Twoshadows

I'm not sure now to describe this dream. It was very long and complex, but when I think about writing it down, I can't think of how to explain it, so it may be pretty short.

Dream:

I was in a sort of "time loop". It was like for years I had been doing the same thing. I had been going to the school and being with my sister who is a teacher and with Mrs L. I had a tradition of doing a storytelling presentation. Every time it was the same, because every time in the "time loop" the day started exactly the same. But then suddenly I was there and about to do my presentation and realized that something had happened, and everything was different. I remember going into Mrs. L's office and we were both feeling nervous about what was happening.

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Wow, that was a terrible way to describe what felt like an epic dream.

I dreamed that Tanya and I were in this store. There were these bins--like if you were going to get ice cream for cones. But instead they were filled with these different protein powders. You could choose a flavor and the person behind the counter would take it and either blend it into a protein shake or form it into a bar and microwave it. Tanya chose a flavor called "Coconut Berry" and got hers in bar form. I hadn't decided which one I would get.

I just had one of those "Stupidest Ways You've Missed Lucidity" dreams. I always wake up frustrated after I have a dream where I am discussing lucid dreaming with someone and don't catch that I am dreaming.

Dream:

I am in my grandparents house with my mom and sister. I also see Marie walk by with her new Japanese friend. They are all dressed up. I am on what I think is the treadmill, but it seems to have a computer on it and I am reading from a lucid dreaming website. (I don't remember anything about it being Dreamviews specifically). I remember reading a post where someone is suggesting using a "mana bar" to help them with dream powers. I think about my World of Warcraft character, and how she uses a mana bar for her spells to work, and I think, "What a stupid idea!" In fact, I decide to rant to my mom and sister about just how stupid I think that idea is. I remember saying something like, "What...like I am supposed to make this mana bar over my head while I fly and stuff. And what happens if I run out of mana? Do I crash to the ground? That's just so dumb. I don't need mana to have my powers. I'll never run out. I just need to believe." And I think I went on a bit longer to my poor dream mom and sister.

Then I remember sitting down at the kitchen table and asking my sister to pout me a bowl of cereal. She poured cereal into my bowl and what came out of the box was just marshmallows and chocolate chips. I said, "Whoa, I can't eat this." And she started scooping it back into the box. I said, "Wait, you can leave a few chocolate chips."

And then my sister tells me about all these coupons she got from a cereal company by commenting on their website.


Of course when I woke up I realized that it was my own subconscious that came up with the dumb mana bar idea. And that I missed a chance to become lucid, as well.

Another older dream:

8-9-10


Lucid Dream:



I was walking down the road from my house and saw a house for sale. I didn't remember seeing this house before. It was very large and old and interesting. It had a very big lot. I decided to go look at the house. I wondered if it was something that I could buy. It was big, but also old, so maybe affordable for me.



I remember looking inside. The owner was suddenly with me and showing me the rooms. It was almost castle-like inside. At one point she showed me a suit of armor and told me tht the man who wore this haunted this house. I thought that was really cool, and it made me want to buy the hosue even more.



At one point I was outside. The house was suddenly on this big sandstome hill. I walked around the house. At one point it was very narrow, and the house was on what looked like the edge of the Grand Canyon. I tried to scoot around that part of the house. But I had to hang on to this sandstone rock and kind of hung over the huge drop off.



I think it was this that made me lucid.



I knew I was dreaming, but the drop still scared me. I knew that I should be able to let go and I could fly. But it felt so real. And I felt so heavy. I was afraid I would start to fall if I let go.



Later when I was back to the level wide ground I walked over to the edge again. I felt cautious. But I stepped back again and took a slow run toward the edge again. This time I made sure I started to fly before I got to the edge. By doing it this was I wasn't afraid. I started to soar over the huge canyon. I remember enjoying the feeling of flight.



But that's all I really remember.

Another older dream:

7-27-10


I just remembered that I had a dream with a little low level lucidity involved. It's all very fuzzy, though.

I was outside and wanted to show off for these people. I think I became lucid and jumped up in a very tall tree and jumped around from branch to branch.

