Mydera

I only remember one dream today, but I think to be honest that it's a few dreams that follow the same basic time line as I'm trying to remember to not open my eyes and just go back to sleep and DEILD.

The dream starts out in a classroom. I'm joking around and talking to the people in the class. It's a very comfortable atmosphere, and where as I usually feel awkward in crowds, I'm really happy and comfortable. I think it's a history class, or maybe it's a technology class and we're talking about fantasy/rpg video games because I'm pretty sure we were talking about knights and battles. Then I'm in the hallway, and talking to a guy who has dark hair and looks nothing like me, yet I get the feeling I'm pretending like he's my brother in this school for some reason. He's telling me that I need to get out because something's about to happen. My husband shows up, but in the dream he's just my friend we're not romantically involved at all. He takes my hand and promises to take me out of the place where I'll be safe. Then I see the guy giving a girl with curly black hair orders, she grabs something and runs off. I see in third person her throwing the thing she grabbed and it explodes. I'm pretty sure she can't have survived that in the dream. Then me and my husband are in a little restaurant. I see the dark haired guy and a couple other people as well as the girl who threw the thing that exploded. I'm avoiding him, I'm angry because I hold it against him that he made the girl throw the bomb. He tries to talk to me all causally and joking, but I'm ignoring him completely. I'm standing by the soda machines, filling up my cup. The guy walks up and puts a hand on my shoulder, and I'm becoming very calm and comfortable not so much pissed off anymore. He turns me around and asks me why I'm upset, and I tell him. He points to the girl as if to show me she's fine, then the tells me he had no other choice. He tells me he didn't put the bomb there, someone else had, and his main priority was making sure I was safe. He tells me the girl has the best throw of everyone he knows, and if she hadn't been the one to throw it it would have blown up too closely to the school and then everyone would have died. Then the people at the table hear him talking about the explosion and they start laughing and talking about how the girl was covered in blood after the explosion and how I should have seen how messy her hair was. I keep thinking she should have died, but when I'm looking right at her, I know she didn't. Still, all the talk about her being covered in blood is just not something I want to hear, so I grab my husbands hand and walk out to the car. Then the dream shifts again. Now I'm in a small boat, in a shallow river. I'm laying in the boat, and my husband is steering the boat and somehow making it go up the river towards the top of a mountain. We pass by a bridge, and there are people on it and they're staring at me weird. I realize I'm naked in the boat, so I reach over and grab a towel and lay it over myself so you can't tell. The boat reaches the top of a small hill, dips down over it, then goes back up the mountain. Then the boat stops against the shore and my husband puts the oar down and starts to drag the boat onto the shore where it can't float off. I jump out of the boat splashing a lot in the water, getting soaked, and start to wrap up with the towel, but then I find that it's hard to run wrapped up, and I decide to just hold the towel and run. So I'm running up the last of this mountain, and I see tents all over the place, and people sitting around small fires. They don't seem to mind me running naked at all. They barely even notice me, but this place feels like home and I'm struck with the notion that no one cares because this happens a lot. I'm running along the side of the creek. I realize that I'm not really sure where I'm running to, so I stop and notice I'm standing by a little grey outbuilding that might be a campground bathroom? I start to run away from the water and towards the woods, then I remember that all I need to do is feel for energy, and the energy will show me which way to go. I feel a strong pull slightly behind me to the left, on the other side of the grey building back towards the creek but still farther up from where I was, not back tracking. I run that way, and I see a campfire and a red beat up truck and a big tent. There are five people seated around the camp fire. The five people are my two kids, and then three guys around my age. When I arrive at the campfire, I can see that two of the guys are a bit on the heavier side and have messy dark hair, not long but not short, shaggy I guess? and one has a beard. The third guy is the one who's energy I'm feeling, the one that's pulling me over there. I'm briefly confused. I want to say he's the brother from earlier in the dream, but then he looks completely different. He has Kurasawa's energy, but his hair is different. Instead of being the frizzy straight that his hair normally is, or the messy wavy, it's full out curly with a beanie. He says hey to me, and I sit in his lap and give him a quick kiss, but then part of me still feels like I'm earlier in the dream and supposed to be treating him like a brother or something. I jump out of his lap, and he tells me that the wind is cold and I'm wet, I should cover up or get back in the water away from the wind. I decide I want to get in the water, so I run back into the creek until I'm submerged up to my neck. The water is crystal clear, and my kids want to swim too. Kurasawa tells them it's ok, and my son takes off his shirt and runs into the water. In the dream my son is thinner (he's on the overweight side in waking life) and there's a bigger age gap between him and my daughter than in waking life. He jumps into the water, then I swim over to him thinking he doesn't know how to swim! But he's swimming just fine, as if he's been swimming his whole life. Knowing he's ok and can swim on his own, I go closer to the shore to help my daughter get in the creek. When I do the two guys with dark hair stand up. One of them takes off their shirt and starts to walk into the water. I yell at the other one and ask him if he's getting into the water or if he's too chicken. He tells me he would get in the water, but he has to poo, lol. Then I turn back to Kurasawa who's still sitting in the chair, just watching happily. He smiles at me, and I smile back, then I wake up. I think that was at least two or three dreams, maybe more, all strung along, lol. Unfortunately I wasn't lucid in any of them, ha ha.

And, during typing all that, I remembered the first dream of the night!

I'm at the river. Something's fallen and sank to the bottom. Someone hands me a flashlight and I start diving to the bottom of the river to get it. There's someone on a jet ski who brought me to where I am in the river. They comment that I can't dive to the bottom of the river, and if I try I'm going to drown. I go underwater anyways, surprised that I can see so well, and then collect whatever fell off the bottom of the river. I see a gold ring as well but can't grab it as I need air. I swim to the top of the water and hand back whatever had fallen. I dive back underwater, and grab the gold ring. I break the surface, and grab the jetski. Whoever is on it turns it on, and idles it back to the pier with me latched onto the side. I hand the gold ring that looks really malformed by this point to someone, then I decide to use the flashlight to see if I can find the glasses I lost at the pier last year under water. I wake up before I could find them.

Dream One: I'm driving down the road with my husband in the passenger seat. It's dark, and hard to see. I go completely blind and can't see at all, next thing I know I'm off the road in a corn field trying to put on my brakes and steering all over the place. I freak out, but my husband tells me to calm down. I relax, and when I can see well again, I start driving back onto the road.

Dream Two: I'm in a building that's being remodeled. I'm admiring the place, and then I see my husbands mom's boyfriend. He tells me he's been working on this house all day. Then I walk around a bit more, and then my husbands moms boyfriend turns into my husbands dad and his wife. The wife is telling me to look closer at some clear glass stones set in the wall on the other side of the room. When I get closer, I can see they're not glass stones at all, they are glass bottles that are surrounded by concrete to make a wall. One of the bottles is green and square and had a little pirate ship built inside it. You can see through the bottles into the room on the other side, it's a very cool effect!

Dream Three(Fragment): I'm in an elevator or something with my son and Reggie from Nintendo. We're talking about the 3ds and Pokemon. My little boy is so excited to meet him, and I explain to him that when we told my son that someone from Nintendo would be at his pokemon card night next month, the first thing he asked is "Is it going to be Reggie?!" Reggie laughs and tells my son it's nice to meet him. I think I saw Miyamoto at some point too, but I can't remember.

Dream Four(Fragment): I dreamed my mom was kidnapped by terrorists and they wanted $100,000 for her safe return. I find this odd because that's a lot of money to ME, but by general kidnapping standards it sounds pretty low... and why would terrorists want money not a political advantage of some sort? In the dream I call 911, but I don't want to call my brother or grandma and worry them. I'm told by 911 that I need to drive to a city over an hour away to get the paperwork to fill out before they can help me.

Dream Five: I'm trying to fall asleep. I'm laying on a sidewalk, trying to sleep under my covers. Only the covers are covers I had several years ago, not the current bed set I have. I hear a buss, and I'm not happy that it's dropping off the kids who live in the house I'm at. The weird thing is, I'm trying to sleep in front of the house I grew up in, and the kids being dropped off are a little kid from my sons preschool class and my best friends sister (who is suddenly ten years younger, lol) I think to myself I'm never going to fall back asleep now. I try to pretend like I'm asleep anyways though so they won't disturb me, and throw my covers over my head. My friends sister walks right past me, but the little boy tries to sit on me. Then I tell him to go away so I can sleep and he cries because he's scared of being home alone and I'm the only grown up around. Then I wake up because my daughter really is laying in my bed, with her feet on top of my stomach... no wonder I felt sat on!

