McDreamy

I'm not sure if I became fully lucid, but at least partially lucid. It was a long dream but I only remember part of it now. I was congratulating my friend from graduating while he was at a desk at school, and then he insulted me I think. I was in a washroom next but then the power went out. It was really creepy so I decided to get into the limosine with my friends who were waiting outside. They said that someone else was going to get picked up next so I would have to push over. I remember looking out the window and thinking that as long as I tried to use all of my senses and really focus on my surroundings the dream wouln't end. But it wasn't an aha! moment.

I am at a strange school and carrying some things for someone. I am outside where some railroad tracks used to be on elevated ground on the side of a field. It is a heated moment, and there are people who are very angry and almost rioting. In this dream I have children, and they are yelling at me about them. Why are they in school!?!? I just kindof end up on the bottom of the hill and curl into a ball crying. Ask them! You'll have to ask them!!! I spit out with lots of tears. My mom and sister are suddenly there, and there is a person with a gun. The three of us start to run down the old tracks as fast as we can. I encourage them on and tell them not to stop. We get to the entrance to some woods, and there is some silky material hanging down, and for some reason this is safe so we stop to make camp because it is night time. I wonder why this silky stuff makes us safe, and am a bit afraid that the gunman is going to sneak up on us in our sleep.

I am at a restaurant with a girl I used to have a crush on and her little sister. We are talking about things that I don't remember, but I deliberately try to include her little sister in the conversation. It is getting late and Ayesha has to get to some ball or dance or something. I get up to go to the washroom and there is a plate of food that is going to be wrapped. Sandwhiches and some cheese. I remember Ayesha was asking me if I wanted to share her limo, and her face was turning red. She looked like she wanted to spend some more time with me. I was so happy at this and thought that I had gotten another shot at this girl that I was too nervous to ask out before. On the way to the washroom I accidently pee in my pants a bit. I get to the washroom and there are stalls for the urinals. They are about 2 feet wide, so I had to really squeeze inside without much room to move. The urinal now looked more like a toilet and it itself extended back a good 2.5 feet. Very wide too and reminded me of a large bird bath. I started to go, but my hands were shaking quite a bit and I tried very hard not to get any on myself. I did it! I am leaving, but now there is a table next to the left of the stall and a wall on the right, creating a bit of an alley. There is a big muscular blond dude who looked like he was on some serious roids on the other side of the table. They were beating people up. I grabbed a knife from the table, there were lots of them and other weapons underneath newspapers or something. Mine is bigger than his so he backs off for a second and tries to go around the table to get me. I pick up another smaller knife, and hold it above my head threatening to throw it at him. He says something about the weight of the knife and is not afraid. The next thing I remember I am at my house with a few other friends and one of them is talking about his strategy for dealing with those guys in the washroom. He says he would have called them Nazis or something which would get them to stop because they aren't Nazis and would let him go just to prove that point.

I have fragment of driving in some remote area and pulling onto some road where a limosine I think was parked. I get into some kindof argument with somebody. SOme of my other friends and I are booking a hotel room, and talking about all the things we are going to do.

I am playing a board game with someone that I train in Krav Maga with. We are at my dining room table but the table is much wider than normal, and there large sections of it are a vevlet kindof green.

I am at my dining room table and my sisters boyfriend as well as her other friend are here as well. Erica made some large cookies on sticks with smarties in them. Plus some other chocolaty balls of cookie dough or something. They were really good and they made me try everything. I grabbed for the biggest cookie but it was kindof meshed together with a bunch of others and wasn't working, so we just pulled pieces of of it and ate. Erica did something and sis's bf uncharacteristically screamed as a joke. He's usually quiet and mellow. Somehow I'm on the other side of Erica now, I decide to go back to my regular seat and drink some milk. She looks odd. Almost the same, but not quite like real life.

I'm at a party with a few friends. I remember two couples were going down into the basement to have sex. Kayla is at the party, so is Robbie. That's all I remember.

I'm trying to catch a bus at school. There's this giant hill I have to run down to get to the train tracks to get the bus. I run along a path and see a couple people from school. While inside the station I'm trying to find my way out to the platform and run into Connor from when I was little.

