Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

I agree, it's fascinating. From my own experience I find it a very positive sign when someone remembers something I've done, I always try to return the gesture.
Most people are just self-centered, only asking question so they can move to a topic of interest to them. It wonderful to see the contrast in people, between asking questions to make themselves feel better and asking because they care for the reply.
One thing I've noticed is that the friends who actively remember what other do are much happier and form closer bonds to their friends.

It's strange how most people will pick the direct route to satisfaction through communication by taking about themselves, while the other route will in the long term pay off.
It could be some form of friendship limitation, only those friends who want to heighten their relationship with you will take an active interest in what you do.

Looking at my "friends", I can clearly separate them into those two groups. I wish my knowledge on human interaction was greater than first-hand experience, perhaps I should read a book on the subject. Any ideas anyone?

This is an interesting way to look at it. But it makes a lot of sense. My best friend and I are always asking each other how things have been so we keep hugely up to date with what's going on with the other's life. We also share important features of our lives with other so that the bond can be strengthened by showing the trust and how we care enough to keep them involved in key points within our life and then we go back to discuss these a lot or offer opinions and when shit, inevitably, happens we offer an in depth analysis on the situation for the other's benefit.

In short, I love that girl.

hugely positive post!

Originally Posted by tommo

Jeez, I know almost nothing, and I know how wrong that is. Did he think it was an atomic bomb?

I have no bloody idea. I asked him and he replied with 'it's possible!' so, let me just sit here and, at theses guys. They're the Grammar School kids and are constantly telling me they're smarter. Turns out the sixth highest mark in the class was a D, I went and got a fucking B didn't I?! Fuck yeah! Teacher told me it was something like the second highest in the class and informed me that it was 'bloody good' instead of 'not bad' as I commented. Freaking proud. Ha. Up yours Grammar Boys. (I have nothing against you if you're from a Grammar School. I'm just sick of their superiority attitude over me simply because I'm from the comprehensive school so I couldn't possible be smart anyway and I also have a big issue with my spelling and written expression. Finally proved I deserved the place on the course now. )

Originally Posted by tommo

He likes you too. Just so you know.

I was seriously thinking about this like.... 20 minutes ago or something. I realised I remember every detail of interactions with girls I like.
I'll remember, what we said, where we were, sometimes what they were wearing (if it was different enough to notice).
I was lamenting that I don't remember everything that well.

Do you really think so? I've almost persuaded him to sit in on a writing sesh with me too. I asked for some help about what it's like firing a gun (Hehehe, I choose my methods well ) and he is fucking amazing at writing. He took the Public Services course at my school so he could become an officer in the RAF and it wasted his potential. It blew my mind. I'm still in shock now! But anyway, Digressing. We ended up talking for a while and he gave me loads of advice and help and looks like I might have a new writting assistant. Also got informed on Friday that a group of people are speculating that we're getting together which is, interesting. I'm interested by this statement...

Have some huge convergence going on at the moment. It's fascinating how it works. For those who aren't simular with the term convergence is where you change your speech, accent or written expression to fit in with a certain group of people. Rather interesting to analyse where you pick up some things from. Super interesting! ^_^

Got my hair cut this morning and my hair dresser curled it really nicely. I feel like today is going to be a good day.

Finally loosing weight too! I've started to regulate what I'm eating a little more and I exercise at the gym least twice a week (I aim for three times) whilst still playing Hockey and Horse Riding. I've lost 2 kilos (about 4.4lbs) in about a week and a half. Which is really great. I'm not even doing anything extreme but because I'm regulating my diet my blood sigar isn't bouncing around so much so I'm not putting on weight which means I'm starting to go back to my normal weight and then because I'm trying to loose weight it's dropping with more ease and less time! Success!

I have a feeling this week could be my week.

Been away for a while so idk what I missed, but lol seriously WTF kinda shit do you people smoke? Alyzarin and Tommo I have smoked a thousand joints and I've never experienced things like being able to see through my eyes *jelly*

Gj losing weight, you can do it!

Rant: Got to stop being lazy and evading my homework.

Originally Posted by woblybil

Mine just drinks out of the toilet even tho she has a dish..

I heard recently cats don't like like to drink water that's near their food. Don't know if that's true or not, it was in some stupid cat facts youtube video. But maybe it's worth looking up and trying to put the bowl somewhere else.

