non-lucid

Woo Hoo, a lucid last night Even though I've probably had like 15 of these in the last four months, the magic never wears off!

Dream One: I'm securing a robot into a space ship. The robot isn't very happy about this, but he understands that he has done something wrong and this is the punishment by law not my choice. I'm sad because this robot is my friend and I don't want to send him away. He starts talking about how lonely he will be and how bored he will be with nothing to do but star at an empty space ship.Then, that when his punishment is over, no one he knows will still be left on earth. I want to do whatever I can to lesson his pain, so I go grab all of my favorite books. I bring them back to him and tell the robot that These are my favorite books. I'm sorry I have to send him off, but I hope that when he reads them he knows that back on earth we love and miss him. Then my husband gets a phone call. Hoping it's a reprieve for the robot, I rush over to see what's going on. He tells me that Kanone (Spiral the melody of logic, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-GaR...eature=related ) is in trouble and needs help, but no one knows where he is. I realize the robot probably knows where he is. So I go unbuckle the robot from it's space ship, and ask him if he knows where Kanone is. He says there are several places he could be, but he can check them all. I'm so grateful, and I tell him that if he does save someone, then his sins of accidentally killing someone will be nullified and he won't have to leave. I wake up. I can point out the origin of many of these elements. I watched the toonami April fools clips before bed, then read Star Wars The Clone Wars Secret Missions bk2 to the kids before bed... that's got to be where the robot and space ship came from. As for Kanone, Well Spiral sits on the book shelf over the foot of my bed, I see it (and all the Characters faces) every night before bed, lol. I think Kanone was the character to invade because he's my favorite :p

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm driving through the small town we live in.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm hanging out with a bunch of guys, and they're all either gay or bi. I'm watching them all flirt with each other and laughing because they are so much fun to hang out with and totally no pressure. But then one of the Bi one starts hitting on me, and I'm not too comfortable with it. He makes the comment that with my short hair I can style it and be a cute girl or I can just brush it and look like a cute guy, and that makes me extra fun. There's a car at some point and we're all piling into it. We were also comparing pictures on cell phones and I forgot I had porn on mine and they all saw it

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm in my room at the house I lived in as a teen. My aunt is there, and we're sitting on the floor looking at my cousin's pokemon cards that he was getting rid of. I decide I'm just going to go ahead and offer to buy all of them from the kid because I feel bad for him trying to save money for a PS3.

Dream Five (Lucid): I wake up in my bed. I slowly open my eyes, and just lay back and relax a bit longer, I always hate waking up and want to go back to sleep, lol. Then I notice I can hear something, so I roll over so I can see the foot of the bed. The TV is on. There is a commercial on for Pokemon Trading cards. I think that's weird and funny because I just had a dream about Pokemon cards, what a coincidence. Then I stop and think, wait, why is the TV on? I can't fall asleep with a TV on. Could this be a dream? Maybe someone turned the TV on... It feels really realistic... But then dreams often are so super real it's crazy. (The fact that the room is my OLD room from when I was a teenager and I don't even HAVE a TV in my room now didn't register) So I get up, and I start walking down the hallway. I think I need to reality check, so I try to plug my nose, I can still breathe. Then I question it, wait... am I pinching hard enough? Maybe I'm awake and I'm just not pinching hard enough. So I decide to try another one and count my fingers. I'm making it into the living room now and I'm counting on one hand, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven... then I start to move to the other hand and stop myself... seven? Seven fingers on one hand? Really? COOL! My grandma is sitting in a chair to my right, I turn to her and hold my hand out, "Check it out Grandma! I'm lucid dreaming! See? I have seven fingers!" She's a spoil sport and just says, "If you say so." I'm still doubting myself at this point too, thinking there's a small possibility that I might be awake (forgetting the fact I haven't lived in that house for seven years, lol.) But I decide I've done my reality checks and they failed, I just have to trust myself and DO SOMETHING. But I haven't had any lucids in so long, I can't even remember what my goals are and what I should do. So I decide that instead of trying anything big, I'm just going to try to get past my skepticism and take a risk. I walk to the front door and open it. Everything looks like it should (for that house). All the houses are in the right place as is the street. I feel really self conscious about the fact that I'm in a night gown still, but I tell myself this is a dream, it doesn't matter. I try to close my eyes and imagine myself in shorts and a t shirt. Doesn't work, so I just tell myself fuck it, it'll turn into a shirt and T shirt if I just keep moving and just assume that it is jeans and a T shirt. I walk out side, and down the front walk to the drive way. By this point my clothes are in fact jeans and a T shirt, just because I assumed they would be, yay! There are a couple of vans parked in the driveway. My cousins are in one, and my nephews in another, and my neighbors (from my current house) in yet another. Everyone is getting out of the vans like they're there for a visit. I wave, but don't want to quit moving and get sucked back into the dream scape. My aunt yells hello, so I yell hello back, then tell her, "Can't hang out yet, I'm in a lucid dream!" and she replies, "I know you are!" to which I laugh and say, "Of course you know, your just a dream character! You knew I was dreaming even before I did I bet!" (referring to seeing her in the previous dream) Then I make it to the road, start walking up it, and realize all my dream characters are following me. Even the neighbors in their yards are leaving to follow me.. Now that I'm awake I consider it pretty creepy having a 15+ dream character mob behind you, but in the dream I was like, "Oh, they're following me so we can do a musical number about the joys of lucid dreaming!" Suddenly I realize this is a good time to remind myself I'm dreaming, because I could way too easily get sucked back into the dream thinking about musical numbers, lol. I look up into the sky, now remembering that I am in fact dreaming. I see a flock of birds and I decide to try and shoot them with my fingers. I don't want to kill them or anything, just see if I can make them disappear because I've heard that you can make DCs disappear by pointing at them. I point at the birds. Nothing happens. I say, "Pow!" nothing happens. I consider doing the same to the DC in front of me, because they're all catching up now... but I reconsider, even if this is just a dream, I don't want to see any blood and gore if I mess up! So instead I briefly wonder if I need to stabilize, remembering that Ophelia had told me in the Lucid dreaming class that stabilizing might help my control. But then the only stabilizing method I can remember is the one where you crawl on the ground, and I really don't want to crawl on the road, lol. SO Instead I decide I'm going to try to make a Mcdonalds appear at the end of the road. I imagine a mcdonalds being there, but when I open my eyes what I get is a floating brown and yellow rounded cartoonish building (like this block set: http://img.auctiva.com/imgdata/4/0/5...3312892_tp.jpg ) and it has giant floating cookies for steps to climb to it. I start to climb, but then change my mind and turn back to the dream characters. I tell them, "I gotta go guys, I'm going to try and do something productive with this dream and I have a LOT of questions to ask someone." Then I grab the nearest DC, who happens to be a fat balding guy, and tell him, "Do me a favor when you leave ok? Tell Kurasawa I am Lucid and I need to talk to him. He can find me here at this McDonalds I just made." The dream character says, "Aight." then leaves (I'm in the south, everyone has a redneck accent, even me. Mines at least not as bad as most because people still refuse to believe that I am from here b/c according to them I have a "yankee" accent, but according to my friends up north my accent is most definitely southern, lol.) I start trying to climb the cookies, and it's just not working. They're wiggling and tipping too much. I get mad, and just reach up and grab the bottom of the door frame of this McDonalds and give it a good tug downwards. It falls to the ground, but suddenly looks like a kids play house. No way am I going to be able to fit in there, let alone me and Kurasawa. I grab the edges and start pulling and stretching it. I have to stretch it wide first, then I have to stretch the top to make it tall enough, then it's only like 6 inches deep, so I have to push on the back to stretch it out. There's no McDonalds furniture or people or cookware inside, and I'm annoyed. All that's in there is a little pink table with purple chairs and a regular white oven. I remember thinking that shiny white oven looks so out of place in this very pink and purple play house. That's about the time my kids woke me up.

Note to self, review Lucid goals at least twice a week from this point on, even if not Reality Checking on a daily bases b/c of being on vacation. Apparently it doesn't have to be the main thing on my brain for it to happen, lol.

My hubby is out today, so I've got a chance to write a normal dream journal entry

Dream One: I'm in a white gazebo in the middle of a grassy field. There is a shelf that goes all the way around the gazebo at about waist height. on the shelf are lots of little net bags with something inside them (maybe tea leaves or something? It definitely looked like tiny bits of plant material) and there are little tags hanging off from each bag with words on them. The bags are lines up all along the shelf all around me. The only way I can get out is to find three bags, and put them in the correct order as is indicated in a poem on a slip of paper I am holding. I actually find the three bags in the first five bags I check, but I don't want to be wrong, so I go all around the entire gazebo and read all the tags in case I made a mistake, then take the three bags I'm supposed to and then I wake up.

Dream Two: My husband and I are hanging out at my Grandpa's house (he took his own life last year, so this is a very creepy place for me) We're coming out of the woods, so I assume we had been taking a walk around the paths I played in as a child. We decide to go inside and have some lunch. We walk inside, and grab food from the fridge and pour ourselves cups of soda. We sit down in the living room and start eating. Suddenly I remember, My grandpa died! His house was sold off to someone else. We're in someone else's home. This is a big illegal mistake! I tell my husband he needs to hurry up and wash the dishes and make it look like we were never there while I finish eating bc I'm a slow eater. When I finish up, I take my plate and cup into the kitchen to wash them, and the whole sink is full of dishes, and I'm about to cry! Then I decide I don't want them to come home and find us still in their house, so we just leave the dishes, lol. I go next door to my aunts house and tell her what happened, and she laughs and says it's ok, they won't mind, they'll find it funny! and she wants to video tape their reaction when they come home and see that they forgot to lock the door and we waltzed in and ate their food!

Dream Three: I'm at the mall, talking to a lady whos running a stand. I get the idea that we're friends, or maybe she's a teacher or something. My phone rings, and I answer it. It's my BFF Ambies, she's working for an accessories store and just discovered that when she was carting things from the old shop in the mall to the new shop in the mall one of her totes had a hole in it and she's dropped a bunch of headband and belts. She tells me that her boss said to write it off as a loss for the claims department and just forget about it, so if I happen to see them I'm welcome to take them home. I take this as she wants me to go find them, so I do. I see girls grabbing them up left and right, so I grab as many as I can, then I start to walk in the direction I think Ambies' new store is. I pass the lady in the stand I was talking to before, and she calls out to me. I shove the belts and headbands in my pocket because I don't want her to think I'm stealing them and stop trusting me. I tell her I'm taking something to Ambies, and I'll be back in a little bit. She says ok, and I keep on my way. I walk down a set of stairs and there's a big crowd of people. a couple of guys step out of the crowd and start being total jerks by pointing and laughing at me because of my clothes. I turn around to walk away, not wanting to hear this crap, and then they start following me and poking me in the butt! I turn around and tell them if they don't leave me the fuck alone I'm going to kick them in the balls. They laugh, and one pokes me in the boob, so I pull my leg back to kick him. He just laughs and is like, "Was that supposed to hurt?!" I try again, this time he grabs my leg before I can kick him, and he lifts it up knocking me off balance and I fall backwards and hit the ground. I start yelling calling him and jerk and thrashing around on the ground trying to kick him but not succeeding. Then a couple of tall and skinny guys in preppy clothes (one had a red shirt on and that really stuck with me for some reason?) come over and start pushing the jerks around and telling them that they need to pick on someone their own size and leave that poor girl alone. I'm still on the floor, just watching the confrontation. The jerks finally throw their hands up and lumber off. The preppy guys don't turn around to help me up or anything though, they seem to think their civic duty is done and walk off in the other direction. I'm so upset, but I get up and try to put on a blank face. I start to walk off, and I hear someone call my name. It's a girl I used to go to school with inside a store. I walk towards her, but when I get in the store I can't find her, and one of the clerks point to the register and tell me she's helping customers right now and will get to me in a minute. When the customers are checked out and leave, the girl, D, starts telling me that she's going to hire me to work in her store. I try to politely decline and tell her I can't get a job right now. She says the guys were picking on me because of my poor clothes and if I had a job and bought prettier clothes I wouldn't be made fun of. I try to explain I can afford "prettier" clothes, I just don't like to wear them, and how I stay at home with my kids I can't get a job until they're in school. Then I just walk away because I'm mortified she'd think I needed money that bad. Then I realize, I don't have my bag! I must have dropped it when the jerks were picking on me. I start freaking out, and run back to where I was fighting those guys. There's my bag, spilled out on the floor. I stay crying knowing someone has probably gone through it and stolen my debit card and cash. I drop to my knees and frantically search through my bag. Nothing is missing. I'm crying tears of relief now. A guy walks up and asks me if everything is accounted for, and I nodd yes. Then He proudly puffs out his chest and says, "I'm glad! I've been watching that bag for the last five minutes waiting for it's owner to show up and claim it. I was making sure no one stole your things miss!" I thank him, but I'm still crying, so he offers me his hand to help me up. He's not at all attractive, but I don't care, I take his hand anyways and let him help me up. I wipe my eyes and then thank him again and start towards Ambies' new store. Unfortunately, he decides to follow me around the rest of the dream, thankfully quietly though! In Ambies store, there are rolls and rolls of ribbon, ruffles and tule. I realize that her job isn't just to sell accessories, but to make them as well. She says hey, and asks me what brings me by, I hold out the belts and headbands I had collected off the floor for her, and told her I was returning these to her. She seemed pretty happy and relieved that I was able to recover some of the lost goods. Then I wake up.

