Twoshadows

7-29-08

I'm so behind now.


LD1:

I don't remember how I got lucid or what I was doing before.

I was at the edge of this very high cliff. I wanted to fly out and really appreciate the fact that I was able to just jump off the edge of a cliff and fly.

I suddenly got nervous and made myself hover before I went over the edge. I remember looking way down at the river below (it was a bit like the grand canyon).

I was going very slow and felt a liitle frustrated about that. But then I remembered recently answering a post about getting to outer space. I decided to practice the technique that I shared. This was the "changing scenery to get to space" technique.

So as I flew I just imagined myself flying through the stars. It didn't take long before I saw that I actually was flying through the stars. I watched the stars pass me (it felt more like they were passing me than I was passing them). I then remembered the DV task of visiting all the planets. I still hadn't been able to get to a planet.

I started wishing for planets to show up so I could land on one. I didn't care what the planet looked like. I figured I could just call it what I wanted anyway. I wasn't really sure what each planet looked like up close anyway. The planet Neptune kept coming to mind, so I figured the planet that showed up would be my version of Neptune.


I started seeing fuzzy object pass me. I figured they were planets. But I couldn't get them to slow down so I could find out for sure.
I finally lost lucidity.

Before bed I was lamenting the fact that it had been a little while since my wonderful LD streak. So I took 100mg of B6 and 3mg of melatonin and went to bed.

I woke up (naturally) at about 5:30. I stayed awake for about a half hour without getting out of bed. Then I let myself drift off to sleep hoping that I could have a lucid dream.

Lucid Dream:


I don't remember how this one began. I don't even remember how I became lucid. My memory of the dream starts with being at my mom's house. I had just become lucid and I was walking up the driveway toward the dirt road out front.

I noticed that the hose had a sprinkler attatched and that the water was sprinkling all over the road. As I saw this I realized that I had never gone through sprinklers in a lucid dream before. I decided to see what it felt like. I walked into the spray expecting the water to feel colder than it felt. I jumped back and forth for a bit. Then I started flying and doing flips through the water. For some reason the water felt colder if I moved faster through it. When I would stand still and let the water fall on me, it couldn't feel it as strongly.

Then I looked down and saw what I was wearing. I didn't have a shirt on, but I was wearing my white bra. I don't know why I feel the need to do this in all my LDs, but I decided to strip down. I didn't take the bra off all the way, just enough.

I then looked over and saw two other girls in the sprinklers. They were both wearing bras too.

I then decided that I was done with the sprinklers and that needed to do something else with this dream. I flew up the road toward the top of the hill that overlooks the freeway. I tried to be aware of my flying since lately in real life I have been thinking about flying and imagining the sensations. I noticed that I was flying swimming style (breaststroke). I could feel the wind on my face. But the ground moving under me looked strange...not real enough.

I got to the point where the road turns the corner and goes parallel to the freeway. As I turned I saw a whole bunch of people on the road. I could see that they were police. it looked like there was a big drug bust. There were bags and things lined out on the road by the cars.

I suddenly felt the need for attention. I called out ot the police, "Do you need any help?"

No one even looked at me.

So I called out again. This time a few people looked up. I decided I needed to do something to really get their attention. I ran toward the chain link fence that separates the dirt road from the freeway. (The road is quite a bit higher.)

I yelled out, "Watch me!"

And I jumped up on the top of the fence and balanced there for a dramatic moment, then threw myself over the edge down toward the freeway. After falling a short distance I took off flying over and across the freeway.

Even though I couldn't see them, I knew people were watching me. It didn't matter if they were only DCs--it just seemed important to me at this moment to be able to show off like this.

I got to the other side and saw some powerlines. I was going to go over them, but the closer I got he more wires there seemed to be, making it impossible to go over.

I couldn't believe I was having this "beginner LDer" problem. I was determined not to let it beat me. As I got close, I suddenly swooped down and got under them and made it to the other side.

Once on the other side I realized that I really only wanted to go back, so I could see the people again to see how impressed they were with my flying over the freeway.

I got back under the lines and flew back about half way. All the police and other people were standing by the fence. As they saw me coming they all started to clap.

I felt satisfied...and the dream ended.

I didn't wake up. I went onto other dreams having to do with hiking, interesting pit toilets in the moutains, too windy to use, the suddenly having the bathrooms be in my older sister's house, something having to do with a big magnet, and a guy playing the most beautiful song on the piano. I thought I recognized the song as a theme to something. It didn't look too difficult to learn. I decided that I would look it up on youtube and see if I could find someone who was teaching how to play that song.

July 4th 2008

Lucid Dream:

I was in a new house that was supposed to be in Flagstaff AZ. A lot of things happen here, but one thing that I remember is suddenly worrying that I have never watered my front lawn yet, and I was so worried that it would be dead. I went outside to look and find that it is very green and nice. While I am out there, the sprinklers go on. and I'm greatful that they are automatic and that that's what kept the grass alive.

At some point in the dream I gradually become aware that I am dreaming. This is not a sudden thing. I almost don't do anything about it. But then I realize what this means. I think of all the possibiliteis of what I could do.

The first thing I decide that I want to do is to finally try the hand RC...while in a dream. I have always done this in real life and never in a dream. So at this point I feel that it would be wise to actually try this out while in a dream so I know the difference of how this feels when I do this awake and when I do it in a dream.

