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    1. Darts-Theft - Sailing On A Lake - Venedioid City

      by , 12-28-2013 at 12:27 PM
      First Dream:

      Our old house got a huge renovation - with ripping out cables and water-supply and heating installations.
      For some reason, there were many people there for visit - two friends of mine and around five others.
      We wanted to play darts and put up a weird contraption on ropes and chains - dangling it from the ceiling more or less, but fixing to the floor.
      Everybody wanted to try out my darts - and I was trying out other people`s.
      Then mine were gone - big search and turning over everything - it was clear, somebody had taken them - but we couldn't find out who.
      I needed them for an upcoming tourney - and in the dream they had been very expensive - and I had not enough money to get new ones.
      So I tried out others - but couldn't get along with them.


      Second Dream:

      I woke up between dreams - but anyway - part of the solution to the darts-loss came in this one.
      It was clear that they had been stolen, because I found the wallet, they were in originally lying in the sand of a beach at the lake.
      I was there for sun-bathing - when I went into a cafe - I met an old friend of mine - and he invited me to join him and two others on a sailing boat on the lake.
      This was a wonderful dream - looking at the landscape, feeling the wind and spray of the water and the sun.
      Extremely vivid for a non-lucid - well - for a lucid it also would have been - veery vivid.
      Only negative thing, was an argument with a friend of mine already on the boat - why she wouldn't have told me about the sailing and had invited me.
      Turned out, she had a crush on that guy sailing with us and was afraid, I might snap him away from her.


      Third Dream:

      Not sure which - but a German city was laid out like Venedig - with canals for streets.
      I had started a job there - but stayed in a hotel for first - it was a bit problematic for me to see through how transportation worked there - came late - but wasn't a problem - to my big relief.
      I had to go buy new clothes too - having gained so much weight, that nothing fit anymore (inspiration not hard to decipher - this time of the year gives me an extra 2 kg regularly - couldn't close some last buttons yesterday, too..). The only thing I found was a tent-like jeans-dress - like for pregnant women - great..
      What was nice was one snippet from that dream - I saw a dog jump from the balcony of a 4th story flat - into the water - and bouncing back out - up to a balcony on the opposite side of the street on the 2nd floor.
      Then the dog told me, that this bouncing was a speciality of these canals - and that he would always do it like that to visit another dog.


      There was more to the dreams - but - while posting a lot - I always get a bit nerved by writing DJ and rather hold it short and do not give it much effort to make it nicely written - maybe later - not much time, though - and need to do it for the comp..
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      non-lucid
    2. Pogo Dancing - Lego And Rodents - FDJ Kids And Stinking Lake Of Urine - Poison Dart Frogs

      by , 12-27-2013 at 01:42 PM
      I have markedly more recall then usual - and - I am probably too lazy to explain, where all the stuff is connected to inputs/outputs/experiences from yesterday - but loads.
      Maybe I make this: * whereever I see connections.

      First Dream:

      I was in a club with my husband - a punk band was playing and people jumping about doing pogo.
      When I wanted to the bar - I threw myself into that and got pogo-danced to my destination - was the only way to get somewhere.
      We met a girl later, who told us, she got thrown out of a squat by the police - but dream-logically - went with us to show us the place. Somehow she had gotten it back, because it was so loud there, nobody wanted to rent it.
      It was a really nice little one-room affair and she had a high-bed* platform installed almost over the whole room.
      I was also looking for a flat in that expensive city - and thought - why not such a thing, not directly at a big street - but the size would be okay.

      On the way to our small hotel - I lost sight of my husband and searched the streets - but I found him back.


      Second Dream*:

      I was visiting a friend and her family - rather her and her children.
      And I had given as a present to one very young girl a box with something like Lego.
      She had been somewhere to play with it with others and their sets - but being so young - the mother had gotten her home earlier than the whole children-play-meeting ended.
      I convinced her, that in actuality - there had been no reason to take her home so early - she was a bit unhappy.
      But she also had gotten a pair of some sort of rodents - they also looked a bit like finches - and we played with them - the mother had a book about what to do with them/how to care for them.
      This whole dream got to do with Alricīs Santa thread..


      Third Dream:

      I was on my way home - and saw about 30 children in FDJ-uniforms (former DDR/east Germany youth organisation - I am from the west, though) being marched by a militarily dressed and behaving woman from a house on a hill into the streets.
      They all had small posters, on which there was advertisement to smoke tobacco and drink alcohol.
      Didn't even make sense to me in my dream..
      Maybe a missed opportunity for RCing.
      Then my bike broke down - I tried to repair it - and hurt myself and was dirty from that already - when I decided to take the subway.
      Now it got really nasty - once I went down the stairs - it was a horizontal shaft, where I only could rob on my stomach.
      And worse yet - there was about 10 cm of really horribly stinking old urine* standing in that tunnel.
      The rationalisation then was, that it was not the subway, but some sort of public toilet.
      I didn't have any strength left to rob towards the light.
      Luckily I woke up.
      Just as one aside here - reading The Lies Of Locke Lamorra at the moment - where somebody gets put in a barrel with horse-urine to drown in - which he doesn't - but anyway.


