non-lucid

I was pretty sure I had set myself up for a bad night because I had Egg Flower soup before bed. I love the stuff, and have been wanting it for weeks, my awesome husband bought it for me at the grocery store yesterday, and I had to eat it as soon as he go home with it! lol The problem with this being that I am allergic to eggs I actually developed the allergy when I was preggo with my daughter, so I know how amazing eggs taste from before then, and a couple times a year I just get this wild hankerin' (yup, I'm from the south, lol) for some egg drop soup or sunny side up eggs. I figured I'd end up being sick all night, but I got lucky and only had a mild stomach ache, yay! This resulted in short dreams because I was waking up constantly thinking, "My belly hurts!" and I can't even remember half of them, but the first one especially was on the right track! Before bed I figured I'm going to start mapping out what I want to do when I get lucid again, since I usually get crazy excited and try random stuff with no real purpose. I have dream goals, but what I wrote last night was more of a plan than just random goals of things I'd like to accomplish. So I wrote something like, "When I am lucid, I want to create a portal that will arrive at my dream guide. When I find my dream guide, I want to ask him/her about K. I want to ask what he is, and where he is." then I wrote down the key points of what I want to do like I remember my dreams in key words, "Portal, Dream Guide, Ask" hoping it'd help me remember in my dreams like it does the other way around. I also noticed the night before I had worn a Bandanna to bed to keep my hair from going nuts (first time I've done this in years, lol) and I noticed that I had a bunch of long dreams that I could remember, and I was almost lucid in one. I thought that the unusual feeling of something on my head could have caused me to be a bit more aware in my sleep since it was different. So I tried again, this time with a purple bandanna just on the whim that purple is a high vibrational color and might have a stronger effect than the neon green one the night before, ha ha.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm talking to a woman who is dressed like the Genie in the Sims Showtime. She's wearing the exact same outfit as the genie my sim called out of the lamp last week, right down to it being aqua marine colored. She wasn't blue though, she kind of reminded me of Scarlett Ohara in a belly dancing outfit, lol. ( Genie Girls (No CC) by Amj1995 - The Exchange - Community - The Sims 3 <-- instead of hot linking a picture, here's a link to some female sim genies I found on their website) Anyways, All I can remember is being completely taken aback, and looking at the genie Scarlett and saying, "Your my dream guide?!" So I must have been lucid and just too fuzzy to remember it because it was the first dream of the night. She nodded, and made a noise like "Mmm hum" and then I woke up thinking to myself, crazyness! Of all the things I excepted to influence my dream guide, The Sims was not one of them!

Dream Two: I'm at a movie, it's a screening of some Subbed movie though, and I know they don't show those in theaters around here, lol. I can't watch the subs though, they're not showing up! My best friend A is with me, and I ask her about it. She tells me I need this program on my phone to be able to see the subtitles! Sure enough, I download this app, and the subtitles show up on my phone when I hold it up to the screen. The movie is some sort of cool but creepy movie about a ballet dancer who murders people. It reminds me of Sweeney Todd, Sleepy Hollow, and From Hell in the way it was filmed and the effects. Time skips forwards, and we're leaving the theater. I'm by myself somehow, and this asian man walks past me, I wonder why he looks familiar, then just decide to keep walking. Before I can take my first step, I feel a pat on my shoulder and the DC behind me says, "Don't you want an auto graph?" I turn around and see the man behind me is Regi (the guy Nintendo of America has representing them, he's a CEO or something?) But in the dream I recognize him as one of the two men who directed this ballet film. Of course I want an auto graph! He signs a card, but it looks like invisible ink! He explains that I need to use the same app that allowed me to watch his movie on the card to see his autograph. I try it, and it works! I ask him about the other director, and he laughs and tells me that's who just passed me when he got my attention. Apparently he could tell I recognized them, sorta of. We go chasing after the guy who had passed me earlier so I can get his auto graph. When he's in view I notice he's Miyamoto (the guy who makes the Legend of Zelda games) but I never can get his auto graphs, because he's behind a locked gate with guards. I wake up.

Dream Three: I'm watching over some little girls at like a slumber party or something. Another woman walks in and tells me that one of the girls who are supposed to show up tonight won't be there because she had a horseback riding accident and died. This must be some sort of church function, because a girl I recognize from my kids church walks in and suggests we go to the site of the accident and pray for the girl. We get on a bus, drive there, an I see a ghostly black horse rearing, and it's like I'm watching the accident happen, but no one else sees it. They pray, then we go back to the slumber party. The little girls in the slumber party find a hidden passageway, and I agree to let them explore it. I feel like the dead little girl is around, I can feel her energy, and I wonder if I tell myself I can see her if I will see her... I think I was track to be lucid, but I ended up waking up instead.

Dream Four (Fragment): I remember a class room from my high school. I also remember going out to my car to find someone has the hood up and is trying to jump off the battery of his girlfriends car using my car, without asking! I'm not too happy, but I feel bad because I know it sucks to have your battery die b/c you forgot to turn off the light. It works, but the girl insists that I give her and her boyfriend and her brother a ride home from school. I'm trying to use the car seats in the back as an excuse for why they can't ride with me. I wake up.

Dream Five (Fragment): I can remember seeing different high class restaurants, like pictures of them. I also remember seeing a chef skin gigantic boa, alive. The thing gave him little trouble until he cut it's head open and scooped it's brains out. I felt sick and woke up.

Dream Six: I'm walking into an auditorium like class room. I know this to be the drama room, even though in real life my high schools drama room was in greens and yellows (school colors) and this dream drama room was cream and brown. A guy who I barely knew in high school and became friends with later in life walks into the room. He's upset because he thinks everyone in the drama club is making him miserable because we don't talk to him enough. I don't talk to anyone anyways, I'm shy unless I'm on stage, so I tell him as much and that he's being silly. He walks out of the room, and someone says all the doors are locked, we're locked in! D, the guy holding us hostage, says over a loud speaker that he's going to give us one more chance to bow down to him and beg for our lives before he kills us. Then he walks back into the room looking all high and mighty, with two Disney villain type thugs behind him. I think to myself that I have to do something, and I consider myself the closest thing he has to a friend in the room, so I get up and try to talk some sense into him. He won't hear it, he's bent on killing everyone. He does agree that he'll let everyone fight back, because what fun would it be to kill people who are unarmed? Then he hands me a sword. I remember earlier in the dream he has shown me a gun blade... only instead of being a long sword like Squall's, it was more of the size of a hobbit sword. I give him back the sword, and tell him I want the gun blade he offered me earlier. I've changed my mind, I'm going to help him. He seems happy with this, and takes me to a back room where he arms me with not one, but TWO mini gunblades. I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to shoot him and stop him without killing him. Then we walk back into the auditorium, I'm feeling really bad ass with my gunblades My husband is in the auditorium though, and he's looking at me with a sad and betrayed look on his face. I try to wink at him to let him know it's all good, I'm not a turn coat, but I don't think he can understand what I'm trying to signal. Then, a bunch of little kids start filing into the room. Like Kindergarten size! I quickly shove the gunblades in my pants behind my back and cover the tops of them with my shirt in hopes of hiding them. I tell my husband to get the kids out of there, but he won't move. I turn to D, and tell him we can do this tomorrow, I will not slaughter in front of a bunch of innocent little kids! I run back into the back room and toss the gunblades back into the box D had pulled the out of. It's a pop corn box?! lol But the box ends up falling off the table it was on, and explodes. I get hit in the stomach, and my hands and face feel burned, but it only lasts half a second. I look at my hands and scorched flesh, and think, "huh... that's nasty looking... but it doesn't hurt so I must be ok." I run through the auditorium before the little kids can see the nasty burns, and out the door the kids came in. I make it to the outside of the school, and my wounds are healed! But my mom is standing outside and she starts wailing on me about being so late getting home and she was worried so she came looking for me. I tell her I'll explain it all when we get home, but we need to leave, NOW! And the rest of the drama club is hopping into their own cars and leaving. My best friend A gets in my car with me, and we drive out of the parking lot. I wake up.

I had so many LONG dreams last night, I actually made myself get up a couple hours early because I didn't want to have to type anymore than I was already looking at typing. So, here goes on this giant wall of dream text, ha ha.

Dream One- I'm playing a war game with my son and my brother. Only, instead of being on the Xbox like COD or MW3, this one's played like a reenactment. There's even little caps that pop and look like blood. When the game starts, my brother is kicking ass like usual. He mows pretty much everyone else over, but when he gets to me and my son (he's on the other team!) he decides not to knock us out of the game and make my son cry. So instead, he leads us to this giant bag, and tells us to hide inside of it until the round is over so we can move on to the next level. We watch from the bag as he finishes off the other team and then we get to move on to the next level. The next level is in a big hall place. I notice that the neighbors kids are in this level playing on my brothers team. I'm pretty sure we won't be able to hide from them. Of course I'm right and they get us in the first couple minutes. Damn brats!

Dream Two: I'm playing a My Little Pony Friendship is Magic flash game. All I can see is the screen though, I can't see my hands or anything like that. The game looks like one my kids would play on Nick Jr. The concept is that the castle is falling down, and you have to use your mouse to guide Princess Celestia out of Canterlot Castle with your mouse, while avoiding fallen debris and holes in the floor. I realize after a few obstacles that I'm not playing after all! Celestia is moving up and down in a crazy fashion like someone's jerking around the mouse instead of playing. I can also hear arguing. It's Pinkie Pie and Rainbow Dash fighting over who's turn it is to play.

Dream Three: We're in an SUV instead of out little hatch back car. We pull up in front of Dominos, and one of the managers who quit before I did (I worked there 6 years ago, lol) is standing outside smoking. She waves at us and we roll down the window and talk with her for a moment. I can't remember what was said. She gives us a bag of cheesy bread or something, then we start pulling off. My kids start crying because they want to go back inside and get food from Dominos.

Dream Four: I'm driving through the country side, on the road my Grandfather used to live on. I'm listening to the radio, and it cuts to an emergency news broadcast. Apparently there are flying saucers appearing all over the world. I find this kind of scary, and think I need to hurry up so I can get home safe. I look up, kind of freaked out, and I notice that there above my car, way up in the sky is a UFO! It's one of the ones that looks like an upside down bowl. I also notice that every so far in the sky is another one, like they're making a huge grid across the entire sky keeping everyone and everything in their sights. I'm freaking out as I realize there really is no where I could hide if they wanted to attack. There are at least five or six in my field of vision alone, I can only imagine how many thousands there are if they continue that grid pattern across the entire worlds sky. I remember that I'm supposed to be picking up my best friend, and I turn the car around and go to get her early, thinking she'd no doubt be let off work early in a crissis such as this. I can't remember driving there, or where she was, but I remember seeing her rushing out to the car. She's got huge freaked out eyes and she's talking excitedly about the whole thing. I'm telling her how freaked out I am, and asking her what she thinks they are here for. I'm thinking of scary alien movies like Signs and Mars Attacks (that movie scarred me for life as a kid, lol. The scene where the aliens are watching people have sex in the trailer and their helmets have little windshield wipers in it made it impossible for me to sleep near an uncovered window. I'm always scared I'll roll over and see something staring back at me!) She says she doesn't know what they're here for, but we should hurry home so we can watch the news. I notice it's starting to get dark. I can see the moon in the sky to my right, and I think for a moment that behind the clouds, I could almost mistake it for another ship out of formation. We get to a set of train tracks in the town I was driving through, and for some reason I stop my car. There's someone standing in the middle of the road. I get out of the car and run up to them. It's someone I know, but now I can't remember who it was! I ask him why he's in the middle of the road and tell him he needs to get inside where he is safe! He nods, and turns around and walks off the road. I turn around and my best friend, A, has gotten out of the car as well. She's standing beside me, and I tell her we should get home too! She agrees, and we start walking home. Then I remember, "Wait... what happened to my car?!" A tells me I left it in town. I ask her if I just left it parked in the middle of the road, and she says "Yeah, probably." I freak out, but she insists we need to get home to safety. I tell her to go ahead, I'm going to go back and get my car, then I'll catch up and give her a ride home. I reason that we'll get home faster by car as it's at least a ten minute drive home, and it would take a long time to walk that! I go back looking for my car, but somehow I end up cutting through the business park. I walk into a building, and there are people running around pretty much flipping out over the UFOs. I'm for the most part unseen, but then some woman sees me. She tells me I need to go home, and that kids shouldn't be out by themselves right now, especially somewhere as dangerous as a government manufacturing facility. If the aliens are going to attack, she thinks they will attack government buildings first. She offers to let me take her car as the employees aren't allowed to leave, but I refuse politely telling her I'm looking for my own car and that I'm not a kid! Suddenly, security sees me, and they are chasing me because I'm not supposed to be there! I run, and when I have a good lead on them I cut around a corner and then duck into a large room where they're running big manufacturing machines of some sort. There's an alarm going off, but the machines are so loud I can barely hear it. I run to the back of the room, just to find it's a dead end There's a window I could escape from, but it's way above my head where I couldn't even jump to grab it! A man walks up behind me, but he looks really nice (looking back he reminds me of the Chief of the Shinsengumi from Hokuoki, lol) and he tells me that I need to go out that window because the security guards are coming. I tell him I can't reach, and he reminds me that I am an assassin. Suddenly I'm hit with this realization, "That's right! In the dream world, I am an Assassin!" I haven't ever had a dream I'm aware of where I am an assassin. I'm also still annoyed that I didn't realize I was dreaming when I said that. How can I realize I'm in the dream world and NOT realize I'm dreaming?! I am so dense, lol. Anyways, realizing I am an assassin, I use super strength to pull some wires from the wall. These wires are apparently hooked to the alarm system because pulling them away from the wall makes the alarm stop, yes! Then I make like batman and use the wires like a rope to walk up the wall to the window. The man who told me I was an assassin tells me not to break the window, but to silently pop out the screen instead so that they can't tell I escaped that way. I do as he tells me, and I get out of the place! In the parking lot I see a navy blue SUV and realize it was that lady's vehicle. I climb in, and find that there are keys inside. I thank my lucky stars, start the SUV and start driving to find my car. On the way, I see Desmond from Assassin's Creed walking down the street. I pull up next to him and he hops in, then takes the drivers seat from me. I move over to the passengers seat. I'm asking him what he thinks of the aliens. He tells me he doesn't know much about them, but that we've got to get out of here before the security guards find and arrest me. He's driving like crazy fast, and the SUV has suddenly become a stick shift. I sit back in the seat, finally calm for the first time in the whole dream. I feel like I'm in safe hands (Wish is silly considering that I've only played about halfway through Assassins Creed, the first game, and all he's done so far is bow down to the will of his captors and play in the animus, ha ha) We pull up next to my car. It's ok, it hasn't been hit or towed or anything. Desmond jumps out and starts fiddling with wires in my car, I'm not sure why but I don't much care, I trust him and whatever he's doing. He tells me he's going to take the SUV back for me since he's not on their radar and they'll never think to stop him. I nod, and wake up, lol.