I point the finger on my right hand and press it into the palm of my left hand. At first there seems to be no difference between this and when I do it IRL. Then I look at the back of my left hand. I can see a place start bulging out where I am pressing my finger. I press harder. The skin on the back on my left hand turns white as it it now sticking out about an inch. I wonder if I can actually get it to break the skin. I push harder. Finally my finger appears and I can see the details of my fingernail. There is no pain, only the feeling of pressure.

I pull it back out and do it again. The results are similar, but it breaks through the skin faster this time. By the third time the finger comes through fairly quickly. At this point I'm satisflied and feel that I know what the finger RC feels like now.

I then decide I want to try the DV Task of the Month. I try to remember what it is. Then I remember. It has something to do with eating pizza. I look around. I'm still in the kitchen. I open the fridge and see a frozen pizza. I pull out the box and open it. Since it was in the fridge and not the freezer, it's very soft and tears easily. As I hold the cold piece of pizza, I notice that in my other hand I have a slice of hot pizza. I first take a bite of the hot pizza. I enjoy the taste and then decide to compare flavors. I then take a bite of the cold pizza. It has a different pizza flavor, but it still good in spite of being cold.

As I am chewing, I suddenly have doubts that this was the Task. I then remember that someone had used eating pizza as an example task (not true IRL). So I tried to think again about what the real task was. Finally it comes to me. I'm supposed to shoot fireworks out of my hand. I look out the door. It's daylight outside. Since I'm indoors, I decide that I will just stay there and give it a try.

I look down at my right hand as I point my first finger out towards that other side of the room. I wonder how hard this will be. I concentrate. At first nothing happens, and I'm disappointed that I'm not able to do this. But then I think about all the other things that I have been able to do in LDs and I gain confidence. I point my finger out again and concentrate. Finally a spray of sparks comes out of the end of my finger. The sparks look a lot like the kind that come out of the fountain fireworks you buy at the fireworks stands. The colors are mostly red and gold. They shoot out in a jet all the way across the room.

I stop and try it again. Another stream of lights comes out from my fingertip. I notice as I do it that my finger tip is getting hot, but not so hot that I'm in pain, but the sensation of heat was very real. I look at my fingertip and notice that my fingernail is glowing red from the heat.

I don't remember what happens after this point. I think I have a FA and try to write it down. Finally I wake up for real and write down notes.


Here is a picture I took on the 4th that looked like the firework I shot out of my finger--except the colors were different. This is turned on its side to look like it did in the dream.

6-30-08

A nap LD.

It started with me walking down the street (N.N.) I suddenly felt really tired so I climbed onto a truck that they were using to do road work and went to sleep.

I "awoke" to find that they were loading all the trucks onto bigger trucks to haul away. I was so embarrassed to be caught sleeping on their equipment. I slowly got up and snuck away even though I knew they were watching.

I walked toward the edge of town. Suddenly I had this floating thing with me. I have had these floating things with me before in dreams. Usually I wrap both of my arms around them and let it carry me up into the air.

This time I decided to do a handstand on it. This one was shaped like a bar about 18 inches long. I found it quite easy to do a handstand. It reminded me of how it feels to do handstands under water.

So while gripping on to it upside down I let it take me off the edge and out over the desert. I then had fun for a moment playing with the land below--first making it appear close, then making it appear very far, like I was way up in the sky.

Doing this, suddenly made me lucid.

I thought again about the Tasks. I knew I had this one last chance to find a rabbit. I didn't think it could be too hard. I hada lways had pretty good luck looking for things to appear, then finding them.

I was then in a backyard. I looked around. I saw a place that used to be a flowerbed against the garage. There in the dirt I saw some fluff. I went closer and saw that it was two bunnies. They were both quite small. One was tan and the other a mottled grey.

I picked up the grey one. It was incredibly soft. I don't think I have ever felt anything as soft as that bunny in my whole life. I held it close to my face and rubbed my lips and cheeks against it.

I then looked around for holes. I saw some really tiny ones that looked about wide enough for me to stick my little finger in. I then decided to take control and just make one big enough.

At that thought it was a lot bigger. The entrance was filled with what looked like dryer lint. I started pulling large quantities of this out. When it was finally cleared I, still holding the bunny, went in. I felt that as long as I had the bunny with me that should count as "following" it.

I followed the tunnel for a couple yards, then it opened out. I could see that I had crawled into the crawl space under that garage.

I set the rabbit down and looked around. There wasn't much here. But I did see a box near one wall. I was curious. I opened the box and to my delight found that it was full of fossils--the little fish fossils. I knew that this box had been left by the previous owners, and that now I could have them (I must have been less lucid when I thought this). I pulled out fossil after fossil and and started laying them down on the ground so I could see the fish. Some were broken, but some were in really nice shape. I then decided to just grab the box and take it out with me, and that I would look at the rest when I got out.

6-29-08

Lucid Dream:

I was with a group of people. We were all talking to each other. I remember DV member CoLd BlooDed was there. At one point he asked me a question, something to the effect of "What do you like to do?"

I remember he was wearing a dark green sweatshirt with the hood pulled up. I went closer to him and pulled back the hood from his ear a little and whispered (for dramatic effect, maybe?) "I like to lucid dream."

