learn how to knit clothes and stuff. I was waiting infront of the cantine where the test would be and was looking for a way to safely leave my bike outside without it being stolen. Eventually I found a chain and secured the bike in place, I was waiting for my parents to show up cause they have to be at the test too. After several minutes the previous students walked out and I walked in with my parents, the cantine was mostly empty except for one table, 3 chairs and my teacher of French from previous year. I took a seat and she told me there were 3 tasks in the test, she gave me a large bundle of paper and on the front was a picture of 2 cats, I had to pick one of them. I choose the right one and I flipped the page to the next one, my parents choose the other cat I think. She told me a story about the cats but I can't remember that anymore. Then she gave me another bundle, this one had pictures of London and it's people during the victorian era, I flipped the page a bit too fast and she asked me to turn it back. When I flipped back the pages had changed and they kept changing as I flipped back and forward, eventually the teacher asked me to stop and we proceeded to the next test, which was a simple question. "Do you have a lover?", she asked me. I was slightly caught off guard when she asked it so abruptly but I just said no. Then I left the building with my parents.

2. The laser trio

I'm sitting in the couch in my livingroom and watching my sister play with the cat using a laserpointer, quickly I notice that it is actually 3 small lasers, each with a different colour. She pulled the three lasers out of the holder for a second but then she put them back. Then suddenly a digital menu opened infront of her where she could choose the shape of the holder and the lasers, she choose for complete conic shaped but I thought that it didn't look very nice. When I asked her to give it to me and she handed it over my mother suddenly and agressivly snatched it out of my hands, nearly causing it to fall on the ground. I get up and tell her with a very angry tone "If that thing fell out of my hands you would blame me, but it would've been YOU that made it fall on the ground.", she ignores me and I shout "Do you hear me?! I would be blamed while you would be the cause!", she looks at me with an annoyed expression and I look the other way. When I woke and she walked in my room the very same moment I was still angry but then I realised that in the dream that's not my real mother.

3. Robojump

I'm walking through a weird house and enter the children's bedroom, there I see a toy-robot standing against the wall and 2 cardboard children looking at it with joy. I can't move and I'm forced to sit down infront of it, I get instructions to pay close attention and begin hearing the two motionless children singing a weird song for the robot. The robot starts to glow and float, suddenly it flies through the window up in the sky. Now I'm in my own bedroom looking outside and seeing the robot fly through the air, sometimes it leaves behind a small puff of smoke. I fly after it and suddenly control the robot like a game from 3rd person view. I have to jump on tiny sky islands and avoid falling down, eventually I reach the end and win the game.

There you have it, I hope I will soon be able to have normal nights again where I can sleep, normally.

Last night was horrible, I couldn't fall asleep and the longer I waited the more my neck and back began to hurt, eventually I woke up with 5 pillows around me and my sheet partially on the ground.
Because of this the dreams of tonight were quiet vague and not vivid at all!

1. Mammals not allowed

I'm in a field somewhere infront of a large forest, I have a gun and there are some people around me, we're hunting for fun or something. I remember seeing a bird fly up from the trees and someone aims his gun at it, suddenly I look through the scope of the rifle and I see it being fired, the bird is shredded apart from the shot and falls on the ground just infront of a girl who's standing next to a tree. I think the bird was a seagull from what I can remember. Then we talked about how some animals are allowed to live while others aren't, the rule was: No mammals. Then I responded "Does that include that panda?", suddenly I see a panda sitting in the forest.

2. Google earth

I'm looking at google earth and the places keep switching between Brazil, Spain, Germany, Africa, Antartica and more. I'm talking with my mother about the WK and then she shows me were Artica is, I respond "There's also Antirica... no it's called Antrica... how can I forget the name?!", "Atricia, oh whatever, I mean the south pole." (Weird that I wasn't able to speak out Antarctica.) Suddenly Google earth zooms in somewhere in Spain and somehow I'm teleported to my livingroom.

