non-lucid

Dream One (Fragments): I'm driving home on the interstate, watching the trees fly past me, marveling at how pretty and twisted they are. Then, the scene shifts completely and I'm watching this guy mowing lawns, he's on his cell phone calling other clients at the same time. Someone doesn't want him to come mow this week, so he starts raving about how if they don't cut their grass the rabid squirrels will invade their yard and they will be doomed! Then the scene changed again, and I', watching my friend T, who's gay, talk about working in a porn shop. I find it really odd that he's working in a place full of naked women. He's so smart he could do better, and being gay, it's not like the naked chic's perk is doing him any good.

Dream Two (Fragments): The earliest point I can remember of this dream, I'm pulling my shirt up and looking at these nasty red lines on my sides that are going up from my hips to right below my rib cage. At first I assume they are stretch marks, but then I remember I don't have stretchmarks that look like this. Stretch marks are thin silver lines, and mine are all horizontal wrapping around my belly, these are vertical and at least a half inch thick. They look more like popped blisters, pink in the center and redder and redder as you get to the edge. They don't hurt at least. Felling like this is odd, I turn to the closest person, my husband, and ask what they are and what happened to me to get them. He refuses to tell me. I wander off in search of someone who will, and I walk into a room with a bed. Rini from Sailor Moon (Chibi Usa if you watch the subs I guess) is on the bed, and there's a man trying to inject her with something. I stop him, and I can't remember if I killed him or just wounded him badly and scared him off. I turn back to the bd, and Rini is acting really mean and evil. She sets a doll on the bed, and walks out of the room. I turn to look at the doll, and it looks like it moved! I get closer, and the doll isn't a doll, it's a baby with red pig tails. I wonder if it's Chibi Chibi from the episodes of sailor moon that didn't get dubbed, but I don't know because I've never seen them. How I failed to become lucid during this weird dream I don't know. I clearly knew something wasn't right with the lines, and I knew that Rini and Chibi Chibi were characters from Sailor Moon. I was aware of so much wrong, and yet didn't think to reality check. At least I can pinpoint what caused the second half of this dream. My daughter <3 s Sailor Moon, and we were watching the episodes where Rini was kidnapped and turned into Wicked Lady yesterday.

Dream Three: I'm on the beach with my husband and two kids. My aunt is there too, playing with the kids. It's time to go home, so my husband and I gather up all our stuff. Our arms are full, and the kids are dragging their feet, so my aunt tells us to take our stuff to the car and not to wait up, she can handle the kids fine on her own. I'm cool with this because she wrangled me and my cousins pretty well when I was a kid! When I load up everything in the car, which turns out to be a blue SUV, I climb inside to wait in the shade. my husband starts the car and starts to leave. I fuss at him to wait, but he insists he's just moving the SUV closer so they don't have to walk as far. He ends up moving it farther away, and I'm mad because there's no way they're going to find the car here! I get out and start wandering around trying to find them, but the parking lot and beach are way different now. The parking lot is HUGE and there's a hotel between it and the beach, and the hotel is HUGE. I spend a great deal of time wandering, making this dream drag out but giving me little to write about. I see a lot of cosplayers around, and realize that this must be some sort of anime convention too. I wander to a point where they're doing construction. I can see the beach on the other side, but I can't get past the construction stuff, so I go inside the hotel beside it. I trip a few times. I try to push through crowds. At some point I wander into an indoor pool area. A creepy redneck guy in a red plaid shirt is looking at me funny and I'm alone. I turn around and leave that room as fast as I can. I get a text message from an ex-boyfriend from like 7 years ago, and he's telling me there's an anime convention in his hotel at the beach. I tell him I already know about the con, I'm there now. Finally I make it out of the hotel and see my kids on the beach with my aunt. There's a guy dressed as a clown there too, and he's got my daughter in his lap making silly face at her. My aunt is glad I'm there, she says the kids were terrified when they couldn't find us! I explain to her what happened, and that I have no idea where my husband and the car are. The last couple minutes of the dream, we're wandering as a group through the hotel trying to find our way back to the car.

I was awake late last night, unable to fall asleep. When I finally did fall asleep, I slept really hard. Waking up only twice when I normally wake up at least 4 times a night. I'm definitely taking a nap today!

No doubt, my brain was in over drive making up for only having two dreams the night before, because this morning I woke up with ten. Thank goodness most of them are fragments and there's not as much typing to do!

Dream One (Fragment): I'm looking at a bead on a string. The bead is one of those plastic beads that children's necklaces are made of with the many "sides" instead of being smooth so it looks like a real sparkling jewel but it's not. The bead is a dark but iridescent purple, the string is a pale purple, almost white. There's a knot on one end of the string to keep the bead on, and it looks like you could add a ton more beads. Not sure the significance, but this was definitely not a rehash of the previous day.

Dream Two: I'm inside a bright orange asteroid, there's a hole above and below me, to my left and right, and in front of and behind me. The colors of the asteroid and the space beyond it reminds me of the first Kingdom Hearts. I look around, and see K... but he's wearing Riku's clothes! Their hair is pretty similar, now that I think about it, lol. Then I note that I am Sora. My hair can look like his sometimes when I wake up, so no surprise I dream I'm him and not, say Kairi or Aqua... or any other GIRL from the game, ha ha. We hear a noise and K/Riku looks around, as do I. Then TINY blue gumi ships, maybe the size of a fist, fly into the asteroid in a chain like formation. They loop in and out of the holes and all around, until they make a shape that reminds me of a clover. K starts to shoot randomly at them, but they're moving everytime he hits one to fill in that space, so he misses more than he hits. I put my hand on his gun and push it down as I tell him to relax, they're not attacking us yet, and there's a trick to hitting them all. He nods and hands me the gun, and says something that I can't remember now but gave me the feeling like He trusted me and He knew I could handle this one on my own. I notice the gun reminds me of my son's toy laser guns, and briefly think it should be a Keyblade, but I can't remember why I think it should be a keyblade so I just aim it up. (I need to make my brain think REALITY CHECK when that happens, lol. Odd stuff doesn't happen often in RL for me though, so I rarely get to RC over something odd, therefor can't seem to practice enough to engrave this in my brain) I aim for the Gumi ships where the chain had started entering the asteroid. I fire one shot. It knocks out a ship, and the chain shifts one space backwards to fill in that one's hole. No New ships appear. I feel like this is an obviously easy puzzle, and I've solved it and K was either not paying attention or this is just not his kind of video game. I start shooting the spot where the first ship will fall in line, and take out each ship as it moves in place to fill in the gap. Shoot, wait for fill in, shoot, wait for fill in. I notice the chain is getting shorter and shorter, and the gumi ships are too busy correcting their formation to shoot. It can't get much easier than this, lol.

Dream Three: I am swimming in the pool we had in my childhood home with my mom. It's been a while since I've gone swimming, and I find it so relaxing and peaceful. I swim to the bottom of the deep end, and lay back on the floor, careful not to get close to the white filter in the bottom. I am looking up and watching the sun filter down through the pool, and the trees and clouds above the surface seem to dance in the waves. I am completely calm and happy, and feel like I can breathe underwater. I stay that way for a long while, enjoying the view. Until my mom swims above me breaking my view. I push off the bottom and shoot tot he top of the water. I break the surface quickly. My mom is behind me, she says, "what were you doing?! You had me scared to death you were going to drown!" I started to apologize, but she interrupts me and says, "If you wanted to enjoy it under the water so much, you should have told me!" She pushes me underwater, and I'm struggling to get back to the surface. My lungs are burning, but she's holding me down and drowning me! I wake up, thankfully.

Dream Four (Fragment): I am at the river, climbing on the pier. We have a two level pier that my grandpa built years ago for us to jump and dive off from. It actually has a third level that's about 15 feet high, but it's only a tiny platform about 3 feet wide and doesn't count as it's own level to me, lol. I'm climbing the outside of it for some reason, not the ladder, but using the X braces as hand and foot holds. I remember seeing some of my cousins hanging out on the pier as I climbed, but no one said anything to me that I can remember.

Dream Five (Fragment): We're on a road on a hill, over looking the river. My husband parks our vehicle (and SUV in this dream) in the middle of the road, blocking both lanes. I tell him to move it, and he says we're at the lake. I tell him we can't park in the middle of the road! Then I look out and this doesn't look like the road where the cabin is. My husband insists that it is, and that the water is just low. Sure enough, when I go down to the river, the water has receded some ten feet, and none of the piers of the houses on the shore are even in the water anymore. This actually has happened before in RL on several occasions through out my life. I look back at shore, and confirm to myself the buildings are different, we are NOT at my family's cabin. My husband won't listen and keeps insisting we are. I decide forget him, I'm going to walk there from here! I climb back up to the road and stat walking, in what I HOPE is the right direction based on how the river is flowing.

Dream Six (Fragment): We're at the river again. This time in the right cabin. We're gathering things, maybe packing to go home?