Obviously in this dream I didn't think CB knew anything about lucid dreaming, because I then went on to explain just what lucid dreaming was. And then, to stress the point of how cool lucid dreaming was, I then flew a little in the air and asked, "Wouldn't you like to be able to do this?" I then told him that I would help teach him how to do it. I took his hand and helped him float in the air. At this point we were in the dining room of my old LA house. I helped him float to the ceiling, and then out the back door.

As crazy as it seems, I still was not lucid at this point.

CB told me that he was going to be leaving town and was going to be gone for several weeks. Then he said, "So I really need to learn how to do this so we can see each other in our dreams." This seemed to make perfect sense.

We then practiced flying up into the air. At first we moved so slowly. I was having difficulty getting up very high . So we flew around the backyard a bit.

Then the girl that lived next door while I was growing up came over. IRL she was three years younger than I was. In this dream she was about 7 years old. She starts talking to me about how this cable was broken and how upset she was about this. I was feeling frustrated because I did not want this interruption.

This gets fuzzy here.

The next thing I remember is that we are now inside again. I tell CB, "Let's try this again." And we flew back to the dining room.

I believe it is at this point that I finally become lucid. I don't know what happened to CB because I never saw him again in this dream.

But I do suddenly remember that I really should be trying some Lucid Tasks. I remember thinking for a moment, trying to remember what they were. I then flew into the other room which was a kitchen. There is a TV set on the counter. It's on and I start watching it. Then it hits me, "This is it! I need to remember this." I sat there watching and trying to remember all the details. But all I remember at this point is that it was some kind of News Talk Show. There were three people discussing the subject, which I believe was "problems youth have in today's society". Two of them were women and one was a man. The only one I remember any detail on was one of the women who was young, beautiful and black. She had long hair that was braided into hundreds of little braids.

After watching the TV as long as I felt necessary, I flew outside. I started looking for holes on the ground. I couldn't remember at first what it was that I was looking for but I knew it had to do with holes. Then I remembered--I was supposed to go into a rabbit hole. The ground below me was covered in little holes that were big enough for little mice or gophers. I didn't think any of them would work.

Then I looked over into the neighbor's yard, and under their apricot tree was a large hole. It looked big enough for a rabbit. The hole was divided into two sections. One had a long roll of chicken wire going down into it. I didn't think that I could fit in the center of that roll. So I chose to try the other hole. It was more open. I saw that it went directly under the tree and through to the other side. I dove down inside. I could see roots from the apricot tree poking out into the hole. I had a camera with me and started taking pictures of the inside of the hole. For some reason I thought that I could document the experience better by doing that.

I went all the way through the hole and back out the other side. I then wanted to document the experience one step further. I pulled out a notebook and started sketching the tree.


At some point here I lost lucidity. I went on to two more dreams that I may write up later.

6-26-08


And here is the really cool news....

I had another lucid dream when I took a nap this afternoon. I haven't taken this long or hard of a nap in a long time. But I really seemed to need this.

And what's funny, I seem to be really open to the power of suggestion. Moonbeam and I were just talking about eating...lucid eating...

And then I have this dream:

Lucid Binge Eating Nap Dream:

My dream memory starts while I was eating. I had this very large bowl in front of me that was filled with all kinds of bad-for-me food. I remember chips and cookies and candy.

At some point I become lucid. As soon as I did, I got really excited as I saw the huge bowl of food in front of me that I could now eat without consequence. I was afraid that my excitment would wake me up. So I chanted a few times, "I won't wake up until I have eaten this food. I won't wake up until I have eaten this food."

I started to feel more stable. So I began to grab handfulls of food and start eating it as fast as I could. I ate chips, cookies. I remember there was one of those orange marshmallow peanuts there. I shoved it into my mouth trying to notice if the flavor was like the real ones. The flavor was the same but not as strong as the real life food...sort of diluted. I then saw some hard candies. I popped them into my mouth and chewed them up.

At some point I saw Jeff. He was carrying a thing that looked half way between a sandwich and a sweet roll. I had a lot of red jelly. I took it from him and started to eat it. For a second I wondered if he had wanted it. Then I realized that the reason I was able to eat it in the first place was because this was a dream. And if this was a dream, no one would miss it.

After I ate the jelly roll, I found a refridgerator. I opened it up looking for more food.

But at some point I lost lucidity....


Wow...what a dream.....

After a dry spell, I had two in one 24 hour period. I hope this means I'm back in business.

6-26-08

Lucid Dream:

This started out a college dream. I remember setting up my new dorm room with my new roommate. As I finished setting up my stuff, I noticed that my roommmate and I both had several pots of blue flowers. We each had blue pansies and blue lobelia. I pointed that out to my roommate who also thought that was cool.

I also saw that we had both set up Gorilla shelves (those really heavy duty shelves you can buy at Home Depot).

At some point I saw that my jeans that I had been wearing that already had a small rip in them, had completely ripped up and around the back of my leg. There was no way I could continue to wear them. I looked in my suitcase and saw that they were my only pair of jeans. I couldn't believe that I had only packed one pair of jeans. I realized that I could just buy another one. I pulled a pair of capris out of my suitcase. I then pulled off my jeans and looked at myself in the mirror. I knew that I was older than a lot of the other college students. But as I looked at my body in the mirror I felt that I looked young enough to blend in.