      Fourth Dream:

      Once more at the house of the parents of my first boyfriend.
      This time - another guy was the one, on whom the constant blame was cast - and rightly so - he just lived there uninvited and constantly nagged for money and help, because he was supposedly orphaned - but he was in his 20s - and from Poland, and couldnīt go back and lalala.
      There were several episodes - one was the family and me playing solving optical puzzles - there were cards, which supposedly belonged in a certain order - and one should stick them together as they fit.
      This was very difficult - always, when we thought, we got something - there was a little mismatch somewhere.
      The geometry of this is hard to explain - like a card-house a bit - but with slots..
      And the prize for just putting together something was getting a good coffee from the new maschine.
      Mistake - and you got only sugared milk* instead .. (*got that yesterday - hubby not getting along with the new espresso-machine of his parents..).
      There was an episode, where I found out, my ex would love freckles in girls - and I have 3 and a half myself in summer - but I found a lotion, which promised to produce more of them.
      I didnīt use it though - afraid to look like an idiot.
      When the mom said at another point - this Polish guy would be a pest - but having me around would be neutral - but nothing nice either - I went out to pick her some flowers.
      Suddenly my ex was also there - and he showed me a hedge where hundreds if not thousands of poison dart frogs were meeting to find a partner - in all colours - it was beautiful!!
      Later we also met a friendly dog the size of an elephant being walked on the sidewalk.


      There is actually much more - Iīm lazy writing.
      I will add two fragments later on.

      Somehow, I didn't care much about recall lately - meaning I didn't mantra on it or anything.
      But yesterday I thought - come on - you can do better than that - and just told myself so before sleep.
      It might sound as if I wanted to brag - but honestly - I do next to nothing in the moment - maybe one RC a day and some affirmations when lying in bed before sleeping..

      Memorable was the sight of these frogs:

      Updated 01-27-2014 at 06:55 PM by 66050

      Categories
      dream fragment , non-lucid , memorable
    3. Finally Long Lucid Again - Finally Snowman Dancing - One Less Nice Dream

      by , 12-26-2013 at 11:46 AM
      Soo happy - pure DILD without WBTB - I recognized being at my childhood home with my mother.
      Did RC - and actually I have been thinking, that my fingers being not countable might be pure expectation - since in the past I had just seen my hands normally.
      And so it was - counted 5 fingers on each hand - I knew somehow I was dreaming anyway, though - and convinced myself with nose-plug.
      I stabilized with handrubbing and with turning around slowly.
      I had read, that the spinning, which is meant to stabilize should be done slowly.
      And it worked - seems my brain produced ever clearer surroundings by me relatively slowly turning around and taking it all in.

      I did this twice more in that dream, and found it a real help with sub-optimal optics.
      I mostly did have suboptimal optics - but could freshen them up like this.
      This time I started out with remembering, what my goals were.
      And they were step two for comp. - basic summoning, and then I wanted transformation in that arctic wolf.
      But the snowman also came to my mind.

      So I started by imagining a necklace a bit like the one from my last lucid in a drawer.
      It wasnīt in though - but a chaotic assortment of socks and gloves and folding umbrellas.

      So I tried it with the door of the house - really convincing myself, that a certain friend of mine would stand on the other side.
      I hope it counts, that another guy stood behind that door??

      So then I went out - left that guy standing - he wasnīt overly animated anyway - and went out.
      Flew around a bit - looking for snow - and it worked again, that from seeing something white - I was able to transform the landscape a bit in the difference into a winter-scene with thick snow lying on the ground.
      No need to let it snow.
      On the way - twice a DC wanted to lure me into doing something else - but I told them, I had no time.
      Then I tried to transform into an arctic wolf.
      The only thing I managed was feeling white hair growing from my body everywhere - and that took ages - somehow I gave up - thinking - common - December almost through - do at least that snowman.

      And I did - a small one - maybe 40 cm all in all - but from real snow, and this time I had some stones and branches for a face and it looked nice and friendly.
      Then I animated it - that was quite easy - I just pretended it was a dancing decoration snowman already - and it started dancing - it had two snow-ball feet (not from me..) and hopped from one to the other to a melody which he somehow caused himself.

      Very happy with the achievement - I woke up.
      Probably somehow on purpose - having thought, I had done all there was to do in that LD.
      Weell - I donīt regret it.

      One normal dream:

      Something I have dreamt before - I had finished school already - and had gotten a good mark overall - but suddenly this was not enough for some reason and I had to do the last class again.
      With younger classmates - some people I knew from real life, who were much younger than me.
      I was angry and not motivated and didnīt attend most classes - being on the lake instead etc. - not accepting this sort of.
      But when I had to attend - I suddenly wasnīt able to follow the proceedings - and got more pissed off, they made me do it again.
      There was a bit more, which I want to leave out - also not nice.
      In the end I got thrown out, because of misdemeanor - and it was unclear if I could go to university with what I got.
      Dream ended before I could find that out.
      I wonder, why so many dreams go about school and old friends from school - and comparatively much less with my actual recent friends and my husband, with whom I really spend time - also older jobs are not represented accordingly..?