Seems a bit odd, but that's what I remember.

Another older dream.

7-11-10

Lucid Dream:

I'm not sure what triggered lucidity, but when I became lucid I was a the dinner table with several people including my sister. I remembered recently reading a post here on Dreamviews about whether you can taste things in dreams. Even though I have eaten in dreams before and tasted food I wanted to put this to the test again and really try to notice.

I picked up a block of cheddar cheese and popped it into my mouth. I remember thinking that I could distinctly taste the cheddar flavor, but it was not as strong as in real life, like it was somehow "muted".

I then decided I wanted to eat cookies. There weren't any on the table so I went to a cupboard and opened it up. Sure enough, there was a plate of cookies. I started stuffing them into my mouth. I was a little disappointed to find that they were store bought, like a chewy Chips Ahoy kind of cookie. I tried to transform them into homemade, and they changed slightly, looking a little more irregular. But they still tasted like store-bought.

I then tried to find a plate of brownies, but I didn't have any luck with that, so I went outside. I thought about the fact that I don't have to "try" to fly. I just think about it and an instant later I am in the sky. I paid close attention to that now. As soon as I walked out the door, I was pulled up into the sky fairly quickly. I slowed to a stop at about three stories up, which is in the range I usually fly at (1-4 stories). I don't often fly too high. I have to really work at it to get higher than that "normal" range of mine.

Catching up on some old dreams from my old Dream Journal:

7-8-10


This one seemed to be long and complex, but I only remember the end.

I remember waiting for this cruise type ship to arrive. On it were many important people. Finally I saw it pull up. Every one I saw was black.

Later I ended up with the most important person on the ship. He was some kind of prince. He was not black. He had short sandy blond hair and was about 35-40 years old. And he was very nice looking.

Somehow I ended up lucid.

I tried to remember the Task of the Month. I thought it was "to ask a DC a question". So I asked the prince, "So do you know that this is my lucid dream?" He knodded at me knowingly and said, "Ah, yes."

I felt like I needed to ask another question, so I asked, "Do you want to kiss me?"

Next thing I know we are kissing rather passionately, and as we kiss I notice we have less and less clothing between us. I remember rubbing my hands on his bare back. At one point I even wondered if we were having sex. But I was never sure. Funny how that works in dreams.

Then there is an unknown transition. I am trying to get dressed and my foot keeps getting caught in the stretchy material of the shorts I was putting on.

I'm not sure if I was lucid here...or even where the dream went at this point.

I found a paper by my bed. On it was a list of dreams that I had about a month ago. I had written down brief notes. Now if I had gotten them written up in my DJ here on the day that I had the dream I'm sure I would have remembered them. As I read through my notes I was a bit sad when I realized that I really didn't remember much. A few sort of rang a bell and I remembered a slight image from that dream, but with no detail. Other dreams on the list could have been dreamed by a stranger-- they were that forgotten. This is a huge reminder to me why journaling is important. Immediate journaling. Dream memories fade way too fast.

But for fun I will list the notes here anyway.

Dreams:

1. Rappelling in hotel

2. Grandma's house/bathrooms/Christmas present/shirt from Elden/bows

3. Weird bathroom/naked/kids in backyard/medication

4. Looking for food with friend Marie/shop/clay bowl in class

5. Talking with ladies/Jan Y/bed/quilt

6. Lady/joke/dress-up

7. Ghost/cave

8. Cathy/letter

9. Camping in gravel parking lot with Angela/worried

10. Living room with Robert's kids

11. Huge Fish tank in living room/lots of plants and baby fish

12. Taking care of Mexican baby Malinda

13. Baby Daniel talking

14. Having a baby on the Rez/Paul B



Ooo....I really wish I remembered the ghost/cave dream. I wonder if it will come to me if I really think about it.

I'm posting something from back in October 2006. A comment by Verre (about my recent micro nap dreams) made me think about this and go look it up again. I have heard "the voices" quite a few times in that transition between wake and sleep. But I don't think I have ever had it happen as much at one time as it happened this particular time.