Later I was hanging out on campus with a guy named Tim that I supposedly knew. We went together to this huge auditorium where there was going to be some kind of program. We walked in. I could see that we were on one of the upper levels. I wanted to get down closer so we could see better. We went down this ramp that had red velvet carpet. We went down quite a ways.

I noticed that there were TV cameras hanging by these chains from one of the levels. I asked why they were hanging. I was told that when the building shifted that the cameras would still be hanging completely still. It made sense to me in the dream.

But somewhere here I did become lucid. As soon as I did I found an exit and flew out.

My first thought was that I hadn't planned ahead, and I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with this lucid.

Then I remembered that I had been longing to fly in my real life. That the best thing I could possibly do was to just fly and to really appreciate the feeling of flying. So I flew out over some trees. I remember feeling how the wind felt on my face. I also tried to notice how I felt the movement of my body as I went up and down. I did this for a while before I finally lost lucidity.

5-30-08

Lucid Dream:

I was in a grocery store. Another girl I was with was helping people by holding their babies while they shopped.

I remember standing by the produce section when the girl come over to me holding a very cute, but very young baby. She tells me that she has to go and asks me to hold the baby. I told her that I didn't feel comfortable holding the baby since the parents didn't know that I had the baby and that I didn't even know who the parents were. She told me not to worry, that the dad's name was Kevin Sullivan. Then she left.

I stood there holding the baby not sure what to do. I looked at the baby. He was absolutely adorable. I then started wandering around the store looking for someone who might look like the baby's dad. Near the front of the sotre I saw a guy talking to Jeff. He looked a lot like Gene Wilder. For some reason, I was sure that this was the dad. I went over to him making eye contact. He looked at me, then the baby, then I knew for sure that this was the dad. I handed the baby back.

I then followed Jeff toward the front doors. He was ahead of me, so to catch up I jumped over the carts. It was such a good and long jump, and the amount of the time that I was in the air made me question whether this could possible be reality. I instantly knew that I was dreaming.

I then took off and flew out the front doors. As I flew I thought about what I should do in this lucid. The DV lucid Tasks came to mind. I remembered that the Basic one was to eat something that wasn't really edible. I looked around. The ground was concrete, but in a crack I saw some wet dirt. It was really kind of gross dirty kind of dirt--the kind that people have been walking on all day and throwing trash on and all. But it didn't bother me. I grabbed a rather large pinch and put it into my mouth. It tasted like I would imagine wet dirt to taste like--kind of gritty with a mineral taste.

And like normal in my dreams, I'm never satisfied with doing the task once, so I reached out and grabbed a piece of a rubber tree leaf (the kind that leaks white sticky stuff). I put it in my mouth and chewed it up. It didn't have much of a taste, kind of like a mild lettuce.

I then passed (while still flying) a juniper tree. I pulled off a sprig. I smelled it. It had a strong smell that I recognized as real juniper. I thought it would be really strong to eat, but it too had a rather mild taste. I was grateful becasue I was worried that it would leave a very bitter taste in my mouth for a while.

I then took off faster and flew to this large open building. It seems like there were planes stored in the building. I landed briefly on on of the large beams that overlooked the planes, then took off flying again.

I then flew to another large building. This one was under construction. As I got close I remembered that I had wanted to fall backwards when I had my next LD.

So I flew up to a high floor, turned my back to the dropoff, then squatted down gripping something in front of me. I felt the thrill of what I was about to do and briefly wondered if I should feel nervous.

But before I could think too much about it I let go with my hands and kicked off with my feet, and did a backwards dive. I let myself fall for a time enjoying the falling sensation. Then flew up to do it again. This time I stood with my back to the edge and just let myself slowly fall back.

This time I went all the way to the ground. I felt a light thud as I hit the ground. As I stood, I thougth about the Advanced Task. I tried to remember what it was. Wasn't it something about traveling to different places? I wasn't entirely sure, but it sounded good enough for me to try. I took off flying again. I wondered how many places I would have to go to get it to count. I figured that I would have to be at least three to four.

I decided that I needed to get to a jungle first. As I flew I imagined everything turning black (like my last successful LD where I transported to a different place), then coming out in the jungle.

But as I flew the dream faded and I lost lucidity.

5-19-08

Lucid dream:


I don't even remember what made me lucid. I remember being in this hallway. I was flying over all these people. I knew I wanted to interact with someone because those dreams are the most interesting.

I somehow ended up with this guy in a closet. I know what you're thinking....but we didn't have sex. I did kiss him a little, but things got weird. I don't even remember the details of "weird". But I do remember telling the guy, "I don't think I will write this part up in my DJ."

Then I got curious. I asked him. Do you know what I'm talking about when I say things like 'DC'?

"Dream Character." He said.

"Well, how about DJ, then?"

"Dream Journal."

"Well, that makes sense that you know, since I know, and you are basically me."



Middle part of the dream:

I did all kinds of things in this dream. I remember saying, "Wow, I'm still dreaming. I hope I can remember all this".

Of course I don't.

I vaguely remember something about flying and seeing the ground above my head and thinking that it looked very flat, like a movie screen.


End of dream:


A group of lucid dreamers all met together to do this huge Epic Task that Seeker had asked us to try for his Workshop. (I believe I would call this the "going with the flow" part. I still seemd to think I was lucid. But at the same time I was kind of sucked into this plot.)

