Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Great list, Maeni! I love light too, but mostly for brightness. Prisms are friggin awesome though.

Sorry I missed you, Dianeva. Take care of those teeth! (Or, as I tell my kids: "Be true to your teeth or they will be false to you." Get it? )
I had every single one of my teeth removed when I was 19, 20? Somewhere around there. It was one of the most traumatic things I've ever experienced. It was worse than the toothaches. Take care of the problem while you can before it gets too big (or in my case, too expensive) to fix.

My rant is that my schedule is all kinds of messed up. But, as I've said before, it's not like I have a life so why do I care lol. I couldn't sleep last night so I completely cleaned and dusted my desks and removed the top section from one so I can use it as an actual desk for my PC. I can now use the little one solely for the laptop (my desks form a backward "L") But now my room is destroyed as I try to find homes for all the mis-placed items. And my nose and throat have been torturing me today because of all the dust. My room looks more open now because one of the desks is actually a build in vanity with a huge mirror on the wall. Previously, the top section blocked it. But I don't care for this feeling of openness lol. I liked my little clausterphobic room the way it was. This is going to take some getting use to.

A rave is that I friggin love skyrim. I'm a sneaky thief/ bowman and I'll slink through dungeons and whatnot picking off baddies one by one. The dialogue is hilarious to me. I'll shoot someone with an arrow then duck behind a pillar and the NPC will say stuff like "I must be imagining things" "It must have been the wind" "I guess there's no one there afterall" While they have arrows sticking out of their chest or neck and their partner lies dead right beside them. Stupid NPC I have been laughing so much during this game which makes me feel a little batty but I'm not really laughing about killing them but about their idiotic responses.
That or I'll pick off 5 people and they'll be lying close to one another and the one I've not killed yet will walk away from the bodies looking for me while blaming the noise on the wind
Part of me wishes the NPC's were a bit more intelligent

I've been having weird dreams lately. The last one was of being nearly decapitated by a sort of chained and barbed wire lasso. I could see the chain marks on my neck. They looked scorched. Under it was a perfect incision where my head was nearly separated and it was completely clean. That fascinated me.
That dream was, in part, curtesy of the cop show I've been watching "The Killing".

Time to find something to eat and watch another episode.

Great post, BTW, Dutch. I agree for the most part. I complain and vent a lot but I'm actually a very optimistic person. Even when I imagine the worse possible things happening, I almost always see a positive outcome.

@ Zhaylin and Dutch,
By complaining here mostly, since humans tend to only mention the bad things, doesn't make you a negative person. But it does project you that way. We have to process the things that are bugging us, while we don't have a lot of trouble doing that when it comes to the good things. I have a friend who complains A LOT, but he's actually a good guy who's pretty likable besides that.

I consider myself to be inbetween, I can be moody but also quite happy. I'm a sensitive guy even though I hate to admit it, but hey that's what the internet is for. So I'm wondering, if I'd start from now on believing that I will be a insensitive guy then will that become reality over time? I wonder wether people can change themselves by thinking this way. Idk why, but I have changed a lot lately and I have no what causes it. Yes I'm maturing, spreading my wings, whatever you want to call it. But what really causes it mhm..

I'm freaking happy today even though there's no apparent reason for it. Love it . I have an exam in a few hours so probably then I will be insulting all teachers' families so.
I'm having lots of lucids lately just by saying 'I'll have a lucid tonight' before going to sleep. Powa of mind though.

Athylus, I'm also a sensitive guy so I've not found out at moment if it can be changed by thinking the opposite yet I try to break the mental connections of that thought.

Oh, yeah, I've a rant! I'm gonna have a heart attack any day because of this fuckin' game Amnesia: A Machine For Pigs, the second part of the also fuckin' creepy Amnesia. Why do we like suffering.

I'm not even gonna try because I like being sensitive anyway, it's just a thought. I'm using that process for other things though.

You think machine of pigs is scary? It's nothing compared to it's predecessor the dark descent.