Here it is:


I had another night with a blur of dreams. I woke up a little disappointed. But I decided to lay in bed and try to squeeze out one little dream before I got up. It ended up I wasn't tired enough to go fully asleep and have a full dream. But I got to the stage where I was hearing "the voices". I'm sure most people know what I am talking about--that stage where you think you are awake, yet you get funny little snips of conversation that you know were not part of your conscious thoughts.

Well, I decided to write them down. After each, I lay back down and did it again. I got a funny little list of these "voices". Here they are:

Someone talking about an invisible roommate: "You won't see her, 'cuz that's what's expected of her."

"Your brother is so weird."

Ladies voices:
Lady #1: "Your mother said no DNA."
Lady #2: "Your mother told me, too."

"The kids and the military will be glad to be back."

Old man's voice : "I can't believe you're not going to give me a cent."

Many voices together: "It's gone!"

Four black ladies sitting around a desk talking about my friend: "He wants to split the groups..." Laughing....

Girl's voice: "And if you're lucky, let me know."

The other day I had a couple mini lucid dreams. I should probably call them "Micro Lucids" because they were super short, but in them I was able to accomplish one short task each.

These micro LDs occurred while I was trying to take a power nap. As I drifted off I found myself standing with a piece of paper in front of me that had writing on it. I always like to reading things in LDs. So I picked up the paper and took a look. It said....*drumroll* ........"Replanting the file eon"

And I immediately woke up. What the heck does that mean? I wrote it down and decided to finish my power nap. Strangely, the same exact thing happened again. I'm standing there with another piece of paper. I hoped this message would be more meaningful. I looked closely and read the words, "Zero the charm" And I immediately woke up again and wrote the words down.

So I have to wonder why my brain came up with those weird random phrases. Hmmmm....

Both of these dreams happened so fast that I hardly even knew I was sleeping. In fact, it was one of those nap "dreams" where you are still mostly awake, but you start seeing the dream before your eyes, like a little hallucination, but you are still thinking consciously like you are fully awake. It was like a WILD with an instant transition. Happens a lot in nap dreams. There is probably a name for it, but I haven't looked it up.

This dream is from a couple of weeks ago. I have been writing down dreams on paper, but not getting them online.




Last night's dream is a good example of how my brain attempted to hand lucidity to me on a golden platter, yet I ignored it every time. I completely missed each and every dream sign.

So here is the dream.

I was sitting in a Japanese restaurant. I suddenly look up and see Tom DeLonge walk in with a couple of other guys. They go to the front and sit at the bar. This alone is a dream sign, since I have met Tom many times in dreams but not in real life. But instead of questioning my reality my mind starts thinking of ways I can go talk to Tom without coming across like an overly enthusiastic fan. I can't come up with anything. But I do notice the restroom was just beyond where he is sitting. So I get up and head to the bathroom hoping that something will happen. But I pass Tom, and there is no eye contact, and I didn't want to just tap him on his shoulder.

Once in the restroom I look in the mirror. To my horror, I see that I hadn't freshened up since my workout. My hair is still sweaty and I have no make up. Furthermore, there is some weird white powder all over my face and hair. This was a double dream sign. I often have strange reflections in dream mirrors. And I also often find myself looking terrible in dreams right when I want to meet someone on whom I want to make a good impression. But again, I miss it completely and just think about how thankful I was that I didn't get Tom's attention. I take a few minutes trying to look better, then go out and again pass Tom uneventfully.

Before anything else can happen, Tom and his friends leave. I also head out the back door and try to think of a way to meet them outside. I see a truck slowly passing with him in it. Since this is my last chance I decide to be bold and step out to the truck. It stops, and I look inside. The driver is a guy. Tom is seated next to him, and there are two girls on the other side of Tom. I said something like "So sorry to bother you guys, but I just wanted to say hi and shake hands with Tom. And I reach my hand in the truck. Tom is looking down and is motionless. But one of the girls grabs my hand and start to lick it. She says, "Mmmm...it's salty," Instead of thinking that this was too strange for reality, I just think, "Well, yeah, I was just working out. I guess it's sweaty." Then the other girl grabs my hand and licks it too. All the while Tom is sitting there seemingly passed out. And finally the dreams ends. And I missed all the chances I had to become lucid with Tom right there in front of me.

