non-lucid

With the end of the month tomorrow and thus also it being time to review the results I think it's fair to say that it's time for change. I already talked about using DEILD for next month and stopping the WBTB-alarm, one of the goals of this month was archieving a succesfull WILD which I won't do next month cause doing a full WILD (not a short one using DEILD) seems to be too difficult in the house during an afternoon nap. I get interrupted constantly and I just don't have such a lucid-desire during the day. Dream-Recall goal for next month will likely be reduced from 4 minimum average per night to 3 because 3 is more than enough.

Anyway, the dreams this night were quiet highly detailed and vivid, able to support lucidity is you asked me.
I woke up once but moved before I realized it, I should really tell myself not to move.

1. Mine(craft)

I'm somewhere deep down in a cave in the game 'Minecraft', I'm digging up resources like Redstone and instead of ore I find complete blocks of pure Redstone. Then I have weird X-ray vision and I can see a bit better in the dark. Some creepers attack me but I can kill them with a sword, in the background I hear some voices of people reacting shouting things like "Oh god a creeper!" or "Watch out!".

2. The old house

I'm in an old house located probably somewhere in the middle of Antwerp during the Victorian era based on the clothing and poverty. I suddenly have two sisters instead of one IRL and the house we live in is in extremely bad condition. It could probably collaps any time, the floors were mostly gone on most levels meaning you could stand on the bottom of the house and look straight up to the roof. My sisters slept on the first floor and I slept in the attic, the way I reached this attic was by climbing a thin make-shift stair/ladder which was very dangerous but somehow I was used to it. The house also felt very cold because of holes in the roof and broken windows, it was probably winter outside.

3. The old/new farmhouse

I'm aproaching a large farmhouse with my dad, there's a snow storm going on and visibility is bad probably 10 meters at most. The house is remote with some fields around it and than a thick forest, at first from the outside it looks very old and maybe also derelict. Once we get inside it is quiet dark and cold, we quickly go around turning on all the heaters which also provides light throughout the house. While I go around turning on the heaters I realize just how large this place is and I think of how nice it could be if renovated. Slowly I realize I'm suddenly in the same house but it is very modern and nicely decorated. On the second floor somewhere in the back of the house I find two rooms which are seperated by a glass wall. The room I stand in first is empty and I think just a lounge corner. The other room which I enter not much later has some fitness equipment in it and upon better inspection also has 2 baths and a shower which makes me really happy cause it seems so usefull. Both rooms have a beautifull view over the field infront of the house which is completely covered in snow. It is evening and the snow storm is still raging outside so I can't look very far outside still. I feel an intense joy as if I own this house and I never want to leave it.

Remember when I said my goal for this month was to have atleast 4 LDs? Well, time is running out and this night is pretty much my last chance at archieving that goal. The plan: Have succesful DEILD and linking atleast 2 LDs together like a lucid-master that had years of practise. I can already imagine what my mantra will sound like or rather me threatening myself to have LDs, OR ELSE!

Dreams from last night were quiet clear and I woke up twice in between dreams.

1. The perfect match

I'm playing a weird football game with people I know from school in some giant ice stadium. It's not normal football though, you hold some board and carry a small yellow ball in it. You run and try throwing the ball towards the goal using the board but the most difficult part is actually getting the ball when it's on the ground. Anyway, I'm really good at it for some reason and we make a lot of points. The end score: 211-21 which made a player from the other team really pissed. He's a guy I know from school IRL and he's a jerk... really he thinks he's the man while actually he smokes some joints behind school every midday. Back to the dream again, I'm about to leave the stadium, everyone already left but I hear something. When I check back I see the person from the other team beating up an employee from the stadium throwing him against the wall. He quickly gets taken away by the security and I make my way to the cafeteria where I see a teacher sitting at a table. I go up to him and sit down, I ask him where everyone is cause besides him and me the whole place is deserted. He tells me to go and look around.

I wake up, try doing SSILD I think but quickly fall asleep again.

2. The shop

The dream picks up where the previous one stopped, I make my way to a video shop across the lobby in the stadium where I see some people. I'm already glad to see some life cause I have this constant eery feeling that something might get me when I'm alone. I look around but don't see any familiar faces, there's one guy I remember quiet clearly, he was sitting at a desk testing out a new computer or game. He had long slightly red hair and looked like a stereotype gamer, he was wearing pink headphones and I didn't bother making any contact with him. I looked around searching for a film or game I might like but realize I don't have any money so I leave.