Dream Four:I'm in a movie theater. It's dark, and there's someone standing in front of the screen talking. It sounds like the person is doing some sort of ritual that the audience is a part of. The screen is playing a clip of a full moon over a graveyard. I'm sitting with my best friend Ambies, and we're bored. We get up and leave the theater and try to find the car. I think I've parked a couple streets over, and we start walking in that direction. Instead of finding my car, we end up coming up to this giant crumbling building covered in gothic church like windows. It's shaped like an office building, with rows and rows of windows, but the windows are shaped like church windows. There are gargoyles on the corners and top of the building too. It's really creepy but awesome at the same time. I pull out my phone to take pictures of the building, but the building is too big to get the whole thing in the picture. Then I see something else cool, a skull with bone ears. The ears are shaped like elven ears. It looks really cool, especially considering that ears don't even have bones! I have to take a picture of it, and I notice that when I take the pictures, the lighting make it look like the empty eye sockets glow red. I think that's cool and go to show Ambies, but she is taking pictures too, of sticks, lol, and she wants to show me her pictures. I look, then we remember we're trying to find my car and start walking again. We come across a graveyard with the full moon, and it reminds me of the movie theater before. Someone's set a puppet theater in front of a grave to complete the effect. We keep walking after remarking about the similarities. We walk through someone's back yard, and see a bunch of dogs rolling around on the ground making weird noises. One is chained up, the rest aren't though. Then I realize they all look identical. My dream logic tells me that the chained up dog is the only real dog, and he's having a seizure, which is normal for that dog, and that the dog has this weird phenomenon that when it has a seizure it can project a bunch of copies of it's self also seizuring into the world so it looks like there are a bunch of dogs to distract predators. I tell Ambies whats going on and that we don't need to worry about it, then as we're crossing the road, the dogs owners pull up in a black SUV. We yell out to them that their dog is having a seizure, and they thank us for telling them and go to the backyard to check on him. Just then I notice the Burger King mascot a few blocks over. Only he's four stories tall! I decide then that he's a robot for the parade and festival going on. Another block down we see a bounce house with the Mcdonalds logo on it. There's another platform near it where they've got a big projector screen set up and are showing a movie trailer. Apparently they have a bunch of actors and actresses promoting some kids movie. The main character of the kids movie is a little girl who is half doll, so the little actress playing her is wearing plushy leggings to make her look like she's half human half stuffed doll. There are also a bunch of male actors who are mostly in their twenties but look young for their age so they can play the kids in the school without the movie company having to pay for private tutors. They're all introducing themselves and talking about the movie. One of the guys points at me and says he plays a kid my age. I yell out to him how young do you think I am?! and he says 16, and I yell out that I'm 25, that makes me older than him! and then start to leave. I notice a Blonde guy, and realize I want to talk to him. I feel like I have important questions to ask him. I look at him for a bit, waiting for him to look up and make eye contact. At some point a purple haired guy walks by and I think that his hair is awesome! Finally, blondie looks up at me, and I tilt my head in a follow me type motion, then start walking down some stairs off the platform and away from the set. Someone taps me on my shoulder, and it's not the blond guy following me, but instead it's the brown haired guy who had thought I was 16. I tell him not very nicely to go away, I wasn't beckoning him to come with me, I was trying to get the blond to follow me. Then I keep walking away, fast! lol I end up walking into this card shop that my son and I have started going to play play Pokemon cards on Tuesdays (Yes, I'm totally using pokemon cards to teach him addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division... I'm either the coolest parent ever or the lamest, lol) I find my husband and son are already there, and my husband is so happy I'm finally there to wake over because he doesn't know how to play Pokemon cards and he is sick of our sons whining. I take my son, who is somehow three years younger and easy to carry. Then I wake up.

No notes again, and my entries will probably be like this for the next ten days or so because it's vacation time So here's just a general gist of what I dreamed about.

Dreams One and Two: My Little Pony dreams (well I did watch friendship is magic for 5 hours before bedtime, I totally saw this coming!) can't remember what the first one was about, but the second one it was Spike's Birthday

Dream Three: I woke up on a wooden table right in front of a wooded area. There was a wolf in the woods only about ten feet away, and I thought it was actually someone I knew (but I didn't know who it was?) in some sort of wolf form. I started to talk towards it, but it turns and started jogging slowly away. It turned a couple times to make sure I was following it. That's all I remember of that.

Dream Four: I was in some sort of store that had GIANT stuffed animals, I'm talking like 3 and 4 feet tall ones. But the only actual stuffed animals were MLP:FIM ponies. They also had three and four foot tall stuffed toys that looked like game systems and controllers. I thought it'd be pretty awesome to use them as floor cushions while playing video games. There was another lady there with her kids and we were talking about games our kids play and games we play. Then we sat down at a circular booth table in the store where some guys were playing some card game and we all ate and hung out, talking about more games. My kids were oddly quiet the whole time, that should have sparked a RC, but it didn't.

Dream Five: I was trying to hang a rope from the ceiling and swing on it. Only, my living room was open space outside. The ceiling looked right, only instead of walls it was held up by poles like a car port, and the floor was just the ground complete with broken acorns and walnuts and leaves and such. At one point I saw my daughters toy tea set half buried and wondered if she'd ever find all the pieces. The dream was actually pretty long because I'd swing back and forth once or twice then the rope would fall out of the ceiling and I'd have to stand on something to shove it back up between the ceiling tiles. And I did this many, many times. My dad was there at some point too I think, he wanted to know what I was doing and called me childish when I explained it to him, then told me I'd get hurt. I didn't care though, I was having fun.

Like I said it's vacation week for us (Not technically going anywhere until Thursday, but my husbands off work and we're spending as much family time as we can) so my journal entries will be vague recalls and not actual detailed retellings of the dreams to save time and I'm not taking notes... I'm sleeping in

Dream One (Fragment): I was driving an SUV along some country mountain road and got it stuck in the mud. I got out and tried calling for help. A group of guys showed up to help me push it out, and I think a rope was tied to it and we tried pulling it out.

Dream Two: I'm in the trailer we lived in when my husband and I first got married about 6 years ago. There's a guy dressed in army fatigues, and he's yelling at me to move move move. I rush outside where there's already a group of people waiting for me. The Drill Sargent is talking to us about determination or something, then someone says something about how I drive a camaro, I must be fast. Then the Sargent yells at us to go to the back. I go through the hose to the back yard, and notice that everyone else went around the house and not through. My brother is there, and he is trying to show me how to throw these heavy toy planes on strings. We pass the plane back a forth a couple of times, then for some reason I decide to throw my PS3... which is on and lit up even though it's not plugged in. The light gives me pause for a moment, and I think why is the light on? But I fail to question it any more and just decide throwing the PS3 is a bad idea, I'm going back inside. Inside there are stairs, and when I go down them they lead to my best friend's basement. She's on the couch with her husband and there's a mattress with my bed sheets on it, so I assume it's a sleep over and that's where I'm sleeping on the floor. We start talking about how she's starting school again tomorrow (She just graduated from College yesterday, I am so proud of her! But that's why in the dream I think she's starting school again, expanding her degree I guess.) We start talking about the classes she has and if she's expecting any cute guys in her class. Then I joke with her and tell her that if Kurasawa ends up in her class I'm going to be so jealous and visiting her at school every day. Then she yawns, and almost instantly falls asleep. I go to lay down on the mattress, but decide it's uncomfortable and I'm going back upstairs to my trailer where my own bed is. I woke up about the time I got to my own bed, lol.

Dream Three (Fragment): The setting is a grey overcast day, on top of some concrete building. There are large stains on the ground, some red and some just look like the cement is wet. There's a man and a woman in stereotypical PI clothes, examining the scene. They're talking about how this was a murder scene, and the guy is showing the girl the differences between where people died (the blood) and where something had been spilled (the just wet looking spots). I can remember seeing the cracks in the concrete and the clouds in the sky, but there wasn't much content to the dream.

Dream Four: I'm in a car with some chic and my little boy. She tells me to stop at this really old looking trailer that is her friends house. She lets herself in, and wants to show me this guys Pokemon cards collection or something. I'm nervous about being there without the guy who owns the place, but she assures me it's totally cool, he won't mind, not that she plans on telling him anyways. Then I feel really awkward about it, that we're there and he doesn't and never will know. My little boy picks up the pokemon cards and throws them, so I scramble around trying to pick them and freaking out that they're not going to be in the right order and the guy is going to know something wasn't right and be mad at us. Then the chic laughs and says he'll probably just think he rearranged them when he was high. We leave, and I wake up.

Dream Five: I'm in a store, I think it's a craft store like AC Moore. I'm ready to check out, and I cant remember what I was buying But when I reach the checkout, there's only one register open and it's a lady from my moms church running it. She asks me to come over and help her to speed things up. I'm confused, and I ask her if she wants me to open up another lane, and she says no, that the girl running that lane is on break and I might mess up her drawer. She just wants me to swipe all the items across the scanner to ring them up while she chats with the customers. So I do. A few minutes later, the lady on break comes back, and the woman from church tells me thank you and that she doesn't need my help anymore. I start to go get what I was buying again, but notice it's raining. I look outside and see that it is pouring, then I wonder why I'm getting wet INSIDE? And look up to see those fire sprinkler things are going off. I hear the lady from church yelling that someone needs to call the fire department to come turn them off. I walk back to the registers and see my friend B and his daughter. I Say hey, and I thought he worked at Walmart, not AC Moore. He points to his daughter and tells me he's shopping for model paint to paint some models or something. Then I see some books getting soaked. I turn around and ask the church lady if the books will be put on clearance or at least half price now that they're wet. She says no, they will dry, this happens all the time and if they put stuff half price just because it was wet they'd never make any money. I wake up.