Okay um... I'm a little pissed. I did a stupid little ms-paint 'photoshop' of someone's cat onto the Iron Throne on reddit a few weeks ago, in a post in which someone posted a kinda funny picture of their cat looking really 'royal'. I was originally going to put the cat on a queen's lap or something but while looking for pictures of royal people I saw the iron throne and thought a cat on it might be funny. I deleted that account since then and I guess that's one of the few pictures I kept there. Now Game of Thrones has this promotion in which the real Grumpy Cat is lying on the iron throne in the exact same manner that I edited that cat doing it in. I was original and I feel I"ve been cheated and deserve recognition. Though reasonably it probably was a coincidence..... That post I made on reddit was never very popular though, unless it became popular since. And people do steal things.

Delivery:

The grumpy cat one invokes a more recognizable meme so it's all liek... you know, referential.

You know that isn't the point... lol.

When leaving my still new job, I noticed a guy left his food in the fridge from Friday, and his desk was cleared off. Having been fired previously unexpectedly, I began to get really nervous and panicked that this guy did too. The last company had someone get fired within a few weeks of my starting, and it made me think "Wow, these people fire people without hesitation." I hope the guy just abruptly quit. My job feels superfluous enough that I don't need to know they fire people that easily. I'll ask around tomorrow, but damn, there's the anxiety.

Thanks to an insightful dream from last night, I just meditated for the first time in a while. I mean I've done a couple mindful breaths here and there but I haven't sat down with a timer since I left sangha. I think the timer is necessary because it causes you to have a goal and complete that goal, so you can't get a taste of mindfulness and then call it a day or give up because your monkey mind is just being a bitch that day. Good or bad, sit down for the full length of 20 minutes. I forgot how refreshing it feels.

Tommo, yeah, the e-juice tastes REALLY bad I've never put any down the center tube on purpose so I only get little splashes every now and then. I used to blow out the excess but then I saw a youtube video where a guy simply put tissue over his e-cig and drip tip and shook it a few times. The excess goes onto the tissue and problems are solved. Seems so simple to have not thought of it myself

I had a similar dream last night. WTH? I've never dwelled on it. As you said, it was just 'one of those things'. I was very angry for several years but once i had kids of my own I gave that uncle a good verbal lashing and my anger just disappeared. He was mentally handicapped, so it was easier not to hold a grudge. I don't even remember when the abuse took place. I just know it was right after my great grams died back in 1983 or 1985. I ran away from home a few months after- around this time of year and what happened partially came out. (It wasn't the reason I ran)

with you and your foreign girls But, I guess, we can't really pick who we like. I've never really had a type, though I do tend to go for intellect more than brawn as well as quiet, mysterious people instead of the outgoing.

Wishful, grats on your grade!!!!

Dianeva, someone is stealing your thoughts That's what I was convinced of when I was a kid anyhow. I wrote 2 stories a LOT like the Labyrinth and Chucky. When I saw them as movies I was so angry

Tiresias. Hope he quit or there was a very good reason for his being fired. It must be extremely stressful, though, having such anxiety about job security!

My rant is merely having to go shopping tonight. I'm nice and comfy and don't want to venture out into the chaotic world of shoppers and drivers
I am out of Coke, though, so I should relish the opportunity to get more.

I also had a bad pain episode last night. I didn't take any ranitidine before bed because I didn't think I needed it. I woke in agony, got in a hot shower and the pain subsided until I waterboarded my tonsils and made myself dry heave (my shower ritual to try to stave off tonsil stones). The dry heaves irritated my duodenum again and by then the water was cold. I hadn't even considered that at the time but now I definitely know better!!!!!

I got 8 fairly decent hours of sleep today though........ but in doing so, I wasn't awake to call the Honda people to schedule an appointment for Wednesday. I'm at -25 miles on my oil life. I'm in dire need of an oil change.

"Deepak Chopra is the only educated philosopher that teaches what he teaches" - My mom, ladies and gentlemen. I like Chopra for bringing these ideas to her and the rest of the Oprah audience, but he seems like the children's book author positive thinking.

Ugh... more friggin bad dreams. This time about chopping up another animal in my engine I swear, THAT gave me PTSD
I also had a God-mode dream (sort of like Civ.) and a builder dream (sort of like Minecraft). The God-mode dream was nice for a change. I only lost one unit and that was my fault for getting too close. the other gods were non-aggressive for the first time EVER. The builder dream of of underground, secret passages and showing them off to friends.
In yet another dream, I was some guy smitten by a girl and I was trying to convince my friends into telling elaborate lies about themselves.
There were several, several other dreams...