I don't know wether I wake up again or just keep dreaming, it's very blurry.

3. Snowy mountains

Somewhere in this giant stadium complex I find a doorway which leads to a MASSIVE indoor mountain range completly snowed under. I don't know how I navigate it so quickly but I think I have some snowboard with a propulsion system on it. I fly over the mountain zigzag down at high speed, in short I have a good time but then I notice I'm all alone. My snowboard breaks and it falls down a grate near the entrance of the indoor mountain. I can't reach it and get that eery feeling again.

Looking back on my poor lucidity from last weeks I decided to introduce a new technique and change my sleeping schedule. The WBTB-alarm is no more, it was a fun experiment to see if it worked for me and I used it for a little more than a month now so I think it's time to move on. From now on I'll make use of auto-suggestion and DEILD/SSILD. This was the first night I tried auto-suggestion and it worked extremely good, if not too good. You see, I read a lot about DEILD the day before and it said how one shouldn't make use of an alarm that he/she has to manually shut off because you're not allowed to move and instead it was adviced to make use of auto-suggestion. Auto-suggestion isn't entirely new to me, last year when I had a DJ over at LD4all I didn't have any alarm yet so my only option was naturally awakening with the help of auto-suggestion. The only difference is that back then I told myself to wake up at a certain time, now I told myself to wake up after every dream. It woke me up 4 times, which was quiet annoying at first but now I see the potential in this. There was one problem though, every time I woke up my left leg was bended upwards like this.




Anyway, I had some interesting dreams which I could remember quiet well because of this fragmented sleep.

1. The seminar

I'm entering the dining room of my grandparent's house, not for diner but because there's a seminar for learning how to model and render stuff on the computer. The room was slightly larger than normal with some desks against the wall that had computers on them, on the table in the center of the room were two computers. There were 3 people in the room, two sitting at a desk and one who aproached and welcomed me. He asked me if I had some experience and I told him I'd been rendering with Blender for some time. I sat down at the table and waited, we ate some fries and after some hours it got late. The atmosphere was really good and I enjoyed my stay but I decided to go home. On my way home there was a parked car that I wanted to enter or just run passed but it moved forward and backward blocking my way. I got extremely annoyed and began shouting at the driver who seemed to be angry too. Then when I passed the fry shop in the center of town I met up with my mother. She wanted to go and eat some fries but I told her I had already eaten fries that midday.

I wake up, before I realize it I already moved and was fully awake. After 20 minutes I fell back asleep.

2. The new teacher

I'm at school, it's the first day and I have chemics. The teacher is new, the whole class is new and I seem to get along with everyone quiet well. Infact I'm the most popular guy after some minutes, anyway the lesson is very interesting and we get to do a lot of experiments ourself. I'm a bit sloppy and the person I was working with did most of the work. Then the class was over and I made my way to next class, which was also chemics with same teacher but in a different room. Or rather the room changed after I'd been in there for some minutes. He tolds us we would watch a film, I took a place and waited for it to start.

I wake up again, I don't move but notice my left leg is bended. Although strange I don't give it much thought and reposition myself.

3. War horse II

The film we're watching is 'War horse II' (IRL I watched the first one but didn't see the beginning, I started watching when the cavalry gets mowed down by the machine guns.) the opening scene is some people getting in two rowing boats with a horse, it's very foggy. I feel as if this is the same opening scene from the first film. (I have never seen the opening scene of the fist film IRL, I swear if it's the same scene as I saw in the dream I'm a wizard!) First the movie explains how the horse is a hero, it has fought in over 50 battles and so deserves to be resqued. It is wounded and laying somewhere in Nazi-occupied territory, next I see a strategic map on which plans get drawn out to resque the horse. They can't just go in and take the horse back cause they would look like enemy's aproaching the base and be shot down by MGs. The second plan was to transport the horse over a river in the north, however there was a minefield there so that was not going to happen either. The last plan was to go over the river, dig a channel from that river to another river leading into friendly territory and then using a submarine to go passed the defenses.