Dream Six: I'm standing in the middle of a decimated area of a city. There are broken or fallen buildings all around me, smoke, dust, and even a couple of small smoldering fires. I'm surrounded by these looming, thin pale figures. I'm pretty sure they're vampires and I'm going to die. Then this guy who looks a lot like Morpheus from the matrix shows up and starts kicking vampire ass. But more and more keep showing up! Eventually the guy just grabs me and starts running, carrying me away from the mess in his arms. As he's running, I notice that he's covered in blood, then that it's not all vampire blood, some of it is his own blood. He starts stumbling, and I say something lame like, "Your hurt!" He stops, and says, "I'm sorry, I can't make it any farther without your help." I nod and tell him thank you and ask him how I can help. He's still carrying me in front of his chest, and he lifts me up and sets me on his shoulder. At first I'm thinking this should make it so much harder to run, how the heck does this help? But before I can actually ask that question, he turns his head and bites the inside of my right leg, right through my jeans and everything. At first it hurts, and I cry out, "OW!" But before I can fuss at him to warn me before he's going to bite me, he starts gulping down my blood and it starts feeling really good like vampire bites in books, lol. I'm grabbing his bald head trying not to fall off his shoulders because I'm getting so dizzy from the pleasure and loss of blood. I can't really get a good grip though and start falling. That throws him off balance, and we both fall and roll down a slanted board that's fallen from a nearby building. I almost roll off the board into a nearby fire, but he grabs me and pulls me back into the roll so we're rolling on top of one another down the ramp. Before I can enjoy it though, we slam into a concrete wall, and then he jumps to his feet, lifts me back up, and starts running with me again. He runs into an abandoned store, and grabs an empty box. He tucks me inside, and closes it and tells me to hide that he will be back to get me when the fight is over. Then he leaves, presumably to find the vamps. the box is tiny and cramped though, and I can't make myself that small and hold my balance, and I end up with a muscle twitch that causes me to kick out and break the box. Oops. Suddenly I hear voices an aisle over, and try to tuck the box back around me, but can't do it on my own. A middle aged vampire woman comes around the corner, and I've comically got the box over my torso so my legs and head are poking out either side. I do the whole cartoon sheepish grin and wave, "uh... hi?" She grins, showing big fangs and reaches into her bag pulling out a really thin and flimsy knife. I think she's going to stab me with it, but instead she tosses it to me and says she likes it when her food fights back. A couple of teenage vampires come around the corner then, and she hisses at them to get lost and find their own meal. The hurry away quickly, and I take the moment she's distracted to bend over and get the knife she tossed me. She tells me, "That's a good girl, most are too scared to face off with me. It really kills the fun and flavor." Then I shout back, "Before I fight you, I want to know something." she asks what, and I ask her, "If you bite me will I become a vampire or will I die?" she tells me that all vampires had to be bitten to become vampires, but that answers has holes in it. I see another lady vampire walk by, she's got a baby in her arms, and I can see the baby's fangs sticking out. So I think someone had to bite that baby to make it a vampire, but if every one became a vampire when bitten there would be more vampires in this world. I ask again, "So everyone who's bitten by a vampire becomes a vampire?" She laughs and tells me "Only the lucky ones who don't die first!" I try to run then, worried that I won't be one of the lucky ones. She lunges at me, and I try to slit her throat with the knife when she jumps, but her skin is too tough. She laughs, and I'm on the ground with her on top of me, one hand at her throat pushing against her skin with the knife, the other hand on her forehead trying to push her face and teeth as far away as I can. The more I strain against her, the more my leg starts hurts, and at the time I find it really weird that it's hurting when it's my arms and upper body straining against her. Her face gets closer and close to me, and then suddenly she's being lifted off from me and flung into a nearby wall. It's the guy who looks like Morpheus He stops for a moment to ask me if I'm ok. When I tell him I think so, he turns back around and stakes the vampire woman. She turns to ash and blows away as if the wind were blowing even though it wasn't. Then my leg really starts to hurt. It feels like it's getting really tight and hard. I grab for it on reflex and grit my teeth. Morpheus guy some over and asks me what's wrong. I tell him I don't know, then notices I'm grabbing my leg, and he asks me if I hurt my leg. I tell him no, and he curses then picks me up and sets me up on a nearby box so he can look at it closer without having to get down on the floor. This box must have something in it because it doesn't collapse under my weight. I start feeling like my whole body is shaking, and I'm hearing him shout out to someone to get over here. I see a chic with long dark hair and a guy with short brown hair in their early twenties lean over his shoulder. I blink and then I'm waking up in a small bed inside of a camper. I get up off the bed, and everything feels kind of off. I practically float through the camper to the door, and open it. The girl is standing out side as if she's waiting on me. She tells me it's about time I woke up, then asks me if I'd like to grab a burger because the guys are already pigging out at McDonalds and we're missing out. I do want to eat, and that's when I notice the camper isn't parked in the woods or anything, it's parked in a McDonalds parking lot. We walk inside, and the morpheus guy and the short brown hair guy are eating inside. The chic walks me to the table and sits me down, saying she'll order our food and I should stay here because it'll take me a few days to adjust. Talking to the guys, I find out that I've become a vampire because I'm a carrier of the rare gene that converts people when bitten. I realize then that the woman carrying the baby vampire must have returned and bitten her baby when she realize that genetic determined if you were one of the lucky ones or not. I feel kind of sick thinking about how someone would do that, even if it was genetics, she couldn't be 100% sure that the baby got that gene passed down. The Morpheus guy apologizes, saying he didn't realize I was carrier, and that if I had been a normal person I would have healed just fine because he didn't drink enough to kill me or anything. I'm not mad about it though, so far I see no difference from my normal self, except that I feel as light as air. They tell me I will, and the girls shows up with my burger. Then I ask who they are, and find they are some sort of paranormal creature hunters who hunt creatures that are a threat to humanity. I find out they are where ever we are looking for some sort of boar beast. I realize I'm missing something, but this part of the dream was fuzzy so I don't remember what I forgot. The brown haired guy offers to take me to the camper to see if what I'm looking for is in there. When we get to the camper, the door is still open, and when we step inside, the boar is in there! At first it just looks like a cute little pink piggy, but then it starts getting all spiky and growing, morphing into this hideous beast. I wake up before it's transformation is complete, thankfully.

Already posted my dreams from the first part of the morning, but since I was able to fall back to sleep I'm making a second post with these dreams.

Dream Three: I'm at an out door fair of some sort with my family. We walk into an auditorium, and from here I think we were watching a movie. I remember there being cars racing against each other in some sort of high tech race track that lights up and has moving water obstacles. There was a plot to the whole video, some guys were chasing a car that had kidnapped their sister or something on this race track. The cars wrecked, and the guys ended up not only saving their sister, but the bad guys life as well. There was also some sort of bomb planted on the sister in her bra, and if they didn't deactivate it she and everyone else would blow up. A woman in a cat suit showed up with a phone and called the bomb to deactivate it. The sister was surprised by the vibrations, but no one blew up, lol. Then I'm back in the auditorium, and I lay down across a couple of seats because I think I'm tired. I notice on the floor is a little plastic coin, and when I pick it up I realize it's one of the Pokemon coins to my son's Pokemon card game. No sooner to I pick it up do I realize there's another one on the floor too. I pick it up as well, then notice someone is crawling UNDER the seats. It's my friend T! He's saying something about gay marriage, and I tell him I'm so sorry that the amendment passed and he's that much farther from gay marriage being made legal. Then I wake up.

Dream Four: I wake up, and I find my mouth hurts. I notice something is floating around in my mouth. I spit it out, and it's a tooth! I go to show my husband that one of my teeth fell out while I was asleep and he asks me which one. I try to feel with my tongue to find which one, and another tooth falls out! I feel around with my tongue some more and find two wholes in my mouth where the teeth should be and as soon as I find the holes they start pouring blood and all I can do is cough and sputter trying to spit it out and breathe. I woke up freaked out and had to make sure all my teeth were still there! lol

Dream Five: There is a man who I am playing very sweet and innocent with. I'm letting him make all the come ons and pretending that I don't get his games and know what he really wants to do. He looks like the guy from the chlorine and chocolate dream, but I don't connect the dots and realize this is a dream. We get to the point where we are making out, but the dream resets and I'm back to walking inside the building looking for him. I'm annoyed, and lazy to do this a second time, so I take a different approach. I walk in and see his two body guards drinking and lazying out on the job as well. I walk up to them and wave a little green and gold wand with a feather on it and little gold glitter specks drift out of it and into their breath and put them to sleep. The guy comes sauntering in, and sees his men, and me standing there. He demands to know who put his men to sleep. I tell him I did in a flirty and seductive tone. He refuses to believe me, and says, "Your far too small and beautiful to satisfy my men." I say something like, "Beautiful? Me? no no no, I'm dangerous, very very dangerous." Then he tells me, "Yes, you are beautiful. Like the Autumn leaves in the fall." and I laugh and trace a finger across his shoulder and try to be seductive and lead him into another room. I wake up when he starts to follow me though.

Kind of disappointed, with all the talk of lucids in my first couple dreams, I hoped I'd be lucid in these dreams, but I wasn't even close. :/

I didn't bother trying to remember my dreams very well last night as I was actually able to sleep and didn't have insomnia (hooray for 10 hours of sleep! I needed it!) I was kind of scared that if I moved around too much I'd end up waking myself up too much and the insomnia would strike. this entry will probably be short compared to my usual!

Dream One: The dream starts off with me in the office of the Church I used to be a secretary for about 6 years ago. I decide I need to hurry up and leave and get to my other job, at Dominos (also worked there 6 years ago at the same time) because I'm expecting someone who controls the weather to make it rain. I walk to Dominos, and I see my apartment (I lived in 3 years ago) is right behind Dominos. I'm pretty happy it's so close because I need to change before work. I go change, but then instead of going to Dominos, I go to the park for a city wide story time!

Dream Two: I'm in a shop where they sell clothes for Asian Ball Jointed Dolls. I'm thinking that I am one of the dress makers. (I can sew in waking life, but only simple things, not tiny doll clothes!) Then suddenly the dream shifts and I'm a party planner and I'm planning a birthday party at Chuck E Cheese, but I can't figure out where chuck e cheese is.

Dream Three (Fragment):

Spoiler for lady problems:

That time of the month comes early and unexpectedly, while I'm in public (I think maybe out to eat) and I'm completely unprepared and under supplied

Dream Four: I'm at Target with my husband, wandering through the little girls clothes. I'm so excited to see a Pinkalicious Dress in Pink and Yellow, and pink Pinkalicious shoes. My daughter LOVES Pinkalicious. I'm trying to find them in her size when my buddy B comes up to us to say hey. I'm surprised he's there because I thought he worked at Walmart, but he tells me he switched to Target because they have cooler customers. Then B tells me he has George Clooney's phone number now because he bought a sofa from them and B had to confirm the delivery. Then we leave and go to visit the parents of one of my exboyfriends. They still call and check on me once a year or so and talk to me when they see me in stores, so it's only slightly odd, lol. My Ex's mom tells me I look beautiful that day, and I thank her and find I'm hoping one of my other exes shows up to see how hot I look and kick himself in the butt. Dream logic Then, the best part of the dream, My ex's parents start asking me what is this lucid dreaming I'm posting about on facebook, it's not drugs or something is it? And I start explaining to them that there are no drugs involved, it's just controlling your dreams. I wake up and want to kick myself for not realizing that I was dreaming at the time! It wouldn't have done me much good since I woke up right afterwards, but even if for only a few seconds would have been awesome. I really need to reality check more when thinking about dreams and being lucid!

Dream Open: I open my eyes, and find that I am waking up on a hill with a cliff that over looks a pale yellowish brown building (it was slightly orangish too, but looked old and like it was made of some sort of stone.) I'm thinking about dreams, and I wonder why I don't remember having one before I woke up. Then I wonder if I'm in one now? I jump to see if I can fly, I can! I must be dreaming, but the full scope of it doesn't really hit me so I don't get very excited. I fly in a big circle over the building and the hill and there's a river below as well as a city. I wake up before I can do anything else. Not sure that I was fully lucid, I mean I knew I was in a dream, but I wasn't hit with that epiphany that I can do whatever I want to :/

Dream Two: I wake up in front of a house that I recognize as my own even though it doesn't look like my normal house. It looks more like a house I'd build in the Sims when I start a legacy game. It's a small square, with no windows, only a door. It's so small, that there's only a couple to three feet on either side of the door before the corner of the building! I notice there are some round looking trees nearby too, planted in rows. Ray and DJ from the cartoon band "Your Favorite Martian" are spray painting the brick on my house. They don't look like cartoons though, Ray looks like himself, and while I've never seen the guy that DJ is modeled after I assume he looks like he would in real life. (My subconscious must love Ray, all I have to do is hear his voice when my husband watches his videos or have youtube popup a "recommended for you" video with his face on it and he's in my dreams ) They are spray painting American flags on either side of my house, but they are claiming that it shows my support of gay pride, lol. The flags are outlined in white, and they're spray painting the red lines in, they haven't gotten to the blue square or the stars yet. I yawn and feel like I had a great nap, and thank my lucky stars I'm not as sleepy as I have been and hope my insomnia is gone if I was able to nap outside near a couple of guys spray painting. (Little do I realize I'm freaking asleep right then, no wonder I felt well rested! ha ha) I walk through the trees, and on the other side of them is a road, I cross it, and suddenly I'm looking at a super tall brick building that I assume is a store or a fire station. The neighbor's kid is there, and he's spray painting an American flag on the side of that building, and his progress mirrors that of Rays on my house. Suddenly the dream logic kicks in, and I assume I had it wrong, it wasn't Ray and DJ painting my house, it was the neighbors kids painting the fire station! I tell the kid he'd better stop, that even if it was a pretty picture, it's still considered vandalism because that's a public property and not his own house. He starts freaking out (his dad's a cop, lol) and then I tell him he can probably wash it off. I go back home, I'm not really interested in helping him clean up after his stupid mistake, I'm not that nice. I go inside my house, and it's bigger on the inside than it looks. I see my grandma, and tell her that I saw the neighbors kid spray painting the fire station. Then I tell her how I told him to wash it off or something. She tells me those kids never had any sense or brains, and I agree. Then I'm zooming out above the house and the trees have moved, which I find odd, but I'm still zooming out into blackness. I wake up, but just go back to sleep instead of taking notes not like me at all, ha ha. I didn't even remember to try to DEILD.