      Updated 12-26-2013 at 11:34 PM by 66050

      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid , task of the month
    4. Night Before Last Night - Two Dreams

      by , 12-24-2013 at 11:36 PM
      First Dream:

      I was in a cellar to find x-mas decoration - and a coffee-pot.
      There were several cans of colour - open, and a bit dried up already - but I thought - great, now I can try out painting something with acrylic lacquer - and started painting on a wall in that cellar.
      It was colours swirling into each other - and eyes - many different eyes - different sizes - some small and almost hidden - and a big one.
      Then my grandma came down - asking for the pot and the deco - and I searched for quite a while, till I was happy and thought, I had found everything.
      But the pot was not working - it was suddenly supposed to be a water-cooker as well.
      Also it was not greeted with approval, that I had stayed away from the gathering so long..

      Second Dream:

      The second was going slate-driving down a mountain with a friend from school - nothing really special happened.
      Except that we had to fix it, because we broke it in a curve.
      Afterwards we were at the restaurant/hotel this friendīs parents have in real life - again some sequence with searching a toilet - otherwise - not much more there in my memory.

      I stupidly only write it now - but driving down to Bavaria and family lalala..


      Last night - nothing..
      Slept only very little - no recall.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    5. Only One Fragment Today - Research With Lucid Rats

      by , 12-22-2013 at 04:53 PM
      Maybe something more shows up - but rather not - Iīll put a number in anyway..
      Didnīt dictate - didnīt sleep well - was a bit under the weather..

      1.) Fragment:

      I sit in a laboratory with three guys all in white-coats, and there was an experiment going on, about brain-chemistry.
      And they didnīt know about LD - and I started telling them - one was not impressed - but I tried to motivate the other two to do an experiment like that one, we did - but with lucidity - in rats - ah well.
      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment
    6. Monster-Rabbit And Monster-Dog And A DEILD Between Two Useless Mini-Lucids

      by , 12-21-2013 at 02:07 PM
      First Dream:

      I saw a rabbit sitting in a meadow - a fat one - not the wild ones - like they are held as pets.
      It somehow looked sinister - it looked into my eyes and something was wrong.
      In the fur appeared (yes - I had noted it not being there before) a piece of paper with handwriting.
      And it said, once I had touched the paper and such the rabbit - it would be my curse.
      And it was - I didnīt get rid of it - not possible to lock it in somewhere - not even to lock me in somewhere - he always came through and needed to be fed a lot - which was not a nice sight, more like a vulture in eating style. Also it kept looking at me nastily.
      When I plotted with a friend, how to kill it - it got aggressive and started biting and being toxic.
      We managed somehow, though - to get rid of it - only for me to then have the same problem, just in much bigger with an enormous black dog - sheep-size.
      Similar story - but end of the dream was - dog locked in in a car - me feeling safe for a while (why ever - they always broke out..).


      WBTB after 6 hours of sleep - in my sleeping position on my stomach WILD try.
      This time really concentrating on my mantras and not falling asleep in no time like last stomach try.
      Eventually I gave up and rolled to the other side - fell asleep.
      Had one of the in the house of this friendīs parents dream - much less nervy than usual.
      Actually with a weird twist - I had looked at photos from ages ago, that he made irl, when I finished school.
      And I accused him of having made great copies on photo-paper for my friends - and I was supposed to get them later - being "family" - with me it was okay to not be ready, when he said so..
      Thatīs even true - still donīt have them..
      And lo and behold - his mother was on my side.

      Maybe that was so unusual - donīt know - did a RC - looking at hands and counting fingers - sure enough they got more and more with the counting.
      Dream very unstable - and I forgot to stabilize or think of my goals..
      Woke up - and was again, which is nice - able to DEILD right back in.

      Not much good it did me - again only RC - and I actually must have forgotten something.
      Because I had a reason, to want up a tree - and canīt remember it.
      There was a leaf-tree close - with thin branches with leafs in my reach.
      What I did think was - lucid - I should have the strength to just grab up and up and go up that tree like an ape.
      Nope - the last scene was me hanging maybe 1 meter over the ground, having my arms slung around a bunch of branches.
      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid
    7. Waking Nomadīs Project - A Weird Darts Match - Holiday With My Husband

      by , 12-20-2013 at 01:25 PM
      First Fragment:

      I was on the forum - first just normally - later it was like a multi-skype with people having animated talking avatars. Waking Nomad had a project, which was very important to him - and he somehow travelled the pages - there were more and more pages - like he went for a walk to try and convince people to take part in it. But it wasnīt his real remote-viewing experiment but something other.
      Unfortunately I only remember this as a bunch of mini-fragments/pictures.
      But he changed from his avatar to the picture of him, I had seen on here.
      Saying - he "walked" over the pages - that does not really describe it properly - these pages had weird properties - I am not clear enough in my memory to describe it better.


      Second Fragment:

      I was on holiday with my husband at a beach and playing shuttlecock - and I remember to want to convince him, to put a shirt on - because he had a pretty bad sunburn on his shoulders.
      But he wouldnīt - saying he doesnīt feel anything.


