Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by tommo

Anju, first, what is that skype group?
Second, I get all that family stuff. If you need to talk to someone who gets it, feel free to PM me.
And congrats on the progress with your crush, that's great! And regarding talking too much and almost making a fool of yourself,
I personally find that pretty cute, and I'm sure a lot of other guys do as well, so I wouldn't worry too much about it.

Link:
http://www.dreamviews.com/general-lu...nterested.html

The DV Skype Group is where the awesome people from DV get together to...talk about...uh..stuff.

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The family situation is under control now; at least I'm not brooding over it.
Regarding the guy, I'm not investing much time, energy or emotion into it anyway. I don't need more drama in my life.

Zhaylin: I'm still having trouble understanding, do you let him take the lead because of religion or something, and not just seeing your parents treat each other the way they did? Sorry if this is too personal, it's just very different than what I've seen or experienced.

Crashyy: Glad everything went well!

Athylus: Maybe you'll see her again, who knows. And now you know, right?

My stuff: If all goes according to plan I should graduate in December, so I just don't know anymore. On one hand, finding and building a friendship that will last past graduation and moving to another city is highly unlikely. On the other hand, I'm fucking lonely and if it wasn't tearing me up before it certainly is now. It's great having an awesome husband, pretty much a buddy whenever, but I'd like someone else too, you know? Someone I can talk about my husband to, someone else I can hang out and go places with. I need a new perspective and I need variety and stimulation and non-romantic emotional comfort. So basically, should I just tough it out for the rest of the year and if something develops, great, or should I keep on trying to make friends, probably have a slightly higher chance of success because of the effort, and feel more like a failure if I...well, continue failing?

Insomnia has been super sucky lately, I've been thinking about cutting every day, I'm stressed and tired and feel like a rather pathetic excuse for a human being.

And I read The Fault In Our Stars because so many people recommended it to me, and it was totally overrated.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

Everything went great during pe

Glad to hear that!

Originally Posted by Anju

Link:
http://www.dreamviews.com/general-lu...nterested.html

The DV Skype Group is where the awesome people from DV get together to...talk about...uh..stuff.

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The family situation is under control now; at least I'm not brooding over it.
Regarding the guy, I'm not investing much time, energy or emotion into it anyway. I don't need more drama in my life.

I might possibly be interested in that too. Though I rarely go on skype with that many people at a time unless I'm drunk, and I've sort of stopped drinking completely.

Originally Posted by Athylus

Aaargh I'm such an idiot sometimes! I was on the train today and this cute girl came on and happily said hi, I said hi back and that was it. When we got off we started talking a bit but I wasn't man enough to ask her number. I mean wtf, I have the balls to start a convo and then I pussy out? I love and hate myself for it at the same time. Even if I did get rejected I'd still be happy, and now it's gnawing on me instead...

I actually kind of wish people were more like that here. I can't imagine anyone just saying hi here in public without some reason. Maybe I'd be less antisocial if everyone didn't keep to themselves.

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Spoiler for To-do lists, weather, jobs:

My cure for procrastination seems to be to-do lists. The combination of that and sunny weather. The perpetual dreariness of the other 2 seasons of the year really wears me down. I live in like the worst possible place for me because that kind of weather makes me miserable. Whenever it's sunny, I swear my happiness level increases like 10 fold. I just start seeing opportunities where I didn't before, I get motivated, life feels like it has purpose again. I can't wait to move out of this shitty overcast dreary rainy area. Oh... I went way off topic. To-do lists. I've been making them over the last couple weeks and am actually starting to learn how long to make them. I'm learning to divide everything into small tasks, each which takes < 20 mins, so everything feels a lot more do-able and I'm less inclined to procrastinate. I've found a few times that to-do lists help me. But this is the longest I've stuck with it. In the past, I've used a list, it's worked, and then I've thought I'm on a roll and don't need the list anymore... but I do, so I'm just not going to stop this time.

