Went to bed at midnight and after six hours I recall no dreams, but I woke up happy, so am fairly confident that the dreams I failed to recall were not nightmares. I will need to cut down on the caffeine I think to reduce risk of staying up so late. After getting up it was a fairly typical morning in our household in terms of preparing boys and ourselves for going out. My boys chose to dress like twins in similar/same clothing. My husband had a morning meeting, so I dropped off both boys, but had two electronic devices, so they were happy in the back seat. As I dropped off my older son, my younger chose to stay in the car and continue to play. As I was dropping him off my younger son said he wished he could go to bed, and he sat down on me like on a chair as I was bending down to hug him goodbye and he did not want me to leave.
Work started as usual with needing to respond to some emails, and it was mostly a fairly easy going day, nothing too hard and challenging, and no stress.
While I was waiting for a process to finish, I logged into DV chat, and spent most of the time in query with someone who is depressed. I wish I could help, since I know a thing or two about depression. However, in my experience, the only way out of depression is to change, and this person does not think it is possible or desirable to change. Of course, I am an open minded person, and like to think that it is a mistake to tell anyone that my way is the only way, and the thing is that I am not, since it is not like I am saying that the change needs to be in a particular way, but I do not see how a depressed person can get better without change. I actually have a theory that an advantage to depression is that those of us who get depressed actually have a strong incentive for change, since at some point one reaches a point where not changing is not really an option. Most people are reluctant to change, and depression kind of forces the issue, I think. However, the person who I chatted with reminded me that this is not what all depressed people believe. Sigh. I wish I could help, but sometimes it is almost impossible to help someone if the two of us do not believe in the same premises. And I cannot change someone who does not want to change nor would I want to, but ... sigh.
As I picked up the boys, there was this cute kid in the elevator whose mom and him were playing a game of Open Sesame, where she would pretend that his open sesame and holding the mom's ID card actually opened the elevator doors - it was cute! My younger son proudly finished memorizing a song in Hebrew as I picked him up. My older son made a concerned face because he thought he forgot to take his homework folder from school, but I reassured him that his teacher had emailed all parents that she had forgotten to send homework, and would send it tomorrow, but meanwhile she sent the spelling list as an email attachment - yay for electronic communication. We drove through the McDonald's Drive Through, got home, ate. I wove the words from the spelling list into one giant letter string for my son to identify. And now I am typing this.
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