The Erratic dreams of StaySharp

Most impressively I had yet another lucid, barely a week later than my previous one! This seems to bode well for me, as I expected my next lucid may very well be another full month ahead.

I was close to some kind of mildly futuristic building which spannd one half of my vision. Behind my was a huge plane, surrounded by trees in the distance. There was some kind of invasion and a huge amount of lifefrms trying to kill me, and I had an somewhat awkward fight, where I eventually crawled over those that were standing on a ramp, outside the building, that ramp was right outside the building, the first part going towards the building before making a 90 degree turn and connecting to a protruding platform of the building. There eventually I came to some kind of truce with the attackers.
[Small gap where I'm not sure what happened]
I'm still at the same place, the invaders now gone, and I think someone else was close by. I was looking into the plane, the sky was clouded and an eerie light was emitting from above. Thunders started to appear, with a strong red color and I enjoyed the view, then a cluster of meteors came through the clouds, somewhat startling me, but also making me realize I was dreaming. I tried to call forth such a meteorstorm again, but instead saw some phosphenia like stuff, though I felt I was close. I was walking away from the plane, probably through the building into some kind of empty city, trying to recall what exactly I wanted to do in my lucidity, but failing in doing so.
Eventually I had a false awakening after which I was talking with my girlfriend about something.

But hey, at least I tried to remember, now I have to work on being able to do so next time.

My last lucid was already weeks or months ago, and my last lucid with good control and details was defnitely months ago.

It began with some kind of event, it was night and there were many people in something like a stadium. There was some kind of woman with a deo-spray goblet (WTF...) on a pedestal, closely surrounded by people. During this part of the dream I was not yet existent and only observed. The woman flew away with a missile and some dude clung to her missile with a rope. He wanted to get up to her, there was some dialog I could remember, but honestly it was pretty nonsensical stuff, like comments from the dude about the age of the woman. He eventually stopped on a clocktower or something, held the missile and let it rotate around the tower so it would speed up and he could get up to the woman. The physics here we're pretty broken.

Eventually one of them, the dude I think, dropped down from the missile into the city. I then assumed his position, searching for the woman, but there was no one anywhere in the city. I came around a corner, it was day again, the street was empty, and there were boring buildings to both sides of the street. My mind suddenly became a lot more clear, I wanted to do a reality check, but considering the events that previously happened I knew that I was dreaming and no RC was necessary. Instead I focussed on stabilizing, imagined wings, flapped my arms and started to fly, immediately it was like the gravity was largely negated for me. I couldn't properly imagine the wings but kept on trying to train myself a little. When I flew up I got to see an absolutely astonishing panorama of nature with mountains and greenery, the closest mountain had a sharp stone peak at the top, but none of the mountains were covered with snow or something like that. I could see at least as good as in reality, maybe even a little better. I kept flying for many minutes until my mind got clouded a tiny little bit again. I flew into a building, probably a school, and there I met a particular weird monster with a magic wand (both from UT2k4, the so called magic wand is a different version of the shock rifle). It fired at someone and I planned to rob the weapon from it, but then I lost my focus on the dream for a moment and woke up. It somehow was similar to dropping something out of carelessness, I might've been able to continue the dream otherwise I guess.

Unfortunately I didn't remember any of the things I wanted to do in my lucids, and so only flew around.

[Part1]

This dream immediately began lucid, it started just some 2 or 3 minutes after I fell asleep. I was directly chasing some henchman of king rufus through a small stone valley and already summoned a shock pulsar above 2 stretched out fingers of my right hand, but the dream faded before I really got to unleash it. I guess they still wouldn't have made it.

Side note: I'm surprised that I managed to dream about this story arc again so fast.

So this dream was somewhat unusual and did tick me off somewhat.