Originally Posted by Athylus

@ Zhaylin and Dutch,
By complaining here mostly, since humans tend to only mention the bad things, doesn't make you a negative person. But it does project you that way. We have to process the things that are bugging us, while we don't have a lot of trouble doing that when it comes to the good things. I have a friend who complains A LOT, but he's actually a good guy who's pretty likable besides that.

I consider myself to be inbetween, I can be moody but also quite happy. I'm a sensitive guy even though I hate to admit it, but hey that's what the internet is for. So I'm wondering, if I'd start from now on believing that I will be a insensitive guy then will that become reality over time? I wonder wether people can change themselves by thinking this way. Idk why, but I have changed a lot lately and I have no what causes it. Yes I'm maturing, spreading my wings, whatever you want to call it. But what really causes it mhm..

Well that's not really what I'm saying...at all.

I don't want you to try neglect any feelings, or act like you are someone else. I want people to look at the reality of a situation.
In most cases being angry or irritated doesn't help past the point at which you must blow off some steam. If people could drop a grudge more easily, or try to end things on a positive note then they would be much happier.

Blowing of steam example: "Aaargh my boss is terrible, he keeps putting me down in front of everyone else"

General complaining example: "I hate the way how my boss breathes, and what's with the stupid toupee, we all know he's bald"

The first shows a case where releasing emotions is good, telling your problems to others helps you feel hope.
The second example shows a case where someone goes out of there way to complain. Being slightly more lenient and accepting, and trying to focus on the positive would entirely rule out this sort of behavior.

Dutchraptor, the difference I noticed between your two examples is that the first one you mention why you think your boss is terrible because of what he does to you. And the second example you nitpick on the boss for HIS behaviour, not directly related to you.

So what you're trying to make clear is that essentially you have to look at people's attitude towards you and then act based upon that? Instead of paying attention to the extra small details which aren't even of significant importance. That's my interpretation, correct me if I'm wrong please.

well his behavior is annoying you, so it is related to you, just at another level.

I think this line sums it nicely; Being slightly more lenient and accepting, and trying to focus on the positive would entirely rule out this sort of behavior.

Try to higher the threshold at which you feel that you want to complain, and at the same time do not linger on bad thoughts. Letting out steam is good but, if you require yourself to continually let out steam then the problem is more serious. Most people set the threshold very low, complaining about the weather, their car seat, their patio etc etc. From a psychological perspective this is probably done to garner sympathy off others and to re-enforce the feeling of having a harder time than other.
Complaints that fall low in the threshold give temporary satisfaction, but overall do not make a person happier. Complaints high within a threshold usually represent real problems, and should require some venting but more importantly a solution.

@Wishful: Belated Happy B'day! Hope you had a great one

I think I'll keep my username. I'm not changing it for fear of 'getting caught'..ha! Just realised that I write far worse things on Facebook. Risked my job once by calling my boss a bitch. Haha. I can't use swear words when I speak..I feel like they get stuck in my throat. But they come so easily and naturally when I write!

Originally Posted by tommo

God damn I love asians (and south east asians now too).
I went to the city tonight and there were so many incredible Japanese and Chinese girls around, and one beautiful Sri Lankan or Indian girl. Too bad I couldn't stand living in the city for long.

I know... We asians are so adorable, aren't we?

Originally Posted by Ekyu

Oh, and Crashhy, long distance relationships are not a good idea. I once got to mutch attached to a girl that I met online. We were in a "relationship" for about a year, and we never even had a meeting in real life. Needless to say, it failed and I was quite depressive for a while. Now I just feel like an idiot to waste that mutch time on a woman that I didn't really know to begin with. People tend to be different in real life that they are online.

Lemme add my experience. I had a two year long distance casual relationship with someone I hadn't met in real life... and it was pretty good while it lasted. We didn't really care about the future of the relationship; just enjoyed the present and went with the flow. He did try to meet me a few times but I avoided it. In fact, I never really wanted to meet him. I was afraid that the guy I meet would be different from the one in my imagination. But later we met.. and made out a lot.. and things were awesome for the next few weeks, after which it only went downhill. I think it lasted for 2 years just because it was a LDR..I can't handle so much drama on a daily basis!