There were several people there. The only one that was an actual person that I knew was Moonbeam, who, like I mentioned before was sometimes my other friend Natacha.

We were all standing at the edge of this huge canyon. There was a bridge that spanned across from side to side.

The Task was to do this:

Strip down to you underwear. Fly across the canyon, going under the bridge. Once to the other side, we were to get to our homes in any way we wanted (flying, porting, etc). We were then to find a parent or other family member and ask them the question, "Do I have Hidden Family?" Any answer we received would count. Then we were to return back to the starting point.

I noticed in the group several others that supposedly lived in the same place as I did. (In the dream I was considering my mom's house home.) I talked to them a little about that fact. I also remember talking about howPeteB was the one who had originally introduced me to lucid dreaming and how I was greatful for that. (See, it's things like that where I realize that I wasn't completely lucid here.)

So we all got ready to start. We stripped down to our underwear. I was wearing a brown bra and panties that I do not own in real life.

A guy from Brazil was chosen to start. He was very tan and was wearing boxer shorts. I watched him fly out over the canyon and under the bridge.

Then the rest of us just stood and waited for what seemed like an extremely long time. I then suddenly thought, "This is so stupid to wait. There is no reason we can't all do this at once. I don't want to waste my lucidity just waiting (and that thought makes me know that I was still at least somewhat lucid.)

I told everyone that I was going to go. As soon as I said that I could see the Brazilian guy coming back. I remember thinking, "Wow, he was fast."

I took off over the canyon. I felt like I was going too slow. I decided to do the trick that I learned to do in past LDs and instead of trying to propel myself forward faster, I would just make the scenery come at me faster.

It worked and soon I was across the canyon. I looked down (I wasn't very high off the ground) and saw two lucid dreamers dressed up as vampires. I knew that their purpose was to try to distract me from finishing the Task. They called out at me, but I ignored them. I knew that I needed to get to my home quickly. I decided to just make the scenery change. When I thought that, everything went black.

Then I started seeing things, as if I were coming out of a dark tunnel. I saw red cliffs that I knew were near my mom's town. I came out of the tunnel, and realized that I was up on top of this huge rock face. To my horror, as I came out I noticed that I had somehow knocked this huge boulder loose and I watched it fall all the way down the cliff face. I panicked as I hope that no one was at the bottom that would be hurt by the falling boulder.

As I felt the rock crash at the bottom, I felt the ground that I was standing on tremble. I had the horrible thought that I might have triggered a rock slide that would affect me because I was standing at the very edge.

But then I realized that I was still dreaming and that I could just fly down off the cliff, that the rock slide wouldn't matter at all.

But at this point I woke up.

4-29-08


Short Lucid Dream


I remermber being in a mall talking to Jan J. I don't remember exactly what happened but something about the "timing" made me realize I was lucid. I almost missed it. I remember thinking at first, "If only I had caught that earlier, I could have become lucid." But then I gave it a try and found I was still in the dream.

The first and only thing that came to my mind to do was to find Tom Bailey*. I wondered through the mall. I passed hundreds of people. I decided that I would just keep going until I found him. I thought about calling his name, but I was afraid that would wake me up, as this didn't seem like a particularly stable LD. But I never did find him, and I finally woke up. Later I realized that I was just a FA.

4-21-08

Lucid dream:


I was downstairs on my treadmill. I looked over to where my workout bench was supposed to be. I was surprised that I didn't see it. I looked away, then looked back. There it was. I closed one eye. The workout bench was gone again. I switched eyes, and the workout bench was back. I thought that was really odd and bizarre.

Then it hit me that I might be dreaming. I took a little jump and floated off the floor. The first thought to come to mind that I needed to fly upstairs and look under my bed, so I could finally get that task completed.

I flew up and went into my bedroom. I saw my bed as it is in real life with the boxsprings sitting directly on the floor. There was no space under the bed. I tried to reach under anyway. But there was no place for my hand to go.

I then looked up and saw my sister there. At that point I had a False awakening. I saw black.

I concentrated on the basement again. And I soon found myself on the treadmill again where I had started.

I flew upstaris again, this time picturing my bed with a space underneath. I got to my bed, but again, there was no space under the bed. My friend Emily was sitting on the bed with papers spead out all over it. I got distracted a bit and lost lucidity for a moment as we started to discuss those papers, which were very important in the dream.

I then had another false awakening. I pictured myself on the treadmill again, and was soon there.

I flew up the staris again remembering that I could look in my closet. I sat on the floor in front of the closet and reached in. The first thing I pulled out was a pair of brown jeans with a black belt on them (not anything I own in real life). I dropped then behind me. I then pulled out a black T shirt with the word "Peppers" written on the front in faded grey letters (also not real).

I then started going through my shoes. These were all familiar from real life. I then saw the duffle bag that IRL holds my AstroScan telescope. I reached in and could feel the round smooth surface of the telescope.

I then pulled my clothing aside and looked in the back corner. I saw two Kermet The Frog Puppets (No, it didn't make me think of my Pig Puppet). I actually owned a Kermit puppet a long time ago. It didn't seem strange to see two of them in my closet.

I then stood and walked to my dresser drawer. I pulled the top drawer open and sorted through things. I saw a stack of photos. There were pictures of groups of people in a place that looked very familiar. [In retrospect the place was actually a place I had visited several times in my dreams.]

