dream fragment

July 15, 2010
Weird sleep between 1:00a-9:00a approx

Danny's house
I'm staring at a large Victorian-style home.

A lot like this one.

I know I'm looking at Danny's house and suddenly, he's beside me, outside. I remember him pointing out the structure, but my eye wanders to the side of the house, where there's a side entrance. For some reason, I think this is a secret entrance for a mistress, and I'm laughing at Danny about it. He's getting slightly aggravated with me because I'm being daft.

I wonder if this house is the same one he was planning on building from this dream?

Train tracks
Jack and I are crossing some train tracks. I look both ways and I see, far off in the distance, the headlights of an oncoming train. For some reason, I think it's a good plan to stop on the tracks to tie my shoes...

Inside Danny's house
Oddly enough, this dream happened a cycle or two after the first one. Very cool, imo!
I'm walking around inside Danny's house, carrying my guitar. We're in the kitchen. Suddenly, I start playing a song. It sounds a lot like the tune on my alarm clock (which does happen to be a slow, rolling, guitar-like thingy). I wake up and realize it is indeed, my alarm ring that I thought I had composed.

Family gathering
I vaguely recall walking to my doctor's office in slightly bad weather. I get there and in the lobby, Mike (my brother) and his GF come in. I hug them hello, and suddenly my parents walk in. I was all like, "Heyyyy, family reunion in a doctor's lobby..."
My dad says something about them not arriving together. I ask my mum how she got here. She said she drove. I got all upset because I left her at the house, she could have drove me

July 15, 2010
Slept between 1:30am-7:00am

Decided to set my alarm for 6am/WILD attempt. I woke up, and did a quick mental recollection of my dream to see if I would miss anything if I chose not to record notes. Deciding it would be alright, I chose to not record and fall back to sleep. I still fail so much at the conscious bit of falling asleep

However, this morning proved to be one of those epic moments where I was thinking about random things, and my thoughts landed on an old friend and my dream rammed into my head. Not the greatest recall other than I remember this...

Susanna
The audio in my dream was a conversation with an old friend, Susanna. I remember us talking about work. She was relocating, and she was telling me about the new town she was working in.

However the visual was scenery/landscape. She was telling me about her town and I was imagining it from a bird's eye view.

July 14, 2010
Slept between 0300-1000
Found out that lucid weaver's alarm rings don't ring if the phone is on silent... : I forgot to turn my phone back on normal, last night

Work fragment
First bit of the dream had to do with food. Then being on the phone with Rachel (boss), and also something regarding Elijah (co-worker).

Weird dream
I remember sleeping. I woke up into the dream. I'm living with my parents, but we are in a house different than my RL one.

[Dr. House]
House approaches my boyfriend and I. "I've found the answer to my problem!" he says.
"He's so cute," I think.
"I'm evicting you!" House says.
"WHAT?!"
"I'm evicting you. That's the answer to my problem," he says, matter of factly.
"You know, we're paid up in full, so you have to give us 30 days notice, at least."
"Sure, whatever," he says.

[Living with the ex]
Somehow, my ex, Joe, learns about my plight. He invites Jack, my mum and myself to live with him in his basement. I don't remember much about this scene, other than him getting the wrong idea about something (like me putting the moves on him?) and me pointing out that I wouldn't be doing that, especially with my boyfriend living with us, too!

[Going out]
I've just woke up again. I find that mum and Jack are going out to Walmart. They were going to leave without me, cos they knew I just woke up and hadn't ate yet. I said I didn't care, if they could wait 5 minutes, I'll get dressed. I didn't want to be left alone with my ex.

[Kinky shop]
I must've gotten left alone anyways, because I next found myself in a very kinky shop. I became barely semi-lucid... I remember thinking to myself, "I don't want to buy anything kinky, because I don't want to journal it!" I found this other bit in the store where they were selling sleep masks. They were supposed to be those ones that are really, really good and completely blacks out the sun, even if you're staring at it. I was holding them in my hands when I woke up.

Slept between 10:00am-2:30pm

Brief fragment involving theatre. I was watching a rehearsal of a musical and they were choreographing the dance moves to the songs.