During the whole dream I wasn't lucid, and I also wasn't physically present, I only saw things from 3rd person perspective. The dream basically consisted of me seeing various kinds of monster girls (hence girls with animal traits like tales or wings) in different situations, all of which ended with an more or less violent death of said girl. There were some explanations about some of them, most notably one nicknamed 'Scales' because of the fact she had dragon feet, hands, wings and a tail, which where covered with yellow scales. Her scales could prevent any damage or piercing but the pain from impacts (like arrows) was still the same, just as if the arrow would dig into the flesh. She was hunted and in the end pain paralyzed by a storm of arrows, then carried to some village where the population mob most violently and brutally killed her by ripping her into 2 parts, the dream showing how how her legs and hip separated from her upper torso. All of these incidents where caused by a king called Rufus who spread hate and racism.

I suppose I might make him a target in one of my future dreams since blowing him up for messing with my dreams would certainly be appropriate.

I was in a medium sized shack in a forest, my girlfriend also was there I remember though she didn't play any part in anything whatsoever. The shack was made of old, somewhat rotten looking wood with many smaller holes, letting the daylight in. There wasn't much in there, just a few uninteresting tools. There was some kind of nest there which apparently was harboring some kind of dangerous flying ticks (thank god our nature didn't really have this stupid idea. The ticks (all looking very different) swarmed out and I wanted to get away from these things (no panic though) so I opened the door and started running uphill for about 100m or so.
It was a forest during a beautiful day, fresh air and pleasant light. The trees were relatively normal and the ways were only small trails. I remember something or something saying to get away from these things fast before they eat me, and that I should go downhill, not uphill. On this trail I then turned left and there it went downhill, some 500m or something and it was designed like a cliff where trees still grow out of the sides. I jumped and grabbed onto some vines and branches here and there, swinging myself down there at suicidal breakneck speeds, it was quite a lot of fun. Due to me being always invincible in dreams neither the ticks nor the fall were any actual danger to me though.
Down there was the entrance of a small city or village and a big street which was mainly blue, also think there was a big water stream there, probably artificially created, maybe I even jumped in there for a moment, I'm not sure.
It was also somewhere here that I became lucid, I just realized that I was dreaming (most likely because I was listening to music while sleeping and my lucidity track turned on, after I woke up I checked the playlist and there it was so I had a EILD here).
Somehow I knew how the dream was supposed to continue so out of some mood I decided to stick with it and see how the effect on my stability is, I walked over to the village and into what's supposed to be a super market, to be precise it had the logo of PLUS (orange-blue). Somehow I remember 2 possibilities for how it looked inside, I think one of them is a fragment from another dream though.
The inside (which I think belongs here alone) was actually very small and only very few products were there, I was talking with the shop lady about something but I don't remember about what and then the dream ended. In conclusion I can say that going with the plot made the dream last a felt 2-3 minutes longer, but probably wasn't worth it.

I was at some kind of bus or tram station, I think it was somewhat similar to one I know in real life, always driving through on my way to work. Oddly enough the actual street or railroad seemed to be missing though. There was a lot of gravel on the ground and a cat, I remember touching both and being surprised at how realistic it felt and used it to try a slow stabilizing start on my dream which also worked at first, somewhere in between these scenes I also must have done a RC as I was lucid most of that time (I also remember that RC, just not when exactly I did it).
After I thought I took the dream slow enough I intended to fly, succesfully turning into Ryuuko and jumping off a near cliff, gliding for some way, then I remember how I suddenly saw myself (or Ryuuko) from behind, able to pick up on some details (mostly the not black as thought, but instead colorful, blue-green scales, but it also ended my dream. It also looked like some kind of forest but I can't remember the details as much as I'd like to.

I was on my way to work, I was driving in a car through the mountains, and it was a beautiful, already somewhat bright day, the complete opposite to my actual way to work. I got lost there but realized how far away from reality all this was, then I suddenly was in a building with a nice view of the mountains and did a nose-pinch RC, with success.
Out of a strong urge to fly I dashed forward, broke the glass of the window and spanned my wings, starting to glide immediately. The world then was filled with repeating patterns which I could control to some degree, but the dream faded fast.