Dream Seven: We're at my Grandpa's house. We're gathering things, and I'm thinking to myself he won't be there because he's dead... so this must have taken place after he died last year. I'm waiting for my family to show up, and I remember my dad saying that he won't go over there unless other family is there because he doesn't want anyone to accuse him of stealing something since the family fought like jackals after Grandpa died. We're just getting things that were ours in the first place, so I don't think anyone's going to get mad. Suddenly I see this table set up and these girls handing out fabric to make prom dresses. I ignore it, and it goes away just as quickly as it showed up, and I'm back at Grandpa's house. I don't think twice about the whole thing (until I woke up and thought, another good chance to reality check! Dang it!) then my aunt comes in with a tea platter and offers us tea (another wtf scenario here... that side of the family might drink sweet tea out of a solo cup, but generally they're mt dew straight from the can people... to think of them offering me tea on a silver tea platter is just crazy! We're redneck, through and through -_- )

Dream Eight: My husband is driving, and we're on a country road with fields all around us. We reach a stop sign, and my husband turns left, but ends up turning into someone's driveway and not on the road. I get out of the car and start walking because my husband can't figure out where he's going. I walk to a house and go inside, like I belong there. My uncle whom I never talk to and never really got along with is there. He's being nice though, and asks us about the new floor in the bathroom. I'm telling him the Floor looks awesome, and the neighbors friend did an amazing job! We talk about my mom for a minute too, then it's getting late and I need to go. My notes here say "back, clean" but I can't remember what that means... I think maybe I made it back to the car and cleaned something? Who knows, lol.

Dream Nine: I'm in JC Penny with my mom. We're looking at fabric to recover my couches. I pick a fabric I like, but when they go to unravel the fabric, there's less than a foot of it, just enough to cover the roll. Then I pick another fabric, and it's the same issue! I'm getting annoyed, they shouldn't have the fabric on the rolls if there's not enough to recover with! I ask the lady if they can order more, and she says no. So my mom asks her what fabrics do they have enough of. As she's asking, this man walks up and tells me he's going to recover his couch and wants to know how much fabric I'm getting so he can decide how much he needs. I tell him my couch is a sectional, one side it probably 5 feet long, the other is probably six feet long, and I like to have more than necessary, so I'm getting 14 feet of fabric. If I have any left over I'm going to make little covers for the arms of the couches so when my kids paw at the arms of the couches and get them dirty, I can just take it off and wash it! (Dream logic the messiest part of my couches are the seats, not the arms... and 14 feet of fabric to cover two couches? no freaking way, lol) The man thanks me, and the lady comes over and points out two ugly blue patterns, and says they're the only ones with 14 feet or more on the rolls. I think there is no way I'm putting those ugly patterns on my couch and I'm going somewhere else! (come to think of it, of all the weird things they do, I'm pretty sure JC Penny doesn't actually recover upholstry in the first place!) Then we go to the check out counter to find my Grandma and kids. She's buying them yo yos (the same yo yos my husband bought them last night -_-) and I'm talking about the hideous patterns in the fabric aisle. Then I notice a really pretty display of Faerie dresses. They look like evening gown and prom dresses with fake faerie wings attached. I absolutely LOVE them, but wonder when out side of Anime Conventions, would I even be able to wear them?! I tell myself nope, I can't buy them. Then we're at the register and my daughter drops her Yo Yo on the floor. It hits this fake river than runs under the counter... but it really MOVES, it's like some sort of clear plastic over blue rocks, and looks like a river but it can be stepped on... but it moves so you gotta be careful if you step on it! The yoyo hits the "river" and gets dragged under the counter. The cashier bends down and picks it up, rings it up and hands it back to us. I take the kids away from the fake river before it can happen again, and notice, there's a dark area with like twenty different TV screens in various sizes, and some couches and such around it like a little lobby... and there's all Anime and video game stuff on the screens. I leave the kids with my mom and walk over to check it out. I see one TV advertising a t shirt with Misaki from "Another" on it and think that's cool, my husband loved that show. Then I see a trailer for a new Zelda game. They're calling it "Link and Groose's Great Adventure" and I'm thinking to myself, NO FREAKING WAY! They've spent too much time on fan sites, obviously! But I'm excited anyways, because I love Zelda games... at least big console ones for the most part... toon Link is just not cool w/ me. Then I realize wait, at the point I'm in with Skyward Sword, Groose has run off to find Zelda on the surface, I don't know yet if he lives or dies... CRAP! This game means he lives, this is spoiling it for me! I need to finish that game -_- I start to leave, when something I see the game on the shelf! I'm like, Woah! The games been out already? and this is the first I've heard of it?! How?! I grab it, and start back towards the register and a girl stops me and asks me if they make a book of this game, because it looks cool but she doesn't play video games. I tell her there will probably be a manga sooner or later, there is one for most of the other Zelda Games. Then I take a picture of the game with my phone and text it to my husband, THEN I go to check out, but end up waking up first

Dream Ten: I'm at a big black fence, praying. I don't pray, lol. But I am, and then I get up and my husband stands up as well, and somehow the dream lets me know I was praying for Japan after the disaster last year. Ooo, okay, cool. But then I'm in Japan, and there's an announcement over some loudspeakers in the street or something, that America prayed for them, so they're going to pray for America. I'm like ok, I'm going to go watch, because it'll be fun. I wonder if they'll pray at a shrine? I follow some people and we walk past an SUV that my husband is sitting in. I knock on the window and tell him to come on, lets go pray for America with Japan! lol He joins me, and the people get on a bus. On the bus this Japanese lady starts talking about hospitals, and asks me if I've ever been in one. I say yeah, and tell she asks why, so I tell her it was to give birth, and how we were there for a long time with my second child (I think it was 4 or 5 days!) because she had jaundice. The bus stops, and we get off... at the same black fence as the first part of the dream! lol Everyone gets on their knees to pray, and I'm like, wow... total let down. And I wake up!

Dream ??? (Fragment): And while typing all those, I remembered this one! I was playing hide and seek with some girls dressed in My Little Pony Cosplay. We got caught by some teachers, and I pretended to be cleaning up the littered playground so I wouldn't get in trouble. They didn't connect me with the other girls because I wasn't wearing a pony costume!

Dream One (Fragment): I'm in a car, passenger seat. There's a guy driving but I never took a good look at him. He's talking about a demon he's slain, or going to slay. I'm uneasy and scared of this demon slaying, worried things will go bad. The guy talks like he's done it time and time again and will have no problem doing it again and again. He's not worried at all.