Dream Five: I'm in a room with white walls with two men who remind me of that show Two and a Half Men (but since I haven't seen it in years, it's still the same guys who were in it in the beggining, not Ashton Kutcher) The playboy guy has poured some sort of goes stuff, like oatmeal maybe? all over the dorky guy's head! It was hilarious! I'm laughing my butt off, and then the dorky guy goes into the bathroom to shower. The playboy guy takes my hand and tells me to follow him, so I do, knowing he's up to no good! We sneak into the bathroom, where there are lots of toilets and a couple showers, like some sort of communal shower in a dorm. We can hear dorky guy singing in the shower, and playboy guy turns off the water! Dorky guy gets out and he's flipping out because his body is clean but he still has oatmeal all over his face! We're giggling like mad, thinking this is the best prank ever! But then dorky guy wipes the oatmeal off his face and throws it at us! I duck, but still manage to get some in my hair. Play boy guy gets a facefull. I think I'm going to wash my hair in the sink since there's no water in the one shower, and the playboy guy jumped into the working shower. Somehow I'm naked and wrapped in a white towel. I get my hair wet, and then realize I have no shampoo! I ask the guys to hand me some shampoo, but play boy guy is busy in the shower and can't hear me. Dorky guy is freaking out because I'm standing there in nothing but a towel. He starts to come close to me, but then I feel the towel start to slip. I'm sure my lower back and maybe top of my butt are showing. He's freaking out even more about that! He reaches forwards and pinches the towel to pull it up, his he's covering his eyes so its not like he can actually see if he's pulling it up far enough or not. He squeal like a little girl freaking out over being so close to me being naked and how wrong that is! I'm laughing at his timidness, then I realize I need to wash my hair and he's still not bringing me shampoo. My amusement turns to annoyance, and I just tell him to forget it, I'll find my own shampoo. I start walking around the bathroom looking for any shampoo, but all I can find are bottles with prices on them. I think this might be a hotel or something, and I don't have any money to pay for shampoo. I wake up.

Dream Six: I'm on a boat, like a big wooden ship. I have three necklaces, and I'm looking for a fourth. There's something special about these necklaces, they will life some curse or something. I realize that I have three of the genuine necklaces, and then I have four "fake" necklaces that show me what the real thing should look like, but don't have the power the three real ones do. I come ashore on a little life boat, onto a little island. On the beach is a bunch of pirates, being lead by a man who looks like a combination of Captain Morgan (the Rum Brand's mascot) and Jack Sparrow (from Pirate of the Caribbean). I tell him that I'm looking for these necklaces to save the island I'm from, and he agrees to let me look on his island. I tell him I know where to find the necklace, it's in a cave on this island, I just need someone to show me where the cave is. He calls out to his men, and a guide shows up. The guide turns out to be an ex boyfriend from high school's best friend. I think this is hilarious, because he seems annoyed to have to be my guide. I take advantage of his annoyance and Kill him with kindness so to speak, acting like we were good friends and generally chatting my head off making him even more annoyed because it's funny. We reach this old falling apart building. My guide, N, says that it is an old mall. We go inside, and it's falling apart! He stops, and them tells us (apparently I had a crew with me at this point) that we will need to run through the next room because we'd never make it through if we stopped to fight and the bunnies won't follow us out of the room. I'm like, "What?! Bunnies?! What's so scary about bunnies?!" but he's already running through the room. A three foot tall version of the bunny from Hop rises out of the floor like a zombie rising from the ground, and proceeds to throw easter eggs at us. The eggs explode when they hit like little bombs! One of my crew mates, a really young girl, stops terrified, and I end up shielding her from a blast, then picking her up and carrying her the rest of the way through the room. When we get out of the room, I can see the cave at the end of the hall where the necklace should be! I excitedly run forwards and grab it, but then realize there's a chance someone will try to take the necklaces from me. So I stuff the REAL ones into my bra and underwear, and put the fake ones around my neck, then turn around and hold up the fake ones as if they were real and declare we are saved! N says he'll be right back and walks off for a moment. I take that time to look around. There's a room to my left, and I step inside, there's a pretty dress inside a closet in that room, but I lose interest quickly and walk back into the hall with the cave. N comes back and says lets go. We leave the "mall" with no troubles, and find the captain on the beach. He wishes me luck with my journey, and I get back on my ship. In a flash we're back on my island, where I am to present the historian (who looks like the mole from Skylanders, lol) with the necklaces so he can lift the curse. I'm a bit embarrassed fishing them from my underwear and bra, but I get them out and hand them to him and he doesn't seem to think it's weird. He then hands me some strips of beads that make a picture, but I have to figure out how to lay them to make the image appear. The image is of a woman with a blue back ground. I wake up before I finish it.

Dream One (Fragment): There was some guy that I some how thought was from here was attacking me and trying to take something from me. It confused me because everyone I've ever talked to on here has been really nice. I actually woke myself up thinking, "This is wrong, people on Dream Views aren't mean!"

Dream Two (Fragment): The same guy shows up again. This time he's really nice though. He tells me that he's going to help me and be my dream guide. I don't think anyone here would seriously be interested in trying to come into my dreams, they're pretty boring most of the time, lol. I was online just before bed though reading dream journal entries and no doubt that's what did it! Still, if anyone happened to be attacking a chic last night, then did a 180 and offered to be her dream guide, it might have been me, ha ha.

Dream Three: I'm taking off my wedding ring. I've just gotten a letter that states I am officially divorced. My husband is next to me, and he seems sad, but also proud. It turns out we've decided to divorce, not because we dislike each other or anything, but so that I can fulfill some guy with cancer's last wish. He wants to marry me and spend his last couple months with me by his side. I feel guilty at first because I know I really don't feel the same way about the cancer guy as he feels about me, but the smile on his face when I'm around reminds me that the important part is that he dies happy. If he smiles like that every time he sees me, I can totally live with this for a few months. It makes me happy knowing I'm making him so happy. There's a party, and I "propose" to him. The ring gets dropped, but it's all good, and he is so happy he's got tears running down his face.

Dream Four: I'm sitting at a counter in a kitchen. I'm really short, then somehow I know I'm only 5 or 6 year old. There are two men in the room watching tv. One is an ex boyfriend who was an alcoholic and a big time cheater. The other guy looks familiar, like a guy we walked past in town sometime or someone I've seen on facebook or something. There's a "ding dong" sound, and I realize this kitchen is part of a home with a business office in the front. The ex boyfriend, walks past me into the office that is behind me. I jump down off the stool and peek around the corner. There's a pretty girl who needs some sort of help with something. Her car maybe because he was a mechanic when I dated him? He comes into the kitchen and tells his friend to come along. Apparently he's planing on doing the chic while his buddy fixes whatever is wrong. The friend motions to me and asks if it's really ok to leave me home alone. The ex says I'll be fine, then tells me to go upstairs and go to bed like a good girl. I'm scared, but I do just what I'm told because I'd rather be hiding under the covers than in the dark kitchen alone with no where to hide. A short time passes, and then I hear a sound like maybe a helicopter. An old man walks into the house and I see him walking into my room. He seems surprised to see me there, and I think I'm going to be in trouble, but then I notice there's a red orange glow behind him. The house is on fire! He is freaking out now that he has to get me out of there so the fire doesn't hurt me (and now that I'm awake I wonder if he thought the house was empty and started the fire himself, for suicide or something) We can't get out, the fire is on the stairs. There's a window, and I climb out it, but I can't jump, it's too far! I'm trying to tell the old man to climb down because he's tall enough to reach the hand holds, but he doesn't want to. Suddenly I see dozens of giant rats in the street climbing up the wall. It's freaking me out at first, but then I see that the look like the pet rats my brother and I had as kids. They reach the window, and link tails and arms and wrap around the old man, then they act as a rope and lower him out of the building. I think I'm going to jump out into his arms then, but he runs off instead leaving me behind. The rats are starting to burn and catch fire, so they leave. I'm alone, but then a boy in chainmaille and red tunic who looks a lot like Russel Brand (definitely a kid in the dream though) is standing there telling me to jump and he'll catch me. I feel like he's let me down somehow in the past and I don't trust him. I'm afraid he'll drop me or hurt me or leave me or something. I'm not sure what I'm afraid of, just that I am. He promises he'll take care of me, he promises I'll be safe and that I need to jump or I could die. Finally, I do jump. He catches me, and sets me on the ground. I curl up in the fetal position and Notice I have a teddy bear in my arms. I drift out in third person and am looking at my body... but that little girl looks nothing like me as a kid after all. I wonder who I was, then I wake up. I can point to why I dreamed I was a child in this one. Yesterday evening while at Walmart with my husband and kids, a lady said to me "You look like a baby yourself, and those two babies are yours?!" I gave her the same response I give everyone, "Believe it or not, I'm actually 25, and yes, those are my children." She then tells me that I am aging really well, and told my husband he "got himself one that would never look old." No doubt that's why I dreamed I was my oldest kids age.

I've always been interested in dreaming, but this is the dream that got me motivated to learn more about it and ultimately led me to discover lucid dreaming. This is also the first dream that K, my only re-occurring non waking life DC, made his first appearance. I'm going to copy paste the dream as I wrote it out and sent to my bff that morning when I woke up. I'm not going to change much, just take out the names and maybe add a couple of notes in italics that I think are relevant or interesting to note. There are also notes I wrote to her in () throughout the dream. The dream is written to her, so there's lots of "you know"s and such, so I apologize in advanced for how hard it will be to read. Still I am afraid of rewriting it and ruining the authenticity of it, as when I recall it in my mind these days I'd usually slightly different from this recount I wrote to her.

