Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I haven't seen my mum in two weeks and my brother is ruining my time with her. I won't go into any details, but now I just can't live here anymore without fights starting between her and him. I hate fighting a lot, so this is really affecting me. I just want to go back to dad's place and stay away from my brother.

If symbols in our dreams that identify hidden meaning are unique to the individual, how is it there are so many books on interpretation? Is it the author planting symbols in the readers head for them to more easily identify, or are these authors just repeating what's been around the longest? I connect things in head that may seem a bit queer to others, but they make perfect sense to me because the very nature of my humor.

So when I dream about [X] and read the meaning [Y], it never really works. I guess the point I'm driving at, is you won't find the answers in a book if you already know how the book works. Beep boop.

Originally Posted by Rums03

If symbols in our dreams that identify hidden meaning are unique to the individual, how is it there are so many books on interpretation? Is it the author planting symbols in the readers head for them to more easily identify, or are these authors just repeating what's been around the longest? I connect things in head that may seem a bit queer to others, but they make perfect sense to me because the very nature of my humor.

So when I dream about [X] and read the meaning [Y], it never really works. I guess the point I'm driving at, is you won't find the answers in a book if you already know how the book works. Beep boop.

Just as soon as you figure it out call back and let me know....
Y'see, I have this thing... In many dreams I paddle about. Like a duck! Barefoot and a couple inches off the floor or ground my feet point toward the ground and paddle very rapidly, I noticed I lean forward when going forward and bank the turns and it gets me around fast..How does this interpret?
As far as I can see it means i'm a duck.. I have always been and will always be a duck and there's nothing they can do to fix me so if you find another way to interpret it please let me know, "Quack"

Originally Posted by woblybil

Just as soon as you figure it out call back and let me know....
Y'see, I have this thing... In many dreams I paddle about. Like a duck! Barefoot and a couple inches off the floor or ground my feet point toward the ground and paddle very rapidly, I noticed I lean forward when going forward and bank the turns and it gets me around fast..How does this interpret?

As far as I can see it means i'm a duck.. I have always been and will always be a duck and there's nothing they can do to fix me so if you find another way to interpret it please let me know, "Quack"

It means you're struggling with the emotional discomfort of still laughing at someone passing gas. You think you should have grown up, or matured enough not to find such a naturally occurring function so amusing. Well I have good news for you woblybil, I too still laugh when a complete stranger randomly poots and I'm arguably the most mature member on Dreamviews. It's more common than you'd like to believe, actually, but I can assure you there's no need for anymore self-doubt.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

In other news a previous interest of mine is absolutely gorgeous. Halp. The infatuation isn't weakening oh god. He posted a photo to Facebook about 15 minutes ago and damn gurl he looks beautiful. Fuck. I need some serious help in my life.

I wish someone would ever say that about me...Jesus...

That's my rant,basically

My rant is that the dirt road that I live in is ridiculous as far as potholes and ruts. Not something my 16 year old car needs...

The rave is that spring here, and being alive is a gas!

I'm still sick My ears are bothering me to the point my equilibrium is out of whack and it's making me all the more nauseous. Fever hasn't returned though so that's a good thing... I guess lol
I have no appetite so that's a nice change. My bird has quieted down and I'm thrilld about that.

Maybe I'll pop a second benadryll and have some sweet oblivion for a while longer.

Originally Posted by ColdCrisis

I wish someone would ever say that about me...Jesus...

That's my rant,basically

Never wait for people to say what you want to hear. Just take what they say in the best way possible and if they won't say anything nice, fuck them. Not literally because that would be demoralising but you get my gist.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Wishful, " ''Inclinations are subtle hints.. One hath noticed these hints for quite some time, whilst failing to prompt an equally affectionate response. One hopes that thy Ask.fm hath been reviewed, particularly a question about relationships.’"
Do y'all really speak like that? I mean no disrespect but that's why it seems like role playing or something. That sentence confuses the crap out of me which is why I asked "blatant?" It sounds like language from Middle Earth as the Elves would use when trying speak "around" an issue without lying.