Dream Two: I'm in a bathroom looking in a mirror. There's a guy behind me, and I am pretty sure he's got long blond hair in the beginning like K. He's got his arms over my shoulders, not hugging me so much as just keeping me close. I'm not sure why I'm looking into the mirror like a zombie or something, but I feel really zoned out and spacy and can't remember much of this beginning part. There's a door to our right, the guy sighs loudly and annoyed, like he doesn't want to leave but he knows he has to. He walks through the door, and turns left. I follow him, though I'm not sure why. (I never got lucid, but most of the dream I was very aware that I felt only half able to make decisions... usually in dreams I'm so sucked in I don't realize that I'm foggy brained or anything. This one, I felt like I was only half there watching a dream, and just never connected that, Yeah, I AM watching a dream) we walk down a short hallway lines with white cork board and the kind of board you see in shops and such with the little metal pegs holding up merchandise. The hallway opens up to a rather large (for a small business) room, with shelves and aisles. The other end of the room is nothing but windows and two glass doors. I realize we're inside some sort of shop. There are probably five other guys in the room already, they're taking merchandise off of pallets and stocking the shelves with it. I want to help, but I feel like I'd be more in the way since I have no clue where anything goes. A middle aged man with short graying hair walks up behind me, and asks me how I'm doing. I tell him I am well, and ask how he is in return. He tells me he'll be doing a lot better when we get this stock on the shelves, then he barks at the guys that School shopping season is starting soon, and we need to get this stuff on the shelves faster! He mentions that this is a paper goods store (I guess that means papers, notebooks, etc?) and that "we won't make any money if we don't have anything out!" I stand in an aisle and watch a bit longer, then I notice a commotion outside. A few guys are already out there, and there's this woman who's come up to them and though I can't hear through the windows and door, I can see she's like falling all over them and pushing them and stuff. They look like they're trying to be polite, but the woman is just falling all over like she's drunk or something and its evident they're getting no work done with her around. Suddenly she just goes limp and crumples to the ground. One of the guys goes over to her to help her, and someone opens the door and I can suddenly hear what's going on. The guy is offering her some water and asking her if he can take her back to her house or family. The woman refuses the water, and starts talking about the sun but it's the middle of the night in the dream. She stands back up and smacks the poor guy who tried to help help her, telling him she's fine and then babbling on about the sun again. It's apparent to me that something is wrong with her, maybe she's on drugs or something. I turn away because I feel uncomfortable watching her, like I'm invading her privacy or embarrassing her by seeing her like that, and that in turn makes me feel embarrassed. But then I hear her yelling like she's hurt or something, so I turn back around just in time to see her stumbling backwards off the curb and hitting the ground. For a moment, I'm stunned and don't know what to do, then I think to myself we have to help her and call 911. But before I can get out the door, my mom is walking up from the parking lot and starts ordering people around. She tells one guy to get a glass of water, and another to call an ambulance, then lady is waking up and my mom is helping her stand. I turn and walk back to the back room. I'm glad someone's there to help the lady, but I don't want to be around my mom, for some reason I know that she's a bad omen even though I don't realize I'm dreaming. (Mom always turns my dreams into nightmares. It's not that we don't get along, we generally do, but she's like a leech at times. Always asking for money and expecting us to put ourselves in a hard place to help her. This translates into a negative force in my dreams) I go back to the back room, and my guy and a girl are already back there. I don't feel jealous though, I feel like she's a sister or something. They're arguing about something, but when I walk in they stop so I don't know what. My guy looks at me and smiles sadly, then tells me that he has some work left to do in the back room, and I should go rest. I nod, but I just can't muster the awareness to find words to speak. Then I notice that I'm wearing a super short night gown (chemise I think is the word?) and feel embarrassed that I was wandering around in that showing my butt to the world, lol. I go through a different door than the one I came in, and my dresser is in that room. I open a drawer and take out my Tinkerbell pajama pants. I pull them on as I walk back into the back room. My guy has the cabinets under the sink open and he's bent over looking in the sink. I don't know what he's doing, but I'm too fuzzy to care. I walk into the hall, and notice that instead of the store being there, it's a living room now, with a view of a grassy yard and tree. The girl from the back room is standing watching out the windows. Outside three boys from the store are doing various things in the yard. I think the shady spot under the tree looks like a good place to rest. I walk out and start to lay down, but no sooner do I close my head than a pair of boots steps up next to me. They're very nice looking boots, like something someone in a horse show in an English saddle might wear. I'm suddenly excited, these must be my guys boots, he's not busy after all! But when I sit up and look up, it's one of the neighbors kids. He's trying to talk to me about something, but I tell him I can't talk right now, I'm too tired and I just need to rest. I stand up and walk back inside. I lay down in the middle of the floor of this living room. I notice my boobs are practically falling out of my chemise, but I just don't care I'm sleepy. I briefly wonder if my guy's going to be mad if they spill out when I fall asleep, but then decide he'd probably enjoy the view I close my heavy eyes, and shift my feet, they feel heavy and there's a thump sound. I open my eyes again to see I have on jeans and mary jane style shoes. I click my feet once more, thinking it's funny that I have shoes on, but I can't figure out why it's funny (because I'm dreaming! Awake I get the irony, lol) Then I close my eyes again. I hear someone enter the room, and open my eyes. There's a guy there who I recognize as the guy from before, but he looks completely different. Suddenly he looks like that Ray guy who does =3 (my husband watches that, and the dude always seems to find his way into my dreams after he's watched an episode. I don't even watch it! I just hear it over my music, and I'm cursed, lol) He comes over and sits down on the floor next to me. He jokes, telling me if I was so sleepy I had to sleep on the floor he could have found a bed for me. I shrug and say the floor is fine, then my eye lids are falling and I'm drifting back into sleep. He gently lifts my shoulders to put my head in his lap. My daughter walks up to us a moment later carrying a Hidden Pictures book. She wants to do the puzzles, but I can't get my eyes open. The guy strokes my hair with one hand and tells me to rest, then pulls my daughter into his lap beside my head and tells her, "Mommy is really tired right now, can I play with you until she wakes up?" My daughter must have said yes because after some time in blackness, I hear them talking about the book and what they're looking for. Then I wake up for real, 3 hours early and with a migraine.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm shopping at what seems like a yard sale under a huge tent. The drama club is hosting it, and apparently all my friends made their own out of high school drama club when we graduated, and just didn't tell me about it. Or maybe they told me and I didn't join because I had too much other stuff to do, the dream never really specified. I want to buy from them and help them out, but at the same time I feel so uncomfortable. I haven't seen or talked to most of them in seven years. I constantly get that deer in the headlights feeling when I see someone I haven't spoken to in a while, hoping they won't be mad that I don't have time to hang out anymore. I don't remember much from this dream though as I didn't care much to take notes. I can remember talking to my friend B, who was always dating older guys and getting in trouble for doing raunchy things at school. I also remember seeing a blond guy smiling at me who I didn't remember being in Drama Club, and thinking to myself that I should talk to him, but I was already so stressed by seeing all these people from forever ago that I don't want to make myself more uncomfortable and go over there. Looking back, it could have been K and I should have done it! lol My friend A comes in, and I think she whisks me out of the tent where I'm more comfortable but I don't remember where we went or what we did after that.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm in an old building. someone's showing me the walls of the building, tell him that hundreds of years ago the walls were covered in a beautiful mural, and that about two hundred years ago someone painted over them with white paint during the remodeling. They were showing me where the old paint is showing through in some places. Then they somehow made the old paint pop all the way through, so I could see the mural. They were saying they wanted to restore the mural to it's former glory or something. The picture kind of reminded me of the last supper, only it was a very simple version... like pre-renaissance I guess... where instead of having life like people they had egg shaped heads with gold halos around them and no shadowing/details.

Dream Three (False Awakening): I dreamed that the phone rang. I woke up in the house I currently live in, and was going to just let it keep ringing because I never wake up to answer the phone, I let the answering machine get it. When the answering machine picks up, my uncle is leaving a message that they have decided to replace my couins' wii, and they're asking how to sync the controllers. I get up and go into the kitchen, grab the phone, and tell him I'm sorry I was asleep and to just give me a second to look at my Wii because I can't remember off the top of my head how to do it. Few things are important enough to get me out of bed, but video games fall in that category It didn't occur to me at the time that my cousins would be in school at that time of morning -_- I checked the wii, and told my uncle where the sync buttons were, but it turns out, he's not having trouble syncing the wii motes, the game is asking him to push the menu button and he doesn't know where the menu button is. I explain to him that the "home menu" button is shaped like a house, and it's all good, he's got his problem solved! Before he hangs up I ask him what game they're going to be playing, because if it's Mario Kart I can wake my kids up and let them all play online together. He tells me it's a Nartuo game they got in their happy meals. I'm thinking, "No way! They're putting wii games in happy meals now?! What fast food place?" My uncle doesn't remember because he was at work when my aunt took them, so I decide to check online. I say good bye, start up my computer and start looking. I had been to Mcdonalds yesterday and they had Green Lantern and Squinkees toys, so I knew it wasn't them. I checked Burger King first b/c they had those Kinectimals toys for the Xbox the year before last. Not them. I remember that Sonic toys are usually Sonic Tater Tot themed, so I don't bother looking them up. I'm thinking I should check Taco Bell first, because they had My Sims for the computer a couple years back. Then I think I should check chicfilla because they had sports computer games a couple months ago. I write these two down so I won't forget, then start to look them up. I wake up for real before the first page can load, and I'm really confused. I really thought I had gotten up and done all this, and could not figure out how I got back in bed.

I had more dreams than this, but I just didn't feel like waking up and taking notes. I know I need to get this apathy under control because if I don't I'm going to lose my recall. Hopefully things in waking life will calm down enough to give me time to care about my dream life, lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm in the Tulpa's thread here on dream views, I've been lurking there reading about them because it sounds interesting but not like something I have the concentration for. Instead of being a thread though, it's a chat room, and instead of being online, it's an actual room and people are actually talking face to face. It's hard to lurk when people can see you and are expecting you to say something, lol.

Dream Two: I'm in an under ground cavern, like man made cavern. Reminds me of Moria or that giant underground sewer or whatever in Japan. I'm with a man, an older Male, and in the dream I actually think to myself that he's kind of like Coram to my Allana (Song of the Lioness Quartet by Tamera Pierce, I haven't read those books in ages so Maybe I got the names wrong?) He's kind of like my body guard and mentor I guess. He says something about Princesses of Heart, and I remembered in my dream seeing a Disney Princess Wall Sticker set that said princess at heart and misread it as Princess OF heart (which is an important phrase from the first Kingdom Hearts) but despite remembering my real life I didn't stop and say, "Hey! I'm dreaming!" -_- So then we're coming out of the catacombs and the landscape outside the catacombs is a valley with sheer cliffs to my left and right. at the end of the Valley there are guards, guarding a large wooden gate. One of the medieval looking soldiers runs up to me and is happy I'm alive, but tells me the fortress is under attack and about to fall. They're going to hold the enemy off long enough that I can hide, so I need to hurry. I am rushed through the wooden gate and start climbing a tower. I see the soldiers falling one by one to arrows, then there's only me left, climbing this huge tower (not stairs, but a ladder) and this guy in red shooting at me. His first arrow misses barely. The second doesn't look like it will miss, and I wake up just as I see it in front of my eyes. Half a second later and it'd have gone through my head, lol.

Dream Three: I'm in the pasture, watching the neighbors horses. (We have our pasture opened to the neighbors pasture so his horses can roam it because we have no animals of our own and it's a waste not to use it.) The neighbors kid that I babysit is there too, so I think that I'm babysitting him in the dream. I notice theres a black horse, and I can clearly see the print of a saddle on it's back. Like someone rode it hard, then just took the saddle out and turned the horse out to pasture. I turned to the neighbors kid and asked him, "Did you turn that horse out hot?" (and apparently in the dream this means, did you put him in the pasture after riding without grooming him, lol) The kid tells me no at first, and I call him on his lie because of the saddle mark, and he confesses and asks that I don't tell his dad. I tell him to go get me the grooming tools, and he'd better believe his dad would hear about it, it's bad for the horse! He brings me the grooming tools, and I try to groom the horse, but it's very people shy around me. It keeps getting close, just to get wide eyes and run off. I try to put a lead line on it, and it won't hold still, dancing backwards and side to side as if it's very nervous. Finally I give up and decide that I'll tell the neighbor when he gets home and he'll be able to do it since the horse knows him so well and doesn't know me at all. The neighbors kid has disappeared but I don't care. A dog comes up, and it shifts colors throughout the rest of the dream from Black to brown and white spotted. I start petting the dog, and it leans against my legs, then rolls over. So I sit down in the dirt and start petting him (her? I never checked, lol) but the dog rolls back over and starts pushing the curry comb with his nose. I take it as a clue he wants me to groom him like the horse, so I start moving the curry comb across his back in small circles and he's happy about it. I start to move the comb back over his rum to get the back above his tail and he gets mad and growls, so I move the comb back to his shoulders, and he's happy again. He rolls over on his side so I can brush his sides too. I wake up after a few minutes of brushing.