The first point I can remember I was playing Mini golf with my dad. (This is something we used to do when I was really little and we'd go to the beach, surprising that it came up in a dream this late in life, lol) So I'm trying to get the ball through a windmill hole. You know the type with the windmill that moves and knocks your ball away from the tunnel to the hole. And my ball is yellow, and as I try to punt it through, it goes JUST inside the windmill and stops and starts rolling backwards b/c it's a slight hill. As it's slowly moving backwards, a blue ball flies by me and hits my ball knocking my ball back into the windmill and the two balls get stuck inside the windmill. I turn around to see whos ball it was b/c I didn't recognize it as my dads, and there's this guy standing there with a smug look on his face and a hat on his head with like crazy fluffy hair. (by crazy fluffy, I meant frizzy... like he had curly hair and had straightened it with a straightening iron... it was straight, but wanted to poof out at the bottoms)And in my dream, I've got memories of the guy so I "know" him. In my dream I remember a bunch of stuff all at once, half the memories are really sweet (like hugging me to make me feel better, and even sleeping next to him) but the other half are pretty arrogant (like he acts like he's better than me whenever he ends up showing that he cares b/c he doesn't want to let on or is embarrassed about it. Not really sure how to explain that so I hope that made sense!) Anyways, I get all huffy b/c he knocked my ball and got it stuck, and I'm all "What are you going here?" and he gets all smug and arrogant and says, "You didn't think you would actually make it in the hole did you? I just saved you the trouble of failing over and over again." I glare and then start to stomp off, and my dad asks me who he is, and I tell him he's just a jerk I know, and the guy makes a sarcastic "I'm hurt" type response and then we walk off. Then the dream kind of fast forwards, I know that we finished up minigolf and then went to the mall to check out a new video store or something, but I don't remember any great details, just that I was still hanging with my dad at this point and that the guy was pretty much leaving me alone. Then in the dream I wanted to go to hot topic or something and my dad was looking at music that I don't listen to, so I told him I was going to go look around and to call me when he was ready to leave. I leave, and get about three stores down and the guy from before is siting on a bench a good couple hundred feet away but where he can see that I left the store, and he gets up and falls in step with me like he belongs there, and at this point in the dream I'm feeling really mixed emotions. Part of me is happy he's there b/c I know I care a lot about him, but half of me is wondering why the heck he is walking beside me and not saying anything smug or arrogant. After passing in front of a couple more stores he stop me and tugs me into a jewelry store. I'm like Wtf? "Why are you dragging me in here?" and he gets all defensive and says something like, "I need a woman's opinion and even if your not very girly your the only female I know here so your going to help me. If you wanted a ring, which one would you like?" So I take the opportunity to try and tease him about having a secret girlfriend and he tells me to shut up and pick something or he's leaving. Happy to be spending time with him, and really anxious and nervous over the girlfriend part, I shut my mouth and start looking. I find one that's got a lot of tiny pretty sparkly white stones in it. Like diamond chips or something, you know the kind of ring that's all silver with tiny little stones barely the size of the of the dot on an i covering the whole thing like glitter. Then I tell him that most girls like diamonds so that ones probably a safe bet, and he puts his hand on my head and ruffles my hair and says, "I didn't ask you what most girls would like stupid, I asked you what you would like." And I get all pissed that he called me stupid and tell him that I wouldn't like jewelry store rings b/c they don't make them small enough for my hands and storm off. After storming off I go to the food court to get something to eat to calm my nerves and kill sometime until dads done. I'm vaguely aware of people behind me waiting in line to order, and just as I go to pay for my food the guy steps forwards like he had been the one behind me waiting in line and pays for my food saying something to the effect of, "I have to pay you for your services, even if you weren't very helpful" which gets me some weird looks from the people in line behind us and the guy behind the register. I thank the man behind the counter, and one again walk off angrily and annoyed (thoughts running through my head like "Why would he buy me lunch for something so trivial? Did he just want to buy me lunch? and if he did, why'd he have to be a jerk about it!") (not to mention making me sound like a prostitute, lol)and I sit down the eat. He pulls the chair across from me out and reaches out and starts eating my fries. I snap at him, "Get your own food!" and he's like, "Well I would have if someone hadn't been pmsing and decided to storm off before I could order!" to wich I reply, "Then you shouldn't have followed me" and he says, "I'm not done with you yet." and he starts in on the fact that I didn't show him which ring I would like, and I told him that I showed him one that most girls would like, and he says the girl it's for isn't like most girls anyway and I should just stop complaining and help him out. Then somehow we get on the topic of recent murders, and then my dad shows up and says we have to go. He had just got a call that he needed to go back to work for some emergency meeting. The guy makes a "tche" sort of noise like he's annoyed and tells me I wasn't any help, and then he turns to my dad and says something about how he shouldn't go to the meeting when hes supposed to be spending time with his daughter. And my dad gets all mad and says he has to work to make a living and the guy needs to mind his own business. Then I start to say good bye to the guy, but instead of saying good bye to me, he tells my dad to go bring the car around that he has to talk to me for a moment and that he didn't want to talk about our sex life in front of my dad. My jaw drops and I'm like, "What the hell are you talking about?!" and my dad gets all mad and tells me that he's bringing the car around but that he's really angry and we were going to talk in the car.

Then, when he leaves, the guy grabs my arm and leads me back to my seat at the table and pulls my arm down to make me sit, then he starts saying that the meeting my dad is going to is dangerous b/c theres a demon demanding sacrificial souls or else it will wipe out entire cities to get them. And that the government is having "emergency meetings" in all of it's contracted companies, and that all the people that come are going to be wiped out by a "gas accident" but that it's really the demon stealing their souls and burning down the building covering its tracks. Then he says that he's came here to defeat the Demon, but that he doesn't know if he's going to make it back or not and since I didn't pick my own ring I'd have to be happy with the one he picks for me. I'm like, WHAT?! Demon? are you crazy, and what the hell is this ring thing about? And he's all, "What do you think it's for stupid? I love you, ok? and if I make it back I want to marry you. And if I don't make it back, I wanted you to have something so you don't forget and think I hated you." and then I'm all like if you love me then why do you act like a jerk, and he says he doesn't know, he just feels uncomfortable when he's romantic in public and hes a jerk when he's uncomfortable so thats why, and then walks off. So then I go out to the parking lot where dads in the car and he tells me that he was nice enough to take me in when C (my hubby) and I split but that having C (my son) and C(my daughter) over every other week is rough enough and he doesn't need anymore screaming brats around and that he's not happy to hear his daughter is already sleeping around. To which I try to clear up the misunderstanding and tell him I'm not but that the guy is just a jerk like that who says shit without thinking just to get his way. Then I ask him not to go to the meeting and he says he has to, and I realize that instead of going home we've gone to a school. I ask why we're there, and he tells me to get out and go inside b/c there's some sort of emergency drill and citizens are supposed to go to shelters and that he has a shelter at work. When I try to protest he tells me to just go inside and wait, the drill would be over in a couple of hours. So I go inside, and your there!!! YAY!!! This is where A comes in and saves the day! I'm really confused at this point, so I start asking you about this "drill" and you don't really know much either, so we decide to go into one of the classrooms to watch the news on the classroom tv screens. When we get into the classroom the ground shakes, and we freak thinking it's an earth quake, but then it stops after only a couple seconds. Inside there are people sitting at desks and standing along the walls and sitting on the floor, pretty much packing the place watching the tv. On the Screen there is this huge red and shadowy person as tall as a tree and they're coming up out of a buss and pounding and grabbing at my dads work building tearing the whole place apart. Everyone in the room is silent, and the tv anchor is saying something about how there were people inside the building and that special forces were trying to contain the situation but no one was really sure what was going on so everyone was urged to stay in a designated shelter where they'd be safest. At that point I realize that the guy before hadn't been full of crap, and that there really was a demon and that he really had gone to fight it. So I break down crying, and you get a few people to move out of desks b/c my dad was in that building and you set me down at one of the desks and try to calm me down. You keep saying he'll be fine, they'll get him out of the building, and everything will be ok. And then the tv news anchor starts saying that a group of civilians have appeared on the scene, then the anchor starts freaking out saying that the civilians are shooting some sort of light from their hands and they're not sure whats going on, but it looks like they're trying to help defeat the monster. At that point I tell you what happened at the mall, and tell you about how even though I know the guys a jerk sometimes, I really did love him and he really was sweet when he wasn't uncomfortable or felt like his manliness was compromised. Then a lady walks into the room asking if I'm in there, and I don't recognize her but you wave and tell her I'm there. She comes over and drops a a present on the desk and tells me that some guy had left it in the office a while ago and said that I would be in one of the rooms and to give it to me. The present is wrapped in wrapping paper, but it's pulled up at the top like a bag. I dunno how to explain it other than imagine if you had a large piece of wrapping paper, and you set something in the middle then pulled all the corners and ends of the paper up to make a bag around the object instead of using tape to tape it. So I reach out and start to touch it, but when I touch it I can feel through the thin paper that it's shaped like a jewelry box. and I pull my hand back and gasp. You take the a little folded note off the ribbon that's holing it closed and read it out loud to me since I'm crying and everything is blurry. The note says, "Sorry I couldn't make it back. You know what this is for." When you finish I am crying so hard that I feel like I have to get way from the room, so I jump up and run out of the room, into the hall and then out of the school. You follow me, telling me to stop that it's dangerous out there, and I tell you that I have to go see him, that I have to see him one more time. I can't let him die without telling him how I feel as well. And you try to reason with me that obviously he knows how I feel or he wouldn't be so certain in the mall earlier or waste money on something so expensive, but I won't listen and just keep running. The school is in a city, so we're running on a sidewalk in between buildings, and the ground keeps shaking b/c we're only a few blocks from the demon that's trying to tear the building down.

Ok, I promise I'm almost done now, lol. But this is also where it gets weirder. This whole dream is super realistic, in the dream I'm feeling everything. I can still remember the uneven surface of the jewelry box like I really touched it even though it was just a dream. At this point in the dream though, I wake up crying. This is at about 9:45 this morning right? Well I'm still caught up in the emotion of the dream and I really want to go back to sleep to see what happens and to see the guy one more time. So I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep. What happens though, is I get stuck in a half awake half asleep state, but it's unlike any I've ever been in before. I'm sill awake and aware of C(my son) and C(my daughter) and their movements and breathing, but I'm also asleep and back into this uber realistic dream. It's like being two people at the same time, only I can feel both the things happening in my dream and my covers on my body in real life, but I can't move my body at all in real life. It's like I'm paralyzed. It really was amazing but scary at the same time b/c I couldn't move!!!

So the dream continues, and we end up at the scene of the battle. There are two girls, and three guys (including THE guy) fighting this demon. Just as we arrive at the scene, THE guy bursts into this beautiful bright white light that completely engulfs the demon and him and it's like an explosion, loud sound and shock wave and everything. We fall to the ground b/c it's shaking and then when everything clears and settles the guy is standing there in the middle of the street were he had just destroyed this demon thing, and he's bleeding from deep cuts along his arms chest and back and he's got no shirt on and his jeans are ripped half up the legs and he has all sorts of dirt and black smudges on him and I rush forwards to him. He look at me, and blinks a couple of times like he's confused, then he's all, "What the hell are you doing here stupid? Your supposed to be safe inside a shelter!" Then he falls to his knees, and I drop to mine and catch him before he can fall face first onto the ground. He reaches around and hugs me (keep in mind I'm still experiencing this half and half state where not only am I feeling this but also my real body wrapped in covers and unable to move) and I'm crying and telling him that I had gotten the gift and that I just couldn't let him die without seeing him again and telling him how I really felt. and he says something about the stupid office lady not supposed to give it to me until nightfall so that if he was going to make it he'd be there when I got it to so I wouldn't freak out.

Then C(my daughter) woke up and started kicking me and I lost the dream, but it took about 15-30 seconds (and several kicks) before I was able to move again. (At the time, my daughter was only a year and a half old, and slept in my bed with me) I had a dream a few months ago (maybe 7 or 8?) that was pretty realistic, I couldn't wake up from, and I was "paralyzed" after waking up for a few seconds, but this is the first time I've ever been conscious of both the dream and my real body and being so aware of how trapped I am. I mean it's one thing to know your dreaming and can't wake yourself up, it's totally different when your aware of your dream and your surroundings but unable to wake up or move or anything on your own. I know it seems similar, but it's much scarier when your aware that things are going on around you and you can't react to them b/c your trapped in this dream and your real body is paralyzed!

