Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Dianeva. I hope you can get rid of the spyware soon! I always feel so stupid when I fall for a bad link (download etc). The one you ran into sounds pretty sophisticated, though!

Suena. Are you sure you're not with my ex-husband? My ex never threatened to hit me though and he never threw stuff. But he was a wannabe PI and he had some bugs in the house he was trying out and one of his friends came over one night and he forgot about the bugs (I hope). He told his friend he never loved me. I was pregnant with (I think) our 3rd. Of course he told me I was over-reacting when I confronted him about it. His friend had just gone through a nasty break-up and he was trying to make him feel better. It still hurt a LOT though.
My ex disappeared a lot too. He was also a wannabe photographer so he'd use the excuse he was going to go take pictures. Or he needed to unwind or get away from the noisiness of kids.

I tried everything to get through to him. Eventually, I started talking in my "sleep". I also kept a more public "diary" that I would leave out from time to time. The curiosity of most people ensures they'll take "a peek". And he did. And even though I'd pour my heart out about how I felt when he did certain things, it never got through to him. He just felt more resentful and annoyed with me and my illogical mind
If I was back there again I would try to find a tape recorder. I'd record my exes tantrums and play it back to him and ask how he would feel if I acted like or said those things.

It sounds like you're making some great plans though!
Oh, and the next time he tells you about one of his "dreams" (if he even dreamed that at all and wasn't making up something to get at you), get excited about it. Go into the interpretation process with him (but make it humorous and like no big deal). I doubt he'd try to get at you with his dreams again.

My rant is that I slept like absolute crap last night. I didn't fall asleep until 3AM or so and I tossed and turned all friggin night. My phone alarm woke me at 12:30 and I'm glad because I was having a bad dream (about my ex but with a twist). We were Indian or something lol. I was working at a competition for pole work. The poles looked more like monkeybars without the rungs between them and they weren't as tall. I KNEW I was too out of shape to do much of anything and I could have become lucid but I chose to let the dream run its course.
Then I was in a large dining area. There were people around a table but I was still at the poles and my ex told me to join them. I got very mad at the way he was ordering me around. I was in the middle of doing something. He got huffy though and I stormed outside. He was NOT going to talk to me like that lol. He came after me and was just hateful.
Then the dream changed, I forgot it then I woke.
It was a "bad dream" because it was too emotional. To me, those are the worst.

Anyhow, I tossed and turned all night. I couldn't get comfy for anything. BUT, I didn't get cold (I brought my space heater closer to my bed ), AND I didn't have any trouble with mucus or heartburn (I took meds before bed) So that's a step in the right direction methinks.

Originally Posted by mcwillis

The sandbox feature of chrome may have prevented any editing of the registry. A common soution that works for most folks is below. Failing that a scan with malwarebytes and superantispyware might help. Im not going to download to find out for you

I already tried all of that and it doesn't make a difference. My homepage is set to Google and the extension is gone, but both problems still exist when I open the browser.

Originally Posted by LightofHeaven

Run a system restore. You should install avast! antivirus software to give you better protection while surfing the web in future.

I have avast on my laptop but for some reason not on this computer. I'll try it. On this one I have superantispyware which is supposed to be really good but it didn't detect this.

Avast is definitely the most reliable antivirus software I've ever used. Once you have it installed, simply run a full system scan and it should detect whatever spyware you have on your computer.

Ugh... my rant is that I got nothing accomplished today. I slept I laid down at 4 for a nap and didn't wake up until 7 when the phone finally roused me. And I was dead asleep too. I probably would have slept all night!

Having a pretty avg time here. Coming home soon, saw some good places but the weather is hot and can't do a lot of things like swim in a waterfall because I have all my stuff with me and don't want it stolen. The eclipse was absolutely incredible though, camped out with some people on the road and this family (of which the wife was absolutely beautiful) gave men's spare welders mask lense to use and let me keep it as a memento!

But yeah sucks eating McDonald's to use their wifi and sucks camping when I'm all wet from a lake and bleh.... Will be back to rant and complain soon can't read all your rants now but will when I get back and hope you're all doing arson.

I'm sick of customers who stick their loyalty card in my face, or wave it around. I know, it's not going to fucking run away, just calm down! Why is it imperative your card is scanned at this very moment, we literally have the next minute in which I'll ring up your items. Chill the fuck out.

What the hell is happening to DreamViews right now, especially the chat.

My situation right now. Generally everything is pretty damn heavenly, but of course with plenty of things to rant about, I just haven't really.
Right now I'm just a little afraid of what might happen tomorrow... I'm afraid K might see the guy who almost molested her, despite that she's been reassured that he won't be there...
I can't be certain... If I'm lucky, I'll get to be there as well, maybe at the very least I can get to strategically place myself between them. It seems really outrageous to me that this is even a possibility. Either that or I'm being overly distrustful of their family...