The dream started with me sitting in a bus, it was an unusually big one, and it was driving uphill in a small city. Apparently I overslept my target stop, but I was too far to just get out and walk back so I was sure to be too late, wherever I was going. I was considering what to do when I met S from my old school in B. He gave me a different thought perspective, and without changing my mindset much I became lucid and decided to just trust him.
(The part where we went out of the bus was missing somehow, though I'm sure it was right the next stop)
Then I was in a building, it was some minutes after 12 (maybe 12:03), he gave me something and ordered me to go upstairs to find some maintenance shaft, it was the second floor, top of the building. The staircase was like a 5m x 5m excision of an 8m x 8m square corridor, there were doors to other rooms all around, the doors were all open and it was rather dark inside the rooms. I searched but I didn't find anything, and at around 12:36 people where coming back and I had to hide.
Eventually the dream faded as my alarm woke me up, I snoozed it and went back to sleep for 20 minutes.
Surprisingly though I only lost my consciousness for a really small amount of time, and then perfectly resumed the dream, I had my first complete DEILD, without really trying.
I snuck back to S who was bending over something, he then told me that I needed to find an engine up there to put a micromodule in it, then some indefinable stuff happened and I found a maintenance shaft, it opened up for me and looked futuristic, a policeman was attacking me for some reason but the shaft closed behind me, stopping him from chasing me. I went into a morph ball mode and bombed some smaller Dominator devices away, now I was on a rail outside, it was day.
(The part with the Dominators and the engine with the micromodule came from the game Space Rangers 2, the morph ball from Metroid. Those things only started to influence the dream after the DEILD, so that might have something to do with it)

I was flying around in an undefined spaceship and everything was much like in a X3 game. I went to a special sector where something interesting was said to happen and the whole sector was filled with fancy things like special shaped colorful moving micro-nebulas and a lot of things that behaved roughly like the physics in Antichamber. There also was this huge in weird colors glowing weapon flying around, close to one of the mentioned micro-nebulas. At some point I went to one of those chambers and then I was outside my ship (no special equipment needed), I and some other people where watching the everchanging effects until I started interfering with them, and then they took on more and more shape, until eventually a small keyboard appeared. I played on it and there were several distorted mirror like versions replicating the same accords that I played.
Eventually I got to see something hotel like and in perfect Antichamber manner just stepped into that place, it looked a little rustic. On the frame of the big entry door was a small sign with 4 words "X Club la Forge" (I don't remember what the X was, but I think it was 'To', as in 'To Club la Forge'). Somehow I was really hyped about that (La Forge by the way definitely refered to Geordy la Forge from Star Trek) so I went out and somehow had Data accompany me there, it were just a few meters. Something about Club la Forge made me realize I was dreaming, like "damn it's the Club la Forge, I must be dreaming!".
Inside I tried to start stabilizing softly with taking in all the details of my surroundings. I was at a table where a beautiful girl was sitting, maybe she was representing my girlfriend but I'm not sure. She tried to talk to me but I heard really loud music and couldn't hear anything else, then I just had the weird idea of taking my smartphone and turning down the volume, which surprisingly worked though not completely. She waved me to her so I brought my ear close to her and heard her talking, she said something about efficiency but neither do I remember what she said, nor did it make sense to me. Then I unfortunately already woke up.

This was my 60th lucid dream.

All I know is that I was in some kind of hotel and that I was in an elevator, and then for some reason it suddenly dropped down and I realized this kind of danger is unrealistic so I RC'd and became lucid. I tried to "zone" out of the elevator but to no avail, for some reason I didn't have much control, it was much like my visualization attempt fails. Even though the elevator just went up some 30 or 40 meters the drop took about a minute or so after which I at least got the elevator to slow down, but I wasn't really any much lower than before (when I turned around I could see out through a glas wall).

After that I already woke up because I was freezing as hell in my tent...

This dream is really old, I don't even know how old (5-8 years I guess). I just found my notes I made on paper back then, so now I will put it up here.