Hi guys, it seems like life just won't give me a good chance of doing SSILD or anything really in my WBTB-time. This morning the loud alarm of the dryer across the hall pounded through my door and because I was alone I had no choice but to get up and clean the filters. IT HURTS!

1. Make it stop!

I'm watching some film about a university somewhere in the middle east I guess and there's a student standing in an alleyway. He's moving around a bit like he's trying to dance but then suddenly he get's shot down and he blood just flies out. All that's left is a small puddle of blood. Then I'm home with my family and we're watching TV, I think we just watched the guy get shot on TV. Anyway we're talking for a while and then I hear the alarm of the dryer quiet loud, I go upstairs and clean the filters but it keeps alarming. I walk around the house thinking the sound would go away but it seemed to follow me, I thought I had tinnitus and started panicking. Then I woke up and noticed the alarm, I was so tired and in the right mood for FILD but I had no choice. Getting up hurts a lot!

I go back to sleep but my motivation for lucidity is quiet bad at this point.

2. Atlantis

I'm with a team and we're searching for the legendary city of Atlantis, the ships look like they came straight from 15th century Spain. We sail in a large cave somewhere under the ocean, it's very dark but we can see lights on the horizon. When we get there the city is deserted, it's very large with Farmland around it and everything a city needs. Large holes in ceiling of the cavern let light reach the city but large parts of the city are still dark. Suddenly I'm playing some RTS and I have a large army of spearmen to fight an oponent. At first I like the look of it but then I see you can make buildings for upgrades and stuff which makes me loose interest. I play on anyway and launch a first assault with roughly 1000 spearman, I feel like I will win this first engagement but my units get defeated quiet quickly and then the game advices me to upgrade the units. Now the enemy is charging me, I get a menu where I can choose the upgrades, I have a lot of points so I take all the upgrades.

Last night went all good and well and I was ready to do some serious SSILD in the morning but then I got stung atleast 30 times by an army of mosquitos. I hope you understand I began panicking slightly...

1. Who was that?

I'm in a historical city center and it's close to midnight, it's still very crowded though and I guess it must've been new year's eve or something. Anyway, there was a woman that I was following and she didn't seem to mind my interest. She entered a building close to the central plaza that look very warm and inviting, it was quiet cold outside. However I knew there weren't any entrances open on ground level so I began thinking of going over the roofs and finding a way in there. But where do you get on the roofs in a city?

2. Gansta

I'm a gangsta all the way, the right clothing, not washed in probably a week and addicted to drugs. I'm meeting up with another member to probably make a deal or something, it's getting late and I'm somewhere on a Industrial part of town. The person I met up with walked with me for a second to his partner, that partner was waiting in a car for us further up ahead. I walk up to the car and notice a green gas coming from the car, as if something in there was rotting. It was really dark and I suddenly used a flash light to shine through the back of the car which was open, I saw a bit of blood. I quickly ran towards the car and checked the driver, his face was beaten up and blooded. At first I thought he was dead but then after some time he started moving. I called the police and paramedics which arrived at the same moment, I was thinking of finding the one who did this and taking revenge. But what would I do with him if I found him? I suddenly had a 8-bit map infront of me of the whole city, I looked around for a bit but didn't find any location where I could dump the guy when I found him. Then the person I met up with adviced me to dump him at a sewer treatment plant, at the edge of town which was displayed as a factory and poop.

3. Really!?

I have an FA in which I tag down the dreams I had in my DJ and go back to sleep, this is also the reason why I don't remember two more dreams I had this night.

Last night no LDs yet but I can just feel it being so close that I might be writing my text in red next night again, if you know what I mean...

So today I was sitting in the car waiting and I had this idea about how I could enhance my RCs and do them with more awareness. This is what I ended up doing, I closed my eyes and imagined myself being very tired, laying down in bed and falling asleep. I open up my eyes again and imagine the current situation (in this case sitting in the car) to be a dream. It felt very weird and I was actually questioning myself wether it was a real dream or not, I think this is very good for doing RCs with a true doubt and awareness.

Anyway, the dreams which weren't that interesting.

1. Weird RPG

I'm playing some RPG set in a post apocalyptic world, the map is mostly mountains covered in snow and ice. I roam around until I jump over a mountain and nearly land in a small camp of other players, they start shooting at me the moment they saw me. I run away but get hit a few times, I feel quiet stressed and don't really know where to go next.