Obviously now I know a lot more about sleep paralysis and what I experiencing, but if not for this dream I'd still be clueless and might never had learned about lucid dreaming. K remains my biggest motivator for lucid dreaming. I want to ask him, Why is he the only DC I dream about reoccurringly? Is he a normal DC, or is he a guide, or even another dreamer? Why am I always exhausted after I dream of him as if I didn't get any sleep at all? I could probably fill an entire journal entry with my questions, lol. He's been in several dreams, there was 3 weeks in a row when I saw him every single Monday and Thursday until I had my first lucid. Now, I can't seem to find him when I'm lucid. I've called him in lucids before, but all I can produce of him in those dreams is his voice. As crazy as it sounds, the second dream I ever had of him he tried to make me realize I was dreaming, and that was before I even knew anything about lucid dreaming. I'm pretty sure now that I am able to become lucid every once and a while, he's purposely making me search for him. When I hit this dry spell, he's shown back up again, almost like he's reminding me that I have a purpose, and I can't just give up on lucid dreaming just because I hit a snag. As for his personality, well it hasn't changed much. He still acts pretty aloof in my dreams, though over the last year we've gone from getting frustrated with one another to being happy to see one another. Who am I kidding? I'm always happy to see him But in the begging it seemed like we didn't know quite how to act around one another. Now he keeps his distance and acts at times like he's carrying a chip on his shoulder, but still manages to soften up with me. I no longer get annoyed or mad when he's aloof or distant, I sort of understand that's how he is and I don't think now I'd want him to act any other way. Anyways, if anyone's interested in reading more, SOme entries to check out are:

2/16/12 - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views (First Paragraph)

2-20-12 Nap - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views (Part Two)

Catching up the last several days! - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views (2-23, Dream Two)

2-27-12 - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views (Dream Two and Notes)

There are more, but I don't feel like looking them up, lol. These are just the ones I knew the dates for. I doubt anyone's actually read this far, but if you did Thank You for your time! And please feel free to comment, especially if you've got similarly important or unusual dream characters. This whole thing was mostly for my own benefit though. I intend to rededicate myself to trying to become lucid. When my recall stopped being great, I stopped reality checking and haven't had a lucid in a month or so. I figure reminding myself why I'm trying to get lucid is the best way to kick start my motivation

Well, I kind of screwed myself over last night as far as recall goes. I got the kids to bed early and all, but then ended up staying up until 2 am playing that Hakuoki game... I played all the way to the end, and couldn't help tearing up because it was so sweet but so sad! Then of course I had to wait for my brain to settle down before I could fall asleep, and my kids woke up early because they had gotten a good 4 hours head start on sleeping. I usually get around 10 hrs of sleep, last night I got maybe 6? I still have a full dream, and some fragments though so here goes

Dream One: I'm flying through the air with someone. I don't know if I was flying in a plane or just like dream flying myself. We're following what we're calling a plane but looks more like a spaceship (of the nasa variety, not the alien variety) The side parts of the space ship fall off (I know they're supposed to, they're like the boosters to help it out of the atmosphere in real life. Anyways, those parts fall off, and they start spiraling out of control like some kind of missiles. Then, the space ship turns and starts heading towards an airport for a landing. Suddenly I'm worried that those boosters are going to hurt someone, so me and the guy (I'm pretty sure the person with me was male all night, but my memory is fuzzy.) make a big lazy circle, then head down towards the airport to warn everyone about the space ships broken boosters. But, before we can get there, the boosters crash into the building and there's a big explosion. We're blown back by the blast, and then we decide to just go home and check on my family since there's nothing we can do now for the people we wanted to warn. When we get home, my grandma is getting ready for some sort of appointment, and she told us we had a family get together to attend. The person with me and myself go to the family get together. I remember there being snowmen decorations there. The next thing I know, I'm playing Hokuoki and I'm choosing the path I completed last night, but instead of getting a happily ever after ending I get a "They never saw each other again" ending. The first part of the dream was easy to remember because flying was awesome, the end of the dream, no so cool and I barely remember. Thank goodness for my notes!

Dream Two: I'm trying to get somewhere, but I have to follow this stone path that is up high in the air, like on top of aqueducts or something. I reach a point where I can see a city, but the bridge in front of me is made of what I can only describe as ghost stones. You can see them, but you can't touch them and I would fall right through if I tried to walk over them. There's someone with me, maybe the same person from the first dream, I don't know because the dreams were both so hazy. Some guy flies around and then lands beside me. He's cocky and stuck up, but he knows how to fix the bridge. He tells me he'll repair it for me, but he wants something in return but I can't remember what it is now. The person with me doesn't think it's worth it and tells me not to accept his offer, that we will figure something else out. I really need to get on the other side though, and I trust this arrogant guy for some reason, and I agree. He flies up into the air, the quickly flies through the ghost stones, and they glow green for a moment then they solidify. I start across the bridge, and wake up.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm in a cave like place, and there's a cavern that's blocked off by iron bars like a dungeon cell. There's someone inside the cell, and I want to rescue him. In fact, I'm down right desperate to rescue him. He keeps telling me to go back, escape before I'm caught, and he's nearly in tears trying to get me to leave him, but I refuse. That's all I can really remember. I *THINK* I rescued him, but I don't remember how. I'm pretty sure I remember flying with him around the cave at some point, but maybe I'm just getting the first dream mixed up with this one, lol.

Last night we all went to bed about 2 hours earlier than usual because the kids were cranky. It ended up working out fairly well for me because I could recall 5 dreams and fragments, that's the most I've had in a couple weeks at least. Definitely going to make the family go to bed earlier again (and by earlier, I mean 10 not midnight, ha ha. So still not too early!) The only downside was I woke up after about 8 hours of sleep and am still super tired. I usually need 10 hours of sleep to feel fully rested. This just means a nap might be in order for later on in the day!

Dream One: I'm at the house we lived in 7 years ago. It's night time, and storming something fierce. There's no thunder or lightening, just a torrential rain and wind. I'm a bit scared, but it passes quickly (storm season is coming and I'm worried because we're the southeast that got hit bad last year.) I look out the screen door and notice my mom and a bunch of kids standing in the yard. It looks like there's snow on the ground. I walk out across the yard to talk to my mom, and she asks me to take the kids inside. I think they're her kindergarten class? (She was an assistant teacher back when we lived there) I'm on my way inside with the class lined up behind me. I look up at the sky, and notice the moon looks beautiful but like an anime moon not a real moon. I *might* have seen a character from the vn I've been playing standing in front of the house, I keep thinking I did but can't remember for sure as I woke up as soon as I looked back down towards the house.

Dream Two (Fragment): I dreamed I was in the visual novel I'm playing, Hakuoki ( Hakuoki: Demon of the Fleeting Blossom ~ Welcome to Kyoto ). I was in one of the old Japanese buildings, and I was running from someone. I ran past one of the Shinsengumi (Heisuke?) and he called out to me, but I ignored him, I was trying to get away from something, and didn't want to stop.

Dream Three: I'm at my dads family's lake house. I'm walking up the hill towards the cabin, and I notice my neighbor and his family are there. I'm under the impression that my husband invited them, but I felt unhappy about it because this was my family's place, not his. When I reach the cabin, my aunt and uncle's suv pulls up, and they get out. My aunt wants to know who those people are, and I try to explain it's the neighbors and that we're about to leave. My family doesn't get upset about it, and says to stay as long as we want, they just wanted to be sure it wasn't someone uninvited crashing our lake house again. I go inside, and there are some binders with pictures of Street Fighter characters on it. I ask what it is, and some guy, who's a friend of my cousin's I guess, tells me it's a game then proceeds to tell me the name and rules, but I'm not really paying much attention. I tell him that's cool, and then leave. Somehow I end up at home, on the computer, and I've got a facebook friendship request. It's my cousin's friend and his screen name is something like Eniji(random numbers here) and I think it's funny he has a Japanese screen name. He tells me my cousin said we were into Anime, and he's like to talk and hang out with my husband and I because he needs anime buddies to go to cons with.

Dream Four: There's a building, that's old off white plaster. The plaster is chipping off in several places. It's kind of weird the way the front of the building is, because the building is like a big rectangle, but there's an inset porch or entrance or whatever made of the same plaster before you actually get to the front doors. There's a sign that says the building is closed for renovations. I walk away, but then I'm walking back to the building again. Dream logic This time the off white plaster has been painted Carolina blue and there's a dark blue line about 6 inches thick going all around the entrance about 6 feet up. It looks... odd, to say the least! There are lots of flyers hanging on the walls, and I'm excited thinking it's open now! And suddenly I know it's a museum, and it's in another country! (Probably influenced by the fact my husband was watching Hetalia last night and I couldn't help over hearing bits of it) There's an old man whom I guess is the curator standing at the door, telling me I can't go inside because renovations aren't complete yet. I tell him I came all the way from America, can't I just have a peek? I've come twice and they're always closed! He refuses, but asks me what part of America I'm from. I tell him from the Carolinas, but he seems confused about where that is so I just give up and turn around. I'm walking away and see a woman who also wants to visit this museum. I tell her it's closed, but she goes to try and persuade the curator anyways. She probably would because she was thin, blond, and had big boobs. I woke up before I found out though!

Dream Five: I'm texting my best friend A on the phone. She's telling me she can't chat much tonight because she has some sort of late meeting at work. I tell her that's ok, we're going to help someone with their hotel. I don't know anyone who works at a hotel, lol. Turns out, this hotel is more like the Japanese inn in "Hanasaku Iroha" ( Hanasaku Iroha Full episodes streaming online for free ) and I'm taking food to customers in their rooms. Someone says my uniform is "Seastar clothing" and I notice then that it does look a bit like a star fish.The apron is cut so that there's a star point on each arm, one at each leg, and the final point was a hoodie that could be worn on my head. It looked as ridiculous as it sounds. I woke up then because my son was waking up.

Dream One (fragment): I woke from this dream after only being in bed about an hour and a half, so I'm surprised I remembered anything at all. I'm standing outside the headquarters from this Hakuoki game I've been reading. I'm looking at myself in third person though. K is there, and he's got the white hair and red eyes of the fury creatures that the game characters become (they're like vampires, kind of) and he's wearing the shinsengumi blues. He's bending slightly, with one hand on the hilt of his sword and the other under my chin, kissing me softly.

Dream Two: I'm sitting at the computer playing the Sims 3. I'm trying to build a lot, but it keeps going wrong. For some reason there's a big crater in the middle of the lot, and I can't get it back to level. The grid is also screwing up, and placing random grid squares in mid air at different heights. I know in the dream I'm supposed to go somewhere, but I want to finish this sim house first. My little boy is saying, "Mommy! Lets go!" but the computer is driving me NUTS and I don't want to go until I've defeated it. Suddenly the doorbell rings, and I realize I'm in the house we used to live in years and years ago. I look out the window and see that the person at the front door is my husbands ex-fiance, the girl he was engaged to before we met. (She and I talk on Facebook because we have a lot in common, so it's only a little weird that we'd be hanging out) I grab my phone, realizing my husbands not here yet and he was supposed to be here before she arrived so we could go. I call him, and he says he's leaving now and on his way. I ask him if he remembered to grab out Daughter's Hello Kitty something or another (She has so much Kitty crap, I couldn't even begin to imagine what it was) Then I woke up.