Even the idea of getting a job isn't quite as stressful as it was before. It seems there's got to be something... and even if there isn't, it isn't that big of a deal. Looking through jobs, the sheer number of comp sci. related jobs motivates me, and being a woman I think I have a slight boost (not that someone would hire me for something I don't deserve, but they may choose me over someone else to fill the female quota, and if it works in my favour then great). Most of the jobs are for people who have already graduated, but still, I'll have graduated within 2 years. It just reassures me that the field I chose is pretty much perfect in every way. From job listings, it looks like it would be so easy to get a job. And there's so much opportunity for non-job stuff too, like app development and stuff that I could do on my own if I wanted to try the working-for-myself thing, which I think I'm actually going to do during the summer, make a small but useful program of some sort (already have an idea). Though, actually getting a job is terrifying. There's a career fair at my school in 5 days, which I may go to. But it's easy to say I'll do that now, when it's still 5 days away. Would I actually be able to do that? It's specific to the gaming industry though. I have no idea what a career fair is like. My resume is pretty damn shitty so I'd be embarrassed about that.

Glad it worked out, Crashy.

Athylus.

I know what you mean about not needing drama, Anju! With my kids back home, I'll be getting more than enough for quite a while

NewArtemis, it was how I trained myself after being around my family. When I was 12 yo or so I started cutting as punishment ("Pavlos Dogs", I referred to it as). Making someone cry or angry was one of the worst offenses. I'd give several cuts for that. I trained myself to be the peace keeper, a passive role in any group, the counselor. I can finally voice my dislikes and disapproval but it takes a LOT out of me. And upsetting people is still my biggest trigger.
Religion-wise, I'm supposed to accept my husband as my head and all that jazz, but because of my own inclinations that's very easy for me to do. Religion didn't make me a doormat. I did that all on my own lol

for needing a friend and battling insomnia. I always want to cut more often when I skimp on sleep. Maybe that's why you want to?

My rant is that I need a nap. I've been awake since 3AM and I can stay awake no longer
A rave is that I've been playing Sims 2 and I actually managed to create a fairly nice house. I made it completely opposite how I'd prefer, but it turned out okay

Sweet dreams, DV.

May be one of the few dream related posts, but last night, I had a vivid dream where my alarm on my phone woke me at 10:19. I normally after to be at the office for 7:30. I panicked, checked other clocks since it was dark outside, then I ran into a ten-year-old version of myself which was unsettling. I woke up abruptly, and my phone was off. My wife's alarm suddenly goes off at 6:25. She had missed her other alarms too.

Just got back from the Childish Gambino concert. I am not a fan of the new album, but it was a great concert. I am WAY under on carbs and calories due to leaving right after work though. I did make a mean omelete and had a tasty chocolate chip cough dough bar from Atkin's. Fortunately, sugar alcohols do nothing bad to me.

Tommo, what's the presentation's topic? Viruses?

Bake some brownies and talk about food safety and pathogens. All your information should be easily found food serving certificates (at least in the US) require you to pass an exam on food safety. Just bake something to serve the class and make a bulletin point presentation on the procedure food servers use to prevent the spread of disease and food borne parasites.

(Finish with a joke that at least if you fail the presentation you have the knowledge to go into food handling, that'll pressure your teacher to pass you)

(Also, bake something without meat in it so when you talk about botulism and stuff people won't grow concerned of the food they're eating and lose their appetite)

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I might possibly be interested in that too. Though I rarely go on skype with that many people at a time unless I'm drunk, and I've sort of stopped drinking completely.

There are 40-50 people in the group. But there are just 4-5 talking at a time, so it's not that many!

Tiresias, I hate when that happens. I've always incorporated sounds into my dreams. When I was younger, I even slept through a fire alarm for my apartment building!

My rant is my hubby (of course ) because of all the drama the other day, he's been leaving his perimeter alarm turned on. He used to turn it off whenever he was sleeping. So now he's extra antsy.
I tried to be a motivational force for a change, so I told him we should go to Sams CLub this morning. He needs to pick some stuff up and has been talking about going there for a couple of months now. We had it planned to leave this morning at 7AM, but we'd talk at 6 o make sure we were still on track. He canceled and I told him then and there that I would be going to Exxon in a couple of hours to get a drink.