I then pulled out one of the carving's that Oneironaught had sent me (in IRL), except this one was half finished and the wood was an odd orange and black color.

I also remember seeing a little flower charm that would have gone on a necklace.

I think I saw many other things, but this is all I remember.

I then pulled open one of the small side drawer. There were lots of things in this drawer, but all I remember is that everything was so very dusty with a fine reddish brown dust. Oh, there was a pair of scissors in that drawer.

I then opened the small drawer under that one. This drawer was full of old cassette tapes. I pulled three out. They seemed to be fancy and instead of a paper label on them, there was a brown leather label. One said, "Global", another said, "Treadmill", and the last said, "Health". I figured these were old workout tapes that I used to use.

Before I could search any longer, I woke up.

4-12-08


I was in a hotel room. I was looking at myself in a mirror. I noticed that my hair was very curly. I looked away for a moment and when I looked back my hair was really frizzy. This change made me lucid.

[I'm really embarrassed to say what I did next. But I guess I will--but please realize that in real life I really don't have this same obsession to look at my breasts.....]

The first thing I was to take off my shirt again to see what my naked body would look like in this dream. I looked normal and in proportion. I then decided it would be fun to see if I could mentally change the size of my breasts. I first made them bigger. They easily changed until they were a couple of cup sizes bigger. Then I decided to make them smaller. So I did this several times noticing how easy it was to change them. I just thought it, and they changed. I felt proud of myself for being able to do this so easily, and how I felt I was gaining much more control in LDs these days. I then decided to make them really big. But one got all saggy and deformed, so I made them normal again.

I then lost lucidity. But I was still in the hotel room. I looked over and saw my dad sitting on the bed. My dad is dead in real life, so this triggered lucidity immediatly. I then remembered that I wanted to complete the advanced task of riding a tsunami.

So I flew out the hotel door. I was flying over a forest. I needed to find the ocean. I then looked down and saw a river. For some reason I thought that I could make a tsunami on that river. I got closer and saw that the river was flowing fast. I kind of hovered barely above the river and wondered if that would count as riding a tsunami. But then I figured that this was more like white river rafting, and most likely would not count.

I decided to fly higher again. The forest was covered in snow. I could see buildings ahead. As I go closer they looked more like toys, yet they were really big. They reminded me of Playmobil--like great big dollhouses.

I then thought of Robot_Butler's dreams and how I wanted more interesting dreams, and how I needed to just relax and "go with the flow"-- but as I looked around I could see no one, and there was absolutely nothing going on that was at all interesting. Discouraged, I started looking for people. I decided I needed people for the dream to be interesting.

I don't exactly remember what happened next. I do remember talking to a girl named Claire. we were talking about someone named John. I don't think I was lucid during that part.

But then I was lucid again. I saw two guys. I knew I needed to interact with them. The only thing I could think of to do with them was to kiss them. I went to one of the guys and started to kiss him. It was awkward, and he was a terrible kisser. Then he said some rude things to me and started talking about Claire. I decided not to waste my time on him any longer.

I went to the next guy. He was much better looking anyway. He was gentle and nice to me and the kiss was wonderful and romantic. I remember his name was Jake.

At some point during this I woke up.

3-21-08


Lucid Dream.

Like usual, I'm not sure how this one began. I do know that I was at my friend's J and P B's house. There were several other peopel there and everyone was talking.

I then noticed a piles of fossils, mostly megalodon teeth sitting in a pile. I immediately asked P about them. he said that he and some freinds had just returned from a fossil hunting expedition and those were some of what he found. I was suddenly so jealous. I had always wanted to go do something like that. And thougth megalodon teeth were so cool. I told him, "Please, next time you go, let me come too."

Later I saw a map sitting in on a coffee table and it showed the place where they had found the fossils. It was right here in town--just down the hill from the library. I was suddnely so excited to go looking for megalodon teeth myself.

Then I had this feeling creep over me. This was too good to be true. Maybe this was just a dream. I had mixed feelings about this thought. Part of me wanted this to be a dream because then I could fly around and do other cool sutff. But part of me really wanted the part about being able to find megalodon teeth here in town to be true.

I did the test I ususally do and jumped a little into the air. I did float a bit. Not much, and I questioned that a little, until I asked myself if I could float at all in real life. Then I accepted that this was a dream.

I don't remember everything I did at this point, and I think there were a few times that I lost lucidity.

I do know that at one point I went out into their backyard. I admired how nice the yard was--sectioned off with part of the yard grass, part patio, part garden. I then decided to try to fly without moving my arms in swimming style like I usually do.

I just stood there and pictured little rockets on the bottoms of my feet. It worked. I started rising into that air very quickly. I wanted to see how high I could go since I usually have a limit.

I went pretty high--maybe like a 15 story building. I wanted to look out at the horizon as I went, but my eyes were forced to look straight down. I don't know why, and it bothered me that I had trouble controling that.

I landed and tried again. I took off again "rocket feet" style. This time I noticed it was dusk. I could see a McDonlads lit up below me. (In retrospect, I know it was inspired by a picture I took of a Mc Donalds at dusk which I'll have to post after I write this up.)