I think this evening I will not eat anything nor drink anything before going to bed, I think that's what is keeping me awake.

Hello, this morning I tried doing SSILD again and everything went well until I was done with the technique itself and it was time to sleep again. I couldn't fall back asleep, after several hours I eventually fell asleep but the effect of SSILD had lost it's power.

1. The 9/11 incident

I'm in Chemistry class at school and we get a preview of what the exam may look like, one of the exercises is so long that I lose hope before the exam has even started. The bell goes and I walk down the stairwell with a friend and we talk about how the exam is going to be impossible. Then when I get to the secondary entrance I suddenly know I'm about to go on a trip with a class, I don't know where but it will be about something religious or something. Suddenly I'm standing with the class on a roof somewhere in NY and the teacher is talking about some things but I'm distracted and look back at the twin towers. I can see an airplane flying towards it and I see it crash into the building. I see it happening over and over again from all kinds of angles, I saw it maybe 40 times. Then I told someone about what if the plane flew lower, now I see the plane crashing into a smaller building infront of the towers, I say "Good, now less people die cause those are appartements and most people are now working.", then I see the plane hitting the tower quiet high, it doesn't explode but instead cuts the top of the building of and drops it next to the main tower preventing it from collapsing completly. Suddenly I'm on street level and see a large cloud of dust coming towards me, I see a police officer keeping a hand for his mouth so he wouldn't breath in too much dust.
Again I see the buildings explode multiple times, then I'm suddenly back at school in the main hall and I wake someone up and try to grab something out of her bag.

2. England in a nutshell

I'm watching a film, Lara Croft strands up on a shoar, just behind a large mansion. Two rich people pick her up and addopt her, then I say to myself "So that's how she got so rich...", suddenly I'm in England with school for a week. We get divided into small groups and get houses to sleep in, I and a friend get the mansion from before. The rooms are really large and quiet dark, the sky seems to be grey always. It all goes really fast, suddenly I'm playing a game of soccer and I'm the goal keeper, I want to write my name on the ground infront of the goal. The goal is small, I stand behind it and lean over it to write my name on the other side on the ground, the owner of the mansion's wife tells me I'm not allowed to write my name on the ground, while leaning over the goal. However I can do it without leaning over the goal, which makes me think of how stupid all of these rules are. Then we're in a large theater, it's massive and most of the school has already taken a seat. I sit infront with some friends and the show is about to start, the security is extremely tight and I don't dare getting out of my chair or doing really anything. One student walks in and is late, he gets taken away by the security. Then we suddenly stand outside and I know I'm late for the buss so I'm in a hurry.

I think if I keep practicing SSILD it might start giving impressive results, I've only done it 3 times until now and 2 out of 3 it worked.

So yeah, remember I said that my record of most dreams in one night was 6? Well, from now on that number will be 8! And to make it all even better, we had another LD, an FA but I was smart enough to notice it.
One thing I must say is that the evening before, I decided to make and drink 0,5l of orange juice and this morning I also tried SSILD which probably caused the LD.

1. The prison

I'm in an armored buss being transported to a jail somewhere in the countryside, we stop and leave the buss however there isn't much security and suddenly I'm holding a bike next to me. It doesn't feel like I'm going to jail, more like going to school, a friend of me is further up ahead on his bike. I shout him to turn around cause that's the female-prison, in the distance I saw a camp with some women walking around in white clothing. Just next to that camp was the male-prison, I saw some men walking around in the same white clothing and walked to the back. I stopped next to a building to put my bike somewhere, infront of the door I planned first but then I thought it could close at night and I wouldn't be able to reach my bike. (The building had some weird overhanging with a fence that could be lowered or something.) Inside that building I knew would be the introduction to the prison and administration.