I was in some kind of subway-station and I was intercepting an invasion armada of some kind, and I also know that in that subway I got the first kill that's been made in that conflict. Everything was really dark and dirty and there seemed to be a little fog around. I've been fighting normal humans, even though my dream told me they were Diclonii (which was definitely wrong).

The special thing about this dream was what I felt, it was some absolutely insane bloodthirst. It wasn't unreasonable bloodthirst, so I was able to distinguish what to attack and what not, but apart from that the feeling was so intense it made out most of the dream actually. I never felt anything as intense in waking life, compared to that dream waking life emotions just seem really flat alltogether.

Wow, it's been a long time since I made one of these, here goes:

Shoot the Putin:
I was in building that was so big I couldn't even see the walls or the ceiling, there were lots of pillars (one every 10m or so in all directions) and a bunch of people (one of them looked horribly similar to Putin). I somehow got into an argument with them and then they started chasing and shooting at me. We were circling around one of the pillars and I had my own gun and started firing back, the projectiles were tiny black balls which moved in a straight line but rather slow so it was possible to avoid them, they never hit me but I hit everyone of them at least once. The projectiles actually pierced into their flesh and even through bones but somehow the wounds still weren't really bad and not even bleeding. Specifically I remember shooting at Putin 3 times, the last bullet hitting, before the dream ended.

Black Fox:
I was in my old home in M. again, maybe this dream even was somehow related to the lucid I had today. I was in the cellar and the 3 rooms that were in line there somehow instead were connected into one room now. I was standing in front of that room and there was a door to this room that had a complex shape, somewhat like a distorted grid. Behind that was a black fox, he looked really tame and friendly but I still was careful how he would react to me, as he was behind that door he couldn't reach me though, not sure what he was dooing there anyway but it was his decision to be there as the other doors to the room were actually non-existent. He came close to the grid-like door and put his paws on the metal shape, and I carefully touched them, the fox apparently being friendly indeed and content with being touched. Some time later I was walking around and wondered where he went after seeing the cat eating his food. Maybe there was some other scene with that fox but I don't remember.

Metal Gear Solid [The girl and the brothers]:
This dream was entirely about 2 games playing in the MGS universe, one of them having a girl as the protagonist which had a blade mounted to her right arm. The other was about 2 brothers, one of them with a gun mounted to his left arm, the other with a gun mounted to his right arm, I saw them running and jumping through a few scenes, most notably one where the brothers were walking alongside so that their guns were pointing outwards, they also were using them a few times in that scene though I didn't see what they were shooting at.

For some reason I can't really recall the first part of this dream or how I got lucid in the first place, kinda weird as I was lucid, and with some good quality as well.

My recall started when I was looking at the seat of the living room of one of my prior homes in M.
The dream could have started somewhere entirely different, and I'm sure that I was lucid for some minutes already and that I did something else, also I know that my girlfriend was in the room and that for once she didn't just exist, but we were actually talking about a lot of stuff.

I looked up from the seat I was staring at (something was lying on it but I don't know what it was) so now I was seeing the aquarium in the back of the room. My mind was clear and this time I wanted to summon my dream guide for real. I focused my mind and clarified what my dream guide should be and do, and then tried it. Even though I knew I had quite a bit of control all I got was a piece of wood... I then tried to pull a person out of it in case someone was hiding in that shape, again without success, it was indeed a dead piece of wood. Then there was a weird scene with some tiny cassettes I can't explain, but I know that they told me that as a matter of fact I don't have anything like a actual Dream Guide.

Maybe my girlfriend is my Dream Guide and I should try to teach her how to make me lucid in dreams and stuff like that. Maybe I should scrap the idea of a Dream Guide in my dreams altogether in favor of focusing on something else. Oh and the kind of dream guide I was talking about is something internal, not a spirit guide. I already wondered whether my summon attempts maybe went in that direction or whether I maybe should try to summon a spirit guide intentional.