Last night's dreams were so boring, but I did a lot of boring stuff yesterday so it's hardly a wonder. All I really did was clean house and go shopping for things to reorganize the house :/ I'm going to be sure and do something "fantasy" related tonight like play video games or read a book so that I have some fun influences for tonight's dreams

I couldn't sleep last night, so at 5:30 am I took some NyQuil knowing I'd have fuzzy dreams if any at all because it'd put me in a deeper sleep and the kids wouldn't let me sleep for long. Sure enough we were up at 10:30. Still, I got a fragment out of those five hours

Dream Fragment: I'm arguing with a guy on the phone. Not like talking though, we're texting. It's something about a magic spell that's at his house or his parents house or something. I'm telling him we need to get it, and he shouldn't have just left it there. He's picking on me and texts me "Our poor baby! That spell was practically an elemental!" then sends me a little "smiley" icon that is actually a water drop shape and it's crying. I wasn't upset though, I found it funny and charming. At some point I was walking in an outdoorsy setting towards him while he was trying to text me back. I don't even remember what he looked like though, lol.

Dream One: I'm sitting at a school desk in a concrete parking deck. There are other desks, and it's like this parking deck is a classroom. There's graffiti on one of the walls, but I can't remember what was written/drawn. The teacher is a female, but I didn't pay much attention to her either. Whatever she's teaching us about, I'm so very sure she's wrong about it so I'm ignoring her and thinking to myself, "That's wrong. That's so wrong! Why are textbooks that are supposed to teach us and make us smarter, filled with lies that leave us none the wiser about anything even if we read them cover to cover?!" Then the girl beside me and the girl in front of me are chatting, and they turn around and ask me if I have apiece of paper they can borrow to write each others numbers down. I say sure, and reach into my bag to grab the notebook I always carrying around. In waking life, this little palm sized notebook is completely blank, I'll jot down my grocery list or whatever I need, and tear the page out when I'm done because I like seeing blank sheets rather than sheets and sheets of my horrible handwriting that look messy. In the dream however, this book is filled with hand written pages detailing dreams. I start to worry that I won't find a blank sheet, and so I rip out the last sheet of the journal that has June 25th and 26th on it (and there's no way my dreams would fit on a single page, let alone in a notebook that small! Let alone have two days worth of dreams on a single page, ha ha) I hope that the girls won't laugh at me when they read my dreams on their sheet of paper, and I rip the paper in half so that each girl will get half to write her number on. Then I realize there's a blank sheet stuck to the back of the sheet I just ripped, so I hand them the blank sheet that is now halved instead of the sheets with my journal entries. I crumble the entries up in my hand and toss them into my bag. I momentarily feel sad because I feel like I've ruined those dreams, but then I realize I can just rewrite them as the first entries in a new dream journal and I'm happy with this. I notice that some people are walking around handing out small gifts to everyone. There are a few gifts on my desk as well, but I don't know any of these people. I realize they're giving the gifts to the whole class, not just their friends, and I find this very generous. The only gift that really sticks out to me is a little lamp. It's a brown square base, with a palm tree on the right side. The light is in a coconut in the palm tree, and it shines down to illuminate little gold sequins that are glued to the brown base to look like pirates gold on an island. For some reason, this lamp reminds me of Tinkerbell, and I ask who made it. A guy with sandy brown hair stands up and takes credit for it, and I tell him it's beautiful, then tell him how it reminds me of tinker bell and just needs a little gold glitter to look like pixie dust. He offers to teach me how to make them myself and I can make my own lamp with pixie dust, but he's not very interested in the whole Tinkerbell thing. I tell him thanks, but I'm not very good at making things. Then everyone around us is leaving, so I grab my bags and start to leave too. I walk out of the parking deck into an ally, and I look out towards an open street with a field on the other side where the sun is shining (the parking deck and large building made the ally all dark and shadowy) I start walking towards the sun, and I either thought of my mom or saw my mom, but I woke up before I could make it into the sun.

Dream Two: I'm in a car, in the back seat with my BFF. My husband is driving, and her husband is riding shot gun. We're driving through a big city at night. We see a limo, and I tell her it's a celebrity who ran for president but didn't win. I tell her I think we need a younger president that will bring our country up with the times rather than trying to set so many "moral" codes straight out of the bible like a grandparent. (Real sore point for me, I have nothing against Christians, I just feel like it's not fair that people of other religions have to form to christian ideals when it comes to marriage and such. I mean really, it may be against the christian religion for people to be gay, but it's not against MY religion... and maybe it's not against most gay peoples either, so why on earth can they not have a legal union through the state if their religion allows it?) Right, back to the dreams, ha ha. So then we're driving by all these huge sky scrapers because it's a BIG city apparently, and I point to a hotel where I think I went to an anime convention. My husband tells me no, he'll show me when we pass the right hotel. So he does, and there's an old man and an old woman holding these antique guns with the little blades on the end like in the civil war. They're dressed in old country clothing, and look straight out of a time machine. Then for a moment my bff and I get out of the car and go look at a water fountain. Someone says something about how people often look down on the free things they can do in big cities because others make a big deal of the sights you have to pay to see. But even if your poor, you can see some amazing things. The best sights are the free ones that everyone is too snobby to admit they went to see (or to even bother going to see because it makes them feel poor). Or that was the basic gist anyways, I don't remember what was said word for word. I ask my bff is she wants me to get a penny of my bag so we can make wishes, but she just wants to get back in the car because she's scared our husbands have left. At first I don't see the car, but then she points to it and it's a sky blue hatchback. Neither of us have a car like that, in fact she has a blue car and I have a hatchback, so maybe it was a fusion of both. We get back in the car, and after a bit on the road, my husband falls asleep or something and the car is out of control. I end up standing up in the back seat and reaching over the seat and steering. Somehow the pedals got moved to the back of the car too, so I'm able to break and put on the gas. My BFFs husband complains that I'm driving crazy, and I tell him to get over it, It's hard to drive straight in this position! Then I make a lane change and cut across three lanes to make a left hand turn. Then suddenly it turns into a video game and instead of a car, I'm using a gaming controller to control a guy on a snowboard. It actually looks like that game on the N64 when I was a kid, "Snowboard Kids" I need to make five laps to win, but for some reason it skips me to the next course even though I've only done one lap. Then it does it again with the next course, and send me along after one lap instead of 5. This I find very odd, then I wake up.

Dream Three (LUCID! for a second): I'm standing in what looks like a parking lot, and there's a wooden structure to my left that is very crudely built with gaps and stuff. It's just a couple of platforms where you'd climb on one, to climb on the other. In the dream I'm pretty sure I'm playing assassins creed and about to practice the parkour stuff in the game (forgive me, I can't remember what they call it in the actual game, lol) So I run and half run up the wall of the short platform, then pull myself up onto. I stop and think for a moment, wow that was really easy! It shouldn't be that easy for me to climb up here. This is probably a dream. I lift my hand, and I see that I am wearing black fingernail polish like in waking life, and I have the ring on. I count my fingers, and I only have five, but I'm still really sure this is a dream. I wake up before I can nose plug reality check -_-

I almost don't want to count that lucid because it was so short and usually I have a couple lucids, then go three or four weeks until I have a couple more in a week, then go another 3 weeks to a month before I have two more, and so forth and so on. Maybe if I refuse to accept that one, I'll have another one sooner rather than later

Last nights dreams were so boring in comparison to the one last night, I almost lazied out on writing this morning.

Dream One (Fragment): I dreamed that I began work at a gaming magazine. In the dream it's just me and a handful of guys though. They want a female perspective on their magazine, and I tell them the biggest qualms I have with gaming magazines as both a chic and a mom. I feel like chic games don't get as much article space as "manly" games, and as a mom I wish they had a section for tiny gamers. I wish they showed more games for preschoolers and showed a better idea of what ages can play the game based on how difficult it is, and what games would be good for beginner gamers.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm getting a new apartment. I'm looking for it in the building, and discover it's right next to the on site auto shop (do they even have those in apartment complexes? I've never heard of such a thing, lol) and I worry I'm not going to be able to sleep there and my quest to lucid dream is going to go down the drain. Never did realize I was dreaming while I was worrying about lucid dreaming -_-

Dream Three: I'm suddenly attending some strange boarding school. I'm walking to my class, and I notice we have three green houses, but none of them actually have plants in them. Instead two are being used as cat houses and one is being used as an aviary for tropical birds. So I get to my "class" and it's just a couple other students, and a professor... except we're not in a class room, it's an outdoor class on the playground. Me and the other students sit on the swings and the teacher is sitting on a seesaw. He's teaching about taking care of our surroundings and doing volunteer work for the good of the community. He mentions that the playground needs to be repainted, especially the swing set, and I volunteer to do so. None of the other students want to help though. The teacher tells me he's got to go buy the paint, so we'll do it later, then class is dismissed. I then walk inside the school building, where my aunt and uncle are waiting for me. They are talking to me about how my cousins are and if I like this place. I tell them it's cool. then my aunt gives me a couple of gift packs of bath and body stuff, it's supposed to be rose scented, but it says Star Trek on it and it has... the millennium falcon on it? I don't know how the heck I missed that reality check. I probably laughed it off as the manufacturers not doing their research -_- I take the bath sets to my room and set them in the bathroom, then I wake up.