Major rant for me is that I've put on a huge amount of weight and I now weight 67Kg which is a lot for my age and height and it puts me close to being overweight on my BMI but I find it really difficult to diet because I'm hypogycemic so if I diet I usually end up almost passing out but I'm going to the gym a lot so maybe some of the weight gain is muscle but urgh. I just. I feel awful because of it because I know I don't have the self restraint to diet so, this just makes me pretty sad. I don't know how to solve this at the moment so I'm just going to vent my sadness here and yeah. Urgh. I need to find a new weight loss program to try but, it's difficult keeping up with everything with all the stress levels and yeah. Hmm.

In other news I got an A and a B on two stats papers I had back today and I did two practice Chemistry papers and got an A and a B on those too!

Originally Posted by Athylus

I'm not even gonna try because I like being sensitive anyway, it's just a thought. I'm using that process for other things though.

You think machine of pigs is scary? It's nothing compared to it's predecessor the dark descent.

I don't know as I played the first one pretty much faster that this so I got used to the tension more easily.

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

well his behavior is annoying you, so it is related to you, just at another level.

I think this line sums it nicely; Being slightly more lenient and accepting, and trying to focus on the positive would entirely rule out this sort of behavior.

Try to higher the threshold at which you feel that you want to complain, and at the same time do not linger on bad thoughts. Letting out steam is good but, if you require yourself to continually let out steam then the problem is more serious. Most people set the threshold very low, complaining about the weather, their car seat, their patio etc etc. From a psychological perspective this is probably done to garner sympathy off others and to re-enforce the feeling of having a harder time than other.
Complaints that fall low in the threshold give temporary satisfaction, but overall do not make a person happier. Complaints high within a threshold usually represent real problems, and should require some venting but more importantly a solution.

I see, thanks for sharing your insight. This really gave me a new perspective as to what the underlying motive is for complaining a lot. I'm probaly one of the few persons you see smiling when it's raining. I tend to get a bit annoyed when people complain about red lights even though they already have a car and they can get to places very fast. In real life, I don't really complain about that sort of small stuff.

Did you come up with this yourself dutch?

Astaroth remember the part where there's a well near that impaled guy, Agrippa is his name I think. I threw something into that well and a loud wailing nouse happened, it was dark all around. I got so scared I rage quit the game and didn't open it for the rest of the day lmao. Playing that game at 2am makes you shit bricks. One part in machine of pigs made me go completelyyy crazy it's near the end, you'll see.

Originally Posted by Athylus

I see, thanks for sharing your insight. This really gave me a new perspective as to what the underlying motive is for complaining a lot. I'm probaly one of the few persons you see smiling when it's raining. I tend to get a bit annoyed when people complain about red lights even though they already have a car and they can get to places very fast. In real life, I don't really complain about that sort of small stuff.

Did you come up with this yourself dutch?

Astaroth remember the part where there's a well near that impaled guy, Agrippa is his name I think. I threw something into that well and a loud wailing nouse happened, it was dark all around. I got so scared I rage quit the game and didn't open it for the rest of the day lmao. Playing that game at 2am makes you shit bricks. One part in machine of pigs made me go completelyyy crazy it's near the end, you'll see.

I remember getting so scared in two times; the first one at the beginning, when the creature was an hologram and at the end where there were torture traps, one of them opened suddenly and I almost jump out of the window

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Major rant for me is that I've put on a huge amount of weight and I now weight 67Kg which is a lot for my age and height and it puts me close to being overweight on my BMI but I find it really difficult to diet because I'm hypogycemic so if I diet I usually end up almost passing out but I'm going to the gym a lot so maybe some of the weight gain is muscle but urgh. I just. I feel awful because of it because I know I don't have the self restraint to diet so, this just makes me pretty sad. I don't know how to solve this at the moment so I'm just going to vent my sadness here and yeah. Urgh. I need to find a new weight loss program to try but, it's difficult keeping up with everything with all the stress levels and yeah. Hmm.

In other news I got an A and a B on two stats papers I had back today and I did two practice Chemistry papers and got an A and a B on those too!