Anyway, the fact that I had a lucid so fast again is a good sign, it's now going up for me and I have a little hope that it will never go down again. Also I woke up a lot more often and can recall at least 2 more dreams as well as being yet a little step closer to WILDing thanks to talks about not trying to stay aware but simply choosing to do so, it really made more of a difference to take that approach than I even was expecting.

Well this is the first dream in my DJ which I'll tag with nightmare, though it doesn't qualify as a real nightmare since it didn't get me unnerved at all.

I was in my home (which of course looked totally different like always, the rooms were rather thin and long stretched), my girlfriend was present as well but barely participated at all. At some point I had a weird somewhat painful feeling in my mouth and then half of a tooth broke off. I was somewhat annoyed but didn't remotely react to the situation like one would in real life, at some point the half tooth in my hand suddenly was a row of 3 which stuck to each other as well as being half soft and crumbly (really weird consistence). Then the PSU of my PC started to smoke and I just calmly turned off the electricity, one ore 2 more minutes later I had a thought along the lines of "Well fuck all this, this is a dream anyway". (Yeah, even when I have something nightmarish I don't really care)

I don't really know if there was much of an intermission here, maybe just a few seconds maybe 2 minutes.

I thought that I wanted to have a lucid dream, I was sleeping before (definitely didn't open my eyes) but I've just been seeing some phosphenia, I focused on what I've seen and I tried to see grass and a simple green landscape. It was hard but I had success! What I've been seeing slowly morphed and I barely felt my body at all. After a minute or 2 I was in a forest and I turned into Ryuuko as much as I could, I didn't feel much from my new body but at least I had my wings, I used them for strengthened jumps to get up into the trees, but that's where my dream ends already. I lost awareness and woke up soon after.


Well this was my first real DEILD and my first success in really getting into a dream from a state of phosphenia. There's been at least one case before were I was very close already though.
I guess my first WILD may really draw close

I was lying down in bed like usual and it was my 3rd sleep phase that day, I configured my smartphone alarm (Dream as Android) to skip recording 27 minutes, and I had my 56th lucid dream. I tried focusing on phosphenia as usual and fell asleep within very few minutes.

I was in my home (which like usually wasn't remotely like my actual home, it was a big and complex building) and was only wearing underwear. I became lucid fast for no specific reason.

I tried to fly and while that worked the windows and walls proved to be impenetrable, I even tried using a flame blast which materialized as a dark red beam, which however didn't leave a scratch, I guess my home is supposed not to be destroyed by me
So I just went through the doors (like 5 rooms, the building was big and mostly blue), and when I was outside I could fly perfectly and with exceptional ease, it was easier than walking is in real life. It was night und I was looking at things from above, the house looked smaller and more normal from the outside. I applied some kind of invincibility nano armor scales and let myself drop to the ground, slightly shattering the ground.

Then I went through a forest and tried focusing on details, with a lot of success, for the first time I can really recall that the details were absolutely like in real life, maybe even slightly better. After some time I had contact with some people and tried reading what was written on some chocolate, after just a second of focusing I was able to read, and consistently at that, things didn't change once written at all. I even noticed some false grammar which after waking up proved indeed to be an perfectly correct assumption from me. I also tried some but it didn't taste crazy or anything, just pretty weak like chocolate. Someone was offering me chocolate with hazelnuts but I wasn't interested.

Then I was in some kind of weird building (nothing too fancy but I just can't describe it, there was a lot of stuff scattered all over the place) were I was talking with generic dream characters about jokes, I know I remembered one of them after waking up, but forgot it now cause it was not that interesting.
I was constantly wondering when the dream would end and this time around it seems my REM phase got weak and I woke up (I think there was something in real life helping as well).

I'll skip my improval notes because this dream was kind of like breaking my personal wall of sound that had be keeping me down for nearly 2 years! When I woke up my alarm just started recording so all that happened within like 25 minutes of me falling asleep. When resuming sleep I felt that the barrier keeping me from falling asleep conscious "took a serious blow", but after some minutes I fell asleep normally again. I may still take some weeks or months till my first real WILD but for the first time I feel I'm getting close!