      First Dream:

      I am at a darts-competition to play an important match, for which I had been practising for for ages - and was quite good.
      When it was about to start - my darts were gone.
      I went around to look, if somebody can lend me theirs - after having searched all over the place.
      There was audience - like in the huge championships - and they were booing and getting impatient..
      Finally I got three darts - but all different shape and weight.
      For some reason this made me decide to not throw all at treble 20 for scoring - but one there, one treble 19 and one treble 18.
      First throw - hit them all.
      Other guy - 180.
      Next I couldnīt throw them - all out of the scoring area..
      Guy hits next 180 - I am throwing some crap - but so does he, and somehow I ended up winning the leg - and that was then suddenly all there was to the match.
      Weirdest thing - I had to give these darts back and searched for the owners to do this - didnīt find any owners - and then didnīt find the place, where I would have gotten the trophy.
      Woke up before I found any of this..
      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment
    8. Sneezing And Coughing And Not Remembering Much..

      by , 12-19-2013 at 09:04 PM
      Dream:

      I was sick in some way in the dream as well - like upon waking up.
      Especially I was not able to talk - true, couldnīt almost any more after two phone-calls.
      But in some way - this was a reason not to go to our old house, where my mother lived.

      I wanted to get a book, which in the dream I had read twice before, and wasnīt sure, if it was worth working through once more. It was in that house.
      I wanted to then maybe read it somewhere else - at a friendīs place.
      Trying to evade my mother.

      But in the end, I climbed in over the balcony - she was there, petting an enormous, lovely dog.
      Was no problem, that I sneaked in - talked with her - and took the book with me.
      Didnīt get to read it, though.

      Again - old house went unnoticed - even "decorated" with my mother.


      Fragment:

      With this friend from the last dream - I was going out in the evening - all dressed up - and we went into the bar of a famous, huge hotel.
      Watching the ongoings and talking about people - both looking for somebody worth taking up contact with - no such luck.
      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment
    9. Purple Patch!! My Longest LD Since Joining Here - Maybe Longest Ever!

      by , 12-18-2013 at 03:13 PM
      There is so much to write - I will do it in chunks over the day.
      Even more than the below - but I leave it at a dream and a fragment - forgot what I had dictated.

      An earlier dream:
      I was in a lecture on dream-content and real life connections.
      It was possible to watch other persons dreams - also my own ones.
      But in the end it was about a supposedly very famous case of - on the one hand mental disorder - on the other hand manifesting things from his dreams in the real world.
      Funny, now I got to think about Mylynes tutorial..
      But he calls it hallucination - in my dream it was manifestation.

      An earlier fragment:
      Sitting with a friend of mine in a café she knows the owner of and eating lots of delicious cakes with cream.
      There is a beautiful girl next table over - but somehow we know, her boyfriend will not come - leave her like that altogether - and we talked about that.


      The dream:
      I did a WBTB after 7+ hours of falling asleep - trying WILD a la Sageous.
      Almost worked - at one point I felt myself slipping in some weird bodily way and saw maybe 10 light-points on the back of my eye-lids - and that startled me awake.
      Aha!
      Got to tell Sageous - fell into the trap he so much tries people to warn of..
      Naja - after it was clear I was too awake - also with frustration - I rolled over and slept.

      The following dream had me - luckily! - at that house of my first boyfriendīs parents again.
      The usual business - if you want to look for the non-lucid part of it - just read back some nights - and you get the picture.
      I came to hate these weird dreams lately.
      This time the thought popped into my mind - like hm - I dream of this sometimes.
      Then it almost went like my last posted miss in the "most stupid way.." - I "concluded" - but it must be real - I am here after all! Name:  rolleyes.gif
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      This time I RCed anyway.
      I had lucids, where it was obvious from the onset - but this again was one, where I did about 5 RCs before believing it.
      I keep suspecting that I cheat on the nose-plug - but the finger-counting seems very reliable.
      Yepp - lucid!

      I hovered a bit and looked at things - trying to change objects for the competition.
      But it didnīt work at all - what I looked at fiercely - just got more detailed and clear and more beautiful - but didnīt change.
      That was a bit frustrating - I also tried it on the younger brother - but that ended up otherwise.
      No dream-sex as such, not even touching each other - but lets say - we were on about it on our owns.
      But didnīt work completely - rather I felt excited for a while afterwards - sort of didnīt get rid of it.
      Maybe I edit this out later - but why actually not write it.
      What I keep out of here are rather conflicts or situations too close to my personality/real life concerns.

      Naja - I made fun of everybody without feeling guilty (the mother, the brother, some visitor) - or maybe it is better to say - I made a joke out of myself with "outrageous behaviour".

      Then I left the flat - I didnīt think of TOTMs the whole dream - but I did think about the comp.
      Maybe because I didnīt manage that change-stuff - and this was the next and such only goal.
      Outside I started flying about normally - and came down on the roof of an abandoned train-wagon.