2. The escape plan

I'm entering a garage/barn type of building, in it there are several cars parked in the middle of the room and one car in the upper right corner. It does feel like a prison still, I think we're doing some trip for the day. It's either early in the morning or evening cause it's quiet dark and I feel quiet tired. The plan was that some inmates (including me) that wanted to escape would get in the car in the upper right corner and at that moment the roof would somehow collaps on the other cars, killing the guards and giving us a chance to escape. However nothing happened and we drove away in a convoy.

3. Bio-beer

I'm at some expo where they are presenting a fully self-sustaining machine that makes beer, starting from growing the plants and then distilling it... The room was very large, I think they used an old warehouse although the lamps were quiet modern. Between the large machine (Almost the size of the room itself) ran small hallways, visitors walked around looking at the contraption. Then there was a part where you could recieve a cup of beer and taste it, I took one but didn't seem to have a sense of taste, then I saw my sister walking to me.

4. The session

I'm watching some film through the eyes of a prisoner, he's sitting in the cantine/session room or something and infront of him sits a guard in riot gear. There are more prisoners in the room with each a riot guard infront of them. The exercise is that the prisoners have to gently beat the riot guards but control themself to not keep punching when they're told to stop or something. The prisoner first tries to just talk with the guard but he responds with gestures that the prisoner must beat him on his chest. Then the prisoner starts beating him, way too hard and way too long. After some time blood starts coming from the guard and another guard has to stop the prisoner. In the end I think the guard survived it though.

5. Boat fail

I'm with my sister somewhere near a lake, we both wear winter-jackets and it's really cold. There isn't any snow but it's a tundra climat with vast planes and mountains in the distance, the lake is about a kilometer wide I guess. We have a rubber boat and decide to try and cross the lake, she sits up front and I in the back. After 5 meters the boat sinks and we quickly swim back. We were quiet amused by our fail and were able to laugh about it.

Now I wake up, note down the dreams I already had and do SSILD for the next 15 minutes after which I fall asleep in about 20 minutes I think.

6. I-don't-know-what-is-happening-dream

I wake up in my bed and there's a small tail (the size of a hair) on my desk in a certain position, then someone I know from school walks in a we talk about the tail and some other stuff. Then I exit my room and suddenly fly around some weird city, then I see an old house in the city that suddenly gets split in half, a deep hole appears in the middle, I see two people in the right half of the house on the upper floor. Then I enter the toilet of my house which has some one-way window in the door, I can look outside but people from outside can't look inside. Then I see my cat somewhere and his tail is in the same position as the tail I saw on my desk.

7. The friendly werewolf* (SSILD)

I wake up in my bed and hear my mother swearing cause the cat has peed next to the litter box or something, it's all really blurry and I'm disoriented. I say to myself "You know, this is all really weird, why not do an RC?", as I do the nose-plug I notice I can breath normally. I don't panic but instead relax and lay back in bed, I nearly decided to just go back to sleep cause I still felt tired but then something in my head told me "Dude! This is a dream, you've waited for this, DON'T WASTE IT NOW!". I sat up again and noticed that the dream was still unstable, I catched glimpses of me looking around in my IRL bed and knew that I could wake up any moment. I felt the texture of the bed and concentrated on the dream till it was stable enough to support itself. When I got out of the bed I didn't feel the need to go too extreme, instead I thought about what I could actually do now. I decided to try out a transformation cause I've never done that before, and being as original as I am I choose to become a werewolf! It was morning in the dream and the sun was shining through my bedroom windows but I didn't care! I focused on my right hand, I couldn't see it but I did feel it, I expected it to turn into a claw of a wolf. After some seconds I felt the bones in the hands rapidly growing as if it grew the nails, almost wolverine-style. After some time the transformation stopped and I was able to examine my hand/paw. It looked quiet good for a first try, it had white fur with a bit of yellow which I didn't expect, oh well. Although transforming my hand was cool it wasn't a full transformation, so I thought about my arms transforming now. I felt the fur Climbing up my arms and when it reached my chest I sort of levitated of the ground, shortly after the dream ends.