I'm not sure what I did after this. But I do know that at some point I went back inside the B's house. I noticed a little fridge in the back room. I opened it up to see what was inside. I saw a carton of ice cream.

Doing this made me remember that I wanted to look in my closet to see what was inside. I figured if I flew around a little in this house that I could transform this into my house and when I opened the door it would be my room and my closet.

I did this and it didn't quite work. I saw a closet door in the hallway and decided that when I opened it it would be my room.

I opened the door and rushed inside. But to my horror I saw J and P in bed having sex. Seeing this made me lose lucidity. I was so embarrassed that I had just walked in on them like that. I said sorry really quick and closed the door.

But then I wondered if this could still be part of the dream. Man, I hoped it was. I jumped and floated in the air. I let out a huge sigh of relief.

I went to another door and opened it. This one wasn't quite my room, but there were enough things in common that I decided that I would open the closet to see what was inside anyway.

Theh closet doors were glass. I could see myself fly over to it. Seeing myself fly distracted me from opening the closet. I noticed how wonderfully horizontally I flew. I flew back and forth admiring my control at being able to fly so slow and smoothly while remaining in such great form.

I then noticed that I was wearing blue jeans. They made my legs look long and lean.

I decided to land and really look at myself. I looked taller than normal. I liked it. I then did what I did in a previous LD. I wanted to see what I looked like without clothes. So I first took off my shirt. I was wearing my blue sports bra. My skin looked quite tan. I then slipped off my bra to see what my dream breasts looked like. They were similar except that the nipples were darker. I noticed two girls/women come into the room. I knew they weren't real, so I continued to undress. I slipped the rest off, until I stood naked looking at myself in the mirror. I liked what I saw. I was glad my subconscious didn't make me all deformed or gross in any way.

One of the girls made a comment on me being naked. I basically said , "So what."

The other one started looking at me like she was totally turned on. She walked over to me and made some comment that I don't remember, but that I knew was sexual in nature. And I commented back in a like manner. I guess I was curious to see where this would go because I had never had this happen before in a dream.


And in my typical fashion, I'm going to have to end this dream here. I feel embarrassed to write down the details of what happened next. But I will say that right as it was feeling really good, I woke up.

3-20-08


A Lucid Dream.

I don't remember where the dream started, but I was walking across the street toward my mom's house. I looked on the ground and saw a scorpion. My first thought was to go grab my camera. Then I saw a second scorpion.

I looked and saw that they were coming from this box. I looked in the box and then saw a fat Black Widow crawl out. I continued to watch with a mixture of fascination and horror, as dozens of scorpions and BWs slowly climbed out of the box and onto the dirt driveway where I was standing.

Something about this scene made me question my state. At first I dismissed the idea that I was dreaming because this was real. I know what dreams feel like and what reality feels like. This was simply too real to be a dream.

But at the same time, I remembered how frustrated I had been at myself lately for missing so many obvious dream signs. And that if I later found out that this was a dream, and that I missed the perfect opportunity to become lucid, I would really be mad at myself.

So as I walked again twoard my mom's house, I jumped into the air to see if I could fly. I went up and came right back down. I felt silly for trying. This was reality. But I decided to give it one more try. I jumped out and kicked myself forward....and I totally surprised myself when I continued to glide ahead in the air.

I was thrilled that I was actually dreaming when I was so sure that I wasn't. I hadn't been expecting the chance to have this experience. I was extremely thankful that I hadn't given up.

I started to fly. The land behind my mom's house dropped off and I was flying high over a valley far below.

All of a sudden the dream began to fade. I had the attitude of, "Don't you dare..."

I reached out and rubbed my hands on my arms like I did in the last LD. I noticed the same way of how my hands left like they were part of my physical body, but yet I could move them around my body whith out bumping into my sleeping body on the bed.

The hand rubbing did the trick.

There is a fuzzy place here that I don't remember what I did. I think I might have flown in a store.

But at some point I remembered that I needed to try some tasks, I remembered that I told Nothin7 that I would try some of his experiments. I tried to remember what they were.

I decided that the first one was to write a sentence. I was outside of a house. I decided to fly inside. I landed by a table and looked until I found a pen. I then found a paper. It was written on, but had spaces around the edges. I knew I didn't need much room to write a sentence, so this paper would work good enough for me. I carefully wrote, "I NEED TO WRITE A SENTENCE FOR NOTHING7." I was actually a little surprised that it was easy to do and that I had no trouble at all doing it. It wasn't until later in retrospect that I realized I used all caps to write it, and I never wirte in caps these days (I went through a stage as a teenager when I did. Maybe this is significant because I often go back to being a teen in my dreams.)


I then tried to remember the next thin I was supposed to do. I then remembered something about humming a song that I made up. I tried coming up with a little tune. I didn't do as well on this one becasue I often couldn't quite get the notes I was trying for, so then whole thing sounded off and out of tune. But I feel that I was able to do it somewhat. As I went outside again I continued to hum and ended up humming a melody that I thought I knew from real life. But now, in retrospect, I think it is something I was continuing to make up.

I then remembered that I needed to find a painting to look at. I was a little shed nearby that I knew was actually a shop. I supposedly knew the lady that ran the shop. I felt sure that I could find a picture inside the shop.

I went in. The walls were covered with items for sale--things like dream catchers and other ornaments and trinkets. But I did see a picture. It was actually a sand painting. It was several shades of earth tones. I saw that it was a desert scene with hills and cliffs. I felt that I was able to understand the picture was of.