Dream Four: I'm walking down a hall with my son. We're at the movies looking for the theater. We find it, but they lights keep going down then coming back up, and the volume is sooo low we can't hear the movie. A girl with long straight hair comes in to fix it, but it keeps going down again. Then everyone in the theater starts talking, and a boy with sandy colored hair starts talking about how we should all be friends because he could use some more friends and at least making friends with people would turn this otherwise negative movie trip into a good one. He starts assigning everyone jobs as his friends. He's going to make one dude his gaming buddy to play video games with, he assigns one girl the job of his girl friend, another guy his shopping buddy, and another one his nerdy friend to help him fix his computer and stuff. I just sit back and watch all this, then wake up before he's done.

Dream One (Fragment): I dreamed of watching those youtube videos from last nights chats, lol.

Dream Two: I only have vague memories of the first part of the dream. I know it was like a party or a restaurant or some sort of other loud dim atmosphere. The first point of the dream I can really remember I'm in a gravel driveway in front of a house that reminds me of my dad's trailer, but the house really looks nothing like it. I think the house is just where his trailer should be. There's a blond guy with medium length hair in front of me, dressed in the Shinsengumi blues from Hakuouki. I hear a noise behind me, and I see a zombie with green flesh stumbling in my direction. A man in a white lab coat and medium length grey hair was also behind me, and he turns quickly also startled by the sound. He tries to pull a knife out of his coat, but it does him no good against this zombie and it bites him in the hand when he tries to strike at it with the knife. The man behind me curses, and then tells me to stay behind him as he rushes forwards and draws a sword, the slashes the zombie in half. He says something like, "Looks like the good doctors experiments have escaped during our absence." and then he turns to me and tells me that I should scream as loudly as possible. I find this odd, and ask him why, and he informs me that the screams of a helpless woman will surely draw the attention of any other escaped experiments in the area. So I start screaming pretty fakely, but when I do the bushes start moving and I start screaming for real and scramble onto the covered bed of a nearby red truck. An arm reaches out of the back window of the truck and grabs my legs, I freak and kick it then jump on top of the cab of the truck hoping to be safe on the highest ground. The Blond guy gets all the zombies, then starts assessing the damage to the house. He tells me there's a lot of damage to the doors where they've no doubt tried to bang against them to get in, but it doesn't look like they were able to break in. He pulls a key out of his sleeve, and opens the front door. I hop off the truck and try to half carry the man in the lab coat (whom I'm assuming was the "good" doctor) inside, and then some headlights shine on the house. The Blonde guy curses again and says of all the times for an inspection of the house, this is the worst. I'm not sure why anyone is inspecting, but two women get out of the little car that pulled up with clip boards. I think the middle of the night is an awkward time for an inspection, but the women say it's a surprise inspection to be sure that everything is the same when they're not expected as when they are. Makes sense I guess, but I still don't know they were inspecting for. When we open the door, there's a woman inside as well, but she looks closer to my age, maybe even younger. She's holding a baby, and she's so happy that we're home. She starts to gush and cry to me about how those monsters were trying to get in and eat her and the baby, but then she sees the inspectors and the injured doctor, and she rushes me and the doctor into a room on the right. The inspectors start to follow us, but the blond guy tells them to leave us be because I needed to nurse the baby and the old man got drunk and hurt his hand and needed it cleaned and bandaged. The women didn't seem like they were very keen on seeing blood, lol. In the room, I lay down on the bed and started nursing the little baby whom I'm guessing by this point was mine. She was a cute baby girl though, probably just a couple months old. The doctor stumbled and fell onto the bed as well, and I noticed he didn't look so good. His hand was completely healed, but he looked like he was sweating and his dark grey hair was turning white as snow. I recognize these as signs of the fury blood lust in the game Hakuouki, and ask him if he needs blood. He assures me that he'll be fine, he'll get the medicine he needs as soon as the inspectors leave. I pull the baby as close to me as possible as if I could protect her from the man if he went crazy, then put an arm between her and him hoping that if the blood lust overcomes him he'll attack my arm not her because it's closest. Then I start saying , "Shhhhh, it's ok. It's ok, shhhhh." and petting his hair like I do to calm my kids when they're hurt. After what seems like an eternity the blond guy walks through the door and drapes the doctor over his shoulder and carries him out of the room. The baby is asleep, so I get off the bed and let the girl who handed me the baby to begin with sit with her. I start to follow the blonde guy out of the room, but he tells me he's taking the old man to his lab to get the medicine he needs, and some of the experiments might be loose still so I need to stay inside with another guy who's name I can't remember. The other guy had long brown hair, and he was leaning against the front door looking out the storm door, as if he was watching for something. He turns and smiles at me this huge goofy kid like grin and says something about how we're going to have fun without the blonde guy around, but it sounds more like a joke to lighten the mood than actually having nay meaning behind it. I nod, and walk back into the room with the baby, where I grab a blue robe like uniform like the guys were wearing, and a long staff with a blade on the end on it. I walk back into the living room where the front door was, and the guy in the door is shouting, "They're here! There's a bunch of them! They couldn't have all escaped from here, there's no way that lab would hold this many!" He dashes out the front door, and I follow. Lots of action ensues that I'm not even going to waste space narrating one by one. Lots of me stabbing these creatures through the throat and severing their spines and lots of me whipping the staff around and using the blade to slice their heads off. A thing I find weird now that I'm awake, I didn't have enough force to sever their heads unless I lifted my right hand and pushed extra hard against the staff closer to the tip than where I was holding it. It's wasn't a smooth motion like in the movies, ha ha. We massacre these zombies, and then start to go back into the house, but then there's another wave of them coming up the road. I notice that they keep going past us though, and start up my uncles driveway nearby. I start to take off to fight them, and the long dark haired guy tells me to come back or the blonde guy will had a fit. I tell him that's my family, and I can't let these things get them! I start fighting off the zombies on my own, and yelling at my cousins and uncle to get inside NOW! But they're having some sort of party (maybe that's where I came from in the beginning?) and they can't fit everyone inside. The brown haired guy comes over and helps me, but it's difficult to tell at points who's a zombie and who's not, so we're taking longer than we feel like we should to kick their butts and we're worried that another wave of zombies will arrive before we can even handle these. Just when it looks like we're getting ahead though, a short, skinny but built, and just generally hot Asian guy steps out in front of me. I immediately recognize him as one of our men, and start to lower my staff so it doesn't look like I'm attacking him, but he tells me, "I wouldn't do that if I were you. I'm not on your side anymore. These zombies are under my control." I raise my staff, but I know there's no way I can hold my own against him. Zombies are slow and can't really fight back, but this guy has been training and fighting for years and I'm just now learning. I decide I'm going to try using his honor against him, "If that's true, please wait until the others arrive. We both know I don't stand a chance against you. At least let me go down fighting your zombies. There's no honor in a fight between us." He laughs, and his hair goes white and I realize he's becoming a monster like the doctor was. He tells me he'll wait for the others, I'm not worth lifting his sword to. Then he jumps backwards, but goes much much farther than he should so its as if he's flying. He lands on the street where a new wave of Zombies is coming. The long brown haired guy tells me that He thinks he's got the last of the zombies, and what am I just standing around for? I tell him about the confrontation I just had, and he's pretty upset. We yell to my cousin that I think I've gotten all the zombies, but if they notice anyone turn into one, yell at us so we can kill them before they hurt anyone. Then we start running up the road to towards the new wave of zombies. Just as we jump into the wave and start fighting, the blond guy and another guy come rushing out of the house where the baby was and they jump into the fray as well. Soon all the zombies are down, but there's more coming from farther up the street, but before trying to fight them, the guys in blue all attack the Asian dude that used to be one of them. I stand back and watch as they are all yelling and attacking and dodging. Suddenly there's like a black wave that flies through the dream, like a shock wave but it's visible like a black cloud. It hits me, and everything goes black for half a second, and then I'm seeing images of myself being in a field of flowers typing on a computer about this dream, but I'm asking people how to defeat the dude and what I should do. Someone starts gushing out how cute the bad guy is, then someone gushing about one of the other guys, then someone says I'm so much luckier than I know to be there in the middle of that fight, and then the flowers fly and suddenly I'm standing dressed in a golden dress. In my arms is the little baby girl, and she's also wearing a golden dress. There's someone standing beside me with his arm around me, and it's the blond guy, he's also dressed in gold and he's wearing a crown. He kisses the top of my head and tells me that he's finally destroyed all the darkness and it's safe for me now. But then I see a little boy standing over a well, and he plucks a coin from it, then his face twists and looks evil as he shoves the coin into his clothes. Someone confronts him, and he says he was drinking water, not stealing. Then when he does try to drink from the well to prove this, he starts coughing like the water won't go down his throat. He spits the water back into the well and runs. Then the scene changes, and the blond guy and I are handing the little boy, all wrapped up in tin foil (LOL) to the little dwarf guy in Game Of Thrones. The guy asks what he's supposed to do with him, and we're telling him to take care of him, and teach him to be a respectable person so he doesn't bring the darkness back. He scoffs, this is something he feels is beneath him and a pain in the ass to do. But he takes the kid anyways, and the blond guy and I smile at each other feeling like we've just made a huge difference. And that's when I wake up, lol.