2. Leave!

I'm with my family in a car and we're driving out of a city, somewhere in the middle east I guess. There's a war going on or something. Very blurry and not vivid.

3. Something with wood

I walk into the old large garage our house had some years ago with a small hand axe in my left hand. My sister and dad walk next to me and I think we're heading for the car in the back. First I intent to chop down some trees for wood that my sister needs I guess. there are some small dead trees in the garage to seemed to have grown straight through the concrete. I chop one of them and a small part of the axe's handle breaks, I throw the piece away and continue chopping, it lands on the ground in thin plates. Then I suddenly look at a map of Spain and Portugal. My sister lives in the center of Spain and I live at the border of Spain and Portugal. My quest is to deliver some wood from my home to my sister, I look at myself from a 3rd person view. I can only walk for a certain amount of time indicated by a red bar in the top right of my view, it quickly fills up and the screen starts mildly flashing. The walk from my home to my sister is probably 50 meters if I recall that crossed a city and a market place. When I stopped at my sister's house she opened and accepted the wood, it was getting dark and I thought it would be logical if she was to let me stay for the night. She let's me in and the house is one large room that is mostly empty but somehow very cosy. It has a Spanish look to it and some carpet on the floor.

I've been thinking of why I'm not having any LDs lately or why my DR ain't that awesome and I think I found a reason. Everytime my WBTB alarm goes off I lay back and try remembering my dreams but I actually end up dreaming I'm writing in my DJ tag-book what I dreamed. I think I could use this to my advantage as it seems to work really fast and if I can think of doing RCs I might do DEILD.

Anyway, a single dream out of several which I forgot.

1. Is this a prison?

I'm walking around outside a prison, there's someone with me and we're both wearing orange suits. The yard is massive and closed of with massive fences, topped off with barbed wire and flood lights. The complex is absolutely enormous, each yard is 4 football fields large and there are 8 yards I think for different prisoner groups. However these yards seem to have openings between each other that you can pass through. Then suddenly the guy next to me gives me a task to beat up some prisoners, my view shifts to a top-down view of the entire prison, red dots mark the targets. There are I think more than 50 dots all scattered around the complex. I'm thinking more about how I'll get to them instead of how I'll beat them, then after some walking around I find an opening between a yard and the outside world. I have a weird feeling that even though I could run away, I'd still be imprisoned. I did it anyway and some prisoners followed quickly, I tried avoiding any contact with the other inmates as I run along the base of a mountain. The location was probably somewhere in the north of the US, maybe along the border of Canada. It was very mountainous and it just felt overwhelming. The sun was setting by the time I got out.

Last night was quiet good, had 5 real dreams which were all quiet vivid and long. However I do remember my goals that I made for myself at the beginning of July which was to have a minimum of 4 LDs. We're currently at 2 but I hope that in the next 7 days I will have some more. As for the goal of 4 dreams average a night I really don't know if I can make that goal considering my DR lately.

Anyway the dreams.

1. This is not my table...

I'm waiting with my family and cousins in the entrance hall of a restaurant, we're waiting for a free table and we've been standing there for a while now. Eventually we enter the restaurant itself and I look around for a table, most are already full and I feel silly for walking around the whole restaurant multiple times. Then I suddenly take a seat at the table in the very middle of the room, I look around and with me are my friends sitting around me. Their faces were very detailed and vivid.

2. Can't catch me now! Oh wait...

I'm somewhere in Austria, in a very dense forest. It's warm and the sun is shining clear through the trees above. I walk in some abandoned trailer park and jump on a trailer, I'm holding a white plastic tube in my right hand which gives me the ability to fly! I'm amazed by the view, I'm flying high above the mountains and valleys between them. Every single tree I can see from 4 KM altitude is still extremely detailed and I feel so free. I think I'm flying around for like 10 minutes, then I think about going faster. I'm suddenly in an invisible Jet and rapidly accelerating, I can feel myself being pushed back into the invisible chair with the strength of 5 Gs probably. I kept going faster and my altitude was dropping, until I was barely above a road. I quickly flew under highway signs but then I suddenly got teleported to the forest where I started and I had done something that had pissed of a crowd of people. I was being chased by maybe 50 people and when I got the trailer park I thought of flying but couldn't. Right at that moment I lost my confidence and really started panicking.