I believe good exercise is more important then dieting. Just try to maintain a balanced diet, and exercise a lot (cardio in particular). Maybe every time you get the urge to over indulge try flick yourself in the wrist, allow yourself to have two nice things in the day, the rest should be healthy.
I faced the same situation at one point, I find it hard not to over indulge in food. I've never been overweight but at the time I could definitely drop a few pounds. So I started climbing which is just awesome, most weeks I go to the climbing wall almost 8 or 9 hours. I might even try fit capoeira in there too.
I used to find the concept of sports quite challenging, because I had only ever tried team sports. Once I started more social sports I realized how great they can be, however so much good friends around you while you climb is a major boost and there's very little competition involved.

Originally Posted by Athylus

I see, thanks for sharing your insight. This really gave me a new perspective as to what the underlying motive is for complaining a lot. I'm probaly one of the few persons you see smiling when it's raining. I tend to get a bit annoyed when people complain about red lights even though they already have a car and they can get to places very fast. In real life, I don't really complain about that sort of small stuff.

Did you come up with this yourself dutch?

Nice, glad to see you could get something from my ramblings
Ya I figured that by myself, but do have some knowledge of happiness meditation. It's really cool to see how some people spend 10 mins per day meditating on all that is good on their life and they are much happier than the average person. I've always been quite positive in nature (smiling when it's raining) but I've looked into it especially since I saw the documentary "happy", a film where we see people who are much happier than the average first world citizen yet have barely any possessions. Or a women who get's driven over a car, learns how superficial her life was and ends up happier than before the accident, through acceptance and positivity she becomes a happier person.

/ramble

@Astaroth
Lol the first time like you enter a really long hall with a big painting and a piano and you see one slumber just through a door at the far end? Also yeah them torture traps, it was insane. I remember paintings changing faces as well lol, freaked me out. The torture rooms that you have to go to that are attached to this really big foggy hall with lots of pillars? And there's zombies walking around. Fuck that shit made me scream out loud man, but I loved it. You feel so defenseless in those games and that's what makes them good.

@Raptor
How does happiness meditation differ from regular meditation? I think I do concentration meditation on a nearly daily basis, but I just stretch, sit down, close my eyes and breathe. Sometimes thoughts pop up but if I notice I concentrate again.

Ugh, really horrible dry spell. PLEASE have a lucid tonight. This will be my first time trying SSILD, so maybe it will work.

Anyways, finished The Field Guide To Lucid Dreaming.

Not full of new age crap, all legit and real.

I just woke up (went to sleep at 7:30). I had so many friggin vivid dreams it was awesome. Too bad so many of them were dull... like crocheting to long banner type things but hanging something circular from them on my wall. Wth lol. Then there was a dream about a very happy baby I was being taught how to bond with. The freakiest dream was having the flesh removed from my wrist and being able to see clean bone. Then there was a Farmville type dream (which I haven't played since October or so ); and a dream of exploring dungeons and caverns.

I slept very restlessly. Noises kept waking me. I have a mouse in my room and I think he's to blame.
Which is also a strange rave. I love having critters roaming about so long as they're not destructive. So far, this little guy seems to just want shelter from this uncommon cold spell. If he leaves me room by conventional means, the cats will eat him. And speaking of cats... we leave the window near the front door cracked all year round for our cats to come and go as they please. We've been getting a couple of stray males in the house lately.
At first, our TOm fought them and had some battle wounds. But they're coming to like each other. One of the cats is absolutely gorgeous. He's long haired and very dark dark brown with lots of black and a mustache lol

When he sees any of us coming, he dashes for the window and goes back outside. This evening though, he was made his mad dash but stopped on the windowsill, watched me and growled the entire time I was out there. I stooped down and pet all of our cats and he just watched but seemed very interested despite he's growls.

My rant is that I have severe post nasal drip again and with it, a slight sore throat and stuffy nose.

