Twoshadows

9-9-09

I was doing a WBTB. I was laying there getting really bored and wondering if I should just let myself fall asleep.

The next thing I know I am laying on the floor in my sister's place and I am being pulled by my feet by something unknown into the room behind me. I felt really freaked out. I tell myself that this is just part of the WILD expereince and that I should just relax and let myself fully enter the dream.

I then felt that humming vibration. Again, I tell myself that it is just part of the WILD and that it means that things are moving along nicely.

Then I feel myself being lifted up. That part freaked me out even more, but I made myself relax and told myself that this part of the process of entering the dream.

I didn't let myself move for a little while because I thought it would wake me up if I accidentally moved my real arms instead of my dream arms. And I wanted to make sure I was fully my dreamself before I tried.

I finally did and flew back out of the bedroom and out the front door of what was my mom's house. It was raining outside. I remember thinking that I had never flown in the rain before and that this would be a unique experience.

So then I just started flying around. The rain felt very real, both nice, yet a little cold and uncomfortable.

I was near my grandparents' house at some point. I wasn't aware of any transition. I remember swooping down through what might have been buildings, but then I think they were canyons. Because later I am flying over Lake Powell and excited about doing that.


Anyway it wasn't my best LD, but I was really in the mood to fly again. I was telling myself that before bed--how much I really needed to fly. So I did get to do what I wanted.

Now that I have started up again, I need to focus focus focus. SO I can accomplish many things.
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9-2-09



I was watching Sponge Bob and Patrick building a castle from cardboard boxes. I knew that they were using their "Imaginations". They were taking paper and coloring it like grey colored rock. They placed it on the sides of the boxes. I noticed how the boxes fit together perfectly and no seams showed.

I realized this was possible becasue this was not real. I also knew that because this was not real that I could make an ice cream cone appear. I put my finger out in front of me and concentrated. An ice cream cone slowely materialized. I put it into my mouth. It melted and was gone in two bites. I decided that because this wasn't real life that I could eat as many ice cream cones as I wanted. I pointed my finger again and got another cone. I noticed that the ice cream was pink. I tasted it and noticed how real it felt to be eating this ice cream that wasn't real. I finally did it a thrid time. I was impressed with myself as I realized that I ususally wasn't this good at creating things out of thin air and I ususally had to do anther tricks to get these results.

8-18-09

Lucid Dream:

I forgot to write down this dream I had a few nights ago.

I was with Jim at some kind of amusement park. Everything was miniature, yet people still seemed to be able to get on the rides. At one point I saw a two year old child behind the roller coster, and he seemed to tower over it.

Suddenly I become lucid. I immediately forgot the amusement park. Part of me must have remembered that LD I had a little while back where it was my goal to kiss guys. Out of habit I leaned over to kiss Jim, but right as our lips touched I realized it felt wrong, so I then just took off in the air flying. I remember thinking, "Why would I even want to kiss anyone in an LD when I can fly...this is way better than kissing."

I remember feeling the wind in my hair and that feeling in my stomach as I would swoop down close to the ground before pulling back up and into the sky again. This didn't last too long, maybe a couple of minutes. But it was really nice. At one point I was flying over water, either a lake or ocean.

7-10-09

I've had about 4 LDs since I've last written here. I seem to have less motivation in writing them up. They were pretty interesting though.

Twice I ran around in my LD until I found a guy to take flying with me. You wouldn't belive how hard it was to find a decent guy. And I didn't think I was being overly picky. I just wanted a guy between the age of about 18 and 50 who was average or above average in looks. I had to pass dozens of people each tme before I found the one. The first guy was about 20 and blond. I grabbed his hand and told him that I wanted to show him something and just ran until we took off flying. He was totally impressed and afterwards we kissed for a while. He was an especially good kisser.

The second time I finally found an even nicer looking guy who was in his mid to late twenties. I also grabbed his hand and told him he had to come with me. He gave me this look that told me he was thinking I was offering something a little more intimate. I remember feeling a little smug inside and couldn't wait to show him that what I was going to show him was much better than sex. I finally took off flying with him and I think he was cool with that. Afterwards we kissed a little too. But he wasn't nearly as good as the first guy.