Dream Three: I know there was some to the begging of this that I can't remember The earliest point I remember, I'm running through some buildings with a woman in her forties or fifties. She's thin for that age, but she has some telling wrinkles that prove her age and hard years. Her hair is long and black, but not fancy or done or anything. She's wearing black dress pants and a blazer over a white button up shirt. Her shoes are black high heeled boots and she's only got on gold earrings and lipstick, not a lot of jewelry or makeup or anything. She's explaining to me that when two people of the same magic capacity collide, it'll be the slower one who absorbs not only the impact the opponent aims at them, but also the impact of their own magic aimed at the opponent. Then she tells me when I attack I need to be the fastest. I find this all very familiar (and later remember it's from the Manga I was reading last night, "Zetsuen no Tempest") I find myself going through the motions like it's a memory not like I'm doing it for the first time, of trying to throw magic from my hands at her. I miss, and she keeps running. I'm not trying to hurt her, she's teaching me and this is practice. I see something from the corner of my left eye. it's a guy leaping from some stairs on a fire escape, also chasing the woman. He's faster than me, and turns around a corner and I see a flash of white. I get around the corner and he's on the ground clutching his stomach. He wasn't fast enough. The lady is standing over him and offers him her hand to help him up. He takes it, and tries to play it cool as soon as he seems I'm around the corner too. The lady starts walking now, not running, and telling us we're not fast enough. Apparently I'm lucky I was so slow I missed her, because if I'd been just a bit faster and hit her, I'd have gotten the recoil from her magic and my own attack and been on the ground like Kay. I think it's odd she's calling him Kay, and I look at him for a minute. Something's really familiar about him, and I can't figure out what it is that's nagging me about him (If you follow my dream journal, you should know without this description, ha ha). He's got messy blond hair that's just past his ear, not really long, but by no means short. He looks like he's probably 21 or 22, but the way he carries himself with confidence I wonder if he's older and just looks younger. I focus on his black clothes for some reason, and then decide of course he looks familiar, we're training together, I should know him! (Dream logic strikes again!) we all three cross the street, and the guy starts walking up the side walk, but the woman cuts through a cemetery towards a church. I start to follow her, but a woman calls out behind me, "Hey B, what are you doing in the cemetery? You don't belong there!" I turn around to see another middle aged woman wearing some pretty old looking clothes, like she's too poor to buy new ones kind of thing. They're thread bare and faded from over washing, but no holes. I try to tell her I'm following my mother, even though in the dream I know the woman I'm following isn't my mom but I don't think I'm supposed to let on that she's my teacher either. The lady yells back at me, "There ain't nothing in that there cemetery but ghosts!" I turn to motion to the woman I was following, but she's changed form completely! She now looks like Harriet Tubman. I'm completely blown away how she's changed not only her face, clothes, race and age, but she's also almost see through!! She winks at me and says, "How do you think I get around without being noticed? People will ignore what they think is a ghost because they don't want to see one!" I can't become a ghost, so I decide to follow the guy instead, I'm sure he knows what we're supposed to do next. I run up the wide walk after him, but by now I'm a considerable distance behind him. He crosses a busy four lane road, and opens the door to a litle shop. I start to follow, but stop in horror when a little girl around 2 or 3 runs out the shop door when he opens it and towards the road. He grabs her JUST in time to keep her out of the road. But then, a little boy probably 6 or 7 runs out the door too and the guy can't grab him because his hands are full with the little girl. The boy trips, and falls, and without thinking I run up and grab him and jump into the middle turning lane before the traffic can hit us. He's skinny, so he weighs a lot less than my son, and I can easily carry him and bounce him a bit while I say "shhhhh, I got you, your not going to get hit buddy! You really shouldn't run out into the street like that!" He's got some scratches on his leg, and I decide to carry him inside and clean his scratches. Kay holds the door open for me, and thanks me for saving his brother. A n older lady, probably in her mid 40s is in the shop. She's wearing flashy purple clothes, she's heavy set, and wearing all kinds of gaudy jewelry with makeup caked on her face. Her eyes are sharp, they give the impression that she's watching my every move, sizing me trying to decide if I'm friend or foe and if foe, how to attack most effectively. She thanks me in a condescending tone for rescuing the kid, and tells me that he'll be fine now. I tell her he's scratched up, so I'd like to make sure he's cleaned up before I leave, I don't want the kid to get an infection or anything. She tells me she'll clean him up, but he seems scared of her, so I tell her I will do it before I leave just to be sure, then ask where the bathroom is. She starts to say something, but a little girl speaks up, "There's no water in the bathroom. We ran out." I look up at Kay who has yet another kid in his lap (there must have been five kids in this place, lol) and he shakes his head, "There was water when I left, but sometimes we do run out." The woman clicks her tongue and then says, "Well, since your here, why don't you stay for dinner?" I nod, but instead of talking to her, I whisper to Kay, "Wait, don't you need a mask or something?" (this was a reference to a book I just got called "Masque of the Red Death" Not the original story, but a modern authors attempt to turn it into a teenage love story set in the future.) He looks confused and says, "No?" then I'm distracted by this black rods that fly up and are hoovering around my head. They're a flat black metal, about the width of a pocky stick, but about ten inches long with a single black feather at the top of them. They're floating slightly slanted like a "/" Confused at what they are, I reach my hand up and start to touch one. When my hand gets close, the rod starts swirling quickly, orbiting my hand like it's very excited or something. I extend a finger, and when I touch the rod it's like whatever force was making it seem alive was gone and it just dropped to the floor like the inanimate object it was. there are three more still floating, and I do the same to each of them. I'm mystified, but the woman looks unhappy. Kay grabs my elbow and pulls me to another room where a table is set and he's saying something about needing to hurry so I can get home before my family misses me. The woman asks where I live, but I can't remember so I don't know how to tell her. In my awkward silence, Kay says, "She lives kind of far away so she needs to hurry." The woman is not happy about this answer, but she can't really press further and still keep her semi-nice act up, so she doesn't. Instead, these giant wooden butterflies with wing spans two feet long fly into the room. There are three, and they're beautiful blue and black with rounded wings. I reach up for butterfly to touch it, curious how it's flying without any cords or anything. When I try to touch the first one it suddenly flaps it's wings quickly and flies about three feet before crashing lifelessly to the floor. I try the second, and again when my hand gets close it flaps away quickly then crashes lifelessly, this time hitting the wall. I apologize for having it crash into the wall, and say I should probably stop before I break something. But the last butterfly looks so calm and collected, I can't help trying to touch it to. It does the same, but crashed like a dive bomb straight at the lady! She dodges it and glares at me. I apologize, and say I should really go home. Kay stands up offering to walk me out. When we get to the door something clicks and it finally hits me this is a dream and who he is. I lean up on my tip toes and start to kiss him, but he shakes his head ever so slightly motioning his eyes towards the woman in the other room as if to say I shouldn't kiss him in front of her. Instead I wrap my arms around his neck in a big hug and whisper to him, "Your not Kay, Your name is Kurasawa." He whispers back, "I know. I don't know why in this dream you think my name was different." Then the whole dream faded into blackness. I rolled over to go back to sleep, but my husbands alarm chose that moment to go off. After two hours of trying to go back to sleep, I got up and wrote this all out, hoping I can sleep afterwards!

Now, for those who are still confused about who the DC was! I have a re-occurring dream character that I've been calling "K" in my dream journal entries... his name in my dreams is actually Kurasawa. He's actually the reason for me looking into lucid dreaming, when he first started appearing a year ago he told me on a couple of different occasions that, "This is your dream, I'm just along for the ride." He would also push me to question why things in the dream were the way they were. I'm going to start using his name in my dreams because apparently calling him K here is bleeding over into my dreams and confusing me. There's really no reason to call him just K anyways, I was just keeping with conformity of never using actual names, lol. And though is name is Japanese, he doesn't look it at all. I'm pretty sure the name was just my brain being over influenced by all the Anime and Manga I partake of If that explanation's not enough for you, there's more on Kurasawa here: 2-8-11, Important dreams from the past: K's Original Dream - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I didn't sleep well last night, and the dreams I had weren't an escape like usual, but more stressful situations.

Dream One: I'm at my mother in laws house. Her Christmas tree is in the middle of the doorway. I think this an odd place for it, but she tells me that's the only place she could put it because she didn't have an extension cord. I think we start arguing about something but I don't remember what, and I walk out. Outside I'm walking up the road and run across a teenage kid playing basket ball. I ask him to take me to someone (or maybe he offers to take me, it's fuzzy) He leads me up the road, then we turn left at a stop sign, then go up a hill. At the top of the hill I recognize the place and that there should be stoplights across the road. Instead of stoplights though, there are basket ball goals hanging from the wires, and the kid tries to shoot from half way down the hill. I freak out thinking his ball could hit a car since we can't see what's coming over the top of the hill yet. He tells me to "chillax" and then keeps playing. I run to the top of the hill, and see there's no traffic. Then I see that waiting for me on top of the hill is someone. I don't even remember who, just that I was really happy to see them and gave them a hug and felt like everything was going to be ok... then I woke up.

Dream Two: I'm at the grocery store trying to figure out what kind of special Dinner I can make for my husband. I have absolutely no clue what I can make that would be special, and now I can't even remember what the special occasion was. Eventually, I decide I'm going to try to make lobster since in The Sims that's one of the best "fanciest" dishes you can make. I buy two lobsters, and I get in the car. I notice the lobsters make my hands stink like fish, and I'm grossed out wondering if this is really such a good idea. Then I realize I don't even know how to cook the things, and call my bff who actually has some sort of culinary degree (but I think hers is in pastries and cakes, not fish, lmao) in hopes that she will be able to walk me through it. When I start talking to her on the phone, I remember that my husband is allergic to shell fish, and I think Lobster is some sort of shellfish because it looks similar to shrimp and he's allergic to shrimp as well. I have a mental break down in the car because I have these stinky lobsters that I don't even know how to cook, and now I realize I've wasted money on them because we can't eat them after all and I don't know what to do with them now or what I'm going to make for this special dinner.

Dream Three: I'm going to the movies to see the new Disney movie coming out, Brave, with my kids. When we get there, the tickets are like $20 a piece, and it's crazy! But then we end up getting extra stuff with our tickets, like free water bottles and stuff because the movie is like a drinking game? When the movie starts, it's more like a play because the characters are breaking the fourth wall the whole time, and complaining about how our water bottles aren't right and just won't work for this game! The bottles keep leaking, and everyone's getting sticky and wet, and it's very annoying. I get up to leave, but somehow that makes the dream shift so that I become Merida, the main character, and the queen is telling me to run because the villagers want to cut my magic hair (yup, a Tangled reference there) I spend the next few minutes of the dream running from this crazy, 3 foot tall old lady with scraggly red hair who's chasing me with a glowing blue knife trying to cut my hair. I manage to trick her by opening the door to a stairway and she thinks I ran down the stairs. While she's trying to run after me she trips and falls (doesn't get hurt though!) and gets the knife lodged into the wall. I run up and yank the knife out of the wall, and it becomes a spatula? then I tell her my hair is magic and can't be cut and attempt to cut it myself with the spatula. Instead of cutting, it burns and smells and feels horrible. Everyone is all upset over the chase through the castle and my pretty hair being singed. I wake up

I woke up three hours earlier than normal, and it took me forever to fall asleep last night. I'm pretty upset because I live in NC and Amendment one passed last night. It's likely to affect a bunch of my friends gay and straight. I've just been fretting over it all night, and not able to relax. I'm hoping that being extra sleepy will help me sleep better tonight.

Dream One: I'm at my mom's house in the driveway. My Aunt and Uncle are getting out of their van, and a cousin of my mom's (making him my second cousin I guess?) gets out of a white car. I give my aunt and uncle hugs, then the cousin hands me a little package... it's a my little pony blind bag! He tells me that he heard I liked Ponies, and he knows some of the people who design them. Then he tells me that he was the inspiration for one of the new ponies in the upcoming season (has season three even been announced yet?!) and they made a toy of that pony, so he got a few freebies and thought I might like to have one. I was pretty excited about that. I know someone who was ponyfied! Better still, I'm related to someone who was ponyfied! Woohoo! We all go inside. My mom and her cousin sit on a couch, and my aunt and uncle on another couch facing them. I sit to the side in a chair, but I'm good with it. I'm not a very social person and tend to sit back and just watch people have fun, lol. I notice my mom's hair looks really pretty because she's just gotten out of the shower and he hasn't put it in her signature ponytail yet. Her naturally curly hair is looking very beach wavy, and try to sneak a few pictures of her with my cell phone. She always wants pictures that make her look pretty on her facebook page, but never thinks any of the pretty pictures of her are pretty. I know she'll thank me later when everyone tells her how pretty they are, but if she sees the pictures before I post them she'll never let me post them! Then she asks me what I'm doing... I'm busted. I tell her I'm just messing around with my phone to ignore me, but she knows me better than to listen, lol. She gets up and grabs a hair bow and puts her hair up. I make a pouty face, and tell her she spoiled my fun, and laughs and says, "I know! I meant to you rotten child!" Then for some reason my mom's cousin gets off the couch and says he'll bring the fun back to the party and starts stripping! My mom's mouth gets huge and she goes, "OH MY GOD!" and I start laughing and looking away, then curiosity gets the better of me, and I turn back around to see what he's doing. He starts trying to lap dance on my uncle and my aunt jumps up and runs out of the room. I'm almost dying laughing, then I remember the pony, and decide I need to get it out and see if it has his tattoos (I don't think this cousin in real life would have any tattoos or EVER do anything like this. He's a cool guy, but he's almost as old as my mom and has always seemed like the good and responsible kind... not the wild stripping kind, lol) I pull out the pony, and look at it's cutie mark and see that it's an anchor w/ a life preserver on it and it's name is "Simon Sailor" The cousins name is not Simon, lol. I grab my phone and start to take a picture of him lap dancing on my uncle with the pony in my hand trying to get a side by side shot, but I wake up first! Too bad, I'd have loved to see my bff's reaction in dream when I texted her that picture.