I really think that second dream was at least 2 dreams, but I don't recall waking up in between so I just wrote it as one. It was definitely a lot of fun in the beginning, but the end was very strange and probably symbolic. I half wonder if the blonde guy was Kurasawa. I don't recall having the over whelming calm feeling that I usually do in dreams with him, but at the same time I was very oddly calm through out the whole dream. Zombies terrify me... I can't play zombie games or watch zombie movies and I can't even watch zombie cartoons after 4 or 5 without getting nightmares at bed time. A lot of this dream is fuzzy, so I wonder if that overwhelming calming moment was in the forgotten parts. The role the blonde guy played as protecting me, the fact that he was quiet and rarely said anything like Kurasawa, and the fact that what I can remember of how he looked (because his face is fuzzy in my memory) looks like Kurasawa is pretty convincing, lol.

Dream One: I'm at the grocery store, and there's a jerky aisle! Like a whole aisle full of jerky. I freaking LOVE jerky, but for the last year or so meat has tended to make me sick Of course being a dream I didn't think about this, and I found some pork jerky or something and wanted to try it. So for whatever reason I break a piece off and taste it. Then I notice, after I swallow that the package says it needs to be cooked. Ooops. I hope I didn't just make myself sick. Then I see some little weenie shaped jerkys, on closer inspection the package actually says "Hot dog jerky" and I decide to buy some for my kids to try, they love hotdogs. Then the neighbors kids are there, and they're saying, "Dude! Hog dog jerky! I want some!" SO I buy them some too, and I buy myself some pickled sausages (it's been years since I've been able to eat those, lol) I drive home, and not only MY kids are in the car with me, but the neighbors kids too Then I park the car and get out and start to open my pickled sausage, and my husband complains that I parked wrong, so I give him the keys and tell him to repark it if he doesn't like it. He does, but the neighbors kids want to ride in the car with my husband driving, so the one neighbor kid hands me his jerky, and I start eating it forgetting that it wasn't mine. Then I have to apologize when they get the car parked. I woke up mid apology.

Dream Two: I was going outside to get in my car, but I can't find my car. It's not parked where it should it! I'm walking all over the yard looking for it, and I can't find it. Then OTHER (different set of neighbors from first dream) neighbor steps out with his youngest and they're going to get in their van, but when they notice me walking around looking lost. They stop to help me find my car, and eventually we find it parked in the middle of the turn around in the road. It should have been obvious from the start though. Dream Logic. Then a car comes flying down the road, it's the neighbors oldest son. He and the other other neighbors son are apparently fixing up a car to drive when they get their licenses.

Dream Three: We're at McDonalds, my husband kids, and I. First we need to go through the drive through, and there's a long line. So my husband says the lines too long and he wants to wait. But then the line is empty and he still won't pull forwards into the drive through lane! Then a car pulls into it and there's a line again. I make him line up, and then he drives the wrong way and ends up behind the building instead of in the drive through. Then when we finally make it to the drive through window, he orders half our food, then stats driving forwards because their menu is placed AFTER the window instead of before, and the lady thinks we're done ordering and starts taking the order of the person behind us. I get angry and jump out of the car and tell my husband he has three seconds to tell me what he wants or he's not eating! Then I walk back to the window and tell her I wasn't finished with our order and give her the rest of the order. Then we're told to pull around and wait. Finally when our food is ready, we go inside to eat it, lol. Then they're having a trivia contest for the little kids and they're asking star wards and Indiana Jones questions, so my son is all over it! He ends up winning a thousand dollar scholarship. I think we should come to every trivia night at McDonalds to see if he can pay his way through college in scholarships, lol. Then I wake up.

Dream Four (DILD!):The dream starts off on the shore of the river at the cabin my dads family owns. Somehow though, it's an island. I'm with a man and his family of like 4 kids. We're trying to build a fire, but the wind is blowing too hard and keeps blowing the fire out before we can really get it started. A little 10 year old boy in glasses tries to build a wind shield out of a sheet, and it ends up acting as a sail and carrying all the wood off into the river -_- The oldest kid doesn't even look like a kid, more like in his early twenties, but definitely not my age yet. He's got long hair and looks a lot like Johnny Depp:

(totally took that from a facebook page of a fan club, so hoping it shows up, lol.
Anyways, he takes his shirt off and runs into the river to retrieve the wood. I follow to help him drag it in because it looks heavy, but he'd able to bring it all in without my help . Then when we get back to shore, he asks his dad what happened to Molly. TUrns out Molly is a little girl around 5, and she's fallen asleep and they've put her inside some wagon and the other kids were taking her up to the cabin to bed. So the Johnny Depp guy goes up to the cabin too, and I stay down with the dad trying to figure out how to build the camp fire. Then I get this great idea. I can transmute some wood into a shape that will block the window but be heavy enough to to blow off! I start looking around for dry wood, and then step on something warm and round. At first I think it's a snake, then I realize it's just a water hose. I tell myself I shouldn't think of it being a snake or it might turn into one. Then the dad suggests I get the kids to help me look for wood, and I think that's a good idea and go up the hill. I see some pretty flowers on the hill, and i stop to admire them. There's a rose like flower that's got pink on the ends of the petals, and a creamy pale orange color in the center. The petals fall off when I touch it though. So I move on to the next flower, a pretty purple flower that's shaped like a daylily, but it has yellow and white streaks running up and down the petals. I think to myself I should take a picture with my phone, but then realize that'd be silly because it won't come out of the dream into waking life. That's when I stop and say, "That's right! I'm in a lucid dream! I can't let the dream suck me in!" And then I'm lucid No need to reality check, I just KNOW. At first I think I'm going to go inside the cabin and try to walk through the wall to find Kurasawa. Then I stop myself and remind myself that I want to practice my dream control because once I'm good at controlling my dreams I'll not struggle so much to find Kurasawa. It's better to practice I think, than waste dream after dream chasing after him and having my efforts be blocked by my lack of control. So I think back on my goals, and remember that the small goal I've set for myself and been reminding myself of before sleeping at night is to grow cat ears and a tail. So I Imagine that I have ears and a tail and I can feel them. I never physically touched them to be sure they were there, but I just KNEW they were... and I swished my tail a few times and felt the wind whip around it so I am very sure I succeeded. Then I remember the guy who looks like Johnny Depp inside, and the whole thing with getting the kids to find wood. So I walk inside and start telling all the little DC kids to go gather wood with their dads so I can transmute it like Edward Elric. The kids all run out the door to do as I asked, and I make my way into the room with all the beds and sleeping bags where the Johnny Depp guy is. He doesn't look like Johnny Depp anymore, he's short and hefty with glasses, and now looks very Asian. Time to practice more control! I close my eyes and imagine him looking like Johnny Depp and being a head taller than me. Suddenly I feel his hand on my back, and he dips me back and starts kissing me, then making out with me. My eyes are still closed though, lol. Then he starts scraping his tongue against my teeth and drooling in my mouth. YUCK! I push him off me, and he looks like Johnny Depp alright, but he's totally dumb and still sticking his tongue in and out of his mouth like he's still kissing me. I think to myself Dream Characters really ARE stupid, I'm not doing this again. Then my phone goes off and wakes me up!

Dream? 1? 2?: I'm not sure if this should be considered a dream, or not, so I'm throwing those questions marks in there. I am pretty sure I was asleep, and suddenly I felt like my body was floating and a couple of quick shakes or vibrations or rather buzzy feeling in between happened, and then I was seeing six different places at once, as if I was looking at three TV screen stacked on top of one another next to another stack of three... but somehow I felt like I was actually in six places at once rather than being in 1 place watching pictures of six places. I thought to myself, "Is this a dream?" It was very weird and disorienting for a second or two, then everything went black. The it happened, again! and this time instead of everything going black, I tried to roll over and dispel whatever was going on. When I rolled over, my daughter did the same in her bed and rolled right out of bed! I've never had dreams like that before. I don't know if it was a dream or sleep paralysis or even something else like astral travel or OBE or something. It was definitely weird though!

Dream 3(Fragment): I'm standing in front of someone, it may have been Kurasawa, but I'm not sure bc at this point I wasn't feeling him. I was on my guard completely, I thought I was going to have to fight this person, and that this person might not even be a person at all because I had been told there was a monster here and this person was the only thing I found when I arrived. (I don't remember being told this and my trip to "here" well enough to tell you how it went, but I have a vague recall of it) The person and I kind of stood there ready to fight, then he reached out to grab me and I dodged and tried to hit him, then he smacks my hand away and tries to grab me again and I dodge again. Then he shifts completely, drops his aggressive stance. This is where it gets fuzzy and I can't remember exacts again. I suddenly feel completely safe and warm and happy... leading me to wonder if he was Kurasawa, as those are the feelings he gives me. I think he hugs me, and tells me he doesn't have to worry about me not being able to defend myself, then he tells me that I need to go. I get on a train and leave.