When I did, the alarm woke him back up and he called to grumble. "Why is it when I'm at work or want to do something, you sleep all day? But the day I decide to relax, you're wide awake?" Sorry bub, you can't use turn that against me. I ALWAYS tell him to feel more than free to wake my butt up if he wants to do something.

Our visitors are supposedly staying until the end of the month. They're all chipping in together with Destinee to rent a trailer at that time. My daughter thinks it's a definite, but they have to fill in an application. I don't think it's as sure a thing as she does. If I was a landlord, I'd chose an older couple over a group of kids every time.
My anxiety is going to be through the roof until they leave. They will run into my hubby sooner or later. (They cut through the neighbors yard so they don't trip the alarm, but there's clear visibility from the road and his garage.) He doesn't allow visitors, so I can't just say they dropped by for a bit. Annoying paranoia But I completely understand him. Yet I also understand needing to help others who need a temporary hand.

As long as I don't see the visitor I have plausible deniability. "I've not seen anyone staying here." I can't (easily) lie. Not outright. But I can twist my words or omit them. But I'm bound to see her over the course of a month at one point in time or another. People think I exaggerate when I say I rarely leave my room. The bathroom is about ten steps away as is the mini fridge.. If I go anywhere in the house, it's to those 2 places and I'm not out there more than a few seconds (or minutes in the case of the bathroom).

Ugh...

Originally Posted by Anju

Link:
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The DV Skype Group is where the awesome people from DV get together to...talk about...uh..stuff.

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The family situation is under control now; at least I'm not brooding over it.
Regarding the guy, I'm not investing much time, energy or emotion into it anyway. I don't need more drama in my life.

LMAO.
DV convos always turn sexual lol

Good to know it's under control. And I wish I could be more like you regarding romantic stuff. Although I am getting more like that recently.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I have no idea what a career fair is like. My resume is pretty damn shitty so I'd be embarrassed about that.

Go anyway. Even if you don't talk to a single person the entire time. Just go, with your resumes.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

Tommo, what's the presentation's topic? Viruses?

Bake some brownies and talk about food safety and pathogens. All your information should be easily found food serving certificates (at least in the US) require you to pass an exam on food safety. Just bake something to serve the class and make a bulletin point presentation on the procedure food servers use to prevent the spread of disease and food borne parasites.

(Finish with a joke that at least if you fail the presentation you have the knowledge to go into food handling, that'll pressure your teacher to pass you)

(Also, bake something without meat in it so when you talk about botulism and stuff people won't grow concerned of the food they're eating and lose their appetite)

Oh yeah lol, probably should have said what the damn topic was haha
That's a good suggestion, unfortunately it's specifically about "whether viruses are alive" or not.
So the food thing isn't really relevant. Got any ideas for that topic?

The only thing I've got is dressing like a zombie. Coz in zombie movies the characters are always conflicted as to whether that person is alive.
I guess that could be entertaining? But how in the hell do I dress like a zombie?

So yeah, any other ideas appreciated immensely.

That sounds more philosophical, are you supposed to have a position for or against and argue it?

Viruses don't follow the agreed upon qualities of life, but are evidently as alive as any other emergent evolving phenomenon. They essentially show how life and non-life are not mutually exclusive concepts separated by distinct categories. To me, the real conversation is not about whether a virus is alive, but about how viruses show, on a small level, how life is really made up of emergent feedback loops. So a virus is sort of alive, but so is a society, in that they're both emergent feedback loops which defy the qualities attributed to "living organism."

The only area to cast distinction is whether the feedback loop is positive (and increases its power/population until it can no longer sustain itself) or negative (and acts to keep its levels static and sustainable). For example, tornadoes are positive feedback loops because the warm air pressure from below continues to accelerate the tornado faster and faster until it spends all the air pressure and dissipates. You know what, wikipedia knows more than I do: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Positive_feedback , https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negative_feedback

You may not care for that, it sounds like you want something simplistic, stress free and doable, so I guess it's just my two cents. Granted, gaining a deeper understanding of emergence might help the grade. That's all life is, feedback loops of ever increasing complexity. I still say you bake some brownies.