Which is sort of my rant. I slept like crap. I got too hot and tossed and turned to an extreme. BUT, I did sleep. For 5 1/2 hours. And I took Ranitidine before bed so I'm pain free which is a very great bonus.
I'm now awake to call Honda HOPEFULLY, they can see me tomorrow. By then my car will be just over 100 miles past due (including the drive there).
My son has sex offender counseling tomorrow in the area. I have no idea how long I'll be waiting in the car. He'll then have it once a week for God knows how long.

The kids are no longer on Food Stamps (my daughter messed it up when she had herself removed because she got a job and changed residency). I don't know how I'm going to work the drive and the counseling fee into my budget now. I guess they'll be eating a lot of rice with sardines. They can sign up for it again, but it will be awhile before it kicks in.

BUT, my son might be moving to the area to live at a homeless shelter (they'll help him with finding a job and such. His probation officer recommended it). I'll still have to drive down there to give him $15. for the counseling, but I won't be stuck in the car for hours (?) because there's a bus.

Ugh... too many thoughts for so early in the morning. time to make some oatmeal and watch something on Hulu......

I would just like to inform you all that so far I have called all of my mock grades.

B, B, U and I predict tomorrow will bring me either a C or a B but more likely a B. Don't let me down Comms! I want a clean sweep!

Not even sorry about getting a U in English, I actually think it's hilarious as I make sure I listen to my teacher's advice and the huge difference (especially if I get that other B) shows a lot more about the subject and its teaching than my performance. Especially when someone having a B is a surprise.

I sincerely hope this makes my school improve their English department. Because girl, they suck.

Also been told to tell Andy how I regard him. Kinda tempted but at the same time don't want to ruin the friendship. Ah ultimatum thou art a heartless bitch.

Going to the doctor on Friday to see what's up with my constant headaches. Problem is the fucking needles. Been terrified of them since primary school. Like every time I hear the words "needles, needles, needles" I just want the ground to open up and swallow me.

Just... no. No, no, no. No needles! Urgh...

I have blacked out with needles a few times. There is a healthy reason to fear them.

Wishful Way to go I guess your "U"'s are like our "A"'s ?

Hope the Doctor can help, Astral. Just look away when they draw the blood and take relaxing breaths. I used to hate needles too until I got pregnant 4 times There's lots of shots to be had then!! And then I was once curious if I could draw my own blood after I had a left over syringe from vaccinating my pets... and I did with no problem at all (well, I had to use my chin and shoulder to pull the plunger which wasn't *easy* but... )

No real rant from me. I have my busy day tomorrow so I'll be ranting up a storm then. My son has decided he IS going to move into the homeless shelter. I doubt that will last very long. Because of his record, he can't get an actual bed there, but they have a "cold room" and people can crash from somewhere around 8PM- 6AM. They get fed 3 times a day and the place will help them buy clothes and whatnot if the person spends some time volunteering with the shelter.
I do need to buy him a dufflebag and he says I can just mail his counseling money to the shelter (*whew*).
Hopefully he'll make some friends, get a job and live happily ever after...

My daughter called me today and wanted me to take her to the Doctor. She has that crud that made us so sick last month. I picked her up to take her then she changed her mind and just wanted to go to the Pawn Shop (the truth came out ) I told her I don't have much gas so I was annoyed by her antics... but she was sick but there's nothing a doctor could do. She wasn't running a fever or anything. I told her to drink lots and lots and eat bland food etc. I wouldn't give her a hug when I dropped her off But I "blew" her one. I didn't want to be anywhere near that girl hehee.

My monthly visitor should've been here a few days ago. It got out of whack last month when I was sick. Was that only a month ago? I guess it's still out of whack, which is kind of annoying.

Now I'm just waiting for hubby to wake up from his nap so I can get money from him (poor hubby). The oil change will be $44., the Cabin filter is $33. and all the wiper blades will be $28. (if they only need the inserts).
I'm almost positive hubby will only give me the $44. lol He'll say we figure out the rest and do it ourselves this weekend.
I'm also going to need a very early advance just for securities sake. I put $20. in the gas tank before I ran my daughter around town. It will take at least $10-15. to get to the next town and back but I fear I'd be pushing it and I'd rather have some back up money in case I need it then be stranded somewhere.