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm at some sort of Christmas party with my husband and kids. It's time to leave, so I go get the car to pull it up to the door and void getting the kids cold. We must have been with my husbands family bc I left him inside with the kids talking to them and if if had been my family I'd have stayed inside and he would have gotten the car. Someone's moving vehicles around, and it's icy and snowy. I get in my car, but then a man is driving a UPS truck too fast and it slips in the ice and nearly hits my car! A woman screams, but the driver gets the vehicle under control and everything is ok. I drive to the front of the building and my husband and kids walk out. I put the car in park and try to strap my daughter in her carseat... but she reeks, and when I pick her up my hands get wet... she's pooped her pants and it's the messy baby kind of poop, all liquid and orange. I tell my husband she's pooped her pants, and he says he knows he thought we'd change her when we get home. I fuss at him that she should have been changed as soon as he noticed it, and then I run her inside to change her. I wake up in the middle of cleaning her up!

Dream Five: I'm in a hotel talking to a renaissance act in a lobby. The man is very nice, and I'm telling him I've seen his show at the ren fair, and how awesome it was. He gives me a hat, and asks me to hold onto it for him. It has his cell phone inside. Then I have to leave and walk outside. My son is there too, and he also gets a hat from the guy before we leave. It takes me a while to find my car as the parking lot is being torn up and repaved in places and the equipment blocks my view of it. When we get to my car some guy is smoking and trying to hit on me, and I tell him I don't like smokers. He puts his ash tray on my dash, but I drive off before he can get in my car. I pick up my husband at a door on the other side of the parking lot, and he's mad there's an ash tray in the car and I have to explain why.

All the dreams are fragments because I'm not taking notes. Still having very little luck remembering to keep my eyes closed and not move when I wake up for this DEILDing thing, lol.

Really quickly will relate my short dreams from last night, then a bit about a past dream because I'm VERY excited about it right now

Dream One(Fragment): I dreamed about buying my little girl those Monster High dolls she likes. Actually, more like I dreamed about opening the packages after I had bought them. :/

Dream Two: I dreamed that I was texting my brother. Apparently I had texted him and asked him if he believed in aliens. He texted me back saying he was sick of crazy people and pilots talking about aliens, they don't exist. Then he texted me again saying he ran into Aliens in a video game and it was hilarious. So he sends me a video of him playing Xbox and he's miming throwing a grenade at the screen and the character does the same (so apparently this is a Kinect game, I don't think my brother has Kinect IWL) and he says in a normal voice tone, "Squeeeee!" and the "alien" on the screen has like all these crazy tentacles and shit and looks like the Aliens in the movie "Aliens". Anyways, the alien looks at the grenade and it seems to be a dude, but when my brother says, "Squeeeee!" the aliens head explodes. Then he sends me another video of him throwing a rock at one in the game and it doing nothing, but then he says, "Squeeee!" and the aliens head explodes.

That's it for dreams, I only slept about 6 hours, so I've only got the early dreams to recount. But, I'm so excited today because my "Kurasawa" ring finally came in. Back story here being the first dream I had of him ( 2-8-11, Important dreams from the past: K's Original Dream - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views) there was a ring involved. I've been looking for one like it ever since. Well, a month ago I found one in an avon catalog, and I was pretty psyched... Had to RC a few times before I believed it because as common as the design seemed, I could not find it ANYWHERE. and now, after waiting for what seems like forever it'd off back order and has arrived I know it's not the sort of thing someone might usually get all up and excited about, but it's so amazing for me. The only place I've ever seen this ring is in my dreams, and it's appeared in several. Now I have this link in my waking life to my dreams. Every time I see it I will have to RC because this thing "originated" in the dream world, and I've only seen it in dreams before. I hope this helps with my DILDs. Also, its just amazing knowing that something from my dreams is now a part of my waking life. ^_^ It makes it that much easier to believe that other parts of our dreams aren't just random impossibilities created by our minds, but can be found in your real life as well if you follow the right pursuits and don't give up. / excited girly rambling

Note to self, reading books about aliens before bed might not be the best idea.

Dream One: I'm huddling in the middle of the house in the dark with the kids trying to stay away from the windows. I'm sure that if I'm near the windows the aliens will see me O.o Woke up from this one almost too scared to go to the bathroom, lol.

Dream Two(Fragment): Much less scary alien dream, and as a result i remember very little. I think I opened the front door, and let someone in. and He was telling me to relax, aliens aren't going to bother me, they don't want to hurt anyone, and I'm not ready to see them yet anyways. As I said before, I'm reading a book my mom suggested I read about Aliens and religion (It's called "In Our Image", by Susan Alan, it's fiction not fact or anything.) and I'm 100% sure that's why I had scary alien dreams when I went to sleep, lol. I'm going to have to reserve reading it for before 6 O'clock I think.

Dream Three (Fragments): Probably the longest dream of the night, but I only remember parts. The first part I'm dressed in red and purple, and I have multiple arms (like that goddess, Shiva?) I'm yelling out, angrily. Another fragment I'm seeing an army marching over a hill. I think these were connected, like I was cheering them or or else I was about to face the army, but I could be wrong ans I can't remember what happened after. The next point I can remember I am on the sidewalk at the house I lived in as a kid. There's a man in a black suit and short blond hair with me. He's saying to me that it's best if I keep a low profile because "they" don't know what I am capable of and so he can let me live. Then he wants to talk to my family for a moment, to make sure that unmaking my brother worked. I'm really sad, and I don't think I say anything to him at all because I'm so depressed. I think they've unwritten my brother from history, gone back in time somehow and just made it so he was never born. The man knocks on the front door, and Grandma answers it. The man asks her about my brother, and she tells him I never had a brother and he must be mistaken. He thanks her and starts to walk down the sidewalk to the driveway. I follow him in a stupor, I don't know what to do, I'm just so sad. Then we get to the driveway, and the man gets in a silver colored car with no doors, instead the windshield and top of the car lift and drop, it kind of reminds me of the cockpits in the Y wings in Star wars actually. The glass was a similar geometric design. When he gets in the car, something snaps inside me, I realize that he's the only one besides me that knows my brother ever existed, and he's the one who won't let me take my revenge because he doesn't want "them" (who ever they are?) to know "what I'm capable of" (whatever that is?) I run out in front of the car, and leap on top of it. I'm angry, FURIOUS, and I can't half control myself. My hands looks like claws, and I begin ripping the glass off the car. It's some sort of plexiglass or something because it doesn't break when it hits the ground, it's only breaking in the spots where I hit it or rip through it with my claws. I'm growling and sound and feel much more like animal than a person. The guy doesn't even flinch though, he just sits in the car and watches me throw pieces of his car's windshield and windows and tops all over the driveway. I stop when I run out of glass, and feel completely deflated. That served absolutely no purpose. The guy then tells me that's not keeping a low profile like he asked me to. Suddenly I feel like a guilty puppy who just tore up the shoe of the person who's been caring for and feeding it. Obviously this guy knows "what I'm capable of" or he wouldn't mention it, then he goes and puts his own neck on the line by not reporting to "them" who I kind of figured in the dream were his superiors so I'd be safe. I repay that kindness by throwing a tantrum, doing what he told me not to, and tearing up his car. I'm a bitch I think the strong feelings are why I remember this dream so well, the sadness, the anger, and the guilt.

Dream Four: I'm in a house, watching my kids, but it's not my house. Suddenly, all their stuffed animals come to life! The things want me to release them from the house, but I refuse. It seems I'm the only one who can release them, they need my power to escape. Then They tell me they want me to release"The big guy downstairs" and in the dream I know it's some sort of robot that runs the house not actually a stuffed animal at all. I say that there's one condition to me bringing him to life, none of them (including him) can hurt me or my family, and they can't leave the house. They're cool with this, so I start to go downstairs, then I think I need to grab my bag and my computer mouse first. The animals ask me to give them my bag and my mouse, and I refuse. I tell them I know enough about magic to know that my energy will reside in things that I use often even when I'm not using them, and the LAST thing I want is them to find a way to use that energy to do what I will not. I go downstairs, and there's a guy playing video games, I think it's my husband but I'm not sure. A lady knocks on the door, and I ask him to watch the kids and the stuffies to make sure that they don't do anything while I go out and talk to this lady. She's telling me that stuffed animals are coming to life all over, and that I need to find a way to destroy them before they get to the mad scientist that is causing them to come to life. She's telling me this, I hear a sound nearby, and look up to see a stuffed Yoshi walking across the railing of the porch. The Woman whips out a gun and shoots Yoshi! Before I can flip out, his body falls forwards and bees come out of his stuffing and attack us. I'm running back inside to the shower and batting at them. the lady is doing the same. They don't get in the house, but there are several tiny stings on my face and I fill the sink with cold water and submerse my face in it to cool the stings. Then I look over to check on the lady who is doing the same in the sink. I ask her if she thinks there are bees in the animals playing with my kids, and she said no. Then an image appears like a hologram in the kitchen. It's a man with Elvis style hair and he's laughing maniacally about his bees. Then he's saying that if we survived his bee stings, maybe we'll survive his mutating gas! and then he shows this beautiful girl saying that this is what she looks like before mutating gas, then she suddenly looks like a man and is saying this is how she looked afterwards, and her face starts melting like it's made of soft clay or play dough and she has to reshape it herself. Then I wake up, lol.