False awakening, in which I thought to myself, "Better pinch my nose and see if I'm still asleep... *nose pinch* Huh, I can breathe. Means I'm not awake yet... *forced myself awake, nose pinch* That's better... Wait - fucking hell!"

Slept between 1:00a-9:30a

1:00a-5:30a
Meaningful portals
"This guy obviously does think my portals are meaningful," is what I have wrote. I can't, for the life of me, remember what this was about!

5:30-8:30
Set sail!
A friend was sailing around the world, in her boat, the South America. Her boat was painted a hideous colour of stark white with a child-like painting of South America on the bottom of her boat. I was looking at this design from underneath the water (I was under water, looking upwards). She was telling us about the tricky maneuvering she had to do to get into the docks at London, because she'd accidentally come in "backwards."

8:30-9:30a
Interesting house design, again
This house in my dream was supposed to be the house I currently live in. But it got quite warped up in the dream.
Starts out with me in my room. Bobbi (from work) is showing me my closet. She's quite proud of how she reorganized it. I don't really notice anything, other than hanging clothes, so I fake-enthusiastically say, "I really like it, thanks!" She goes on to tell me how all my bras are colour-coordinated with my tank tops. So she has done... She's paired a blue tank with an orange bra, pink bra with a green tank, etc.

[Grandma's dodgy basement trap door]
My dad wants to show me this interesting project Grandma was working on. She built a new way into the basement. I figured a new staircase, but then my dad opens up a panel out of the floor, in the main floor bathroom. He's trying to turn the light on, via pull-string, but the light appears to not want to turn on (obvious universal dream sign, missed!). Oh well, we don't need the light, anyways. All you have to do is use the same pull string to swing down through the trap door...

[Basement tenant and the new kitchen]
I'm hanging out in the basement with my parent's tenant. She's the girl who helped me cancel my gym membership IRL, yesterday.

"Did you realize just how many staircases there are in this place?" she asks.

"Well, I knew there were a couple," I say. She shows me this new one I don't recognize. I go up it, and I discover this dark kitchen area, that's been completely untouched for 13 years (and remarkably lacking any dust). The counters are a lovely wood and marble, the sink is huge, and I see a white stove with that smooth surface rather than burners. I think to myself that mum must've known about this kitchen, since she bought the new stove to go in here when she bought the black one for her main kitchen...

I realized that this kitchen should be mine! Now that the tenant knows about this place, she'll want to use it... How to get her to want to leave, though?

My Warcraft buddy, Gerakis, appears with a plan. He rigs up this stuffed toy to somehow become covered in raw red meat, and then tosses it to the tenant's dog (a shih-tzu), who is happily nomming (and growling) on the toy in the vent space next to her room, while she is trying to sleep. She complains it's too loud for her to sleep. Excellent...

I woke up here.

Slept between 11:30p-10:00a

After another night of lost dreams, I've decided to stop trying to forcibly DEILD as an induction technique. I'm quite good at using it to prolong dreams... and as a late-morning/not ready to get up yet technique (where I'm also less worried about losing a dream), it's still quite feasible. But there's too much recall at stake to use it as a main technique. I was also trying to "CAN-WILD" (which is like a DEILD... and alarm wakes you that turns itself off and you essentially DEILD, but if there's no dream, it ends up being a WILD anyways). But so far my body proves that when I wake up, I wake up, and I find it hard to re-enter the dream state on command like that. So, I am going to re-take up my habits of WBTB and focus on recall again.

11:30p-6:00a
House for sale
Upset at house being sold to my brothers (Mike, specifically). Some guy was doing house tours. That's all my notes say, I don't have any recollection of this dream!

6:00a-9:00a
Flying controls
I've forgotten what led up to this point, but I was being pursued by some witch. I jumped up off the ground and started flying away. This made me lucid. I Looked back and noticed she was hot on my tail. "I need to make myself fly faster," I thought. Normally, when I fly, my arms are in an upside-down V formation at my sides. I brought my arms straight against my sides, to see if that would improve my speed. No luck. I tried a Superman pose. Still no luck. "I remember reading somewhere that the way they fly is by thinking about their target, and basically letting themselves get pulled to it, mentally... Maybe that'll work...?" I looked at a point on the horizen, and kind of... "set it" with my mind and willed myself to get pulled towards it. I felt a yank from my belly button, like I was on a cord connecting it to the point I set, and I was being pulled towards the point. I yelped a bit with surprise, as it certainly did increase my speed, but it wasn't quite enough. Woke up, anyways.