Some of my friends are idiots.
When I was about 14/15 I didn't go to school for about two years because I had this heart disease, so that's why I had to repeat them.
A few of my friends said today 'well you're the one who's 20 years old and still in year 11'.
And it makes me feel really bad and uncomfortable.
Because it reminds me of all the bad things that has happened to me around that time.
They know it's making me feel bad, and yet they keep bringing it up every single week. I hate it so much.

And just when I thought my day couldn't get any worse.
During our lunch break, I was just sitting there along with some friends.
And I saw this guy pointing at me and he was obviously talking about me to his friends.
So I'm assuming he saw my scars the other day and told his friends.
I couldn't hear him talking, but I'm quite sure it was about me bc why else would he point to me?
I feel so bad omg, I honestly can't believe this happened.

Well atleast we have two weeks off school, so hopefully they'll forget about me during the holidays

I have a new, silly rant. Why are search engines so useless On CNN there was a story about the discovery of a Chupacabra. A supposed wild life specialist said it was likely a canine with mange. Erm... canines don't use their paws to eat with. I was thinking raccoon. But I've never seen a hairless raccoon. Other people said coatimundi. I searched for both SEPARATELY "hairless raccoon" etc. I get pages of info about coyotes, wolves and so on. No, Google, I specifically said RACCOON
I run into that problem a lot.

In other news, when I'm frustrated, I remember a Youtube my son showed me the other day "If Google was a guy" It has 2 parts and both were hilarious (though I liked the first one best)

**EDIT**
Crashy. If they purposely say things every week that make you feel bad, are they really your friends?

Someone should get me in on that Skype group..

Rant: My water bottle beat me up. No, really. I parked my car, picked up my lunch box from the passenger seat and went to get out. Lunchbox caught on the steering wheel, spun, and the edge of my water bottle (it's glass) smashed me right below the eye. It looks like someone punched me in the eye.

Rave: Overtime (more money)

Rant: Overtime (less sleep)

I feel like I need a xzibit meme. "Yo dawg I herd you like overtime. So we're giving you overtime on top of your overtime so you can work while you sleep." That was lame. But I'm going to sleep now.
Speaking of, I had weird dreams last night. I wonder if it was somehow fueled by Minecraft. I was driving on a road I normally take going into work, but cars were suddenly slowing down and stopping in front of my. Then all the cars basically disappeared and I saw a ton of cows spastically running back and forth across the road. Not even running. More like glitching, like a video game with lag or something? These cows were seriously moving. I think there were horses too. This is what happens when I go to bed without smoking/drinking before hand, apparently.

My assistant bakery manager, whom I've loved and worked with for 7 and a half years at the same company just got fired yesterday. No one knows precisely why, but me and other team members have caught our bakery manager scape-goating the asst. manager on several occasions.

For example:
Ms. M. (store manager) to Ms. C. (bakery Manager): "Where's the hamburger buns order?! That shelf is completely empty!!"
Ms. C. (bakery manager, and the one who forgot to place the order): "Oh Ms. O. (assistant bakery manager who just got fired) forgot to place the order, I'll talk to her about it."

She did it to me once (that I know of), when she took an order for custom cupcakes to be ready by 8am, but forgot that she scheduled me for 9am. So when the guest showed up at 8am and I showed up at 9am, Ms. C. was like "OMG hurry up and do this order! The guest is already here! Don't worry, I just told her that you were running late, and she's going to wait while you make them."

And another time, Ms. M. wanted us to do a demo at noon, and Ms. C. forgot to tell anyone. So when Ms. M. came back to the bakery and asked why it was past noon and there was no demo, Ms. C. said, "Oh, Ophelia must have just forgotten to do it (while winking at me, so I would take the fall), she'll get it set up right now."