8. Sniper in training

I talk with G-man or someone and I'm a sniper in training, I get a rifle with a scope on it that looks very box-shaped. My first task is to shoot green pacman-ghosts on a pacman game, I look straight down on the game like you do in a normal pacman game. I have no problems aiming the square scope on the green ghosts and I shoot all of them. Then my next task was to shoot decomposing whales that stranded on the beach, they were still alive and panicking and I saw their skin bubbling from all the gas in their body. I walk along a road next to the beach and look for them, some whales aren't decomposing and thus don't have to be shot. I quickly spot a target, a man which I think is a researcher or something stands next to it and I think he has difficulties with the smell of the rotting whale. I shoot the whale and I think my desire for it not to explode because a man stood next to it caused it to remain intact. I walked back and I saw that the road suddenly passed through a tunnel of some sort of green algae, I saw how the waves of the sea breaking on the shore left behind a large amount of green algea and as a wave ran over the road the whole path was covered in it and even elevated by the sheer amount. It looked very dry brittle in a hexagonal-shape and at first I didn't want to step on it cause it looked dirty. However it was strong enough to support my weight and I quickly passed through. Then after that task my next and last task was to find and kill G-man himself. I looked down on some board again like in pacman and saw a military-base/city like map, there were some tanks driving around on it and jeeps. First I had to locate him but I just started shooting all the tanks from above until most of them were destroyed, my bullets seemed to pass armor quiet easy. After most of the tanks and jeeps were down I still hadn't killed G-man, then I could look through the roof of a hangar, in it were 2 more tanks stationed and a large tin can in which I think would be sardines with oil. I destroyed the two tanks but one accidently collided with the tin can and suddenly in the bottom left of my vision I saw a video of G-man in a small can with oil and I saw a hole was pierced in his shell. Then I knew G-man was in the tin can! I kept shooting it and saw in the video how the shell got more and more damaged, G-man looked quiet annoyed/angry and I saw his face being covered in the oil until the got completly crushed by the force of my bullets and the video stopped.

Well, it looks like I'll drink another 0,5l of orange juice this evening...

We're one month into our Lucid comback and I must say, I wouldn't want to live without lucidity anymore. Really the world must be so dull without the promise of complete freedom if you work for it. Anyway, This morning I woke up around 06:00 and remembered 3 dreams, however I decided to sacrifise these dreams in for a WILD attempt. Upon awakening I had a new dream though the first 3 are lost in the depths of time...

1. Failed suprise

I'm in math class and the bell goes, I get up and walk out. Outside the room I walk along the long hallways and I wonder "Where is my next class?", I walk around for 10 minutes I think, then I enter a hallway with benches in the middle of it, teachers sitting at them correcting the exams. One of them looks at me like I shouldn't be there but I just walk passed them, then I know where I have to be. I have geography now! I quickly walk down the hall until I stand infront of the door. I put on sunglasses because I thought this would distract the teacher from the fact that I'm too late, but as I open the door she seems quiet annoyed and doesn't say a lot. There's some goodbye-party going on and the tables are placed in little groups. There aren't any places free except the table close by the door, I take a seat and look at some of the snacks in the middle. I don't take any and look around, I see my friends sitting at another group but I don't feel the need to go to them. Then the door opens and 2 more students walk in, I thought "Well, atleast I'm not the last one." Then I woke up.

I will now read all my dreams again, look for dreamsigns and more...

My alarm went of at 07:00 this morning after which I noted down my dreams and tryed a WILD, unfortunatly it didn't work and couldn't fall asleep either. Instead I spended most of the morning infront of the TV watching 'National geographic' with some orange juice...