In another LD, I thought I was talking to my mom in real life. I told her that I was drifting into a LD. I couldn't see her. All I saw was the view as I flew and swooped around in the sky. I told her how real it felt and how cool it was that I was still awake enough to talk to her and experience this at the same time. I told her tht if I had a funny look on my face it was because I was letting myself fall and it was very exhilerating.

I had another flying LD that I no longer remember any details.

6-25-09

I had a lucid dream two nights ago.


Here are the key things I remember:

I remember I wanted to walk on my hands. It reminded me of walking on my hands in a swimming pool.

I tried to turn into a dragon. At first all I could see is that my front "feet" were kind of a pink and blue color and had claws. Then I could kind of see my face--like I was seeing out of a mask. I could see my long snout out in front and a little of the shape of my head.

I flew around for a while. I had trouble for some reason. I tried picturing rockets coming out of me feet and it helped for a little bit, then I had trouble again.

I was looking at these really cool hissing cockroach necklaces. They were carved out of wood and put together so they moved--like those little fish necklaces made out of metal where the tail can move back and forth. I was impressed with the heaviness and quality of the wood/carving. I told my mom who was next to me how much I was bummed out because even if I bought one that it would go away as soon as I woke up.

5-24-09

Lucid Dream:

I was flying over the city by my Grandparents' house. I was aware that I was going much faster than normal. I then noticed that Jeff was with me holding my hand. I was also talking on the phone to Sherri telling her that this was the best flying lucid dream ever. The wind and motion felt very real and very good.

5-17-09

Lucid Dream:

I was in this big dance hall type place when I became lucid. I don't remember what triggered it. I was watching a fitness competition. I got excited knowing that I was lucid because I would have the ability to do all kinds of fantastic feats of strength. I jumped on the stage area and was about to begin to show off.

But then I wondered if I should try to do a task. I thought for a second and then decided that the task had been to draw a picture. I jumped over to a table and found a piece of paper and a pencil I was curious to try this. I had never drawn anything in an LD before.

The first thing I drew was a cat. It was very simple and sloppy, but I didn't notice that at the time, but only in retrospect. I was amazed how real it felt to hold a pencil and how my contol seemd exactly the same as in real life. I could even feel and hear the lead as it moved on the paper as I drew.

Next I drew a face. Also in retrospect I see that it wasn't something really my style. And it was also not very good. But in the dream I was satisfied that I was succeeding in my effort to draw and thus completing as task (which I have to now be satisfied that it was my personal task because it wasn't any official task).



There is a transition period here that I don't remember.

I was with my mom next. I suddenly thought about how I needed to take advantage of the LD by eating bad things that I can't eat in real life. I looked around for something good to eat. I didn't see any food. But I was confident that I could find something. I looked over what might have been a kind of booth. On the other side I saw a plate of cookies. It was stacked up with large chocolate chip cookies, chocolate cholocate chip cookies and these bar cookies that had white frosting with a reddish drizzle on top. I wasted no time and grabbed stacks of two to three cookies at a time and stuffed them in my mouth. They were a very soft texture. I stuffed them in my mouth until there was hardly room to chew. They tasted fantastic and the soft texture was wonderful.


It seemed like I was distracted at this point. I may have had a false awakening. But at some point I remembered that I was still in a dream and that I could eat more cookies. So I found another plate. This on was filled with mostly bar cookies with different kinds of frosting. I followed the same pattern of cramming in as many as I could unitl I could hardly chew.

Then the same thing happened. I went on to something else before I remembered again that I was in a dream and which point I found more cookies to gorge myself with.



Haha...I feel like such a pig after I wake up from these dreams. But the good thing is that I use these dream to act out somethig that I would never do in real life. So my physical self never has to worry about the consequences of stuffing myself with all those cookies. And that is a good thing.

4-21-09

Lucid Dream:

I was doing a not-planned-WBTB. I was having trouble going back to sleep. But finally I realized that I was in a room in some industrial type building and knew that I was dreaming. I did what I always do and took off flying. I flew through some rooms enjoying the ability to fly, but still not feeling the total freedom of flying outdoors. I thought about the tasks, but couldn't remember them. I then decided to change the scenery to something more interesting.