Ah. It's Shakespearean style language. He does that sometimes. It's pretty amusing. He's a super good writer and he's pretty fucking clever so he pulls it off in conversation. It confused me at first too. :L A translation would be something like 'Natural feelings are subtle hints, I've noticed these hints for a while without feeling the same level of affection in return. I hope you have read my Ask.fm, especially a question about relationships' if you needed one. He started using it one night when we were talking about anxiety and I commented on how amused I was because of it so it became a more regular occurrence. :')


Rave - MIght be going out tomorrow night! Also got a B/C on my latest Lit past paper question which shows a huge leap up from my mock, amazing what happens when your teacher actually helps you. Jesus.

Rant - Almost constantly tired. Have no desire to do any work. Gah.

I got an 88 on my first grad paper. The content and writing was good (which is a relief since I get paid to write), but the APA style, something I never learned, was lacking. I have procrastinated paper number 2 til this weekend. I am punishing myself by finishing as much as I can tonight to submit to my friends.

I am hoping this lights the fire to focus more on school work early.

Bah, I should've went to work tonight; I'm bored already. Staying up all night isn't always so glorious when you have to be quiet and can't go outside biking or something. But a coworker wanted to come in. Despite her repeatedly saying, "No, no, I don't want to come in. You can come in. I don't need to work," I could tell she wanted to come in. Ugh, why do people do this? So I let her work, as I've been whoring it up with the overtime lately. I actually could have came in to cover a different building... but I don't like covering that building, so screw it. I guess I'll just go grocery shopping now.

I was almost excited for the proposition of going biking in the AM when the sun is rising. I might still go, but I'll have to go early. The sun will official (by weather.com's standards) rise around 7am, but there's a small change of showers started at 7am. So I might head out around 6; should be light enough then. Gotta wash my under armour though, as it'll still be around 35F yet then.

seriously?! I have a cold and a minor stomach bug on top of the flu. what?! My nose is constantly running now and I'm sneezing my head off. My stomach's okay unless I eat. I don't have much of an appetite anyhow so I'mnot overly bothered. I've been sleeping all day. Ears are still bugging me *shoots self*
I'm not going to be taking any more of my supplements, that's for sure. I've never been this sick in all my life.
Ugh........... I must have no immune system at all............

Originally Posted by Erii

I'm raving about how this thread is still going strong!! woah

ERII???? You're still here? lol
Guess getting banned from chat brought you out to the forums hehe

*Cue archaic reference for nostalgia* - You gonna post a pic of yourself soon?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tommo. If it's what I've experienced in the past, that's a very strange feeling indeed. It could very well be brought on by stress (mine was anyhow ) I called my episodes disassociative (sp) where I felt outside of myself...
Grats on getting a finer grasp on the Chinese (if only the girls were the same )

Yeah same thing. Depersonalisation/derealasation/dissociation. They all really mean the same thing.
Everything feel almost exactly like a dream, or you're high.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Wishful, that's blatant? Were y'all cosplaying or did you just paraphrase.

lol yeah I was wondering that too. Guy sounds like a bit of a neckbeard if that's what he actually said word for word.

Rant:
Yep.... lankan bitch again. Sorry. But seriously this is fucked up, I am more pissed off than I ever have been.

So I am just ignoring her now. She doesn't talk to me, the lankan girls talk to each other in their language, etc.

She says nothing to me today until this manager which I was pretty sure she liked (and that manager also mentioned shit about me and her a while back),
was walking near where we were. She then came up to me and just said "hello". I just looked at her like .... wtf is wrong with you. But I said "hello...." and that's it.

So I didn't realise at the time, but soon it occurred to me that she only came to say that because the manager was there, and he thought we were going out, so
she wanted to make him jealous. I'm pretty much 99.99% sure this is the reason.

A little bit later, he said some crap to her, and I wasn't looking, just heard it. Then he said "You're not supposed to look at me like that, that's for Tom".

SERIOUSLY! WHAT THE FUCK!????

This guy could qualify for psychopathy. That's not conveyed here properly, obviously other things need to be taken in to account.
But it would not surprise me in the least if he is a psychopath.
Plus he's trying to become a cop, which is a pretty obvious sign (most cops are psychopaths, literally).

Anyway....