Dream Four: I'm walking to my Aunt Jenny's house to give her a message. She actually lives 45 minutes away, there's no way I could actually walk there. I don't know exactly how to get there, so I'm looking it up on on phone on google maps. I walk up a big hill behind a Walmart, then I cut through a yard and I'm at her house! She's worried about my grandma since I came alone, but I tell her grandma is at work and not to worry. I borrow her phone to call a friend and let them know I'm not going to hang out today, then I leave. I cut back across the neighbors yard, and then I'm going back down the hill behind the Walmart when I think for some reason my husbands car should be parked there but it's not! My husband is suddenly with me, and I'm freaking out because I see a sign that says No Parking, violators will be towed at the owners expense. I freak out knowing the car has been towed. My husband takes me up a small grassy hill and to the police station where I think I'm going to get my car back. I try to argue with the lady that My car had ran out of gas and I had to walk to the gas station to get gas and couldn't help that my car died right there, but she told me if was still my fault for letting the car run out of gas and being irresponsible. The rest of the dream is spent crying and arguing trying to get my husbands car back.

Dream Five (Fragment): I'm walking through the toy departments at various stores looking for the Fashion Style Ponies I don't have (Apple Jack, and even that Fake Derpy b/c my little girl freaking LOVES Derpy pony!) I'm annoyed though because all the toys are in patterns. there's shelves of red boxes, then shelves of white boxes, and then red again, and so forth and so on. I'm mad because the pony boxes are clear and purple, and they have no place on the shelves for them, so no stores have them. At some point I see a pedestal with a thank you card on it and for some stupid reason I just walk up and rip it in half then run off.

Dream Six (Fragment): I'm in the old house in Holly Springs, the one we haven't lived in for seven or so years... only instead of a closet between two bedrooms it's a bathroom with a door to both back bedrooms. I'm in the living room and my daughter is crying that she's pooped her pants. I Take her back to the bathroom and start changing her. I can hear my Husband's family in the living room telling my husband he needs to help me because I'm not capable of doing it myself. I'm mad because I change her pants 90% of the time around here and getting him to do it is like pulling teeth so I don't bother. I don't want him coming back and giving me any help because the way they put it was insulting. I sneak into the other bedroom to watch them talk about me being incompetent and all the things that I can't do. I wake up after just a few seconds of ease dropping though.

Dream Seven (Fragment): I'm looking at a black void like room. There's a silver oval, and inside that silver circle is a grey human form. Someone says something about space, not like outer space, but space as in not having enough room. Then there's a click like a light being turned on or something, and the human body shape starts to slowly fade as the skeleton inside the body starts glow, slowly growing brighter until all I can see if the skeleton inside this big silver oval. As creepy as it sounds, I don't feel scared, in fact I feel the opposite. Like the body it's self was strange and I didn't know what to think of it, but when it was replaced by a skeleton I suddenly felt calm and very safe and like I was with a good friend or familiar place, not with some random stranger or in some random strange place. This is one of the few symbolic dreams that I can actually say I know why I had it. I don't deal well with people, very shy and just socially awkward. My best friend I've known since 6th grade, and I really don't talk to anyone else outside my immediate family except on the internet, lol. Now is where I start sounding crazy While I don't get along well with people, I am pretty sensitive to energies, especially spirits. Family and family friends actually seek my advice before buying houses and such to be sure there's no negative energy or spirits hanging around. I also tend to find myself with energies hanging around pretty often. I don't like see or hear ghosts or anything, I just feel them, if that makes sense. While I am completely uncomfortable with living people, I do enjoy being around spirits, they're good company in the sense I know I'm not alone, but I don't have to worry about what I say or do because they can't tease me or laugh at me (or if they can I don't hear them, lol) or whatever. They're just there. Pretty sure this dream, and the uncomfortableness I felt with the human body shape the the security and comfort I felt when the body became a skeleton has something to do with this. Not sure what the comment about space could have been about though, as I'm not sure what the exact comment was... just that it said something about having space.

Still not much sleep thanks to waking life stress. Oh well.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm playing My Little Pony... not sure now if it was a computer game or paper dolls or what. I had a pony, and I could choose to put her in any one of four scenes, and each scene came with different outfits I could put on her.

Dream Two (Fragment): I watched in third person as Sailor Moon made her boyfriend breakfast, but it was gross and she cried because he told her as much.

Dream Three: My mom hired someone to come to my house and give me Karate lessons. She apparently lived in my house too. I wasn't happy about her hiring someone without asking me if I even wanted lessons or not, and decided to be rebellious about her treating me like a kid. I know, what a childish thing to do, lol. I started out being pretty cold and distant to the instructor, telling him I didn't want lessons and he could just go home. But he tells me he has to give me lessons to get paid, and he needs the money. The he asks if I could just give it a shot, not because mom's making me do it, but because he wants to teach me. He doesn't look much older than me, early thirties at the most, but more than likely mid to late twenties. I decide to humor him because I can understand needing money and it's not his fault mom hired him without asking me. By the end of the lesson I find myself really happy that I took the lesson, and I feel proud like I have learned something though I can't tell what. I started the dream feeling angry, but by the end I'm happy and almost a little sad when I wake up because I am rarely that happy and proud of myself in waking life.

Dream Four (Fragment): Someone's crying that their kid fell down a manhole in the park. A crowd gathers and lifts the man hole cover. Instead of a kid climbing out though, a bunch of people on the backs of grey birds like those in Skyloft (from The Legend of Zelda Skyward Sword) come flying out of the man hole. I watch in amazement as one after another they come out of the ground and soar into the sky. They just kept coming, there must have been ten or fifteen of them at least.

Dream One: I'm walking across my aunts yard to my Grandpa's house (same Grandpa's house pig guy tried to start a fire the other day and I blew up at K) I see a group of five people hanging out on and around the porch. The porch is like it was when I was a kid, open to the outside (they made it a closed in porch when Grandpa's cancer got bad) I get closer and see that the people are the music duo Blood on the Dance Floor, and two guys and a chic that must be their fans or friends or something. They say hey, and even though they ask my name and introduce themselves, they treat me like I belong in the conversation just as much as everyone else. I tell them it's cool to meet them, some of their music isn't too bad. I don't know their names, but the cuter, chubbier one offers to give me an autograph, but I don't have any of their cds, I download their music w/ DRM rights from my ISP's music program. They say that's cool, and just give me a cd with an autograph. Cool. Then I turn around and see a mirror. I'm wearing a tunic, belt, and green hat like Link form the Legend of Zelda. I'm really confused by this. Someone else shows up then in matching Link cosplay. I'm asking "wait, why am I in links clothes?" and every laughs and says I must be too stoned because I've been wearing the cosplay the whole time. I keep trying to tell them I've never done drugs before and never plan on it, but they are all just laughing and goofing off. That's not the end, but it's all I can remember.

Dream Two: I'm at the house my mom lives in. It's a HUGE house, and in waking life she wants my husband and I and my Grandmother to move in with us. There's a male presence, he doesn't say anything as far as I can remember, he's just there watching over me. It's got to be Vesta. I spent some time last asking that he come give me some advice since I've given up on being lucid while I'm so stressed. I can't even remember to do reality checks with everything else in my brain :/ Anyways, I'm thinking about moving there and how maybe I made the wrong choice telling my husband no. Then I try to do some magic, I want to do something with a bracelet that will help me with my dreaming. I find I can't draw power or anything. I feel like my magic is blocked or drained away by the place (not surprising as my mom is a self proclaimed psychic vampire :/ ) and I'm even more sure this option is just wrong. Things are good where we are now. I'd just gotten away from mom's stress when I had the dreams that led me to finding dream views, but then the stress started again and the dreams that helped me find interesting things stopped. If I move then I won't feel like I have any power anymore, because her and the stress and problems she creates for me and my family will only be worse. There's a reason why I avoid seeing and talking to her even though she's only twenty minutes away. Upon realizing this in the dream, I wake up.