3. Visitation

I'm with my mother visiting some people in an appartement somewhere in a city I don't know, the city is quiet empty with boring buildings. When we decided to leave and went down the staircase I saw my grandmother through the glass who wanted to enter the building. For some reason I wanted to avoid any contact with her so I hide behind the door but my mother is still on the staircase so she would pass her. They cross each other and so I'm revealed too, they have a short conversation in which they act like they're just having a friendly talk with each other but actually they're angry. After that we leave and walk around the city for a bit.

4. A good start

It's the first day of school and I'm walking to my class, I have economics. The school is really dark and quiet, it feels cold like it's an early winter morning and I'm late. I notice most students already in their classes and when I reach my class another student enters and is late too. However he has a note in his agenda and I forgot mine so I have to go back to the administration to get one which annoys the teacher. They're watching some documentary about economy I think. After I get my note and return to the class I notice the teacher and most students are sleeping on their desk, the teacher wakes up a little bit and slowly gives a sign that he doesn't really care about my presence. I leave the school.

5. Who's this jerk?

I'm with a reporter and driving on a highway, something happened and we're heading there to make a report. Along the way we stop at a pump station where I meet a man who's supposedly a well know figure in the press world. We laugh a bit but there's some friction between our two personalities, almost like we could start fighting any moment. I offer him a coca cola which sprays him full with coke as soon as he opens it.

I think I might get lucid soon, I'm int he right mood.

Really, I'm desperate for another LD it's like I'm on a withdrawal or something!

1. War game

I'm playing some kind of game, it's an RTS and I see small groups of soldiers and tanks driving around a city killing monsters I think. They have little nametags above them which goes red when they die, some texts are larger than other. The city looked cold, maybe somewhere in Russia?

2. Excluded

I'm walking to the supermarket with a good friend of mine and we talk about a task of history that we finished some time ago. (IRL it was a group task and we had to find as much information about a random WW1 soldier as possible, I found a death prayer card, his grave, where he fought and how he died.) We walked inside and I saw long rows of books/bundles, these were the tasks of other groups and I was wondering if our copy was in there too. After some searching I found nothing but I did stumble across a blue book with title 'The first world war.'. Then I look at a pile of bundles on the ground which my friend was already searching through, there I found a document with my class-code on '5 EWe' which stands for '5 Economie Wetenschappen', translated in english '5 Economics and Science'. I talked to him for a while about why we weren't included and the last I know is looking down an aisle.

3. What happened here?

I'm in an old mansion somewhere in spain, I think it's the mayor's house of a small town because throughout the dream I sometimes had a bird's view of the surroundings which showed a large white house on a hill with smaller houses around it and a large wall. Inside the house is completely deserted, it's slowly crumbling and the sun shines weakly through the large windows in the main hall. There are massive staircases leading up to the second floor, it's difficult to describe this hall so I'm attempting to recreate in using Blender but this could take many more months of learning. Anyway, I'm walking around and sometimes catch glimpses of ghosts, a small boy and his father. I also experience flashbacks where I see the kid playing with a red ball in his hand, he throws it up against the ceiling on the stairs and some of the ceiling crumbles down. His father is angry about him damaging the ceiling so he takes the ball and starts damaging the ceiling even more. I think he wants to damage it more and then tell his wife or something the kid did it so he gets punished more I think. I also see this happening in the present time in the old abandoned house, the ghost look like humans but are dark grey and you can see through them.

Sorry I'm a bit late with this one, I just couldn't find a moment yesterday to make this entry.

1. The German hotel

I'm in a hotel somewhere in Germany, it's rather small and is located on a hill in the middle of a city. It's quiet late and the sun is starting to set, it's winter by the way and there's snow outside covering the whole city. I'm walking through some hallways with my mother and sister, we go on a balcony which is normally only for employees but it was open and we walked through the door. By now it's night and the moon shines bright and blue high up in the sky, the view from the balcony is beautifull with a panorama over the city with it's lights. It is very cold and the balcony floor is covered in ice, on a low wall are 3 wooden barrels, they're open and in these I see a liquid, it's beer! Although it's freezing outside the beer is not frozen, I think of a YT-video where someone puts a coke in the freezer, takes it out liquid, gives it a shake and it instantly freezes. So I stick my hand in the beer and it quickly starts freezing, I pull out and there's a little chunk of beer-ice on my finger. I eat it and it tastes like frozen beer. Then I'm suddenly in the restaurant of the hotel, it's very small and thin but nice. After some time I say I'm already going to the hotel room to get a shower. Suddenly I'm showering.