I have never, ever been this angry and pissed off. Ever.
How could that bitch just use me like that? How do you just go from loving someone to not having any feelings for them at all? Going so far
as to do things which you know will make them feel like shit, for your own benefit.
I cannot do that. It really surprises me how selfish and self-involved people are. I guess I knew it, but I haven't seen any obvious examples until now.

Even after "falling out"s with people, I am still considerate of their feelings. I would never hurt them on purpose.
I should probably go back to being a total pessimist in regards to people, would probably be better for my emotional health.

Strangely, though, I continue getting more and more optimistic. No idea why. Everything is showing me that people are liars, egotistic, selfish, and another pet hate - willfully ignorant.


At this point I just want to know what happened. Everything. I want to know how we went from that, to this.
Not even to repair things or anything like that, just to know. I need to know things.
I have a good idea, but I need to know for sure.

But chances are I never will. And that's insanely difficult to deal with.
Can't even concentrate on studying right now. I was trying before and just kept zoning out and thinking about all this crap.

"neckbeard"? lol I have never heard that before

Tommo. Girls are going to be the death of you yet.

I woke with a fever again. Other than the cold symptoms and the occasional monster coughing fit, i'm okay. I slept again last night and had the strangest dreams. In one, I was younger and uncertain about what I was doing with my life so I started writing again. For the most part though, I DC jumped and I woke at one point and didn't know who I was. What the heck. I've woken before confused about the date or time or even location, but I've never not known WHO I was

I think I might go back to bed.....

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I have a cold and a minor stomach bug on top of the flu.

FYI, there is no stomach flu or stomach bug. Anything like that is actually food poisoning. You may want to look into what you ate as you may have contaminated food in your household.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

"neckbeard"? lol I have never heard that before

haha, really? Basically a basement-dwelling internet suave guy. I guess? Like IRL he is a loser, but on the internet he is.... well, still a loser but acts so smooth and awesome.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tommo. Girls are going to be the death of you yet.

I felt the urge to hug you IRL right now for some reason.
Yep, I think you are right.

As in, really.... a girl will cause me to just give up and end it. Maybe this one or someone else, I don't know.

Tbh I feel like a bit of a psychopath myself sometimes until a girl comes in to my life.
I really don't care much about most people.

But if I am attracted to a girl, everything about her becomes important to me.
I truly care about whatever is happening in her life.
And if she reciprocates, her and all that stuff literally becomes a part of my life.
I become super empathetic toward her.

It's obviously a massive personality fault, and is probably the reason I have barely any friends.

I should be able to connect with guys, but whenever they talk about things I'm just like.... man, I do not give a shit.
I do have one guy friend at least, he's alright, and I do care about some of the things in his life.

Maybe my lack of care for most people just goes back to people being shit in general.
Maybe it's not a fault in me.
That's the assumption that I operate on anyway.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I woke with a fever again. Other than the cold symptoms and the occasional monster coughing fit, i'm okay. I slept again last night and had the strangest dreams. In one, I was younger and uncertain about what I was doing with my life so I started writing again. For the most part though, I DC jumped and I woke at one point and didn't know who I was. What the heck. I've woken before confused about the date or time or even location, but I've never not known WHO I was

I think I might go back to bed.....

Waking from dreams with irregular sleep cycles can be fucking weird.
I've experienced that before as well. Wouldn't worry much about it.

I mean I've seen characters/scenes from my dream right in front of my eyes upon waking, a couple of times for several seconds, and I'm at least mostly sane

tommo, if anyone seems like a psychpath in that story it's her. She sounds like a typical stupid teenaged bitch who doesn't give a shit about anything and used you for a while because she thought it was fun - to put it bluntly. Of course there could be another explanation. She could have some complicated reason and is pretending to hate you now, even forcing herself to really not care about you, because she has to because of her family or something... but from all the little stories it sounds like she was just manipulating you, Like a lot of teenagers (I'm pretty sure she isn't a teenager but some people develop it late or not at all), she just lacks real empathy. Empathy for her is just pretending, and she said she loved you before because she had a crush on you and enjoyed the drama on some level. That's just my opinion, if I had to take a bet, based on the limited information you've given.