I'm walking home and outside of my house there is a gang of people. One little teenager tries to get into a car infront of my house. He gets inside. Wait, that can't be his car I think. I yell and run up to the car and try to get him out of it. He drives up the street and there are lots of gangsters behind him. One of them pulls out a pistol and starts firing into the air. I am scared, so decide not go inside through my front door because I would be exposed to them for longer. I run into the backyard along the side of my house, and hide near some hedges on the side. There is a small small crack between my house and my neighboors which I peer through to try and spot where the gangsters are going. I see them walk by again. They are coming into the backyard, oh shit! I try and find a place to hide and go to the side of my house and lay behind a small wall. There is no way they would come over here. They have no reason to want to come in my backyard let alone where I am. They start walking towards me, and start walking through a hole in a fence leading to the front yard that wasn't there a moment ago. I'm pretending to be dead but one of them spots me! They all have guns but I wrestle the gun out of one of them and for some reason don't get shot.

I'm at school and walking up some stairs. There are two gangsters in the stairwell and one is screaming at the other. Something about doing things right. Now they are yelling "were going to get you!". Me and another guy both run through the halls of people. There are lots of gangsters with guns chasing me now, and I am bolting through doors and jumping down staircases trying to get away. I just can't seem to open and shut these doors fast enough, and they are really difficult to lose. I remember holding a glass door shut while one of the gangsters tried to open it and shoot me.

Tried to MILD last night, but didn't work

I am on these dark brown plains of dirt and gravol, with pools of water intermitently. This is around a larger body of water. The sky is a darkish grey. All of the animals are being confined to their own area. The seagulls in one island, the penguins in the other, etcetera. I don't know why this is, but there is someone with me who seems to be some kindof park ranger authority. I forget what happens first, me jumping into the water or the penguins, but both of us jump in. I'm swimming underwater and I run into the penguins swimming past me at lightning speed. I collide with some of them. Then I think I saw the seagulls fly across the sky, and everything was mixed up again.

I am with one of my friends on this small plain of islands (if that makes any sense, hard to describe). I realize that I can do whatever I want to do, and decide to go flying in my plane. (Don't have one IRL but have flown alot) I jump across some mounds of dirt/gravol that are raised a bit with water in the recesses. David says "Its too wet!" as I step in one place, "Its too dry!" as I step in another. I get to the school that is near my house, and I see a small biplane in the yard. I go up to them and ask them where they got it, because I had a plane like this tied up here before the storm. I forget what they say, but I see a few more biplanes tied up near the soccer field of the school. I see a much bigger biplane, a Curtiss JN4 Jenny. There it is! I go up to it and see that it has some damage. I notice that the stabilizers are damaged, and there are some in the middle of the tail which there are usually not. They are made of plastic, but more like a thin plastic wrapper, nothing that you would want on your plane.

I decide to go flying, and my old flying instructor is suddenly there. He tells me to turn on the radio and check for something. My parents are here now too, and my dad gets in the plane. He puts it into reverse which is impossible on these planes, and I am mildly annoyed. My instructor mentions something to my parents about how he wouldn't let me solo in these temperatures, but either way I'm about to go up! I am feeling nervous because I haven't flown in a long time, but also feel a sense of adventure in it. The next thing I know I am with my parents and two random girls in dresses that I do not know, near some trees next to the field. I think they made some clothing for me but I don't remember. One of them definetely likes me, and the other mentions that she could give me whatever clothes she made on an icecream date or something.

I have some fragments of another dream where I was in this store, and it was closing up. I was picking up some of my model soldiers from a box to take home. The owner was there, and so was my rival. (??) The owner mentions that I should go and live at the other retirement home now, she doesn't want me here anymore. I go around the corner where there are some older people in chairs near some stairs. I think I am crying, and tell them what happened when they ask. I remember being in a room with my parents and a bunch of others, and this girl I know from school comes in and is introduced to them. She is a lot cuter than I remember, and we make small talk.

Had a nap after not much sleep last night.

I was with some friends near this pool of water. It was really blue and looked very inviting. We were talking about how it is inviting and refreshing in the beginning but then turns red and burns you. As one of them said this I experienced being in the red water for a moment. The next thing I remember is that the Earth starts to turn on its side. Oh no, the world is ending. It was like the planet was flat and turning on its side, because I was struggling not to fall. I start to float and eventually start to fly but there was nothing unusual about this and I didn't become lucid. There were tall trees upside down and I was floating between the earth and them, looking up at the tree tops and the sky below them. I start to fly higher and now couldn't actually see anything, I just knew I was moving. I was going to go up through the atmosphere into space to look at the earth and see what was wrong, but the thought became kindof scary and I stopped.

I am a member of the night's watch from A Game of Thrones. There is this climbing competition in the middle of the ocean where we have to each try and get to the top of this tower of somesort and prevent others from doing the same. I swim to the tower and fight someone else trying to get up. One or two others are farther away in the water. I eventually get to the top, forget to juggle and lose after all my hard work. I am infront of this African tribesman somehow, maybe we are not in the ocean anymore. We bow to eachother. We are all at a table afterwords and I tell everyone that If I hadn't forgot, I would have won. I see my cousin under the table, but just her head. It looks as if the rest of her body should be sticking out, but there is nothing past the table cloth hanging down.