Warning, begin rant. Another night of stress and barely being able to sleep. I'm up five hour early again. Still arguing with my husband about moving, with no end in sight. Plus, I'm tacking on the added stress of realizing that dreaming has become almost meaningless for me. I don't know when it started, probably around November/December when we started having outside stress from my family and my nightmares starring my mom began... But my dreaming has shifted from being a deeper, more enlightening and all together exciting experience to feeling shallow and pointless. I should have taken note of this earlier, but looking back at my book of discovery the last few days has reminded me how my dreams used to leave me waking up feeling mystified, and yet enlightened. These days they feel like little band aids to patch all the problems I have in life, and not at all spiritual or enlightening like they did before. I rarely see K or Vesta, and when I do they're merely trying to calm me down and make me feel better. There are no more dreams that feel like lessons or tell me what to look for when I wake up. I rarely do more than mundane superficial crap in any of my dreams anymore. Even Lucid dreaming, which I had originally hoped would help me find some of the answers I'm searching for isn't working. The few times I have been lucid, I haven't actually looked for any of the answers I intended to find. I get excited and run around like a smitten puppy looking for K instead of even thinking of the answers I want to find. I know this stress will pass eventually, but right now I feel like I'm on the wrong track and need to turn around and get back on track. /Rant

"We are the star called" If anyone has any idea where I may have heard that phrase to have it enter my dream, let me know. I can not for the life of me figure out what it meant, but it felt like it was really important to me in this dream! What was my subconscious trying to tell me?! As in my other dreams from the past, this was before I learned about Lucid dreaming and knew what sleep paralysis was caused by and everything. It's also written a bit different from my normal dreams because I just copy pasted it straight from my book of discovery, changing only the names (making them the first initial) for privacy sake.

Wednesday, June 1st, 2011

This morning I had a dream that I can barely remember but that felt important. I remember starting out in a busy harbor type place with lots of ramps, large steel containers and wooden crates of all sizes and colors. There are also a lot of ropes around hanging from railings and what not. There are a lot of people running around as well, but they are all in their mid twenties or younger, most are still children. I make my way up a 20 foot ramp in front of me, and as I do I pass a smiling girl who must be around 10. She’s a bit chubby and has dishwater brown straight hair. She smiles at me, then passes by me. I lose sight of her for a moment and turn to see where she went, but she’s gone. At the top of the ramp I make a sharp left to double back over a second ramp that runs in the opposite direction of the one I just came up to yet another level. The air around me seems distorted a bit, like there’s an invisible person there and I can sense rather than see them. My senses tell me it’s the smiling girl following me because she is curious about me. At the top of the second ramp there is a rope stretched out across the big walkway between the crates and containers. On the other side of the rope there are a bunch of people gathered in a group. A blond guy whose face I can not make out but whose hair looks like K is in the group at the end of the rope. He turns and smiles up at me, and slides a yellow bar up the rope so that I can zip line down to the crates they are on top of. I ride the zip line down and he puts his arm around my shoulder. He starts showing me around this small hangout, but I can’t remember much from that part of the dream. Then he takes me back to the other side and a few dozen feet right of the first ramp. There are a lot of people in their early to mid twenties grouped there talking. He takes me to stand in front of them and he puts his arms around me, leans over and whispers in my ear something like, “You are one of us, we are the Star Called (Or maybe it was Star Fall?)” Then he starts to kiss my neck and I feel woozy and slightly confused before I can hear myself thinking, “Why am I letting him kiss me? I probably shouldn’t let him do that, C(my husband) would be mad.” And I wake up. This dream was not accompanied by the usual sleep paralysis I have when I see K, and I never saw his face clearly. While I won’t call this a K dream, I can’t rule it out because the paralysis has been less and less every time I’ve dreamed of him, so it is possible that I have finally adjusted enough not to get paralyzed anymore. The whole dream felt very vivid and real, and when I woke up I felt a very strong urge to google something, but I didn’t know what. It was like I needed to learn something important, but I can’t remember what I needed to learn about.

So, anyone have any similar dreams? Anyone have any clue what Star called might be? Is it something I heard in a movie or book and just forgot? Or does it actually have some sort of real meaning? I still feel restless when I think back on this dream, like I missed something important.

So I didn't sleep much last night. I went to bed around 3 am, and woke up around 9. I'm too stressed to sleep b/c we've got some big decisions to make about our house. All my dreams were the fuzzy early night dreams and I can barely remember anything. That's ok though, the My Little Pony wedding comes on in half an hour, so I don't want to spend forever typing anyways.

Dream Fragment One: I'm talking to someone. I don't remember who, or what they said, but it really helped me. I actually had an argument with my husband last night over possibly moving, and went to bed feeling like the Grinch that stole my husbands Christmas. Luckily, this dream left me feeling like I made the right decision and everything was going to be better in time. I can bet it was either K or Vesta I saw last night, I kind of wish I remembered who, lol.

Dream Fragment Two: My dad was talking to me about losing weight

Dream Fragment Three: I was telling someone that I worked in a "stripper store" and not to tell my husbands church. I've never worked in a stripper store, lol. but I read an article before bed about a local strip joint getting busted for drugs, so I'm sure that's where that came from.

Dream Fragment Four: My dad was talking to me about weight loss.

Dream Fragment Five: I was shopping for something for my best friend A, or maybe I was looking for her in a store.

Dream Fragment Six: I was going to demo a video game coming out soon. But the demo was set up in someone's living room.

I'm going to post another important dream from the past later since these are so short

I had the first "can't get back to sleep until I check the whole freaking house to make sure it's safe" nightmare of the year last night. It kind of messed up my sleep for the whole morning afterwards, but I got some short and fuzzy dreams, so here they are.

Dream One: I'm in a hospital. Someone's just had a baby, and I'm celebrating with a bunch of people (family and people I don't know) by having drinks in the hallway. Yup. Alcohol in the hospital, I'm pretty sure that's illegal in the waking world or something, lol.

Dream Two: I'm on a boat in the middle of a small river through a city. It reminds me of when I went to Vegas forever ago and saw people riding the gondolas in front of that hotel, the Versaille? I can't remember what hotel it was, lol. Anyways, in the dream I'm on the phone with a friend, C, and I see a GIANT billboard advertising a new Otome game. It was like a dating sim game for girls, and the possible love interests in the game were actual anime characters like Sebastian from Black Butler and Setsuna from Gundam 00. I remember getting all excited, and telling my friend the game looked AWESOME! She agrees it sounds great, even though that friend doesn't watch anime or play video games o.O I go on about how I'm not a fan of Setsuna, and I wonder if it'll have any other Gundam pilots in it? But the game was worth buying to hear Sebastian's voice seducing you anyways.

Dream Three (Nightmare): I'm walking out of the kitchen behind my son when I notice something move under his feet. It's a Copperhead, IN THE HOUSE! I try to tell my son to stop before he steps on it, but he doesn't listen and comes millimeters from stepping on it. I rush forwards and grab him and stand him up on a chair, but the snake slithers under the chair after him. I tell him not to move, thinking the snake can't climb the chair I guess, and run to the basement to get a shovel to cut the things head off because there's no way I'm letting a poisonous snake who knows how to get in my house free so he can come back in again! (Non poisonous, it wouldn't have been a big deal. We actually have a HUGE black snake living in our attic/basement and I refuse to let my husband kill him because he's not hurting anything.) I can't find a shovel, but I see a ho, so I grab that and run upstairs. My kid has gotten off the chair, and I'm freaking out at him that he could have been bit, then ask him if he knows where the snake went. He points to my feet, and I'm almost standing on it! I jump, then start trying to hit it with my ho. It tried to escape in the basement, but I get him on the stairs. Then he transforms into my cat Lilly, and my cat Lilly runs up at the same time so there's two Lillys and I can't tell which is the snake. I wake up TERRIFIED. I actually made my husband check the house for copperheads when he got up for work before I could fall back asleep! The rest of my dreams reflect this anxiety as well.

Dream Four: I'm trying to park my car in our driveway in the nighttime. I notice my neighbors black dog is laying in the driveway, and he won't move. The dog is supposed to be in a dog kennel anyways, so I get out of my car and try to call the dog to put him in his dog lot for the neighbor. The dog runs off, and I get frustrated. I call him a few more times, and the neighbor apparently heard me and sent his kid out to catch his dog. Just as the kid is coming up to help I hear a noise in the woods. At first I think it's the dog, but then I see the moon reflecting off an eye, and I know it's too tall to be the dog, it's got to be a dear. I get in the car and holler at the neighbors kid to watch out for the deer, he wouldn't want to get trampled if it gets spooked. As soon as I say this, the deer starts flat out attacking the kid. It's a doe, so there are no horns, but it keeps headbutting the kid knocking him down and trampling him! I back the car up and shine the headlights at the deer, this causes it to get scared and run away. I check the neighbors kid, he's bleeding, but he says he's ok. I tell him he needs to go get a rabies shot because I don't think sane deer would attack a person like that. Then I park my car and wake up when I get out again.