Dream Two (False Awakening): I tried to WILD, and it didn't go well, so I rolled over to go to sleep. I notice it's light, and I can hear some noise outside the bedroom. I open my eyes, and notice it's broad daylight! I freak out for a minute, I slept so hard I didn't even dream! Crazy! The I realize the noises I'm hearing are the neighbors kid that I baby sit after school on some days. He's yelling and knocking on the door asking if I'm home or if I forgot I was supposed to watch him. I look up, my kids are both still sleeping, so I jump up and put on my robe and run to the door. I let the kid in and tell him I need to go change and the kids are still asleep, so just be quiet and watch tv or play video games or something. I run back to the bedroom to change, but before I can get there I wake up for real and the sun is just starting to come up.

Dream Three: I'm in a house with two heavy set chics who are really nice like we're great friends. I leave though, saying I have something to take care of. I see a black man leading this really pretty dark brown haired girl into an ally. I notice the girl has a dreamy not all there look on her face. I chase after them. I tell the man to leave her alone, and he hisses at me that this is his meal and I need to find my own. Oh, I remember then, I'm a vampire. I tell him I only eat the ones who want to die, not the vibrant ones who are full of life and want to live it to it's fullest. I try to make myself look as big as possible, taking a fighting stance, and hissing, showing vampire fangs. I ask him if he knows who I am, and he claims not to care who I am, he just wants to eat this pretty girl. I tell him my name, and he pales, then starts stumbling back. Then he flat out runs away. The spell the girl is under breaks, and she falls to her knees scared, but I just shake my head and start walking away. The girl, crying, thanks me shakily, and I tell her "your welcome, watch who you let your guard down around." Then I walk to where I was supposed to find my next meal. Apparently I have a group of other vamps I hang with who find people that are ready to die to feed from. I show up, and the leader is a guy with long black hair and a smooth face. He seems very happy to see me, and jokes that he thought I was going to miss our dinner date. I tell him it's not a date, it's just dinner. There are way too many others here to call it a date. But I'm smiling and laughing too. But then I notice that our group of probably 8 people to eat, is all dressed in black but one. She's wearing a bright red sweater. In the dream I know this means she's still vibrant and full of life, red is a color that screams look at me! if she was depressed and wanted to die I expect her to be wearing black, a color that would match how bland and unnecessary she feels. I grab her arm, and start dragging her out. The vamp guy yells at me, "Hey, where you going with our meal? Taking dinner alone tonight babe?" I snap back at him, "Not this one, she doesn't want to die!" Then he follows me, dragging another woman, this one in black. He throws the other out the door with me and the first and says, "This one came with her, take 'em both." I nod and as soon as he closes the door and we're alone I ask the girls, "You don't really want to die, your both vibrant and full of life, what the hell are you doing here?" Then the girl in the red sweater starts crying. She tells me they do want to die! Then she goes on telling me this story of how their state banned gay marriage and now they can't spend the rest of their lives together. They'd made a pact, they would rather die together than be forced to spend the rest of their lives never being able to share their love. I roll my eyes, and ask them why they don't just move to another state that DOES allow gay marriage. They try to tell me they don't have the money, and I just tell them I will help them find a place as long as they don't mind me being there as well because I can only afford to keep up one home at a time. Then I ask them where they want to live. They pick a place, can't remember where now, and we move. And then they are the two girls that I'm in the house with in the beginning of the dream, and I realize that I had just had a memory or flashback of how we met. As soon as that clicked, I woke up as I came to the realization I was dreaming. The end of this dream was definitely influenced by my waking life. Gay marriage is already banned in my state, but there's an election going on TODAY for an amendment that will make marriage the only legally recognized domestic union in my state. It's a big deal around here, because of being in the bible belt and all, but I know so many people it would affect (because it won't only affect gays, but also unmarried straight couples who are considered a domestic union.) and this had been a BIG stress for me. Of course the Christians are all talking about how it'll prevent gay marriage, and that's all the churches want to see. Sooo, I guess the dream is kind of my fear that if this amendment passes it will leave many of my friends depressed, and even suicidal.

Dream Four: The game starts out I'm playing a video game. I identify the game in the dream as Call of Duty, but there are giant robots for enemies, so it must be the new COD Black Ops game my son's so excited about. In the dream, I'm trying to advance through this mountain pass, between these giant pillars, but there's a GIANT robot, two or three times as tall as my house, that's standing in the pass and you have to defeat it. I fail, and my husband says it's his turn. I don't see anything but the screen, but I just know I have handed him the controller. He starts trying the same thing I did, and he almost dies, but runs backwards to escape. I find myself thinking that the giant robot reminds me of Dreamprofessor's task of the month dream, yet fail to realize that THIS is a dream as well. -_- Then I watch as my husband leads the character back to a lake where the game had started us at. He swims in the lake to the other side, and there's a freaking light there! He turns the light on, and part of the lake lights up. Then he turns on lights all around the lake, and a lady is visible with diving gear. She tosses the diving gear to the game character, and tells us that there's something being dropped into the lake on the other side and transported under water, and they think it's the enemy smuggling weapons. We're going to infiltrate and find out what they're hiding. Then the character starts to climb out of the lake bed, and runs for a bit until we come to another lake. This lake has lots of people in it, like families swimming at a community pool. There are also stands with food and a DJ booth playing music. I change views to being the character, and I'm no longer a guy, but definitely myself. The diver chic is with me, and I tell her I don't have a clue how this gear works, so she's going to have to show me, and she says not to worry about it. She'll do her job and get me under water, I just have to do my job and find out whats being smuggled. I nod, and then we slip into the water. WE start drifting to the far side of the lake where there is no one swimming. The lake is shaped kind of like an 8 or a big pool. There's the "shallow" end where everyone was swimming, then there was a "deep" end where no one was swimming. the "deep" end was covered with this big white tent, and I just knew the hole in the top was where the weapons would be dropped. I try to dive underwater before having the gear turned out just to get a quick look, but the diver gear caused me to float upwards REALLY fast, even popped me up out of the water for a moment, like a ball someone tried to force underwater. The diver chic shakes her head at me and hisses, "Smooth! Really smooth! Don't you know the suit is designed to float when it's not on so you don't drown if it malfunctions under water?!" Of course I don't! She tells me to follow her, and swims to the very far edge wall of the lake (the deep end is set into a mountain) and starts messing with my suit, presumably to make it work, but before she can finish, the DJ guy starts talking. He says that it's time for the big show! People start scrambling out of the water, but a couple of other people have wandered tot he deep end like us.

Spoiler for inappropriate violence and nudity:

The DJ says, "Oh, I see we have some tourists who want a front row seat!" then he starts laughing sinisterly, "Enjoy the show, it'll be the greatest trip of your lives!" Then the hole in the top of the while dome cover is blacked out, and I can see the bottom of a helicopter or something opening up. A dark green case the size of an suv falls out first, and hit the water causing massive waves to push us against the wall. I can't breath for a minute and am fighting my way back to the surface. I get above water just in time to see these giant white cylinders fall from the hole. I wonder for a moment what they are, they just look like chalk, but then the water starts fizzing and the smell of chlorine is too strong to mistake it. My eyes are burning, my lungs are burning, and my skin is burning. I'm gasping for air, but every breath feels like fire. I'm grasping the wall of the cave trying to climb out, but also trying to help the diver girl get a good hold on the rock and out as well. The DJ starts laughing again, this time he says, "I told you it's be the show of your lives! ha ha ha! Now, I give you the cooling rain!" and water starts poring from the dome. Cold, clean, chlorine free water. The water below us swirls and goes down a drain like a giant toilet or something, and the cool water falling from the ceiling is washing away the burn. I start stripping off my swimming suit because it's holding chlorine in it as well. I'm completely naked against the wall, practically moaning in relief as the water makes me feel like I'm alive again and not about to die. The the DJ starts laughing again,"Burn baby, BURN!" and the cold water changes to scalding hot water. I scream and grip the wall trying to leave as little skin exposed to the rain as possible, then he laughs again and says, "lets cool it down now!" and the water turns cold again, soothing the burns. The he says, "Lets bring this show to a wrap. I hope your ready to die in my freezing depths of ice water! Oh, but, if you want to live, there's a way. Ladies, you can save yourselves and those around you, all you have to do is take off your tops!" Maniacal laughter now. I'm already butt naked, so there's nothing I can do, but I watch as the diver chic and the ladies with the other "tourists" as he'd called us stripped their tops off and cried out begging for our lives. Then a man smoking a cigar in a tan suit with hair and a beard like Ashton Kutcher (but a totally different facial shape) steps into the pool through a secret underground door in the wall (the lake is empty still because the water from the ceiling wasn't enough to fill it back up yet) He waves the cigar at the DJ booth, then starts fussing at the DJ that there are families with children here, and to save his sick games for after closing. Then he calls out to all of us, "tourists, please, clean yourselves off and thank your gods that you were saved. Remember next time, not to stick your nose where it doesn't belong!" He walks over to the side and starts talking to some guard that had stepped out the door with him. The diver chic I'm with starts crying, and I tell her to go ahead, I'd stay and investigate, I don't need her anymore because my suit was lost when I took it off. She slips down the rock wall and runs for a door where there's supposedly a bathroom. I take my time getting down because I have no clothes to protect me from scraping the rocks, and I'm trying to figure out what my next move is going to be as far as the smuggling is concerned. I make it to the bottom of the lake, and I'm surprised it's smooth tile, not muddy rock like I had expected. It makes sense to me though that they'd have done that they might have built a false bottom of the lake to be able to drain it and stuff from the natural bottom. I'm getting really cold really fast though, and the floor is cold too. I see a little rock sticking out from the floor, and I rush over there hoping it'll be warmer than the floor because of the hot water. Somehow, it still is warm, so I climb up on top of it (it's only 3 feet tall or so) then sit and pull my legs up to my body so I'm curled up and trying to hold in my body heat. I tuck my head in between my knees. Then the man with the cigar yells in my direction, "Hey you! I told you all to go wash up and get out of here!" I look up and try to put on my most innocent face, "I'm so sorry, it's just, I'm so cold, and this rock is so warm..." The guy looks shocked when he sees my face then says, "Shirley? Shirley Singer? Is that you?!" I immediately recognize this as my code name and remember having met this man in a fancy bar and flirting with him trying to collect information from him before. Not sure if he knows i'm a spy or not, I just nod weakly hoping that I look innocent enough. He rushes over to me, then seems to realize I'm naked, "Oh my god, Shirl, why are you here? Why are you naked?!" I tell him, "I was hot and wanted to go swimming at this community pool, and when I saw the deep end I couldn't resist the chance to swim so freely with so much room all to myself. But then that man," and I point to the dj, "Started laughing so cruelly, and then chlorine fell from the sky and it burned, it hurt so badly!" I start crying, "Then he turned on the cold water and it all rinsed away and I was so happy that I was rescued, but then he made the water so hot and burned us, then he he told us he was going to kill us if we didn't strip!" and I'm flat out bawling by this point, and he takes me into his arms and starts rocking back and forth telling me, "Shh, it's ok now, your safe, I won't let any of my men hurt you I swear it." I realize then he has no idea that I'm a spy and my ploy is working. Then he tells me to stay right here, He'll be right back, and I nod, then say in a small voice, "There was a girl on the rocks with me, can I make sure she's ok?" He tells me yes, to do what I like, just o be back in a moment when he returns. I nod, and scurry off the rock to the bathroom where I ind the diver chic. She's crying, so I hug her, then I push her back at arms length and tell her sternly, "It's ok, your alive, and you need to get out of here now so you can stay live, do you hear me? Don't cry, run. Go, now!" She nods, trying to put on a brave face, then takes off running out the door. I walk back slowly to the rock, and realize that wet, I can feel my legs sliding against each other, and it's a very sensual feeling. I enjoy the climb on the rocks, and feeling my wet skin sliding against it's self, and decide to take a new approach with the man. Rather than be the innocent hurt girl, I'll try seducing the information I need out of him. When he returns, he has a bottle of milk and a robe, as well as a bottle of chocolate syrup, no doubt so I can cover up and drink chocolate milk to sooth myself. I have better ideas for the chocolate. I wake up a couple times while he's cleaning the chocolate off from me, but am consciously aware enough of waking up that I don't move and fall right back asleep so it's almost like I never left the dream, but before the main event starts, my kids wake me up and I have no choice but to wake up. Damn, lol.

Dream One: I'm walking through my dads old neighborhood. I can hear rapping behind me, but no music with it. I turn around to see a girl and boy walking behind me, rapping and tapping out a beat with their feet on the street. I really am not a rap music fan, but there are some songs I like. This song, I'd never heard before, but I remember in the dream thinking it was really good, especially considering it was being sung by little kids! I end up at a house picking up a little girl from a baby sitters. Maybe it was my daughter, but she was grown up to be around 6 or 7. I woke up as soon as I saw her and knew I was supposed to be taking her home.