Dinner outside past the hedges in my backyard. Someone brings out the queen for a visit. She is horribly ill and disgusting. He helps her sit down and eat. I and a couple others are called into the yard by our commander. There is my shed, and we are being tested by searching it as a team. One of the other Nights watch guys opens to door while I keep a small cat at bay to the left. It lunges at me and bites at my fingers. Its poisonous! Is that what the commander wanted to happen? Good thing I was wearing my gloves.

I am going inside, but can't find my sword. Where is it? I look around, and ask some people but they don't know. Sam helps me for a moment, but doesn't really care and waves his knife at me in a threatening way. He is wearing golden gauntlets? I try a sword that might be mine, but its not it. My sword is a thick blade, but this one is skinnier and has a curve to it. Some big guy starts causing me trouble. He doesn't like me. He starts attacking me with his sword, and we start fencing. We aren't hurting eachother when we land hits though, and I am landing much more. All I remember now is him coming at me with a knife trying to kill me. We get inside, I try some knife defense techniques but they aren't working well. I manage to control his knife hand, but when I try to punch him back I can't inflict any pain. I'm too weak and he's way to strong. There's nothing I can do. I manage to get either his knife or another one in my hand and point it at his throught. I make some small holes in it just to let him know I'm serious. He gets the message I think.

We're on a couch or a bed now in the room, there are a lot of others and there is this martial arts instructor from Israel in the hallway talking to everyone about a test or something. The guy tries to stab me again, I am hitting him in the back of the head as hard as I'm just not strong enough..I yell out for help but nobody even turns their head to notice me. I just cry and move away and ask him to stop. He says "your a sensitive little guy aren't ya?" He gives me a hug.

I'm in my room at night and look out into the field outside of my window. I see a badger about twice the size of an elephant sniffing and grazing around. Okay...thats just wierd I thought. But this feels so real, how could it be fake? I plug my nose and breathe in through it, and I am able to do so. A dream! The badger runs and jumps/flies towards my window and I wake up.

Another dream was this sort of battle on a hill slope. There was this one man with glasses taken prisoner. He seemed like a nice guy, but the other soldiers or whomever were throwing small cherry sized explosives at him. I was throwing some at the soldiers. Then they loaded him with explosives from the inside, and his abdomen/chest exploded leaving a bloody space between his legs and his head. He was still alive to experience this and know that he was about to die, with half of his body gone. I felt so bad for him and was completely disgused.

05/10-11/11
Pre Sleep
-Chest technique (imagine all thoughts/worries etc go into a chest which locks and dissapears)
-Mantra: "I will lucid dream tonight, or very soon" for about 5 minutes
-Visualization: I visualized myself on a nude beach and becoming lucid
-Had music playing while sleeping and doing this, will try not for greater concentration
-During day started to practice some regular awareness, but was not all that successful

Sleep
There is a horrible firefight on the border of 2 berryfarms. Everyone is in military uniforms. I am with another guy who is leading me to the battle, and I have a pistol. I immediately see people being killed, so I dive behind this concrete little wall for cover. I start to fire, and everything is going fairly well. There are a few of them that suddenly run over to our side past us, but I point my gun at them and quickly start making gun firing noises "pew pew" and their run comes to a stop and they turn around to walk back. One man is near me and I mention I am a tourist, then he shakes my hand and goes to his side.

At one point I am being fired upon, and am hiddin behind my bunker. But it is only about a meter or so in length so I can't really move. Then someone comes into view behind the dividing metal chain fence and starts shooting at me. Theres nothing I can do because I have no ammo, and I think Im going to die.

Inside the Barn of the berryfarm there is a Walmart and I am in one of the isles. There is a bunch of gangsters wearing bandanas that knock me down and say theyre gonna kill me. They are the enemy that has infiltrated the barn. I can't just get up and try to fight or run because they'll shoot me. A woman in a walmart vest comes up and asks if I'm okay and relays messages between me and the gangster, like an interpeter. "He says he's going to kill you," she informs me. I think I got up and begged him not to kill me and said I respect him, and then we hugged and he let me go.

I'm walking through the isles and see a group of people from my highschool who are saying they are going to get them back for what they just did. About 4 redheads walk by me, and I wonder if this is a Redhead vs Black gangster battle. I go up some stairs and try to look for a weapon, but mostly I just am too afraid to go back to fighting. I see a desk and look through it and fight knives and short swords. I unsheath them and think they'll be good for close combat but I really need a gun instead. I go back to the stairs and see a yellow lab like my old dog, and my father who asks me why I am not outside fighting. I am way too afraid is what I'm thinking but don't say.