I don't actually remember what happened at that point. My next memory is of me doing tricks in front of several Dream Characters. I was showing off my great strength (I know this sound silly, but this seems to come naturally for me just like flying. I do this without a lot of thought).

Instead of doing pull ups like I often do I was doing push ups. Then I would balance on my two hands and slowly bring my back legs up to a handstand position. The I would slowly bring them back down.

It felt so good that I could do this that I think I got distracted from lucid dreaming and let it fade into a normal dream.

3-16-09

Dream 1 (Lucid and DV member):


I was in this large building. I walked out to this one large level part and saw this huge pool. As I looked in the pool I thought I saw a killer whale. I wanted to take a picture of it so I went to get my camera. When I returned I saw a girl in the huge pool room. The killer whale was out of the water. She was having it do tricks like roller and she was then rubbing it and it was making happy noises. I talked to the girl and she told me how to get it to do the tricks. I had it roll over and it roller all the way across the room. I ran after it and rubbed its "chin". It felt so incredibly smooth. As I rubbed it, the killer whale made deep happy moans. It was really cool.

Then I went out of that room I was a group of people. One of the people had a T Rex with him. I felt angry. I knew that the guy who owned him probably thought it was very safe. But I also had heard enough stories about wild aminals being kept as pets attacking people.

Suddenly I felt very nervous. I decided to run into the next room which was the center of the building and very open. I was afraid that the T Rex was chasing me. I came to a dead end on a balcony overlooking the huge open center of the building.

At that point I suddenly realized that I knew how to fly (I don't think I realized that I was lucid yet--just that I had my lucid abilities). I jumped up on the rail and flew to the center of the building. At the top were all these cords. i grabbed onto one and found that it was stretchy. I swung on it and started flipping around and doing tricks and making up a sort of dance.

I then decided to fly outside. I flew down and ended up out on the courtyard. I then saw DV member Ame sitting at a table with several other people that I knew were also DV members. I listenend to their conversation. It seemed that Ame had come up with an idea a having a contest to see who could dance the best in their dreams. There was another girl who wanted to criticise everything that Ame came up with. I could see that the conversation was not going well.

I then spoke up and told of how I had just been "dancing" on the cords in the building. And how that could count as "dancing in dreams"

At that point I was fully aware that I was dreaming. I then remembered that I really needed to eat some ham to get credit of the "Green eggs and Ham" Task that I had started in my last LD.

I was now in an alley with my old best friend Marie. I saw a doorway up on the second floor I grabbed her hand and told her that we were going to fly up to the door. She was easy to lift. We flew in the door.

I saw several people I decided that instead of looking for Ham (like I did in the last dream and had no luck with) that I would ask someone to bring me some. I called out that I needed some ham, and a guy brought me a bite-sized hunk. It was normal colored. I suddenly wasn't sure if the ham needed to be green, or just the eggs. I decided to play it safe and make this ham green. I focused on it until it slowedly turned first white, then green.

I put the piece of ham in my mouth. It tasted just like I remembered ham tasting like. The texture was just right and it had a salty taste. I swallowed it. I felt good that I had been able to get that done do easily.

At that point I was suddenly hit with a wonderful idea. Why stop with ham?? Why not eat something I really wanted to eat. Next me me was a Japanese girl. I asked her if she could bring me some chocolate. She left and came back with the tiniest thinest piece of chocolate. I put in on my tongue and let it melt. I could taste a little chocolate flavor.

I saw row of freezers along the wall. I asked the Japanese girl if anyone would care if I ate something out of the freezers. Then immediately I remembered that since this was my dream I could do what I wanted and no one would care.

I opened the freezer in front of me. It was full. I could see a slice of pie in from of me. It looked like it was made out of mint chocolate chip cream. I grabbed it and stuffed it in my mouth. In two bites I had it all in. It was cold, but not frozen hard. It didn't hurt my teeth by being too cold.

I then looked and saw a few ice cream sandwiches. I pulled one out and tore half the wrapper off. I ate the first half in one bite, then I sqeezed the wrapped and the other half just slid out into my mouth. The favor was wonderful. The temperature and texture were also perfect. I thanked my mind that it was all so enjoyable. After eating a few ice cream sandwiches, I saw some Twinkies. I unwrapped one and found that it was also cold but not frozen hard, but cool and slightly firm. I ate that in one bite and went to grab another one.