Wishful, grats on those grades!!! I'm in the same boat as needing to diet and exercise. I think I may be hypoglycemic as well. I use to have reactive hypoglycemia but when I put on a proper degree of weight it seemed to go away. lately though, I've been getting very sudden and violent waves of nausea. As soon as I eat something, it goes away. It's a new experience (the reactive type just made me go to sleep after eating anything sweet), but that's what hubby seems to think might be going on.

Now it's time to find some food lol. I think I'll have some oatmeal But it's very cold in the kitchen, so I'll probably take the lazy way out and just have my usual slim jims *blec*

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I just woke up (went to sleep at 7:30).
I slept very restlessly. Noises kept waking me. I have a mouse in my room and I think he's to blame.
Which is also a strange rave. I love having critters roaming about so long as they're not destructive. So far, this little guy seems to just want shelter from this uncommon cold spell. If he leaves me room by conventional means, the cats will eat him. And speaking of cats... we leave the window near the front door cracked all year round for our cats to come and go as they please. We've been getting a couple of stray males in the house lately.
At first, our Tom fought them and had some battle wounds. But they're coming to like each other. One of the cats is absolutely gorgeous. He's long haired and very dark dark brown with lots of black and a mustache lol

Jam a friendly one of those cats into the bottom of a sleeping bag to keep you footsies warm and go back to bed

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Wishful, grats on those grades!!! I'm in the same boat as needing to diet and exercise. I think I may be hypoglycemic as well. I use to have reactive hypoglycemia but when I put on a proper degree of weight it seemed to go away. lately though, I've been getting very sudden and violent waves of nausea. As soon as I eat something, it goes away. It's a new experience (the reactive type just made me go to sleep after eating anything sweet), but that's what hubby seems to think might be going on.

Thanks Zhaylin, it means a lot to me because I was worried I'd fail a lot of my courses. Just found out my first coursework piece for Communications is at a B level too and that's great. Urgh. I get that. And the weird foggy feeling in your brain, and the shakes. It's horrible sometimes. I can barely maintain my blood sugar as it is so I have no idea how to diet and keep them up. I'll just have to try and research some diets that can help to maintain blood sugar. Exactly the opposite of what everyone else needs.

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

I believe good exercise is more important then dieting. Just try to maintain a balanced diet, and exercise a lot (cardio in particular). Maybe every time you get the urge to over indulge try flick yourself in the wrist, allow yourself to have two nice things in the day, the rest should be healthy.
I faced the same situation at one point, I find it hard not to over indulge in food. I've never been overweight but at the time I could definitely drop a few pounds. So I started climbing which is just awesome, most weeks I go to the climbing wall almost 8 or 9 hours. I might even try fit capoeira in there too.
I used to find the concept of sports quite challenging, because I had only ever tried team sports. Once I started more social sports I realized how great they can be, however so much good friends around you while you climb is a major boost and there's very little competition involved.

I guess that's true. I've been going down to the gym a lot lately, I play hockey and I also horseride but I've encounter a problem in which I'm finding it really hard to breathe even when doing supposed 'light' exercise. I have a worry that it could be like, a mild form of asthma because I have bad eczema and it's very common for people who have eczema to have asthma and vice versa so, I think I might need to go to the doctors just to make sure it's me being unfit and not me being unwell. Urgh. I'm not really a 'healthy' person. Neither are my family so, this will be difficult because I'm going to have to try and persuade the overweight alcoholic that is my mother that we should be more healthy as a family and that, well, that just won't work very well. Hmm. This is my next challenge to overcome...


In other news, head girl applications are opening soon and I intend to apply and people think I will be a strong candidate. However, I have to make a video for my application to show to fellow students about why I should be head girl, what can I put in it? Because people are putting in what they'd do as head girl but I just really want to do what other people want and to continue to make the school better whilst enabling people to have their voice... Idek man. This is tough. Videos to me are casual and should not be a part of this. I can't do a formal video! D:

@Zhaylin: You have a mouse living with you? eek

I just googled hypoglycemia.
And I also googled 'reason for inability to gain weight'. Now I'm convinced that I'm dying.