Mini-rant: Last night I got drunker than I've been in a few weeks. It was the first time in a while that I've drunk without also smoking, which kind of makes me forget about alcohol. My tolerance has apparently increased to something like what it was before I ever drank semi-frequently. 2 ciders (330 mL, 7% alcohol) and I felt drunk. That would have been just enough to get me buzzed when I was drinking frequently. I think my 'addiction' to alcohol is gone. Because that wasn't fun at all and I have no desire to do it again. L4D wasn't fun either. I would have preferred to play Minecraft, but other people insisted on playing L4D. Every time I feel like it might be a bad game, it is.

Mini-rave: The new Walking Dead season (or the last half) is amazing so far. They seem to keep switching styles halfway through every season. Like at first it was just about zombie killing and survival. Then halfway through season 2 it became more drama-oriented. Then halfway through season 3 they decided the zombie plot wasn't enough and it was more about an anarchist society and human-vs-human conflicts, leaving zombies a secondary danger. Now midway through season 4, it's more about people, with a focus on moral dilemmas. And in the last few episodes they're doing it really well. Focusing on one group every episode rather than switching. The characters who were the most boring a couple season ago are now the most interesting, somehow. Like the most boring character who I thought was definitely going to die soon is now the most interesting.

I liked how Carol's still alive even though the character screamed red shirt from day one, and now they're revealing what psychological changes turned her from a red shirt to a survivor. I'm also pretty into this story-telling style and I hope it continues in this mode for a while, rather than just grouping everybody back up at Terminus in the finale.

Minor rant is that my stomach keeps bothering me when I get nervous. Stupid anxiety.

Besides that this was such a nice day, I went to the city and saw a good friend of mine after almost two years

Originally Posted by Original Poster

I liked how Carol's still alive even though the character screamed red shirt from day one, and now they're revealing what psychological changes turned her from a red shirt to a survivor. I'm also pretty into this story-telling style and I hope it continues in this mode for a while, rather than just grouping everybody back up at Terminus in the finale.

I'm glad someone else likes it. I've heard the general opinion is that the series is going downhill. To me though it's only getting better.
That's probably what will happen in the finale though, now that you mention it, it seems like something that will happen. They probably only split everyone up so that they could establish everyone's character. They created the most awkward pairings to make it interesting.

That last episode was so shocking... that little girl.... holy shit. But it's kind of realistic too. I can imagine in that situation there being some crazy person who really feels like she did.

Spoiler for Walking Dead S4 latest episode ACTUAL SPOILERS!:

And the fact that the girl had to die. Carol's psychology, how those two girls were her daughter substitutes. She felt that she failed her own daughter, and now she had to make it up by protecting those two girls as sort of a second chance. But now she's failed them too. And that's only going to make her stronger and more realistic.

I loved how the girl to the very end had no idea that killing her sister was wrong. Even when Carol took her outside, she was so upset and sorry, but it was only about putting a gun to Carol. She was still innocent and good in a way, but she still didn't understand, and that just made it easier for Carol to kill her, because she was that messed up. I honestly expected that Carol wouldn't be able to do it. That she'd put the gun down.

And Tyrese actually forgiving Carol was so fucking sad. Of course he wouldn't have forgiven her in any other situation. But they were experiencing such distress, all he could do was forgive her, because she's the only person he had left, and if he let himself be angry he'd be alone.

Everyone is doing fine I see, and still addicted to this hellish thread (not really, the most fun members gather here!)

Well today I studied a lot, I went running and someone asked me to design a tattoo concept for him which I will gladly do. I'm happy that my drawing skills are being noticed.
So there's my three good things for today.

Not sure if I mentioned but this girl pretty much turned me down, and that's fine. Not sure if there's something else... Oh right, when will the time finally come that I can kiss weed goodbye for good I wonder. For now it only has negative effects on me, I was so down today from smoking some yesterday even though my mom dropped by.