Dream Three: The dream starts off with me being in a house that I somehow know as my own but I've never seen before in my life. My friend is there, and she's telling me that since my husband and I have split, and I have all this empty space, she has a friend who needs a place to stay. I think that if it's a friend of hers, then they're probably easy to get along with and I could use help with my rent, so I agree to take them in as a room mate. When my new room mate arrives, it's actually a guy who's a friend of both my husbands and this friends. At first I think this is going to be really awkward because he's very christian and I'm uh, NOT, lol. But it seems to be working out ok as religion doesn't come up. Then I get this wild notion to go somewhere, and dress up in a mini skirt and tank top and start to head out the door. The room mate then grabbed my arm really tightly and asks me where I'm going. I'm kind of shocked that he's touching me when we barely know each other, and really pissed that he's acting like he has some sort of right to know where I'm going or what I'm doing. I Glare at him and tell him I'm going out and he needs to let go of me. He tells me he's not going to let me leave, I need to stay there with him. I tell him to let go of me again and that I'm an adult and I can go wherever I want and do whatever I want, and if he's going to act like a parent he can get the fuck out. He refuses to let go of me, saying that he couldn't let me go out tramping about. I get really pissed and pull my arm as I kick out at him hoping to throw him off guard. But, he's a lot bigger than me and instead I get thrown off balance and he smacks me in the face. I'm REALLY pissed then, so I do some sort of awesome karate like roundhouse kick to his head and knock him back on to floor. He grabs my foot and trips me. I struggle free and grab the telephone, and call 911. I tell them I don't want to have to cause trouble but I have this crazy room mate that won't let me leave the house and things are getting violent. I briefly wonder if because I kicked him first, I will be the one charged, but at this point I'm actually scared this guys going to crush me and don't care. He starts crying telling me I shouldn't have called the cops, and I'm crying myself because I'm scared and I feel a bit guilty, if I'd never let the guy stay here this never would have happened! I make it outside crying, and my husband shows up, and gives me a hug and asks whats wrong. I tell him what happened, and the cops are showing up arresting his friend and I'm begging my husband to come back, telling him I can't take care of myself without him, all I do is get in trouble by myself (legit fear here, lol. One that rarely works its way into my dreams, but one I actually have in waking life) My husband agrees to come back, but he wants to leave the kids with my mom and grandma until we work things out. I agree, and we go inside the house. Inside, there are suddenly three people (two men, one woman) lounging in the living room. One of the guys, a thin and grungy looking guy nods his head in acknowledgement that we're there and then says to my husband, "Dude, I hear your wife's a bitch!" then starts laughing. I'm pretty sure these are friends of my husbands, who probably know the guy who just went to jail, and I don't want to face them knowing they must hate me, so I run back to the bedroom and lock myself in. I can hear the conversation through the door though, and the guy asking my husband why he puts up with me. I get mad again, and storm back into the living room. I tell them they can hate me all they want, but they're in my house and they won't talk about me like that there! They start snickering, and they tell me they're just giving me a hard time. Then they ask what really happened. I tell them, and then they're still laughing and saying, "Yeah, that sounds like something he'd do! That dude's crazy. Good for you, your not so bad!" I feel like things have been smoothed over now, but I'm so tired, I just want to go to bed. My husband and I start to go back to the bedroom again, but then out the bedroom window I see an old building in the back yard with a hole in the stone walls and desks inside. I go outside to investigate. As I look inside I see the desks look old and abandoned. I turn to my husband who followed me out and say, "Doesn't this look like something out of that anime Another?" My husband agrees. Then there's some noise from inside, and I almost scream before I realize it's my husbands friend doing the worm on the floor in the abandoned classroom. I think that's silly, and then wake up!

My kids just don't seem to be getting better So Sleep has been mostly non existent and dreams short and murky if apparent at all, but here's my catching up for the week:

4/4/12-

Dream One: An assassins creed dream. There were lots of bubbles, and I was on a stealth assassination mission on a tower. I wasn't alone, there was someone else helping me, maybe the game was multiplayer in the dream?

Dream Two: I'm following some one, then I see some police step out. I notice they look like German soldiers from WW II... one looks like Hitler and hands me a business card. The card is for some dating service. I think it's funny, Hitlers trying to help people hook up. An Asian dude walks by with huge headphones on, then looks over his shoulder at a huge billboard that takes up the whole wall of a big city building.

Dream Three: Another Assassins Creed dream. I'm scaling walls.

4/5/12-

I'm at some sort of school dance type function. My old drama teacher is there, as are a couple other teachers from high school. I see a friend I had a crush on back in the day, but he looks a lot different. His hair is darker, and long... while I know his hair these days IS long, it's red not brown like in the dream. I stare at him for a moment not recognizing him, then realize who he is, and talk to him for a moment. I remember feeling in the dream like I was by myself, and I wanted to be near people I knew because I hate being alone and awkward. Funny thing is, I found out later that day via Facebook that it was that guys birthday. I haven't spoken to him in years (I graduated like 7 years ago, and he left school a couple years before me) I'm not even subscribed to his news feed so I never see any news about him, so it was a neat coincidence

4/6/12-

Dream One Notes: Forum W/ White light room, Snow? Aunt (can't remember these now )

Dream Two notes: Security check, Balls (Still can't remember)

Dream Three: I was in a world with Vampires and werewolves (just called them Weres, so perhaps there were other animal shape shifters as well) someone wanted me to make them a ball room masquerade type mask with red and silver paint. There was a well or a cave or something I was nearby and thinking of going to.

Dream Four: I was at a family dinner. There were broken fences in the back yard. I had a lot of cousins over. I needed to pee, so I went to the bathroom. When I got in the bathroom I discovered that I was wearing some sort of form shaping underwear that covered from my arms to my knees. I couldn't figure out how to take it off, so I tried to sit on the toilet and pee while wearing it. It got really wet and I realize what a bad idea it was. Later in the dream, my grandpa was there. Then I went home.

Dream Five: My brothers pet snake Pete was ten times it's normal size, and I was baby sitting. It got lose and was slithering through the house. Everytime I'd see it's tail and start to follow it to catch it, the tail would disappear into a hole in the wall and I'd be looking for it again. I remember searching the car and the bathroom.

4/7/12-

Dream One: I'm in a building, maybe and office or hotel building. I'm either looking out a window or standing on the ledge about to scale the wall. There's a guy with me, I think blonde or brunette, and he's sad because he wants me to stay but I have to go.

Dream Two: I'm packing to visit my best friend. I'm talking to her on the phone as I pack and we are so excited!

Dream Three: I'm in the backyard and the ground looks like it's moving. At first I think it's worms coming out of the ground after rain, but then I realize there are MILLIONS of tiny six to ten inch snakes crawling all over the yard. I try to kill then by cutting their heads off with a shovel, but there are too many. I tell my husband to get the lawn mower and run them over, but he swear it wont work and not to worry about them. I'm so sure they're poisonous snakes and we need to kill them before they're big enough to bite.

6/8/12-

Dream One: My cousins daughter and her daddy are delivering Skylanders to our house. It's dark, and the daughter is afraid to walk in the grass because she thinks she will step on a snake.

Dream Two: I'm on a bus, on some sort of trip but it's dark. I feel like I'm not a student, but not a teacher either. Perhaps a parent helper or something, though I don't see my kids on the bus. We're in my town, and I tell the bus driver I'm from the area and that if she gets lost I can help her find her way. Time skips or my memory is missing, but we end up in a room with a door and a window to another room, like the receptionist at a doctors office would sit behind. There's a lady we're waiting on behind the counter to open a door for us. I see a tall guy with blonde hair and a long face looking at me. I wonder for a moment why he's staring at me, because he's being very obvious and stalker like. I think for a moment that maybe he's K because K has blond hair, but his face doesn't look like K's, and he's taller and more bean poleish than K. I ask him anyways why he's looking at me. I don't remember the reply, I think it was that I looked familure or something. I ask him if he is K, and he says Yes. I tilt my head and shake it, No, he's not K. I tell him he's lying, he doesn't feel like K. Then I feel like my attention is being jerked to my left. I look, and there's K! K starts to talk to me, and coyly asks me if I've been looking for him. I think he asks if I missed him (it's been a while since I've seen K for sure) and of course I do, but I can't remember how I reply because I feel cocky like I'm flirting by playing hard to get. He tells me he's in a band, and asks me if that makes me want to date him and I think he grabbed me around the waist and put his fore head against the side of mine so he's talking right into my ear. I pulled away teasingly, and told him I didn't much care for band members, but if he really liked me I guess I could give him a shot. I look away at the end though, acting like I wasn't so interested after all. Suddenly a really short guy dressed like some sort of gangster want to be (complete with the gold bling necklaces and baggy clothes and silly hat!) jumps up in front of me, and he's shorter than me even (I'm 5 ft, so that's SHORT!) and says, "I really like you! Would you give me a shot?" I'm playing hard to get, so I tell him sure, then look at K to see if he's jealous. He just smiles like he find the whole thing hilarious. I'm pretty disheartened by his response, but when I turn back to the guy I agreed to give a shot He's suddenly a little kid my sons age (no wonder he's short!) and I think it's hilarious and adorable because he's acting just like my son does when there's a teenage girl around and I'm like I'll just humor this little kid for a few minutes and hold his hand and walk with him to where ever we're supposed to go then break it to him gently that I'm way too old for him. We walk through the door, and we're suddenly outside. It's still dark, but the sky up the road is glowing red as if there is a bright red light illuminating the sky. The road is blocked off, and there are some emergency vehicles. Someone's saying there's an airborne chemical in that area that is burning people and they are trying to keep people away and evacuate the unaffected people. I see a girl who reminds me of a Hawaiian friend of my husbands. The dream goes into third person, and I'm watching her go home. There's a little girl there, and she's upset. Apparently the older sister brought some sort of chemical home from work, and the little girl dropped it on the floor and it spilled. She scooped it back into the container, but it had dirt mixed in with it. The dirt made the chemical change, and when the sister got to work the chemical became the air borne chemical that's burning peoples faces. The older sister is worried the mistake will be tracked back to her and she'll get in trouble. The little sister keeps messing with things that belong to the big sister, and she snaps that it's the little girls fault. The little girl gets something black on her hands, and the big sister gets worried that it's the chemical and it might burn the little girl. She wipes the child's hands off and starts crying, then I wake up.

We were up way too late last night because of the midnight release of the Star Wars Xbox (my kid <3 Star Wars and had been asking for that thing since it started showing up on xbox advertisements a year ago) so all I have are two fragments

Fragment One: I'm on top of one of the view points in Assassins Creed. I'm standing on the wooden platform with my arms held wide just absorbing the feeling of being on top of the world, the wind whipping my face and just pure awesomeness.

Fragment Two: I'm on a battlefield of some sort, I think Medieval. I'm sitting on the ground with a small table (possibly a chess board) in front of me and there's a man across from me. He says, "They think we've given them the battle, but this battle is ours now." I'm confident that he's correct, we have some sort of plan in place that ensures our victory while completely blindsiding the enemy with a false sense of security.

I'm trying something new. Since I've read many dream journals where people dream of Assassins Creed, and I often dream of Video games I decided to give the game another shot (I started it last year, but got stuck in the second memory block because I suck at "core" video games and tend to stick with the easy kids stuff ) I'm playing it at least an hour a day for the last three days, and it's appearing in my dreams as expected. While I'm not completely lucid in the dreams, I definitely feel like I'm not in reality anymore, but rather in another world or virtual reality. Now if only I could remind myself that other world is a dream and I can control it I'll be set. Even if I can't gain lucidity through making myself dream of a certain thing, at least the world is awesome. When I woke from that first Fragment I felt like I was on the top of the world, even though the dream was over!

I thought the night was going to be a bust for dreams as I went to sleep at 2, and woke at 8:30 with not a single dream to recount. But it was raining so Terminix canceled our 11:30 appointment and I got to sleep in after all

Dream One: I need gas, so I pull into a gas station, but all the pumps were pulled out except for one. The one pump that was there had no card reader. So I went inside the gas station and told the attendant (a pleasantly plump middle aged woman with frizzy curly grey hair) that I needed to pay with credit but the car reader was missing from the gas station. The woman told me they were renovating the place and could only accept their own gas cards as a credit payment. I tell her it's actually a debit card, so she's welcome to scan it as Debit I just won't get my visa extras points. The woman then starts telling me that if I don't use my gas card it will ruin my credit. I tell her I don't have a gas card, and she threatens me again saying that if I don't apply for one she will personally ruin my credit. I storm out, pissed off, but pretty sure she can't ruin my credit because I refuse to apply for her gas card.

Dream Two: I'm walking around Sam's club with my husband and I see these really cute Disney bowls for kids. They're shaped like Mickey mouse heads, and have princess and mouse designs in the center of the faces and ears with crowns and characters around the borders. I decide To buy some for the kids to eat their popcorn in when we watch Disney movies. I end up loading like 5 or 6 in the buggy, but for some reason most of them are the different princesses for my daughter and there's only one mickey design for my son. I feel bad about this, but as they only have one boy design I think I'll buy him something else to make up for it. I get a phone call from my grandma that Terminix has shown up, so I go around the next aisle and suddenly I'm in my kitchen. The bug man hands my husband a bill, and my husband goes off saying it's supposed to be cheaper than that because he's an annual member of some program through his work that makes all deliveries and driving fees of services in the south east free. He calls it a "stomping fee" and says we should have free stomping fees through this membership he supposedly has.