9:00a-10:00a
School mates
There was some kind of event happening at my school (non-existent to RL). I think it might have been World Cup related. I'm sitting in an empty classroom with Freddy and Corine, from SAIT. We're talking about jobs and I say something about trying to break into sound ops. I look directly at Freddy, because IRL, he does some kinda theatre thing (not sure what capacity, but judging by his FBook posts, it sounds managerial).

Don't eat grassy snow
There's another point where I have a snowball in my hand, and I'm eating it. I realize it's all grassy, and I nearly throw up

Late for work
Another fragment where I realize I'm late for work. I'm trying to get my uniform together to get ready, but I keep getting distracted by things, which causes me to be more late.

Slept between 11:30p-6:00a.

11:30p-4:40a
DV-related fragment
Just a short fragment here. I was in a car with Naiya and possibly Akono. We all had DV going on our cellphones and we were checking up on people. Someone was helping out on some top-secret projects, but they kept leaking info on the forums by way of asking people to help them gather information on certain topics.

Had decided to try a DEILD this morning, so my lucid weaver alarm was what woke me. Unfortunately, I was quite confused at the sound of the alarm and wasn't sure why I was hearing beeping noises. Once they stopped I remembered, "Oh right, it's supposed to be a DEILD... What was I dreaming about?" and it was mostly gone I should probably remember to do an auto-suggestion before sleeping if I'm going to try a DEILD

Decided to turn the DEILD into a WILD using a suggestion I had gotten from someone using music (in my head) as an anchor, rather than music on earphones (since on earphones tends to carry over into dreams, so they say, and it gets annoying, I guess. I honestly don't think I would mind it, but I couldn't use my earphones, anyways).

It is definitely too difficult for me to WILD with the BF next to me To be fair, it wasn't a very serious attempt. I only got a light SP, barely any vibrations, and I found it hard to roll out due to that. Gave up, RC'd, just in case, then dozed very lightly and woke up for work, at 6am.

Slept between 1:30am-6:00am. Not insomnia, this time! This was a work-induced sleepless night

Vague memories, but I recall there being some animal kingdom thing. Like me, in a room, with a bunch of animals that would normally tear my head off. But they didn't. And I didn't consider the remote possibility of dreaming Granted, I only had 4 hours of sleep, but I *have* been lucid in the first 90 minutes of sleep, before. So, this wouldn't have been a first

There's a stronger fragment of chasing after this girl who had a box in her arms. In the box, had a note in it. Whatever that was, she was running away with it, and I needed it.

She jumped into a swimming pool and emerged without the box. I jumped in (vaguely recall being able to breathe here and yet... still nothing, lol!) and retrieved the box. The note, inside, was still dry! I couldn't read what it said.

Slept between 12:00a-11:00a

Car thieves
This dream was part of a slightly longer dream, but I can't remember what came before this scene. I vaguely recall being with Dad and my brother, Mike. I had to go out to the car, to drive somewhere (I don't drive IRL - no license). As I was putting stuff into the car, two guys approached. They were trying to be all friendly, but I got some bad juju from them (DS = criminals).

They started coming into the car (from the backseat, I was in the front seat, but turned towards the back). I remember stabbing one of the guys in the arm with a fork. Repeatedly. It sank deep into his skin and he just laughed at me. I remember screaming, "What kind of freak are you?! How is this not hurting?!!"

House patrol
I was at a house with some guards, including Cliff and Rachel. Cliff and some other guard went into the house to patrol it (I vaguely remember hearing it was haunted). I was chatting outside with Rachel while we waited for them.

Rescue dog adoption
I had planned to adopt a rescue dog from the shelter. I saw the dog out the window, coming up to the house. He was a gorgeous gold retriever. I went outside to greet my new friend. We sat on the porch and I was petting him and fussing. He got a little riled up and wanted to play fight. I was a bit afraid he might get bitey, so I commanded him to sit and stay, by touching his nose. He did so, quite obediently. I said, "Calm down."