Oh, my computer did crash once today. Maybe it wasn't MInecraft afterall...
Okay... one minor rant is that I have "Gloomy Sunday" stuck in my head (I had no idea Billie Holliday was a woman!), but the song keeps changing to "You don't own me"

**EDIT**
I do have a rant When I was out with my daughter today, I heard crap on the radio so I pressed my preset for my favorite station. my favorite station was playing the crap. I thought, 'eh, must be a bad time of day'. I checked again later, and the same crap was playing I just googled it and it's a completely different station. Some sort of talk radio. What the heck?! Now there's nothing to listen to when I'm out and about. Oldies or Country. I'm seldom in the mood for either.

Hubby might give me all the money for what my car needs.... but he was sick this evening (sounds like he has what my daughter has) and the whole time we were talking he didn't realize I was going to the dealership TOMORROW, even though I've been telling him I was going to go for over a week now. He asked if I'll be awake when he leaves for work in the morning. ugh. He's going to be truly cranky, so it's likely he'll just give me the minimum amount lol *sigh*

Bwahaha
I was checking my notes to see if it was time for more ranitidine, and I couldn't remember what the safe high dose was so I googled it and got lost in the info until I stumbled upon hallucinations as a side effect.
I've been driving myself crazy for the last several days because I keep seeing things. It's mostly just shadowy movements out of the corner of my eyes (like a mouse) but the other day I very briefly saw a man in a flannel shirt. I thought he turned down an isle but when i glanced, he wasn't there. I wrote it off as my crazy sleep schedule and not getting good sleep for the bad dreams. It very well could be med induced though.
Thought that was neat and had to share

**EDIT**
ARG! More flippin bad dreams?! In one, I was at my great-grams but the landscape was all wrong. One of my childhood friends disappeared. After looking for a while and examining sounds, I banged on the earth 3 times. My friend banged back. She had slipped through an old mining shaft. At the end of the dream, she got out okay and was fine, so there's that at least. But in the other dream I was at a hotel with two floors. Hubby was asleep downstairs and I was trying to get everything packed up to go home. I had a dog with me and he was staring at the door to the balcony, which looked somehow wrong. It was cracked a little. A bar had been sawn through. It was cracked open and I yelled outside "Stay off my friggin balcony!!!" Then the dog started barking and ran downstairs and I was filled with terror and woke hearing a dog bark.

I told myself upon waking that I don't have a dog and that it was just a bad dream. Then I went to the restroom and kitchen and ran back to my room to turn off the alarm clock on my cellphone because I heard it go off... Only, the alarm clock wasn't going off and isn't scheduled to until 6.

I woke countless times- tossing and turning from one bad dream or another and from laying on my hand too long and making it hurt

A rave is that I did have some funny dreams thrown into the mix. In the one about my friend, the dream cut out for a cellphone commercial

I read some accounts that Ranitidine can cause nightmares, but I need to look into that some more. It would make a whole lot of sense in my case. When I went up to 900 mg a day, these bad dreams started with a vengeance. My dreams are also a lot more vivid than usual (which is saying something). Like, I went to the bathroom in the dream about my friend. I could see a pee piddle on the toilet seat and was annoyed lol.

I'd also like to see if it lowers a persons threshold against allergies. My eyes are so out of whack I look high (very glossy, red, watery). But, it is that time of year.

Time for breakfast...

Originally Posted by Athylus

Been away for a while so idk what I missed, but lol seriously WTF kinda shit do you people smoke? Alyzarin and Tommo I have smoked a thousand joints and I've never experienced things like being able to see through my eyes *jelly*

Gj losing weight, you can do it!

Rant: Got to stop being lazy and evading my homework.

Lol, as I said, the best of the best. Get on my level bro!

I find with homework, the best thing for me is to have too much to do.
I slacked off throughout ALL of primary and high school, procrastinated, but rarely handed shit in late unless I forgot - I just went crazy on it the night or two before it was due.

Now in Uni, I am studying every day and night. I still need to do more, but I'll work up to it, don't wanna burn out.
I just have to do it, to keep up.
Something Lankan girl said to me when I asked if she procrastinated in Uni.... she simply said "na, we couldn't".
There was just too much to do. Made perfect sense, to me anyway.
Maybe you're not doing something you like, or there is simply not enough work.
If the latter, make more work for yourself. Set mandatory things to study (put it on a timetable or calendar) "study x today" "review for x these days" etc.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

"Deepak Chopra is the only educated philosopher that teaches what he teaches" - My mom, ladies and gentlemen. I like Chopra for bringing these ideas to her and the rest of the Oprah audience, but he seems like the children's book author positive thinking.