Next entry will be up in a few minutes.

Last night went okay, I was able to fall asleep quiet fast despite the warm weather... that was until I woke up around 03:30. I was wide awake, so warm and I started almost panicking about how long this night would last. I was too scared to even move as it could wake me up even more, I was content with the fact I was in that limbo mode of sleep/awake where time seemed to pass faster than normal.

Anyway, two dreams.

1. A small problem

It's the first day of the school year and I'm waiting in the hallway infront of a class with some other students to get the administration done. Someone walks out and I'm called inside, the class is larger than normal and there's one table with on one side 2 chairs on which two of my teachers sit, on the other side no chair. I walk up to the table and crouch on my knees instead, the floor is very soft almost like a sponge and it's quiet comfortable. One of the teacher says we should start with the paperwork, they start checking some files and after a minute he notices something. He tells me there's a problem with one page, it has a small hole in it that somehow corresponds to a file in the court of justice. It has something to do with a drug case and they ask me if I have anything to do with it, I respond saying I don't know of anything and they say it wouldn't be much of a problem. After some minutes they're done and lead me outside the class, they tell me it's all done and smile.

2. I'm quiet good at this!

I'm playing some game called 'Dwarf fortress', it's really difficult cause it uses ASCII-art and uses icons instead of graphics. I embark somewhere on a cold tundra and dig down, there I make a base. After some time the ASCII-icons fade away in a 3D graphic overview of the fort and it looks really good. I'm impressed with my work but notice how deserted everything is, then I notice a message in the bottom right of the screen which says some epidemic is going around and most dwarfs are either death or have abandoned the place.

This day I went to the beach and after some hours I got bored and decided to maybe do something that could help me with lucid dream control in the future. As you might've heard already one of my goals in lucid dreaming is to relive the Normandy landings of D-Day. There weren't many people anyway so I thought I could give it a shot. I went about 50 meters into the sea which was pretty much the limit of how far you were allowed to go that day. Then I looked back at the beach and tried visualizing the scene, I imagined MGs scattered throughout the polder embankments and mortars shells exploding on the beach. Then I tried to get up to the beach as fast as possible, I swear I could almost hear the gunfire and stuff. I kept it quiet discreet though, I must say even with just some swimming shorts on I was exhausted 70 meters up the beach.

Last night was so hot I actually decided to make my T-shirt wet and sleep on towels, however after 1 hour it did get quiet cold so I decided to go shirtless instead. Then it was too hot again, in the end I managed to fall asleep around 03:00.

1. This is art!

I'm in some art/cultural class and it's the end of the year, our last task is to make a self portret... out of the VOMIT FROM OTHER PEOPLE! Really she showed us a small bottle of brown vomit and told us it was excellent for painting. I exit the class without much trouble and start asking around for people to vomit into a bottle I'm holding. I end up driving past a game shop and stopping to pick up a public Phone, I ask in English if the person would like to meet up with me and 'donate' some of his vomit. It actually goes really smooth and I can't believe I spoke English so fast and clear, then I drove away.

2. Mac Donald?

I'm rapidly riding around on a motorcycle somewhere in an indoor chinese town almost, the Streets are extremely narrow. I drive past a Mac Donalds and see my mother on another motorcycle falling, not hard but I expected her to break her arm or something. Later I'm suddenly in her bedroom and she tells me her foot hurts a lot, I help her sitting on the bed and inspect the damage, her foot looks a bit red but I don't notice anything else.

Anyway, I really hope on lucidity soon as I think I have yet to experience a serious LD with a purpose.

Last night I had several dreams but those were quickly forgotten, however one dream was just so close to being lucid I just couldn't think about anything else.