Miley's being a little bitch. She hasn't had a cigarette all day and she's lashing out at everyone else. Sorry, but I got myself 2 packs for a week. I'm not sharing. I told her to get off her butt and clean off the driveway for my husband. In about 3 hours, she'd have enough for a bag of tobacco. She starts agruing with me over that right away, saying maids do more than just sweep for 3 hours straight. I shrugged and said I didn't want to hear it then. She either wants tobacco or not. Sweep the friggin driveway or stop whining. Then she starts dropping the "f" bomb knowing I despise that word and I told her I wasn't going to talk to her anymore if she kept using that language.

Good God. It's my house. I don't care if it's not "logical" to hate a word. Don't friggin argue the point with me. My rules. Out of all my kids, Miley is the only one who can so thoroughly infuriate me over the smallest, stupidest things.



Cats needed food, so I called hubby to see if he had any older tuna we could give them until I can get to the store tomorrow. He gave us a box of crackers, 2 cans of vienna sausages (for the cats), a big can of tuna and 2 cans of soup. I wish hubby would remember there's 3 people living here So I gave my kids all the food stuff seeing how I still have my usual slim jims and mac and cheese.

I think the worst of my cough is over. I just need to focus on hydrating now. I don't think I've slept so much EVER.


I can't wait for the walking Dead to come out on Netflix. That's the only way I can watch it. So thank you for the spoiler warning, Dianeva. I'm a season behind everyone else lol
lol, Tommo. I think I'd GO insane if I ever saw my DC's outside of a dream.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I'm glad someone else likes it. I've heard the general opinion is that the series is going downhill. To me though it's only getting better.
That's probably what will happen in the finale though, now that you mention it, it seems like something that will happen. They probably only split everyone up so that they could establish everyone's character. They created the most awkward pairings to make it interesting.

That last episode was so shocking... that little girl.... holy shit. But it's kind of realistic too. I can imagine in that situation there being some crazy person who really feels like she did.

Spoiler for Walking Dead S4 latest episode ACTUAL SPOILERS!:

And the fact that the girl had to die. Carol's psychology, how those two girls were her daughter substitutes. She felt that she failed her own daughter, and now she had to make it up by protecting those two girls as sort of a second chance. But now she's failed them too. And that's only going to make her stronger and more realistic.

I loved how the girl to the very end had no idea that killing her sister was wrong. Even when Carol took her outside, she was so upset and sorry, but it was only about putting a gun to Carol. She was still innocent and good in a way, but she still didn't understand, and that just made it easier for Carol to kill her, because she was that messed up. I honestly expected that Carol wouldn't be able to do it. That she'd put the gun down.

And Tyrese actually forgiving Carol was so fucking sad. Of course he wouldn't have forgiven her in any other situation. But they were experiencing such distress, all he could do was forgive her, because she's the only person he had left, and if he let himself be angry he'd be alone.

I don't know, at first it felt like they were modeling Game of Thrones, and because Game of Thrones is doing so well and Walking Dead is AMC's top competitor, maybe they'll keep the model going. But it depends, if the lowest common denominator is lashing out, they'll probably just do what's necessary to please the mob and the focus groups. I don't understand how you could dislike this style, and I don't really find the pairings all the awkward. I mean, it appears random, sure, but...

Spoiler for Walking Dead Spoilers don't open this unless you don't like surprises:

The moment I saw Tyrese was by himself looking after three little white girls it gave me a rush of WTF and he instantly shot up to one of my most--not favorite but like, the top character I'm rooting for. And then, of course, he's Tyrese and he keeps making horrible decisions that are going to end with everybody dying. And then Carol comes back and you're just like, thank god this lil old white lady came back to save Tyrese's dumb ass.

Then with Daryl, he's always been his brother's follower, even before the outbreak. After his brother left the group, he continued as a fiercely loyal follower, and he has like two potentials, either he's alone and doing just fine, or he's following. Give him someone helpless who needs direction, and it throws him for a spin. Those two had some very interesting interactions, honestly, and their last episode together made for a good set up because she's still weak and naive enough to fall into whatever place she'll be falling into without the audience expecting her to resourcefully escape, and Daryl ended up falling in with another group of raiders just as bad as his brother was, if not worse, and he's going to have to rise above the follower position, I don't know now that Carol's watching after Tyrese and those two little white girls are dead Daryl's future feels the most worrisome.