Dream Two: I'm at a mall, walking into a victoria secret with my husband. I take a quick look around, and instantly know I don't want anything from here. Not only is everything either white or green and totally not my style, but I just don't feel like depressing myself trying on lingerie that's not going to fit. There's a middle aged man behind the desk and he tells me I should look around because everything is on sale today and I will probably find a really good deal! I give in and think I'll probably find SOMETHING I'll like. I start looking around, and stumble across rain coats. My first thought was back to the conversation I'd had a few days ago about how when I was a kid they made coats for rain, and I never see rain coats in stores anymore. I see one of the raincoats is grey with black and white skull and crossbones patterns. I LOVE it, and my mom shows up and tells me to try it on. I decide to try on a medium because I know a small probably won't button. I can't button it on top. I start getting depressed again. I do not want to try a large because I know it's going to sag and hang around the arms and the bottom will probably just drop straight off from the breast making me look fat instead of dipping back in and being somewhat form fitting. My mom suggests that I could buy the medium and just not button it, or button it around the belly and leave the top open, saying it would be sexier that way anyways. I think about it for a second, then go ahead and decide to buy it. I go to check out, and the line is taking forever! When I finally go to check out, the guy tells me how much it's going to be, and I hand him my debit card. He then returns it and says their card machine has been broken for a week now and he can only accept cash. I'm mad at this point, because he could have told me that BEFORE when he told me that everything was on sale. I'm mad because I feel like I just went through all that body image trouble for nothing, I'm mad because I really wanted that rain coat, and I'm mad because it's embarrassing to be told you can't pay for something. I tell him he should have told me before, and he just shurgs his shoulders, so I say "Fuck you!" and throw the raincoat at him and storm out of the store. I'm ready to leave the mall completely, but my mom wants to look around a bit more. So I walk around with her a minute, then decide to walk by myself, for some reason I feel like being around her is only going to make things worse (a really good chance to get lucid, missed.) I pass by a display showing kids beach towels, and I notice there are hooded ones with Nintendo characters and Disney faeries on them. Those hooded towels are the kind of towels my kids like to use when they get out of the bathtub, and my daughters Tinkerbell towel was bleached out, so I think I'm going to find this store and buy a couple for them. The display says Fantastic Towels! on it, so I look for a store called Fantastic Towels, instead I find one called Fantastic Hair and Things. I wonder if that's it, and walk in to ask the clerk. It is, and she shows me the towels, but she's not sure which ones are hooded and which ones are regular beach towels, so we have to unfold them to check. I find the faeries one, and then I find the Nintendo one, and then I see one with a pink horses head on it. I Think the horse one might me a pony towel, and my daughter loves ponies too (so do I, but I was thinking of her at the time, I swear, lol) but when I unfold it, it's a sea horse, and it's head doesn't look anything like a horse anymore. The towel is black and says sea dragon on it in cyan blue with the powder pink sea horse on it. I think about getting it for my daughter anyways, but decide not to. I fold it back up and realize my mom is in the store behind me! I show her the towels I found, and tell her why I want to buy them. She says it's a good idea. I ask the clerk if they accept cards since Victoria's Secret didn't, and she said sure, no problem! But the towels aren't ringing up, and she's not sure why. I wake up. This is one of those rare dreams where I can point out where most of this came from. I had just had a conversation about raincoats with my husband and son yesterday when it looked like it was going to rain, but it was way too windy for an umbrella. As for why it was at Victoria's Secret and I was uncomfortable the whole dream, I had just had a conversation with my mom about the assets I had gained when I was preggo with my kids, and how I'd hoped they'd go away if I lost the 15 pounds of baby weight I put on when I was preggo with the kids. The hooded towels I was thinking about last night as well, and had told my husband we needed to buy new ones. Too bad all dreams aren't so easy to decode, ha ha.

Dream Three (fragment): I'm working at a grocery store and I am supposed to be taking food that is about to expire and is past it's sell date to the local food bank because we can't sell it anymore or something. Later on someone asks me if I took it there, or if I just took it home for myself, because apparently I could have done either. I took it to the food bank though, and they seemed kind of mad because apparently they wanted the food but it wasn't their day to take it. They must have been hoping I'd take it home and they could just go get it from my house or something.

Dream Four: I'm in a small boat with my husband and an Asian lady. The coat is TINY, like canoe size, and we're on a lake probably a hundred feet wide. It's the middle of the night, but the moon is full casting a lot of eerie light. Around the lake are these really, REALLY big creepy trees. There are also lots of these huge trees sticking out of the water as though they'd fallen over and were now growing out of the lake. There's some abandoned farming equipment here and there (big stuff, like tractors and combines and stuff), even an abandoned tank! They're all rusted, and look like they've been in the lake for years. I'm in total awe of how creepy and junky the whole place is, almost apocalyptic, but in the dream I knew the world hadn't ended or anything, the people where ever I was just didn't care about taking care of the environment. The boat was moving really fast through the water, as if it had a motor or something on it, but I couldn't see any motor and I was in the back. I held on tightly afraid it'd tip over. The lake was calm though, so the only waves were the wake from out boat. We were steering by leaning side to side, and a couple times we'd accidentally bump into trees, but we were able to grab the trees to steady the boat, it wasn't big enough to be too heavy to pick up ourselves. Looking over the edge, I saw fish swimming below, and they were gigantic. It was really scary when dolphin sized fish would swim under the boat! I was worried they've capsize it, and who knows if any of them were meat eating fish. We stopped at one point at a house, and went inside because it was someone the Asian lady knew. I remember seeing prints in frames on the wall, and thinking I have some by the same artist ( Princess of the Night : 8th Day Anime, ...and on the 8th day, there was anime <--- one of the prints I have, I don't have time to look for the ones in the dream, if he even makes ones like that for real, lol ) My husband also pointed out some of the DVDs on the shelf. There were a lot called, "The Promise of the Fallen" and I remember the title hitting a nerve, but not why it seemed to make me sad. I looked it up to see if it was a book or movie I'd read, and I didn't find it. (after posting, I remembered this dream, and now wonder if it's related? 6-1-11, Important dreams from the past: We are the star called - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views ) We also saw some dresses, like toddler sized dresses, hanging up and I thought they were oddly fancy and nice for the depressing and murky feel of the rest of the dream. When we got back on the water, we crashed into some trees again, and fell out of the boat onto the land. The lady was getting scared being on land, freaking out about the wild animals, and I kept telling her we needed to get back in the boat then, but she just kept clinging to the tree saying, "I'm scared, I'm too scared! I can't move!" Then I woke up. The dream probably wasn't very long, but I woke up so creeped out by how eerie the whole thing was. I went back to sleep after that, but couldn't remember anymore dreams.

Edited to add dreams from my nap. THey weren't very long so they don't really deserve their own entry.

Dream One: We were trying to figure out how to put a manufactured home on this property along with the house and get around the all new houses need 2 acres law that passed a few years back. We thought we'd figured it out, but then I woke up and realized that the lot and house in the dream didn't look anything like this lot and house. and that we only have 1.9 acres, not 2.9, so the idea to break the land in half and put the new house on the 2.0 lot acres and only give the already built house the .9 acre lots wouldn't work either.

Dream Two: I was hanging out with my bi friend and her boyfriend, who was someone totally different in dream than in real life. It almost evolved into a threesome, but I woke up while making out with my friend :/

Dream One: I'm in a mansion chasing after my kids. I'm trying to keep them in one room, because they're making such a mess. I feel like the owner won't mind too much as long as I clean it up, the we're on really good terms, maybe like great friends or something. I look out over a balcony and see Johnny Depp! I'm all flabbergasted at first and totally in shell shock, I <3 Johnny Depp, lol. I'm sitting against the balcony watching my kids, but hoping to hear some bits of conversation as to what's going on in the living room below. It turns out Johnny Depp is sad, his girl friend has left him or something, and the owner of the house sends him to a room upstairs to grieve. I'm seriously debating following so I can say and say I actually met him (plus get in a little more looking at his hotness, lol) but then I decide I won't, it'll be way creepy and stalkerish on my part. I hope I'll get lucky and my friend will introduce us. The kids throw some play money in the air, and I run around playing fifty two card trying to clean all the monopoly money up. While I'm cleaning, the owner of the house walks in with Johnny Depp. He's in his purple outfit from Willy Wonka, and I'm finding my words catch in my throat, ha ha. She introduces us, tell shim I'm a fan, and then all I can do is try to apologize for the mess my kids are making. He tells me children make messes, that's what they do. I'm surprised by how high pitched his voice is, and think that's almost a turn off... if it had been anyone but Johnny Depp it would have been, lol. Then the balcony rail I'm sitting against breaks, and he catches me before I fall. I'm too busy apologizing to the owner of the house, and she tells me it isn't my fault, the house is old and she's sorry I almost died in front of my children! I'm feeling a bit shakey and Johnny Depp helps me stand up, but then I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm on a space ship. It's got floors and walls like a dim computer screen. The images across the walls and floors are constantly moving and blinking, it's a beehive type pattern broken in places. Light blue on a slightly darker blue grey. It's not as distracting as it sounds because it's so dim. The pattern reminds me of the animus from Assassins creed now that I think about it. I hear orders over a loud speaker to prepare for planetary excavation or something. I know this means I'm getting off the ship to check out the world we're hoovering over. I walk into the teleporting room, and an alarm goes off that someone is contaminated by a foreign body. It turns out to be me, I've gotten some sort of bug like parasite (that looked like the thing in the First Matrix movie) from my last planetary exploration and it's finally hatched and grown in my body. A guy uses some something that looks like a taser to pull it out of me, but it doesn't hurt me at all. We're about to teleport again, and then an alarm goes off saying the cabin pressure is dropping in the porter room. A girl nearby find a hole in the screen, and pulls at it, it in fact is a giant crack about three feet long that leads into outer space and is sucking out our air slowly. We all lean against it in hopes of sealing it back shut. I wake up.

Dream Three: My kids get a basket ball goal and basket ball. We're at my aunts house, and trying to open it. It must be a birthday present or something. But the goal is the kind you have to mount to your own pole or wall, so we look for a place to mount it. Can't find one, and the kids start crying, so we go inside to find something else fun to do. Suddenly it's the house I spent the last half of my childhood in. I take the kids to my brothers room, and we start playing video games. A blond guy walks in, and introduces himself as a guy I knew in my preschool years and had a huge crush on growing up in Elementary school. I'll call him B. So B asks me how I've been, and tells me my kids are cute and stuff. I thank him and ask what he's up to these days. He says he's just been working. (I really haven't seen this guy since elementary school, I have no CLUE what hes doing these days or even what he looks like) He asks if he can sit down with us, the kids and I are in the floor, and I say sure. He sits down, but when he puts his hands on the carpet he's kinda freaked out and it's understandable, it's my brothers room, that place is gross! He says he wants to talk to me about something important, but he can't talk to me about it face to face so I need to friend him on facebook. I tell him ok, and ask if he'll go to my room with me to find his profile and make sure I friend the right person. He agrees, and then we go to my room leaving the kids in my brothers room. I sit down on the floor with a laptop, and tell him to have a seat. He declines saing he felt the carpet in the other room and he'd rather not. I laugh and tell him this is my room, I promise it's sooo much cleaner than my brothers! There may be some of the kids clothes on the floor from this morning, but it's only one days clutter built up, not a years. He sits, and runs his hands in the carpet, and tells me it's MUCH nicer, and laughs. I hand him the computer and tell him to find himself, I'll straighten up the clothes in the floor. Then he starts telling me his mom's sick, and I tell him I'm sorry to hear that and I hope she gets well soon! Then how he hates movies, but wishes we'd hang out and maybe go to one sometime. The whole feeling was like we were best friends, and we never were. Then he grabs me and pulls me close to hug me, and tells me "thank you for hearing me out." An alarm goes off, and I know it's time for me to leave, I have somewhere important to be, and apparently so does he. I start to get in my car, but I don't have a coat. He offers me his, and I decline saying mine was just here! I find it, it's fallen down to the floor of the car instead of being on the seat. I get in the car and start to pull out but his car is blocking me. I'm a bit frustrated, but find it cute at the same time. I see a horse saddled up nearby, and decide to go on horseback after all. I get on the horse, and walk it to the end of the road. There's a long procession of faeries on the road, riding horses to a wedding. I walk my horse out to join the faerie king and faerie queen. They have a small daughter around my sons age. I'm talking to them, and they are telling there's a problem with the princesses wedding crown. She doesn't want to marry, and she's using the crown being not what she wanted as an excuse. I volunteer to go get the right crown, and they thank me for being a great service in their kingdom. I gallop down the road to my left, and find a shop where I buy a tiara with clear and black rhinestones. I put it in my saddle bag and start back towards the procession and the wedding. I'm running pretty behind though, and I see a couple of teenage boys tearing up paper and throwing it on the ground. I stop to scold them, and they tell me they heard there were faeries living in the area and they couldn't be seen by mortal eyes. I laugh and tell them they're right, so stop littering, they'll make the faeries angry. They asked me if having faeries around was dangerous, what if the faeries enemies attacked and hurt mortals? I laugh and tell them not to worry, the faeries have a very strong battalion (I'm not even sure I used that word right in the dream, lmao) and that I was one of their most powerful soldiers. I tell them that there's no way I'd let anything hurt the people around here because my friends all live here, then I tell them I'm not just boosting, I have the the power to back it up. More than any of faerie or mortal in the world. Geeze, my dream self is proud :/Then I tell them I am late, to finish cleaning up their mess and not to do it again or I'd hunt them down, with a wink to ensure them I wouldn't hurt them, but make them wish they hadn't made a mess all the same! I gallop at full speed, following a set of rainbows to the top of a mountain where the bridal party is set up in a tent. I hand the faerie queen the crown, she tells me the bride is upset that the groom doesn't know her mask is from Zoro, and I explain the groom doesn't watch movies like the princess does. I briefly wonder if the reason that B wanted to talk to me so much earlier was that he didn't want to have to marry the princess b/c this is an arranged marriage for peace. Then I wake up.