      Then it came to my mind to try flying superwoman style.
      Took my right arm up and at a steep angle - well - and wasnīt prepared at all for what I "expected".
      I shot up at that angle in an absolutely mind-boggling speed - in one blink - I was so high, I almost couldnīt discern features on the ground any more.
      I believe I squealed and wailed and was absolutely terrified..
      Even worse almost - having to decide and take that arm down and expecting not to fall - in less than a second - but I managed to float down.

      I met a friend of mine then - in front of her door - we went up into her room, talked a bit - I forgot to tell her I was dreaming and see what she says - I just pretended to be normal.
      When she left the room for some reason - I tried to change her jewellery on a shelf - again - stuff got more sparkly and intricate - but didnīt change.

      After quite a lot of effort - I thought - ah well - I do it with looking away and expecting sweets instead of a pendant - this worked!
      It was chocolate with metallic-looking wrapping - I unwrapped it and ate it.
      Even tasted like chocolate - but not very intensely - and again - it was a bit difficult to feel it in my mouth. Forgot counting eating for the comp..

      I was again outside after that, from where I woke up - but I canīt remember any thing at the moment about what that was.

      Updated 12-19-2013 at 12:56 AM by 66050

      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid , memorable , dream fragment
    10. Lucid - Again No Animated Snowman - But Some Fun With Summoning

      by , 12-17-2013 at 02:54 PM
      After 8 h WBTB - maybe 10 min. SSILD-activities - these made me tired and want to roll over.


      First dream:
      What resulted was a very vivid dream - started nicely with being hiking in the summer with a group of friends - we made a pause at a cottage to eat and drink something. But first I was missing my cigarettes - then also mobile phone and purse.

      We suspected a woman, who had behaved weirdly and turned her eyes away when looked at.
      So a friend of mine helped me nail her down - like managed against her will to look into her bag - and there the cigarettes were.
      And I saw something, which looked like another purse of mine than the one, I was looking for.

      I left it be - but later, considering the cell-phone - I wanted to catch up with her, to look again.
      I knew at that point, that she lived in the same house where I lived - just one story below.
      There was only her kid - telling me, his parents would be at the gynaecologist.

      So I went there - confronted her - and against even physical hassling from her husband - I got my phone and purse back, and left the practice.
      This was all in front of the other patients/their partners.

      On returning home - the story had seemingly gone on without me - and the janitor of the house had called the police about it.
      This husband would have been violent again and was shot dead - lying on a stretcher - with a law medical examiner - who by the way had made an x-ray (in our flat - wtf??) - he showed it to me - and again there was a fixateure interne in his spine (like in mine some dreams back).
      This whole thing somehow lead to a general police alert all over the city - and throngs of police were holding a meeting in a big railway-station hall - really huge.

      Second dream:
      Like so often I was in search for a flat - and was with several other interested people looking at a weird longish flat with glass roof.
      It looked like some train-department with 70s-style rounded windows rimmed in red etc.
      But then the real-estate-guy took a remote control - and the roof folded away - so you could make the whole flat open to the sky.

      Later I was test- sitting on a high-bench maybe 50 cm deep but around 4-5 meters up.
      Now comes the mad part - I got lucid from the fact, that I was afraid of that height.
      Even sitting there safe and all - I had such a visceral fear - and I couldnīt overcome it - looking at the side of that bench, and considering climbing down made me almost sick.

      Now in real life - I have almost no fear of any heights - going rock-climbing in the mountains sometimes.

      So - I went for nose-plug - questioning this reaction - yepp - I was able to breathe.
      But like once before - I had the feeling, I might subconsciously be cheating - like not really holding the nose completely closed or whatever.

      So I took my hands up to look - and again - they looked all right at first - just a bit blurry - but that didnīt convince me - when I started counting fingers, though - it seemed my hand was sprouting fingers as I went - they even bifurcated.
      But somehow, I wasnīt as lucid as I used to be two weeks back with easy fearless flying.
      I climbed down that thing..

      Unfortunately - I didnīt first change something or somebody - but did basic summoning then.
      My comp tasks are first object/DC change - and then summoning.
      I was sitting on the ground - and expecting somebody coming round the corner.
      Instantly something dark moved about there - but I willed a guy to come around because I was in a certain mood ..ähämmm.
      He did come around the corner - was naked and inspiring - but we didnīt touch.
      Mixing stuff up - I stupidly first asked for a present - and got a cat-reaction (when I asked a cat last month, what she was thankful for - she looked disdainfully and stalked off).
      He shook his head and went back around that corner.

      I woke up shortly - and right back into a lucid dream - so DEILD.

      Third dream:
      I was standing outside at the border of a meadow with many trees.
      And I had to RC several times again - not high lucidity, but high realism.
      After that - I had nicely stabilized by hand rubbing and inspecting things closely.

      So I thought - meanwhile pretty clearly - lets make that snowman.
      I saw a birch or otherwise white-branched tree - and convinced myself of that being snow - and it snowing back there.
      I think, I get the hang of that firmly expecting stuff.
      Instantly it started snowing everywhere and strongly, and there was snow on the ground, which didnīt first have to pile up like last time.
      This second time around was so much faster and better.
      I am really surprised how much practice seems to really help with specific things.
      So I knelt down - felt the snow very realistic again - and made a small ball - maybe 20 cm diameter only.
      It didnīt really easily want to stick together, by the way.
      And then the damnated real life doorbell rang!!