Dream Three (Fragment):I'm watching some tv show in the living room, and my kids are there with me as is the little kid next door we babysit after school. The kid next door says, "this crap is weird!" I pay attention to the show wandering whats so weird about it. On the screen a little cartoon tanuki like the one in Inu Boku SS:


(yes, I'm hot linking so that picture may not work, lol)

Is praying to "the Great Goddess, Mother, and Lady Saint" to help him protect the forest where he and his fellow animal friends live. I love the show immediately and tell the neighbors kid that this is the kind of stuff I wish my kids would watch more of! That we don't see much that can even remotely be considered pagan programing here in the bible belt, and this is about as pagan as you can get. The kid then asks me what Pagan is, and I go into some long explanation about how pagans are nature loving people who worship multiple gods goddesses and spirits instead of just one god, then go on about how it was once the most popular religion around the world. Looking back, it was probably mostly a bunch of bs because I'm really not that knowledgeable about it, I just generalize, ha ha.

Dream Four: I'm in the basement, and the neighborhood kids show up. One of them is looking around the basement which in this dream has lots of glass shelves with Anime Figurines on them (this must be my husbands dream basement, lol ) The kid is asking me about them and I'm trying to tell him what each figure is and what show they're from. I end up giving the neighbors kids a tour of our anime collection and trying to show them how cool it can be, while trying to skip past all the not so kid friendly stuff that is in our collection.

Dream Five (fragment): I'm dropping my kids off at the elementary school I went to so they can start school and it looks exactly the same. (That building was torn down 13 years ago, lol) I go into the girls bathroom, and marvel at how it hasn't changed a bit. The stalls are still falling apart and it's still pretty beat up looking.

Dream Six: I'm in a shiny black car, I think it was a Cadillac. There is a man in a black suit driving, and a woman in a black suit with a pony tail in the passenger seat. I'm in the back. We pull up to a grey square building that's very plain and government looking. The woman gets out, she has to go inside to get something. I'm sure in the dream that I am friends with these two people, and I trust them, and apparently they trust me because this is a top secret area or something. I'm looking out the window and I see a boy with blond hair and a girl with long dark brown hair walking towards the building. They look like teenagers, and I notice they're carrying books like they're on their way to class or something. The girl stops, and turns to look right at me. I feel like ice runs down my body, all scared and panicked that I was seen. The girl rushes over to the car and knocks on the window I'm sitting at. The guy in the drivers seat rolls the window down and tells her to get on to class. She says she will, she just wanted to introduce herself to the new student and make her feel welcome. I try to tell her I'm not a student, I'm way too old for school, and she tells me that's nonsense, she could tell as soon as she felt me nearby that I was to be a student here. I try to tell her I'm not even supposed to be here, so it'd be best if she just ignored whatever she was feeling and went to class. She tells me again that it's nonsense, that if I wouldn't be here if I wasn't supposed to be because the security here is too tight to let just anyone in. The woman comes out of the building and tells the girl she will be late if she doesn't go inside now, then climbs into the car and rolls the window up. I ask the woman and man in the car what that was all about, saying I'm 25, there's no way I'd be going to class with those kids. The lady says nothing, but looks at the man and he looks back in the mirror and tells me to "just ignore it, those kids are weird." Then the car is moving and we're pulling away from the building. There's mountains and a lake in the back ground, and I see a few tall pine trees as well. We're trying to go through the big concrete main gate but are stopped on the way out. I either wake up here, or I skip to another dream, I didn't take notes last night so I can't be sure and will treat it as waking up

Dream Seven: I'm in the woods with a group of people ranging from teenagers to adults about my age, hiking maybe. I feel like I'm on the older end of the spectrum at 25, but there are people who definitely look older than me. There's a woman with me, she looks about 22, and she's dressed in all black. She has red orange hair braided down her back, and a face that reminds me of a young Angelina Jolie with smaller lips, lol. She's dressed in all black, leggings and long sleeved shirt, with a bulky belt holstering a gun and sword and a couple pouches around her waist. She seems to be my protector or body guard, and I call her Pandora. There's a sound like wind, and then these people in black robes are attacking us. One girl in particular has blond and curly hair like Dakota fanning in that Twilight movie (don't ask which one, I haven't seen it so I don't know, I just remember the ads) is trying to attack me. She has a sword and is lunging at me. Pandora blocks the attack, and tells me to run. I don't want to run because I don't want to leave all the other people at the mercy of these robed figures, but Pandora tells me that it's me they are after and if I run I can draw them away from the others. I tear through the woods as fast as I can and come across an old barn. I run past what looks like empty rabbit hutches and into the barn. The blond girl is right behind me, and I have no sword to fight her with. She swings at me wildly, and I keep stumbling around managing somehow to dodge her attacks. Then she slices into my left arm, and it HURTS, but it's not deep as she only just barely caught me with the swords tip. I think to myself I can cast a sword spell, and try it but it back fires and doesn't work, instead the other girl tells me that If I'm going to use magic so will she, and she summons her own swords spell that causes swords to fall from the sky. I see a round piece of metal laying nearby, and decide to use it as a shield. I imagine it acting as the Hyland shield from Zelda, and tuck up under it to keep the swords from hitting me, and it becomes the shield. I peek out from under the shield when everything goes quiet, and I see the swords have stopped falling but the girl is standing over me with her sword held high about to hit me as hard as she can. I shove the shield towards her as hard as I can and slam her with it. She staggers back a bit, and I proceed to keep trying to bash her with the shield until I'm able to knock her down unconscious with blood dripping from her mouth as though I've knocked some teeth lose. I'm exhausted and barely standing, but I teeter out of the barn and am greeted by Pandora running up the hill. She steadies me, and asks me if I'm ok, apologizing for taking so long to get there as she was being held back by the other attackers. I tell her I'm ok, and that I was able to bash the blond with a shield but that she was unconscious, probably not dead and may get up to fight us again. Pandora tells me to relax, that I'm safe now, and that the others were ok as well. I can see the group climbing up the hill through the woods at a slow pace. A blue bird lands on one of the empty rabbit hutches and tweets. Pandora tells me that "everything will be fine now, that is a Blue Bird of Happiness, and a sign that the fight is over." I wake up.

Dream Fragment (???): Not sure where this one fell in the night, but as I was getting my cheerios this morning I remembered having a dream that my kids wanted me to read the books from the Cheerios Box to them (they're giving out books in the cheerio boxes right now, or were when I bought them last week, lol) I go to the bookshelf to get them, but when I pull on the books, they rip in half! I'm so upset because I bought double the cereal I normally do so I could get my kids one of each book since they thought it was so awesome their cereal was coming with a book!

Dream One: I'm staying with an older couple, like they've taken me under their wing when I was in a tight spot or something. I'm going out for the day, so I've just left the house and am walking down the street. I come to a stop sign and three guys in their early twenties step around the corner and start acting like they're going to hit me. One pushes me back and another one steps behind me so I fall back into him. He pushes me forwards again and I lose my balance and hit the ground. Just then a hooded figure comes up from behind the second guy, picks him up and throws him into the other two. They fall over, and then scramble to their feet and run away. I look up to see Altair (of course I did, doesn't everyone dream of that game after playing it? lol) has rescued me. He thrusts out his hand and I take it and let him pull me to my feet. I'm sure there was some sort of conversation here, but since its the first dream of the night I can't much remember it. I just remember wanting to see what was under his hood (So far in the game, I've yet to get a good look at his face, and its driving me nuts, ha ha) He lowers his hood, and he looks like Caspian (Ben Barnes) from the second Narnia Movie. I take him back to the house with the old couple, and they agree to let him stay there because apparently he has no where else to stay while he's in town. I decide that I need to go buy some protective jewelry like this is some sort of real life RPG. I remember being in the store and buying a random pack, then I remember sitting on my bed in this old couples house dumping the contents of my bag in a box to craft my protective jewelry. I notice the room is a very bare room, with grey walls, black linoleum floor, my twin sized bed against the right wall and another bed against the left wall. There's a night stand with a lamp on it between the two beds against the far wall, so you can't reach it from laying in either. When I dump my pouch into the box, all the beads and pendants that fall out are Hello Kitty. I laugh to myself and think I'll feel so tough wearing this :/ but that my daughter would love it. I start to string the pendants and beads onto some wire, and Altair/Caspian walks in and sits down on the bed on the other wall. This establishes to me in the dream that the other bed is his. He's cleaning a blade or something, then my memory skips to being outside. There's snow on the ground, and there's a black Dog that looks like a Husky with me. He has a green eye and a blue eye, and in my dream I think he either is Caspian/Altair or has some sort of strong connection to him. We're playing in the snow, tug of war with a stick, the dog chasing me and knocking me playfully to the ground to lick my face, then making a snow angel while the dog wags it's tail and makes a "tail angel". Then I remember something I needed from inside, and we stop playing to go inside and get it. When I walk into our room, I notice there are all kinds of things tucked under Altair/Caspian's mattress, so much it's poking out all around the bed. I laugh to myself that the things aren't hidden well and as an assassin he should do better! I reach under my own mattress and pull out a substitute Soul Reaper combat pass. I tuck it into my pocket then start walking out of the house. The dog follows me, but when I get down the road a ways, it's no longer there, instead the guy from the "present day" part of assassins creed is following me. (If they've mentioned his name in the game already, I didn't hear it over my loud kids) The road gets rougher and rougher the farther I walk, until it looks like something out of an apocalypse movie. I notice steam coming from a crater in the road, and rush over to it. Inside the crater is water in a huge golden basin, and I immediately recognize it as a "goddess Spring" (from Kid Icarus) The guy behind me is asking me what I'm talking about, and I tell him that the spring will heal us and I climb in fully clothed. From my seat in the spring, I can see a ruined city and wonder if we we will strong enough to stop whatever caused this destruction. This is about the last point I can remember of this dream. Not sure if I woke up then or just forgot the rest. I woke from this dream around 3 am.

Dream Two: I'm at my dead Grandfather's house. There are a lot of other people there whom I don't recognize from real life but my dream self recognized them as "the forum" which forum, I don't know! I lurk on 5 different ones on a daily basis, lol. I'm behind the shed, and I walk out from behind it and I see all kinds of large rectangular things laying on the ground. I recognize these as threads, and start wandering around to read them. I come across one in front of Grandpa's Shop that's titled "How big is your Dragon?" and I see lots of pictures of dragons, but then I also see people are treating it like a big penis joke and everyone's trying to one up each others "dragon" and that the dragons actually look like the Chinese style dragons with long snake like bodies, not European dragons with big round bodies. A man comes up to me and I'm laughing at this thread, so he reads over my shoulder. He tells me he's a mod, and had forgotten all about this thread, he was glad he had noticed someone looking at it so he could reminisce. Then he asks me how many pages the thread was now, and we start to check. We are astounded to find the thread is now 140 pages long. He laughs and says that the thread was a lot more active than he thought! Then he picks it up and starts shaking it like a rug. He tells me he has to keep the forums clean. Then I wake up and it's around 5:30, lol.

Dream Three: My daughter wakes up and wants to go into the living room. I'm still sleepy, so I get up with her to see if Grandma is in the living room. If she is, I plan to let my daughter watch TV in the living room with her and just go back to bed. When I get in the living room, the neighbors daughter is in the living room, as are two other little girls probably around 6 or 7.My grandma says she's babysitting them (my grandma hates those kids, so in hind sight that should have really made me lucid -_-) I accept this, and just tell my daughter to be good for Grandma and go back to bed. I think I woke up around 7:30 with this one.

Dream Four: I'm at a radio Station. There's a really nice DJ, and a really snobby jerk. The nice DJ has long frizzy black hair and a thin sunken face, he's not attractive physically, but his personality more than makes up for it and I find him attractive. The jerk looks like Jonah Hill, lol. The jerk is making some sort of bull shit rules that aren't fair, though I can't remember what they are off the top of my head. Apparently he can get away with it because he's the son of the radio station owner. Everyone is upset, and he's laughing about his total power over the place. I run off and find the nice dj. I'm crying, and he asks what's wrong. I tell him what a jerk the other guy is being, and ask him to do something about it because he has a lot of sway with the station. He doesn't really want to, but another guy walks up then and tells him He'll give him some Peanut Butter and Jelly cookies if he'll help the station out. The guy seems to really like the peanut butter and jelly cookies (and in the dream they're shaped like peanuts and have jelly sandwiched between two of them) because he is swayed by these cookies. We walk back into the room with the jerk DJ, and the nice DJ starts giving a speech about letting shit slide, and how you can't be so strict. Then, he surprises everyone by admitting that he is also the son of the radio station owner and that if his brother doesn't lay off, he will talk to their father and get the whole mess straightened out. Everyone cheers, then people start talking about nice things the radio station can do to help people. One woman stands up, and starts talking about winning a fight against breast cancer, but losing a breast in the process. She asks if the radio station can help her raise the money to buy a prosthesis. The Nice DJ tells her that he makes props and costume pieces for Cosplay, and could easily make her a realistic boob if she'd like. She starts crying tears of happiness, and I wake up and it's about 9.