Then I started to lose the dream and everything faded.

3-11-09

Lucid dream:

I suddenly suspected that I was dreaming. I was in a house. I tried to remember one of the tasks. the first thing I thought of was eating green eggs and ham (I hope that really was the task--I haven't double checked yet). I rushed into the kitchen of this house (not mine).

I looked for the green eggs and ham. Often all I have to do is just look, and it is suddenly there. But all I saw was a table with some dirty dishes on it. I looked at the stove. There were some dirty pans. I opened the fridge. I saw a carton of eggs. They were white.

I then realized with a little frustration that I would have to go through the effort of cooking them myself since my brain didn't magically create them for me.

I grabbed one of the dirty pans and took it ot the sink and scrubbed it out. When it was mostly clean, I filled it with water. I then took it to the stove. Then I cracked the egg and dropped it into the hot water. Why I did it this way, I have no idea. I usually eat my eggs boiled or fried/scrambled.

As I watched the egg cook in the boiling water I focused on it really hard willing it to turn green. Finally I could see it change color until it was a nice shade of green. Satisfied I reached in the pan and pulled it out (I obviously didn't notice the heat). I put the egg in my mouth and really tried to notice the flavor. It tasted like one big yolk, but it didn't really have the dry texture of a plain yolk.

After I was done chewing the egg, I started searching again for some ham to eat. But before I could find any I started to wake up.


I willed myself to go back to the dream.

I was in my old backyard. I thought I was still dreaming. I jumped in the air and found that I could fly. I then decided that I could care less about finding ham--what I wanted to do was fly. I took off into the air and felt like I was flying pretty fast. But when I looked down I saw that I wasn't moving. I was actually just flying into a very strong wind. I could feel the wind in my face and blowing through my hair. I decided to go the direction of the wind so I could go really fast. I turned around and started flying quite fast. I flew past a flag pole and noticed that the flag was blowing the wrong way.

Finally I landed and I was with some people. I started to lose lucidity again.

But at one point I started climbing up the outside of a building using just my arms. And feeling so proud of myself for being so strong.

I became lucid again and finished climbing up the wall wanting to show off.

1-26-09

Lucid fragment:

I was laying in bed and looking over at my nightstand and watching this very large black widow spider. It was about 6 inches long. I remember knowing that it was a dream and looking at it closely and thinking something like, "Wow...look at that detail. It's amazing that my mind can come up with that kind of detail. I couldn't draw that in real life--I wouldn't know exactly where to draw in the legs and the cephalothorax --so how can my mind create it so perfectly.

Then I saw two beetles walk across my nightstand. I wondered if the spider would try to catch them. As soon as I thought this the black widow pounced on one of them and started to suck it dry.

I must have been quite lucid or else I would have felt quite creeped out by all of this.

1-8-09

Lucid Dream:

I was in this room with a friend. It looked like a bank. My friend went to stand in line. I walked to the back of the room to wait. On the way I slipped and fell on the floor. I sat there for a moment, then noticed that I was starting to spin. I found this strange and just let it happen.

I then became lucid. I jumped up and flew over the line of waiting people. In the next room I tried to remember the tasks. I remembered two. One was to look at a clock. I looked around the room and saw a digital clock sitting on a cluttered shelf. It said 7:42...or was it 7:34...no, it was 7:47. I really tried to focus and stablize it, but the clock was a blur of numbers that changed everytime I tried to focus. I remembered people saying that time changed, but I hadn't realized that it was quite this unstable. I wondered why that was.

I then remembered that I needed to use my five senses. I had already been seeing and hearing things, so I decided to focus on "touch". I reached out and felt the solidness of a rail in front of me.

I then decided to find something to taste. But before I had gone anywhere I realized that I had already been eating. I had a bowl of macaroni and cheese. I could taste the cheesey flavor and feel the pieces of partly chewed noodles in my mouth.

I decided to move on to smell.

I flew around and saw Jeff. I told him that I needed to find something to smell. I couldn't see anything that would have a smell to it. I then looked at him and asked, "Have you been working out? Maybe you'll smell sweaty?" But as I leaned toward him and couldn't smell anything.