Dream Five: I'm talking to my husband about my son starting Kindergarten this year. Apparently he starts in a week, and his doctors appointment for his kindergarten shots is on the first day of school. I'm flipping out that he can't miss his first day of school to get his shots, we need to get the shots this week and see if the doctors office will just let us come in for shots really quick and do the actual check up part on a another day. My husband tells me that won't work because my son needs X-rays this year? I wake up, momentarily freaking out, then realizing it's only April and school won't start until August, we got time

Dream Six: I'm in the bedroom in my dead grandparents house where both my grandma died and my grandpa took his own life. Its a pretty creepy place to think about now that I'm awake, but in the dream I had no negative feelings about it. I'm sitting next to the bed, Ciel Phantomhive from Black Butler is on my left, and K is to my right. There's a guy who looks like the pig riding guy from the early Bleach Episodes there as well, sitting across from me at the bed. Ciel is ordering Pig guy to do something, and pig guy gets up and stomps off. I hear muttering coming from the hallways, and get up to see what it's about. K and Ciel are playing poker and talking about some sort of plot against us, but I'm not worried. I trust K to handle it all, and don't feel like I really have the experience needed to keep us safe but he probably does. In the hallway, I see pig man is lighting a bunch of candles and sitting them right under papers that will catch fire and burn really easily. He's muttering something like, "Burn in hell you little demons (devils?)" I yell out at him, "Hey, stop!"and he drops his book of matches and a lit candle and runs away. I go through trying to blow out all the candles before they can start a fire. K and Ciel come out of the bedroom and K is saying, "Well Phantomhive, it looks like you've been betrayed by your own man." to which Ciel replies that he knew it would happen, and we'd use the escaped traitor to lead our enemies to us where we can catch them in our own trap. I'm freaking out that we've got to get out of here before he tried to set fire to the outside. I'm trying to gather things that are important to me, extra shoes, a stuffed horse my grandfather gave to me, a pillow pet for my kids to lay their heads on (doesn't cross my mind they're not here in the dream, lol) and I'm trying to find more of the kids stuff. K just sits at the kitchen table playing cards with Ciel again. I'm getting upset, I feel like we need to leave now! K tells me to just relax, everything's under control. But I just can't relax, I'm freaking out! K asks me where I think we're going to escape to, that we have no where to go. I tell him we could go to his parents house, and he sighs and says Ok, if I'm so upset we can go there if it'll make me feel better. He sighs and throws his cards down on the table obviously agitated and I take this as a personal attack because I'm so on edge. I start shouting at him, "Just because you're an undying doesn't mean the rest of us can't die you know! You may be happy sitting here and being burnt or blown up because you'll regenerate, but I won't!" (An Undying is from the book series Kieli, I have often thought the main character Harvey reminds me of K because they both have that quiet and unintentionally harsh around people personality. Apparently this comparison was bleeding over into my dreams to make him fit in with all the anime characters, lol) He looks at me kind of stunned and confused by this outburst, and then my son wakes me up because he's worked the fitted sheet off his bed turning in his sleep. I'm glad that K showed up in this dream, because it put me at ease enough that my last dream was not a nightmare and I woke up in a good mood after all.

Dream Seven: I'm inside of a store, at first I thought it was Walmart. I'm looking at video games, checking out what they have for the PSP because I'm really enjoying Hakuoki and wander if there are any other visual novels for the PSP. A store clerk comes up, and asks if he can help me find anything. I tell him I'm just looking, thanks. Then he asks me what my name is, so I actually turn and look at him instead of half ignoring him (yeah I know, ignoring people is a bad habbit... but my social skills are so inept it's usually a lot better than trying to talk to them and getting overly stressed out, lol) I notice he's the guy from best buy the other night. I remember that My husband was the one who was trying to talk to the guy and ask him about some video game stuff, but the guy kept looking at me when he was talking to my husband. I was very flattered at the time, especially since he looked a lot like a guy I had a crush on in College, just with shorter hair. I even wondered if he was the same guy, but his name tag had a different name on it so I was pretty sure it wasn't. Anyways, in the dream I tell him my name and he smiles really big and cutely, and I smile back. Then I decide to ask him if he knows of any other visual novels on the psp. He has no clue what I'm talking about and apologizes like crazy. I tell him it's ok, and grab a game off the shelf and tell him I'll just try that game. The I checkout and leave. I feel like I'm being watched, and I turn around to see him and someone else watching me out the stores glass windows as I leave. I turn around and smile and wave to let them know they're being too obvious, then get in the car where my husband and kids are waiting. My daughter wakes me up this time, and it's time to get up.


And of course, because the copperhead dream had me so freaked out, I wouldn't let the kids get up until I could check the house again myself, then told them to watch where they step. We've not had a snake in the main part of the house before, but since we've had mice come up from the basement and down from the attic before, I know it's possible, it just hasn't happened yet.

The only common theme in these dreams was my best friend. Not complaining though, she lives several states away so it's always nice to hang out with her, even if she is just a dc Other than that, there's not a whole lot to say about these dreams.

Dream One: I'm in a blimp with my husband and son. The captain says we're making good time. My family decide to go up some stairs to a viewing platform and look out at the world below us. When we reach the top, there's some sort of turbulence. We start to go back down the stairs to our seat, but the whole thing is shaking and kicking, like it's being bumped or tossed about. We all drop to our knees on the stairs, but my little boy is three steps down from me because he was taking off quickly without holding my hand (as usual, he never sticks close by like he should, ha ha). The Blimp heaves forwards, and the steps are tilted back so the bottom of the stairs is higher than the top of the stairs. I'm so scared my little boy is going to fall off the steps and I won't be able to catch him. I wake myself up when I start to reach out for him and smack my hand on the wall, lol.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm in the house I used to live in years ago. I feel like I'm a business owner of some sort. I've signed a contract with a man who is supposed to be building something for me, and the contracts says he can use one of my employees to help him and he temporarily becomes their boss. I don't specify what employe he can take though, and he takes my best friend A. I'm mad at first because she's my best employe and I need her organizational and office skills because I lack those skills myself and I trust her with my paper work. But He reminds me of the contract and I have no choice. Then Later I find her in her underwear in the garage. I'm flipping out, she looks upset. The guy had taken her to the garage, and told her to strip that he was going to have a Dr examine her before she could work for him because if she got hurt doing manual labor he could be sued. The guy then walked out and left here there. Thinking a dr would be in she had done as requested, but no one had shown up for hours, she was like an abandoned puppy. I was so mad, I started yelling at the man and telling him to take his stupid contract and shove it where the sun don't shine. He won't treat my best friend like that! I feel guilty for even making the contract in the first place, I didn't know this would happen, but I still feel like it's my fault.

Dream Three: I'm the owner of a grocery store. Or maybe I'm opening one? I'm renovating the building, and making it two floors instead of just one. I'm doing inventory when I feel like I should turn around. A blond guy with short hair is standing there. He smiles crookedly but good naturally at me. He seems familiar, so my dream self decides he's the guy who fixed my shower the other day and must be here to install the escalators. He goes along with what I tell him, and I keep thinking to myself, "Damn, he's so cute!" I'm really busy with my inventory though, so I take him to one of the escalators and tell him here it is, I will bring someone to help him out and answer any questions he has. I go a few aisles up, and i find my best friend A. This time she's in a wheel chair, but in the dream it seems normal? I tell her the guy has shown up, and that he's gorgeous! I ask her if she'll supervise him for me and answer any questions he has. She agrees to, and I feel a bit jealous. I wish we could both stand there and watch him work! lol I push her chair to the escalator, and the installation guy is on the floor drilling something into the floor. I can't help admiring his rear A takes a deep breath like she didn't expect him to be that cute (I tend to like guys with long dark hair, like Johnny Depp, lol. Blondes are rarely my thing... K being one of the very few exceptions, and now I guess this DC can add himself to my short list of hot blond DCs. A likes the cute, boyish men like Heath Ledger, Elijah Wood and Daniel Radcliff. Our tastes don't match well at all, ha ha) Anyways, she introduces herself, and he nods at her and looks up at me. I tell him I have to finish my inventory, and I'll be back to check on progress later. I go back to an aisle of canned goods, and do some boring inventory. After a little bit, I go back to check on them. A is on the floor now, the wheel chair is gone. She's looking so lady like and sophisticated despite sitting on the floor. As usual, I'm blown away by how she can look girly and flirty even in the most ungirly places, ha ha. She's tucking some hair behind her ear and talking and giggling as if she's really interested in what the escalator guy is doing and thinks he's so fun and entertaining. I think Damn, she's fast! I never had a chance, but in the dream I feel like she's more in the position of accepting hot guys attention than I am. Like she's single and I'm not I guess. The guy looks up and smiles at me, my heart practically melts. I catch myself and clear my throat like I have something important to say. All I end up saying though is, "I'm just making sure you guys are getting along ok and don't need anything." HG (lets just call him hot guy for the rest of this, lol) says everything is going wonderfully and he'll be done in no time, and thanks me for having one of my employees answer his questions. I smile, but before I can say anything A chimes in that she's having so much fun talking to him and then goes on to say something to both of us about how she'd like to hang out with him if she got off work early. Kind of a hint to me to let her go, and a hint to him that she's interested I guess. He shakes his head, looks at her softly and says, "That would be great, but I'm not really ready for another..." then as he says, "Relationship" he's turning his head towards me, and the looking me right in the eyes he says, "yet." I can feel my cheeks getting hot and I say, "Oh my cheese! I forgot!" and turn around and act like I had forgotten to do something important and I really had to do it right away. I can hear him asking quizzically "Oh my CHEESE?" and A goes into telling him the story of how we were up really late years and years ago chatting on AIM and stopped making any coherent sense in our conversation and someone said OMC instead of OMG, and then the other decided the C must stand for cheese, and thus our inside joke, "Oh My Cheese!" was born. I only hear half of this story though because I'm all fluttery and practically jumping down the aisle to get away from the situation. I don't handle flirting well, ha ha. I do some more inventory, then I hear a noise outside. So I get up and start to walk out the front door of the store. The parking lot is still just a big square of dirt, and there's an odd oak tree towering in the center of it like it belongs there. There's a white truck parked in the shade of the tree, and HG is bending over the bed of the truck grabbing some more tools. I can't help checking him out again. He straightens up, and turns around. He looks at me, and smiles, then drops whatever he had back into his truck and walks purposely my way. I'm standing in the door way, and he gets only a foot or so away, almost creepily close, but I'm not bothered because I'm so attracted to him and he still feels so familiar. I remember his right arm being up, either like he was propping himself on my doorway or like he had put it behind his head. He asks me if I'd like to go somewhere with him, but I get flustered again, and I tell him I'm sorry I've got work to do, and duck back inside. I can hear him sigh heavily like he's annoyed that I keep blowing him off. I find A, and ask her if she'll come with me for a minute, and she agrees because she says HG is getting some tools anyways. We end up at a gas station that around here we call "The Country Market" (but I think every small town in this area has a "Country Market" and none of them are actually affiliated with one another, lol) and then there's snow on the ground. Then this dude who looks like Ray Williams Johnson wants to race sleds. A and I get in a sled and pass him easily. He gets up and curses a bunch, then I wake up. Just a quick side note, the HG character has me pretty confused. I got the same "I need to turn around, there's something very important and familiar here" feeling I get when K comes into my dreams... but where as K's presence tends to make me feel like I'm tingling along the back of my neck and down my back, this HG only made me feel that tingly feeling around my mid back. I'm sure this sounds crazy, tingling? But every one in real life has a different tingle pattern, and normal DCs just don't for whatever reason. It's like they're empty of tingles, ha ha. I'm curious if this DC is of the same variety of K, or even if it could be K with a hair cut and I just only noticed the back tingling and not the neck tingling because I was flustered. I probably won't know unless I either see this DC again, or see K looking like normal in a dream again, lol.