      Now I get angry at this quite a bit - but I took it unusually mellow and didnīt rip anybodyīs head off, when it happened.


      Fragment one:
      There was a physics experiment with a complicated installation and it was about, if my emotional state could influence the flow of electricity - and there was something, to make the flow visible.
      And I could change that - what it read/showed.
      But later it was found out, that I didnīt really change the flow - only what we all saw as a read-out.


      Fragment two:
      I was listening with a group to somebody recommending vacations, and what you could do there and there.
      Strangely - it was also about lying in the sun - and the recommendation was to do sunbathing at a lake - but when at the sea - he said, one could then at least sun-bath in the forests close to the sea..??

      Updated 12-17-2013 at 03:51 PM by 66050

      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment , lucid , task of the month
    11. Not Much - One Stupid Recurring Dream And A Fragment

      by , 12-16-2013 at 02:40 PM
      Very late in bed and stone-tired - not motivated to WBTB or properly journal with my micro.
      But what is nice, is that some parts and pieces show up in my mind on their own - will later try to squeeze out some more from my brain.

      One dream:
      Again (ffs!) I am at this house, I am never wanted at - of the parents of my first boyfriend.
      But again - we were much older.
      In this dream - there was a snippet, where I wanted to use the toilet, and it wasnīt locked - I even looked, if it showed red (it was such a door). It wasnīt - I opened the door a bit - and got it slammed back closed by the irate mother - assuming, I did that on purpose - and giving me a piece of her mind, so to speak.
      These dreams are full of silly crap..
      There never is much interaction with him - it is mainly conflicts with his parents - esp. the mother.
      And in each dream of the five I have on here now - every time, I "did something wrong" - and got expelled more or less nicely - actually every time it is something new I did wrong.
      This time - again winter, again x-mas time - I was there for visit - but when then the big family walk after food was being walked - I asked my ex, what would be the problem - why she would be so hostile.
      And he said, it is because she disapproves of me having an affair with him, while he also has a girlfriend.
      This was true then - even when I am pretty sure, it wasnīt before we went out - just "a friend" back then I believe.

      A fragment:
      I took a walk through a forest with very dark trees - without leaves - but many branches being a bit meandering - even contorted. I was walking on a high pass - I could look down a rather steep decline to the right through the trees - and next to that decline started agricultural fields with some sort of grain being grown there.
      But maybe 4 meters broad stretch with trees between me and that decline.
      It was dark from all the branches in that place I was in - and below it was "daylight".

      Updated 12-16-2013 at 08:01 PM by 66050

      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment
    12. Finally Lucid Again - Being Hugged And Swirled And Keeping Eyes Closed TOTM

      by , 12-15-2013 at 07:23 PM
      I went to bed late - woke up only 2 h later - and had no recall - didnīt try very hard.
      Seven hours after falling asleep - I did my WBTB.
      Reading through my workbooks - I found out, that the successful tries were all rather late - misleading, that I had put alarms earlier - but did the actual attempts later.
      Good that I kept book with this.

      I remember two dreams from before, one older fragment - and the dream, that made me lucid.
      Again I had given up on WILD - with RC this time - not a FA - rolled over and fell asleep.

      That dream was again situated at my old school - but I was grown up - like my friends - and we were organizing an exhibition of what we were doing now - it later changed into mainly an art/handicraft/invention show.
      I was going outside on the school yard - and noticed, that I was naked - two attractive young beaus close - after a short shame reaction and flight reflex - I suddenly realized that noo way I would be naked there!!

      Copy-Paste from TOTM:

      Quote Originally Posted by StephL View Post
      Soo happy - 7 days nothing - and now I even managed a task!
      Also the "harder" basic one.



      Bit weird - I had be-mantra-ed and visualized and so on - my most frequent dream-signs in the day - and also put intent on all but that task.
      What made me lucid, was ironically one of my dream-signs, which I hadnīt worked on: being naked in public.
      I thought - noo way would I be naked here - bam!

      Was obvious - needed no RCing - buut: I did the hand-looking again - and first I thought - wow - they are perfect from the get-go - no need for staring them sharp - but when I counted fingers - I had one more on the right hand!
      Now Iīm not sure, if it was because I expected it or not - but it was an interesting sight.

      And then - an attractive guy, who was standing there with a friend - came up to me - hugged me, lifted me and started swirling me around.
      Thatīs when I closed my eyes - spontaneously - and remembered the task - and kept them closed and counted.
      All the while being hugged and swirled, which felt wonderful.
      And when I opened them - he put me down - and there was still the dream - so I guess it counts - even if I woke up maybe only some seconds afterwards..?
      This eye-closing can be great, if you have something to feel!!


      Soo happy, it started working again!!