I felt similarly about Eckhart Tolle. I guess as you say you gotta avoid throwing the baby out with the bathwater. At the very least, these people expose others to the Eastern philosophies. Although it is sad that sometimes it muddies the waters. E.g the Buddhist countries where they praise Buddha as a god. wtf?

Kinda annoying since those people end up missing the entire point.

Rave: HOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYY..............shit.

My teacher for Chinese prac classes is beautiful. I saw her and was like "damn...." then she started talking and I was like "DAMN!" (her voice is really nice) and then she talked in Chinese and I was like "MARRY ME!". This is good though. I've always concentrated and learned better with good looking female teachers, I guess I want to impress them or something.

Minor rant: I tried to use the printers in the library today, and they said you're supposed to use your student card for printing now. So I go to the machine to put money on it, walk to the printer, and some guy comes up and says "this is yours" I was like "que?" and he said "you chose to buy a new card" I'm like ".... ohhhh ok thanks man!"

It cost two dollars for the new card, and I only had two dollars, so I couldn't even print what I need for the next class.
Why in the fuck do I need a printing card when I have a library card that acts as a printing card? The card literally does nothing. It's a piece of plastic for no reason. You scan your student card to print stuff, not the printer card. Why does it exist!!?????

Anyway, I tactfully avoided being asked for the thing I was supposed to print in the next class (some proof we did a test). Not sure how I manage to do that, but I almost always do. Even with cops and ticket inspectors on public transport etc. Guess I got good at being invisible during school. heh....

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Wishful Way to go I guess your "U"'s are like our "A"'s ?

Not quite Zhaylin. U means Ungraded. It means I failed too bad to get an F. completely and utterly done with that subject though. Could not give a shit anymore. My teacher accused me of not revising enough which is utter bullshit and everyone I've informed of that has looked at me in shock because of how much revision I did. The cause of this bad grade originates from my crappy teacher. Complaints have been put into place becuase of her. I just, I can't even begin to explain just how I could not give a shit about the subject. It's not even the bad grade, it's the fact that I've been for help multiple times this year and at parents evening my parentsd asked what I needed to do and she said I was doing well. Evidently not my dear. Evidently not.

In other news, I totally called all of my mock grades. 3 Bs and a U! I'm taking up gambling. Full house of predictions!

In other, other news, I went to go ask gym guy like, out to do something sometime and half screwed it up but he says he's going to try and make some time for us to go do something so yaay. :3

[QUOTE=tommo;2088423I felt similarly about Eckhart Tolle. I guess as you say you gotta avoid throwing the baby out with the bathwater. At the very least, these people expose others to the Eastern philosophies. Although it is sad that sometimes it muddies the waters. E.g the Buddhist countries where they praise Buddha as a god. wtf?

Kinda annoying since those people end up missing the entire point.[/QUOTE]

I really enjoyed the Eckhart Tolle book I read. At that point in my life, it had a pretty big impact for me. But a well-written book on psychology may have had to same affect. I didn't look at the book in any sort of spiritual or religious way, but rather as a sort of guide towards a healthy "mental" life.

On the other hand, my ex became a self-proclaimed Buddhist after reading it, even though the book--A New Earth, I believe it was--seldom mentioned anything about Buddhism beyond simple references. So I see what you mean...

Studying japanese is a totally aggressive beast.It mauls me at any chance possible...

Right now I'm making some mighty fine progress but it's a matter of days until I forget most of it again.
It worries me most of the time how I construct sentences.Either I sound like a 5 year old or a mentally handicapped person."Me not happy,me want food!

I have started writing a journal/diary in japanese but most of the time I don't know what to write down.Maybe because nothing really happens.

If anyone here wants to learn with me or consult my rudimentary japanese,feel free to just go ahead!

Woo! My physics grades went from 3,0 and 2,7 to 6,5 and 6,9. And besides that, my navigation grade went from 2,2 to 7,3! Back in the game mother fuckers. I'm going to do this shit, but it's still tough having to accept that you progress as a person in little steps. Wish I could just say "Fuck it, today I change" but the truth is you can't. No one can.

Originally Posted by tommo

Lol, as I said, the best of the best. Get on my level bro!