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm on a wooden trailer being pulled by horses. It's a mobile stage though. A and I are sitting below the actual stage platform. A is holding a white and grey cat, maybe it's her cat mittens? There's a man in a magicians outfit, complete with cape. It's the most beautiful color black cloth I've ever seen. It's obviously black, but it shimmers in different colors like mother of pearl or opal... only it's cloth. The guy has long dark hair, and even a mustache. He's got a black dog with him. A is afraid his dog is going to attack her cat, but the man assures us his dog is well behaved. He climbs on the stage platform with his dog and starts to pull something out of his hat. I wake up.

Dream Five (Fragment): My husband and I are looking for some place. We're trying to remember the number to call for information on a cell phone. Like 411 or something, only my husband swears in the dream it's 919. I tell him we should just google it since our phones have internet and google is free.

I didn't nap yesterday, and I took Benedryl before bed to ensure I slept. I also tried a couple of new things. I told myself several times during the day, "I am the dreamer, I have control of my dreams." as DreamProfesser had suggested. I also added a new line to my "nightly plan" that I'm working on. The first line read "I will be lucid tonight. When I am lucid I will..." and then went on to my plans to try to meet up with K this time and ask him some of the questions I've been wanting to ask. It all sort of worked, I was lucid twice! But, they were the short early dreams that never last more than a moment anyways. By the time the longer dreams came around, I was already exhausted from being lucid during the early ones, and I had no success, lol.

Dream One: I'm floating in the air above some Victorian style houses. It's night time, and snowing. I am repeating to myself, "I am the dreamer, I have control of my dreams. I will be lucid tonight." then I realize, wait a minute... is this a dream?! And it was I have enough time to right myself as I was floating on my back, and look around to really admire the scenery. I notice the houses have elongated windows that are glowing yellow, but the light is steady like a light bulb not flickering like a candle which is what I'd have expected in a Victorian house. Then I wake up because my daughter's having a nightmare and crying out in her sleep.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm not sure about much with this one. all I can remember of it was stopping in the dream and saying, "This is a dream!" then I woke up instantly. First time getting lucid has actually woken me up, lol. I was so sleepy I rolled over to try and DEILD and ended up forgetting pretty much everything about the dream :/ lol

Dream Three: This one makes absolutely no sense, even to me and I dreamed it! It starts out I'm getting out of a broken down suv, I'm in a snowy area. There are zombies coming up this snowy hill, and I panic because my ride is broken. Then I turn to my right and see a giant door in the mountain, like Moria(?) in Lord of the Rings. There's a woman signaling me to come inside and hurry, before the zombies can get me! I make it inside. I find out this room is some sort of zombie survival test. We have to do something to prepare ourselves to move onto the next level. I don't remember what we do, but I remember this room looks like a living room. The zombies are busting down the door, so we move on to the next level. The next level looks like a kitchen! I'm about to close the door between levels when the "zombies" break through and they're not zombies at all! They're little kids, like preschool/kindergarten sized kids. I decide we can't run from them, we have to take care of them. The girl tells me that I can't take care of them, it's a test. I have to act like they're zombies, and ignore them while we fortify ourselves. I ignore her and try to tell the kids to do something. It soon becomes apparent that the kids are little hellions! They bite me and bad mouth me, and I finally give up. I move on to the next level shutting the door behind me. This kitchen level has candy sitting on the shelf, and I'm hungry, so I grab a piece. My brother is suddenly there, and he steals the bag of candy from me. That's cool, I got a piece so I don't need the whole bag. I ask him about his girl friend, and he tells me he doesn't know, he doesn't love her anymore. I'm in complete shock because they make such a great couple and I would love to have her as a sister, ha ha. Then I walk to the table and there's a baby basket on the table. The kind like they show moses floating down the river in on the history channel when they do those bible history shows. It's light brown, and lines with a white liner, but it's filled with blood! Gross! My brother morphs into his girlfriend (hows that not make me lucid? lol) and she/he sniffs the basket of blood and tell me to smell it! I'm like, "no thanks!" But it ends up getting bumped and some of the blood spills on the table and we have to clean it up. Then we notice there's a window between the kitchen level and living room level, and the "zombies" (kids) are crawling through it! We run to the next level. But instead of ending up in the next level, I'm in a commercial for some gold colored minivan. There are windows all around with leafy golden vines etched in them, and this gold minivan is sitting on one of those spinning car platforms. There's a beautiful middle aged woman talking about the car. She's down dark skin, and she's standing in front of this golden light that makes it look like she is glowing gold. The light makes her black hair look like it's made of gold on the tips. She looked like someone had softly dusted her outline with gold. I'm not sure how to describe how awesome she looked, just that I was standing there in a awe for a bit just admiring this effect the light was creating. Then this portly white man walks up with all this ugly gaudy jewelry and purple robes like he was some sort of rich guy. He starts saying he hates the mini van, but he wants this glass and the doors. He severely annoys me, so I leave and find myself in a cubicle sort of area. That's weird, and boring. I leave that room, and I'm back in the Zombie Kitchen. Or rather in a hallway that didn't exist before, looking INTO the kitchen. There's also a small room to the side where the "zombie" children are in a class now, learning like normal preschool/kindergarteners would be. The teachers holding up a book, it all looks so normal now. Then everything flashes, and it's like I'm watching tv. The screen zooms out, and there are creepily life like Skylanders on top of a water fall with some humans. The narrator is saying they're the last hope against the zombie invasion. Then the dream cuts to a parking lot. My mom, Grandma, son and I are all about to get in the car.. only instead of a car it's my mom's tiny truck. There's only 3 seats. Someone has to ride in the back, and it's going to be me because Grandma's too old to climb up there, my son's too young, and my mom has to drive because I can't drive a stick shift. I'm scared mom will wreck and I'll get crushed. I wake up, thankfully, lol.