      Earlier Dream 1:

      Again a journey with a bus (not that I would have ever done a lot of these - in school/in my youth latest).
      Me and a group of maybe ten more people were staying at hotel, which was almost empty - and had for some reason two staircases next to each other - some weird spatial relations - canīt really it picture any more - only a bit.
      We had been staying there - but in far apart rooms - and most of these rooms didnīt even have furniture besides a mattress and some junk - but there was a breakfast room, where we met up - all a bit over plush and baroque-style there - lots of velvet and diamond-knurling (looked it up..).
      When the bus was about to depart - I had to use the toilet super-urgently - and hunted through this building for a facility. Finally decided on an unorthodox one - and got caught of course.
      But I managed to keep her from telling somebody else and making stress.
      Then of course - the bus was gone - but I found it after some back and forth around the corner.
      And we departed - home actually it was to.

      Earlier Dream 2:

      I had to lead a discussion and brainstorming group - and nobody wanted to contribute - and it was not on me, to do it myself.
      So I thought, how I could lure them out.
      I tried to plant some ideas, but making them think, they would be theirs - and be in the mood to follow them.
      This worked quite nicely - until one woman stood up and kicked up a general fuss - accusing me of this - and making it sound as if I would brain-wash people.
      But then she got going, and came up with tons of ideas of the sort, that was useful.
      The others only looked on - and me and her ended up in agreement.
      So sad, I forgot, what it was about.

      Earlier Fragment:

      Doing removals again - this time not from free choice and after my will - but I had to.
      Needing to find a new job.
      It was stress and I felt, it was my fault how it came to pass.

      Updated 12-16-2013 at 01:48 AM by 66050

      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid , dream fragment , side notes , task of the month
    13. Fragments-Up-Conjuring By Really Concentrating - Sageous-Inspired Highrise Building

      by , 12-14-2013 at 05:28 PM
      I had my usual Friday with a lot of darts-throwing and jolliness - later somebody came along with a bottle of very fine whiskey - lets say, I found my bed around 3 or 4 in the morning.
      I didnīt even seriously expect myself to do journalling - and I didnīt dictate anything.
      Getting up - I thought I had exactly zip and zero recall.

      But interestingly - I can drag something up now!
      I sat down with eyes closed - and really probed into the void - checking on associations with my dream-signs.

      What happened were pictures coming up - and with a lot of concentration and visualisation - small scenes to go with them, too.


      First Fragment:

      I am on the terrace of our old house - it has altogether 4 poles going up on the front - to support the front of the balcony.
      All balcony-railing and these poles and also a lot of the space between them are entwined by climbing plants.
      Much more than it used to be in real life - and instead of wild wine grapes - it was a plant with violet trumpet-blossoms - maybe 15 cm long.
      I asked my grandmother, what it was - and she said, that every so and so many years - the wild wine would sprout these, and that one could eat them, and that they would be delicious.
      For some reason I didnīt try one out - or I canīt remember it..


      Second Fragment:

      From the same dream, I think, but it was winter - and I was searching for the fir-tree, which had been planted for me the year I was born (irl).
      But the house and garden were not there - and I checked some fir-trees around, and decided, mine was one, that was standing just outside a fence to another garden - towards the street.
      And was maybe 6 m tall.
      It could actually be that big, I guess, if it still existed.


      Third Fragment:

      From another dream - I was in an empty flat with big windows - in the company of that Swiss friend, I dreamt about the night before.
      And we could see a high-rise-building from there - it had a core, and around it a glass front, through which we could watch the ongoings.
      Between glass front and core was a ramp, which was not a staircase - it had some small rooms as well - but it clearly was the means to go up and down in the building.

      Actually - very much like Sageousī miniature with carousel - but without carousel and without so much colour - all chrome and glass and the people we watched were all in dark business-like attire.

      The really weird thing is, that I did not look into his thread - see my sig - before last night.
      I had thought about this thread last night but without clicking it.
      Okay - I knew some of the miniatures before - and there are several, which could have given me that inspiration - but this one I mentioned, I didnīt see before.

      Also weird, that I only now remember it - and not instantly, when I saw that sculpture.
      This is the third fragment, that comes back to me..


      What is memorable?

      The above is curious - my subconsciousness going about itīs business in interesting ways.
      But I am sure, it is my dream-fragment - not a false memory - my picture and the scene, I was in while looking at it, is very clear - also different to the sculpture in many respects.


      And - I am really surprised, that anything showed up!
      Posting on my DILD workbook shortly before had me empty!

      I usually only write, what I have dictated - plus some details, I remember while re-listening.
      This intensive probing into dream-memory works much better, than expected.
      Again - very cool to have the comp - I was missing out on something, not hunting consciously after buried dream-content!

      Updated 12-14-2013 at 05:35 PM by 66050

      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable , dream fragment
    14. Very Nice That Last Night Counted - 3 Points - Quite Happy!

      by , 12-14-2013 at 02:40 AM
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      I had two awakenings, where I had more dream-content than I dictated - but I was too lazy to do that.
      Maybe if I had known..

      But on the last two awakenings - without noting time - I tried to WILD with WBTB.
      Didnīt work
      - yet..
      At least it was good for something!