Oh my god how I wish I could help her...

EDIT:
So not only did I just double-post, my post also time-traveled and ended up being placed before two posts I had already read.

Testing...

I wanna go back to this gig omg It was the best moment ever in my entire life, god I love 30 seconds to mars so much omfg

I go outside and ride my bicycle like crazy in the cold in short pants, a brown leather jacket, and a red sports shirt underneath. I'm sweating like fuck in the cold weather, it's not a pleasant experience having the sweat mixed in with the cold air.

Feeling the sweat drip between my shirt and jacket is too disgusting, and when it dries off......it just feels weird. I thought my adviser was going to be here, but she has another day off. Well fuck, wasted 10 minutes of riding just to get there.

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Today is the last day my guest is here, and god, she's getting so annoying.

• She doesn't know how to disable an alarm clock
• She thinks Thanksgiving is always the last thursday of every month
• She continues to ask me when I go to this area, and when I go to here, when I have a detailed schedule with the time and location
• When I have to take an exam, and I don't want to bring my phone, she gets concerned, and wants me to bring it with me, and completely ignores how she called me last time last year, which ALMOST MADE ME FAIL MY BIOLOGY 111 EXAM
• Every single fucking day we're in the bedroom sleeping (in separate beds of course), she snores so FUCKING loud. She's a bloody snorlax. I tell her she snores too loud, and she realizes it, then goes back to snoring. Just last night, I was trying to meditate for an hour, which I was doing fairly well for about 35 minutes or so, until she snores.
• She keeps telling me to calm down, but I'm not angry at her, she keeps asking "What? What? whatttttt?" I have to restate things to her over and over, of COURSE I'm going to be FUCKING PISSED AT YOU.
• She's so fucking stupid, when she tries to argue with me, I repeat what I stated before, and if she tries to counter it, I tell her she's skewing what I'm saying, and she doesn't know what to say next.
• Asks me when I'm going to do this, when I'm going to do that, she's like the fairy NAVI. HEY! HEY LOOK LISTEN! NO YOU FUCKING LISTEN
• No matter what I do or say, no matter how I say it, this bitch gets the upper hand, because she knows I don't want to have problems with my father. She's a demon, I swear.
• She keeps staring at me too much. 17 seconds is a LITTLE creepy. Yes, I'm bothered by that, because I know with my peripheral vision she's looking at me. Why do you want to look at me being stressed out? You're not going to help me be less stressful in the first place.
• This whole week with this guest is harder than my Organic chemistry exams. I was this close to screaming at the top of my lungs to state how stupid she is, she's a fucking disgrace, and she should just kill herself.
• I've made horrible progress in practicing an induction method because of her existence, made some progress with some things, but not significant if I had 100% silence to myself

Anti-Rave:

Just a few more hours. I'm going to buy some new jeans for the winter. I'll have the week off to myself, at least until Wednesday-Thursday because of Thanksgiving, and I'm going to enjoy every moment I have to myself.



I can't wait for all of this to be over, all of this stupid shit to memorize to be over, get a job, and be on with my life! Get away from my family, move on, and finally have some peace for once. Nag nag nag nag nag nag nag is all they do to me, because I'm the only one they're placing high expectations on.

Nag nag all your unfulfilled dreams at me, just a few more years until we're completely done.

I have so many things I really want to do but so little enthusiasm to do them as well as I can, or do anything really. Urgh

I find it amusing when my mother yells "I scream and scream, and you still don't listen."
How silly of me to presume that her superior and stunning intellect, would be capable of deducing that perhaps yelling isn't a viable method of communication.
I'm just a teenager; a kid! No one is fucking perfect, *Fucking shocking plot twist ahead* not even my mother.
Without sounding pompous I'm a fucking great teenager. I mean come on, I'm 15 and I have a job, great grades, a stable relationship, and I've never been in serious trouble.
Anyway, why was I verbally abused?!
So my dad and I were sitting in the kitchen, guessing the times I have work tomorrow, before I went and checked. I said I probably start at 10, he said 9;30. So I went and checked, and it turned out he was correct. I said "I was only off by half an hour!" and he replied with "Try being strung up by your penis for an extra half an hour, and see if it matters!"
Then joking, I said "If I was hung by my penis, I'd be laying on the ground anyway." We both laughed, and he walked into his room.
So, I constantly suggest I'm homosexual to my mother, and make gay remarks, because she's a copiously homophobic. (I'm heterosexual, and I've had a girlfriend for over 8 months, but I'm all for gay rights, and support the notion, etc.) So I'm always irritating my mother in homosexual ways, because I disagree with her stance.
So after dad was out of ear shot, I whispered to her "My boyfriend's been stretching it lately." From that point on, the whole house trembled for a good five minutes, I'm sure I saw red horns protruding from her skull at one point, but I can't swear to it. She went on about it being inappropriate, all whilst swearing at me, which is totally okay apparently.
Like, I don't know. It's like she's against the notion that I'm entitled to joking around, and being happy. I found it quite humorous though. I'm currently on Ebay as you read this, looking for a male partner to bring home to my mother; if I order in the next 24 hours, there's free shipping!