I find with homework, the best thing for me is to have too much to do.
I slacked off throughout ALL of primary and high school, procrastinated, but rarely handed shit in late unless I forgot - I just went crazy on it the night or two before it was due.

Now in Uni, I am studying every day and night. I still need to do more, but I'll work up to it, don't wanna burn out.
I just have to do it, to keep up.
Something Lankan girl said to me when I asked if she procrastinated in Uni.... she simply said "na, we couldn't".
There was just too much to do. Made perfect sense, to me anyway.
Maybe you're not doing something you like, or there is simply not enough work.
If the latter, make more work for yourself. Set mandatory things to study (put it on a timetable or calendar) "study x today" "review for x these days" etc.

In one of my 3rd year computer science classes, a graphics class, we have these huge assignments. Huge as in there are only 4 of them the whole semester, each worth 10% of our final grade (for 40% total). We have to learn this programming language called glsl, and the class doesn't even teach it so we have to figure it out, and it's hard to find online resources on this topic. The lectures are terrible too, so the whole thing is frustrating. Definitely the kind of thing you'd want to start early. Well I got 75% of the third one done in like 2 days, a couple days ago. I was so stressed in class a couple days ago because it was due at midnight and I'd have to work on the remaining part. Well the teacher polled the class with a clicker question (our school uses iclickers which let people anonymously answer polls and then the stats are displayed on the screen). The question was "how far are you along on the assignment (that was due today). Of the 45 people who voted, 4 claimed to have not started, 20% had only just looked at it, 20% had only gotten parts 1 or 1-2 done. I didn't memorize the other numbers but I think it was almost even between people who'd completed the assignment and still had the last part. That was extremely surprising because I always assumed I was the only one who procrastinated this badly.

hehehe, well I was WAY off the mark on that one, Wishful

Grats for good grades, everyone!
for those still suffering.

My rant is just that I'm very sleepy. And my lymph nodes are swollen (neck). blec.
I want to go to bed but I'll be awake by midnight if I do

A rave is that hubby paid for everything to be done with my car
But now they say I need $70. for (I think it's called) differential fluid and $650. for new tires

You seem to be sleepy most of the time, and you sleep a lot Zhaylin. What do you think causes that? I have the same thing really. I can easily sleep for 14 hours.

Urgh I have quit weed again for 10 days but I still ended up buying some and now it's been lying here in my room for the past 2 hours. I can't decide what to do, I have one lesson tomorrow and I just don't know how I feel about this whole cannabis stuff. I mean when I quit smoking the shit for 20 days, 7 days, 10 days with 1 joint in between those days I still am lazy. I thought that I had the answer to all of my problems, but I don't. Quitting smoking isn't going to solve anything, so idk what to think anymore. Everyone around me keeps telling me it's bad for me, etc. and I just want to make my own decisions and shine. I want to be the kind of person that I would look up to myself.

I have sleep apnea. 10 years ago or so when I had a sleep study done, it wasn't bad enough for treatment but I'm fairly sure it is now. I also have Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome (self diagnosed). I've always been a night owl. MAKING myself function during the day doesn't make things any better (when I bother trying to lol). I get my jolt of energy at night *shrug*
Doctors have called it anxiety, but I don't feel anxious: if I'm confronted by lots of sounds, emotions (ESPECIALLY emotions), sights etc, I fall asleep. It's uncontrolled but it's not narcolepsy. A high dose of Celexa has mostly taken care of that problem though.

Now-a-days, my sleep problems are mostly stomach related

Athylus. Are you self-medicating with weed? Are you depressed? Anxious? Those things can often manifest as a lack of motivation and stagnation. Do you enjoy doing what you're doing? If you see it as nothing more than a boring chore, that could account for the lack of motivation as well.

My rave is that I actually woke up on my own before midnight I actually had a more or less "proper" nap My dreams were vivid, with only one somewhat bad dream, so that's an added bonus as well.
I'm also raving over our silly mother cat. she gave birth on the old Master bed. One side is covered in boxes and the other is against the wall, so she had a nice, safe nitch. But for some reason, she thought moving them to the floor would be better. And not just to the floor, mind you... she's been cramming 5 babies and herself into a 24 can sized Coke box When I open a box, I only rip the edges of the hand hold. Watching her settle inside that thing is quite the sight

The babies eyes are open so they're going to start exploring soon. she probably just didn't want them falling off the bed. And she'll move them 20 more times before she settles