She does this allllllll the time. Covering her ass, but then making it look like she'll "talk to us so it doesn't happen again." But it KEEPS happeneing over and over again because she keeps forgetting stuff and blaming others. So now WE'RE starting to get written up and fired for it, because Ms. M. is tired of hearing excuses. Why Ms. M. can't figure out where the real problem is, is beyond me.

On the upside: Now that it's happening to the whole team and not just one or 2 people, we're teamed up and filed identical complaints about her in this "Morale Survey" we do every year. The same survey that Ms. C. always says "Be nice to me on the survey! Because you know I always give you all nice raises." Well it turns out that now our labor is fucked because we all got too many raises. I'd give up my last 3 raises if it meant that this year's morale survey is taken seriously and that pathologically lying bitch gets fired for all the damage she's caused the bakery.

My final thoughts on this: Be human, make mistakes. Make TONS of mistakes. Oops and facepalm all day long. Just don't lie and say someone else did it. Glad I don't plan on staying there forever. Never put all your eggs in one basket and all that jazz.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

She does this allllllll the time. Covering her ass, but then making it look like she'll "talk to us so it doesn't happen again." But it KEEPS happeneing over and over again because she keeps forgetting stuff and blaming others. So now WE'RE starting to get written up and fired for it, because Ms. M. is tired of hearing excuses. Why Ms. M. can't figure out where the real problem is, is beyond me.

I'm glad you guys are doing the survey that way this time. Do you guys ever keep records? My sister kept getting blamed for stuff at her job when she's one of the most hardworking people I know. Anytime there was an incident, she wrote the day and time and any evidence supporting her, and kept that in a file. Same thing with apartment management and maintenance. It's helped them out a few times.

Crashyy: Jeez, I'm sorry that happens. Have you talked to them about it? If so and they continue to do it, are they really friends? In my experience, real friends only make biting jokes if they know you're cool with it. Any mean "joke" that actually hurts isn't a joke at all, it's just cruel. As for the guy pointing, do you know how many reasons there are to point at someone? Sure, it could be about your cuts. It could be mean. It could be maybe someone in his group cuts too. It could also be "That guy is good at x. Talk to him later." or "No, I want a haircut like that" or "I heard so-and-so likes so-and-so" or even "You see that thing? No, behind him. Right there." God knows how many reasons there are to point. Don't assume the worst if you don't have to.

And if they were talking about your scars or making fun, FUCK EM.

The thing about jobs, i will never put myself in a position that i will be blamed for and it was someone elses fault and i would keep quiet about it, because in the end ALL the bullshit that got stacked will go on me and i don't want to hold accountable on something that was someone else's job to do even if it was on very bad note i wouldn't take it.
I can do a supervisors shift while she is away on vacation, no problem, but doing someone's dirty and mistakable work is a no-no for me. I don't care if you are a supervisor or assistant manager i will snitch you out if you did that shit to me because i don't receive other people's garbage. Assistant managers/supervisors forget that there's someone else higher than them in the job and they aren't the highest YET in the job....they forget that name called "boss".
I couldn't have said it better myself.

Ouch!, Sefalik. Hope you beat the bottle up

Ophelia, with everyone complaining, hopefully, the owner will finally take notice. Sorry to hear about your co-worker though

Another pseudo-rant from me is that I have another weird mash up of songs stuck in my head: "Only human" and "I would do anything for love (but I won't do that)" Seriously?

I took a 4 1/2 hour nap earlier and hubby just informed me that we'll be going to Sams tomorrow. I'll be pulling an all-nighter I guess.

Another pseudo-rant is that I had a sexual dream during my nap. One of my kids were looking on while I was being discreetly felt up. I kept trying to get away from the guy (reluctantly) and didn't want to go to the bedroom because my kids would know what I was up to. When I woke up it occurred to me again that, for some strange reason, I don't like being seen as a sexual person. Or an emotional person. I'm just "me"- the recluse who keeps people at arms length but is good-hearted and helps others whenever I can.
I'll be 40 years old on the 28th. You'd think I wouldn't be shy and giggly about sex anymore Or that I would no longer care if people see me upset or over joyed.
But no. I must appear level headed and even-tempered at all times and I can never express that I have physical needs... strange.