"I'll behave!" the dog said. For some reason, I was not surprised he was communicating with me ??? "Thank you for not hitting me," he said, somewhat sadly. "My previous owners would just hit me if I started misbehaving, but I'm really a good dog!"

This made me cry and I gave my poor dog a big hug.

11:00p-2:00a
I had originally planned to do a WBTB and take some Tylenol Ultra for a CWILD. I had deprived myself of caffeine since like... 1pm. I don't know if it was anticipation, or whether I was just going to have an insomniac night anyways, but I drifted in a light sleep during this time.

I remember a fragment of Raven Knight telling me my mum had said hi to her (as if this was Warcraft).

2:00a-6:00a
I got up for my WBTB. I stupidly took the Tylenol Ultra, not thinking that maybe if I was having a rough sleep, I should skip the caffeine jolt *Sigh*

I did have some interesting experiences though.

I nearly WILD'ed twice. I wasn't intending on it, but I mean... what is WILD, but mind awake, body asleep, right? I experienced some SP vibrations, which were oddly something I saw, rather than felt. Hard to describe, considering all I saw were the blacks of my eyelids.

The first time this happened, once they subsided I kind of just went, "Fuck, now what?" I wasn't feeling floaty, and I couldn't induce that feeling. Okay, so try to open my dream eyes. I opened my eyes. Unfortunately, I saw my sleep mask. Transition fail, again.

Second time, I felt the SP vibrations the normal way. I even felt kind of floaty-ish this time. But once again, transition fail. I do not know how the eff to complete a WILD.

After this, I had this lucid HI where I was sitting in an office. It was very unstable, visually. I tried to focus on the visuals. Danny (my DG) told me to STOP trying to force something visually as the first thing. He told me to close my eyes and sway back and forth. He said focus more on my dream body and less on my real one. My problem is I focus too much on my real body, so I remain anchored. So, once I've got my focus on my dream body and I'm not aware of my physical one anymore, then I can open my eyes. This was working, but it kept flipping in and out (possibly due to the caffeine). I finally got a visual where Danny handed me a small orange pill and a glass of water. I swallowed it and said, "It reminds me of cat food."

"Cat food?!" Danny asks, sounding thoroughly confused. I wake.

Throughout this time, one of the things I was doing to help me sleep was listening to a slow song. In hindsight, I'm wondering about the validity of that as an anchor when/if I WILD in the future. Does anyone else ever listen to music during a WILD? I mean, I knew when I was dosing off because when I came to again, I'd notice the song wasn't where it left off. But I also wonder... if I'm consciously transitioning into a dream, will I still hear the song? I wouldn't mind that, in fact, it MIGHT not be such a bad thing, so long as I can stay focused on the dream. Hmm...

I finally did pass out at around 5. I had a non-lucid where I was chatting with Garrett's mum on MSN, only she didn't know it was me. I was chatting through Garrett's account and was pretending to be him.

Slept between 11:30pm-10:00am
7:00a-10:00a
Hanging with friends
Originally, it starts out with me heading downtown, with Julia appearing almost immediately into the beginning of the dream. I'm happy to be hanging out with my best friend again But our method of transportation is quite slow. We're on this long, flat metal car-bed. Not like a truck bed, just literally this long, flat platform we could hop onto. And it's moving very slowly.

But whatever, Julia and I are chatting. Then, we're joined by Tamika. I'm really happy to see her. Then, Lily and Elise show up. As we're riding along the road on this platform, I happily think about how awesome my friends are and how nice it is to see them.

We ride into the middle of this party. Most of the people were about 18-21 years old and very drunk, rowdy and obnoxious. This heavily make-upped chick jumps onto our car and tries to kiss me. I push her away and say, "Dude, I'm not like that."

She says something about how everyone will think I'm frigid, but to be honest, I don't really care.

At a mall
Mum, Jack and I enter a mall. At the front doors, I see Eric. I wanted to avoid the awkward, "Hi, remember me? Alright so... see ya!" conversation, so I pretended not to see him, by turning to mum and enthusiastically describing something. We stopped right beside Eric and his family. I can't pretend now, that would be completely wrong of me, so I turn and say, "Hey, Eric!!"

He's all, "Hey..." and looks kind of uncomfortable to see me there. Maybe because he's with his mum, I dunno (so am I though, so what's the deal?). He doesn't seem to want to chat, so we move on.