Before I get started on my dreams, I'm doing something different so I figured I'd state what it is and what you can expect on the next week or possibly longer depending on my results I'm trying to learn DEILD, wich means instead of taking notes when I wake up between dreams, I'm just going back to sleep. So last night my dreams were all fairly interesting enough that I remembered them and took notes when I got up for the morning, none of them were lucid though (I'm struggling with the whole not opening my eyes thing ) In the future though, I don't foresee remembering any where near my usual without my notes. I gotta get past the feeling of disappointment I get when I can't remember at least 3 dreams too. But without anymore rambling, here they are!

Dream One: I'm watching a documentary about a fish. It looks like some sort of alien world, the water is a dark blueish black, not "clear blue" like in cleans ocean on earth, but not greenish brown like the oceans I've always been to, lol. In the dream documentary I learned that this particular fish hatches, and then it attaches it's self to the underside of certain other type of fish, then it would eat the bits that fly free when the other fish was eating.I watched videos of these two fish swiming (and they looked very odd, the host fish was very rounded and more like manatees than fish, but they were also definitely fish... maybe similar to Beluga whales only dark grey instead of white) and the parasite fish kind of reminded me of a white fish skeleton, only it's spiky parts weren't just bone, but flowey fin thingies. The documentary also said that they were having trouble in the north west islands because the host fish (I can't remember the fish names now ) up there had evolved with a mouth lower on it's body and when the parasite fish attached, it would block the host fish's mouth and the host fish would slowly starve to death unable to open it's mouth, then the parasite would move on to another host and kill it as well. Apparently the parasite could eat the food the host would try to catch by acting as the mouth so it didn't starve.

Dream Two(Fragment): I'm at a star wars convention. All I remember is being there with my mom, seeing clone troopers, and going into the bathroom.

Dream Three: I'm standing inside a big warehouse/convention style building. I'm waiting for someone, but he's not showing up. I know I'm waiting for him though, and I know he's going to be there (and I knew who in the dream, but it was one of those things that slipped my mind by the time I woke up for the morning) I grow tired of waiting, and decide to explore. I start to walk, and suddenly the floor becomes water, so I lay back and start floating. I see a wall at arms length from me, so I float towards it, and plant my feet on it, then walk on the wall letting my body float in the water rather than wasting energy swimming. (That would so only work in a ream, lol) Then I see a boat nearby, and I listen in on what's being said on the boat. There's a woman with pretty long black hair, and I think she reminds me of an Egyptian queen, she's wearing lots of gold and red and her boat looks similar to something you'd see in hieroglyphs. She says, "In this world I could just blink and report my goods where I want them but its so much more fun to play and pretend like I'm transporting them. " and in my mind, I understand this concept that I am not in the real world, and that I can do... special(?) things that I can't in the real world, but I just don't get that I am dreaming. And it's important to realize, I felt this way from the beginning of the dream, that logic didn't apply here, but rather than being a dream I just thought I had traveled to another world or something, lol. My senses also tell me the person I was waiting for is nearby though I can't see him, but since he's not coming to meet me like he's supposed to I feel abandoned for a moment, then decide to move on and explore so I can forget again. I look around me, and see these big rugs hanging from shelves on the wall above where I'm "walking" and I notice that they would be really pretty rugs, except the company that makes them has their logo on all the rugs, even bigger than the design. In some rugs, the logo is twice the size of the actual design. I wonder if people of this world like things that are "branded" like that fad where teenagers are wearing clothes with their favorite shirt brands names on them... it's not that the logos are nice (I find them very ugly!), I really think sometimes they just want everyone to know that they shop at those stores and should be viewed as somehow higher class or more important than those who shop at other places. Anyways, my opinion of those who would buy such a rug is the same, and I wonder if everyone in that world is so concerned with brands or if the manufacturers are overly concerned with advertising their brand that they miss the point of a rug... to be decorative! Then the floor becomes land again, and I step back onto it and wander over to some anime prints, but they look like fan made stuff, and some of them even look like foil prints. The dark haired girl is looking at the prints too, and talking to a girl with big long curly bleach blond hair. The curly girl seems to be the artist who drew the pictures. She's telling the dark haired girl to pick the prints she wants in exchange for something. The dark haired girl says they're all nice, but none of them are really her style.Then the curly haired girl tells her that she has something else she made for her, and takes her to the right. I follow out of curiosity, and we walk into a move "warehouse" looking area. There are three cardboard cars. The artist girl has been making a card prop for the boat girl's next costume. She goes on to say she's hand making this one herself and making her assistants work on the other ones because she wants to make sure THIS one is perfect for the dark haired girl. Then the dark haired girl says that she'll look at the pictures again. We walk back into the room with the pictures, and I see a rotating postcard display I walk over to it, and it has postcard sized pictures in it. I start to turn it, and my eyes land on one that is the characters of Hakuouki sitting on and around a cherry tree. The difference being the girl character has been replaces by a curly brownish blonde haired character. In the dream I think she looks a LOT like me when my hair was long, but after waking up I realize that being a drawing, it could have been meant to be the girl who drew it, curly haired girl! The whole thing makes me feel off emotionally, because it reminds me that I'm waiting for someone who didn't come. The artist girl notices me looking at the picture and she leans over to say something, then stops and makes a face like she's not sure if she should, then decides to tell me after all. She says, "I loved that game, but if you ask me, I felt sorry for Yukimaru (the female lead character) because I felt like the whole time she was just being taken advantage of." This comment makes me feel even worse, because In a way I wonder if I'm being taken advantage of the way I'm waiting for someone, and even though I can feel him nearby he's not showing up. It feels like I'm being strung along or something. I walk off quickly, as tears start welling up in my eyes, then I RUN back to where the rugs were and try to hide in them and some boxes to cry. But as I start crying I feel like the person I'm waiting for walks by on the other side of the rugs, stops for a moment, then hurries off. I feel even worse, and burst into another round of tears, then someone moves a box. It's some random warehouse worker, and he tells me I can't be here, so I get up and run away. I decide I'm going to go far, far away. I run into a little room that I somehow think is my dad's house. I call out to him, and some strange man comes down from the attic, but in the dream I know he's my "dad in this world" not my real dad. I tell him I'm going to leave and go "back to the desert" because I'm tired of waiting for someone who's not going to show. He tried to talk me out of it, telling me it's hot and that I need to think of my babies who won't like the heat. I tell him I'll be fine because we won't be walking we'll be riding in the car. He reminds me that my AC is broken, and I tell him it'll be fine, there's no humidity in the desert so it feels cooler than home even if it IS hotter. Then a mans voice is practically yelling in my head, "Please just wait for me. If you want to go to the desert I will take you, I have AC. Please wait just a bit longer everything is almost ready." I ignore it though, I don't even bother trying to tell him I'm going anyways. I just walk out the door, and I'm in a little playground with a dirt ground rather than mulch and such like modern playgrounds have. A few of my friends are there with their kids, and I suddenly notice one of my friend's husbands look like the dark haired lover guy from Uraboku (spelled?) and I reason that my friend must be his "Juliet's" reincarnation in this world (couldn't remember the names in the dreams as I've only seen like one or two episodes of that and it was a couple years ago, so we're going to use Shakespeare to draw an analogy here. lol). Then I feel a familiar presence, and feel arms around me, and I know that I'm not waiting anymore and all my anger and feelings of abandonment fade. I'm sure he'd never abandon me. I look over my shoulder and see long dark hair and eerily pales skin. I'm told something about how he was trying to get everything ready so... and then I woke up. Looking back on this dream from an awake POV, I'm pretty sure this was some sort of communication with the "spirit guide" I know as Vesta (not the goddess, lol) He usually takes the form of a black panther in dreams (sometimes Clifford the dog sized, lol) but he also has a human form that he takes that loosely resembles Johnny Depp is Sleepy Hollow The reason I'm sure this is him, is that often when I have dreams of him, I'm always aware that I can do things that I would normally not be able to do, and feel like I'm in "another world" but I never realize it's a DREAM world. Also the part where I hear his voice in my head, and the part where he's Getting something ready... those are big arrows