Dream Five: My husband and I are in a used book store of some sort. There's a table with a lot of older books on it. I see a couple of smaller books on a shelf beside it that are old Sailor Moon merch. One's an art book, the other is some sort of cards set with the sailor scouts as the king/queen/jack/aces/joker. We ask the lady behind the table how much the books are, and she says $90 for the ones on the table. I'm disheartened, but my husband tells her we were asking about the books on the shelf beside the table, and she says those are only between $4-$6. I'm really happy they're so cheap, and my husband buys me both Sailor Moon books. We spend the rest of the dream pouring over them and talking about watching Sailor moon as kids and explaining to the Book seller who Sailor Moon is. Wake up from this one about 10:15.

I decided to include the times I woke up from these as a reference so I can look back and see if there's a pattern to my dream content and when the best time for me to dream is. It also gives a pretty good idea of my sleep pattern. Last night I went to sleep about 1:00 am

Dream One: I'm on a spaceship, I can see the metal doors and walls all around me. I notice Storm troopers (or maybe Clone troops, I'm just now learning the difference -_- and it was a dream) the Hanger starts to open and I think to myself, "Wait a minute, Storm Troopers don't exist, I'm dreaming!" I step through the door and wake up. I'm sitting at my computer and I'm annoyed because I think I've fallen asleep at the computer again (If you read my dream journal yesterday, you'll know I spent all morning dozing off if I sat still too long) I start to pull up dream views to type up the short Star Wars lucid dream, and end up waking up for real instead.

Dream Two: I'm playing Kid Icarus. I'm doing exceptionally well (I like the game, but I really suck at shooting games. I'm more of a rapidly push random buttons to win kind of girl, lol.) and I'm really excited, but then the enemies are flying farther and farther away and Pit's not catching up to them. I think it's ok because they're not attacking me, but it sucks because I can't get hearts without killing the bad guys. Then I hear someone shout behind me. I lower my 3DS and notice I'm on a raft in the middle of the river. There's a cop coming towards me on another raft (but he looks like a guard from Fable II, same face and outfit) and he's telling me I've drifted too far out into the rive and could get hit by a boat. I apologize, explain that I was playing my game not paying attention, and let him tow my raft inland. I drop my 3ds in the shallow water when we get on shore. I'm embarrassed and worried about my 3ds, but it end up working just fine, so I laugh it off and tell the guard that Nintendo products are like tanks. (True story, I bought a DSiXL a couple years ago, and set it on top of the car to buckle the kids in. I forgot to take it off. Down the road it flew off the top of the car at 45 mph and hit the road, popped it open and the game cartridge out. One of the buttons got jammed b/c of the road scraping the plastic on top of it, but as soon as we got the button pried back out, it worked just fine. I love my Xbox and PlayStations, but the Nintendo products I've owned are soooo much more durable!) Anyways, the dream skips to me being inside, but we're at the old house I grew up in and I'm trying to decide if I want to go back out to the lake or if I want to go to the Renaissance Festival. I'm having a touch time trying to decide, but luckily I wake up and don't have to choose after all!

Dream Three: I'm waiting on my husband. We're in a hurry to get some stuff done, but I don't remember what. I think I wanted us to get some stuff in case the power went out during a big storm we were expecting. My husband was taking entirely too long, so I decide to get in the car and go by myself to get a few things then come back to get him. I'm in the car driving to the store, when I come around a curve there's a car in the middle of the road, parked across the road. I don't have time to stop and end up clipping the back of the car causing it and me to spin. I can't get my car to stop (dream physics) so I end up spinning and pushing the break and tearing into this field. I get out when the car finally stops and rush over to the other car. I'm sooooo worried and start yelling, "Is everyone ok?!" There's an old man who seems to have seen the whole thing and he says everyone's going to be ok, there's a doctor on the way. Then I'm trying to apologize for the whole thing, and there girl and guy in the car tell me it's ok, it wasn't my fault, they were the ones parked in the middle of the road. I'm still feeling horrible for hitting them though. The guy is laying on the ground, he seems to have a hurt leg and be really sick. I'm worried that my insurance is going to go way up, that I'm going to get a ticket, and that our cars going to not work anymore. I start crying and decide to call my husband and let him know whats happening, hoping he can make me feel better. I pick up the phone and wake up. I think this was a false awakening or I only partially woke up, because I woke up thinking I was in a different house (the one from my childhood again) but just rolled over and went back to sleep, and this time I woke up for real, and way too freaked out to go back to sleep.

Just wanted to take a moment to write that apparently Benedryl makes me lucid. I've usually avoided the stuff since just one pill makes me stay in that hypnogogic (hynopompic?)state where your half awake and half asleep and it looks like things are in the room with you and you fee like your falling and all that. But I've been having more trouble with seasonal Allergies this year, and have taken it three times over the last two weeks because I wanted to be sure I was well rested without fighting the stuffy nose and pressure. All three times I've taken it, I have been lucid at some point in the night. Now I'm in the delima where part of me wants to take it more often so I can get lucid more often, another part of me feels like that's cheating and I should stop taking it so that when I'm lucid I know I got there on my own.

Didn't dream much last night. I didn't sleep well the first half of the night bc of allergies. I took some Nyquil in hopes of getting some sleep, which pretty much sabotaged any chance of really remembering dreams.


Dream One (Fragment): I'm standing next to a computer desk. There's a little old lady sitting sideways at it, and her cat is looking over her lap at the computer screen. The Cat starts getting really excited because a screen name "CoolKitty57" logs on and it's the cat down the street. Apparently this cat has a thing for the cat down the street. I think that this is so cute, I have to tell my bff about it because she loves cats. I turn to look behind me and there's a tv with golf on.

Dream Two: I am in an SUV going through a drive through. I pay for my food, and pull to the next window, but the lady at the next woman is smoking a cigaret and wearing a ball down. She looks at me for a minute, then says they're closed. I tell her I just paid for my food they can't be closed. She informs me I've missed the second window for the drive through and that I am now at the drive through window for "Lusty Lust" I can only imagine what sort of joint that is I turn around to go find the second drive through window, and it end up being inside the building! I actually drive my SUV into the fast food place to get my food. I think this is the strangest drive through I've ever seen, then wake up.

I had several hypnagogic (I know that can't be spelled right, but firefox isn't giving me an alternative) hallucinations all morning though b/c the nyquil wasn't wearing off fast enough and I couldn't seem to wake up. I'd be sitting at my computer, then suddenly I'm seeing a naked woman or a pirate ship or a zombie and get startled awake, realizing I'd started dozing, ha ha. Planning on getting a nap when my husband gets home, hopefully that'll produce a dream or two of real quality.

Dream One (Fragment): I can remember seeing Skylanders stickers and stuff, and that's about it. Pretty sure I had this dream because we spent the better part of 4 hours going from store to store last night trying to get my kids the last 5 figures they needed to complete their collection. We got lucky and found a few in Walmart and then found the last 2 online at normal prices (I refuse to pay scalper prices!).

Dream Two: I'm walking through an old Victorian house. Everything is in greys and purples, and even the furniture looks old, so everything is super creepy. A girl with long beautiful anime like blond hair walks in. Her hair goes down to her knees and billows like normal hair wouldn't. She makes a fist, but sticks out her pointer and middle finger, then does a fancy flourish with them that involves making a circle and snapping her fingers and saying some word that starts with an I, but I can't remember now what that word was. When she does, the room glows faintly green and her fingers glow greenish as if she drew some of the green energy out of the room and to her. Then a ghost like creature appears (not human, looked more like some random anime Yokai ) and she points to me with her fingers. When she motions to me, the monster starts flying my way. Afraid it will attack me I open the closest door and find myself standing in an old street, similar to the alleys in "From Hell". I see a carriage drive by quickly but ignoring me. Suddenly I think to copy the girls movements and try to summon a ghost yokai of my own to fight back with. I say the word and twist my fingers, but I can't figure out how to snap both fingers at once so I skip that part. A ghost yokai comes out of the ally and flies through me to attack the creature that was just coming up behind me. The two yokai merge and become one, then fade away because their energy is unstable fused. They both want to go after different targets after all. Then, a man in a suit and a top hat with long hair appears, he seems to have come from the front door of the house while I was standing in the side door. He tips his hat at us, and the other girl runs away. He turns to me and asked if I am the one who summoned the creature in the alley. I nod, and tells me I did the spell wrong, but still managed to call a creature strong enough to protect me, that was impressive. I tell him I didn't know what I was doing, I was just copying the other girl when she attacked me, and he tells me that is "Most interesting" then wanders off out of the house, down the street the way the horse and carriage had gone earlier. I follow him, scared to be alone with all these monsters around, but since I don't know him I tail behind him about 20 feet or so. He doesn't seem to notice me at first, but then we are standing in front of a castle, and he asks without even turning around, "Well, will you come in then?" as if he knew I was there the whole time and choose to ignore me. I nod, scared to stand outside by myself, and I follow him inside really so the doors can't close before I make it safely inside. Once inside, everything has a sad and creepy vibe to it. Similar to the house, only instead of being scary, it was just depressing. The man walks into a room, not even bothering to turn on a light, and points to a dresser. He asks me if I can feel anything in the dresser. I'm confused, so he demonstrates the summoning technique and the bed glows green. I try the technique again, this time though I can't even do the flourish so I just say the word and hold my two fingers out. The dresser in front of me glows purple, and has sad and apathetic smiley faces all over it ( ) I'm confused, I thought it was supposed to glow green! I tell the guy as much and that I've never seen things glow purple before, and he tells me neither has he, "Yet here this dresser does. Fascinating, yes?" I nod unable to really form any words at the moment. Then there's a crying man walking in from the hall way, and I think he looks like a prince. He's crying, and asks the man if he has found his sister yet. The man smiles, and says that he is making progress, but the mans sisters reincarnation would not remember him regardless. And that's all I can remember, I know the dream went on, and I woke up thinking I was the sisters reincarnation, but I can not recall the later events

Dream Three (Fragment): I was driving on the interstate and needed to get off at an exit that's been closed for years, but in the dream it was open! I got off the exit just to get trapped in road work (they really are repairing that bridge at least) There wasn't really much detail to go into.

Dream Four: I dreamed that my husband calls me to move my car so he can park his car first in the driveway (we drive my car almost everyday, and his maybe once a week, so we keep his parked up front to avoid playing musical cars every time we have to go somewhere!) I walk outside, and notice I'm in sleep clothes (a tank top and a pair of my husbands boxers) I'm not comfortable walking outside without a bra on because I know some of my adult neighbors are pervs (and not quiet about it either), and there are some teenagers in the neighborhood that always make me uncomfortable. (The kids in the neighborhood used to ask if my dad would let me come out and play, until they found out that what they thought was my dad was really my husband, lol. Then they'd forget that fact and ask again two days later for the first couple months we lived here ) Anyways, my husband is sitting in his car impatiently, so I suck it up and just go move the car. I'm completely covered so it's not that big a deal, I know I'm just making it one. I notice as I'm moving the car there's an old man and a teenage boy moving boxes into a house that's been for sale for ages. I park the car and go inside, but my husband stays outside for who knows what reason. I decide to put some actual clothes on instead of running around in my tank. So for some dumb reason I walk into the kitchen and start taking off my boxers thinking I'm going to put the dirty clothes in the hamper, then go to the bedroom naked. As soon as I get my boxers off, just as I'm grabbing the bottom of my tank, the front door opens! The new teenager is walking into my house uninvited! One of the kids who've been around here since we moved in is following him and he's yelling at him, "Dude! You can't just walk in uninvited!" I'm in complete shock, standing there half naked, for half a second I don't know what to do, but then I dash off to the back of the house and my bedroom and close the door! I change so quickly I can't even remember how I changed or what I put on. Then my bedroom door opens and it's the new kid again. I flip out on him, ask him what his freaking problem is and hasn't he ever heard of fucking privacy?! Then the other kid is in the living room and he shouts to the back, "I tried to stop him! But there is no way I'm going back there knowing your naked!" I thank him for at least having some freaking manners then tell them if they don't get the hell out of my house I'm going to call my husband in here to kick both their asses! They leave when I threaten this, but the thought of my husband kicking anyone's ass is pretty funny. He's nerd to the core, and probably couldn't hurt a fly, lol. I do something in the house in the dream, but can't remember what it is, then I realize my husband still hasn't come inside yet and it's been forever since he got home! I walk outside, and he's sitting in the street chatting with the kids in the neighborhood (the teenagers and the younger kids) I go out to find out what's taking so long, and it turns out they're talking about video games from when I was younger. He asks me if I can give the kids better gaming advice since he was a computer nerd not a gamer. The dream ends with me trying to tell the kids how to beat some boss or something in Majora's Mask. I'm sure this whole dream was sparked by the fact that my husband left his phone in the car last night. When he realized it he was already in his boxers, and I was wearing a nightgown. It was clingy and low cut, but it covered everything and it was like midnight, so I sucked it up and went out to find his phone instead of him going out in his underwear. Turns out the phone was hidden in a compartment I didn't even know my car had, so I spent a good five minutes outside in my nightie trying to find his stupid phone. None of the lights were on in the neighbors houses so I knew everyone was in bed asleep, but I couldn't help feeling like I was naked in public anyways, lol. This dream just rehashed those feelings to make it even more awkward.