Postsleep thoughts
Reality Check confirms I'm awake. I was surprised how real the emotions were in the dream. The fear was very real. Too bad I didn't realize that it was odd that berryfarms would fight, or that a walmart would be inside a barn. I'll look over MILD class notes and see what else there is to try.

First Dream journal post. Not sure how often Im going to post here, but I think it might motivate me to record more dreams. Just finished the MILD class which was great btw, and highly recommended. Hopefully ill be posting some lucids soon!

16-17/02/11
Dreams/Lucids

Round #1
I decide I want to go downstairs from my room and sleep on the couch because my watch that I use for reality checks just burnt through and I saw pictures from a commercial on my bed and it all creeped me out. I go downstairs and my mom and dad are sitting on some school like chairs on the hardwood floor. My dad asks if I mind it if he sleeps on the couch instead, because he just had a really scary dream. He dreamt that in his closet, he found the easter bunny's ears, and he was talking about the voice that followed him. "Don't tell me about the voice!" I say. Whoever I'm talking to is walking backwards away from me into the hall as I am speaking to them. My mom sais that dad had a dream that my grandmother tried to kill everybody. My eyes are watering as they say this, because I had a dream where I saw easter bunny's ears in the closet (although didnt actually). Its odd that they are up I think, and my grandparents are both there now too.

I'm talking with my uncle Jerry on the phone in my computer room. Its very dark and scary and Id like to get out of the room, but I stay on the phone to be polite. He's asking me about thanksgiving and if my dad would be interested in going to someone elses house, because of the tough times and because the rich should help the poor. I try and get off the phone, and see Ryan outside trying to ring my doorbell, but my dogs run up from somewhere and chase him off. Now im in the car with my parents, my dog is squished between some glass and her eyeballs are bulging. "Yep, she definetely has the muscle." I remember being in my room and looking at some books with the covers strange. Wake up.

Round #2
--I'm with this other man and we are either driving something to a driveway or watching a trailor pull in. We talk to the owner who is old man, and give him his metal garbage wastebucket which he just throws into a huge pile of garbage. Were trying to get an interview with him, but oh shit he's in the mafia. Cars drive by and give us a warning, then come around and start shooting. Im on a driveway behiind a snowbank a ways down the road and crawl very fast up the driveway. Look for a place to hide, decide to hide in the snow. Get into a hole and its wayyyy to deep. Im verticle in the snow, but I dont think Ill ever get out, im way too far down. I climb up abit and realize that I can get out. I put my hood down so I can put some snow on my head incase they look down the hole. Jimmy looks down and I get out cuz he's a narc/rat. He physically looks like a rat, and i try to convince him not to rat on me.

I jump some fences into some backyards, then get to one I can't get over so I go back. There is razor wire tho and I get all cut up. There is a prescription bottle I pick up, and go into a house where there is kids and other people in the living room. I throw the bottle at this one man, because he is part of a group of people that is against prescriptions. Im happy that progress is being made tho.

--I'm at a party with people from my program at uni. Walking down the street talking to someone, but I fall back so a girl that likes him can be alone with him. Theres a train or long bus that is a transformer? It screws up and backs into a small plaza and looks realy small suddenly like a toy. Im at another house with old friends. I go into the attic following this girl from my program who is wearing really tight pants, and is really hot. Im in the attic with 2 girls, its cramped and lots of flirting. I look to the window, its way too small to crawl out of incase of an attack and need to escape. Theres another door that opens up and another cute girl is there. The room she stays in is huge with a huge window u could jump out of.

Im in a room at the party with a pool table and not alot of people. A professor comes in and jokes that he should lock us in the room. Says we need to be quiet, someone is sleeping at the party. There's all kinds of girls around me now, and connor is in the next room talking to some of them, saying "If you get him drunk now, you can do whatever u want with him." I see them using hand signals to eachother, and they sit around me and on me. Its strategic. My elbow was accidently blocking this other girls view to my right that I didn't see. I apologize and introduce myself. Shes cute, wearing some black sunglasses and looks kindof like Tina Fey? She's in her 2nd year in my program. She says "Its a good thing you and ur friends did well academically this year, if not you would have a punishment/rough initiation with water and sharks." I kindof attack another 2nd year for even thinking of doing that. My hood is up during all of this which is unlike me, and the prof came over behind us to listen in on the conversation. I grab a bagel bit, and try and put some peanut butter on it but its too runny and wet. Wake up.