I woke up this morning feeling really happy. I dreamt about living in Australia and I did so many amazing things like scuba diving, surfing and stuff like that.
It was such a perfect and vivid dream.

I asked my parents if we could go on holiday to Australia last year. And they said: 'Well maybe next year?'. So I really hope we're going to in December.
But why does it have to be so expensive? I think it's about 1000 euros just for one plane ticket, that's alot tbh.
I really want to move to Australia within the next 10 years. Preferably Sydney, Brisbane or the gold coast. But it seems really hard, just leaving everyone and everything behind.
Build up a life in a foreign country all by yourself, find a place to stay, get a job, make friends,.. It honestly seems impossible to me. But that's basically my dream in life.
I really don't know why I've always been so 'obsessed' with Australia. I think it's because I started watching australian soaps ever since I was a kid.
From what I can tell, the beaches are absolutely beautiful comparing to the ones in Belgium. And I really like the accents as well.
I honestly don't think this will ever happen, it just seems really difficult. English isn't even my native language. But the teacher says I'm quite good at English though.
So I really don't know. But I'll keep my hopes up high. And who knows, maybe one day I'll move to Australia

I woke up for the second time this morning and I tried to go back to sleep. But all of a sudden, my entire body was paralyzed, I was half asleep so I had no idea what
was going on. I just wanted to sleep but suddenly something pulled me out of my body, I got so terrified. So I tried to fight it. And before I knew, I was back into my body and I woke up. So if I just would've been relaxed, I'd probably have a great out-of-body experience.

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

Crashyy: Jeez, I'm sorry that happens. Have you talked to them about it? If so and they continue to do it, are they really friends? In my experience, real friends only make biting jokes if they know you're cool with it. Any mean "joke" that actually hurts isn't a joke at all, it's just cruel. As for the guy pointing, do you know how many reasons there are to point at someone? Sure, it could be about your cuts. It could be mean. It could be maybe someone in his group cuts too. It could also be "That guy is good at x. Talk to him later." or "No, I want a haircut like that" or "I heard so-and-so likes so-and-so" or even "You see that thing? No, behind him. Right there." God knows how many reasons there are to point. Don't assume the worst if you don't have to.

And if they were talking about your scars or making fun, FUCK EM.

I never talked to them about it. But I'm quite sure they know it's making me feel bad.
And they usually try to cheer me up and make me smile afterwards, it's so lame.

I know there are alot of reasons why he could've pointed at me. But during pe, the teacher put us into groups of about 15 people.
And those guys were in the same group like I was.

He seemed to be making fun of me and the others were just looking quite surprised.
So I'm almost 100% sure that they were talking about my scars. Or there's another option. Maybe they were talking about me because I felt really dizzy and sick during pe.
But if they were talking about my scars, I really hope they'll keep it to themselves. And hopefully my scars will be gone before school starts again.
And if they ever say anything to me about it, I'll just stick to the fence story. All I know is that I will never ever cut myself again.
I don't think I've ever been so nervous in my life before the past few weeks. Just trying to hide them from my friends and parents is honestly so stressful, it just isn't worth it.

So yea, apparently the me logging out issue was in fact because I was being a dunce and didn't check the "remember me" box.

Rave: I made a pizzza. Rather, I assembled a pizza and heated it up. A coworker was selling pizza kits (and other stuff) as a fundraiser for his fire company, and it's local company that makes them. I just pulled it out of the oven, so I'm pretty stoked. I haven't had pizza in a while. I don't like going to most places for pizza because it always ends up so greasy and meh. Plus for some reason, the two minutes it took my to put all the ingredients together made me feel like I actually made this pizza. So even if it does kinda suck (it just came out of the oven; it doesn't smell like it sucks), I'll still probably enjoy it for that simply gratification. Or because I'm moderately drunk, either or.

edit: first bite: success

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I never talked to them about it. But I'm quite sure they know it's making me feel bad.
And they usually try to cheer me up and make me smile afterwards, it's so lame.