I read a book yesterday called A Touch Mortal, and while it wasn't a particularly great book, the dark atmosphere gave me some pretty cool dreams I just wish I was able to remember them better. First one's in a spoiler tag because I realize it probably gets a bit graphic in the blood and guts department.

Spoiler for Dream One:

Dream One: the dream was set inside a house with a bunch of people. Apparently something had happened and there was no power and no food. I think there might have been a flood as well, but I can't be 100% sure about that. I was responsible for protecting the people of the house and keeping things together. I instructed a tall guy with long dark hair to gather a group of people and take them out to search the houses around us for food. I'm not sure what killed off most of the population (maybe vampires?), but in the dream it was understood that just about everyone had died and no one was in any of the other houses in town. But, it was also understood that we needed to keep a low profile because something was after us, that's why were were grouped together. Safety in numbers. The group leaves to find food, and i check out store in the pantry. I notice we have plenty of food already, but I wonder what's going to happen in the future when all the food that can be scavenged is either gone or expired and there are no factories to make new food. We'd have to grow our own, and I had no idea how much land we'd need to grow enough food to feed us all, and how to preserve it to last year long. While I'm wondering about this, a kind comes running in and says the scavengers were attacked. I rush outside, and there are vampires attacking the group outside. There are probably ten or fifteen vampires, and they all look about the same. They have grey skin that sticks to their bones and sags like skinny elderly people, their hair is dark brown, and shoulder length. there's no telling if they're male or female, they could have passed for both. They have this wicked long teeth that make me wonder how they can even close their mouths. They aren't your pretty Ann Rice or Twilight vampires, there's no mistaking these things for humans the way they're faces are... I'd say they were a combination of Buffy the Vampire Slayer vamps and the Chiropteran from Blood +. The scavengers fall to the ground, blood pooling all around them. Two of the vampires grab each of my arms and rip into my wrists. I feel the skin ripped from them, and watch as blood sprays out like in a Kill Bill movie. I stare at my left arm in horror as I feel light headed and sink to my knees. Then I realize something. The whole world is dead, but I'm still alive. We're still alive... I should be dead by now with all the blood I've lost, but I'm not. Then I think there's got to be a reason why I can't die, and then I just know I'm immortal, I can't die or I would have by now. (duh, I'm dreaming! But I totally missed this chance to be lucid) I fight the lightheadedness and grab the nearest stick I can find and stand up. I yell out to the other scavengers that if they're still alive, then it must be because we can not die. I tell them that I know it hurts, but stand up and fight with me to protect those inside. I lunge at a vampire with the stick and drive it through his chest with inhuman strength. The stick and my hand go all the way through, and then I pull them back out to catch a vampire that's coming up from behind me. The stick breaks in half on the second impact. I use my other hand to grab the half of the stick that broke off inside the second vamp and pull it out. Just then a third one jumps me, and knocks me down. I don't fight it, I let it tear into my throat as I reach my arms around behind it and stab it with both sticks from behind. It goes limp on top of me, and I toss it off. I reach up and feel my neck in shreds, and marvel at how it doesn't hurt and I and still alive, then I look around and see my five scavengers standing up bloody, but healing quickly enough now that the fight is over that I can see the wounds closing up. Pretty cool! We take the food inside, and start to sort through it and put it away, then someone mentions needing a shower. I wonder how we're going to manage that with no power, but then I come up with a crazy idea. I tell them they will have to go back out and get as many gallons of water as they can from the nearest grocery store. I also tell them to get some funnels. I plan to make a shower by poking holes in the bottom of a plastic bottle hanging in a tree, and pouring water into it, letting the water drip down like a shower. I also think that we can set the extra gallons of water outside when it rains with the funnels in them to catch the rain and give us a good reserve. I'm really proud of this idea and my resourcefulness in the dream, and go outside to marvel at how much easier the situation seems now, and how much less scary the world looks with a plan. I see a ladder to my left, and look up. There's a gnome on the roof. wearing a handy man uniform. He tells me that our roof needs to be repaired because it has some sort of moss growing on it. I think, "great, more problems!" and then I wake up, lol.

That dream was partially influenced by the book, as there are people in the book called "Siders" who are immortal... but no vamps or end of the world

Dream Two (Fragment): There's a man who's an evil angel. He's trying to convince a bunch of people that he's a good guy and they should follow him and worship him. I know he's wrong, and I know he's the evil one, because I know a good angel in the dream. In the dream I point out that he's evil, and he tells me to prove it, so I tell some story about how when he came to earth he needed a favor, and the cost of having that favor granted was being split into two halves. Then I point out how he and the good angel look exactly alike, because they are the same angel, split into his good half and his bad half. At this revelation, they combine, and instead of having a good angel and a bad angel, there is now an angel who knows right from wrong, but has the emotion to do wrong to protect those he loves. I hug the angel, happy he's back to normal, then wake up. The good angel/bad angel thing definitely came from the book I had read, lol

Dream Three (Fragment):I'm going to Animazement with my best friend. She comes to my house, and rushes me out. Suddenly we're in the car and she's asking me if we're staying in a hotel or a house. I tell her we're staying in a hotel with two rooms, and then we're there! We put our things in our room, and then decide to go to the rave (which is what they call their dance to make it sound cooler, LOL) but I realize that I have forgotten to pack clothes to wear! I've only got extra underwear and two extra shirts.

Dream One: The dream starts out that I get a book in the mail. The book is a paper back book, but a translation of some sort of ancient Egyptian spell book. I'm very excited because I think it will have all sorts of cool spells to try, as well as recipes for making my own bath and ritual oils and such. My husband is outside when I get the book, and he's chatting with the oldest neighborhood kid. For some reason my husband decides he wants to go explore the attic, so we all three go inside and start walking up a spiral staircase into the attic. (In waking life, our attic doesn't even have a ladder, you have to climb in through the closet!) While we're up there I'm talking about the book I have, and my husband is doing the usual pretending to be interested when he isn't actually paying any attention at all :/ But then either he or the neighbor spots a mummified body in the attic! My husband says it's really old, so we need to take the hands in to the police for identification. He searches for a bag, and when he finds a brown paper bag he puts it over the hands of the mummy and breaks the hands off into the bag! It's all dusty and it stinks really bad. I'm ready to get out of there, all creeped out by this body, so we start down the stairs, but the boys go in front of me. I start joking that the mummy scared the piss out of me, and asked my husband if he'd give me his underwear if I really had had the piss scared out of me. He says no way, I'd have to walk around wet! So I say, "Oh come on, someone would have to man up and give me his underwear if I had the piss scared out of me! Your my husband, you should be more than willing to take one for the team and go commando so I don't have to walk around covered in pee!" He doesn't find this amusing, but the neighbors kid does. Then we are at the bottom of the steps and out of the house. We go to the other neighbors house (b/c he's a police officer) and it's the police station (<3 dream logic, ha ha) His ex wife is behind a desk as the secretary, and she takes the bag and tells us thank you very much like everything is fine. I start leaving, and the kid follows me, but my husband stays behind for who knows what reason. Then I overhear someone say that we found the body in the attic and they'd have to move their laser gun target somewhere else. Then the neighbors kid stops and asks me if I'm scared. I'm thinking this is some sort of undercover scandal by the police, and I totally don't want to piss them off! But then I remember I have my spell book. I hold it up and tell him, No way, I'm not scared, I have the magic I need to keep us safe. Then I wake up.

Dream Two (Fragment): I bought pajamas for the kids from JC Penny with some sort of coupon I had.

Dream Three: I'm trying to teach my mom how to play the Kinect, but we've got it set up outside, at the lake. So in order to be far enough away from the sensor, you have to be in the water, and right next to where the ground makes a HUGE drop from like 3 feet deep water to 9 feet deep water, lol. The kinect game it's self is awesome! For some reason you can be Link from the Legend of Zelda, and go running through Hyrule field by running in place. Or you can chose to exercise, with Link as your personal trainer. And it wasn't toon link or anything either, it was grown up Ocarina of Time Link. I remember thinking in the dream I'd work out all day long if I got to watch grown up Link bend and stretch the whole time! I also thought having the adventure mode was a really awesome idea. I wondered why I don't play this game all the time? Then I woke up!

Dream Four: I'm watching in third person as Serena from Sailor Moon gets a present from her boyfriend, Darien. It's a little tiny circle ornament with her picture in it, but it's the cartoon version of sailor moon, in my dream I knew Serena was Serena, but they weren't cartoons. She asks what it is, and he tells her it's a pendant to remind her that he is always there, always thinking of her. She loves it, but then it's late and she's fighting with her family, and she runs away. She sleeps in a tree, and then goes to the store to buy some food, and her money is stolen right out of her pocket.

Dream Five: Not sure how this happened, but I pretty much had the same dream twice, only this second version was a bit different. Serena's parents are splitting up or something. Her father moves out, and she goes with him, but her mom won't let her take her things out of the house. Her dad ignores her for the most part, and she's really sad and lonely. She's cold, and calls her mom to ask if she can just take one pair of socks to her dads because her feet are freezing. Her mother says no. The next morning, her dad sends her and her sister to the grocery store. They have a buggy full of canned foods, and they can't walk and carry them all, so they decide to push the buggy full of stuff home. There's a steep hill, and Serena's sister refuses to help push the buggy because she's one of those uber girly chics who refuse to do anything that might brake their nails. The sister then takes bitchyness a step farther, and climbs into the buggy claiming she's too tired to walk up the hill! The buggy starts going backwards down the hill and Serena can't stop it and is nearly run over by it before the sister finally hops out! When Serena gets it up the hill, she's crying. Inside her house, Darien shows up and gives her a gift for her birthday... and apparently it's shis birthday too! So she gives him a sweater or something she made herself. The gift he gives her is the ornament and a CD. She sees the ornament and says something like, "I'm sorry, I just don't get what this is?" Darien tells her to chill it's just something they there in the box when he bought the CD. But Serena says she loves it, and it feels like it's important to her and she was meant to have it, she's just not sure why it feels so familiar. The he tells her that he spoke to his guidance councilor about her, and the guidance councilor seems to think she's just waiting on him, so he wants her to know that he loves her, and he's ready when ever she is to run away together and start the rest of their lives.

Dream Six: I'm at best buy to get a new Skylanders toy for my little boy (there's still ONE that we're missing, lol) I go to get my wallet out of my car, and some strange dude with a beard gets in my car. I ask him to get out of my car, and he refuses and starts laughing at me, so I start yelling at him until he finally gets out of my car. Then a heavy set blond guy (think the son from family guy, lol) gets in my car because he thought it was funny that I was yelling at the other dude. I yell at him and threaten to shove my foot up his ass if he doesn't get out of my effing car! He doesn't move, just laughs. So I open the trunk of the car, and I get out a stroller, and proceed to start hitting him with it. He just keeps laughing at me, he's not in any pain what so ever. I keep hitting him and he keeps laughing, I get so frustrated. Then I pull the stroller WAY back and hit him as hard as I can. That time it hurts, and he's all, "All right all right, chill woman, I'm getting out!" He gets out of my car and I fling the stroller at him and hit him in the back as he walks off. I tell him to think twice before he laughs at me again! Then I grab my money, and close the car and go into the store. Inside, there's a HUGE line waiting to get this toy. I hope in line, and spend a lot of time just standing there. I see a book nearby with a grey and brown pony on it looking at a muffin. I think it's a book about Derpy at first, and I get all excited, "Is that a new Pony book?!" but then I open it up, and I realize that what looks like ponies on the front cover is really a couple of bunnies on the inside. Damn. I close the book and put it back disappointed. I wait in line a bit more before I wake up.