Originally Posted by yuppie11975

[SPOILER="post"]I find it amusing when my mother yells "I scream and scream, and you still don't listen."
How silly of me to presume that her superior and stunning intellect, would be capable of deducing that perhaps yelling isn't a viable method of communication.
I'm just a teenager; a kid! No one is fucking perfect, *Fucking shocking plot twist ahead* not even my mother.
Without sounding pompous I'm a fucking great teenager. I mean come on, I'm 15 and I have a job, great grades, a stable relationship, and I've never been in serious trouble.

I know right? It's like parents can't appreciate a stable and good acting kid for once. It's like they need to fabricate some method to make you unstable, so they can feel they're parents, because you know, they have to do parent st00fz.

Then they'll worry what they're doing wrong, as if seeing your child think for himself, having a job, having a stable relationship, good grades, etc., is not a good thing at all.

Funny how parents work.

Sorry Yuppie, but you had that verbal lashing coming lol. IMHO, out of civil respect certain hot topic buttons just shouldn't be pushed. If they are pushed, then you have no right to bitch about the outcome
But that's just who I am. Everyone is entitled to basic respect, even if I don't agree with their views, even if I think they're stupid and even if I don't particularly like them lol
That's one of the reason I but (butt lol?) heads with my youngest son. He felt he had to voice his views no matter what. I mean, he's the type of person who could walk in to a Holocaust convention and start ranting about how it was a hoax (Not his view at all btw, it was just the most extreme example I could think of ) In other words, he can act like a prick and an asshole and think he's being funny.
When he acted like that with me I wanted to rip him a new one.
/lecture over

Maeni, my post time traveled too lol. I hope your day went well and the girl didn't see that creep!!!

My rant is that I feel absolutely miserable. I had a great day yesterday and came here to rave (which can be good right? An anti-rave would be a rant? Or is a rave just to speak passionately or with great enthusiasm. Gah. Need to look it up later lol)
After my sleep marathon, I didn't go back to bed. I pushed myself to stay awake and I had a wonderful day. But it was still an unproductive one. I worked a lot on my daughters blanket though.
I went to bed and died at midnight. The temp was fine, so I left my heater near my desk. And then I discovered the felt or velvet-like covering to the air mattress irritated my skin, so I laid on top of my sheet and just covered with my throw.
Then the temp dropped drastically and I froze.
At some point, I grabbed the excess sheet at my feet and pulled it over me. I slept in such a tight ball, that I kept waking up because my legs were in pain lol

I had upsetting dreams all night though I've now forgotten most of them. The last one was of finding Cuddlebug alive in the trash can when I was passing by on my way to plant a marajuana balloon. The balloon was actually square though with sort of "feet" at each corner. I was going to the woods to hang it up because it would eventually grow into the plant But I saw my bunny instead so I carefully laid down the balloon in the trash and covered it with something so it wouldn't float away. Then I picked up my bunny to bring him inside and clean him up.
There were flies buzzing around him. He was a different color than Cuddlebug though. He looked more like a wild rabbit. I should have picked up on that... well, I did, but I wrote it off as him being sick and in the trash. But even his ears weren't his lol. (Cuddlebug had lop-eared ears not the straight ones).
So great, now there's yet another pet to haunt my dreams.

I woke spitting up nasty phlegm. My nose was majorly clogged and I had a nice headache to go with everything. I also have a pimple in my right nostril that's annoying me to no end because I apparently pick my nose in my sleep. Gah...
I also have a sore on the back of my left (?) section which connects my foot to my leg... bad guys cut it and severe the tendon (muscle) if they want to keep someone from running?
I double cross my legs and I've been bouncing my other foot like I'm going trough withdraw which means that "section" (of my other leg) is right up against the bottom of my chair seat. The constant bouncing has created a sore. Which goes to show JUST how much I sit on my butt in front of this machine

I need to get up and do some laundry so I can have some actual blankets. But I feel so yucky I don't want to do anything. BLAH....

DV's timestamps are all fucked up, chat took a shit, and although I get a ping response from my minecraft server it gives me a goddamn HTTP error 503 when I try to log in

THE INTERNET IS GODDAMN ASPLODING!