I realized, as we were standing next to Eric, that I'm suddenly taller than him. How...? I realize I'm wearing platform boots. I'm REALLLLY uncomfortable in these boots, because I am not the world's most coordinated person (this is true). I was afraid I was going to trip and fall.

Mum gets me to the food court to sit down and she says she'll get me another pair of normal shoes. I'm sort of against just sitting there, I'll be fine to come with, but nope, my boots are already off and I'm in sock-feet. For some reason, other people in the food court try to help by lending me their shoes (?).

Trying to get home
I'm outside somewhere, and I'm trying to catch transit to get home. I'm not entirely sure why this was causing me trouble, but there you go. Jack finds me and we walked towards the bus we need.

9:30a-12:40p
On a train
I see my friend, Carlos, on the train. I say hi to him, but he's a bit unresponsive. He says hi, back, but he seems to not care that this is the first time we're actually seeing each other in years.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"I'm upset at you for not continuing to write to me!" he says (via facebook). "I have something important I need to tell you."

"I'm here, why don't you tell me now?" I said.

"No. I can only write it to you."

Spider-shooting
I'm at my house. I see a spider on on the outside wall. I have a BB gun in hand and I start shooting the spider. I'm happy it's not wrecking the siding as I'm trying to shoot the hated thing.

June 28, 2010 - Part Two
4:30p-9:30p
I had to do a night shift tonight, so I settled in for my nap at just after 4:30 this afternoon. Actually, it was probably closer to 5. I had decided to do a WILD attempt, since I read and got some instructions on two very neat-sounding techniques. Essentially, if one didn't work, the other might.

As a side note: I forgot to deprive myself from caffeine, so unfortunately, I didn't do a proper CWILD. But, I did find out that Tylenol Ultra has caffeine in it, but it's 65mg to 500mg of acetomenophine (spelling?). I remember reading that anything less than 120mg of caffeine wasn't really enough, but I didn't want to take 1000mg of acetomenophine, so... that's why my CWILD failed.

Note: CWILD is a technique I learned from another site. It stands for Caffeine Withrdrawl Induced Lucid Dream. It can be combo'd with any induction technique, including DILDs and has no direct relation to Wake Induced Lucid Dreams (other than it can be combo'd).

Anyways, so I settled in and got to work on relaxing each area of my body. I don't really have a set relaxation technique (like the 61-point. That is a brutal tech). I just focus on each area, like feet, calves, thighs, etc and imagine that with each exhale, there's energy floating out of my focused area. It works like a charm, for me). I felt good and relaxed and decided to work first on the "anchoring" technique.

The gist of the technique is to find something to anchor your consciousness/awareness (passively) as you're falling asleep. Normally, I would use my clock, because it ticks really loudly, but today, I was using earplugs. So, I twisted my fingers in a weird position. It... kind of worked. Not really as well as the tick-tock works. I talked myself into sleep and did notice that I was losing focus on my hand and becoming a little too involved in the dreamlets. I noted I was experiencing some visual hallucinations in the form of yellow swirly light playing across my eyelids, but I didn't really pay too much attention to it. Some dreamlets rolled in... again, noted, but not focused. I drifted like this for a bit. This was all set up to be a good start to the WILD.

Unfortunately, my throat was a huge distraction for me. I had ate a grilled cheese sandwich before sleeping, cos I was super hungry. So this made a horrible mucous-y feeling in the back of my throat, which, once I started drifting into the HI, got a bit easier to ignore. But, it certainly delayed the whole process; triggering my body's constant need to swallow. I found breathing through my nose helped bypass that, for some reason.

The other problem was that I'm a bit sick, so my throat started getting massively tickly. To the point where my body decided to say, "Fuck you, I'm coughing," and it wasn't something I could control or supress. It did this twice And wrecked my efforts, twice.

Rebuilding the SP wasn't too difficult, but I will note a few interesting sensations.

1) At one point, the strongest point of the SP, my legs felt all hard and brittle. Like, if I moved them, they would break and crumble. I thought this was pretty neat. I decided to try wiggling my toes, and it took a lot of mental effort to do so.