5-2-12

I dreamed I was the main character in The Selection, a book I had just read the day before. In the dream, K was the prince, and he was asking me if I was ready to choose him yet.

I only had one dream because at 4 am my son and I woke up almost simultaneously sick. No more dreams until this morning...

5-3-12

Dream One: I'm at an anime convention. I'm with a very tan girl with pretty long dark hair. She's on the chubby side, but really sweet and quiet. At first it's a nightmare, we're all running around trying to escape these men who are using some sort of flame throwers to set the building on fire, trying to trap everyone inside and burn us to death. I'm freaking out, "how do I get out of here?!" When I suddenly remember, the girl beside me has the power to change anything in this storyline that I want her to. I tell her to make the flames water, and the flame throwers water guns. She nods, and does so, and everyone stops panicking and it's like the flames never happened. Then the girl walks off to the left, and I go to follow her, but the crowd separates us. Just as soon as I make my way out of the crowd, this really skinny chic wearing a white shawl glomps me. She starts telling me she loves me, and trying to kiss me. I'm trying to push her off of me, she's being way to forward, lol. I note that she smells really good, like vanilla, and it makes me hungry. I end up putting my foot under her chin and shoving her off with it, then I scramble to my feet and start trying to run away, but she chases me! I see a play ground ahead, and run to the jungle gym and try to climb to the top of it hoping her heels will prevent her from climbing. She follows me, but my storyline changing friend is there, and I ask her to change the story line so that girl never saw me. She nods, and the glomping girl disappears. Then the story line changing girl jumps down and runs off again. I go to follow her one more time, and go back inside the building. This time I see a toy museum set up at the side, and decide to go inside and look at it. I realize I've already seen this museum, and leave. My notes also say "line" but I can't remember what that was all about.

Dream Two: I'm in the car with my husband, and we have to go up this road that's built on a platform like a roller coaster. I'm worried our car won't make it up because it's steep and spirals. But My husband tells me to just watch, and somehow the car attaches, just like a roller coaster attaches to a chain when it's going up hill! But then I notice the track is loose and broken. I end up making my husband slow down the car while I reach forwards (because now the car has no walls or windshields, it's just a little cart!) and start moving the track pieces around so they touch ad we won't fall off. I see a cart ahead of us fall off the track, and worry that I won't be able to protect us. I manage though, and we reach the top before I wake up.

Dream Three: I'm watching in third person, and a Dragon who looks like Spike from MLP: Friendship is Magic (I have to specify, since there was a spike in the 80's MLP as well, lol) is surrounded by mean looking black dragons with red eyes. The whole setting looks just like a MLP show would, so maybe I'm dreaming of watching it? Anyways, spike is terrified of this bigger badder dragons, but then it turns out they just want to help him. He has some weird orange spots on his back, and they use Mice to scrub off the spots and make him feel better.

Dream Four: I'm on the computer watching a video of scenery flying past, as if I'm driving down the road. Then I realize this video is a live feed, and it's following someone. I somehow notice that the program is set to follow my step dad. I freak out that he's going to think I'm spying for my mom or something since they're technically divorced now, and I try to stop the following, but I can't! So I jump through the computer screen and grab the little car that was doing the following, but by this time It's already in his drive way. I try to show him this really cool program I found on google that'll let me follow anyone I want, and I can't find the program. :/ It's very confusing.

Dream Five: I'm standing on a road with a really heavy lady wearing fancy clothes and an ugly purple hat w/ fake flowers and netting. She's lost her dog, and she can't find him! I think I'll help her find him with the google car, but instead of finding her dog I find my step dad. He's lost and can't remember how to get home. The car is bigger suddenly, and I tell him to get in. I'm trying to help him find home, but he takes the wheel and steers us onto a race track! We somehow manage to win this race, and a hot chic in a tube top and mini skirt brings us our trophy. I remember my earlier dream where I was being chased by a chic, and think to myself I'd rather a chic with curves like this one chase me than that skinny crazy girl from the first dream!

Dream Six: I'm in a mall, and there's a lady covered in glittery clothes showing off her new line of glittery things. I'm putting on fake nails (something I've honestly never done in real life). A blond girl beside me who looks a lot like Reese Whitherspoon is telling me how envious she is of her mom, who is the lady in glitter, because her mom is so amazing and can make anything look good. I tell the girl I'm sure she has her own talent, and she tells me that she wants to do interior design instead of fashion like her mom. I tell her she should showcase her talents by flipping a house. She asks, how, and I tell her all we need is a dusty house! Suddenly we're walking around this house that has chipping stucco walls and it's the middle of the night. The girl is carrying around sparklers, and talking about how she's going to make this place sparkle! Then she flings her arms up all excitedly, and the sparkler falls out of her hand. It hits the ground, and my first thought is, that's going to start a fire! But instead of starting a fire, it causes an explosion under the house and the ground starts shaking and cracking. We run to get away from the cracks, but they open up and we're swallowed by the earth. We land on a bunch of old wooden crates and rugs, dust is everywhere! I know we must be in the basement of that dusty old house, and we just need to find our way out. We crawl through some doors, into a living room. The living room is in surprisingly good shape, and their are candles lit all around providing light. I realize someone lives here after all. It turns out to be the girls mom's house. The woman is amazing with clothes, but her home and decor is horrible. I notice there's a hole in the floor with a rug thrown over it to cover it up. The mom, glitter lady, tells us to have a seat and make ourselves at home. I sit down on the floor by the hole, and then wake up.

Dream Seven: I find myself sitting in the same living room, and I note that there is no hole. Now there are video game cords and controllers strung out from a big flat screen tv. There's a guy sitting next to me with short, spiky black hair. I get the feeling that we're really good friends, nothing more, but I wouldn't mind more. We're goofing off, talking about the games, but only for a moment before he stands up and stretches, then tells me he's beat and wants to go to bed. I agree, and I get up and walk down a hall... suddenly the house is the one I lived in when I was really little. I haven't been there in at least 15 years. My room turns out to be the master bedroom, and his room was the one that had been mine as a kid. I lay down, and dream of sheep jumping a fence, like a typical cartoon dream, lol. I wake up, still dreaming though, back in the dream house. I walk into the kitchen looking for the guy, but find my mom and grandma there instead. They tell me he's sleeping in my son's room. I go back, and see him in the room that had used to belong to me, and he's spread out on a twin sized bed, so much that his arms and legs are hanging off either side. I can't help but giggle, because it's so funny. I close the door and walk into the bathroom, where I see more fake nails... and I feel like I want to put them on because I put them on in a dream and they looked cute, I wonder if these would look cute? I take them to the living room, and start to put them on, but they're HUGE and I'm trying to cut them down with scissors because they're so wide they swallow my whole finger. As I'm clipping and getting frustrated, I hear my grandma say that my friend was hanging out with those hellions outside. I throw down the nails, and ask her what she's talking about, and she tells me that he woke up, and climbed out the window, and now he's outside talking to one of my ex's and some guy she called Al. I look out the window and see the ex, my friend, and this Al guy (who had gorgeous long hair down to his shoulders, and I found myself thinking in the dream he was way more my type than this friend in my dream, but I still liked the friend more, and had a little marvel at how I have never actually dated the kind of guy I find the most attractive, lol) I realize I'm in pajamas, so I go to the basement to find my clothes and change. While I'm down there though, the ex of mine comes inside looking for me. He tells me that my friend told him I was inside, and then he asks why my clothes are in the basement. I tell him I don't really live there, I'm just crashing for now, and all my stuff is in boxes in the basement and out of the way. I know I went back up the stairs to get dressed, excited to go outside and see the guys, but I think woke up then... or else I just can't remember. These dreams were super hard to remember, probably because I've been so sick.

Dream One: I was standing outside the grocery store, in the grass beside the parking lot. There's a stop sigh nearby, and a big hole in front of the stop sign. Not like a vertical hole in the ground, but it goes in at an angle like a tunnel. As soon as I walk up to it, I recognize it as my friend M's house. I call into the hole asking if she's home, and I see her boyfriend's shoes. He call ups she's not home but should be home shortly. I thank him, and then stand back up. My friend M drives by in a car at that moment and waves when she stops at the stop sign. I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm not sure why I can't go back to sleep, so I get up and go into the living room to read a bit. I pick up a book off the floor thinking my husband missed it when he was cleaning last night. It's my daughters barbie book. I start to flip through the pages for some reason, and find myself thinking that's not what this book was about! I wonder if I'm dreaming, but I decide that I can't be dreaming because I could read. The text wasn't changing at all. I put the dream back, and it's daylight outside. I get a call from my mom, and answer it. She's telling me that her friend still wants her and us to move into that big house and rent to own the place. I say ok, instead of sticking to my decision of no. Then I'm in the kitchen, but the kitchen cabinets are the color of the bathroom cabinet. And then mom starts saying the pipes in the big house were cut off, and I actually see the pipes in front of me as if I'm there looking at them. They're moving like that pipes screen saver windows used to have pre-installed. I wake up, and curse for not doing a second RC.

Dream Three: I'm talking to my best friend A about weather and looking at a weather radar. There's some sort of blue and red flashing circle above New England, and the edges of this blue and red area are bright orange. I ask my friend A what's up with the radar above New England? She doesn't know, so I zoom in. Then I see the map as a 3d satellite rendering, like Google earth. There's a big red line and it looks like a lava trail, except it's spinning. I wake up to my daughter screaming about dragons.

Dream Four: I'm in the car with my husband and kids, going home from a small town nearby. We're watching the weather radar, and there's a tornado coming. I tell my husband to go straight home, that the tornado is moving in the opposite direction, so we should be fine if we head home. Then the tornado JUMPS and lands in front of us. We quickly unbuckle the kids, then lay in a ditch with them, but the tornado doesn't hit us. It jumps again. We buckle up quickly and start going back home. The Phone rings, waking me up.

Dream Five: I'm at my high school, and for some reason I have alcohol in my bag? A friend from school that I was always in a love/hate type friendship with wants his alcohol out of the bag, and I realize some of the alcohol isn't mine but his. I give it to him, and wonder if I'm going to get in trouble for having it at school. Then I realize I'm of age, so who's going to have a problem with me having alcohol? There's a storm coming, and the overhead speakers blare that schools canceled and we need to go home. I'm wanting to go to a different building to get my headphones (apparently they were awesome Mario head phones too!) But the buildings are being locked and evacuated. The halls are tightly packed, and there's a stop light in the hall stopping people from blocking the intersections. I'm standing at a stop light, and the power flickers then goes out. I barely step to the side fast enough to avoid being trampled. When the crowd clears, my son is with me. I see my husband, and he says he has to go lock the river cabin before he can go home and I need to go pick up our daughter. I ask him why he has to lock the river cabin, and he says he was there last week. I get so pissed to know he was there last week and left it unlocked for a whole week! then he says it's fine, no one's going to care. I try to explain we had trouble with people crashing at the cabin, but he doesn't listen and blows me off. I'm mad, but I take my son outside to leave anyways, getting my daughter is more important! I hear a message over the loud speaker again, this time saying there was an accident and we've lost one of our students. I feel bad, but I need to get my daughter. I put my son in the car, then I notice someone laying on the ground. I walk around my car to get a better view, and there's a black SUV that has run this person over, and the drive is none other than my husband! The run over person gets up, he's just a kid in high school! He tells me that he's fine, but he's going to go to the doctor anyways and we're going to be hearing from his lawyer. My husband decides he's going to drive my car, and hops in the drivers seat. I notice he's driving crazy! He's saying he's going to end up losing his license now, and I'm like pull over and let me drive! We are arguing, making him swerve more, so I decide to stop and let him concentrate. As soon as we get to my daughter's school (she's not even in school, lol) I ask him to put her in her car seat. When he gets out of the drivers seat to do so, I climb over the center console and into the drivers seat. He can't drive now, ha ha! But then he refuses to get in the car. He wanders off into the storm. I'm worried, but then I tell myself he's an adult and he isn't stupid, he can take care of himself and he'll go inside somewhere because he's terrified of Tornados. I drive off, then park and go inside some church. I am walking in with the kids, and I see there's a wedding going on. the priest says something like, "I now pronounce you gay man and wife" and there's are two beautiful women getting married. I feel like I know them, and I am soooo happy for them that I'm actually crying tears of joy. But then a lady taps me on the shoulder and asks if I'm me, I say yes, and she tells me that my husband has been run over, and he's passed away. I'm in shock and disbelief, and then I start to walk out of the church just leaving my kids in there. The walls are suddenly while tile. There are red tiles that light up and stack on top of one another alternating between 2 and 5 tiles high. Every three white columns, there's a column with red lights, marking a trail or path. I follow the path to a bathroom, where I see my husbands back as he slips into a stall. I yell out to him, thanking whatever gods are out there that let him be alive. He tells me to stop, he's a ghost, and I shouldn't see him. Then I tell him no, he has to be alive, I need him! Then he tells me that's the problem, "I want need him, but it's not because I want him." then I wake up to the phone ringing again.