1. Succes

I'm looking at a trailer that promotes a group of students in Greece who make photos of themself on certain locations. The trailer was mostly rapid flashing images of a guy in the same pose but in different locations and different times of the day. I thought it was a joke but they actually won some prizes for best art and stuff. Then I watched some of their photos which were taken about 1 KM of the coast somewhere in Greece with some of them standing on tiny boulders/Island barely above the water surface, I wasn't impressed. Then there were some interviews and the students were WAAAAAY to enthousiastic to the point where I thought they were on drugs or something. Then I was suddenly looking at some more sites across the internet, a game called 'Dwarf fortress' suddenly came on the screen, never heard of it but it actually exists IRL.

2. That fatique again...

I'm at school and it's the end of the day, I exit the building and sit outside on a bench with some friends for a while. I leave and next to me is a friend walking along with me, he's on a bike and I'm on foot. I see one of my cats walking past and looking stressed. I pick him up and he's really scared, shivering and doesn't know where he is. However after some time he calms down and sits still. When we passed the cantine I suddenly fellt an extreme fatigue in my legs, they barely were able to support me and I had to kneels down against the wall. I said with an annoyed tone "Not again!", I wanted to keep walking with all my might but it only made it feel worse, I was in agony. My friend told me that I should eat some Sugar or something but I told him it wouldn't help. After some time he left and I could walk again so I headed for the exit when I met someone else at the gate, we talked about food and I told him I had gone to a restaurant the day before. (IRL) I told him the lobster was really good but he left with his bike. Then I entered a little building next to the gate that isn't there IRL, the door was partially made of glass and had a latin name on it. Inside I saw some friends and we talked for a bit, one of them said that someone would pass in about a few seconds and we should welcome him. One of my friends passed the door and as everyone in the room wanted to say "Hello!" I shouted some random stuff in latin "Letimus deprusif metalisos!", for some reason everyone thought it was hilarious and we all laughed out loud. At that moment a latin test materialized infront of my eyes filling my FOV, you had to fill certain latin word in certain sentences.

3. Escaping my own backyard

I'm standing in my backyard and know that I forgot something at school so I want to climb out and walk to school. Instead of using the front door you know... My mother tells me that I can leave and I try Climbing up a fence to try getting on top of the roof. The fence is very unstable and seems to not have any supports under it. I climb back down and grab a small telescope (the one captains use on their ship you know) however it has 3 pins I can pull out of the back, each pin has a utility. The first pin is simply used for looking at things far away, it has a small hole in it on the side to look through. The second pin makes the area lighter and works like night-vision. The third pin is a accelerometer/compas, I'm not sure what it was exactly.

I'm thinking about doing a monthly report tomorrow where I make some statistics of my dreams, dream signs and more.

This morning when my early alarm (the one that wakes me up in an REM-cycle and allows me to have good DR) went of I laid back and tried remembering my dreams. I knew I had 5 dreams but I accidently fell back asleep and woke up 5 hours later with just one dream left!

1. A small collection

I'm somewhere on the outskirts of Disneyland I think, the sun is setting and there are little houses everywhere. I enter one which is a shop selling high quality watches, more specific it sells the brand Omega. I ask to see a collection and the shopkeeper grabs a glass box with 4 watches in, the one on the left is the 'Dark side of the moon' watch. I want to take a closer look at it but it has a stickers over it which blocks the view. I tell him this and he becomes very unfriendly, I exit the shop and walk away, it's already night and very dark. Wait! As I'm typing this I remember another dream!

2. Tanks tanks tanks

I'm flying around a dirt road that leads through a forest and over canyons, a lot of tanks drive over it and they belong to my team. Another team drives the opposite way with tanks and shoots back but we're with many more tanks and push them back. The road first makes a U-turn because some mountains are in the way then it leads through a zigzagging parcour in a small valley, I think the time is dawn or noon. It makes me think of the game 'Command and Conquer' that I played several years ago. Hmmm, I'm starting to get fragments of another dream, maybe I should really focus...

Unfortunatly the other dreams remain a mystery for now, maybe I will remember some more fragments throughout the day.