Some people have the misconception that making fun of someone or bringing up an issue will get that person to change. For example: making fun of someone's weight. Some think that by laughing at a person whom is overweight--or even just constantly bringing up the subject--that person will somehow become motivated to loose weight because of said banter. But it doesn't necessarily work like that. For some people, getting laughed at may motivate them to change. But I think for most people, it only adds insult to injury.

So those people may actually care/worry about you, but don't know how to go about it saying so in a proper way. If not? Well, it's still a more positive way to look at the situation.

I'm fascinated with caves and caverns, Crashy. I could see myself living in one. Australia sounds like a much more sane and obtainable "obsession" I would like to live in one of the caverns from games like Oblivion.. it has a stream running through it and holes through the ceiling which allows some plants to grow

We went to Sams today. It was a decent trip. I even managed to get 3 hours of sleep last night... and a 4 1/2 hour nap this afternoon I even took a caffeine pill after Sams to try to push myself through the day so I could sleep tonight. No such luck. I crashed hard and slept wonderfully.

Because of someones dream the other day (Sefalik, I think), I dreamed of Minecraft last night. I was the little guy running around building things. I was making a waterfall and cavern and adding a house. But then it occurred to me that I forgot to allow cheats and wondered how I was going to add my roof
In another, non-Minecraft dream, I dreamed of zombies chasing me and about a secret room I've dreamed about since childhood.

A minor rant is that I bought a 2-pack of clearomizers 2 weeks ago. I filled the second one today but it wasn't working at all. I checked my battery, tried a different battery, but nothing. There was no air flow. I finally looked inside of it and the central tube was completely sealed shut On Wednesday I'll stop by the tobacco shop and see about getting it replaced.
A rave is that I'm using my 16 mg nicotine and I'm not smoking any more than usual (I'm still at around 3 packs a week).

**EDIT**
Stupid racist cat. I'm sure there's a logical explanation, who knows what's going on in that cats head... but I told the girls not to get too attached to the black kittens. As soon as her kittens start eating cat food, she carries the dark colored kittens away and we never see them again. Brittany (the friend) just stopped Tiny (momma cat) from taking a black kitten outside Now she and my daughter are frantically making sure all the AC vents are covered the windows are closed.
In all honesty, Tiny takes all the kittens out at around this age. She starts teaching them how to hunt and such. But the dark kittens are never seen again. I don't know if they're genetically flawed (not because they're black, lol, but because of who their father is or whatever), if she truly does have something against them, or if their darker color makes them easier prey. The dark ones also tend to be fluffier (medium- long haired) whereas she and the lighter kittens like her are all short-haired.
It's very strange.

Dear God, I think I have a new obsession! I was looking for music (the bonus CD soundtrack) from Chrono Cross on YouTube. I found another song I remember

then I saw a side link called Star Stealing Girl Synthesia and it caught my eye.

Wow! I ended up clicking another link

I don't think I've ever been mentally/emotionally aroused before watching those. Something about the colors and the way the chords light up is absolutely amazing.

**EDIT**
Very interesting. When I first watched the synch. videos, I was energized. But after about 15 more minutes of it I fell right to sleep.
Too many new sights, sounds, emotions tend to drain me and knock me right out
I was up at 6AM. Perhaps I can use the videos as a sleep aid (until I become immune to them )

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I really want to move to Australia within the next 10 years.

Wait wait...so you don't already live in Sydney?

Originally Posted by mooseantlers

Someone should get me in on that Skype group..

I can add you if you gimme your id.

Originally Posted by tommo

LMAO.
DV convos always turn sexual lol

In fact, there are 2 groups.
One is the U/PG group(no sexual convos) a.k.a. the boring group. The other is the 18+ group which I'm in.