I continued to look. I saw more pictures. The next two were water colors. They were a still life of a chemistry set...flasks and beakers...all stacked into a tower. There were two pictures in this set, obviously done by the same artist.

I then looked up and saw a large picture. It was actually made out of a sheet of metal and pounded into a 3D picture. It was a snow scene with a barn. I reached out to touch it. I felt the shiny cold surface of silver.

Mrs. Moore was now standing beside me. I understood that this was her store. She made a comment that that picture was her favorite too.

Seeing Mrs. moore, I decided that I would have her try the experiment. I asked her if she would be willing to write out a sentence for me.

But before she could I was suddenly awake.

3-15-08

I finally had a long enough lucid to do one of the Tasks this month.

Lucid Nap Dream:

I knew I was supposed to talk to NJ. The next thing I knew I was walking into her house without knocking. I called out for her. I looked down the hallway and saw her husband quickly shut one of the doors in the hallway.

I was suddenly motified that I had just walked into their house without knocking. I realized that S had to shut the door so I wouldn't wake up thier two year old son that I knew he had just gotten to sleep.

I saw N and apologized for walking into their house without knocking. That I had no idea what had come over me. I then asked her what she needed to talk to me about. I knew she had called me earlier saying that she needed to talk to me about something, but I no longer remembered what that was. She looked a little confused too and said that she didn't know either.

Suddenly a suspicion came over me. I wouldn't walk into anyone's house without knocking in real life.

I then said to N, "You know, I think this is a dream. In fact, I know this is a dream. Wanna come to the door and watch me fly?"

I opened the door and then flew out. I felt so good to finally be in a lucid dream again. It had been so long.

As soon as I thought this it all began to fade. I felt mad that it was all over already. Then I thought angrily to myself, "Every day on Dreamviews I give suggestions to the Newbies about extending their LDs and preventing things like this from happening. And I can't even keep it from happening to myself."

Then another thought suddenly hit me, "Why don't I actually try some of the things that I tell the Newbies to do?"

At this point most of the visual was gone, though not completely. And I felt somewhat aware of my physical body in bed. I decided to try the "rubbing my hands together" trick. I did and and felt a little worried that I was actually rubbing my real hands together in bed, because it really felt very real.

I then concentrated with the visual. I have noticed in the past when entering a dream it is often easier to just imagine the scenery passing me by, instead of making myself move through the scenery. So I was able to do this and everything became much more vivid again.

I continued to fly over the neighborhood. I moved my arms as I flew "Swimming" style. I still wondered if I was moving my arms in real life. I felt if I moved my hands lower that they would suddenly catch on the blankets. But then I moved my hands so they were moving below my body closer to my chest and stomach. They didn't catch on anything, so I knew that what felt so much like my physical body was once again just my dream body. (This isn't the first time I have thought I was moving my physical body, when it was only my dream body all along.)

I saw an interesting tree below. I flew up to it and over the top touching my hands all over the top as I flew. It looked like it was shaped as a topiary. It was either dead or dormant because the leaves were all brown and crunchy. But the tree was all filled in and very dense... and very round.

I flew around it again and this time put my hands on the top and tried to do a handstand. I tried it several times until I felt like I was completely straight. I balanced there for a bit enjoying the feeling of being upside down.

At that point I heard Mrs. Moore's voice from down below say, "Well, I've never seen anyone do that before." I knew that she knew that this was a lucid dream. But I understood her to mean that she had never seen someone do that in their lucid dream before.

I started to fly again. Twice more the dream started to fade and I was able to follow my own advice and bring it back. Each time I felt very close to losing the dream. So I was very proud of myself for getting it to continue. I really didn't want to lose lucidty yet. I needed to have the joy of having a long lucid again.

At that point it hit me that I really needed to try one of the Tasks of the Month since I hadn't had a chance to even try yet. My mind was blank for a moment as I tried to remember. The first one that I remembered was the "indestructable" task. I really didn't feel like doing that right now. I then remembered that the other one was to bring an inanimate object to life. I really wanted to do that one.

I looked down below and saw a front yard. In it was a lot of gravel. My first thought was that I would swoop down and fly really low and make the rocks come to life and run after me. That thought actually sounded very appealing to me, as I pictured the little rocks with little stick legs running down the street.

So I swooped down...but the rocks didn't follow me. I decided that I needed to put a little mor effort into it. I landed right in front of the yard. I took a good look at it. There were some dead looking bushes in a planter type area. There was also a plastic flamingo and a ceramic cat nestled in among the dead bushes. There were several choices here....

I wondered how I should try this. I then remembered that when I made the tree walk (as a past Task of the Month) that I had just looked at it with the expectation that it would walk. I had done nothing special. So I just stood there looking into the garden and waited.

I glanced over at the ceramic cat. It's eye suddenly blinked. So it would be the cat. I was thrilled that my mind was able to do this while I just stood there doing nothing.

I watched the cat. It started to walk over to me. I knelt down, and touched the cat. I could feel real fur. It was a small cat, white with black stripes. It looked up at me while I continued to pet it. It's fur was very short and somewhat think, almost like a stuffed animal. But it was very real, and it purred while I pet it.

And at that point I woke up.