Dream Four: I'm watching a video of Animazement on a hand held video camera with my husband and kids. I notice a strange pyramid shape in the video, and insist that they rewind it so I can see it again because I think it's an important clue or symbol to something. When we rewind it, we can no longer see the pyramid, it's gone. Then we end up inside the video somehow, reliving being at Animazement. But the things that happen, aren't what really happened while we were there. There are men in gold masks spraying everyone who comes too close with strawberry yogurt. Then we're at the door of the con, and we can't get in because we didn't bring our badges. There are some artists set up outside though, so I talk to one about commissioning her to draw a picture of my daughter with some Pokemon for Christmas. Then My husband says we should leave and look for our badges. We start out the door, but then I feel like I need to go back, like there's someone important in there after all. I turn around and step back inside leaving my husband with the kids and scan the crowd really quickly. I don't see anything out of the ordinary. I lock eyes with some guy, but I don't recognize him so I keep scanning and ignore him. After a moment I realize that feeling is gone and maybe there's no one important here after all, and I walk back out to my husband. He glares at me all mad and says, "Well? Did you find your blond guy?" Then some girls erupt into laughter in front of us and I notice my daughter has pulled away from my husband who is too angry to notice and is walking through the girls crowd. I rush over and apologize for her stepping on them. They tell me she's so cute and that she came over and put her hands on her hips and said, "Move it!" I'm mortified, I did not teach my kids to be so rude!!! But they girls are laughing about how cute it is. I notice one of the girls looks like someone from the con who FB friended me that I never even spoke to! Then I wake up.

Dream Five: I've got one of those little dolls with the wires attached that you move and the computer translates into movement and animates ( http://gizmodo.com/5913553/over+dram...animation-easy ) and I'm playing with it because I think it's so cool. I'm makeing it do all kinds of dance moves, and eventually the perv in me comes out and I make it mime humping things just to see the animated character on the screen dance and hump things, lol. The animated character on the screen was a man in a trench coat with short blond hair.

Dream One: I'm a young boy, maybe 10 or so, and I'm with an older brother who has long dark hair. We're traveling inside a pod inside of a large dragon. (necessary background info here: In the dream, giant dragons roam the earth burning and eating anyone they see, so brave men hitch rides on the dragons, and put little inflatable houses under their scales. Then inflate them. Once inflated, the move the scales enough that people can hide underneath them, and the scales are so thick and strong the dragon can't get to the people underneath them. So houses are made INSIDE the Dragon's skin. I wonder sometimes how I dream this shit up, lol.) My brother is angry because he thinks we shouldn't be hiding from the dragons. He's convinced hat we can befriend the dragons by singing to them b/c our grandpa told him that when he was young. But Grandpa had never tried it and everyone laughed at the idea. This brother, who was probably close to 18 or 19, sneaks out of the dragons scales, and begins singing... The star spangled banner?! to the dragon, lmao. But it works, and the dragon begins to "sing" as well, which actually sounds like wind whipping through hallways or over bottles, only in different tunes and pitches. Then the dragon extends a giant claw, and the brother climbs up his finger, up his arm, and onto the Dragons back between the wings, and it takes to the air. I can just barely see my brother's foot from my space under the scales. I think it's amazing, he did it! He's braver than any warrior who ever inflated any scales, because he didn't just sneak, he got right out there in front of the dragon and proved us all wrong. Then I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm at the card store where we play Pokemon cards. I'm looking at these pretty wooden chests that you have to purchase and paint yourself. They have faeries carved int he top of them, and they have mirrors inside, they look more like jewelry boxes, not something you'd expect to see in a card shop. A BIG missed reality check there, lol. I walk away from the boxes and move to another shelf to look at card books. The lady who works there walks up to me and asks me if I'm going to have enough money to buy anything. Really rude and uncharacteristic of her, another missed reality check. I tell her I don't have any cash on me, but as soon as my husband shows up with the money I'll be buying something for sure. Eventually my husband shows up, and I tell him what I want, but then I leave by myself and leave him and the kids at the card shop. I go across the street, and there's a building there I feel like I should go into. I do, and I see a big box that appears to be in the wrong place. There's a guy in the building with Curly brown hair and big kind eyes. I ask him if he can help me move the box to the place where it belongs because it's so heavy! He says sure, then takes his shirt off. He's very muscular, and he even goes to all the trouble of flexing a few times for me ^_^ So I do what any good BFF would do, I whip out my camera phone and take pictures and send them to Ambies while he's flexing and lifting. Then My kids and husband come into the room, and my husband starts talking to the guy, and I wander off to see what my kids are doing. They've found some toys and are making a HUGE mess with them. I make them clean it up. When they clean up, my husband is ready to go, so we leave. We're walking down the street, and it's dark in the dream, and I notice there are stones on the side of the road with letters and words on them. I wake up.

Dream Three: I;m on my computer, and I click on a link. When I click the link, it drops me on some strange country road. I assume I'm in the county next to ours, and that if I walk a certain way I'll end up back at home. I actually tell myself that I shouldn't have clicked on that link not knowing where it would drop me, but then never realize that clicking on links don't deposit your physical body on roads, lol. After walking a bit, I Realize I'm going the wrong way, and turn around to walk to the other way. I come across a building that looks familiar, and remember that I can walk through that building as a short cut. AS I walk through the building, I remember it's an apartment complex and that I know some people there but it's been years since I've seen them. Just as I think this, I walk into a common room with a big screen TV and a few guys sitting around drinking beers and sodas and playing a video game. I try to sneak through without being seen, because I recognize them as an exboyfriend and his friends (though I never dated a guy like him, lol) I try to reason to myself that they knew me with long hair, and now my hair is short. Also, with my coat on, I look like a boy not a girl anyways. Just as I think I'm safe, the guy jumps up and says, "Hey, wait a minute! You look familiar..." And of course I just run off, lol. He chases me though, and I end up in a parking lot, where my BFF is parked waiting to pick me up. She gets out of the car when she sees me running, even though I'm yelling at her to get back in the car! Just as I'm reaching the car, the guy catches up and grabs my arm. He spins me around and looks me in the face, and he says, "It is you! You cut your hair!" I Look up at him, and he's so gorgeous, I'm actually embarrassed he's seeing me with my short hair (I have a love hate relationship with short hair, I either look great, or I look like a boy... there's no middle ground.) His own hair is dark and longer than mine, he's got a goatee thing going on, and his skin is a creamy tan, like coffee with milk in it. About the color of a native American guy I used to know, so maybe he was native American? Anyways, He was hot, and I'm finding myself embarrassed over my short hair, and I want there to be more between us, but then my BFF walks over and demands he let go of me. At that, his attention shifts to her, and he starts flirting with her. I'm really hurt by this, and I grab her arm and tell her, "lets go! This guys a creep!" and then drag her into her car, and I get behind the wheel. I'm trying to tell her in the car that I really still like him and it is NOT cool that she's letting him flirt with her (this bringing up ancient memories of ten years ago when she started flirting with the guy she knew I liked and had been flirting with for a couple weeks, and managed to make him like her in no time flat... This whole dream was full of insecurities and crap ) So then as we're stopping at the end of the apartments "driveway" the car wants to roll even though I've got the brakes on. So I back it up to keep it from being in the middle of traffic, only it keeps rolling forwards. Then it gets stuck in reverse! And the brakes aren't working either, so we're going backwards up the road, and freaking out. Finally I decide that I'm going to try to slow the car down by jumping out and holding onto it and using my feet as traction on the road. Ambies gets in the driver seat and pushes the breaks as hard as she can and steers the car towards the side of the road as I'm trying to hold it back and slow it down. Finally it's in the grass and going slow, so she takes the key out and we're safe. Then a car pulls up and a couple get out. The woman is dressed in purple and white, and I didn't pay much attention to the man because the woman started talking to me and he started talking to my BFF. The woman is insisting we can't fix the car and should let them drive us home, but I'm not comfortable with this and think I can fix our car. Then I call the police to see if they can help me ? But before they get there, the lady FLIPS out about me needing to get in the car with her, and with amazing strength she pushes me into her car and starts to drive off with me! I'm flipping out because my phone hit the group and I can't call anyone to save me and she won't stop. So I start trying to hit the car window to bust out, and she starts hitting me telling me to calm down and stop resisting, there's nothing I can do to get away. I start hitting her back, and punching and kicking her, and she's pushing me away with her arms, and my arms are too short to reach her to hit her anymore, so I lean back and start trying to kick her. My flip flop falls off when she grabs at my foot, and she licks my toes freaking me out and I pull back and kick her REALLY hard, but she acts like it doesn't hurt at all. Then stops the car and says we're here. She hefts me up over her shoulder and carries me inside an apartment like I'm nothing, despite the fact that I'm kicking and screaming and punching her spine with all my might. The she drops me not gently at all on the floor and I happen to get a handful of her hair as I'm falling towards the floor and her hair comes off! I realize it's a wig, and she's a MAN in drag, not a woman at all. I wonder how I couldn't have figured it out before, but then he was a really pretty woman, so it's not surprising. But what he does next isn't pretty. He starts puking because I hit him so hard, and it gets all over me YUCK! His lipstick is all smeared now and he says he needs to go clean his face off, and he walks into a bathroom. I take the chance to run to a phone and call 911. I try to tell them he's kidnapped me and when I tell the operator that he threw up on me she laughs at me. Then there's a knock on the door, and it's the 911 operator, and she's telling me she's here to open the door and it's safe to leave now. But then When I walk through the door she hands me a bill for being rescued. I flip out on her how it's supposed to be a public service to be rescued from criminals and kidnappers, and she isn't supposed to charge me $149.99 for it! Then I start lamenting my bills, and wondering how I'm going to come up with the money to pay this and get the car fixed... then I remember my BFF and ask if they police arrived in time to save her from the guy who was with the girl/guy, and the lady says yeah the police arrived and my friend was safe with her bill too! Then I woke up, thankfully.