I started flying out of the building. I then saw next to the door a styrofoam container of food that somone had brought back from a restaurant. I openind it and saw leftover green peppers. I knew that they would have a smell. I put my nose right to them and took a big whiff. I could smell a very faint pepper smell. I was disappointed that my dream nose wasn't better. As I pulled my nose back I realized that my nose had touched the peppers and that the peppers had little prickly thorns on them and some of the thorns had stuck in my nose. They were painful to pull out. Jeff thought it was funny that I had let that happen, as if I should have known better than to put my nose up to peppers.

I followed Jeff into the parking lot. He got into a large white pickup truck. I started to get in too. Then I had an idea. I told him to just start driving and not to worry about what I was doing. I then rolled the window down and stood outside the truck and reached in and grabbed the handle above the window. As the truck started to move I was carried away, floating beside the truck. It was a wonderfully exhilerating feeling. I told myself that I would have to remember to try that again in future LD.

Jeff stopped the truck too soon and started talking to someone. I got back in the truck and waited. I saw a baseball glove on the seat. I ran my fingers over the soft leather, then picked it up to smell it. It had a faint leathery smell. I then started touching other parts of the car so I could say that I really did the task thoroughly.

My dream faded and I thought I had woken up. But then I forced myself to relax and drift back into the dream.

I was now in a building with Marie. There was a bad guy we were having to get away from him. We locked outselves in a bathroom. I felt quite nervous. But then I told Marie that if it got too scary then I would just let myself wake up.
And that's all I remember.

December something 2008:



Lucid dream

I was in a dream when I suddenly felt that dream-like feeling. I tested it by foating and found that I could indeed float. I floated to the door to go outside so I could fly. But before I went out I decided that my last few LDs hadn't been that tactile. I decided that when I grabbed that door knob that I would really feel it and notice how if felt in my hand.

I reached out and expected the knob to be cool. I was a little disappointed to find that it was the same temperature as my hand and didn't really feel like anything in particular.

I then had another idea. I remembered how when you rub something against you lips you can feel a lot more detail. So still holding the door knob I knelt down and leaned over and brought my lips to where the doorknob was supposed to be. I didn't feel anything so I leaned further. Still nothing. I pulled back to find that the knob was gone.

Since the door was already opened I flew outside to the street in front of my mom's house. I saw my friend Becky in the road. I landed by her. She was very happy about something and grabbed my shoulders. I remember really feeling that sensation. She told me something which I no longer remember.
Then I had an idea. I decided to ask her about the future (My dream self somehow thinks that if I ask a dream character the future there is more chance if it being true, I don't know why). So I asked her to predict something. She then said like "Pretty soon the planet Mars will be..... " [and she said something that didn't really make sense]. But the meaning to me was that something spectacular was about to happen concerning the planet Mars.

And that's all I remember.

December something 2008:


One of my lucid dreams:

Very short memory. All I remember is that I was lucid and flew around with John Taylor from Duran Duran. He was wearing a white sport jacket and white hat like I think he wore in their video Rio. I remember seeing his beautiful smile.

I even found a picture that looks almost exactly like he did in the dream.

12-10-08

I had a total lucid pig out session last night.

I don't remember how the dream even started. All I remember is becoming lucid at a table absolutely full of goodies. I decided to take full advantage of the situation. I started grabbing handful after handful and stuffing it into my mouth. I ate cake, cookies, pie, and my favorite-- a chocolate peanutbutter cheesecake.

I remember grabbing something off the plate of the person sitting next to me knowing that that person was a DC and didn't matter.

Another thing I noticed was how much could fit into my mouth at once. I was almost able to "inhale" large pieces. Then when my mouth felt full I would just swallow it down. I don't actually remember chewing alot. The food mostly kind of slid down my throat. The flavor was there. I enjoyed everything.

I also remember grabbing a piece of a decorated cake. It was in the shape of a teddybear. I scooped off the head and inhaled it all in. It was a chocolate cake with very creamy--almost pudding like-- vanilla creme frosting.


Man, it was all so good.


So yes, if you are curious, I'm still depriving myself very well in real life.