Anju Beware of those internet health searches. They'd have you convinced you have a brain tumor, cancer and some rare disease no one has even heard of.
I love critters. Especially visitors that take care of themselves. I can admire them from a distance and they can go about their business. This is just a little field mouse. It's a teensy tiny thing with big ears . If it was a rat or even a large house mouse, I would want it gone ASAP. Especially a rat. Those things can be vicious!!!
Back when we lived at our "farm" and I was raising rabbits, rats lived in the barn. I'd stomp my foot at them when I'd go out to take care of the bunnies and those darn rats would lunge at me. I didn't scare them in the least.

Wishful, say that in your video. Can you include other people? Like ask people what they want to see done and splice a bunch of clips together and say you want to be their voice for the changes they want.

Woblybil. Even our most friendly cat would claw my feet off if I tried that

New rant. Before I went to sleep earlier, I was playing Skyrim and the laptop overheated and crashed. When I woke, I tried getting back on it, but it's stuck on a continual loop of 'blah blah we're trying to fix the problem, will restart your PC' And it does that continuously. That pops up, it reboots then does it all over again forever. I googled it and learned to press F12 and I ran a diagnostic and it said something failed but I don't speak computer and couldn't figure out what it was. It *looked* like CD something or another. Just when I was friggin getting a bad ass character, the computer dies. It can probably be saved (I HOPE!!!), but my games will likely be lost because it'll have to be restored. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR! oh yeah. The diagnostic accomplished nothing. As soon as I exited it, I was trapped in the same loop.

A rave is that I got to eat some real food. It wasn't the mouse that was disturbing me, but Miley. She kept coming into my room for tylenol. Idiot takes way too many pain meds. I try telling her to take 2 ever 6 hours but she'll take 2 every 2 hours.
anyhow... she was awake when I woke and she had cooked our version of Zitti and I ate a huge bowl of it. It was soooo yummy

I guess I'll keept watching Netflix and crocheting seeing how I can't play my game. I need to finish this blanket anyhow...

So my local record shop has a bunch of Doc Martins for 50% off. That's kinda random. But on the other hand, I need knew shoes and I like records. So really, it's a win-win situation for me, assuming Doc Martins come in wide... I have fat feet.

Which brings me to my rant. Since I walk around in room that usually has some sulfuric acid on the floor, I need to wear company supplied boots (my boots would get eaten up in no time). The company's boots don't come in "wide" sizes. So I've been developing a sore on the the knuckle of my smallest toe. I guess I just need to get a size larger, but these boots already flop up over my heels as I walk. Damn wide feet! My currents shoes are actually considered double wide.


Edit: I have another rant. Well, it's not really a rant, per se... but a second person that I went to school with has now died due to a drug overdose (I'm assuming heroin). I just bring this up since "drug" talk happens somewhat frequently here. And I'm not directing this comment towards the people creating those discussions as they seem to be well-educated and informed on the subject. But to those that are simply listening in on said conversations with curiosity... just, research stuff before trying it. It's the least you can do.

Originally Posted by sefalik

I got some wine stoppers... for my beer. That's my rave. Because for the last two or three days, I've felt like an alcoholic for drinking an entire bottle. Granted, I'm a lightweight. But also, this stuff is 11.8% and comes in 1 pint 9.4 oz bottles. So it's still a pretty decent bit of alcohol to be drinking on regular basis, at least by my standards.

Other rave-worthy material is that I will be getting new sleeves [for free] for both the albums that were damaged in shipping. So that's cool. Which makes me think... seedbanks should just start packaging their seeds in with records. I buy records overseas all the time, and new records come shrinkwrapped anyway. It'd be perfect for a "stealthy" option.

I've been drinking at least 350ml of scotch a night recently. Really not good. Thankfully ALDI sells 700ml bottles for for $25.
Minor rant: Why the hell has America still not converted to metric????
9.4 ounce means nothing to anyone outside of America. I have to google to conclude it's somewhere around 2 litres.
America is backward as fuck. Convert to a logical system already! It's only been a hundred years since every single other country on Earth converted, get your shit together!

Originally Posted by Dianeva

That sounds ... strange, I wish things were like that here. When I was a kid my bike was stolen the one time I forgot a bike lock, because I thought no one would have time to steal it in the 5 mins I was gone.