Dream Four: I'm at the grocery store with my mom and my kids. we're checking out, and she introduces me to the guy who's bagging our things. He offers to help us take everything out to the car. When we get tot he car, I realize that my car is there but so is my husbands, and I "remember" that mom's watching the kids, and we were at the grocery store buying food for them to eat at her house while she baby sits. I strap them in while she and the guy puts the bags in the car, then I walk over to my husbands car and start to get in. The bag boy comes over and starts asking about the car, and I tell him how it used to be min in highschool, and he asks if I'll take him for a spin (it's a silver '96 Camaro, that's a normal reaction from my friends, they want to ride in it because it's a sports car, lol) So I take him around the block, but before we get all the wy around, he asks me to stop because he sees a friend. He goes to talk to his friend, and I realize I'm no longer in my car, but standing inside an anime convention hall. I see a PONY, Princess Luna to be exact, walking down the hall, then realize it's someone in a really good costume. a couple of my own friends walk by, and I say hey, and they stop and I tell them how beautiful they look... they're cos-playing as flappers, but their dresses are really shiny as well and stringy. Then I decide I need to go, and the bag boy is no where in site, so I just leave him I'm back in my car somehow pulling out onto a road, when someone takes the turn into the driveway too sharp and hits the car behind me. I'm glad not to be in an accident myself, and just keep going instead of stopping to help :O then I find myself walking again, this time I'm trying to walk through a parade and I'm carrying my daughter. I soon realize this is a parade celebrating the day of the dead, and then my daughter drops her stuffed bunny. Where it lands there are a LOT of stuffed bunnies, and the little girls sitting there help me figure out which one belongs to my daughter. I wake up.

These dreams felt way closer to my "normal", so I was much happier with last night than the last several nights. And, I had to make myself get up because I knew if I had anymore I'd waste an eternity at the keyboard, ha ha.

Dream One: It's pokemon card night and we're going to the card store where my little boy plays against other people. The building is totally different, it's a stand alone store now not part of a strip mall, and the parking lot is a grass field. I park and go inside. When I get inside, the placed is owned by my mom's friends husband, and there are pictures of the guy having an affair with some one. I get pissed and snap at the guy because I really like my mom's friend and she deserves better. This is probably a direct reaction to finding out my mom's friend was having problems, but I don't know what those problems actually are, they may be health related rather than relationship related, I haven't the foggiest idea.

Dream Two: I'm in the car with my husband when one of the neighbor kids come up and ask to borrow something for another kid. I let her borrow it, and then tell her that the other neighbor kid isn't "people" and then make this big deal to write out a note saying something about how the other kid thinks he's people, but he's not. Then I knock on their door and give them the note, and it causes the home alarm system to go off. I get back in my car, and tell my husband that my pokemon card deck isn't beast yet, and I need better cards for it. Then one of the other neighbors dogs walks out in the street in front of our car so we can't go anywhere.

Dream Three: The Neighbor girls is in the dream again, but now she's at my Grandpa's house and my aunt is giving her a birthday present. We talk for a bit, and she asks me how old I am, I tell her 25 and she is surprised she thought she was older than me. Then she says she's getting married soon, then offers to take me for a ride on a motorcycle. We go find me a spare helmet in my grandpa's closet, then start to leave. I decide I need to take my bicycle and put it at my aunts house next door, so while she gets out her motorcycle I take out my bike. My cousins marvel over her pretty motorcycle, then they marvel over the fact my bike is way too big for me but I can still ride it. Then when I get the bike to my aunts house, the neighbors girl turns into Fluttershy on a scooter instead of a motor cycle. She almost tips her scooter over a retainer wall, but I come to her rescue and she jumps out to hug me and the scooter goes over the wall instead, but she's safe. Suddenly I'm Rainbowdash, and I wake up.

Dream Four (Fragment): There's a scratch on my foot in the shape of a ">" and it takes up the whole top of my foot. It itches, and I bend to scratch it and accidentally scratch the scab off and make it bleed. In this fragment though I was actually in bed in the dream, It was a False Awakening I guess, and I wake up for real and start rubbing my foot trying to see if it's still bleeding, then realize I don't really have a scratch like that on my foot at all, lol.

Dream Five: I'm at the store with my mom, and I'm thirsty. I say as much and she offers to buy me a soda. I tell her I have money and I'll get my own, but she refuses to let me buy it. I try to slip a $5 in her purse because I know she won't take it if I just hand it to her. Then she buys me a fountain drink. A small one, while she gets a large for herself. I'm disappointed because I prefer bottled drinks to fountain ones, but I don't say anything. Then after two sips the drink is completely empty, and I'm really upset/sad because it was mostly ice and not drink! I don't say anything out loud, but I'm seething to myself that I should have been allowed to buy my own drink. Then we get in the car and are driving through a city.

My dreams the last few days have been... boring! And hardly worth remembering, lol. I think I need to watch a lot of anime and read a bunch for the next couple days to give my subconscious better material!

I really should I have wrote this when I woke up not just before bed, lol. So I had dreams, very fuzzy fragmented ones at that, and now I'm about to go to bed and remembered I forgot to write them. Oops. I don't even remember what these notes mean

Dream One (notes): Woods, Swim, Boats interview

Dream Two: I dreamed that I went to put some sort of leave in conditioner in my hair, but instead accidentally put honey in my hair instead. I was trying to rub it out, and it just wasn't working since I put so much in. My hair was a huge sticky blob. It was awful! I remember it so clearly though, and thinking it was so real and that I was SUCH and idiot, ha ha.

Dream Three (notes) Replacing plates, Kids meals

Dream Four: This wasn't a fragment before, but all I can remember now is that I was looking for a birthday friend or my BFF's sister. I was at the mall looking at a book store, and noticed they had Harry Potter books on sale. I almost bought them for her, then wondered if she likes Harry potter as much as my BFF, and if she does if she doesn't already own the books. Then I realize the books look JUST like my books, missing the little paper sleeve and everything. I remind myself my books are on the shelf at home though, and leave. As I walk out, some random guy in a white apron and chef hat asks me if I'd like to order a chicken sandwich O.o

Had to get up early anyways today to go to church, but I'm none too thrilled that my daughter had nightmares and woke me up and hour and a half earlier than I needed to wake up. With my difficulty sleeping, I managed to toss and turn half an hour away and decided to just go ahead and get up since I wasn't getting anywhere with sleep.

Dream One(Fragment): I was playing Hakuouki and trying to figure out how to get the "Dream Ending" for Saito... Such a thing doesn't exist, I think I was too focused on hoping to have a lucid dream and since playing the game was the last thing I did before bed... well it couldn't help but happen, lol.

Dream Two(Fragment): Harada from Hakuouki was walking quickly but gracefully through a modern door, his hand on his sword as thought he were expecting a fight.

Dream Three: I'm at the mall with my husband, we go upstairs, and then decide we want to leave. We can't get back downstairs to the parking lot though because there are no elevators or escalators, only one very full set of stairs. People are lining up outside of JC Penny and the line goes down the stairs and continues for a way in the mall. I wonder what everyone is waiting for, and I see a vision of multicolored Bandannas folded and stacked into two one foot high stacks. I decide to ask my husband what he wants for fathers day since we can't leave. He picks out a giant metal cooking spoon, only it's got a cheese grater built into the spoon so it wouldn't actually hold any liquids or anything, and he tells me that's what he wants. I laugh and tell him to stop goofing off, there's no way I'm buying a twenty dollar spoon with a cheese grader built in as I have a hard time believing he'd seriously want something so silly. He swears, completely serious, that's what he wants, and I laugh more because I can't understand the purpose of such an invention, or why he'd want it when we rarely cook and NEVER grate cheese :/

I know that doesn't seem like much compared to my usual, but for only 4 hours of sleep, it's pretty good, lol. I usually have only fragments until 5 am or so when I go to sleep at 1, so I'm happy to have had a full dream to report as well