      The dream, I have in itīs entirety:
      It started with a FA in our old house - one of my most persistent dream-signs - it is ripped down - one time (maybe twice - once years ago?) this made me lucid - to realize it.

      Not now - I got up in my old bed there being frustrated that my SSILD had "failed" - as in me not patient enough - and getting up.
      No RC - could hit myself.

      A Swiss friend of mine was there as a visitor - which in the dream came as a surprise (yes - again no RC ..).
      I wasnīt sure, if I was pleased with this fact - not having known about it.

      First of all I decided, that he had somebody to breakfast with - my mother and grandmother - and he was amusing himself - so I went in the basement, in my old room from childhood - not the room I had when we moved back there in my youth.
      And suddenly it was not okay, that I wanted to WILD there - something had to be repaired, and it was my grandmaīs room - but I had been lying down already - staying awake.

      So I got up - yepp - no RC..
      Donīt know, if the day held anything - it was afternoon then and first didnīt like, that I couldnīt go out with some friendīs I had planned on meeting - because of the visitor.
      But I ended up happy with the night - me and him were at a theatre - a friend of mine was playing a role - the play was by his supposed favourite author - he doesnīt exist, I think - forgot the name.

      They and she - were great.
      The stage had boxes in room-size stacked four by five - and different scenes in them.
      No - music, I think..

      Later we were home and talked about the author of the play and her.
      It was around midnight by then - so supposedly one whole day.
      But there was no story for in between the cusps.


      One fragment:
      I was doing dishes for a friend at their place. The thought crossed my mind, that the sink was to a normal sink, what an outhouse was to a toilet.
      The outflow-net was very big - and under it was a drop and autumn leaves - not any nasty, actually.
      A water fountain - a clean basin - and a view.
      Anyway - I had been given cherry-drops (??) for disinfection to use.
      That was it.


      Another one:
      I was about to move from Berlin to Bavaria - on my way driving a lorry - and I got a bit lost on the roads.
      Somehow I came to call my mother - and she started arguing, that I shouldnīt have decided to do the removals myself lala ..


      I count three points:
      WBTB, Fail: 1
      1 Whole Dream: 1
      2 Fragments: 1


      Some conclusions and goals:
      be able to recognize the most frequent of my dream-signs
      always RC and dictate, when I wake up
      be more confident in my WILD tries - if I get into FA - why not into lucidity next..
      do more daytime work - decide, which


      TOTM-Competition-Combinations:
      "synch up" with imJD - put on itīs feet team Taurus with him

      build a snowman from real snow, decorate and animate it (Object/DC Change)

      ask a DC for a present and note the reaction - but before get the DC by Basic Summoning - round corner/behind something

      at least start transforming into an Arctic wolf (Partial Transformation) to then maybe camouflage in the snow, sneak up on unsuspecting prey - and - rip it apart and eat it (start eating it seems okay..) - try tasting something.
    15. Mother-Problems - Embarrassing Drawing Found By Teacher - Shale-Shingles-Windows

      by , 12-12-2013 at 04:28 PM
      My mother is haunting me - actually those dreams were among the rare dreams I was able to sometimes remember in their entirety, before starting journalling on here.
      Again - I spare you - nasty stuff anyway almost always..

      Our old house again - but somebody rented the bungalow, which was next to it and also ours.
      My grandmother suspected this man of having buried a dead body in the garden - but there was none in the end.
      But I used to have - I think several - dreams, where there was one.
      Buried by me and my grandmother - only her, only me - donīt know what that is all about.

      In this dream there was also a tooth scene - which is supposedly quite common - canīt remember having had any before.
      One was missing - and the two front teeth moved apart from each other - and there was a gap I hated the looks of. But there is something real-life connected - some tooth got inflammation around the roots - after a mistake of another dentist - so it needs to be repaired with a pivot tooth - that was quite recently..

      Another scene, which is very vividly there is me and my boyfriend putting shale-shingles into my window from the outside to fill and "insulate" it.
      That making no sense - we could have just as well closed the whole window with bricks.
      But somehow, a bit of air circulation and not darkening the room completely was important for some reason.


      Another dream had me at school - I had missed some lessons about something really complicated - maths in a way - or physics - lots of equations making no sense to me.
      A friend of mine did help me catch up at home - and I had done a lot of work - and actually started understanding the matter.
      I had written some several pages of equations and some text - and I wanted to show this to an angry teacher getting at me, for having missed the whole topic.

      When I took out my notes and he went through them - he came across two or three pornographic drawing of my boyfriend.
      I never tried myself at portraits - and esp. not of such ones in real life by the way..
      He totally flipped out and shouted at me - thinking, I had mixed these in on purpose.
      Then a pack of cigarettes fell out of my school-bag, and I had a hell of a stress, to get it back without him seeing it.
      That at least worked out - but he was in a flying rage anyway.

      And - curiously I have a new dream-sign - somebody singing!!
      Me again with my normal voice - but I forgot what, when, why and the melody, too.

      Updated 12-12-2013 at 04:31 PM by 66050

      Categories
      non-lucid
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