Dream Four: This one still has me feeling a creeper, lol. It starts off with my mom and grandma and I looking for a hotel. We end up going on a toll road, but the toll booths are closed. I feel like I'm going to get a ticket because I didn't stop, but the booths were closed so I don't. We find the hotel, and it's green, but there is a prettier rainbow colored one I'd almost rather go to, but our reservations are for the green one. Inside the hotel though, it's my husband, my two kids and me, as well as some other random little boy. Then my uncle and his wife and their two sons are there too. I'm watching the little kids play in the hall way, but then they start jumping and running and screaming and I tell them that if they don't quiet down they will kick us out of the hotel. The kids whine about this, but stop. Then I get a phone call in our room. I answer it, and it's the front desk man telling me that he has to report on all guests who stay in his hotel. I'm like, "Ok? it's just us and our kids, and we've done nothing wrong?" Then he tells me that one of my four kids is wanted by the government and they are on their way to pick him up because of his report. I hang up and I'm flipping out, apparently I don't realize I only have 2 kids, ha ha. It turns out, my fourth kid is a teenager?! and we've taken him in because he had no where else to go, but he's wanted on hacking charges. I walk out into the hallway where my husband is talking to a man in military uniform and our "son" is standing there with him. I ask the military man if we can't just pay for the damages he caused, and the military man says no, that he will have to work off his debt. I try pulling the, "but he's just a minor!" card, but then the kid tells me he turned 18 the month before. I'm mad, and I stomp my foot and tell the man he is not taking one of my kids away! Then I hug my "son" and tell him I am so, so, so sorry that we choose this hotel to stay at. That if I had known this would happen I would have never come there. He seems really apathetic, and it feels pretty awkward because my "son" is taller than me, so I just walk out of the hall and leave it to my husband to handle. I'm a mess, blubbering like a baby, lol. I walk outside, but feel like I'm doing no good and restless. I walk back inside and fuss at the desk man (who funny enough looks like George Lopez). "My son's getting taken away because of you! By a man in the military no less! What if they send him to war? What if he dies because you turned him in?! I am never staying in your crappy hotel again!" I walk back inside, and my aunt is talking loudly to someone about how she "didn't know we'd taken in a criminal, and if she had she'd have never come on this trip with us! How dangerous! Her kids could have been killed!" I snap and tell her that he isn't a murdered, he just got mixed up in some hacking crap a few years back and he didn't realize he was doing any wrong until the wrong was done. Then I equate it to downloading illegally or something. Then a cousin from a different side of the family starts telling me that no one is buying my sad mother act, that everyone knows I'm secretly in love with that guy and that's the reason we took him in and acted like he was our kid. Then I'm still bawling and go outside again, but this time so does our "son". I try to get my space by walking away behind the building but he follows me. He tells me quickly behind the building that he knows I didn't mean to get him caught and that everything's going to be ok, to just not worry, but I'm really upset. I realize I'm mostly feeling guilty because if I had chosen to stay at the rainbow hotel this would have never happened. I walk back around to the front of the building remembering what my cousin had just accused me of, and not wanting to be in a position that might make that look true. My husband pulls up in a white car and tells us we need to go home to get the kids things so he can take them with him to the military. Then my husband starts telling me in the car that the military has found several of the "kids" teeth, and they were dated and he's a lot older than he's trying to play off. He says the kid is almost 26, making him older than me, and that they've also found some of his bones as well as bones of missing persons (basically, dream logic translated this to implying that when he'd break a bone or something he'd cut someone else's limb off and replaces his own with it because it'd heal faster that way?) I tell my husband there's no way he'd do that, he may have gotten mixed in with a bad crowd, but he wasn't a bad person. My husband accuses me of being too gullible. I turn and look back at the "son" who tells me not to worry about it, everything will work out but doesn't say anything about those accusations. We get out of the car, and we're at a house with a pool! We have to climb through the pool to get into the house though (weird! lol) and I turn to the guy who's been deceiving us this whole time, and I tell him to make sure he survives, and not to forget he was supposed to go to college, get a good job, and build a mcmansion (yes, I called it McMansion, lmao) for the whole family to live in. He smiles and says Yeah. Then my real kids wake me up! I look back at the dream and feel pretty gross, lol.

This is a fun dream I had last year. It's important to me because the colors I saw were amazing, and I've often hoped to have another dream that replicates this ability. I think it would be useful for identifying what things bother me, and maybe why.

Sunday, May 8th, 2011 – Mothers Day

The only dream I can remember was a very vivid and intriguing one. I dreamed that I went to the grocery store and when I walked in I felt a sick fear, and left immediately. I am pretty sure I was shaking and fumbling through the parking lot to my car. A guy maybe a little bit older than me but whose face I couldn’t make out follows me out of the store and asks me if I am alright. I said, “Yeah, I am fine” to which he replies, “Are you spiritually inclined?” I step back, closer to my car and reply, “Sometimes I can sense things, but I can’t see anything without help.” He reaches out and grabs my arm pulling me close to him and says, “You can see things with help? Let me help you.” And when he pulls me close he pressed my back against him and wraps his arms around my chest, then bends over so his head is against the left side of mine, bent to look down, with his eyes closed. I close my eyes as well, and he tells me to open them. When I do, all the people in the parking lot suddenly look like I am seeing them through heat vision. It’s amazing. Everyone has a small red spot in the center of their chests, then the color fades to mostly yellow all over with thin borders of orange or green around the outside. Some have more green than yellow, but they all have a small red center, then lots of yellows, greens, and oranges. When I look down at my own arm it is yellow, then a slight green, then a blue glow seems to radiate from behind it. I ask the man how he could tell I was spiritually inclined and he says the blue glow gave it away. Then he lets go of me, grabs my hand, and leads me back to the grocery store. He stops just inside the door, then takes me into his arms so “see” once more. This time there are a few people who are all red and no green, yellow, or orange. He tells me the people in all red are going to do something very bad, and they must be the reason the store triggered my psychic alarms. I start trembling again because the store is so overwhelming, so we go back out to the car and I notice the sun is low in the sky like it is about to set. I ask the man if he would show me more because it is something I have never seen or known before. The man tells me that my spirit guide should have already taught me all of this, but when I shake my head he asks where I am going next. I tell him I have a few more stores to hit and ask is he’d like to come with me. He agrees and we get in the car and drive. I don’t remember much about the car ride, just that while at the stop light in front of Chili’s he puts his hands on either side of my head then closes his eyes and suddenly I can see trees and grass in a sideburn glowing all orange and red with yellow borders. He tells me the pollution from all the cars and things are making them the angry, hurt color. Then we stop at the mall and the sun set has dropped below the horizon and everything is in twilight. We sit on the grass near the mall entrance and then he takes the liberty of lying down and putting his head in my lap. He tells me he is happy to find someone to share his gift with. Then he starts telling me more things about the colors that I thought were so amazing, but now I can not remember what they were. I said something about how amazing it all is, and he looks up at me and I can see his face for the first time. He’s very attractive and looks a bit like the guy from the movie “Good Luck Chuck”. Looking up at me he smiles and says, “Welcome to religion. It is amazing.” Then he asks me to attend an Avenged Seven Fold concert, and I decline, so he asks me to go to the Carolina Rebellion Concert with him, But I decline again telling him I am married. He says he wants to keep in touch with me and show me more, and I agree that I want to learn more. He asks me if I’d mind eating with him before we call it a night. I accept then the dream gets blurry because C (my daughter) wakes me up. In the blurry parts I suddenly decide to run through the mall and separate from him. Then, I go to the car but instead of it being my car it is my husbands Camaro and I keep fishtailing and spinning out every time I turn it. Then I wake up for good.

I still don't full understand his statement, "Welcome to religion, it is amazing." but the general conclusion I've come to is that religion is just another word for a very strong set of beliefs. Perhaps he was trying to tell me that if I believe in what I'm trying to do, my results will be amazing?

I managed to fall asleep again, probably around 9, and my kids woke up around 10:30. It was enough sleep to have a couple dream fragments and leave me feeling even more tired than when I went back to sleep, if that makes any sense. Here goes:

Dream One (Fragment): I'm at a Japanese shrine. Either the shrines name was Mikage, or the character named Mikage from the Manga I was reading when I was trying to fall asleep earlier was in it. I'm pretty sure it was the character Mikage, because I remember someone with white hair being in the dream though I don't remember the roles either of us played.

Dream Two (Fragment): I was watching a portly yet muscular bearded man was singing country music in a bar.

Dream Three (Fragment): Also set in a Japanese style building. There was a girl and a guy, they were in older more traditional Japanese clothing. The girl wanted the guy to stay with her, she loves hm and didn't want him to go. He seemed a bit cold, he told her he wouldn't stay and that she needed to get off him (she was holding onto his shirt trying to pull him back inside) Once he was outside into the darkness however he seemed very sad to leave her, and he didn't go home as he claimed he was going. Instead, he climbed a tree nearby where he could watch her house and protect her. Then my view shifted to inside the house, where the girl was crying on the floor. Suddenly there was a commotion outside, and my view switches back to the guy, and he's in a fight with something. He knocks whatever(whoever?) it is out cold, and sends them flying through the front door of the girls house. Then he quickly runs off before she can see who saved her. I hear someone say, "The princess is staying in that house." as I was woken up.

Well, the Manga I read at least incubated good dreams even if it didn't serve the intended purpose of quieting my mind and putting me to sleep, lol. I was reading Kamisama Kiss is anyone was wondering. I was hoping shojo manga would give me happy romantic dreams. The last dream sort of hits that mark, except it was in third person

I usually sleep from around 1 am until about 10:00 am - noon... that's accounting for the hour or so it usually takes me to go to sleep (bed time is around 11:30) Last night, I looked at the clock last around 1:30... and I woke up this morning at 6 when my husband got up for work and haven't been able to get back to sleep since. My brain is just too busy. I tried listening to music, reading manga, looking back through the physical dream journal I kept last year and now I'm going to try and type up the two short dream fragments I had and then go back to bed to see if it's enough to make me sleepy. If I can't get back to sleep in the next hour though I'm SOL because the kids wake up between ten and noon and I have to get up with them.

Dream One (Fragment): A rehash of the day. I can recall a bunch of flashing pictures, and that's about it. The pictures were things from yesterday, avatars I saw on this web site, the stores I went to, the plants I planted yesterday, etc. Really boring, lol.

Dream Two: I was on the porch of a trailer I lived in with my husband before we got married. I was planting a plant in a terracotta pot with GoldenLight's avatar. DreamProfessor's avatar was standing beside us, and I got the feeling we were planting the plant for DreamProfessor. Another obvious rehash, I spent the day yesterday tracking down and replanting strawberry and tomato plants, and when I got home that evening I read through several of GL and DP's dream journals, lol.

And that is it, lol. If I still can't sleep, I'm going to type up a dream I had last year that was really awesome. I had sort of stashed it away in the back of my mind, but since I couldn't sleep and went through my old dream journal I found it and thought, "that one's definitely an important dream for me" and one I think I'd like to practice when I'm lucid sometime.

5-5-11, Important dreams from the past: A Lesson in Auras? - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views Done