Leaving the matrix

This is a powerful dream! Do you have self esteem issues in real life? I do, and this dream of yours makes me wonder whether you do, too. Remember this girl is part of who you are, too: all that self-sacrificial compassion, the willingness to help the less fortunate even at the cost of secrificing fitting in - I think that is or can be part of you, too.

Yeah, I do deep down, but I'm good at hiding it even from myself, which is probably bad because it just reveals itself through dreams and physical stress symptoms anyways. Thank you for your kind words. Do you have self esteem dreams too?

Do I have dreams of low self esteem? Yes and no. Not that directly addressed that I recall, perhaps because my self esteem is not that repressed? But I am constantly aware of it, and when I analyze my own dreams I see evidence of my low self-esteem. I have a low of dreams on answering issues of right and wrong, dreams of lessons in being proper, one of my dream signs is a self-proclaimed mentor telling me what to do, and sometimes I will caveat something in my dream such as recently "cars are a symbol for dreams for other people" because I do not consider myself a good driver for example, also I have a lot of dreams where I am not myself and I think one of the reasons is because often I am not comfortable being myself.

I've had quite a few dreams where Im similarly disabled, lying on a floor or parking lot, unable to move, feeling like I'm too weak to move or half paralyzed. I've learned, thanks to this site, that other people have them too, and they're fairly common - it seems to have something to do with 'real world' signals from your paralyzed sleeping body getting through a bit into the dream. This sort of thng happens a lot when people WILD or when you use Galantamine for lucidity (which is mostly when I experience these kinds of dreams).

Similarly but not as intense, I've also had dreams of having difficulty walking, often sort of capsizing to one side and feeling drunk or half unconscious, or just being really dopey or confused. They all seem to be essentially the same thing - those real world signals from a paralyzed body coming through a little more than they should (they shouldn't be coming through at all!) - once I even apparently could feel the cloth of my bedsheets against my skin and I dreamed I was all covered with cloth - wearing pajamas and a robe and socks and mittens.

These kind of dreams are also often accompained by various types of difficulty seeing properly, ranging from total blindness to dim or fuzzy vision, darkness, feeling like your eyes are closed or squinted shut too much etc. If you want to see one of these deams click this link and scroll down to near the bottom in my old DJ - to the entry called Paralyzed and the next one called Blind. There's another one in my new DJ near the beginning where I was just laying on a parking lot next to the end of a railroad tie staring at it, unable to move and too tired to even think well.

Do I have dreams of low self esteem? Yes and no. Not that directly addressed that I recall, perhaps because my self esteem is not that repressed? But I am constantly aware of it, and when I analyze my own dreams I see evidence of my low self-esteem. I have a low of dreams on answering issues of right and wrong, dreams of lessons in being proper, one of my dream signs is a self-proclaimed mentor telling me what to do, and sometimes I will caveat something in my dream such as recently "cars are a symbol for dreams for other people" because I do not consider myself a good driver for example, also I have a lot of dreams where I am not myself and I think one of the reasons is because often I am not comfortable being myself.

Perhaps I should take my self esteem into consideration more often. I see what you mean, I've had similar dream scenarios but I never even thought they had to do with self esteem. I don't analyze my dreams as well as you do your own. I usually try to run them by my sister to see if she can make any sense of it.

I've had quite a few dreams where Im similarly disabled, lying on a floor or parking lot, unable to move, feeling like I'm too weak to move or half paralyzed. I've learned, thanks to this site, that other people have them too, and they're fairly common - it seems to have something to do with 'real world' signals from your paralyzed sleeping body getting through a bit into the dream. This sort of thng happens a lot when people WILD or when you use Galantamine for lucidity (which is mostly when I experience these kinds of dreams).

Similarly but not as intense, I've also had dreams of having difficulty walking, often sort of capsizing to one side and feeling drunk or half unconscious, or just being really dopey or confused. They all seem to be essentially the same thing - those real world signals from a paralyzed body coming through a little more than they should (they shouldn't be coming through at all!) - once I even apparently could feel the cloth of my bedsheets against my skin and I dreamed I was all covered with cloth - wearing pajamas and a robe and socks and mittens.

These kind of dreams are also often accompained by various types of difficulty seeing properly, ranging from total blindness to dim or fuzzy vision, darkness, feeling like your eyes are closed or squinted shut too much etc. If you want to see one of these deams click this link and scroll down to near the bottom in my old DJ - to the entry called Paralyzed and the next one called Blind. There's another one in my new DJ near the beginning where I was just laying on a parking lot next to the end of a railroad tie staring at it, unable to move and too tired to even think well.

Wow, thank you for this information Darkmatters. I've never heard or read of this condition, I have many of those other things you wrote happen in my dreams also, for instance the crawling on the floor and I move stupidly and am situated weird and the bad vision. Maybe its because I get sleep paralysis alot? I don't know. I'm going to look into this stuff

I almost mentioned sleep paralysis - I think a lot of it actually is from REM atonia - which is sleep paralysis when you're asleep. It's only actually called SP if you wake up and experience it - REM atonia happens every time you are in REM - your muscles all go completely slack to prevent you from acting out your dreams. Ok, well you already know this I'm sure - just didn't know if you knew it's called REM atonia when you're sleeping and happens every night several times.

But yes - I think it makes perfect sense that the paralysis type dreams happen when you're getting signals from your sleeping body and are in REM atonia.

Did I say REM atonia enough?

I almost mentioned sleep paralysis - I think a lot of it actually is from REM atonia - which is sleep paralysis when you're asleep. It's only actually called SP if you wake up and experience it - REM atonia happens every time you are in REM - your muscles all go completely slack to prevent you from acting out your dreams. Ok, well you already know this I'm sure - just didn't know if you knew it's called REM atonia when you're sleeping and happens every night several times.

But yes - I think it makes perfect sense that the paralysis type dreams happen when you're getting signals from your sleeping body and are in REM atonia.

Did I say REM atonia enough?

Lol, well the repetition definitely helped me remember what it was called when I was reading up on it

I think I had it happen again in my dream last night, it's not a bad thing, I mean it's harmless phenomena right?

Yeah, totally harmless. I had a whole bunch of it last night that I just woke from - I took Galantamind and Menthol which probably helped cause me to feel sensations from my body in my sleep. It's in my Dj for today if you want to check on it.

That's good to hear. I didn't want to add another things to my list of ailments
Definitely, I find it interesting to see how it manifests in other people then myself.