Hm, that sucks. I *have* had my bike stolen before, but that was because I left it at some dickhead's house and he didn't care enough to return it. (He also stole about $50 of weed from me).

But yeah, in general you can trust people here. It's one of the better things about this country. Although I feel like we are heading toward America-style egotism, where no one cares about anyone else if they don't know them. Pretty sad.

I thought Canada would be similar though.... I've always wanted to move there.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

To follow with the themes, I made a huge mistake. My ex sent me an e-mail last night. I'd been up for so long and was tired. I knew it was a bad idea but I replied. After ignoring him and sending no more than 1-2 sentence cold replies when necessary, I just ruined it last night by sending that. Basically an update on my life, which there's no reason he should need. If he was ever going to recover I just sent it back another couple years.

So why did you send that e-mail? You don't have to tell me or respond on here, but you should think about it, honestly and without censoring your thoughts.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

My teeth are bothering me. I haven't been to the dentist in about 2 years, and last time I did they told me I have small cavities which I need to take care of or they'll get bigger. And I'm pretty sure they're bad now. I keep meaning to floss my teeth more so that I can go to the dentist and not fear them berating me for it. But the regular teeth-flossing I keep planning never quite happ.....

Hehe, my dentist told me that too, a couple of years ago. Nothing happened to the teeth they didn't fill. She filled one side, but not the other. The unfilled side is not bothering me at all. Maybe it will soon, I don't know. But it's been years.

Anyway, my teeth are bothering me too. My two front teeth are damaged from being smashed in by some idiot with a hockey stick (the wooden type) back in high school. I'm still super self-conscious when I smile. Sometimes they look ok, other times they look really bad, but it's just the cracks are filler stuff the dentist put in. They're clean and everything, it just doesn't look good.

I should get them fixed properly soon. I can't even chew food properly because of it. Major source of frustration.

Sorry just went in to a rant there. I would guess your teeth are getting ground down due to stress. Well, not really a guess, that's pretty much the only reason it happens. It also usually occurs during the night.

Try relaxing before you sleep. Oneironaut has a good tutorial on that. Basically practice deep breathing and stretch every muscle in your body (arms, legs, stomach, jaw, cheeks, eyes, fingers.... everything) before going to sleep. It really helps your relax.

Teeth grinding during the night is due to subconscious stress. So work on eliminating that from your life as well.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Well opiates don't really do anything for me, so maybe that's why spicy food doesn't either. But I don't know many.... I'm pretty sure Wolfwood said something about eating that chili as being equivalent to drinking lava or having razorblades constantly ripping at your tongue or something like that.... Noooooo thank you. o_O

haha Yeah that may explain it I guess. I'm pretty sensitive to opiates (and, probably coincidentally, quite inclined toward them, mind you).
Edit: On a related note, I am going to go get some Codeine tomorrow and just totally fade out to

I can almost feel that feeling right now. And it feels so damn good.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Which was the picture that did work? Just out of curiosity. X)

Heh, the first one.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

RAVE RAVE RAVE: Holy fucking shit. Oh my god. Motherfucking hell. That TRIP. You guys probably don't remember but a couple times here I posted about this synthetic cannabinoid blend I have that's REALLY psychedelic and really speedy for cannabinoid that only peaks for a short amount of time but it's definitely the strong cannabinoid I've ever used. I smoked a bowl of to kick off the peak of the LSD. Good... lord.... My mind was fucking blown apart. Like... okay. I have experienced more extreme emotional states than this while tripping. I have experienced stronger hallucinations. I've even had more trouble dealing with reality before than I did with this trip. But nothing I've ever experienced has been such a fucking COMPLETE integration of every drug experience I've ever had AND every major psychological issue I've had in my entire life and just have them resolve in such an unendingly beautiful, cosmically orgasmic, breathtakingly phenomenal, LIFE-AFFIRMING, EARTH-SHATTERING psychological trip as this. This is one of the few trips I've ever had where I felt like I would come out of it completely changed forever, and the one that I've felt the most *like* that with by several orders of magnitude. It was pure bliss BEYOND WORDS.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

we were in this duality where he was being processed in my mind as basically the prototypical symbol of everything that is male and I was being processed as the prototypical symbol of everything that is female. It created some extremely interesting psychological results. O_O

Yeeahhhh, gonna need details in your next e-mail (or text if I get a proper phone)
That sounds amazing.