I look upon the conflict in the Middle East between Israel and Gaza with confusion and disappointment right now.

See my post in Extended Discussions for more info: http://www.dreamviews.com/f36/israel...crisis-138093/

Oh yeah... a cool anti-rant is that I saw wild turkey flying through the neighbors yard yesterday. It was a tiny flock of only 3 though. One of them got a little lost and was walking across my driveway so I talked to him for a moment. My turkey gobble sucks though so he was like "Wtf, get away from me"

A rant is that I went to Sheetz for hotdogs and as I was watching Grimm and eating them, I discovered the lady forgot to add the hotdog to one of them I always get Provolone cheese and Bacon on my hotdogs and I love bacon so much that I always eat it first, but it's usually under the cheese and under the dog. I didn't realize the dog was missing until I closed the buns Goes to show which I care about most lol

I'm finally starting to feel a little more human... and now it's too late to do laundry with the sun setting in just 3 hours. At least tomorrow is supposed to be a good day too.
Hubby looked at his supplies in the garage earlier and told me he thinks we have enough wood to make my bed frame We're going to drill plywood on top of an old Office desk with drawers. Now I just need to clear a space for it.
Now that I'm feeling human, I think I'll dust and clean my room some and then get to work on the bathroom.

Rant:
Everything I was worried about came true. They'd made this brilliant plan where K and her mother would leave early in order to avoid that guy. But... They just didn't. ???
Does nobody care?

Anti-rant:
The part about me doing something about it also came true. I basically hung out with her all evening, she even explicitly asked me to 'protect' her. So I stayed with her the entire time, escorting her around and keeping her company. At first she seemed quite afraid, I had to scout the hallway and be all like "tango has entered the kitchen, go go go!" before she would even go to the bathroom. But later on she stopped caring and she was able to have fun despite him being part of the crowd in the living room.

It's almost embarrassing in retrospect how much I hung out with her. But for this specific day I don't care, I feel like I had a pretty good reason to prioritize her over others. I was her bodyguard!

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Oh yeah... a cool anti-rant is that I saw wild turkey flying through the neighbors yard yesterday.

I found this funny because I just came from the Task of the Month for November section and one of the tasks involve turkeys. Inspiration for tonight? I think so.

Maeni. Good job keeping an eye on your friend. What the heck is wrong with her family

Ugh... today is just full of rants.
My mom called earlier and I ignored it because I'm almost out of minutes. I called her back a couple hours later and she asked if I got her message. I hadn't checked.
She had my youngest son Committed either late last night or very early this morning. She and my dad had gone out for a few hours and when they got home at 11, Myles was sleeping on the couch. And his arm was exposed. He had slashed across his arm from wrist to shoulder. Then she discovered he had drank 2 bottles of wine and found a suicide note.
Their computer had died and that pushed him over the edge (my mom thinks). He thought he broke it, that he was worthless. His note spoke about never being able to be "good enough" or the person everyone wants him to be.

I don't understand that sort of depression. I've been depressed. I've been suicidal. But at such times I had no support and faced constant criticism and hardships. Everyone's been supportive of my son. No one's judging him for being transgender. My parents gave him a place to stay with no strings attached. It's all in his head. No one's making him feel worthless.
So, he's going to be locked up for at least 72 hours. He was all for it and even gave the people permission to keep my mom in the loop.

After that, I spoke with my youngest daughter. She's been moved to a crazy place. She said one of the girls forcefully carved something onto the back of another girl with a safety pin, that she later laughed uncontrollably then took her mattress off her bed and started jumping on it.
And another girl beats up people, ran away the other night but came back only to fail her drug test.
And those girls are allowed to remain. While talking to me she kept cursing then dropped the "f" bomb but quickly apologized because she knows I detest that particular word. She's not spoken in such a way since before she was initially taken a year ago. It's because she's constantly exposed to it now

To make things worse, hubby wants to come over to assemble my jerry-rigged bed. I don't want him in this hellhole. So I'll be up all night tidying.
But I'm already over exhausted and ready for bed.

Grrrr......

@ Zhay: I'm sorry to hear about your kids. I hope your son will be okay.... At least he was willing to be committed. Heavy depression can be very difficult to break out of, I'm sure he's just going to need some time even if he knows that you're all giving him support.... As for your daughter, I hope she's alright in that place. Sounds like a scary place to live....

It's freaking POMEGRANATE SEASON.

My rant is that it's been TWO WHOLE FUCKING WEEKS since I've had any time to myself!!

Sometimes I wonder if a career is really even worth it. I want to be able to spend more time here, with you guys, like how it used to be! T-T

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

It's freaking POMEGRANATE SEASON.

Gotta have those antioxidants.