I need to start doing better again at recording my dreams. I have now had so many dreams that are lost forever.

Last Night's Dream:

I had some potted plants that I had sitting in a casserole type pan with water in it. I decided to move the plants. I was about to dump out the rest of the water from the pan when I noticed a baby fish in the water. I looked closer and saw another fish. I suddenly realized that the pan was full of tiny fish. I decided to pick up the pan to take it to my pond and let the fish out. As I picked up the pan I had trouble holding it steady and ended up dumping a bunch of the water out. I saw little fish all over my rug. I very carefully tried to pick up each tiny fish. When I thought I had them all, I tired to move the pan again. And again I splashed out a whole bunch of water and fish. I had a styrofoam cup. I tried decided to put some of the water and fish in that cup, so the pan wouldn't be as full. I kept picking up fish off the floor, soon my cup was full of dozens of little fish of all different kinds.

I became lucid at some point in my dream and I started flying. I looked down and saw many small deep lakes in a very rock terrain. I flew down to one of the lakes and dunked myself in the water, then immediately flew back out. I flew to the next lake doing the same. After four or five lakes, I landed on the grass beside one of the lakes. I decided to practice a skill. The first thing that came to mind was to walk on my hands. SO I stood with my hands above my head and bent down into a handstand. On the first try I over did it and ended up rolling onto my back. I chided myself a little telling myself that I was in a dream now and that gravity didn't exist. So the next time I made a perfect hand stand. I then started walking all around the lake. I was surprised how fast I could walk on my hands...and how nice it was to not get tired.

Dream:

I was hiking with Susan E and Marsha in Coyote Gulch. We see a side canyon and decide to explore it. We had been looking for old Indian Ruins. As we start up the canyon we suddenly see that there are signs of Native Americans. But instead of old ruins we find that we have stumbled upon living Anasazi Indians. I was uncertain whether we have transported back in time or if we had found a civilization that has been undiscovered by modern people until this very moment.

I pause. I don't want to disturb anyone. To continue on we would be walking right through the middle of their village. But Susan keeps walking past some of the dwellings and to an alcove in the side of the canyon. I cautiously follow and so does Marsha. Suddenly Susan starts singing. It is a haunting Native American type song. It is one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard.. Marsha then pulls out her Native American wooden flute and starts to play along. I then kneel and use my legs for a drum. The Anasazi people seem just as enthralled as I am with the beauty of the music.

The brief thought goes through my mind that I wish I were recording this with my camera.


This dream was inspired by a recent trip to Coyote Gulch where were visited old Anasazi ruins.

I just remembered another lucid dream. It was actually the same night in Coyote Gulch, so I probably could have included it with the other LD from that night. But since I haven't posted here for a long time I think I will make this a whole new post so I can feel more active on DV.

LD:

Something (now forgotten) triggered lucidity. I flew around and then landed next to some people who had a plate piled up with cookies and cakes. I decided that this was my chance to be a total pig and eat it all. At first I felt slightly self conscious about the people next to me whose food I was now eating. But I reminded myself that they were not real--just as this food was not real, which was the reason for me eating it in the first place. I picked up huge cookies and pieces of cake and stuffed the whole things into my mouth cramming in as much as I could. It was all fairly soft. As is typical of this sort of dream for me, the food's flavor was less strong than in real life, but I could still taste the sweetness, but it just helped encourage me to stuff even more in, in hopes of tasting it more. I also remember eating chocolate covered pretzels as well.

I know I sound like a huge pig. And I know I do this fairly often in my LDs. But I guess, it is so much better to do this in the privacy of a dream than in real life.

Unfortunately the chocolate covered pretzels made me crave real ones and after we climbed out of the canyon and entered civilization again I bought a package of them. I had earned them, after all, by hiking with a 45 pounds pack for 6 days.