Originally Posted by Ekyu

Oh, and Crashhy, long distance relationships are not a good idea. I once got to mutch attached to a girl that I met online. We were in a "relationship" for about a year, and we never even had a meeting in real life. Needless to say, it failed and I was quite depressive for a while. Now I just feel like an idiot to waste that mutch time on a woman that I didn't really know to begin with. People tend to be different in real life that they are online.

The odds are way to low for a relationship like that to last. The only time when you ever should consider a long distance relationship is when you 2 already know each other in real life and have some sort of plan to meet up once in a while, and to live with each other within a year..

People need to have physical contact in a relationship. Otherwise, that relationship is gonna sink down like the titanic.

Not to say it's impossible to build a long lasting relationship like that, but it's just not worth the risk and time.

I agree and disagree. I've had three "relationships" that were mostly online/snail mail/long distance. I've had physical contact with all of them. (there was one that I didn't, but it's not relevant to this point).

If you don't have constant physical contact, the relationship is bound to failure. At least IME.
Also if you are more open on the internet/mail, the relationship is also bound to failure.

There are probably rare circumstances where it will work out. And that is if you meet IRL regularly and are just as open IRL as you are online.

If one of those things is not true, you're gonna have a bad time. (IME)

It's so damn funny (in a fucked up way) that you mentioned the titanic too. Me and the love of my life had a long-running thing with Titanic. We made jokes and references to it all the time, and I want/ed her to watch it with me. (gonna stop this crap here before I fall back into that Bullshit).

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

Try to higher the threshold at which you feel that you want to complain, and at the same time do not linger on bad thoughts. Letting out steam is good but, if you require yourself to continually let out steam then the problem is more serious. Most people set the threshold very low, complaining about the weather, their car seat, their patio etc etc. From a psychological perspective this is probably done to garner sympathy off others and to re-enforce the feeling of having a harder time than other.
Complaints that fall low in the threshold give temporary satisfaction, but overall do not make a person happier. Complaints high within a threshold usually represent real problems, and should require some venting but more importantly a solution.

This is great.

I used to never discuss any of my problems with anybody. This lead to me becoming almost completely, clinically insane.
Luckily I found a psychologist through a series of events. But confiding in people, when I had never, ever done so before, caused me to eventually try confiding in even the most vaguely-caring "friends".

I started telling non-close friends very personal things because I became reliant on other people to deal with my emotional baggage.

There are some things which end up being beneficial if you share them with people you trust.
Most thing end up being detrimental to your ability to cope with bad situations.

You can tell the difference if you look back on previous posts/e-mails and feel like a complete dramatic idiot.

Originally Posted by Anju

I know... We asians are so adorable, aren't we?

Hehe, yep, you are.



:'(

I have a shitton of homework all due tomorrow. Three essays, 35 math problems, and a bunch of other shit.

Fucking kill me.

*cracks whip* Get to work TimeDragon (but I feel your pain )

Sefalik, hope they have some shoes that would fit! Does your job PAY for your work shoes or did it come out of your paycheck? It would really suck if you had to buy shoes that don't fit properly!

lol, Tommo. When I was in school there was talk of converting to metric so they tried teaching it to us. That didn't last long We're hopelessly stuck in our ways it seems!

My rant is that I have a terrible kink in my neck. Wth? And my nipples are unbelievably sore That never happens. Not even when I was pregnant. I must have slept on my chest or something
Also, Steam wont load on my PC so I can't install Skyrim on it Rebooting my computer might fix that though. Games thoroughly suck on this machine anyhow, so I'm not in a hurry.
Another rant is that the cats got ahold of my visitor. They left his body for me in the bathroom Poor mousy. I did sleep much more peacefully though (yeah, I slept from 9AM to 4PM )