2) It seemed like each time I "shifted" into a deeper phase of the SP, my heart would race. I had to do a little mental focusing to calm it back down. This was accompanied by my light hallucinations pitching me into complete blackness (each time I shifted). It actual resembled a light being shut off in the room (even though I wore a sleep mask).

3) I noticed some very subtle vibrations. Unfortunately, they were so subtle and weak, that it was difficult to use them of an indication of falling asleep.

So, once I hit that deep stage of leg-brittle, I decided this anchoring thing wasn't helping, nor did I seem to dive into a scene. I began to wonder if I had done the same thing in all my other WILDs... I'm already asleep, and trapped in a mental prison. I was chatting with someone about this a few days ago, who had the same problem as me. He'd get to this point and move, but he kept moving his real body. He said he had to learn how to separate his dream body.

So, I gave up on the anchoring, and I instead tried to activate my dream body's senses. This... pretty much didn't go very well at all. Not much to say other than I couldn't float out or move any dream part or anything. Ughhhhh.

Anyways, once I was wracked with my second bout of coughing, I decided maybe rolling over would help alleviate my throat. I rolled over, got myself all re-relaxed and passed out! I hadn't really intended to pass out. I'm not entirely sure what happened there, to be honest. I never consciously decided to give up and pass out. In fact, I was quite keen on being successful.

Anyways, so once again, I'm thwarted by the ever-elusive WILD.

Hospital Audit
I was in a doctor's office. They asked me to do an audit on the place, like ensuring the equipment was working and such. At this point, I was too tired to do the audit properly. I was half-assing it, walking around the building and not really paying too much attention. I decided to leave it for now and went for lunch.

[Lunch]
I was in a Safeway, which had a mall-like food court in it. But only the KFC was open. I didn't really want "Kentucky Fried Suicide," but seeing how my options were forcibly limited, I got some food.

[Back at the doctor's office]
I got lost in the building. Also, my clothes were now covered in some-foul smelling liquid and I had some dirty yellow stains on my clothes. This part is choppy, but I remember finding my way into a dark room, and watched a movie on the big TV in there.

I left the room when I remembered I was supposed to be auditing. I walked along hallways and wandered into a ward. It seemed to be a maternity ward. I felt like I was trespassing, and left before anyone saw me.

I continued to walk down the hallway and came upon these small cubby-like lockers. There were pink on one side and blue on the other. Then, some nurses appeared. They asked me why I'm covered in stained clothing. I don't remember what I told them.

I completed the audit and snuck out.

Game Show
I was competing against my mother in a game show. We each had to run these obstacle courses 5 times through. Although I didn't know which course would be the harder one, I was in the points lead, so I got to choose the course to run. I chose the one on the right. As our host was explaining the course, and what constituted as a win, I woke up.

I wanted to at least hear the rest of the instructions, or run through the course once. I started a DEILD and was near-successful at chaining back in, but I dragged myself out of it cos I really did have to get up and get ready for work

June 24, 2010
11:45a
Big Mansion
My parents, Grandma, Jack and I were living in this huge mansion. I remember looking down one of the halls and guessed that the hall itself stretched about 50 meters (165 ft).

I was outside at our garage. The neighbour asked me why I was parking in his spot. I told him this was our garage, but he was adamant it wasn't (it was detached). I reasoned that it's ours, because the siding matches our house. He still maintained it was his. I told him I would move our vehicles after I helped this other person out with what they needed.

I was with my grandmother and she asked me where I put her dressing gown. I remembered hanging it on a hook in one of the bedrooms. I went around the house, looking for it, checking each room. I must've checked about 5 different rooms until I found it

Danny and Sterling
Woke up with a vague recollection of Danny and Sterling both expressing the desire to build houses in my inner world. They just needed to find a way to build them?

Still playing catch-up...
Dead sleep between 12:30a-7:30a
Alarm attempt for a 8:30 alarm to DEILD. Too sleepy, turned it off and passed out.
Wake-up alarm at 10:45. Too sleepy, passed out (lol )
Woke up on my own at 11:40a.

As such, not too many memories recalled from my dreams, other than listening to an answering machine and expecting to hear one from Darren. I can't remember why I expected there to be one, but hey there was, and he was thanking me for the birthday message I gave him.

I also remember lots of hanging out with people. It's all so vague!