1. Seriously!?

I'm walking towards a retirement house somewhere in a city and I see old people running around the building on the second floor 'Assasins creed' style. Suddenly I'm up on that floor and standing on the narrow ledge infront of a window, it's a 10 meter drop and old people run past me like they're doing a marathon. Inside is a restaurant and my family is there, waiting for the food and I'm looking around. I carefully navigate around the building holding anything to keep me on the ledge until I encounter the hotel manager I think who points down at some trampolines. He sais it's perfectly fine and I should jump off, I refuse and he goes first instead, he jumps but lands on his back on the road below. I expected him to break his back or be dead but he quickly stood up and stumbled away shouting "I'm okay!". At this point I feel as if I'm being fooled in some TV-show, I quickly jump in the building through the open window and I'm in the other part of the restaurant. I'm so angry, I bust through the doors of the kitchen to make my way to the other side of the restaurant to my family, while I'm walking I do the nose-plug RC 3 times and 3 times I can breath normally. I just don't focus on it because I'm so furious . When I get to the table and look at my parents I say "Wait" *Realizing it's a dream...*, I wake up.

Really, I was SO CLOSE. If had noticed it a second earlier I would've been able to stabilize it!

Last night started good going to bed at midnight, after 10 minutes I began getting sleepy, nearly actually fell asleep when... the fucking mosquitos came! Really, 1 hour later and I'm in some weird awake/sleeping limbo state and I keep waking up fully each 40 minutes or so. When it was 04:30 and I still hadn't archieved full sleep I knew my LD chances for tonight were gone so I stopped the WBTB alarm of 06:00. Eventually around 06:40 I fell asleep and I woke up at 09:00 from my normal alarm. Fortunatly in that short sleep I had two dreams. Seriously, brain what are you doing!?

1. Combat zone

I'm somewhere outside in a massive park with stone roads for pedestrians that are 10 meters wide and go of into the distance as far as the horizon. It's morning and I'm at the entrance gate of this park, there are soldiers stationed on both sides checking everyone walking in and out, I guess this is some border between two countries maybe? Anyway suddenly a fight occurs and soldiers begin fighting each other, I run for several minutes untill I reach another gate where things are more calm. I think this took place near Russia atleast that's how it felt.

2. A new Disney film

I'm in my livingroom ready to leave and my family is also preparing, my sister is grabbing her Phone and my mother is probably doing her hair upstairs. I'm standing in the backyard, looking up to the evening sky which is packed with thousands of bright stars. I'm in complete awe of all the colourfull dots, red, blue, green, yellow any colour you can think of with a beautiful sunset behind it all. I walk inside looking for my sister cause I want her to see all of this but she quickly turns me away and tells me to leave her alone. I don't care anymore and go back to witness the panorama on my own then. As I look up it suddenly gets darker and clouds gather blocking the view, and I get called because we're ready to leave. I don't remember any driving or transportation to the cinema. Instead I suddenly saw the trailer of this new Disney film we were going to, it was about 2 foxes, male and female. The animation looked quiet good. It was the usual plot Disney uses, first they don't like each other, then they're forced on an adventure together, then they fall in love. At the end of the trailer I saw them kissing in a small boat with romantic music and thought "Wait, ain't this a spoiler? Well fuck, worst trailer ever.", right after that I was suddenly walking with my family in the cinema lobby which was completely empty. Although I was slightly annoyed cause the plot was spoiled for me I did look forward to seeing the whole film.

Hopefully next night I'll be more Lucky, it's warm again so I guess a thinner blanket would help sleeping.

This early morning I remembered some dreams but didn't bother writing them down as they were quiet dull, I kept one just to keep the DR busy. However I did have one micro-lucid which only lasted 2 seconds unfortunatly.

1. First day

I'm at school walking around the yard and I notice all the buildings are wide open and there's some sort of party going on, a party for the first day of school I think. (IRL we don't have any party's) I talk to a lot of people and notice how many new people there are in my class. (IRL we currently have a system which makes classes very static and they don't change in the last years) Anyway, some sort of show is about to start and next to the canteen I see chairs in a row with umbrellas over them cause it's Sunny. I take a seat and wait, around the yard students gather for what's about to take place.

2. Micro lucid° (SEMI)

I'm walking down a corridor, it's pitch black and I feel as if my eyes are closed. I'm already aware, trying to stabilize and also build up the dream but it quickly fades away.

Well, I guess after some thinking I might try FILD out again, this morning I was in the perfect condition for it but I didn't thought of using it.