Dream ??? (fragment): Just remembered this, it's not in my notes so I'm not sure if it's a forgotten part of another dream or a dream all in it's self, but I can recall being in a parking deck type structure. The whole thing was metal and concrete, but there were no cars, just ramps and speed bumps. I was looking for someone, it felt like a video game where I was clearing out one room at a time of bad guys. The next room was going to have a big bad monster boss in it, and I needed some help from another player to fight it. The other player was hiding underneath one of the parking deck ramps. I was yelling at him that we needed to get a move on, but he was scared and wanted to "prepare". I kept thinking that there was no way to prepare past what we'd already prepared, he was just stalling for time and I was impatient.

Going to do this a bit backwards and write the last dream of the night first since it was my lucid and my memory wasn't great last night. I had migraines and trouble sleeping, so I had aleve and benedryl in my system, generally mucking up any chance I had of remembering the stuff from the first part of the night.

Dream Four: I'm at Walmart with my husband and my daughter. We're looking for that paper for preschoolers with the ABCs printed on it that you trace to learn how to draw your letters. For some reason we're looking in the pharmacy. We keep finding loose single sheets in the bins, and even a book that's been broken and ripped, but we can't find anything new and still in the package. I recall there being some stationary around the Electronics department so I tell my husband we should go back there and look. He grabs my hand and we start walking towards the electronics department. I think he's pulling the buggy with his other hand, then realize I don't hear my daughter and look back to see he's not. I freak out that he left her, and he says he'll go back and get her he's sorry, and to just go ahead and go look for the paper. I agree, and then walk towards electronics. I walk past the toy department and see my son with my mom picking out a toy, but keep walking on a mission. I find the paper, and then my husband and mom both show up with the kids in tow. Then either time skips or I'm missing the events, but the next thing I can remember I'm getting my Daughter out of the car. I'm in a garage, and our car is a black SUV. I set my daughter down and realize somethings off. I don't drive a black SUV, and we don't have a garage. I call out for my husband to get over here quick! He asks what's wrong, and I tell him, "This is a dream! I'm dreaming, or we're dreaming. I'm lucid!" I'm practically jumping with excitement. He shakes his head and just looks totally confused, so I just tell him to watch the kids. For some reason, after my daughter being lost earlier in the dream I just can't stand the idea of walking away from them even though I know they're only dream characters. I run out across the yard and onto the road. I notice that our house isn't even on our road anymore, instead it's about ten minutes away in the fields next to Drum's (a local restaurant). I want to fly, so I try hopping, skipping, and jumping, with no luck. I'm annoyed, but think it's ok, if I can't do one thing, I'll try something else! I think to myself, I'm going to pull a magic wand out of my pocket and then I won't have to worry about things not working, because I'll have magic! But there's nothing in my pockets I get this bright idea that I'm going to go into the house and get my daughter's toy magic wand, that'll work just as well in a dream. I go inside, and into the bedroom. I notice that the room is an exact mirror image of my room in waking life. I find it cool how everything is exactly opposite of usual. Then I feel fuzzy headed and think, "Crap! I'm waking up!" but then when I blink my eyes and "wake up" I realize I'm not in bed, I'm on the floor. I think for a moment that I must have fallen out of bed, but then I realize I can feel carpet on my cheek, and my house has hardwood floors. I'm still dreaming! I get up and the room has made a 3/4 turn shift so everything is the wrong way, but I don't much care, I've already marveled over the room, I just want to go do something cool! I grab the toy magic wand off the bookshelf, then head back outside. My husband is still in the garage with the kids, and I tell him again that I'm dreaming, and he still seems confused. I shrug and go back out to the road. The house is in a different spot again, but I don't pay much attention to it. Instead I decide that my belief in this being a dream is just not strong enough to let me do what I want, so I'm going to prove to myself it's a dream and push it to the extreme. I lay down in the road in front of a Semi. I close my eyes and listen to it getting closer and closer, waiting for it to hit me, but knowing it wouldn't. I look up a few times, and the truck never gets any closer, even though it appears to be moving. I decide to try now to bring something into the dream. Knowing a wand didn't work, I try bringing in Renji from Bleach by visualizing since I had accidentally brought him into my last lucid that way. I figure if I can do it on accident so easily, I shouldn't have any problem doing it on purpose. Fail I get up and go back inside remembering that I was going to get a toy wand earlier. I walk into the room, grab the toy wand off the books shelf, then walk towards the door and start feel fuzzy headed again. CRAP! I wake up, once again on the floor, this time though I know it's another false awakening because I feel for the carpet right away. Unfortunately, I don't have the wand anymore, instead I'm holding one of those Sugar crystal formations on a stick.

I decide to go with it, the dreams jumping around so much, rather than fight it and wake up frustrated I'll just do what I can with what I'm given. I take my magic rock candy outside, but drop it in the grass as soon as I step off the porch. I shrug, and pick it up telling myself, "This is a dream, there's no dirt on this thing!" then I take a bite, so at least I can be happy that I've tasted food for the first time in a lucid if I wake up without having done anything else. It tasted like grass... then when I told myself over and over that no grass was on it because this is a dream, the grass taste went away and it tasted awesome, just like the real thing I take a moment to look at the road again. This time, instead of being in the middle of a pale green and yellow field with a straight road in front of us, the house is sitting on a hill with the darkest lushest grass I've ever seen, and the road zig zags in front of the house. Sort of like an s curve in the road, only with sharp corners instead of curves. I set off down the road to my left, suddenly thinking I've accomplished something cool, I ate in a lucid, so now I'm going to go looking for K since it's been a long time since I've done that or even seen him for sure in a non lucid. I notice some teenage kids in the road across the street from the house, so I start by asking them if they know K and can take me to him. One kid grins all creepy like the Cheshire cat, and he tells me his older brother knows K and could take me to him, I just have to come inside and wait for his brother to get home. His creepy unnatural smile bugs me, so I refuse saying I'll wait outside. He tells me that if I don't go inside his brother can't take me. I tell him thanks, if his brother changes his mind I'll be up the road, but I'm not stupid enough to go inside. Then I start thinking to myself that maybe I could get my husband to take me to him since hes a dream character too and in previous dreams he's known who K was. Then I decide that it's probably not a good idea, seeing as how K's been my love interest in many a dreams, and just because he was friend with K in one dream, doesn't mean his dream character is going to be happy to take his wife to find another man, lol. So instead I keep walking and thinking. Hm, I read a post about controlling your lucids like a video game, and I carrying my 3DS around with me everywhere, maybe I could use that somehow? I pull it out of my pocket with no problems (In waking life, I always carry it in my bag, it's way too big to fit in my pants pockets. I envy how guys pants have so many big pockets to carry stuff in!) then I open it up, and look for a lucid dream game. No luck. But then I realize if I'm in a dream, maybe I can send a message to K with the swap note app and it'll go to whatever electronic devices his dream self may be carrying. As I walk I open up swap note, but don't recognize anyone on my friends list. Then I realize, no wonder, I'm logged in as my daughters Mii! So, I log off and log in as my Mii (you really can't do that on a 3DS, there's no log ins or log outs, lol) then I scroll on my friends list with this idea of what I think K's Mii might look like. I don't see a Mii with the hair I thought his should have on it, but I do see one with a really odd hairstyle that I've never seen on a Mii before and decide that has to be K because it sticks out so much and is so different from all the others. I've only met K in dreams, and he always sticks out. He doesn't feel empty like other Dream Characters, instead he actually has an energy like feel, like real people in real life do. I start to send a message to that Mii, but I find that there's already a message written to him, and assume it's from a previous dream, maybe when I was non lucid I tried this before. The note tells him where I am, but it's the wrong place, so I'm trying to erase it to write the correct place and I can not get it to erase. I'm surprisingly laid back in my dreams, and when it doesn't work the way I want to, I decide to find a way around it. I'm going to send a message to someone else and ask them to forward it to him. I find a random Mii, a female, and send her a message that I'm looking for K and to please have him get in touch with me. Then My 3DS turns into a phone, and it's ringing. I put it up to my ear and it's the girl I had messaged. I'm still walking down the road and am coming up on a house i lived in about 6 years ago, and the girl starts going off on me. She's telling me that I need to leave K alone, that he's working really hard to take care of his family and he's under a lot of stress right now, the last thing he needs is me expecting him to take care of me too. I'm both hurt and pissed by her statements, and I storm towards (and eventually inside) the house I used to live in while I fuss right back at her. I try to defend myself by saying I understand he has his own things to do, and I don't want him to have to take care of me. I just want to see him, and if he's trying to take care of a family, I'd like to help him. Then I hang up on the girl because she just keeps going on and on, and I get the impression that she's trying to get me out of the picture because she's hung up on him too, lol. I'm inside my old house, and I am walking around inside it looking for K. My lucidity is slipping, but I don't notice it, instead I just accept the dream fact that this house is now home to a bunch of squatters with no where else to live. I think that if K is struggling to take care of a family (not sure if this point if we're talking wife and kids family, or brothers and sisters family, lol) that he's likely to be somewhere like this. I walk out the back door, and see some people, but none of them are K so I just wave and keep looking around. I go to the front yard and up the driveway, then I see a black SUV driving up the road. I walk up to the road where the SUV has stopped. A guy with blond hair, but short cut and his face looks failure but is definitely not K, gets out. An older woman walks off the porch and up to the SUV. She starts laying into the guy, telling him he has no right to be here. Somehow K comes up, and I ask if the guys knows him. The woman says she's K's mom, and that the guy is his older brother that she kicked out of the house at the age of 5. I'm shocked she'd do that to her kid, but she starts saying he was always surrounded by women, even pregnant ones, and she was sick of all the hussies around her house. The guy is trying to defend himself saying she's crazy and off her rocker and he did no such thing, she just makes this shit up to justify what a bitch she is. I'm just like, "Wow, age 5?! How is that even possible?!" Then I decide this conversation is none of my business even if they do know K, they're not going to take me to him if they're fighting. I turn around and start walking back down the driveway towards the house hoping I'll find some other clue to K's whereabouts. I notice there are tents going down the driveway, and some people poke their heads out and wave at me. I smile and wave back, but then wake up. I didn't open my eyes and hope to fall back asleep and do a DEILD but I'm too excited about the fact that I was lucid and actually did stuff that I couldn't fall back asleep. I tried getting up and going to the bathroom then laying back down, no luck. I spent about 45 minutes trying to fall back asleep before giving up and coming in here to type all that out, lol.

Dream Three: I dreamed that I'm watching from third person as a man (whom I understand in the dream to be myself) is shot by another man in the back and killed. Then I spend most of the dream watching as the other man claims that I was trying to kill him so he killed me first. Some people can see my ghost and I tell them what really happened, but then some police see my ghost and try to arrest me. I wonder what it's like for a ghost in jail, because a ghost has no life to end a life sentence, I'd be there for eternity, and I don't like that idea.

Dream Two: My notes say Skylanders, so I must have dreamed of that game.

Dream One: My notes say "Another" which is an Anime on Crunchy Roll right now. I just finished it yesterday, and it was REALLY good but since it was Horror and pretty disturbing, I'm glad I didn't remember this dream after resting the whole night, lol. I figured I'd dream of it because it was on my mind a lot and I wanted to re-watch it and see all the little Clues I missed the first time around.