Then regarding Glenn and that lesbian chick with Abraham and his crew, along with Maggie and those other two newbies, and Rick, Carl and Micchone, I guess it does feel kind of random. Carl's all that Rick has left and separating them would probably make Rick shoot himself, and Micchone is such a strong character if she were with Maggie it wouldn't give her a chance to showcase her own strengths. And Abraham needed a character determined and hopeful enough as Glenn to pull them into the main arc because otherwise they'd do their silly save-the-world red herring.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

tommo, if anyone seems like a psychpath in that story it's her. She sounds like a typical stupid teenaged bitch who doesn't give a shit about anything and used you for a while because she thought it was fun - to put it bluntly. Of course there could be another explanation. She could have some complicated reason and is pretending to hate you now, even forcing herself to really not care about you, because she has to because of her family or something... but from all the little stories it sounds like she was just manipulating you, Like a lot of teenagers (I'm pretty sure she isn't a teenager but some people develop it late or not at all), she just lacks real empathy. Empathy for her is just pretending, and she said she loved you before because she had a crush on you and enjoyed the drama on some level. That's just my opinion, if I had to take a bet, based on the limited information you've given.

Wow, I love you. That's exactly what I needed to hear, and I didn't know it.

You are awesome!

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Mini-rant: Last night I got drunker than I've been in a few weeks. It was the first time in a while that I've drunk without also smoking, which kind of makes me forget about alcohol. My tolerance has apparently increased to something like what it was before I ever drank semi-frequently. 2 ciders (330 mL, 7% alcohol) and I felt drunk. That would have been just enough to get me buzzed when I was drinking frequently. I think my 'addiction' to alcohol is gone. Because that wasn't fun at all and I have no desire to do it again. L4D wasn't fun either. I would have preferred to play Minecraft, but other people insisted on playing L4D. Every time I feel like it might be a bad game, it is.

Mini-rave: The new Walking Dead season (or the last half) is amazing so far. They seem to keep switching styles halfway through every season. Like at first it was just about zombie killing and survival. Then halfway through season 2 it became more drama-oriented. Then halfway through season 3 they decided the zombie plot wasn't enough and it was more about an anarchist society and human-vs-human conflicts, leaving zombies a secondary danger. Now midway through season 4, it's more about people, with a focus on moral dilemmas. And in the last few episodes they're doing it really well. Focusing on one group every episode rather than switching. The characters who were the most boring a couple season ago are now the most interesting, somehow. Like the most boring character who I thought was definitely going to die soon is now the most interesting.

Heh, I did the same. About 10 beers. It's definitely not fun anymore, and waking up dehydrated and with a headache is getting annoying.

Totally agreed on the new season of Walking Dead. It's awesome. I was getting sick of it the last couple of seasons, so much of nothing happening and scenes drawn out for no reason except to fill the time.
No we get to see deeper in to the people's personalities and past etc. which is much more interesting then lame, few minute scenes shoved in random places.

Michonne is my favourite at the moment. Darrell is cool but kinda pisses me off sometimes. Really don't care much about Rick now, and I think maybe that's part of the reason they chose to have it like this, Rick's no longer the main character.

Okay so I went to a party last night and it was pretty mental. Loads of stuff happened and it was a big deal for me.

Spoiler for Events:

I can tell you that most of us got very drunk. I was drinking so much random crap like, I ended up necking vodka at one point, I had Orange Juice with Taquilla and vodka in it from someone and sours and all kinds of really random shit. I also met loads of people, kissed three girls, 3 guys, and made out with someone I'd just met. He was sober and lovely and I hope I can see him again sometime. Mollie accidentally burnt me with her cigarette, I smoked/shared 4 of them with her. I've come home with someone else's shirt on after swapping my shirt a couple of times during the night. I stayed in Andy's back garden and I ended up doing something I really, really regret and gah. I know I can never speak of it because of the huge fallout that would happen but I just, urgh. It's a really weird situation.

Rant - sleeping outside has given me a sore face, the cold's aggrevated my eczema.

Rant - I wish I'd gotten that guy's number. He was a /really/ good kisser.

Rave - Most action I've had in months.

Rave - It was a fucking great night and I wasn't even invited. Gatecrashing like a boss.